 just being very gentle and follow what is coming and really listen to okay what is my next step what am i going to do now should i go all this to be able to know who i am in truth it's like really really feeling feeling the innocence feeling who i am feeling the joy like we were talking about this morning like i don't want to i don't want to walk with a mask anymore i want to throw it away i want to be told you everything i don't want to carry on that that heaviness and i just want to be like i want to skip but i want to sing it's like so fun is like how the singing was coming in to me it was just um yeah i was i was just playing around with it having fun i mean i was just filled with so much joy i was just i was just bursting out into these and three parts that i sent to david like after i'd experienced like oh my god it is possible that i can do it too you know and i was just bursting out with all this joy and i sent it to david and he was like sending it to all of the world and i was like oh my god you know at first like the first reaction but that was like my first release of it and then we talked about it like for over a year like singing and my fears of going ahead and do what's really most fascinating with my heart because i could feel it was there but i was so afraid of judging myself and i was singing and i was going to judge by others and all those thoughts of you know performance thing and so it's been like step by step being shown that spirit what to do with it and just ask okay okay i see that i still have an attachment to this and i need to let it go and i can use what i think it's fun you know i love the music i love the movies um it's like just that it's fun and then it's light because when you're following really your true joy like even in the form like use what the ego has made up you know that's like everything everything is like what the ego has done like what you believe in the form and the singing is that too but it could be but instead of using it as with the pride uh or judgment pride or judgment but using it like okay spirit show me just how i can do to let go of all of my beliefs and just singing i mean to use it still as the tool that be able to let go of all of the judgments of it like neither good or bad it's like not even thinking oh that sounded good you know because that's the judgment too and just coming to that realization that oh no that's not what i'm driving for whatever where i really feel is like just being at peace with it just totally relaxed with it that i don't put any charge of neither that oh that sounded good or oh no that sounded bad because it is really the same so it's been such a beautiful practice for me to um to follow the steps that the spirit has shown me and this and then be able to come out here now and and to play with it like at this tour it's just been so beautiful i'm so glad thank you