 Hey y'all, what's up? My name is Snolly. Welcome to my channel. If you guys are new and if you are, definitely hit that subscribe button And if you are already subscribed, make sure your post notifications are on so you guys don't miss a video Today, I thought I would do like to get ready with me. I'm gonna be shooting some really exciting content later today I don't remember the last time I put on an Indian outfit and the sorry room sent over like a langa And I was like so excited when they reached out I think the last time I bought an Indian outfit was for like a wedding when I was maybe in high school I honestly can't even remember but I thought this would be like oh my god this hair is just not it I thought today I could just do like a get ready with me and just be super chill Talk to you guys girl chat all of that I feel like I get questions a lot about just like my experiences being an Indian woman and growing up Indian And so I thought I could talk about a couple of those topics Well, we sit here and get ready with each other. Also, I wanted to show you guys this cute freaking mirror I got off Etsy. I've seen them in like tiktoks and stuff just like those aesthetic tiktoks So I decided that I had to have one myself if you guys are interested in it I'll leave the link in the description box, but it's super cute Um, okay, so let's get started. It's time to decide my foundation. I'm gonna be using Let's see I got a gnar's one right here. I have my trend and true Um, l'oreal, uh, what is this l'oreal Paris? Proglow. Yes, I think I'm gonna darken it Perfect. I think it was a little too bright. Um, like I said, I make it forever HD stick and then This one is amazing and honestly, I kind of want to try this one I'm not sure if it's gonna be too dark for me But we can always like lighten it up with concealer, but I freaking love this. Um, it is the airbrush flawless foundation from Uh, Charlotte Tilbury. My mind is blinking today. I'm gonna go wet my beauty blender and I'll be right back It's a little dark, but you know, we'll make it work I just really love the formula and it's perfect for like a full coverage glam look. I guess let's start off talking about I guess like growing up being indian. I feel like I really only realized that I was like different Because of the mean comments kids would say like kids are so ruthless when they're young and like they just don't have a filter And they would just say anything. So like I think I just like knew I was like Incredibly hairy like that sounds so weird But I was just so hairy growing up and I was like, what the frick like I have hair everywhere on my body and so I Started waxing when I was really really young. Um, it's getting so bright, which is good. We love the sun, but um I started waxing when I was really really young and then I Eventually got laser hair removal and thank Goodness for my parents for like allowing me to do that first of all and paying for my sessions because That shit is not cheap and I definitely want to do it again because um, especially on my mustache Like it it grows back pretty fast. I got laser hair removal everywhere. Um But it was so helpful because it lightened like the growth and I don't have to shave as often Also, this is kind of weird, but whenever I show my armpits like in my tiktoks or whatever So many people ask me like, how do I get my armpits so light? Okay, this is so weird, but Here's my armpits Um, and I'm pretty sure it was from laser hair removal Like I think it was because of that and so I think laser hair removal is so worth it It's probably more worth it if you're like older I feel like I got it in like a stage where I was still like developing I guess So I think I just need more sessions, but Also the pain level I have a Incredibly high pain tolerance because I have to start waxing and threading when I was so freaking young So I don't really think it like hurt. It was definitely like uncomfortable, especially in certain places Honestly, my favorite motto is beauty is pain. You just got to get through it Because it's something that's gonna like be so worth it in the end So yeah, I just was a very hairy kid and you know, what's funny ryan is a very hairy man too So if we ever have kids God bless our child because It's gonna be a hairy one. Speaking of my boyfriend ryan Um, I do get a lot of questions. Oh, I'm using the huda beauty tantor Uh bronzer cream and I stopped using it for a while But then I came back to it because it's just like so good and it gives you like such a defined contour I find that since I am darker skin a powder contour or a powder bronzer doesn't do shit for me And it like literally disappears in like two seconds. So this one really stays on my face But anyways, um, I have a boyfriend He is white and a lot of people always ask me like how my parents, um Reacted to that I guess a little bit about my parents. Um, my dad was born in bombay I think I get those two mixed up I want to say he was born in bombay and then he moved to vangalore So like he was raised in vangalore. I think and then um, my mom is She was born in chicago actually, but um, her family is from carola. So I'm south indian and she Actually went to boarding school because our dad died when she was really young and so She was basically raised in india and then she went to college in india where my parents met. Um, and then my Dad came back here to the states with my mom after college. Now they are divorced. Um, they got divorced My freshman year of college So that was a very interesting thing because i'm not gonna lie It was just like a weird thing to see because you don't really see divorce in the indian community very often Before that like when I was growing up my dad, I wouldn't say they were strict But I definitely thought they were stricter and then I guess maybe they were All my parents wanted was for me to do good in school and obviously I feel like that's a lot of parents. Um, but I like Felt like I can never talk about boys because I feel like that was weird. Um, I'm gonna go in with the concealer I probably should have done this first. I thought they were like a lot more strict than I guess maybe they were Um, but I always thought like education comes first and obviously like that is true I actually started dating my boyfriend my sophomore year of high school So we have been together like for eight years now And I hid my boyfriend for like a good two years before telling my parents because I felt like Okay, once I get into college like You know, that's all they wanted like that for me to go to college and get into college And just focus on my education. So like once I'm done with these stupid sat's and acts That was like the worst time of my life and honestly if that's the worst time in my life Then I'm doing pretty good. I literally hated my parents for like a whole summer because they put me in this, um, What's it called c2? It's like sat prep. It was monday through thursday 9 a.m. To like 4 p.m. My whole freaking summer I literally wanted to die every day But yeah, so basically they were like super focused on me doing well in my scores and everything like that And I'm not gonna lie like I don't think I was ever really like book smart And so I didn't really do like amazing all my sat's. I mean, I obviously got into college and I went to ucf in orlando central florida. So, um, I think I Did fine my sat's and acts. I definitely could have done better if I applied myself more But I literally hated it so much my mom found out from like another mom or like she was talking to like one of her friends And the friend said something about like oh does your daughter have a boyfriend or whatever? And then I don't know. She like was like, oh, yeah, she asked me and I was like, yeah It was like so non-talent and very anticlimactic and then um once I Went to college. I called my dad. I was like, oh, yeah, I would love for you to meet my boyfriend when I come home he was like, okay It was so anticlimactic. I was like, all right Because I I'm pretty sure they like freaking knew like, you know, I went to like homecoming and prom with this man. So um once they found out They were like fine with it. I mean now they like freaking love ryan and How can you not love ryan because he's he's just such a good person and honestly I don't know who else could put up with me So and I know my family knows that too and I'm really thankful that I didn't have to deal with anything too crazy Um, I'm gonna go on with this brow pencil. I love these like really cheap like brow pencils wet and wild There's another one from la girl. I think they're honestly so much creamier than the anastasia Beverly Hills ones I got my brows done for the first time in so long And oh my god, I felt like a new person and also I only get my brows threaded by You know My girls out hollywood beauty for sure. They're all indian or like brown You know, it's funny every time I go into a brow um place or like Cherry ends back in atlanta like an indian grocery store I feel like they're always playing like really old indian music that I know And like I don't even watch really bollywood movies anymore Which honestly that was a goal of mine to watch like one a month. I'm not doing so great But I really want to get back into that because I feel like I've just been really distant with my culture lately And I'm honestly not proud of it because I I love my culture. I just feel like I'm not surrounded by indians and that's another thing. I never in my schools like in my Elementary school middle school high school college. I was never surrounded by indian people and honestly I kind of regret like not Getting more into um bollywood dance. I did that for a couple years. I wonder if I could like insert a video I'm gonna try to see if my mom will send me one. I was like such a bad dancer. I just like never showed any facial Um expressions and I was a cheerleader actually for Quite a while And I would never smile when I cheered and then senior year my mom showed me another photo of me She took a photo of me when I was cheering and I was like so Shocked because I literally looked like I was like a dead person cheering So I started to smile and actually I have like the worst resting bitch face When you go into the indian grocery store and everything I feel like they always play like really old indian songs Is that because like there's not any good new indian music Or is it kind of like playing like living on the prayer on the radio? Like is it like that much of a classic if you guys have watched any bollywood movies recently and you think they're really really good Please comment them down below. I need all the suggestions. I can get bonus points if it's on Netflix hulu or you can just get it free anywhere. I also have amazon prime But I feel like a lot of that stuff you have to pay for um But yeah, I definitely want to get back into that because I love like bollywood music I do have like a hindi playlist on my spotify and i'll turn it on with ryan in the car sometimes And we'll just like jam out But I did make him watch those thana because you know the famous song they see girl is in that movie And I've definitely played it for him before that. We did watch ome shan the ome I don't know if it was like his first hindi movie ever But I I want to say so because of the way he reacted, but if you've watched ome shan the ome Uh charagon is in it which is literally like the biggest bollywood star ever And he is just like overacting but I never really understood Like that he was because bollywood movies are cheesy like we all know that you know But I never like Verb like heard that verbalized until ryan was like why is he like so cheesy? Why is he like over over acting but like in the movie? He's like an actor or like wanting to be an actor So he's like making it she's that was really interesting just hearing his perspective on indian movies And he doesn't love musicals like you know hairspray or like uh the greatest showman I was very curious to see if he would like like indian movies because literally they are all musicals Um, but I think he pretty much liked him But that is one of my um like things that I hate about bollywood movies because y'all know I don't like to read And you basically have to read a freaking novel when you're watching a bollywood movie If you don't understand the language, which I don't and I don't speak anything else but english I mean I took spanish and high school and college but barely remember anything and so I Have always wished I could speak hindi and like obviously you can still can you can still learn but It's just so much harder like as an adult So I downloaded a few apps like I had this one phase that I really wanted to start learning just like here and there like you know words Um, but some of the apps like it doesn't have the word written in english It has it written in the hindi language or like sand script. I think it's called I'm like, I don't even know what the word is like in english. How can I translate it like I'm just so confused So I just kind of gave up but I'm gonna use the francation palette I'm gonna go in with this color and just kind of set a base on my eyelids I feel like I'm so distracted. I don't even know what I'm doing to my face right now But hopefully it turns out good because I want it to be like super glam Not that I'm getting engaged super soon. Trust me or not But I feel like I should talk about my future wedding because I've been dreaming about it my freaking whole life So I definitely want to do something like um American Indian fusion because obviously I want my culture to be a part of it I think it's just such a beautiful culture and I don't know. I'm just so excited about it. Um, so My plan is to have a Normal like American wedding dress, but then for my reception I'll do an outfit change into the most godious Lenga and I'm gonna be like shining you could see me from space with like the beaded details I just have like a vision And I feel like it could be easy for me to like dance in you know on the dance floor And I think that would be so freaking pretty and then I also want to have like a Main the night but I kind of want that to be like my bridal shower Maybe like I'll do it like way before so I don't actually have the main the omahands With my American dress because I feel like it definitely looks so pretty when you're actually Um at a Hindu wedding, you know like um, but I don't I don't really want it for my Wedding day, but I think main the also known as henna. Um, it's just so freaking cool So I definitely want to do it with my friends and like celebrate and do like a little main the night And then speaking of religion, I'm not sure if you guys even care But my dad is hindu and my mom is catholic and I was raised catholic So I actually have been confirmed. I did like the whole nine yards, but I'm not really Super religious like I definitely still pray a lot, but I don't go to church. I don't go to mass anymore Um, but it's so funny because like my dad didn't really practice hinduism like he didn't go to the temple Um, but I feel like that's where a lot of like my favorite cultural memories came from doing like Like going to the Bali and so sometimes I would feel like I wish I was hindu. So I still had like Those those events to go to and I still could go But I honestly just don't know where to meet Indian friends that are still connected to their culture Because I feel like all the people I met aren't really super connected And maybe that's just like a generation and I just think it's so sad and I really just want to Like get back into it, but I I honestly just don't know how also every sunday my mom would take me to mass me and my sister And my dad would like be sitting on the couch watching golf and I thought that was like what hinduism was not Actually, like it was a joke. I was like, I want to be hindu so I could like Sit here and watch tv and not go to mass, you know, but I mean obviously I'm so freaking grateful for My mom taking me to church every day because I feel like that's where a lot of my morals come from And I feel like if I didn't have that foundation, I don't know who I would be today, you know So I'm really really thankful that I got that kind of experience But I also do wonder like oh, what would life be if I was hindu and I like had that kind of background You know, I feel like it would definitely be a little different. I love this glossier pro tip eyeliner I think everything about it is just perfect. So we're gonna try a wing Wish me luck in the past I've gotten a lot of questions about if I've experienced any racial hate Especially with all the asian hate crime going on right now, which is actually like so saddening And I will definitely leave some links down below for where you can donate which i'll be doing too The other day me and ryan were talking about the asian hate crimes and I told him that I never really felt like I experienced anything like that and he Said that like, you know in the malls when we would walk together in high school or college or whatever He would get stares from like older, you know white people or like just older people in general Just like kind of like eyeing us down and I don't know if it was like because you know, we were interracial Like I don't know why they were eyeing us down but like obviously They were just staring and I never knew that he literally just told me that and I thought it was very interesting because I maybe I'm just like so naive that I'm not looking at around and Maybe I don't want to you know because like what can I do about just someone staring at me and like thank god That's like the worst. It's been okay. Actually now. I'm remembering a story that I have to tell you guys Let me finish my eyeliner and then I'll tell you guys the story decided against doing wings because I'm just a little Afraid it's going to be all wonky since my eyeliner was acting up. So we're just going to stick to a normal eyeliner look okay, so me and ryan went to tubing in hell in georgia and When we were like coming back to our car on the bus This woman was like, oh my god, you have such a like beautiful complexion and I was like, oh my god Thank you. That's so sweet and she was like what what um Like ethnicity are you and I said indian and she said oh the red dot indian or the feathers indian I think I could have killed someone with the stare I gave her I could not believe that she said that and I just like stared at her I didn't even say anything and she was like. Oh, sorry. Like I didn't mean it like that. I'm like What did you mean? It's like what? And I was just like, uh, okay. Yeah. No, it's okay. Like what the heck Who in their right mind says that kind of shit also Can we talk about how I feel like everything that I have been bullied for as a kid, you know being indian being harry Uh Wearing main the is that marker on your hand? No, it's freaking henna I know if you're indian you probably definitely got that comment growing up. Um, but I feel like all that stuff is so trendy Well to be tan, I don't know if that would be like trendy But when I was young my grandpa visited us from india He brought my sister and I like bottles of fair and lovely and if you don't know what fair and lovely is It's like a lotion that bleaches your skin I don't even know how it does that but people use it in india to be more fair I actually did use it a couple of times because he was like, yeah, I use this like, you know It's it's good to be fair blah blah like and I was always always always taught to stay out of the sun And I honestly like did but you know, I did get pretty dark in the summers I just never liked my brown skin And not like my brown skin, but I liked being fair and I didn't like getting dark in the summers and So I would like cover myself in towels like at the beach every single time. Um, I remember my sorority Had a not a new member retreat but like a whole like, you know, the sorority went to a beach And I was like the only one that brought an umbrella I don't know like no one else had an umbrella everyone else was like laying out in the sun enjoying the sun and I was just like, um Like I kind of need this, you know, I ended up like blowing over So I didn't even like put it up because I could not get it up But it was kind of embarrassing because I was like the only one with like an umbrella lugging it out to the beach Also, we went through a phase where Hanna was like super trendy And I just remember so many annoying comments not even like me but kids are curious and they just like make like funny jokes That aren't so funny to me. You know, I'm just like shut up like already told you it was like Hanna, you know But they just don't understand they're like, no, that's definitely marker. You definitely do it on your hand like no I told you what I told you like it's Hanna now I love my tan because I'm so grateful that I don't have to self tan and if you guys saw my video Um over christmas holidays, I tried uh self tanning my face just to get a more even complexion And it didn't really help the unevenness It did give me like a really pretty color Which I like because sometimes my face is a lot more pale than my body I do love my tan now and like in the summer I'm just so excited to get dark because I think it's just so pretty you're like Sun kissed you like feel good you feel confident And I am really just sad that like I spent all those years wanting to be pale and I don't know And now in the winter when I do get pale, I'm like, oh shit like I feel like I need to get some sun You know, it's just funny how things change as you grow up and you really start to like embrace Everything about you and everything about your culture. Another question to get asked about um is if I experienced any racism in Greek life through my sorority and absolutely not. I never did. I will say though when I went through recruitment I was going through everyone's instagram every sororities instagram and trying to find someone my color Because I literally thought they didn't let like brown people like me in so I finally found like one black girl here One like ethnic looking girl here. She might have been hispanic or like persian or something That just gave me so much hope and now hearing girls saying like oh, it's so cool to see An indian woman on tv in this specific role because that means like I could be that one day or like I Could get a role like that one day or even seeing like a brown person as a ceo of like a crazy cool company That just gives you so much hope and I really understand that now Um since I like went through that I'm not sure about other sororities and other schools But I definitely know at UCF. I feel like Greek life as a whole is just getting so much more diverse Which is amazing. I just feel like people of color are just more comfortable going through recruitment um Because they started to see diversity and it kind of picked up and and they they got that hope that they could join To and like have a really great experience So I'm really really happy to see that and um if you guys didn't know I was pr for my sorority for like two years Honestly, that was my biggest goal was to show our diversity because we had stunning girls that never made it to the instagram I don't know why but they just never did And I was like, okay, that's weird Like they need to be on the instagram like yesterday because they're stunning. They like hold positions They like do so much for our chapter like why aren't we showing these girls? You know and then in the back of my mind obviously for recruitment when that rolled around I wanted to show other Woman of color that that we do have a woman of color in our sorority and that you know, it's not all One ethnicity. I'm so mad. I was gonna put on fake lashes But I just did my mascara fully so I guess we won't be doing that But honestly, maybe that was fake because god knew that my eyelashes were gonna like Come off the corners during my shoot So it's okay. I'll just like curl them every second of my shoot Let's talk about race in the influencer industry because I thought this was very interesting during the black lives matter movement Um, you know after that all happened. I saw so many companies really trying to use Black women um to show across their platforms, you know getting them sponsorships here and there which is amazing But also I felt as though they were like checking off a box because all this stuff just happened and I read this really good article I will try to link it down below, but I literally can't remember where it was from and I don't know where I Maybe my boss sent it to me. I'm not really even sure but anyways There was this article and it interviewed three black influencers And it was asking them like how they really felt about like the influencer industry at the peak of the BLM movement and They were like, yeah, like I mean, obviously it's great that people are starting to actually pay attention to us but also like we feel like we're just being used and Like you can take that either way being the person that's you know getting the sponsorships Like you're like, okay. Well, like, you know, let's say target reached out to me Like that's one of my dream brands to work with like how did this happen? But like they're just kind of using you to like check a box off And to be totally transparent with you guys one of my keywords on my media page like the first Cover page is like a lot of photos and just like a lot of keywords about like my brand and you know All of that kind of stuff and one of the words is women of color because I wonder if that could like Get me more sponsorships So sometimes like, you know, it's it's great to have that to make you stand out I guess but also you kind of just sit there and you're wondering like Okay, like do they actually like my content or they do they just need me to check off a box like I said So it was like really interesting to just read that article using my tried and true hula bronzer to contour my nose a bit more Sometimes I'll get messages from brown girls just saying how it's really cool for them to see an influencer Micro influencer, whatever you want to call me. Um, that's also brown and that just goes back to that feeling that you're like, wow, there's hope for me and Like I see her wearing this color So like that would look on on my skin tone and just like getting advice and inspiration on what to wear Maybe like makeup wise and everything like that. It's just really cool to hear that Um, but sometimes I feel like I need to be talking more about my culture Like sometimes I don't I feel like I don't do enough of it and it just makes me really sad I honestly wish I was more connected to my culture and I definitely need to work on that Like that's something that takes effort for sure One of my biggest fears is that if me and Ryan get married and we have kids That they won't have those same cultural experiences that I had as a child Because my dad was hindu and he was very very connected within the indian community Um, and still is to this day. Um, like I said, it's definitely going to take a lot of effort for me to even like Meet other indian people here that maybe are more connected to their culture and can like invite me to like the Bali functions And all of that I just like missed dressing up in indian clothes so much when I was growing up Obviously we went to like the Bali functions and like indian functions here and there and indians love to dance not everyone does But you know majority of them do and I was one of them that did not want to dance ever I would just like sit in the ballroom like on my phone and talking to my indian family friends, uh But I hated dancing but now that i'm like old enough I feel like it's not as embarrassing to dance around my parents like it was fun The last wedding I went to like me and my sister danced It also might have been because I had a little bit of liquid uh courage in me So that probably helped but still it was really fun and I'm just really excited for the next indian wedding I go to or just like wedding in general. Also. I did mention that I had indian family friends and uh I am still really close to a lot of them to this day like whenever I go home I try to see them and two of my indian family friends visited me Well visited their friends here, but we got to see each other like a couple times So that was really fun But when I said that I wasn't like surrounded by indian people a lot It was just like in the school system. So like seeing them every day. I didn't you know, I didn't see that before I forget Let me tell you guys what color I am and everything. So um the foundation. I was a 12 cool Freud That's what it's called and then for the concealer It was golden beige And what else? Oh, I forgot to show you guys the eyeshadow I literally use this on a daily So like I don't know this might be my everyday makeup and might be full glam to some people like I don't know But this is the one I use on the daily I'm not even sure if it's sold anymore. It's the Laura Mercier baked Like eye color and terracotta. Look how freaking pretty that is now It's time to talk about my favorite brown lip combo This is all you freaking need in your life for now until I find like the next best like lip liner, you know But okay, this is from makeup forever. It is the artist color pencil The color is limitless brown 608 So I'm just gonna line my lips. I did put half stick on before it So it might be a little bit more creamy than usual, but Gotta have those lips a little bit moisturized before doing this So just like smack that around That's what that looks like Now we're gonna go in with the dose of colors liquid lipsticks This is like one of my favorite liquid lipsticks, but the other one is uh jeffree star celebrity skin It's like a more pale pink not pink. It's like a more just pale color I don't know how to describe it, but this is like almost like a nude so this one is knock on wood and It looks like brown in the container, but it's like not brown on my lips I hate that like when you see a really good lip liner or lipstick in the store because like the packaging looks Like it would be a good color for you and then you put it on and it's like a pink like Hello, and I feel like every lipstick collection is just all pinks, you know There's like never a brown or if there is it's like a pinky brown or like a really dark brown And I just need like a good nude neutral brown, you know, I'm just gonna go Put it like just right in the middle of my lips And just smack it around Okay, how pretty is that? You can wait a minute and then it's gonna be a matte lip and just leave it matte Which is a really pretty look or you can take some gloss and top it off which I'm gonna be doing So this is the Maybelline gloss hyaluronic acid And it is in the color stone zero zero eight Looks like this it kind of looks pinky, but it's okay because it's a gloss So it's really pretty on top My makeup is done. I just have to retouch my hair. It's already been curled yesterday But just gonna retouch it. This is my final look This outfit is from the sorry room And I was actually surprised because I did take my measurements in hand clothes Like usually are actually like tailored to the person Especially if you're going to like a really special occasion like a wedding surprisingly this pretty much fit right out of the package Which is great. I actually got a medium on the skirt I took my measurements with like a tape measure So always do that highly recommend doing that if you're ever ordering online You should just always have like your measurements and your nose phone on your app So I decided to go with the medium because I knew that the lingo was going to be very very high wasted And I felt like my waist is pretty small. So I just you know went with that and then the top I'm pretty sure I got it a large what's cool about this top is that it has a zipper in the back I feel like when I was wearing out for Indian outfits, they never had zipper tops like this So I feel like that's really convenient They would always like have something like tight or like a lace that you would have to really like adjust Which it's nice to be more adjustable, but a zipper is also very convenient This is the outfit and I feel like sorry room if you like look at their brand They like to like mix and match the skirts and they're pretty affordable If you're brown, you would know that Indian outfits are so expensive when I would go to India Which was not very often all we would go and get like custom Indian outfits And we would get maybe like three at a time and we would outfit repeat because they're so expensive and also My mom and my sister was you know kind of around the same size so we could like kind of like switch around But I did get to like repurpose some of their outfits I'll put a couple pictures up of my past Indian outfits on the screen because I feel like they just need A couple minutes to shine because they were all so beautiful and just so intricate This skirt has this like floral threaded design and the top has this really nice gold beaded detail I'm so excited to shoot this look. I will share some of the photos that I took right now I hope you guys enjoyed getting to know me better and my cultural experiences I would love for you to share your experiences in the comments down below Especially if you guys had some similar experiences to mine You guys aren't following me on instagram go ahead and do so my ad name is so underscore gnarly with fg And I will see y'all in my next video. Bye