 CHAPTER XII. The grandmother was in an impatient, irritable frame of mind. Without doubt the roulette had turned her head, for she appeared to be indifferent to everything else, and, in general, seemed much distraught. For instance, she asked me no questions about objects en route, except that when a sumptuous barouche passed us and raised a cloud of dust, she lifted her hand for a moment and inquired, What was that? Yet even then she did not appear to hear my reply, although at times her abstraction was interrupted by sallies and fits of sharp, impatient fidgeting. Again, when I pointed out to her the baron and baroness Bermagel, walking to the casino, she merely looked at them in an absent-minded sort of way and said with complete indifference, Ah! Then turning sharply to Potapitch and Martha, who were walking behind us, she rapped out, Why have you attached yourselves to the party? We are not going to take you with us every time. Go home at once! Then, when the servants had pulled hasty boughs and departed, she added to me, You are all the escort I need. At the casino the grandmother seemed to be expected, for no time was lost in procuring her former place beside the croupier. It is my opinion that though croupiers seem such ordinary humdrum officials, men who care nothing whether the bank wins or loses, they are, in reality, anything but indifferent to the bank's losing, and are given instructions to attract players and to keep a watch over the bank's interests, as also that for such services these officials are awarded prizes and premiums. At all events the croupiers of Ruh-Lettenberg seemed to look upon the grandmother as their lawful prey, whereafter there befell what our party had foretold. It happened thus. As soon as ever we arrived the grandmother ordered me to stake twelve ten-golden pieces in succession upon zero. Once, twice, and thrice, I did so, yet zero never turned up. Stake again, said the old lady, with an impatient nudge of my elbow, and I obeyed. How many times have we lost, she inquired, actually grinding her teeth in her excitement? We have lost one hundred forty-four ten-golden pieces, I replied. I tell you, madame, that zero may not turn up until nightfall. Never mind, she interrupted, keep on staking upon zero. And also stake a thousand-golden upon rouge. Here is a bank note with which to do so. The red turned up, but zero missed again, and we only got our thousand-golden back. But you see, you see, whispered the old lady, we have now recovered almost all that we staked. Try zero again. Let us do so another ten times, and then leave off. By the fifth round, however, the grandmother was weary of the scheme. To the devil with that zero, she exclaimed, stake four thousand-golden upon the red. But, madame, that will be so much to venture, I remonstrated. Suppose the red should not turn up. The grandmother almost struck me in her excitement. Her agitation was rapidly making her quarrelsome. Consequently, there was nothing for it but to stake the whole four thousand-golden as she had directed. The wheel revolved while the grandmother sat as bolt upright, and with as proud and quiet a mienne as though she had not the least doubt of winning. Zero! cried the croupier. At first the old lady failed to understand the situation, but as soon as she saw the croupier raking in her four thousand-golden, together with everything else that happened to be lying on the table, and recognized that the zero which had been so long turning up, and on which we had lost nearly two hundred ten-golden pieces, had at length, as though of set purpose, made a sudden reappearance. Why the poor old lady fell to cursing it and to throwing herself about, and wailing and gesticulating at the company at large, indeed some people in our vicinity actually burst out laughing. To think that that accursed zero should have turned up now, she sobbed, the accursed thing, and it is all your fault, she added, rounding upon me in a frenzy, it was you who persuaded me to seize staking upon it. But, madame, I only explained the game to you. How am I to answer for every mischance which may occur in it? You and your mischances! she whispered threateningly. Go! Away at once! Farewell, then, madame, and I turned to depart. No! Stay! she put in hastily. Where are you going to? Why should you leave me? You fool! No! No! Stay here! It is I who was the fool. Tell me what I ought to do. I cannot take it upon myself to advise you, for you will only blame me if I do so. Play at your own discretion. Say exactly what you wish staked, and I will stake it. Very well. Stake another four thousand gulden upon the red. Take this bank note to do it with. I have still got twenty thousand rubles in actual cash. But, I whispered, such a quantity of money! Never mind. I cannot rest until I have won back my losses. Stake! I staked, and we lost. Stake again, stake again, eight thousand at a stroke. I cannot, madame. The largest stake allowed is four thousand gulden. Well, then, stake four thousand. This time we won, and the grandmother recovered herself a little. You see, you see, she exclaimed as she nudged me. Stake another four thousand. I did so, and lost. Again, and yet again, we lost. Madame, your twelve thousand gulden are now gone, at length I reported. I see they are, she replied with, as it were, the calmness of despair. I see they are. She muttered again as she gazed straight in front of her like a person lost in thought. Ah, well, I do not mean to rest until I have staked another four thousand. But you have no money with which to do it, madame. In this satchel I can see only a few five percent bonds and some transfers, no actual cash. And in the purse a mere trifle. But there is a money-changer's office here, is there not? They told me I should be able to get any sort of paper security changed. Quite so. To any amount you please. But you will lose on the transaction what would frighten even a Jew. Rubbish! I am determined to retrieve my losses. Take me away, and call those fools of bearers. I wheeled the chair out of the throng, and the bearers making their appearance we left the casino. Hurry! Hurry! commanded the grandmother. Show me the nearest way to the money-changers. Is it far? A couple of steps, madame. At the turning from the square into the avenue we came face to face with the whole of our party. The General, de Griers, mademoiselle Blanche, and her mother, only Paulina and Mr. Astley were absent. Well, well, well, exclaimed the grandmother, but we have no time to stop. What do you want? I can't talk to you here. I dropped behind a little, and immediately was pounced upon by de Griers. She has lost this morning's winnings, I whispered, and also twelve thousand goulden of her original money. At the present moment we are going to get some bonds changed. De Griers stamped his foot with vexation, and hastened to communicate the tidings to the General. Meanwhile we continued to wheel the old lady along. Stop her! Stop her! whispered the General in consternation. You had better try and stop her yourself, I returned. Also on a whisper. My good mother, he said as he approached her, my good mother, pray, let—let— His voice was beginning to tremble and sink. Let us hire a carriage, and go for a drive. Near here there is an enchanting view to be obtained. We—we—we were just coming to invite you to go and see it. Begone with you in your views, said the grandmother angrily, as she waved him away. And there are trees there, and we could have tea under them, continued the General, now in utter despair. Nous boirons du lait sur l'oeuvre fraîche. At a degree, with the snarl almost of a wild beast, du lait de l'oeuvre fraîche. The idle, the ideal of the Parisian bourgeois, his whole outlook upon la nature et la vérité. Have done with you in your milk, cried the old lady. Go and stuff yourself as much as you like, but my stomach simply recoils from the idea. What are you stopping for? I have nothing to say to you. Here we are, madame. I announced. Here is the money-changers' office. I entered to get the securities changed, while the grandmother remained outside in the porch, and the rest waited at a little distance, in doubt as to their best course of action. At length the old lady turned such an angry stare upon them that they departed along the road towards the casino. The process of changing involved complicated calculations which soon necessitated my return to the grandmother for instructions. The thieves, she exclaimed as she clapped her hands together. Never mind, though. Get the documents cached. No. Send the banker out to me, she added, as an afterthought. Would one of the clerks do, madame? Yes, one of the clerks, the thieves. The clerk consented to come out when he perceived that he was being asked for by an old lady who was too infirm to walk. After which the grandmother began to up braid him at length, and with great vehemence, for his alleged usuriasness, and to bargain with him in a mixture of Russian, French, and German, I acting as interpreter. Meanwhile, the grave faced official Eidus both and silently nodded his head. At the grandmother in particular he gazed with a curiosity which almost bordered upon rudeness. At length, too, he smiled. Pray recollect yourself, cried the old lady, and may my money choke you. Alexis Ivanovich, tell him that we can easily repair to someone else. The clerk says that others will give you even less than he. Of what the ultimate calculations consisted, I do not exactly remember, but at all events they were alarming. Receiving twelve thousand florins in gold, I took also the statement of accounts and carried it out to the grandmother. Well, well, she said, I am no accountant. Let us hurry away, hurry away. And she waved the paper aside. Neither upon that accursed zero, however, nor upon that equally accursed red do I mean to stake a cent I muttered to myself as I entered the casino. This time I did all I could to persuade the old lady to stake as little as possible, saying that a turn would come in the chances when she would be at liberty to stake more. But she was so impatient that, though at first she agreed to do as I suggested, nothing could stop her when once she had begun. By way of prelude she won stakes of a hundred and two hundred gulden. There you are, she said, as she nudged me. See what we have won. Surely it would be worth our while to stake four thousand instead of a hundred, for we might win another four thousand, and then— Oh, it was your fault before, all your fault. I felt greatly put out as I watched her play, but I decided to hold my tongue and to give her no more advice. Suddenly de Griers appeared on the scene. It seemed that all this while he and his companions had been standing beside us, though I noticed that Mme. Zellblanche had withdrawn a little from the rest and was engaged in flirting with the Prince. Clearly the general was greatly put out at this. Indeed he was in a perfect agony of vexation. But Mme. Zell was careful never to look his way, though he did his best to attract her notice, poor general. By turns his face blanched and reddened. And he was trembling to such an extent that he could scarcely follow the old lady's play. At length Mme. Zell and the Prince took their departure, and the general followed them. Madame! Madame! sounded the honeyed accents of de Griers as he lent over to whisper in the grandmother's ear. That stake will never win! No, no, it is impossible! he added in Russian with a rithe. No! No! But why not, asked the grandmother turning round. Show me what I ought to do. Instantly de Griers burst into a babble of French as he advised, jumped about, declared that such and such chances ought to be waited for, and started to make calculations of figures. All this he addressed to me in my capacity as translator, tapping the table the while with his finger and pointing hither and thither. At length he seized a pencil and began to reckon sums on paper until he had exhausted the grandmother's patience. Away with you, she interrupted. You talk sheer nonsense, for, though you keep on saying Madame, Madame, you haven't the least notion what ought to be done. Away with you, I say. Madame, could de Griers and straightway started afresh with his fussy instructions. Stake just once as he advises, the grandmother said to me, and then we shall see what we shall see. Of course his stake might win. As a matter of fact de Griers' one object was to distract the old lady from staking large sums. Wherefore he now suggested to her that she should stake upon certain numbers, singly ending groups. Consequently, in accordance with his instructions, I staked a ten-golden piece upon several odd numbers in the first twenty, and five ten-golden pieces upon certain groups of numbers, groups of from twelve to eighteen and from eighteen to twenty-four. The total stake amounted to one hundred sixty gulden. The wheel revolved. Zero cried the croupier. We had lost it all. The fool cried the old lady as she turned upon de Griers. You infernal Frenchman, to think that you should advise, away with you, though you fuss and fuss you don't even know what you're talking about. Deeply offended de Griers shrugged his shoulders, favored the grandmother with a look of contempt, and departed. For some time past he had been feeling ashamed of being seen in such company, and this had proved the last straw. An hour later we had lost everything in hand. Home! cried the grandmother. Not until we had turned into the avenue did she utter a word. But from that point onwards, until we arrived at the hotel, she kept venting exclamations of what a fool I am, what a silly old fool I am, to be sure. Arrived at the hotel, she called for tea, and then gave orders for her luggage to be packed. We are off again, she announced. But with her, madame, inquired Martha. What business is that of yours? Let the cricket stick to its hearth. The Russian form of mine, your own business. Potapitch, have everything packed, for we are returning to Moscow at once. I have fooled away fifteen thousand rubles. Fifteen thousand rubles, good mistress! My God! And Potapitch spat upon his hands, probably to show that he was ready to serve her in any way he could. Now, then, you fool, at once you begin with your weeping and wailing. Be quiet, and pack. Also, run downstairs and get my hotel bill. The next train leaves at nine-thirty, madame. I interposed with a view to checking her agitation. And what is the time now? Half past eight. How vexing! But never mind. I have not a copic left. I have but these two banknotes. Please run to the office and get them changed. Otherwise I shall have nothing to travel with. Departing on her errand, I returned half an hour later to find the whole party gathered in her rooms. It appeared that the news of her impending departure for Moscow had thrown the conspirators into consternation even greater than her losses had done. For, said they, even if her departure should save her fortune, that will become of the general later. And who is to repay de grie? Clearly mademoiselle Blanche would never consent to wait until the grandmother was dead, but would at once elope with the prince or someone else. So they had all gathered together, endeavoring to calm and dissuade the grandmother. Only Polina was absent. For her part the grandmother had nothing for the party but abuse. Away with you, you rascals! she was shouting. What have my affairs to do with you? Why, in particular, do you, here she indicated de grie, come sneaking here with your goat's beard? And what do you, here she turned to mademoiselle Blanche, want of me? What are you finicking for? De y entre, muttered mademoiselle under her breath, but her eyes were flashing. Then all at once she burst into a laugh and left the room, crying to the general as she did so, elle vivra sans an. So you have been counting upon my death, have you? Fumed the old lady. Away with you! Clear them out of the room, Alexis Ivanovic. What business is it of theirs? It is not their money that I have been squandering, but my own. The general shrugged his shoulders, bowed and withdrew, with de grie behind him. Colprescovia commanded the grandmother, and in five minutes Martha reappeared with Polina, who had been sitting with the children in her own room, having purposely determined not to leave it that day. Her face looked grave and care-worn. Prescovia began the grandmother. Is what I have just heard through a side-wind true? Namely, that this fool of a stepfather of yours is going to marry that silly whirly gig of a French woman, that actress, or something worse? Tell me, is it true? I do not know for certain, Grandmama, replied Polina, but for mademoiselle Blanche's account, for she does not appear to think it necessary to conceal anything, I conclude that you need not say any more and to erupt at the grandmother energetically. I understand the situation. I always thought we should get something like this from him, for I always looked upon him as a futile, frivolous fellow, who gave himself unconscionable heirs on the fact of his being a general, though he only became one because he retired as a colonel. Yes, I know all about the sending of the telegrams to inquire whether the old woman is likely to turn up her toes soon. Ah, they were looking for the legacies. Without money that wretched woman, what is her name? Oh, de Comigee? Would never dream of accepting the general and his false teeth. No, not even for him to be here lacky, since she herself they say possesses a pile of money, and lends it on interest and makes a good thing out of it. However, it is not you, Prescovia, that I am blaming. It was not you who sent those telegrams. Nor for that matter do I wish to recall old scores. True, I know that you are a vixen by nature, that you are a wasp which will sting one if one touches it. Yet my heart is sore for you, for I loved your mother, Catarina. Now, will you leave everything here and come away with me? Otherwise I do not know what is to become of you, and it is not right that you should continue living with these people. Nay, she interposed the moment that Polina attempted to speak. I have not yet finished. I ask of you nothing in return. My house in Moscow is as you know large enough for a palace, and you could occupy a whole floor of it, if you liked, and keep away from me for weeks together. Will you come with me, or will you not? First of all, let me ask of you, replied Polina, whether you are intending to depart at once. What? You supposed me to be jesting? I have said that I am going, and I am going. Today I have squandered fifteen thousand rubles at that accursed roulette of yours, and though five years ago I promised the people of a certain suburb of Moscow to build them a stone church in place of a wooden one, I have been fooling away my money here. However, I am going back now to build my church. But what about the waters, Grandma Ma? Surely you came here to take the waters. You and your waters do not anger me, Praskovia. Surely you are trying to. Say, then, will you or will you not come with me? Grandma Ma, Polina replied with deep feeling, I am very, very grateful to you for the shelter which you have so kindly offered me. Also, to a certain extent, you have guessed my position a right, and I am beholden to you to such an extent that it may be that I will come and live with you, and that very soon. Yet there are important reasons why I cannot make up my mind just yet. If you would let me have, say, a couple of weeks to decide in, you mean that you are not coming? I mean only that I cannot come just yet. At all events, I could not well leave my little brother and sister here, since, if I were to leave them, they would be abandoned altogether. But if, Grandma Ma, you would take the little ones and myself, then, of course, I could come with you, and would do all I could to serve you, this she said with great earnestness, only without the little ones I cannot come. Do not make a fuss, as a matter of fact Polina never at any time either fussed or wept. The great foster father, translated literally the great polterer, can find for all his chicks a place. You are not coming without the children? But see here, Prescovia, I wish you well, and nothing but well. Yet I have divined the reason why you will not come. Yes, I know all, Prescovia. That Frenchman will never bring you good of any sort. Polina colored hotly. And even I started. For, thought I to myself, every one seems to know about that affair, or perhaps I am the only one who does not know about it. Now, now, do not frown, continued the grandmother. But I do not intend to slur things over. You will take care that no harm befalls you, will you not? For you are a girl of sense, and I am sorry for you. I regard you in a different light to the rest of them. And now, please, leave me. Good-bye. But let me stay with you a little longer, said Polina. No, replied the other. You need not. Do not bother me, for you and all of them have tired me out. Yet, when Polina tried to kiss the grandmother's hand, the old lady withdrew it, and herself kissed the girl on the cheek. As she passed me, Polina gave me a momentary glance, and then, as swiftly, averted her eyes. And good-bye to you also, Alexis Ivanovich. The train starts in an hour's time, and I think that you must be weary of me. Take these five hundred gulden for yourself. I thank you humbly, madam, but I am ashamed to—'Come, come!' cried the grandmother so energetically, and with such an air of menace that I did not dare refuse the money further. If, when in Moscow, you have no place where you can lay your head, she added, come and see me, and I will give you a recommendation. Now, pot-a-pitch, get things ready. I ascended to my room, and lay down upon the bed. A whole hour I must have lain thus, with my head resting upon my hand. So the crisis had come. I needed time for its consideration. Tomorrow I would have a talk with Polina. Ah, the Frenchman! So it was true. But how could it be so? Polina and de Griers? What a combination! No, it was too improbable. Suddenly I leapt up with the idea of seeking Astley and forcing him to speak. There could be no doubt that he knew more than I did. Astley? Well, he was another problem for me to solve. Suddenly there came a knock at the door, and I opened it to find pot-a-pitch awaiting me. Sir, he said, my mistress is asking for you. Indeed! But she is just departing, is she not? The train leaves in ten minutes' time. She is uneasy, sir. She cannot rest. Come quickly, sir. Do not delay. I ran downstairs at once. The grandmother was just being carried out of her rooms into the corridor. In her hands she held a roll of bank-notes. Alexis Ivanovich, she cried, walk on ahead and we will set out again. But with her, madame! I cannot rest until I have retrieved my losses. March on ahead and ask me no questions. Play continues until midnight, does it not? For a moment I stood stupefied, stood deep in thought. But it was not long before I had made up my mind. With your leave, madame! I said, I will not go with you. And why not? What do you mean? Is everyone here a stupid good for nothing? Pardon me, but I have nothing to reproach myself with. I merely will not go. I merely intend neither to witness nor to join in your play. I also beg to return you your five hundred gulden. Farewell. Laying the money upon a little table which the grandmother's chair happened to be passing, I bowed and withdrew. What folly! the grandmother shouted after me. Very well, then! Do not come. And I will find my way alone. Potapitch, you must come with me. Lift up the chair and carry me along. I failed to find Mr. Astley and returned home. It was now growing late. It was past midnight. But I subsequently learned from Potapitch how the grandmother's day had ended. She had lost all the money which earlier in the day I had got for her paper securities. A sum amounting to about ten thousand rubles. This she did under the direction of the pole whom that afternoon she had dowered with two ten-gulden pieces. But before his arrival on the scene she had commanded Potapitch to stake for her. Until at length she had told him also to go about his business. Upon that the pole had leapt into the breach. Not only did it happen that he knew the Russian language, but also he could speak a mixture of three different dialects, so that the pair were able to understand one another. Yet the old lady never ceased to abuse him, despite his deferential manner, and to compare him unfavorably with myself. So, at all events, Potapitch declared. You, the old Chamberlain said to me, treated her as a gentleman should. But he robbed her right and left, as I could see with my own eyes. Twice she caught him at it, and rated him soundly. On one occasion she even pulled his hair so that the bystanders burst out laughing. Yet she lost everything, sir. That is to say she lost all that you had changed for her. Then we brought her home, and after asking for some water and saying her prayers she went to bed. So worn out was she, that she fell asleep at once. May God send her dreams of angels. And this is all that foreign travel has done for us. Oh, my own Moscow! For what have we not at home there, in Moscow, such a garden, and flowers as you could never see here, and fresh air and apple trees coming into blossom? And a beautiful view to look upon. Ah! But what must she do but go travelling abroad? Alak alak. Almost a month has passed since I last touched these notes, notes which I began under the influence of impressions at once poignant and disordered. The crisis which I then felt to be approaching has now arrived. But in a form a hundred times more extensive and unexpected than I had looked for. To me it all seems strange, uncouth and tragic. Certain occurrences have befallen me which border upon the marvellous. At all events that is how I view them. I view them so in one regard at least. I refer to the whirlpool of events in which at the time I was revolving. But the most curious feature of all is my relation to those events, for hitherto I had never clearly understood myself. Yet now the actual crisis has passed away like a dream. Even my passion for Polina is dead. Was it ever so strong and genuine as I thought? If so, what has become of it now? At times I fancy that I must be mad, that somewhere I am sitting in a madhouse, that these events have merely seemed to happen, that still they merely seem to be happening. I have been arranging and re-perusing my notes perhaps for the purpose of convincing myself that I am not in a madhouse. At present I am lonely and alone. Autumn is coming, already it is mellowing the leaves, and as I sit brooding in this melancholy little town, and how melancholy the little towns of Germany can be, I find myself taking no thought for the future. But living under the influence of passing moods and of my recollections of the tempest which recently drew me into its vortex, and then cast me out again. At times I seem still to be caught within that vortex. At times the tempest seems once more to be gathering, and as it passes overhead to be wrapping me in its folds until I have lost my sense of order and reality, and continue whirling and whirling and whirling around. Yet it may be that I shall be able to stop myself from revolving if once I can succeed in rendering myself an exact account of what has happened within the month just past. Somehow I feel drawn towards the pen. On many and many an evening I have had nothing else in the world to do, but curiously enough of late I have taken to amusing myself with the works of M. Paul de Coq, which I read in German translations obtained from a wretched local library. These works I cannot abide, yet I read them, and find myself marvelling that I should be doing so. Somehow I seem to be afraid of any serious book, afraid of permitting any serious preoccupation to break the spell of the passing moment. So dear to me is the formless dream of which I have spoken. So dear to me are the impressions which it has left behind it, that I fear to touch the vision with anything new, lest it should dissolve in smoke. But is it so dear to me? Yes, it is dear to me, and will ever be fresh in my recollections, even forty years hence. So let me write of it, but only partially, and in a more abridged form than my full impressions might warrant. First of all, let me conclude the history of the grandmother. Next day she lost every gulden that she possessed. Things were bound to happen so, for persons of her type who have once entered upon that road descend it with ever-increasing rapidity, even as a sledge descends a toboggan slide. All day until eight o'clock that evening did she play. And, though I personally did not witness her exploits, I learnt of them later through report. All that day Potapitch remained in attendance upon her. But the Poles who directed her play she changed more than once. As a beginning she dismissed her pole of the previous day, the pole whose hair she had pulled, and took to herself another one. But the latter proved worse even than the former, and incurred dismissal in favour of the first pole, who during the time of his unemployment had nevertheless hovered around the grandmother's chair and from time to time obtruded his head over her shoulder. At length the old lady became desperate, for the second pole, when dismissed, imitated his predecessor by declining to go away, with the result that one pole remained standing on the right of the victim, and the other on her left, from which vantage points the pair quarreled, abused each other concerning the stakes and rounds, and exchanged the epithet Ledeck, Rascal, and other Polish terms of endearment. Finally they effected a mutual reconciliation, and tossing the money about anyhow, played simply at random. Once more quarreling each of them staked money on his own side of the grandmother's chair, for instance the one pole staked upon the red and the other one upon the black, until they had so confused and browbeaten the old lady, that nearly weeping she was forced to appeal to the head croupier for protection, and to have the two poles expelled. No time was lost in this being done, despite the Rascal's cries and protestations that the old lady was in their debt, that she had cheated them, and that her general behavior had been mean and dishonorable. The same evening the unfortunate pota-pitch related the story to me with tears complaining that the two men had filled their pockets with money, he himself had seen them do it, which had been shamelessly pilfered from his mistress. For instance, one pole demanded of the grandmother fifty gulden for his trouble, and then staked the money by the side of her stake. She happened to win, whereupon he cried out that the winning stake was his, and hers the loser. As soon as the two poles had been expelled, pota-pitch left the room and reported to the authorities that the men's pockets were full of gold, and, on the grandmother also requesting the head croupier to look into the affair, the police made their appearance, and despite the protests of the poles, who indeed had been caught red-handed, their pockets were turned inside out, and the contents handed over to the grandmother. In fact, in view of the circumstance that she lost all day, the croupiers and other authorities of the casino showed her every attention, and on her fame spreading through the town, visitors of every nationality, even the most knowing of them, the most distinguished, crowded to get a glimpse of la vieille comtesse russe, tombie, and enfance, who had lost so many millions. Yet with the money which the authorities restored to her from the pockets of the poles, the grandmother effected very, very little, for there soon arrived to take his countrymen's place, a third pole, a man who could speak Russian fluently, was dressed like a gentleman, albeit in lackyish fashion, and sported a huge mustache. Though polite enough to the old lady, he took a high hand with the bystanders. In short, he offered himself less as a servant than as an entertainer. After each round he would turn to the old lady and swear terrible oaths to the effect that he was a Polish gentleman of honour who would scorn to take a copic of her money. And, though he repeated these oaths so often that at length she grew alarmed, he had her play in hand and began to win on her behalf. Wherefore, she felt that she could not well get rid of him. An hour later the two poles, who earlier in the day had been expelled from the casino, made a reappearance behind the old lady's chair, and renewed their offers of service, even if it were only to be sent on messages. But from pot to pitch I subsequently had it that between these rascals and the said gentleman of honour there passed a wink, as well as that the latter put something into their hands. Next, since the grandmother had not yet lunched, she had scarcely for a moment left her chair. One of the two poles ran to the restaurant of the casino and brought her a fence a cup of soup and afterwards some tea. In fact, both the poles hastened to perform this office. Finally, towards the close of the day when it was clear that the grandmother was about to play her last bank note, there could be seen standing behind her chair no fewer than six natives of Poland, persons who, as yet, had been neither audible nor visible. And as soon as ever the old lady played the note in question, they took no further notice of her but pushed their way past her chair to the table, seized the money and staked it, shouting and disputing the while, and arguing with the gentleman of honour, who also had forgotten the grandmother's existence as though he were there equal. Even when the grandmother had lost her all, and was returning about eight o'clock to the hotel, some three or four poles could not bring themselves to leave her but went on running beside her chair and valuably protesting that the grandmother had cheated them, and that she ought to be made to surrender what was not her own. Thus the party arrived at the hotel. Whence, presently, the gang of rascals was ejected neck and crop. According to Potipitch's calculations the grandmother lost that day a total of ninety thousand rubles, in addition to the money which she had lost the day before. Every paper security which she had brought with her, five percent bonds, internal loan-script and what not, she had changed into cash. Also, I could not but marvel at the way in which, for seven or eight hours at a stretch, she sat in that chair of hers, almost never leaving the table. Again, Potipitch told me that there were three occasions on which she really began to win. But that led on by false hopes she was unable to tear herself away at the right moment. Every gambler knows how a person may sit a day and a night at cards without ever casting a glance to right or to left. Meanwhile, that day some other very important events were passing in our hotel. As early as eleven o'clock, that is to say before the grandmother had quitted her rooms, the general and de Griers decided upon their last stroke. In other words, unlearning that the old lady had changed her mind about departing and was bent on setting out for the casino again, the whole of our gang, Polina only accepted, proceeded en masse to her rooms, for the purpose of finally and frankly treating with her. But the general, quaking and greatly apprehensive as to his possible future, overdid things. After half an hour's prayers and entreaties, coupled with the full confession of his debts and even of his passion for Mademoiselle Blanche, yes, he had quite lost his head. He suddenly adopted a tone of menace, and started to rage at the old lady, exclaiming that she was sully-y-ing the family honor, that she was making a public scandal of herself, and that she was smirching the fair name of Russia. The upshot was that the grandmother turned him out of the room with her stick. It was a real stick, too. Later in the morning he held several consultations with de Griers, the question which occupied him being, is it any way possible to make use of the police, to tell them that this respected but unfortunate old lady has gone out of her mind, and is squandering her last co-pec, or something of the kind? In short, is it in any way possible to engineer a species of supervision over or of restraint upon the old lady? De Griers, however, shrugged his shoulders at this, and laughed in the general's face, while the old warrior went on chattering valuably, and running up and down his study. Finally de Griers waved his hand, and disappeared from view, and by evening it became known that he had left the hotel after holding a very secret and important conference with mademoiselle Blanche. As for the latter, from early morning she had taken decisive measures by completely excluding the general from her presence, and bestowing upon him not a glance. Indeed, even when the general pursued her to the casino, and met her walking arm in arm with the prince, he, the general, received from her and her mother not the slightest recognition. Nor did the prince himself bow. The rest of the day mademoiselle spent in probing the prince and trying to make him declare himself. But in this she made a woeful mistake. The little incident occurred in the evening. Suddenly mademoiselle Blanche realized that the prince had not even a copper to his name, but on the contrary was minded to borrow of her money wherewith to play at roulette. In high displeasure she drove him from her presence, and shut herself up in her room. The same morning I went to see, or rather to look for, Mr. Astley, but was unsuccessful in my quest. Neither in his rooms nor in the casino nor in the park was he to be found. Nor did he that day lunch at his hotel as usual. However, at about five o'clock I got sight of him walking from the railway station to the Hotel d'Angleterre. He seemed to be in a great hurry and much preoccupied, though in his face I could discern no actual traces of worry or perturbation. He held out to me a friendly hand with his usual ejaculation of ah, but did not check his stride. I turned and walked beside him, but found somehow that his answers forbade any putting of definite questions. Moreover, I felt reluctant to speak to him of Polina, nor for his part did he ask me any questions concerning her, although on my telling him of the Grandmother's exploits he listened attentively and gravely and then shrugged his shoulders. She is gambling away everything that she has, I remarked. Indeed! She arrived at the casino even before I had taken my departure by train, so I knew she had been playing. If I should have time I will go to the casino to-night and take a look at her. The thing interests me. Where have you been today, I asked, surprised at myself for having as yet omitted to put to him that question. To Frankfurt. On business? On business. What more was there to be asked after that? I accompanied him until as we drew level with the Hotel des Quatre-Saisons, he suddenly nodded to me and disappeared. For myself, I returned home and came to the conclusion that even had I met him at two o'clock in the afternoon, I should have learnt no more from him than I had done at five o'clock, for the reason that I had no definite question to ask. It was bound to have been so. For me to formulate the query which I really wish to put was a simple impossibility. Polina spent the whole of that day either in walking about the park with the nurse and children or in sitting in her own room. For a long while past she had avoided the general and had scarcely had a word to say to him, scarcely a word I mean on any serious topic. Yes, that I had noticed. Still, even though I was aware of the position in which the general was placed, it had never occurred to me that he would have any reason to avoid her, or to trouble her with family explanations. Indeed, when I was returning to the hotel, after my conversation with Astley, and chanced to meet Polina and the children, I could see that her face was as calm as though the family disturbances had never touched her. To my salute she responded with a slight bow, and I retired to my room in a very bad humour. Of course, since the affair with the Bermagelms I had exchanged not a word with Polina, nor had with her any kind of intercourse. Yet I had been at my wit's end, for as time went on there was arising in me an ever-seething dissatisfaction. Even if she did not love me she ought not to have trampled upon my feelings, nor to have accepted my confessions with such contempt, seeing that she must have been aware that I loved her. Of her own accord she had allowed me to tell her as much. Of course the situation between us had arisen in a curious manner. About two months ago I had noticed that she had a desire to make me her friend, her confidant. That she was making trial of me for the purpose, but for some reason or another the desired result had never come about. And we had fallen into the present strange relations which had led me to address her as I had done. At the same time if my love was distasteful to her why had she not forbidden me to speak of it to her? But she had not so forbidden me. On the contrary there had been occasions when she had even invited me to speak. Of course this might have been done out of sheer wantonness, for I well knew, I had remarked it only too often, that after listening to what I had to say and angering me almost beyond endurance she loved suddenly to torture me with some fresh outburst of contempt and aloofness. Yet she must have known that I could not live without her. Three days had elapsed since the affair with the Baron, and I could bear the severance no longer. When that afternoon I met her near the casino my heart almost made me faint, it beat so violently. She too could not live without me, for had she not said that she had need of me, or had that tube been spoken in jest. That she had a secret of some kind there could be no doubt. What she had said to the grandmother had stabbed me to the heart. On a thousand occasions I had challenged her to be open with me, nor could she have been ignorant that I was ready to give my very life for her. Yet always she had kept me at a distance with that contemptuous air of hers, or else she had demanded of me in lieu of the life which I offered to lay at her feet such escapades as I had perpetrated with the Baron. Ah, was it not torture to me all this? For could it be that her whole world was bound up with the Frenchman? What too about Mr. Astley? The affair was inexplicable throughout. My God, what distress it caused me! I arrived home. I, in a fit of frenzy, indicted the following. Polina Alexandrovna, I can see that there was approaching us an exposure which will involve you too. For the last time I ask of you, have you, or have you not, any need of my life? If you have, then make such dispositions as you wish, and I shall always be discoverable in my room if required. If you have need of my life, write or send for me. I sealed the letter and dispatched it by the hand of a corridor lackey with orders to hand it to the addressee in person, though I expected no answer scarcely three minutes had elapsed before the lackey returned with the compliments of a certain person. Next about seven o'clock I was sent for by the general. I found him in his study apparently preparing to go out again, for his hat and stick were lying on the sofa. When I entered he was standing in the middle of the room, his feet wide apart, and his head bent down. Also he appeared to be talking to himself. But as soon as ever he saw me at the door he came towards me in such a curious manner that involuntarily I retreated a step and was for leaving the room. Whereupon he seized me by both hands and drawing me towards the sofa and seating himself thereon he forced me to sit down on a chair opposite to him. Then without letting go of my hands he exclaimed with quivering lips and a sparkle of tears on his eyelashes, O Alexei Ivanovich, save me! Save me! Have some mercy upon me! For a long time I could not make out what he meant, although he kept talking and talking, and constantly repeating to himself, Have mercy! Mercy! At length, however, I divined that he was expecting me to give him something in the nature of advice, or rather that deserted by everyone and overwhelmed with grief and apprehension he had bethought himself of my existence and sent for me to relieve his feelings by talking and talking and talking. In fact he was in such a confused and despondent state of mind that, clasping his hands together, he actually went down upon his knees and begged me to go to Mademoiselle Blanche, and beseech and advise her to return to him and to accept him in marriage. But general, I exclaimed, possibly Mademoiselle Blanche has scarcely even remarked my existence. What could I do with her? It was in vain that I protested, for he could understand nothing that was said to him. Next he started talking about the grandmother, but always in a disconnected sort of fashion, his one thought being to send for the police. In Russia, he said, suddenly boiling over with indignation, or in any well-ordered state where there exists a government, old women like my mother are placed under proper guardianship. Yes, my good sir, he went on, relapsing into a scolding tone as he leapt to his feet and started to pace the room. Do you not know this? He seemed to be addressing some imaginary auditor in the corner. Do you not know this that in Russia old women like her are subjected to restraint the devil take them? Again he threw himself down upon the sofa. A minute later, though sobbing and almost breathless, he managed to gasp out that Mademoiselle Blanche had refused to marry him, for the reason that the grandmother had turned up in place of a telegram, and it was therefore clear that he had no inheritance to look for. Evidently he supposed that I had hitherto been in entire ignorance of all this. Again, when I refer to Degrye, the general made a gesture of despair. He has gone away, he said, and everything which I possess is mortgaged to him. I stand stripped to my skin, even of the money which you brought me from Paris. I know not of seven hundred francs be left. Of course that sum will do to go on with. But as regards the future, I know nothing. I know nothing. Then how will you pay your hotel bill, I cried in consternation, and what shall you do afterwards? He looked at me vaguely, but it was clear that he had not understood, perhaps had not even heard my questions. Then I tried to get him to speak of Polina and the children, but he only returned brief answers of yes, yes, and again started to monder about the prince and the likelihood of the latter marrying Mademoiselle Blanche. What on earth am I to do, he concluded? What on earth am I to do? Is this not in gratitude? Is it not sheer in gratitude? And he burst into tears. Nothing could be done with such a man. Yet to leave him alone was dangerous, for something might happen to him. I withdrew from his rooms for a little while, but warned the nursemaid to keep an eye upon him, as well as exchanged a word with the corridor lackey, a very talkative fellow, who likewise promised to remain on the lookout. Hardly had I left the general when Patapitch approached me with the summons from the grandmother. It was now eight o'clock, and she had returned from the casino after finally losing all that she possessed. I found her sitting in her chair, much distressed and evidently fatigued. Presently Martha brought her a cup of tea and forced her to drink it. Yet even then I could detect in the old lady's tone and manner a great change. Good evening, Alexis Savanovitch, she said slowly, with her head drooping. Pardon me for disturbing you again. Yes, you must pardon an old, old woman like myself. For I have left behind me all that I possess, nearly a hundred thousand rubles. You did quite right in declining to come with me this evening. Now I am without money, without a single groat. But I must not delay a moment. I must leave by the nine-thirty train. I have sent for that English friend of yours, and am going to beg of him three thousand francs for a week. Please try and persuade him to think nothing of it, nor yet to refuse me, for I am still a rich woman who possesses three villages and a couple of mansions. Yes, the money shall be found, for I have not yet squandered everything. I tell you this in order that he may have no doubts about—ah!—but here he is. Clearly he is a good fellow. True enough Astley had come hot-foot on receiving the grandmother's appeal, scarcely stopping even to reflect, and with scarcely a word he counted out the three thousand francs under a note of hand which she duly signed. Then his business done he bowed, and lost no time in taking his departure. You, too, leave me, Alexis Ivanovich, said the grandmother. All my bones are aching, and I still have an hour in which to rest. Do not be hard upon me, old fool, that I am. Never again shall I blame young people for being frivolous. I should think it wrong even to blame that unhappy general of yours. Nevertheless I do not mean to let him have any of my money, which is all that he desires. For the reason that I look upon him as a perfect blockhead, and consider myself simpleton though I be, at least wiser than he is. How surely does God visit old age, and punish it for its presumption? Well, good-bye. Martha, come and lift me up. However, I had a mind to see the old lady off, and moreover I was in an expectant frame of mind. Somehow I kept thinking that something was going to happen. Wherefore, I could not rest quietly in my room, but stepped out into the corridor, and then into the Chestnut Avenue for a few minutes' stroll. My letter to Polina had been clear and firm, and in the present crisis, I felt sure, would prove final. I had heard of de Griers' departure, and however much Polina might reject me as a friend, she might not reject me altogether as a servant. She would need me to fetch and carry for her, and I was ready to do so. How could it have been otherwise? Towards the hour of the train's departure I hastened to the station, and put the grandmother into her compartment, she and her party occupying a reserved family saloon. Thanks for your disinterested assistance, she said at parting. Oh, and please remind Prescovia of what I said to her last night. I expect soon to see her. Then I returned home. As I was passing the door of the General's suite, I met the nursemaid, and inquired after her master. There is nothing new to report, sir, she replied quietly. Nevertheless I decided to enter, and was just doing so, when I halted thunderstruck on the threshold, for before me I beheld the General and Madame Azeu Blanche laughing gaily at one another, while beside them on the sofa there was seated her mother. Clearly the General was almost out of his mind with joy, for he was talking all sorts of nonsense, and bubbling over with a long-drawn, nervous laugh. A laugh which twisted his face into innumerable wrinkles, and caused his eyes almost to disappear. Afterwards I learned from Madame Azeu Blanche herself that, after dismissing the Prince and hearing of the General's tears, she bethought her of going to comfort the old man, and had just arrived for the purpose when I entered. Fortunately the poor General did not know that his fate had been decided, that Madame Azeu had long ago packed her trunks in readiness for the first morning train to Paris. Hesitating a moment on the threshold I changed my mind as to entering, and departed unnoticed. Ascending to my room and opening the door I perceived in the semi-darkness a figure seated on a chair in the corner by the window. The figure did not rise when I entered, so I approached it swiftly, peered at it closely, and felt my heart almost stop beating. The figure was Polina. CHAPTER XIV The shock made me utter an exclamation. What is the matter? What is the matter? she asked in a strange voice. She was looking pale, and her eyes were dim. What is the matter? I re-echoed. Why, the fact that you are here. If I am here, I have come with all that I have to bring, she said. Such has always been my way, as you shall presently see. Please light a candle. I did so, whereupon she rose, approached the table, and laid upon it an open letter. Read it, she added. It is de Griers handwriting, I cried as I seized the document. My hands were so tremulous that the lines on the pages danced before my eyes. Although at this distance of time I have forgotten the exact phraseology of the missive, I append, if not the precise words, at all events the general sense. Madam Moselle, the document ran. Certain untoward circumstances compel me to depart in haste. Of course you have of yourself remarked that hitherto I have always refrained from having any final explanation with you, for the reason that I could not well state the whole circumstances. And now to my difficulties the advent of the aged grandmother coupled with her subsequent proceedings has put the final touch. Also the involved state of my affairs forbids me to write with any finality concerning those hopes of ultimate bliss upon which, for a long while past I have permitted myself to feed. I regret the past, but at the same time hope that in my conduct you have never been able to detect anything that was unworthy of a gentleman and a man of honor. Having lost, however, almost the whole of my money in debts incurred by your stepfather, I find myself driven to the necessity of saving the remainder, wherefore I have instructed certain friends of mine in St. Petersburg to arrange for the sale of all the property which has been mortgaged to myself. At the same time, knowing that in addition your frivolous stepfather has squandered money which is exclusively yours, I have decided to absolve him from a certain moiety of the mortgages on his property in order that you may be in a position to recover of him what you have lost, by suing him in legal fashion. I trust, therefore, that as matters now stand, this action of mine may bring you some advantage. I trust also that this same action leaves me in the position of having fulfilled every obligation which is incumbent upon a man of honor and refinement. Rest assured that your memory will forever remain graven in my heart. All this is clear enough, I commented. Surely you did not expect ought else from him? Somehow I was feeling annoyed. I expected nothing at all from him, she replied, quietly enough to all outward seeming, yet with a note of irritation in her tone. Long ago I made up my mind on the subject, for I could read his thoughts, and knew what he was thinking. He thought that possibly I should sue him that one day I might become a nuisance. Here Polina halted for a moment and stood biting her lips. So of set purpose I redoubled my contemptuous treatment of him and waited to see what he would do. If a telegram to say that we had become legates had arrived from St. Petersburg I should have flung at him acquittance for my foolish stepfather's debts and then dismissed him. For a long time I have hated him. Even in earlier days he was not a man. And now, oh how gladly I could throw those fifty thousand rubles in his face and spit in it and then rub the spittle in. But the document returning the fifty thousand rubles mortgage, has the general got it? If so, possess yourself of it and send it to de Griers. No, no, the general has not got it. Just as I expected. Well, what is the general going to do? Then an idea suddenly occurred to me. What about the grandmother, I asked. Polina looked at me with impatience and bewilderment. What makes you speak of her, was her irritable inquiry? I cannot go and live with her. Nor, she added hotly, will I go down upon my knees to anyone. Why should you, I cried, yet to think that you should have loved de Griers, the villain, the villain, but I will kill him in a duel. Where is he now? In Frankfurt, where he will be staying for the next three days. Well, bid me do so and I will go to him by the first train to-morrow, I exclaimed with enthusiasm. She smiled. If you were to do that, she said, he would merely tell you to be so good as to first return him the fifty thousand francs. What then would be the use of having a quarrel with him? You talk sheer nonsense. I ground my teeth. The question I went on is how to raise the fifty thousand francs. We cannot expect to find them lying about on the floor. Listen. What if Mr. Astley, even as I spoke a new and strange idea formed itself in my brain. Her eyes flashed fire. What? You yourself wish me to leave you for him? She cried with a scornful look and a proud smile. Never before had she addressed me thus. Then her head must have turned dizzy with emotion, for suddenly she seated herself upon the sofa, as though she were powerless any longer to stand. A flash of lightning seemed to strike me as I stood there. I could scarcely believe my eyes or my ears. She did love me, then. It was to me, and not to Mr. Astley, that she had turned. Although she, an unprotected girl, had come to me in my room, in an hotel room, and had probably compromised herself thereby, I had not understood. Then a second mad idea flashed into my brain. Polina, I said, give me but an hour. Wait here just one hour until I return. Yes, you must do so. Do you not see what I mean? Just stay here for that time. And I rushed from the room without so much as answering her look of inquiry. She called something after me, but I did not return. Sometimes it happens that the most insane thought, the most impossible conception, will become so fixed in one's head that at length one believes the thought or the conception to be reality. Moreover, if with the thought or the conception there is combined a strong, a passionate desire, one will come to look upon the said thought or conception as something fated, inevitable, and foreordained, something bound to happen. Whether by this there is connoted something in the nature of a combination of presentiments, or a great effort of will, or a self-annulment of one's true expectations, and so on, I do not know. But at all events that night saw happen to me a night which I shall never forget, something in the nature of the miraculous. Although the occurrence can easily be explained by arithmetic, I still believe it to have been a miracle. Yet why did this conviction take such a hold upon me at the time, and remain with me ever since? Previously I had thought of the idea, not as an occurrence which was ever likely to come about, but as something which never could come about. The time was a quarter past eleven o'clock when I entered the casino in such a state of hope, though at the same time of agitation, as I had never before experienced. In the gaming rooms there were still a large number of people, but not half as many as had been present in the morning. At eleven o'clock there usually remained behind only the real, the desperate gamblers, persons for whom, at spas, there existed nothing beyond roulette, and who went thither for that alone. These game-sters took little note of what was going on around them, and were interested in none of the appurtenances of the season, but played from morning till night, and would have been ready to play through the night until dawn had had been possible. As it was they used to disperse unwillingly when at midnight roulette came to an end. Likewise, as soon as ever roulette was drawing to a close and the head croupier had called Les trois dernières coupes. Most of them were ready to stake on the last three rounds all that they had in their pockets, and for the most part lost it. For my own part I proceeded towards the table at which the grandmother had lately sat, and since the crowd around it was not very large, I soon obtained standing room among the ring of gamblers, while directly in front of me, on the green cloth, I saw marked the word PAS. PAS was a row of numbers from nineteen to thirty-six inclusive, while a row of numbers from one to eighteen inclusive was known as Monk. But what had that to do with me? I had not noticed, I had not so much as heard the numbers upon which the previous coup had fallen, and so took no bearings when I began to play, as in my place any systematic gambler would have done. No, I merely extended my stock of twenty- ten golden pieces, and threw them down upon the space PAS, which happened to be confronting me. Vendee, called the croupier, I had won. I staked upon the same again, both my original stake and my winnings. Rante-tan, called the croupier, again I had won, and was now in possession of eighty-ten golden pieces. Next I moved the whole eighty on to twelve middle numbers, a stake which if successful would bring me in a triple profit, but also involved a risk of two chances to one. The wheel revolved, and stopped at twenty-four. Upon this I was paid out-notes and gold, until I had by my side a total sum of two thousand golden. It was as in a fever that I moved the pile on block on to the red, then suddenly I came to myself, though that was the only time during the evening's play when fear cast its cold spell over me, and showed itself in a trembling of the hands and knees. For with horror I had realized that I must win, and that upon that stake there depended all my life. Rouge, called the croupier, I drew a long breath, and hot shivers when coursing over my body. I was paid out my winnings in bank notes, amounting, of course, to a total of four thousand florins, eight hundred golden. I could still calculate the amounts. After that I remember I again staked two thousand florins upon twelve middle numbers, and lost. Again I staked the whole of my gold with eight hundred golden in notes and lost. Then madness seemed to come upon me, and seizing my last two thousand florins I staked them upon twelve of the first numbers, wholly by chance, and at random, and without any sort of reckoning. Upon my doing so there followed a moment of suspense, only comparable to that which Madame Blanchard must have experienced when in Paris she was descending earthwards from a balloon. Cot! called the croupier. Once more, with the addition of my original stake, I was in possession of six thousand florins. Once more I looked around me like a conqueror. Once more I feared nothing as I threw down four thousand of these florins upon the black. The croupiers glanced around them and exchanged a few words, the bystanders murmured expectantly. The black turned up. After that I do not exactly remember either my calculations or the order of my stakings. I only remember that as in a dream I won in one round sixteen thousand florins, that in the three following rounds I lost twelve thousand, that I moved the remainder, four thousand, on to pass, though quite unconscious of what I was doing. I was merely waiting as it were mechanically and without reflection for something, and one, and that finally four times in succession I lost. Yes, I can remember raking in money by thousands, but most frequently on the twelve middle numbers, to which I constantly adhered, and which kept appearing in a sort of regular order, first three or four times running, and then after an interval of a couple of rounds in another break of three or four appearances. Sometimes this astonishing regularity manifested itself in patches, a thing to upset all the calculations of note. Taking gamblers who play with a pencil and a memorandum book in their hands, fortune perpetrates some terrible jests at roulette. Since my entry not more than half an hour could have elapsed, suddenly a croupier informed me that I had one thirty thousand florins, as well as that since the latter was the limit for which at any one time the bank could make itself responsible, roulette at that table must close for the night. Accordingly I caught up my pile of gold, stuffed it into my pocket, and grasping my sheaf of bank notes, moved to the table in an adjoining salon where a second game of roulette was in progress. The crowd followed me in a body and cleared a place for me at the table, after which I proceeded to stake as before, that is to say, at random and without calculating, what saved me from ruin I do not know. Of course there were times when fragmentary reckonings did come flashing into my brain. For instance, there were times when I attached myself for a while to certain figures and coups, though always leaving them, again before long, without knowing what I was doing. In fact, I cannot have been in possession of all my faculties, for I can remember the croupiers correcting my play more than once owing to my having made mistakes of the gravest order. My brows were damp with sweat, and my hands were shaking. Also poles came around me to proffer their services, but I heeded none of them, nor did my luck fail me now. Suddenly there arose around me a loud din of talking and laughter. Bravo! Bravo! was the general shout, and some people even clapped their hands. I had raked in thirty thousand florins, and again the bank had had to close for the night. Go away now! Go away now! a voice whispered to me on my right. The person who had spoken to me was a certain Jew of Frankfurt, a man who had been standing beside me the whole while, and occasionally helping me in my play. Yes, for God's sake, go! whispered a second voice in my left ear. Glancing around I perceived that the second voice had come from a modestly, plainly dressed lady of rather less than thirty. A woman whose face, though pale and sickly looking, bore also very evident traces of former beauty. At the moment I was stuffing the crumpled banknotes into my pockets and collecting all the gold that was left on the table. Seizing up my last note for five hundred gulden, I contrived to insinuate it, unperceived into the hand of the pale lady, and overpowering impulse had maybe do so, and I remember how her thin little fingers pressed mine in token of her lively gratitude. The whole affair was the work of a moment. Then, collecting my belongings, I crossed to where Trante Carant was being played, a game which could boast of a more aristocratic public, and was played with cards instead of with a wheel. At this diversion the bank made itself responsible for a hundred thousand tollers as the limit, but the highest stake allowable was, as in roulette, four thousand florins. Although I knew nothing of the game, and I scarcely knew the stakes except those on black and red, I joined the ring of players while the rest of the crowd masked itself around me. At this distance of time I cannot remember whether I ever give a thought to Polina. I seemed only to be conscious of a vague pleasure in seizing and raking in the bank notes, which kept massing themselves in a pile before me. But, as ever, fortune seemed to be at my back. As though of set purpose, there came to my aid a circumstance which not infrequently repeats itself in gaming, the circumstances that not infrequently luck attaches itself to, say, the red, and does not leave it for a space of, say, ten or even fifteen rounds in succession. Three days ago I had heard that, during the previous week, there had been a run of twenty-two coups on the red, an occurrence never before known at roulette. So that men spoke of it with astonishment. Naturally enough, many deserted the red after a dozen rounds, and practically no one could now be found to stake upon it. Yet upon the black also, the antithesis of the red, no experienced gambler would stake anything, for the reason that every practised player knows the meaning of capricious fortune. It is to say, after the sixteenth or so success of the red, one would think that the seventeenth coup would inevitably fall upon the black. Wherefore, novices would be apt to back the latter in the seventeenth round, and even to double or treble their stakes upon it, only in the end to lose. Yet some whim or other led me on remarking that the red had come up consecutively for seven times to attach myself to that colour. Probably this was mostly due to self-conceit, for I wanted to astonish the bystanders with the riskiness of my play. Also I remember that, oh, strange sensation, I suddenly and without any challenge from my own presumption became obsessed with a desire to take risks. If the spirit has passed through a great many sensations, possibly it can no longer be sated with them. But grows more excited, and demands more sensations and stronger and stronger ones, until at length it falls exhausted. Certainly if the rules of the game had permitted even of my staking fifty thousand florins at a time, I should have staked them. All of a sudden I heard exclamations arising that the whole thing was a marvel, since the red was turning up for the fourteenth time. Monsieur Aganya Saint-Mia Florin, a voice exclaimed beside me. I awoke to my senses. What? I had won a hundred thousand florins? If so, what more did I need to win? I grasped the bank notes, stopped them into my pockets, raked in the gold without counting it, and started to leave the casino. As I passed through the salons, people smiled to see my bulging pockets and unsteady gate, for the weight which I was carrying must have amounted to half a pood. Several hands I saw stretched out of my direction, and as I passed I filled them with all the money that I could grasp in my own. At length two Jews stopped me near the exit. You are a bold young fellow, one said, but mind you depart early tomorrow, as early as you can, for if you do not you will lose everything that you have won. But I did not heed them. The avenue was so dark that it was barely possible to distinguish one's hand before one's face, while the distance to the hotel was half a burst or so, but I feared neither pickpockets nor highwaymen. Indeed, never since my boyhood have I done that. Also, I cannot remember what I thought about on the way. I only felt a sort of fearful pleasure. The pleasure of success, of conquest, of power, how can I best express it? Likewise before me there flitted the image of Polina, and I kept remembering, and reminding myself, that it was to her I was going, that it was in her presence I should soon be standing, that it was she to whom I should soon be able to relate and show everything. Scarcely once did I recall what she had lately said to me, or the reason why I had left her, or all those varied sensations which I had been experiencing a bare hour and a half ago. No, those sensations seemed to be things of the past, to be things which had righted themselves and grown old, to be things concerning which we needed to trouble ourselves no longer, since for us life was about to begin anew. Yet I had just reached the end of the avenue, when there did come upon me a fear of being robbed or murdered, with each step the fear increased, until in my terror I almost started to run. Suddenly, as I issued from the avenue there burst upon me the lights at the hotel, sparkling with a myriad lamps. Yes, thanks be to God, I had reached home. Running up to my room I flung open the door of it. Polina was still on the sofa, with the lighted candle in front of her, and her hands clasped. As I entered she stared at me in astonishment, for at the moment I must have presented a strange spectacle. All I did, however, was to halt before her and fling upon the table my burden of wealth. CHAPTER 15 OF THE GAMBLER THE PIL OF PAPER CURRENCY OCCUPYED THE WHOLE TABLE. I could not withdraw my eyes from it. Consequently, for a moment or two, Polina escaped my mind. Then I sent myself to arrange the pile in order, and to sort the notes, and to mass the gold in a separate heap. That done, I left everything where it lay, and proceeded to pace the room with rapid strides, as I lost myself in thought. Then I darted to the table once more and began to recount the money. Until all of a sudden, as though I had remembered something, I rushed to the door, and closed and double-locked it. Finally I came to a meditative halt before my little trunk. Shall I put the money there until to-morrow? I asked, turning sharply round to Polina, as the recollection of her returned to me. She was still in her old place. Still making not a sound. Yet her eyes had followed every one of my movements. Somehow, in her face there was a strange expression, an expression which I did not like. I think that I shall not be wrong if I say that it indicated sheer hatred. Impulsively I approached her. Polina, I said, here are twenty-five thousand florins, fifty thousand francs or more. Take them, and to-morrow throw them in de Griers' face. She returned no answer. Or, if you should prefer, I continued, let me take them to him myself to-morrow. Yes, early to-morrow morning. Shall I? Then all at once she burst out laughing, and laughed for a long while. With astonishment and a feeling of offence I gazed at her. Her laughter was too like the derisive merriment which she had so often indulged in of late, merriment which had broken forth always at the time of my most passionate explanations. At length she ceased and frowned at me from under her eyebrows. I am not going to take your money, she said contemptuously. Why not, I cried. Why not, Polina? Because I am not in the habit of receiving money for nothing. But I am offering her to you as a friend in the same way I would offer you my very life. Upon this she threw me a long questioning glance, as though she were seeking to probe me to the depths. You are giving too much for me, she remarked with a smile. The beloved of de Griers is not worth fifty thousand francs. O Polina, how can you speak so, I exclaimed reproachfully. Am I de Griers? You, she cried with her eyes suddenly flashing. Why, I hate you. Yes, yes, I hate you. I love you no more than I do de Griers. Then she buried her face in her hands and relapsed into hysterics. I darted to her side. Somehow I had an intuition of something having happened to her which had nothing to do with myself. She was like a person temporarily insane. Buy me, would you? Would you? Would you buy me for fifty thousand francs as de Griers did? She gasped between her convulsive sobs. I clasped her in my arms, kissed her hands and feet, and fell upon my knees before her. Presently the hysterical fit passed away, and laying her hands upon my shoulders, she gazed for a while into my face as though trying to read it. Nothing I said to her, but it was clear that she did not hear it. Her face looked so dark and despondent that I began to fear for her reason. At length she drew me towards herself, a trustful smile playing over her features, and then as suddenly she pushed me away again as she eyed me dimly. Finally she threw herself upon me in an embrace. Do you love me? she said. Do you? You who were willing, even to quarrel with the Baron at my bidding? Then she laughed. Laughed as though something dear but laughable had recurred to her memory. Yes, she laughed and wept at the same time. What was I to do? I was like a man in a fever. I remember that she began to say something to me, though what I do not know since she spoke with a feverish lisp, as though she were trying to tell me something very quickly. At intervals too she would break off into the smile which I was beginning to dread. No, no, she kept repeating. You are my dear one. You are the man I trust. Again she laid her hands upon my shoulders, and again she gazed at me as she reiterated, You love me. You love me? Will you always love me? I could not take my eyes off her. Never before had I seen her in this mood of humility and affection. True, the mood was the outcome of hysteria, but all of a sudden she noticed my ardent gaze, and smiled slightly, the next moment for no apparent reason she began to talk of Astley. She continued talking and talking about him. But I could not make out all she said. More particularly when she was endeavoring to tell me of something or other which had happened recently. On the whole she appeared to be laughing at Astley, for she kept repeating that he was waiting for her, and did I know whether even at that moment he was not standing beneath the window? Yes, yes he is there, she said. Open the window and see if he is not. She pushed me in that direction. Yet no sooner did I make a movement to obey her behest than she burst into laughter, and I remained beside her, and she embraced me. Shall we go away to-morrow? Presently she asked, as though some disturbing thought had recurred to her recollection. How would it be if we were to try and overtake Grandmama? I think we should do so at Berlin. And what thank you she would have to say to us when we caught her up? And her eyes first lit upon us. What, too, about Mr. Astley? He would not leap from this Schleingenberg for my sake? No, of that I am very sure. And she laughed. Do you know where he is going next year? He says he intends to go to the North Pole for scientific investigations, and he is invited me to go with him. He also says that we Russians know nothing, can do nothing, without European help. But he is a good fellow all the same. For instance, he does not blame the general in the matter, but declares that Mademoiselle Blanche, that love, but no, I do not know, I do not know. She stopped suddenly as though she had set her say and was feeling bewildered. What poor creatures these people are! How sorry I am for them, and for grandmama! But when are you going to kill de Griers? Surely you do not intend, actually, to murder him. You fool! Do you suppose that I should allow you to fight de Griers? Nor shall you kill the Baron! Here she burst out laughing. How absurd you looked when you were talking to the Bermagelms! I was watching you all the time, watching you from where I was sitting, and how unwilling you were to go when I sent you. Oh, how I laughed and laughed. Then she kissed and embraced me again. Again she pressed her face to mine with tender passion, yet I neither saw nor heard her, for my head was in a whirl. It must have been about seven o'clock in the morning when I awoke. Daylight had come and Polina was sitting by my side, a strange expression on her face as though she had seen a vision and was unable to collect her thoughts. She too had just awoken, and was now staring at the money on the table. My head ached. It felt heavy. I attempted to take Polina's hand, but she pushed me from her and leapt from the sofa. The dawn was full of mist, for rain had fallen, yet she moved to the window, opened it, and, leaning her elbows upon the windowsill, thrust out her head and shoulders to take the air. In this position did she remain for several minutes, without ever looking round at me, or listening to what I was saying. Into my head there came the uneasy thought. What is to happen now? How is it all to end? Suddenly Polina rose from the window, approached the table, and, looking at me with an expression of infinite aversion, said with lips which quivered with anger. Well, are you going to hand me over my fifty thousand francs? Polina, you say that again, again, I exclaimed. You have changed your mind then. You are sore you ever promised them? On the table where the previous night I had counted the money there still was lying the packet of twenty-five thousand florins. I handed it to her. The francs are mine then, are they? They are mine, she inquired viciously, and she balanced the money in her hands. Yes, they have always been yours, I said. Then take your fifty thousand francs, and she hurled them full in my face. The packet burst as she did so, and the floor became strewed with banknotes. The instant that the deed was done she rushed from the room. At that moment she cannot have been in her right mind. Yet what was the cause of her temporary aberration I cannot say? For a month past she had been unwell. Yet what had brought about this present condition of mind, above all things, this outburst? Had it come of wounded pride? Had it come of despair over her decision to come to me? Had it come of the fact that presuming too much of my good fortune I had seemed to be intending to desert her, even as de Griers had done, when once I had given her the fifty thousand francs? But on my honour I had never cherished any such intention. What was at fault, I think, was her own pride, which kept urging her not to trust me, but rather to insult me. Even though she had not realised the fact. In her eyes I corresponded to de Griers, and therefore had been condemned for a fault not wholly my own. Her mood of late had been a sort of delirium, a sort of light-headedness, that I knew full well. Yet never had I sufficiently taken it into consideration. Perhaps she would not pardon me now? Ah, but this was the present. What about the future? Her delirium and sickness were not likely to make her forget what she had done in bringing me de Griers' letter. No, she must have known what she was doing when she brought it. Somehow I contrived to stuff the pile of notes and gold under the bed, to cover them over, and then to leave the room some ten minutes after Polina. I felt sure that she had returned to her own room. Wherefore I intended quietly to follow her, and to ask the nursemaid Aide, who opened the door, how her mistress was. Judge therefore of my surprise when meeting the domestic on the stairs, she informed me that Polina had not yet returned, and that she, the domestic, was at that moment on her way to my room in quest of her. Madam Zell left me but ten minutes ago, I said. What can have become of her? The nursemaid looked at me reproachfully. Already sundry rumours were flying about the hotel, both in the office of the comissionaire, and in that of the landlord, it was whispered that at seven o'clock that morning the Fraulein had left the hotel, and set off, despite the rain, in the direction of the Hotel d'Angleterre. From words and hints let fall I could see that the fact that Polina having spent the night in my room was now public property. Also, sundry rumours were circulating concerning the general's family affairs. It was known that last night he had gone out of his mind and paraded the hotel in tears, also that the old lady who had arrived was his mother, and that she had come from Russia on purpose to forbid her son's marriage with mademoiselle de comigée, as well as to cut him out of her will if he should disobey her. Also that because he had disobeyed her, she had squandered all her money at Roulette in order to have nothing more to leave to him. O, these Russians exclaimed the landlord with an angry toss of the head, while the bystanders laughed and the clerk be took himself to his accounts. Also, everyone had learnt about my winnings. Carl, the corridor lackey, was the first to congratulate me. But with these folk I had nothing to do. My business was to set off at full speed to the Hotel d'Angleterre. As yet it was early for Mr. Astley to receive visitors. But as soon as he learnt that it was I who had arrived he came out into the corridor to meet me, and stood looking at me in silence with his steel-grey eyes as he waited to hear what I had to say. I inquired after Polina. "'She is ill,' he replied, still looking at me with his direct unwavering gaze. "'And she is in your rooms.' "'Yes, she is in my rooms.' "'Then you are minded to keep her there?' "'Yes, I am minded to keep her there.' "'But Mr. Astley, that will raise a scandal. It ought not to be allowed. Besides, she is very ill. Perhaps you had not remarked that?' "'Yes, I have. It was I who told you about it. Had she not been ill she would not have gone and spent the night with you.' "'Then you know all about it?' "'Yes. For last night she was to have accompanied me to the house of a relative of mine. Unfortunately, being ill she made a mistake and went to your rooms instead.' "'Indeed. Then I wish you joy, Mr. Astley.' "'Apropos, you have reminded me of something. Were you beneath my window last night? Every moment Mademoiselle Polina kept telling me to open the window and see if you were there, after which she always smiled.' "'Indeed. No, I was not there, but I was waiting in the corridor and walking about the hotel.' "'She ought to see a doctor, you know, Mr. Astley. Yes, she ought. I have sent for one, and if she dies I shall hold you responsible.' "'This surprised me. Pardon me,' I replied, but what do you mean? "'Never mind. Tell me if it is true that last night you won two hundred thousand tallars. No, I want a hundred thousand Florence. Good heavens! Then I suppose you will be off to Paris this morning?' "'Why?' "'Because all Russians, who have grown rich, go to Paris,' explained Astley, as though he had read the fact in a book. "'But what could I do in Paris in summer time?' "'I love her, Mr. Astley. Surely you know that.' "'Indeed. I am sure that you do not. Moreover, if you were to stay here you would lose everything that you possess and have nothing left with which to pay your expenses in Paris.' "'Well, good-bye now. I feel sure that today we'll see you gone from here.' "'Good-bye. But I am not going to Paris. Likewise, pardon me, what is to become of this family? I mean that the affair of the general and Mademoiselle Polina will soon be all over the town.' "'I dare say. Yet I hardly suppose that it will break the general's heart. Moreover, Mademoiselle Polina has a perfect right to live where she chooses. In short, we may say that, as a family, this family has ceased to exist. I departed and found myself smiling at the Englishman's strange assurance that I should soon be leaving for Paris. I suppose he means to shoot me in a duel. Should Polina die? Yes, that is what he intends to do.' "'Now, although I was honestly sorry for Polina, it is a fact that from the moment when the previous night I had approached the gaming-table and begun to rake in the packets of banknotes, my love for her had entered upon a new plane. Yes, I can say that now, although at the time I was barely conscious of it. Was I then, at heart, a gambler? Did I, after all, love Polina not so very much?' "'No, no. As God is my witness, I loved her. Even when I was returning home for Mr. Astley's, my suffering was genuine, and my self-reproach sincere. But presently I was to go through an exceedingly strange and ugly experience. I was proceeding to the General's rooms when I heard a door near me open, and a voice called me by name. It was Madame Azelle's mother, the widow de Comigée, who was inviting me in her daughter's name to enter. I did so. Whereupon I heard a laugh and a little cry proceed from the bedroom. The pair occupied a suite of two apartments, where Madame Azelle Blanche was just arising. "'Ah, c'est-lui. Viens donc bet. Is it true that you have won a mountain of gold and silver? J'aimerais mieux l'or!' Yes, I replied with a smile. "'How much?' "'A hundred thousand florins. "'Bee-bee, come to a bet. Come in here, for I can't hear you where you are now.' "'Nous ferons bonbons, n'est-ce pas?' Entering her room I found her lolling under a pink satin coverlet and revealing a pair of swarthy, wonderfully healthy shoulders. Shoulders such as one sees in dreams, shoulders covered over with a white cambrick nightgown, which, trimmed with lace, stood out in striking relief against the darkness of her skin. "'Mon fils, à tu décours?' She cried when she saw me and then giggled. Her laugh had always been a very cheerful one, and at times it even sounded sincere. "'Tout autre?' I began paraphrasing Cornelia. "'See here,' she prattled on. "'Please search for my stockings and help me to dress. "'Aussi, si tu n'es pas trop bet, je te prends à paris.' "'I am just off, let me tell you. This moment? In half an hour. True enough, everything stood ready-packed, trunks, portmanteaux, and all. Coffee had long been served. "'E' bien, tu verras paris. "'Dis donc-à, qu'est-ce que c'est qu'un uchitelle?' "'Tu étais bien bette, qu'en tu étais uchitelle.' "'Where are my stockings? Please help me to dress.' And she lifted up a really ravishing foot, small, swarthy, and not misshapen like the majority of feet, which looked dainty only in botteens. I laughed, and started to draw on to the foot a silk stocking, while Mademoiselle Blanche sat on the edge of the bed and chattered. "'E' bien, que fera-tu si je prends avec moi?' "'First of all, I must have fifty thousand francs, and you shall give them to me at Frankfort. Then we will go on to Paris, where we will live together, et je te ferai boire des étoiles en planjour." "'Yes, you shall see such women as your eyes have never lit upon. Stop a moment. If I were to give you those fifty thousand francs, what should I have left for myself?' "'Another hundred thousand francs, please to remember. Besides, I could live with you in your rooms for a month, or even for two, or even for longer. But it would not take us more than two months to get through fifty thousand francs. For look you, je suis bon enfant, et tu verras des étoiles. You may be sure. What, you mean to say that we should spend the whole in two months?' "'Certainly. Does that surprise you very much?' "'Ah, via les slaves. Why, one month of that life would be better than all your previous existence. One month. Et après, le déluge. Mais tu ne peux comprendre." "'Vas. Away, away. You are not worth it.' "'Ah, que fais-tu?' For while drawing on the other stocking, I had felt constrained to kiss her. Immediately she shrunk back, kicked me in the face with her toes, and turned me neck and prop out of the room. "'Eb bien, mon outchitelle,' she called after me. "'Je t'attends, si tu veux.' I start in a quarter of an hour's time. I returned to my own room with my head in a whirl. It was not my fault that Polina had thrown a packet in my face, and preferred Mr. Astley to myself. A few banknotes were still fluttering about the floor, and I picked them up. At that moment the door opened, and the landlord appeared, a person who, until now, had never bestowed upon me so much as a glance. He had come to know if I would prefer to move to a lower floor, to a suite which had just been tenanted by Count V.' For a moment I reflected. "'No,' I shouted. "'My account, please, for in ten minutes I shall be gone.' "'To Paris, to Paris,' I added to myself. Every man of birth must make her acquaintance. Within a quarter of an hour all three of us were seated in a family compartment. Mademoiselle Blanche, the widow de Comangé, and myself. Mademoiselle kept laughing hysterically as she looked at me. And Madame re-echoed her. But I did not feel so cheerful. My life had broken in two, and yesterday had infected me with a habit of staking my all upon a card. Although it might be that I had failed to win my stake, that I had lost my senses, that I desired nothing better, I felt that the scene was to be changed only for a time. Within a month from now I kept thinking to myself I shall be back again in Rulettenberg. And then I mean to have it out with you, Mr. Astley. Yes, as now I look back at things I remember that I felt greatly depressed, despite the absurd giggling of the egregious Blanche. "'What is the matter with you? How dull you are,' she cried at length as she interrupted her laughter to take me seriously to task. "'Come, come, we are going to spend your two hundred thousand francs for you.' "'E tu, sore, sore, comme un petit roi.' "'I myself will tie your tie for you and introduce you to your Hortense, and when we have spent your money you shall return here and break the bank again. What did those two Jews tell you? That the thing most needed is daring, and that you possess it? Consequently, this is not the first time that you will be hurrying to Paris with money in your pocket. "'Qu'un, moi, je veux cinquante mille francs de rente et alors.' "'But what about the general?' I interrupted. "'The general? You know well enough that at about this hour every day he goes to buy me a bouquet. On this occasion I took care to tell him that he must hunt for the choices to flowers, and when he returns home the poor fellow will find the bird flown. Possibly he may take wing in pursuit. And if so, I shall not be sorry, for he could be useful to me in Paris, and Mr. Astley will pay his debts here.' In this manner did I depart for the gay city.