 Yeah, and I so loved the um, let's talk the day-by-day after the eternal sunshine. It was talking about Tracking back Through time to before time and I think of that very much like this causation lineage that was given Because when you start with the half and you go up to the do and up to the feeling and up to the Thawed and up to the belief you end up with the identity and Understanding each time as I would track it back in my mind. It would take me back to what do I believe? I am because all that follows has to prove that in every way it has to flow from that and and be the manifestation of it so Every single seeming issue that I perceived as a lack of limitation of problem it ultimately sourced with I was identifying with that which is limited and That just the awareness that all of these things flowed From a misplaced I am was just such an awakener for me I hear what you're saying, and I've tried to do Some of the things you're talking about I have I fell off a horse many years ago and broke my foot in five places and I'm always it's in pain. It has pain right now as well It's always has pain, and I've tried so many things to get this You know pain what I've offered in dollars and yours and everything too To have this pain go away, and I don't know any what to do anymore because I want this symptom relief I mean And I can't see why it serves me I I I Recognize that that absolutely is a possibility, but I can't see the way, and I'm so tired of Being in pain Yeah, well, we we use the the chart or the rings that I talk about a lot Where the rings I do out was that there's the perceptual world Which is the outer ring and then the emotions are underneath that and your your thoughts And your beliefs and then your desire So if we looked at that ring and sent it circles everything and we said okay broke my foot in five places and it's been like Almost constant or consistent pain and also many Dollars euros and much effort spent at Addressing the symptom, you know, it's really gone on to the feet You know there's been a huge focus sounds like for years on the feet That would be like out of this entire outer ring That's like this little spot out there just like somebody when they say they they find a lump in the breast Or they find a spot in the lungs You know, and then they put all this effort To go after that spot. This is what all this whole ring is the entire cosmos of time and space All the galaxies and planets and stars and and countries and so forth And then there's a speck on that taste feet It's there and you've put a lot of energy going right at that and what we really work on is Is first of all to take the focus off of of that because But that's the that's an effect and so when the mind is so riveted riveted riveted on an effect Then it's even if it's and you sounds like you have done a lot of metaphysical searching And you've been searching your whole life and really trying to really connect with Jesus and and really connect with that Real deep experience but by pulling the attention off of it and then opening up to what I call this awareness that that The problem is not anything to do with feet, but the problem is a perceptual problem You know first of all seeing a world that's not there That's we could call that hallucination and then seeing fragmentation in that world Which is not seeing it as a whole. It's just seeing it in parts You know, that's a perceptual problem and it does seem to take lots of Convincing but you know, I'm telling you right now. This is this is where the relief will start is Is really coming to that admission that it's a perceptual problem. It's reframing the problem From the feet, which is the spot and it's pulling it way back and it's saying it's much More profound than that That's just a tiny little effect of it You know, you could say well, I still have hunger or I still have thirst or I still have these different, you know Drives that seem to be part of being a human being those are all part of the perceptual problem, too But the feet get all the attention, you know because of the pain. It's like a focus there So once you start to do that then it's like I guess for myself When I started to frame it in that way Then I started to put my full attention into What is holding up this perceptual problem? What's propping it up? What are the underpinnings underneath it? Not with the specific symptom because there are some great authors like Louise Haye for example who actually do a pretty good job of tracing back specific symptoms to various thoughts and belief systems that are underneath they really do a spectacular job There was one of his pamphlets. I think it was maybe the psychotherapy pamphlet where Jesus said, you know, a careful tracing back You know, it still won't bring the relief Because the only thing that heals an unforgiveness is forgiveness So it's like the the release point is way way way back in the mind even that tracing back sometimes even though it can be helpful only forgiveness heals an unforgiveness only Forgiveness heals a grievance and the grievance is, you know, no one's been sharing is is much much deeper in there In fact, it's so deep in there. It doesn't even have have any kind of overt or obvious connection to the symptom. Many times you could say, what's this happening? Well, how is this happening to me? You know, I can't possibly believe in this or this or this consciously But subconsciously there's a lot of things for buried down there really deep So to me all that this does is when you start to see that you you get you have an impetus to go much much deeper and And it's really a time of rejoicing, you know, it's a time of not Kind of saying look it. I've failed to find a solution to this specific symptom It's more like hallelujah. I'm getting to the point where I can start to say I have to look Much deeper inside in a much more general way Not so much looking for specific symptom relief, but looking for perceptual problem Relief and that's like a huge difference and and for me it starts with 100% acceptance of the symptom of all of it as long as I'm oh, I hate this I want to fix it and and all that energy that you put and as I described in my story all the energy I put all those doctors, etc. That was all resistance energy That's all perceiving the problem out there and literally the doing of all those attempts Reinforces it it strengthens it and exactly what our egos want us to do Believe the problem is out there and do x y and z to try to fix it And of course says, you know That is all designed to not find the solution So you can do not find this is the only thing that the ego promises So that was when I put it for me just in my own journey and realizing Whatever I'm fighting I'm perpetuating and the trying to fix it is is a battling with it So I was shown the power of acceptance And I was just sharing with our group this morning. I woke up with this little Resist it accept it Give it to spirit. I was shown What tends to happen for me in any given day or in a cycle of my life where there's something It seems like I initially resisted like you're experiencing Thinking it shouldn't be there believing. That's wrong that it's happening that Wishings it could be fixed and then I could be happy so resistance and Then finally. Oh, it's here for a reason I may not know what that reason is But I accept it 100% I Allow it to be With note as much as possible letting go of the judgments about it in any way that we have and something about that acceptance is that is the doorway To allowing spirit to come in and work the miracle so that third step for me is always Okay, I accept it's here, but I don't know what to do about it. I can't like that admittance that David's talking about I Don't know and I can't fix it. And like you said, I'm tired of Trying I'm so damn tired Hallelujah, you know, like they call it bottoming out with that That's it. I'm just wasted doing this. I Give it up spirit. Show me the way. I don't know Yes, but still sometimes I mean treatment or therapy or something works Even if I don't change my mind. I had symptom that for many years. I couldn't even hold my head up I was it was so much pain in my neck. So I lay down every like every hour. I had to lay down and And I did always, you know, I tried so many things And it didn't go away. And then at one time I was in a therapy about something Completely different and we came down to where I was giving birth to my daughter And I was like that least you know and pushing her out and I was screaming. Oh my neck And then I came home and I didn't even think about it And a couple of days later my husband said You're not lying down anymore. I completely forgot I had this and I had it for years And I mean I didn't change my mind there, but something released, you know, so it just I I witnessed that type of phenomena quite often in my journey with all of this and and for me part of it was um I I so believe you know in the in the case of seeing something shift By applying some kind of magic, you know doing a therapy or whatnot That that's what my mind needed to allow the miracle to happen to allow Love in and to let this little piece of self-punishment go And sometimes I I just the letting go Spirit did undo it in other words just the moment of I'm gonna let myself be helped and The Christ can dissolve What we've been claiming to in mind and we don't even know it Yeah, so it is a shift of mind, but it may not be an awareness even that you may even have a conclusion saying I didn't shift my mind, but it just disappeared and things don't Just disappear or appear even The mind is very deep and it's it has lots and lots of tricks And uh, it's like these magicians that seem to do all these things and it's like how are they doing that? you know, they're it's It's very open to suggestions and so forth But but it is this the seed and source of everything And then you you begin to open up to the idea that the mind is extremely causative It is causative And the world of effects has no causation But that's it's going to have to transfer in a lot of areas because it's such a pervasive belief So this just really gives you an opportunity, you know, it's it's like when we live in spiritual community Things are arising all the time Uh emotions are coming up and it can seem like there are external causes of the emotions So and so said this so and so did this Uh, and then I was having a great day and then all of a sudden I heard such and such and then oh My I just shut down or I went into sadness or whatever It's it's a deeply rooted belief in these externals is having causation and The the foot is just like a An opportunity Almost like, you know, I know I was just saying like if you interviewed the foot like okay You definitely got my attention What have you got to say for yourself you've had my attention for years and then you know Interview your foot and it's like Yeah, there's you can get down to The purpose or the meaning underneath it nothing happens by accident And it's almost like if you just instead of just thinking like this is a part of myself that I can't stand That I've tried everything with and put all this time and energy and money and everything in Just try interviewing your foot And asking it, you know, what are you what are you trying to get out of this? What what are you doing?