 Hey what's up you guys welcome back to my channel if you're new here hi I'm Lydia and if you aren't here make sure you hit subscribe button and during the growing family while you're there too on notifications and hit the like button. I'm doing a... answering frequently asked questions about bipolar 1. The first question I've got is what does it feel... what does bipolar 1 feel like? So by bipolar 1 you have to be manner and you have to repressive epithelial roots and you have middle, middle ground. Living between two extremes is incredibly hard and often or not it's something that seems impossible because you don't know what a running epithelial is going to feel. You don't know what a direct epithelial is going to feel and you're living life on these extremes. When you're manneric only it feels great if you feel onto the world. You're doing stuff, you're getting up at 5am, you're rushing off, you're doing work, you get so much done, you spend a lot of money, you feel incredible until you crash and that's why the depression hits them. So living with it is very hard because you want to avoid the extremes. I'm currently medicated for my bipolar. I take heliparadol, vortioxin, lithium. What coping school do you use to manage mood swings? So to manage mood swings I want to make it clear bipolar isn't swinging from one extreme to the other really quickly. That's bpd. Bpd is intense emotion swinging, bipolar is slow so you have the mania, the depression and it fluctuates along the line. You're not always happy and you're not always sad. There is a base flying. So the coping skills that I use are I take medication every day, twice a day. I have a routine. I stay in contact with my psychiatrist, keep a mood journal and I use dbc skills. The next question is do you get psychosis and manic failures? Yes I do. I get delusions, I get hallucinations, I get both. Along with being a mania which is when the mania gets dangerous really when psychosis comes into it. When psychosis comes into it you are no longer just happy and all but annihilated. You're believing things that aren't real. You're convinced people are after you. Convinced no one knows what you know. You're convinced that you are the only one who can save the world. What's the main symptom you experience? For me the main symptom I experience is hearing fallacies and then feeling suicidal. I have more depressive episodes than I have manic episodes. The next question is which is worse? Being manic or depressed? Depressed for sure. When I'm manic I get so much done. Depression is worse because you don't get any cases where you do nothing. Getting out of bed is too hard, brushing your teeth is too hard, brushing your hair is too hard. Going to get fluid is effort that you don't have. Depression is such a horrible thing. When I'm in depressed episodes I don't eat, I don't sleep, I can't do anything. The next question is downsides of being manic? And as a siren? Would you get killed on a different screen please? So downsides of being manic? You send a lot of money. You're impulsive. Breakdown is a relationship. Committing to too much. Taking on too many projects. That's just a handful of things that are the negatives of being manic. What's your worst manic episode? The worst manic episode I've ever had was the first one I ever had and I was 13 years old. I was manic and I was psychotic. It's convinced that the government was what after me. Fuck off with the sirens. I had just taken on boards so many projects to do. I was not in a good frame of mind. I took on those projects. I tried to get adult commitments. I thought I could do anything I wanted. The first one was what got me diagnosed as why I failed at type 1. It took one session with a psychiatrist to get a diagnosis because I was talking so fast and jumping from one subject to the next to the next. Moving through things like it made sense. The unit didn't make sense. I wasn't coherent. It just wasn't a good situation and I was hospitalised or but that was the far the worst I ever had. Next question is are you always manic or depressed or can you have a baseline? I said this earlier. Does mania, depression, mid ground? So there definitely is a mid ground that you can be on. Stable mid ground especially with medication. The medication I'm on keeps me very stable. I am on baseline at the minute. I'm not manic and I'm not depressed. My most recent episode was a depressive episode with having a hospitalised. The depressive episodes are really dark and difficult to deal with but so is mania. Mania is really hard to deal with because you don't believe you're manic. You just think you're doing really well. Next question is do you still experience hypomania as saying a transition to mania as well as mania? No I don't have hypomania. I only have mania. Hypomania comes in with bipolar type 2. Then the last question is which type is that? Is it mania or depression? It's mania and depression. Yeah with the baseline. How to include the baseline. That is all the questions I've got for this video. If you want to have a question to answer in a video, follow me on Instagram. This is where I answer all my questions. Thanks for watching and if you're new like I said at the beginning join the growing family. We love you, we want you here. So why not hit the subscribe button. Yes I'm aware I've got pink all over my face. I dyed my hair and it went everywhere. Oops.