 Good morning y'all, welcome back to a vlog. I haven't done a vlog or filmed a full vlog in a week, which you guys wouldn't know because these are all like, obviously I've had vlogs up. Speaking of, I think I'm actually gonna go back to posting twice a week because I've loved them like once a week. This is the first time in my like decade on YouTube I've ever only posted once a week on YouTube. I love having like one vlog a month and like typically that's just like what gets the most views, meaning that's like what you guys like the most but I just have missed you guys and I feel like disconnected. So I'm thinking about at least for summer bringing back two vlogs a week. So this is the first Wednesday upload. Let me know what you guys think. I am feeling it. This one is weird. I just went using different eyepatches and I think I like the big ones more. Anyways, I tried to vlog pretty much every day last week. This is kind of like a life reset getting back into a routine post just like feeling so out of it, like being in a funk. I had like a really bad mental health thing. I had cried over so good that I had a lot of what was going on, how it was my fault, but also like I was just having a bad week. Honestly, the worst week I think I've had, like it was up there on my top. It was bad. It was not good. It was not good at all. But we're back. I went to the farmers market yesterday. Oh, you know what I'm gonna, I did film setting up new furniture in the studio entry room. So I'll insert that footage here. Great news. This room was looking a lot better. As you all know in the last vlog, this couch was looking weird with the different heights in this room. And I got these little Amazon things. I will put them on my storefront and I'll link them below. They're furniture risers and they actually make the couch look even better. It looked a lot better. The rug, I wasn't into it at the very beginning and now I am kind of into it. I felt like it looked a little bit weird, but now I'm like, you know what? This is good. And then obviously the coffee table, which I still haven't even ordered. So anyway, Sierra, like I said, Belonga on Instagram. She helped me design this room, which I've tagged her in my reel as well. If you guys wanna go there, it's on my Instagram. You guys can find her Instagram really easily. You can hire her remotely or virtually, I mean remotely or in person if you're in New York. But I love these. I will link the chairs below because I'm so obsessed with them. Like they are amazing. And yeah, I did get some comments too about how this isn't really set up for a studio because I need more depth for the camera, the angle and lens and all that. I know that. This is just also an entry room. It's not just a studio room. Like this is my front door. So like you walk in and you enter the house. Like this stuff is all I'm gonna go ignore that. But I'm just making do with the space. So I figured this space is just gonna sit here anyways. Like I would never use this room if it weren't for like having it as a studio room. This is just a friendly reminder to subscribe to the podcast YouTube channel. So you guys can watch all the episodes. We've had a lot of good ones coming out recently and I'm really excited about this room and this space. And I just feel like it's very like me. And I love it. You also have these Polaroids that we're shooting for each podcast episode. I have some more under here too. Like what do you guys think I should do with these? I don't want a Polaroid wall. I don't want it to be like juvenile ecology. Should I just get like an acrylic tray that I can put them on? Like I think that could be cool. Whatever you guys think let me know. But also these skims slippers. I'm obsessed with them. I got them last week and I'm wearing them 24 seven. They're so gray. I highly recommend. Guys it's so cute right? So anyways it's seven. I'm gonna go on a nice little silent walk. Silent walks are life changing. And then I have my workout this morning and I've just, I've got errands, I've got random things I need to do. I really wanna go through my cookbooks and just like get some more inspo. I want to cook this week. It's gonna be a good time. This weekend's gonna be so much fun but you guys will see that I'm gonna post this vlog a week in my life vlog and then the weekend vlog. And we're going to Vegas and Fort Worth. So it's gonna be like so much fun. But yeah, anyways, love y'all. Subscribe if you're new here. Time to go on a walk with my coffee and my beautiful neighborhood. We're just so grateful today. The set that I'm wearing, well actually it's not a set. I have a set to both of these but they were not in the drawer. Top is 437, bottoms are Amazon. I love my 437 stuff. I need to get more of this Amazon set. I will say like it's not like it's like the most. It looks like a little bit loose after wearing it a couple of times but like it's 30 bucks. It's just good for like the walk or like weightlifting. You don't need to have anything that too crazy. And that's what I'm doing today. And then I have my green new balances. Obviously my eye patches. My neighbors are probably like, oh God, the eye patch girl, she's here again. You're on your way. Fitz, are you ready for your walk? Hi. Oh my God, he's so perfect. Guys, I just got my car washed and I am brand new. Okay, like it is spotless. They didn't give me a car freshener, but whatever. Okay, oh my God, like the ins everything. I have a membership at, what is this? Carnation on walking bird. That's only for the exterior, not the interior. I went like crazy with the interior. Well, my car needed a car wash. Anyways, I went to work out. These people are like right in front of me right now. So they're just watching me talk to myself. I was just off on a phone with Dominique and I think I'm gonna stop at Fire Zone or something, so I have to get my coolant topped off. If y'all are in Dallas, they do have a membership though where it's like unlimited monthly, maybe not unlimited. I don't know, but it's a good deal for exterior car washes, but honestly, like I am more of an interior, I don't really care what other people think. That's for that, you know what I mean? I care about the inside, so I need that membership. Then you gotta do that stuff. Anyways. Okay, I'm home. The front room looks so cute, but I have a rug from Rugged Bull for outside. I don't even know if like I really need a rug out here. I just thought I would try one. Maybe it'll make it look cosier. I know I need to, I know guys. It's clearly going to storm again. Everybody had a honey, nobody got that. All right, I definitely need someone else helping me straighten this rug out. I don't know how I feel about it. I kind of think I like it better without a rug. You guys let me know, I really don't know. I feel like maybe it was better without the rug. Hey, and let me tell you why I'm having the best day because it's basically raining. And yes, I know I just got my car washed, but I got my car washed to get the interior washed. I don't even think it's an option to not get the exterior washed and you get your interior washed when it's the kind of car, like the car wash that I go to because you have to go, whatever. No one actually cares about that. Anyways, I made my second coffee of the day. I went home and I got just some stuff done that I have not been wanting to do. And once you get those little stupid things done, you feel on top of the world. Then I got a little bit of work done and I sat as you guys saw and I read my cookbooks. My menu for the week, which I don't always do it for like the week. I like to go to sprouts, you know, as much as humanly possible. So I like to go for the day sometimes, but I am getting some things for the next few days, grilling and I also have obviously my butcher box stuff. So I like that because it makes me try different recipes. Like I'm gonna make this like beef bowl thing. I don't know. We'll see how it goes. It honestly sounds bad to like most people. Like I would like it, but I just know that everyone else would be like, you know what I mean? I just walked into this room and like, look at him. Hi bud. He loves this room. I think he thinks it's his bed. Oh my gosh, they're finally sprouting. I don't think I've even filmed this yet, but I did do this. I actually literally just ordered an arrow, whatever planter because it looks like a better deal. This is only 30 on Amazon and that was like a hundred, but no soil at all, just a better situation. But this like doesn't even look right. I don't know. Like, why don't I ever put a rug out here? This is going away. There's no rug needed here. What was I thinking? This is going away as soon as like Macy comes over and can help me. I'll bribe her with food and I won't tell her about this. You know? Okay, so I just had a therapy over the phone when I was working before that. Where is my... It's like 3 p.m. and I'm hitting a wall. I have another workout tonight because I wanted to do SoulCycle. That's just like how the scheduling were. Making my happy fixation snack, which I'm sure you'll know by now, but it is the round rice or just like any rice cakes and cottage cheese. My favorite is the good culture cottage cheese. They don't have that at my sprouts. They have good culture, but they don't have the good culture cottage cheese or at least I haven't seen it. It's not with the rest of the cottage cheese. So I have this and I put some honey on it. Sometimes I'll put jelly if it's the morning, just open from like what I'm feeling. I also got this honey from the farmers market and like who do I think I am? Because they asked me, do you want like a squeezable tube? Which like, obviously that's gonna be easier. But I was like, no, no. I was like, I'm the real deal. I want the jar. No, I don't. This is gonna be so annoying I just want to use it. But anyways, we're gonna have some of this. Do you guys can see? It's scouts. I will say this. Oh, I didn't even tell you guys. Sorry, it was in my TikTok vlog. Okay, so it sounds maybe gross to some of you guys, but it's very great and a great source of protein, which like I need from energy levels. So scouts, seafood, snacks. And I think, I don't think I tried this flavor, but it's just like a little tin of tuna and then this topping. And I've only had one and it was so good. Okay, I have a bunch of stuff I have to create moveboards for, for work stuff that I've been working on today. And honestly, I'm just so tired. I feel like I'm gonna fall asleep right now. You can tell by my face how tired I am. So I might take a little like 40 minute nap in between also after therapy, even if it's like not even like a dire session. I just get so tired. Like I have to take it off. This is what it looks like. I haven't mixed it in. I know it like seems gross, but it's actually very good. Okay, like you have to just trust me. $5 a thing, so very expensive. It's now 6.15 and I'm on my way to my workout class. I'm doing another workout today. I'm going to SoulCycle tonight because Presley and I want to see the SoulCycle class together. I'm really excited about the loving SoulCycle again the past couple of months. I took one class at a friend hosted for her brand and I just been like hooked back into it. I feel like SPAN is one of those workouts that like when you're in the mood for it, it's really fun. If y'all aren't in Dallas, I typically take from Kayla or Ashley. I take from Ashley more. I did read a little bit this afternoon. I'm reading the new is to Ella Mays, the same author who wrote to love Jason Thorn and then to hate Adam Conner. Those books are so good. They're like cheesy sure, but they're so good. They're less cheesy than you would think. My workout set, by the way, is your bars and it's so soft. Your bars, that's the softest workout set I've ever. Okay, but anyways, bye, see ya, dolly. Here we go. Back from my workout, I showered and I am in what I wish I could wear 24 seven skims pajamas, skim slippers, by the way, updated on these, just got them. Love them more than 24 seven. And then I have my password. I forget what this is called. I will link it, but it's basically just like a blanket jacket, blanket robe. It actually might be called that. I'll link it. It is so cozy and I'm gonna make a little like beef, rice, broccoli, little mix thing. I'm listening to our expert having a little healthy dinner. My siblings are obsessed with that app that tells you when things are healthy or when their ingredients are like better for you. And my sister specifically is like going all clean and she's literally by my mom. I don't know where this came from. But I just asked her to do Caliphia Farms and at least the actual coffee is great. I'm like scared about the cookie butter creamer. It's not really gonna change anything, I don't think, until I get really tired of it, which I don't see happening anytime soon. But it seems to be good. So it seems to be fine. Oh, also, what's the workout today? So it's like, oh, it's great. Christina had a great time. I'm so excited to remember again. I've been in such a book slump and there's nothing better than like coming home, listening to a podcast, cooking dinner for yourself, and getting in bed early to read a book. But early, well, it's already 8.15. It's a little late for me. I like to eat dinner earlier. But yeah, it does look like a really fabulous day. We really, in the next vlog, I'm gonna go through what I've read so far in 2023. We need to do a recap. I need to do a whole book recap and get you guys up today. But I am feeling so much better. I will say like today was just the reason that I needed and therapy was great. And like, I don't know. Sometimes I feel like on these vlogs, I'm like constantly recently going through it. And I know when I say like, I'm sure it's awesome when you hear me talk a lot and I eat. But there's still a lot of other things going on and I'm feeling a lot better and I'm just so happy. And I'm just so grateful on my life right now. Like I'm specifically grateful for like the friends that I have because I didn't always have these kinds of friendships. There were like many times in my life where I wanted like what I have now. And I'm very, very grateful for it. And I feel like sometimes I take it for granted or just like it becomes like your normal. You know what I mean? Like naturally, but I don't want it to become the normal. I wanna like always be very grateful and I think that really helps me. The silent walks have also been helping me a ton. Just like get into a better head space, you know? So anyways, oh another thing. This is bringing it back to ButcherBox. I was just thinking about like how like being in the kitchen like is like a creative fun thing for me to do and I really like it. And sometimes it's easy for me to like get in the same routine and do the same thing every single day. But what I like about ButcherBox on top of like just eating more protein is the fact that like I get other protein I wouldn't necessarily crowd for that I like am used to getting, you know what I mean? And it makes me like cook other things. Like I have like bison in there and I'm like, what am I gonna do? I'm basically looking at new recipes or remember other recipes from cookbooks which is another thing, it's very therapeutic. But yeah, just feeling better. Gonna get back to cooking and I will talk to you this week. Wait as long as I want. It's not. Okay. Yeah. Like let's go dancing. Yeah. Yeah. Exactly. I'm gonna make a room in your life that, oh perfect, I can't even have what I want to. Listening to armchair expert. I got these fridge organizers, which I'm going to organize my fridge, hopefully in the next vlog. I will put these in my store front. I'm gonna use this for my ollie pop. And my dinner is ready finally. It's like 9 p.m. Very late for me to eat. There's cauliflower rights underneath it but obviously it's kind of taken over. It's a little like beef broth broccoli situation with some green onions. It smells amazing. I hate making like sauces or dressings and things like that. I really just hate it, I don't know why. But I did it tonight and I totally understand why people do this. Guys, I just walked into my room. One seconds. And look who is fully ready for bed. He is knocked out. The sun is too much for him. Also he's so sensitive to changing food. I gave him new food yesterday and he's just been, he is very, very sensitive. Also while we're here, also by the way, he always looks sad. He just has like droopy eyes, like he's not sad. But it does worry me even though I know this about him. And then I'll look at him and try to put him in his smile. So it's really no big deal. But I did want to say that this blanket probably for like two years now, it's this, I think it's from Luna. I will link it below. It's a weighted blanket that somehow has science that makes you happy. Like I don't know how to describe it but I didn't even realize that and I was under the blanket and I was like, why am I in a better mood? And then I like happened to see it on the internet that that was what it was. Like just trust me, it sounds crazy. It really does. But it is so amazing. It is my favorite way to blanket ever. And it's cooling so you don't get hot. Like I have the Brooklyn one outside and I don't get hot in it. But it's like one that I'm doing to like cozy up. You know, this is like, I will sleep with this, feel amazing, I get the best sleep ever. And it just helps with anxiety so much. But it's the best way to blanket ever. So I will link it below. But tonight we're going to bed. So the book that I'm reading right now is Charlie Love and Cliche's. I'm 30% in. I'm hoping to get through a large chunk of it tonight before I fall asleep. But I'm really liking it so far. I wasn't super into it until probably like 20%. But I don't know. It's like getting out of my reading slump. I feel good about it. I'm in bed with my skincare and my Stanley. My meal was amazing by the way. So good, so easy to love that. But anyways, hope you guys enjoyed this vlog. Love you guys so much and I will see you in my next video. Everyone has like a million different side hustles. And what you can start doing is just like micro dosing side hustles. You could maybe like find a friend who does like a creative line of work. You know, just like reach out to other people who are like doing something you're interested in doing.