 A lot of you guys don't know much about me and the last time I did a video like this was around a year ago and there was some construction near my apartment and it was too noisy to do a video so I decided to drive over to this park and just, you know, talk off the top of my head how things have been going lately. And my life has changed drastically since one year ago and you guys are really what I have to thank for that. But most of my life I've struggled to fit in and that applies to school, that applies to, you know, working a normal job, making a living wage. It's been hard for me to say the least. I've said this before, you know, I've literally been on hundreds of job interviews. I've worked probably over 100 jobs in and itself in personal training, in waiting tables, in bartending, all things oriented around food and health as well as fitness. And with the growth of my YouTube channel, you know, towards the end of 2018, beginning of 2019, I've been able to shift gears and focus my energy towards creating YouTube videos, educating people on health and improving their well-being and that's what I've always wanted to do. But in regards to actually what I'm doing in my life, I guess we should start with my day today. Most days I usually wake up pretty early around 5 or 6 a.m. I try to get a video done. I used to do my videos ahead of time, like a day or two ahead of time. But ever since I got really sick from drinking the raw dairy, the honey, trying the Ajahnis Vomiter Planets diet, I've been struggling to keep that schedule. So usually I just wake up really early, I'll film a video, I usually write the script the night before or I come up with the concept the night before and then I just film it for several hours in the morning, edit the video, upload it. And usually by 9.30 or 10 a.m., I'm done with that. Then I usually check my emails, I'll spend about half an hour to an hour responding to all of my emails. I read every single one of my YouTube comments, so that takes up a fair chunk of my time every day. I check social media, I post on social media, Instagram, Twitter as my video goes live every day. And after that I usually cook something, that's my first meal of the day and my only meal of the day. So now I'll just take some meat, I'll go outside, I'll throw it on the grill, have some steak usually or well mainly whole cuts of cheap beef with some beef fat. Sometimes I throw some organ meats in a couple of times a week, have that meal. By the time I eat it's usually around 1 p.m., 1.30 and then I go up to my parents house to help take care of my sister. For those of you guys that don't know, I'm a triplet, I have a brother and a sister. They are all 28 years old. My sister is unfortunately mentally disabled. My brother works in physics out in California. So I head up to my parents house, it's about an hour and a half north of the city, about 45 minutes from where I am. So I do some meal prep and then by the time I do my meal prep for her, I literally do everything. Her breakfast, her lunch, her snack, her dinner, every single meal, every single day. She used to be very overweight and maybe I'll have her in a video to talk about her weight loss story. But she went from obese, 4 foot 11, 155 pounds to about 100 pounds at 4 foot 11. So she lost an incredible amount of weight over about a year and a half. My parents were very stressed, had a hard time being mindful of her health, especially in the environment she was in, with the day program and the other kids. My sister usually gets home, so I try to spend most of the day with her. I spend usually a couple hours at the gym with her, working out, cooking some meals with her too towards the end of the day, usually dinner. And by that time, usually around 8, 9 or 10 o'clock, I head back home, write a script for my video, respond to more YouTube comments, usually take a little bit of time to myself. I'll watch some other YouTube videos or catch up on things I've been meaning to do for my business. With Frankie's Free Range Meet and Frankie's Naturals, I try to squeeze time in here and there. Thankfully, I have a great business partner, Adam, that does a lot of the grunt work for the meat business. And for Frankie's Naturals, I try to fill orders 2 or 3 times a week. And then I do production runs in the early mornings on the weekends for all of my hygiene and cosmetic products, as I do make them myself. So, you know, as much as I'm working hard and, you know, trying to stick to this and really see where it goes, I have a bunch of other things I'm looking to do in the future as well. And I feel as if my day today is putting all of my eggs in one basket with my YouTube channel, because logistically what I do, you know, there's not a lot of networking, I just make a YouTube video every day. So I'm trying to do some other things in the future. I'm working on a book right now. I have a buddy, a film producer, and we're going to do a Steakhouse pilot in New York City. Hopefully that turns out really well. And hopefully I get some other opportunities on the table in the near future. I feel as if I've sacrificed the last six to seven years learning and understanding nutrition in order to convey my message to people and help people through my YouTube channel, hopefully soon through my book, through just having email interactions and social media interactions with hundreds and hundreds of people. I know this is the payoff time and it's incredibly difficult. I'm doing everything on my own and there's an incredibly steep learning curve for everything, whether it's making the thumbnail of a video to formatting all of this graphic stuff, illustration, media marketing. I've realized that anyone doing this at a very high level has a lot of people behind them helping them, whether it's a special interest funding group or whether they have enough money and a production team in order to have their own business focused on creating this type of content. And that leads to me emphasizing how grateful I am that people enjoy my YouTube channel, that they like my videos, that they send me messages every day, that they're so happy that their health has improved, that I help their children, their family, whatever it may be. That means the world to me and that people are seeing those benefits and as a result of that sharing my videos and helping more people, that's my goal and that's what I've always been looking to do. But I've been really sad the past few months and there's been an overwhelming amount of negative energy and I believe that's part of what I spoke about yesterday and I believe a lot of that special interest funding is leading to that negative energy. So I wanted to tell you guys, I've been having a hard time personally and as much as I brush all of this stuff off my back, at the end of the day me spending half of my day having negative interactions with people on my YouTube channel trying to get away from this negativity, it's very difficult to do. As you can imagine it's pretty discouraging when you have hundreds to thousands of people at home and them attacking you, calling you names, trying to discredit your intelligence, gaslighting you, doing all of these things and that happens in my day and I've already worked a 15 hour day and then I have to spend two to three hours writing a script full of information that I know someone is likely just going to point off as their own information. So it's incredibly stressful, it's incredibly discouraging and I wanna let you guys know I'm willing to work through it and stick it out but I'm not happy about, I'm really not happy about it. I see how everyone else is being treated and I feel like either I'm missing something or I'm not part of the club. So I don't want this video to be taken as a complaining video, I want it to be very clear that that's a very large thing that's impacting me negatively in my life right now and plus on top of all my family stuff. I told you guys in my past video, when my mother had me, my brother, my sister, they botched the C-section, she got a blood disease, ended up having a kidney transplant. My father's a gambling addict, his father was a bad gambling addict. I mean I don't wanna talk about this stuff personally but my parents are very, I mean I hate to say it but they're very unwell, they're not mentally fit, very bipolar behavior, unreasonable. That combined with my mentally disabled sister, it's very stressful and I was always able to deal with that stress but the stress of this YouTube drama and all of this negativity that I'm getting in from all of these other people is compounding on that and now it's affecting me negatively personally and it's changing how I am as a person. I really is, I'm starting to not be as nice. I used to respond to every single email with a lot of help, give away a lot of information that I shouldn't have for free and now I'm starting to think about changing the way I go about things. You know a lot of other people kind of sell out and chill everything and they don't give information away for free, they're always sponsored by something so. I don't know, let me know what you guys think, I don't wanna ramble on too much more. I'm still thinking about getting back into waiting tables or like the New York City nightlife scene. I haven't had as much of a social life anymore ever since I stopped waiting tables and personal training. Not as much interaction with people and that combined with where my parents live and me going to the gym with my sister, people aren't nice, everyone seems to be in their own little world and I feel like if you didn't have friends when you were growing up or you didn't do certain things, like if you don't go to college and you don't have friends in high school and you don't join any clubs or groups or you're not part of a profession, you don't have a community. And what I have is my YouTube community and I know I have people that support me but everyone else on YouTube has more than a YouTube community. If you notice, I'm pretty selfless and dedicated to my YouTube channel and everyone else on YouTube seems to have their own thing they're doing and that's understandable. Everyone has their own life, their family and all of those things but they seem to make it a focus of their YouTube channel and they seem to keep it pretty private. So I don't know, let me know what I'm missing because I'm sitting out here in this park losing my fucking mind, to be honest. Moving forward, I'm really going to try to focus on all of the positive things and ignore anything negative. So Frankie's Free Range Meat is a big thing that I'm super excited about. I didn't think I was going to be able to do it, to be honest. I thought it was gonna be too difficult to source the quality of animal foods that I wanted to provide to you guys and right now what we're putting in these Frankie's Free Range Meat boxes will blow your mind. This is meat, fat, organs, stuff that I couldn't even get my hands on before I started this company. So I'm looking forward as we grow, as we get bigger, we're really going to set the standard in the market. So if you guys wanna check out frankiesfreerangemeat.com and see what that's about, you are supporting the future vision of truly high quality, nutrient-dense animal foods. We're going to do raw dairy. We're going to do pasture-raised eggs. We're gonna have wild caught fish. We will have every quality animal food you guys want. Frankie's Naturals, Cosmetic and Hygiene Products. I mean, honestly, I started that just to have my own deodorant. So wherever that goes, I don't really care. I could probably work on the marketing a bit more. But if you guys wanna check out frankiesnaturals.com, wanna try out some products, maybe I'll do a giveaway this weekend or next weekend, we'll see. But outside of that, I can't thank you guys enough for supporting me. If you could please like the video, subscribe and hit that bell icon, share the video if you can. I didn't mean to be too pessimistic in this video. I just, you know, how I felt the past few days, this is actually pretty positive compared to, you know, what's going on. By the way, thanks again for joining me today guys and enjoy the rest of your week.