 Wow, yeah if you're doing the lessons one at a time, today's lesson is my holiness shines bright and clear today and Jesus gives us a little extra boost there heading into this. Well this morning, again we thought we would come down to practicality because I love it. I've enjoyed all of your questions and comments so much because miracles are such a collaborative effort. I like songs like that because it's like it's spirit and Broadway brought together. And I don't know if I can ever even comprehend that it's so spectacular. And today's lesson about shining bright and clear and holiness and I love how we can share examples because we relate to examples. You know we need examples, we actually need lots of examples as part of our condensing. Lots and lots of examples and then we start to get lots and lots of firsthand experiences of examples. And even last night that little episode we watched, I don't know if you really caught that at the ending I was sharing it with the group at the meeting table today, they were like really? I didn't see that, I didn't see that and I was like oh it was all there, it's all there. You know at the end Amy takes the hand of her partner and she won't be stopped and she knows that now it's time to transcend the system. We all know that we have believed in systems but there comes a point when you have to go directly to the light. You have to transcend the system and basically you know she has that point where she's got her coach and she's been following her coach and she's been hanging in there with coach but then she's like in the end it's like she gets final things you know you're going to meet your life partner Do I know him? No. And she's like oh and you have a real granted this one wish you know you get to meet anyone on the system that you would like to say goodbye to and I don't think she really wants to say goodbye to love but she's willing at that point to say goodbye to the coach. Coach, count to four. One, two, three, four. So you know remember that the Holy Spirit is just a bridge and the Holy Spirit in heaven doesn't have a voice. It's just pure oneness. The Holy Spirit is an eternal creation. Christ is an eternal creation and the Holy Spirit was created by God but the Holy Spirit didn't have to seem to take on a voice until there was a need for a voice when Christ seemed to fall asleep and was found in a lost in a far country in a far foreign land time and space it had nothing to do with eternity then there was a need for a voice in calling Christ back to the remembrance of creation but in heaven the Holy Spirit doesn't have a voice and you might say in our little episode last night Amy went through a lot of lessons and she was starting to say oh there's got to be more than all these forms there's got to be true love and then in the end she sent the coach skipping off and she had to start to realize that there's actually a point where you have to let go of the system that the whole point in the system inside the whole system is yes you have to follow guidance but the whole system of even finding your soulmate or your life partner you know a lot of people that's their whole aim in life is just to find their life partner and then what? grow old, get sick and die it still doesn't end well for interpersonal relationships and soulmates does it? it still doesn't end well and so that's your goal and that was the system's goal you are 99.8% chance of guaranteed of finding your life partner but within the system that makes this seem like a pretty good system but remember the whole system is part of what? the rebellion against love so what is the top goal in the system to find your life partner turns out at the very end when they get whooshed up beyond the system back into the real world back into the happy dream there's a thousand simulations and 998 rebellions and two that don't rebel against the light that was the final tally thousand simulations 998 rebellions remember in the matrix when Neo makes it down to see the architect and the screen lights up of all the anomalies of Neo screaming, kicking, fighting those are all the anomalies of hell the anomalies of different variations of trying to make yourself apart from the way God created you so out of those thousand simulations 998 rebellions recorded and in the end they went for God they did not rebel they had to let go of the system they had to let go of their belief in finding a lifelong partner they had to let go of everything of time and space to not rebel against the light and so the ending of that was pretty quick but it's all there I told you it was going to the atonement that was relationship that was ascension through relationships you end, you give up all autonomous ideas about love including interpersonal soulmate love and go whoosh, whisking into eternity with just one decision you escape thousands of years and ten thousands of years just by your willingness to know God and having God be your only goal if you look at the world through a darkened glass like Corinthians you know the ego's fragmented world then you start to say wow I really need to reach the happy dream I have to reach the real world I have to reach unified perception then you think what did Jesus say 2,000 years ago what was that he was saying let thine eye be single oh my gosh it's all the same teaching it hasn't changed in 2,000 years Jesus is still teaching us the same thing let thine eye be single and how do we do it he didn't call his course a course in revelation he called it a course in miracles he wanted to make it practical because until your mind is ready for revelation it simply will not experience revelation it takes a lot of miracles to get the mind ready to have that experience we witnessed at the very end of that episode where they start climbing you notice how they start climbing up this big ladder where they couldn't even see the top of it and then she jumped right on the ladder and he jumped right on and they climbed and when they got about half way up you saw what happened to the whole simulation it's that's how quick it all ends Jesus says in the Course that once you reach the real world it's going to be quick it's going to be quick the whole system started to fold up because why there was no need for it there's no need for more simulations the rebellion is over the Lucifer rebellion sometimes is called is over and Jesus is telling us that message the Lucifer rebellion is over the Holy Spirit has answered has already answered the rebellious idea don't put your attention on the rebellion take your attention off the timeline we have graduated from the scriptures written day and now we are ready for a new day we are ready for the resurrection day where we take our attention off such questions about the scriptures written the scripture is great the gentleman here, the second gentleman last night he was like so what I'm getting is the script is not real that's what the Holy Instance is about that's why we are zooming into the Holy Instance that's why we are do I want the problem or do I want the answer teach only love for that is what you are it starts to come down it really starts to get simpler and simpler and you start to realize that spiritual awakening is not really a question of time but it's a question of the yes am I going to go from the no the repeating no which makes linear time God's saying are you ready are you ready to be one with me no the next day are you ready now is today the day no could you tell me what it means the scripture is written are you ready no and then finally resurrection must be yes yes wholeheartedly yes so big of a yes that I forgot what the question was it was like it's like yes yes instead of the movie with Jim Carrey yes man it's like yes spirit yes and so what we want to talk about today is resurrection day and it's also the day this evening which will show the movie take me home how's that for a title we've gone from yesterday to take me home even our movies so to start it off with easing you in with yesterday the world was just a silly game we played so there's that then we went to rocket man rocket man we're ready to shoot off and then we went to next next after rocket man what's next after rocket man and then we went through last night ascension through relationships well that's and now finally our final movie of the week is take me home even if you just look at the titles of the movies that Jesus has us doing he's sending us a message with the titles of the movie you should have seen the smile on my face when I heard Lilo was going to sing on a clear day and then I look at the lesson of the day my holiness shines bright and clear today and I just was like oh my gosh this whole thing is choreographed by central casting JC central like he's like he's sending it through he's like did you get it are you ready and then the next day did you get it you know it's like he's done the whole Holland retreat here in the barn at the castle all just for our mind to say yes it's really that's all we want to do and there's nothing more there's no other way to praise the God than by saying yes to forgiveness because it's like when you talk about praise in this world you can praise somebody give them compliments but God has no ego to receive praise by you can't say God good job good job creating Christ really good kudos kudos kudos but God's like God doesn't have an ego so God can't receive praise except if you are as you were created that's a way to praise God to forgive the ego to release the ego and accept yourself as God created you has got to be the ultimate praise to God I am as you created me there is nothing that's more glorious that's more humble that's more uplifting to the creator and to say and mean it and live it I am as you created me I am loving because you created me loving I am joyful because you created me joyful I am spirit because you created me spirit that's the humbleness and today we want to kind of use the example of Take Me Home of the movie we are going to show tonight as a practical again a practical example of miracles what good are miracles if they don't give you if they don't uplift you what good would miracles be if they don't convince you of your spiritual reality what good are miracles if they don't show you that guidance is better than analysis that guidance is better than past learning that guidance and present trust leading the way is the very best thing that you can do or the best that you can offer the most that you can offer is I will offer my present trust to listen and follow you I do not know the way you do know the way that's why I will listen and follow you just like this whole Holland Retreat the more you know you will just think about this and you will go wow the symbols will just keep hitting you how amazing how spectacular how orchestrated this whole week has been and what we are going to share about Take Me Home is how orchestrated and given the movie was just as a backdrop not as a thing in and of itself not as a product not as an outcome but just the very listen and follow experience is part of the awakening that's the backdrop that it took and you know it's been like a giant symphony with many many aspects far beyond what you could have ever imagined and yet it starts with like a dream and then it takes off this morning I was I was up and I was thinking about this session and I keep hearing case study just use Take Me Home as a case study because yeah because we can talk a lot about about what it is like to follow the spirit but nothing is more concrete than to show it to show what it is like and I think yeah even the other day when I was doing the diet session I gave an instruction I said if you have difficulty in getting in touch with your emotions just don't be afraid to go into specifics and then a participant asked me what do you mean and then I realized yeah this word specifics it's so clear to me to someone else it's just it's a word what does that even mean how does that help to get into your emotion you know just so I do really feel this calling just to be able to somehow demonstrate a little bit more of what it is like to follow the spirit so yeah I think Take Me Home is it's a documentary movie it's an hour and 20 minutes long right now so how it got started was I came to Living Miracles monastery and I could only stay for three months I for the first time so I came and I did a lot of mind training during the three months I had to go back to Australia and so when I was back there I had this dream one night and I woke up with this tremendous amount of joy because in my dream I made a movie a documentary movie to share the hope that there is another way to share the you know the uplifted feeling of what it feels like to follow the spirit and the dream was so uplifting for me I woke up from it and I thought I'm going to write to David right now to tell him I had this dream it was so uplifting and I want to do it and I many many years later right before I started this project I actually saw that email again that was 2011 and in the email it was very long I wrote to David that I'm ready to listen and follow I'm a blank slate because I had no filmmaking experience or any photography technical experience so I'm a very good blank slate for Jesus and he can come through and I will just listen and follow and I'm ready so I was very very excited and David responded by saying great come over to Utah and you will have a team so that was 2011 then I went I went and in the high desert of the monastery then I realized we we didn't have tripods we didn't have camera we didn't have microphones there was there was nothing in terms of multimedia production in any way and I didn't know what it was needed so we started by just saying let's acquire one camera like a little camcorder just flip you can flip the lid open and then we buy tripod and just to see if we like to even record something on camera and a good microphone and a good microphone you might also mention the guidance you got in Australia are you are watching YouTube and things because there was a friend who said something to you and it really caught your attention I was in there watching a video of David you know at that point his videos were very low quality and grainy sound was just you can barely hear it so my friend said you know the quality Jesus is playing every day just like oh play play play I think it's good I think it's good these are the backup mics in case just in case and my friend said to me that you know the quality of the teaching is really not matched by the quality of the video and I thought that's true you know the teaching was so high was so uplifting and then you watch the so I just also had this feeling like I would be part of it somehow to help to support improve the quality of the recording so that got used because now looking back I actually thought it's very symbolic because when I came in 2011 I thought I was so ready to listen and follow for absolutely everything I can you know just hear everything and and Jesus said well let's just take one step at a time let's start with if you see the outside world as a reflection of the inward picture where I was what I was ready for was so basic you know we have to yeah just cables what is mp3 cable again so it was all from the beginning so that's actually the start of a tag team for all our retreats so from that point on gradually over many years we started to have microphones for our retreats and we started to have cameras to record YouTube videos and we started to have cameras to edit and these movies and just fall way way way way way back into the awareness because I also realize how impractical I was thinking at the beginning and it's beautiful too because a little bit of backstory is you know Francis was raised in Beijing but and lived in Australia but she was over at the University of Chicago in the United States on YouTube and brilliant she was a brilliant student and so she had and had been married had your own business very competent and very successful in terms of the world and then and also I think confident like okay I'm a blank slate Jesus let's just make a movie here turn me into like Franco Zefarelli just morph can you make a movie just give me a minute to download the director okay casting you know but actually like you like so many have come in you know you come in filled with skills and there may even be more mind training and more inner listening like opening the channel and following and and obviously Lilo's back behind the live stream camera and she up here you'd almost forgotten about your Broadway skills and then you can hear these are like top of the line Broadway skills and yet it takes so much patience to just trust and say I need to open this channel and I don't want to step ahead and that's what I think you're sharing is that you are quite skilled quite competent in many areas and and really ready to fulfill it and and yet there was preliminary steps that Jesus had in mind too and I think the thing is my my I had an expectation I thought that is what I'm gonna do because the dream because David said yes that's that's where we're heading and yet Jesus said no no no you're so you need so much training in communication communication why do I need communication to make a movie why do I need communication to to be with you you know there is just no context the mind that yeah where I came from had no context of what is what is really gonna take for this so so basically I think yeah like David said I was probably competent in some worldly skills but I was very incompetent in true communication communication with with my brothers in a real way to open up and and be able to speak up it was a very frightening for me and so that was that was one thing so gradually just over the years I saw I was guided to so many different projects some tech related some have absolutely nothing to do with any of this so it's probably just traveling and speaking cleaning painting for a house physical projects absolutely everything but you know in my mind it's even hard for me to look back and summarize so anyway jumping back this thing started to just dissolve in my mind because I I have to say I did get happier and happier so whether in the end make a movie or not is irrelevant and it was really not what I came here for anymore and but I think the queue was because everywhere I traveled I traveled a lot during those years everywhere I travel I still mention to people if I meet a filmmaker I still mention like Soren when I when I Jenny and I went to Copenhagen was such a synchronicity because because we got imitation from I think Mary Ann in Aarhus, Denmark and we always go where invited always but that particular incident I just have this feeling I want to go to Copenhagen and I have no idea why there was no imitation absolutely none so I just said let's just be bold just post on Facebook does anybody want to invite us to Copenhagen and you actually heard the other side of the story two days earlier Soren there saw the message and responded within five minutes and said come but he was he was into the course way back and then he was very in a closed down state living on his own and he had a little foundation there and the foundation is into environmental issues so he came and he invited as long as you guys can talk about sustainability Jenny and I look at each other yeah we can talk about sustainability we will talk about true sustainability so that was our that was the one condition and that's the retreat we did with the title true sustainability and Soren later on said I didn't understand the word you said there but that was the retreat I met Soren that's the retreat I met Svava and our lives just changed completely but basically I didn't mention to Soren after hearing that he was a documentary filmmaker I mentioned oh you know this project we don't know when we don't know whether it's going to happen but let's stay in touch but actually six seven months after that this project suddenly came into awareness again completely orchestrated because all throughout the years you know occasionally this thought came up in my mind Jesus with my dream even real anymore are you really going to make a movie anymore what is going on and Jesus just said to me once he said you just relax it's already done it's already done so I thought okay then I will just wait and forget about it so then what happened was we had suddenly a lot of people just synchronistically came and wanted to be part of a project and particularly a movie project that's I think how the whole thing got started in my awareness I remember that meeting we were at La Casa there by the pool and there was a meeting and talking and I think that was my part right there too I was just saying over and over well it's not about the movie as a product it will be about just following guidance and like with everything else it won't be different from other things and so as long as you don't get too wrapped up into the mindset of thinking you're doing a movie in the future and you just stay present with listen and follow I said it's going to work out great but I felt there was such a synergy too because there was one person there that was saying I can be the director another person I think if he's the director I'm out of this project and all kinds of things swirling around there but there was a real synergy like something was coming and it was another listen follow forgiveness opportunity really a swirl of energy and you felt that too I think at that meeting like something's happening I mean over for those years before that point it was really learning to be patient and also forget about the expectation and the go-up anymore knowing that it's really about this end goal being following just following is the goal itself it doesn't really matter about anything anymore but when this synchronicity started to happen I still got really surprised does that mean that this is the movie that's going to happen is your team ready Jesus? Jesus is like yeah I'm going to send you the team you don't even need to go out to look for people so he sent the people and among them there was one guy from Portugal he actually is he just went the best cinematographer which is like the cameraman the best cinematographer almost like an equivalent of Oscar in Portugal so he is the most experienced established and acclaimed cinematographer in the film industry in Portugal so how he got sent in was because his son came to the monastery to volunteer and we knew of him and we thought he applied to come to the mystery school and so we called him and he said yeah yeah I can come and I can bring my father and we just marked the whole month of May to want to be a time of inward and quiet he heard silence in his mind so we thought okay great both Raphael and his father are coming we have an amazing cinematographer then later on we realized it wasn't this Raphael who applied so it was just a complete coincidence a mistake but they came anyway just sending him in from all angles whether we know what's happening or not the team is being assembled and a translator because Raphael could do some but but his father spoke only Portuguese so we ended up praying and flying in a friend of ours Teresa all the way from Portugal to help with the translating so it was quite an interesting team that got sent in we didn't know what to expect yeah and we didn't know who is doing to do what the only one that was clear was this acclaimed camera person gonna be our cinematographer that was the only one clear and we asked Soren and he said he wants to focus on sound and then the other guy who was gonna be director pulled out because originally I thought I was just a visionary for this project and I can be there in support emotionally and then when the director pulled out everybody look at me okay you're gonna be the director now and I thought I don't know what what it means to be a director she went to google and typed in director I typed what does a director do in the movie and then there's basically interviews and basically everybody said everything that's the answer what a director do for a movie everything and then at that point I was still thinking how can that be because I really I'm gonna do everything and then from that point I was about 10 days before the team gonna arrive and then this one volunteer who was with me and she said I really feel inspired we need to get started we need to buy hard drives now because they take 10 days to arrive if we don't buy anything when the team arrive there's no equipment, no hard drive and I said okay what do you order what kind of hard drive I don't know I don't know what kind of camera should we run I don't know so it was so so much urgency at that point and so many decisions to make and there was clearly nobody else I can turn to sometimes you have to be pushed in that position there's nobody else so I just have to say okay then it's you and I now and I'm just gonna ask you and go with what I hear and I actually have no room I cannot afford to question what I hear anymore you know if I hear I'm go forward with it and then let's just let's get rolling that's how it got started and then when the team arrived this yeah this I was so leaning on this cinematographer he's the most experienced so I ask him for everything what do you think and on day one he basically just said you're the director you tell me I do whatever you say I was like it's almost like you just tell me the note I'll write it for you it was like that shocking and I was feeling oh my god I'm gonna direct him how embarrassing because it's the upside down world versus listen and follow you can see so clearly just from this that you have this world famous cinematographer coming in and then saying you tell me you're the director and she's just thinking okay Jesus now it's you and I because I'm gonna either follow you or look like a fool to this award winning cinematographer and the other thing that's cool about it you know from my perspective because I we're doing a mystery school which is people how many 20 20 people coming from all over the world for 30 days I know Lisa Emily been doing interviewing them coaching them counseling them for like a whole year just to get there because they're like I can't come I'm a paralyzed I can't and then I so all of those 20 people who are coming for the mystery school have huge miraculous backstories just to get there and I'm aware of a lot of these backstories and some of you probably in the audience that were I'm not sure how many were there for that for that person. Nicoline is here you were there but there's big backstories with all the participants coming and then all the staff and teachers there I know all their backstories how they were called out of the world how they followed over months and years to go into their devotion to even be there at the monastery at that particular time and then Raphael whose father is the world famous cinematographer there's a whole giant back story on on him not only wasn't he the Raphael you thought but he was the Raphael that ended up bringing his father in and he was over here in Europe when we had another community down in Spain and Jenny and I were both contacted by him because he was in Portugal and he was losing the use of all of his five senses he started to go blind and he started to go deaf and he started not being able to feel things or smell things he literally started to lose all of his five senses and he didn't know what was happening it's something he felt it could be something spiritual or whatever but what's the diagnosis for losing all five of your senses at once that'd be hard for any doctor to even diagnose and then basically his parents were getting Acasio and his mother were getting very frightened because they think oh my god our son is dying he's shutting down he's closing down we can't reach him he needs help a doctor can't help him and so they cried out for help actually we got these messages from Raphael and he's like please help me and everything and I just prayed to Jesus and Jesus said just get him over to the monastery in Portugal over to Utah and get him out in rural Utah to the monastery and I'll take care of him so it's like okay so we did we got him out there and slowly when he was way out at this monastery he began to get his his sight back his hearing he couldn't even listen to or watch a TV show or a movie because it was too intense for his hearing and his sight but Jesus nurtured him back so what I'm saying there's a whole backstory on each one of the people that are going to be on the team that are going to be there at the mystery school that are going to be teaching there's giant backstories but it's very quantum it's like it's all for one purpose which is lesson and follow that's the only unifying purpose behind all the backstories I don't know if you're hearing your senses whether it's I feel depressed I don't know what my life's calling is I need joy I need love I need to experience happiness and they all have parables of how they all got there just like you all have amazing backstories on how you seem to be here now and some of you have shared those this is like it's like a huge orchestration just for listen and follow just for forgiveness is the only way I can even describe it that's why when the original four asked Jesus the plan for the future he said I can't even tell you because they involve people you haven't met it was the same now all the team but we didn't meet each other until much much later on so at the beginning when I had the inspiration there was no way to understand when and how it's going to happen and if you look at the timeline even symbolically from when I thought I was so ready for listen and follow assignment to the point I was given you know I was given many other assignment but not to the degree this is purely just you and Jesus and absolutely nothing else so this is not only I had to learn listen and follow but I can talk a little bit more in the end it was listen follow Jesus and nothing else that nothing else is a big learning part as well so basically that's from that point of willing willing ready mind trained three months already to to I was given an assignment just to purely be taken by Jesus on a ride it's six years and so basically by the time we started like David said all of these people who came and some of the stories I knew a little bit but I didn't really know anybody's full picture we just okay this is the team you know later on I find out Soren he just he was living in spiritual community he was very spiritual from very early on but there is one thing he just feel he's very shy and he he closed down for ten years before he came living alone in his private apartment in Copenhagen locked into some kind of deep anger and shame and that's how I met him when I met him and then when I invited him but at that point because yesterday someone in the afternoon asked what is the one if you give me one someone ask Emily if you give me one pointer to start a community is that one pointer and I thought it was a very good question because that applies to anything living together living together leading a team together collaborating on any project together if there's one thing then it is make sure we have the same goal because that goal if it is not the same at upfront all the reflections ongoing will be countless disagreements and conflicts on the surface it looks like just specific problems but it's all coming from not in agreement of the very goal so and I thought I really did not know these people most of them who came and I really did not know how to lead a team to make a movie but there is one thing I do know is by that point I know that we have to have the same purpose and I'm gonna make sure everybody know that before they come so I asked Sorin and I said yes it is making a movie but it is for healing are you up for it? it's most and foremost for healing it's most and foremost Sorin said yes absolutely everybody else said the same thing and one more step that was in there too you would think you are moving in the direction now teams being assembled you are gonna film a movie and most people would say well one of the decisions that you would seem to need to make pretty early on is who you are gonna film for the movie and so Francis a lot of us were talking and initially there was an idea that we would film Nicolines here and the participants the ones 20 people were coming from all around the world that they will be there at the monastery the film team will come together they'll film the participants and capture all the healing and emotions and capture it all like a documentary no that wasn't the plan at all because as soon as they started to ask people to sign release forms people were like hell no I'm not coming for a month of my life to come for healing and bear my soul and pour everything out when I'm going through my dark night of the soul for you to what while I'm crying and mucus is coming you want me to sign a release form to film what? no no it's like Jesus saying I got it it's already done but you humans you always think you know what everything is gonna be every step of the way it's like so you're like saying so I'm not going to be they're not gonna be the focus of the film you knew it would be healing you knew it would be the same shared purpose you knew it would be listen follow and then Jesus flips the whole thing around yeah I mean the reason is because the mystery school came in a year in the planning and preparation and the movie only came in two months before so the whole time when the mystery school is a complete separate inspiration and a big project and it took a year to develop this relationship and trust with the 20 people around the world who were gonna come so there were a lot of interviews there were a lot of steps with them by the teacher and the facilitators already so when this project came in it was clearly guided the same month clearly so it was very clear to me that that's what we're gonna film because this is the month we're gonna have two projects at the same location so the mystery school is going to be the backdrop that we're gonna film for but then the movie came so late so by the time we say we're gonna have a movie that is like oh help break loose everybody what no no no no no no and I think a few people did what do you call pull out from you know from the school before the school started because we told everybody it's gonna be a movie project and again I thought okay I don't know how to control the outcome but one thing I know is I just need to clearly communicate and share and then whatever happens happens so I told everybody this is what's gonna happen if you have issue call me and then we can have a phone call with every participant before they arrived and I think a few people pull out there was not only participants that pulled out but also among everyone who had been working for the better part of a year to prepare for this and then boom we're doing a movie inside of it there was resistances reactions and so on you know how it is when you in your family you have hey I got a great idea not everybody always thinks that your great idea is such a great idea and it's no different even with spiritual community or whatever but it takes a trust to just say like you were saying it's just you and Jesus and so you're just relying on Jesus and nothing else because just like the two and last night you know they had to basically you notice like during the movie last night they were always kind of looking around whether they could share food and looking at the people they were looking at the audience now imagine you're making a film and usually filmmakers almost all filmmakers in the world have to come clear about who is the audience that I'm making the movie for and Jesus is helping us be so intuitive that that question is gone oh you're making it for your own mind healing here and you're not making it for a specific audience that's hugely different imagine a recording artist or a filmmaker producer that's like one of the major questions who are you making the film for who are you trying to reach and Jesus is in there yeah I know who you're trying to reach me you're trying to reach God is what you're doing but you see how different that is from the horizontal goals that a filmmaker might have or a singer you know it's pretty radical you look at it because there was no end goal we don't know who we're making this for in terms of external audience so it's purely for ourselves then because of that we don't know the stories to tell either we don't know what kind of theme what is to film but so it's purely an inward journey so there was absolutely no script no story lines just okay then today give me the prompt where to set the camera and who to film tomorrow it's like now now now that was how the months unfolded it turned out that we didn't really turn the camera on to the participants even they all signed whoever came did sign the release form where Jesus didn't really instruct as to turn the camera on them all the camera got to turn on the movie team because we have so many healings and expressions among ourselves just by doing the project and kitchen team that was supporting the whole mystery school so all the volunteers were there doing the actual mind training who are going through the issues with their relationships with each other that's who the camera turned on in the end and yeah I think I think also with with the initial purpose because I was telling everybody who came to the mystery school and to the movie team that the purpose is healing so when it become to be at one point became to be really almost like a decision point do we do the movie or not because people are really against this idea and I just started to pray and I heard Jesus say you are doing this for healing so is all the movie team so is all the participants who come so are all the facilitators the purpose of absolutely every single one on site is for healing the purpose even if there is separate projects and if you leave it to me I can show you there is no conflicts as long as the purpose is the same so I relaxed after I heard that so I told everybody there is no separate purpose we are all here for healing let's leave it to Jesus to guide and that's how it got started yeah and there is also you might ask are there any other back stories too with this of course there are like for example when I was traveling around the United States, Canada and the world I would basically just show up and things like this event were orchestrated amazing organizers, course of miracles teachers course facilitators teachers email lists I've spoken in halls like this in South America in different parts of the world with translators simultaneous translators there is a swirl of activity that goes into I call it the quantum scene you know it's all really it's just Jesus orchestrating time and space it seems like it's all these characters even with the movie though it's like when I would travel back in the early days I would just show up and let the spirit pour through me and occasionally somebody would have one of these little Walkman kind of or cassette recorders to put a little cassette recorder near me to capture whatever was happening and the quality wasn't the greatest typically I was in like people's living rooms they'd be sitting in there they'd put the cassette recorder down people would put their drinks on the coffee table there's a lot going on and then the dog comes in and tail goes whoosh just knocks the whole thing over so people would listen to the cassette recording they would hear glasses hitting the floor dogs barking talk about no tech team oh no we didn't have a tech team Jesus was just saying go out have some fun and just let me speak through you and don't give any thoughts to anything you know whatever's happening be not distracted by whatever's going on and then people started showing up with video cameras and to film this was where the early YouTube they'd be there can you do the filming yeah I got a camcorder and they'd be like and then I was like well it is a video so let's put it up and then people watch it they're used to watching Eckert Muji they're like what the hell are they like on drugs or drunk I mean you know can't they like hold the camera steady at least you know and it's real grainy you know it's like so the beauty of it is with this we should mention that there were donations that one of the people that was at the mystery school and that is pretty prominent in the film is also a benefactor what do we call them a patron donating money because again now we're going to make what a regular motion picture that is such a high quality that can be shown at a theater you know talk about instead of this the grainy little ones now you need bigger cameras you need booms, you need microphones you need all kinds of equipment and so there was an aspect donations come in Francis goes shopping it wasn't like a movie warehouse rental you can renting equipment purchasing equipment there's a lot that goes in but even all that was just orchestrated like Jesus said don't worry it's already done there's a lot of guidance that comes into the money the renting you know all those things so we're just trying to give you a full picture of when you just say yes then even to something like this there's a lot that has to come in those things are really coming in very effortlessly the money came in and by you know support but it's not even though every element is there all the teams members are there it's not easy it's still so much you know you have to give into to remember we finally decided on the camera when the cinematographer from Portugal came he said this is the camera we should go for 4K not even high definition high definition is 1080 1K we get 4K so four times the high definition we got three of those cameras was really good and we rented and bought one and rented the rest and we got back okay how do we use it he said I don't know he was so experienced that he doesn't operate cameras anymore he just his assistant does everything set it all up to the perfection he just come and have a look so I was like what are the settings I don't know so from the beginning I realized I cannot rely on absolutely anything and Jesus was like I can tell you how to how to do this and who to ask but don't look left and look right you know just ask me ask me for absolutely everything so that's really how it started and then I it was very you know from the beginning I knew I didn't know anything I knew that and I was not shy to tell my team I didn't know anything so I just know one thing I know how to communicate at that point I know how to make sure that the team would go together with a clear mind together whether our skills are good enough whether we gonna produce anything I have no idea but one thing I know how to move together as one unit with a clear mind how do we do that that's what I learned for all these years of preparation that we learned that okay we come together to start the project with a prayer hold that and every day you know I will be listening and write down the prompts and communicate and then I would expect at the beginning a lot of thoughts and frustrations and emotions I didn't know what they would be but I knew they would be so it was really just a matter of fact that's dedicate time that's dedicate space for that, that's the priority of the team you know you don't normally see the Hollywood movie studio do that let's have a month of shooting time and spend half of the day every day clear the mind and then see whether we get anything done for the rest of the day but that was I know how to do and that's the one thing that's the only thing I know how to do so let's do that and that makes the point that during those six years when Francis first came from Australia she was okay right let's do a movie there's no cameras there's no microphone and she didn't realize that she needed to go through like another five or six years of teach and learn and listen and follow because if if you're put in the director position for making a movie a director must lead that is one of the basics of what a director does on the set is leadership and so this is a perfect example of how the one who is supposed to be leading has never led a film team before so this puts it what all on listen and follow you see and that's why even in our community when people are given different positions of leadership we know that it is impossible to lead unless you can be led you see it'll blow up in your face if you try to be a leader of people but you're not tuned in to the Holy Spirit it's gonna blow up there'll be reactions resistances you to tell me what to do there has to be a sense of totally being led to even be used in a position of leadership you know I mean you've got examples in Europe of those who are in leadership that were not led Hitler it didn't go too well he was a leader who was not following and and we have Nazi camps and killing and lots of things that go on if the ego is your leader and you're following that it's a very different leadership than being led by spirit and then using that mechanism in the end it will wash away the whole idea of leader follower because Jesus is like you know everyone is perfectly equal don't go ahead I may not follow don't stay behind me I may not lead walk beside me and hold my hand on the self same road and equality leads to the experience of forgiveness but in this particular case this is like such an extreme example because you didn't have really past learning of a director or filmmaking to fall back on and even when you were tempted to turn here or there for advice or your cinematographer says I don't know how to set a camera you know that was another assumption like wow you're a world class cinematographer and now you just sit back and watch yeah that's what they pay me to do I don't know how to run the camera anymore you know and then again back back Jesus and nothing else you know that really is such a good example of how this this works and that's also why I think you know we talked about no private thoughts and no people pleasing this whole exercise was an exercise of having almost like channeling a film without trying to please others without looking to others for approval and also to be a really good communicator which you would practice you know on to private thoughts because if you are analyzing the motives of others or wondering what's going on here and there you can be intuitive only to let the spirit speak through you but not for any other reason yeah because my team they're pretty in different ways pretty strong in their own ways and they all have an idea what the movie should be so I'm here thinking I really don't know and everybody seem to have ideas every single day and at the beginning I listen and listen and at one point it felt no I'm not listening to any of the opinions anymore I'm listening to this and my role is to tell you to hear and tell not this way that was a big step up because when I do that I had to face a lot of projections and a lot of upsets and a lot of disappointments I have really good idea but you hurt me you don't want to hear me you know that was a lot but also given the time that was really tight we don't have time and I have to prioritize and that lesson is the lesson of listen and follow but also be so strong I think that's what during the two years of this project if the six years before that was just preparing for me to be ready to take a project then this two years in the making is to shift from be willing to listen follow to the point of you know strong and be listen and follow only one voice not anything else because that's the time I would say that was tempted so tempted because inside there is this still the desire to be told by people by the experienced ones tell me I think there must be still either laziness or confidence to receive everything everything but that was my assignment receive everything so from that point if I jump to the end also I want to talk a little bit about collaboration because this project I really did not do anything if I have if this is there is a moral in this story I really wanted to be about how little how little I have done anything throughout the whole thing I waited for six years you know just be patient learn the patience and be just be ready and be ready and then during these two years filming one month and then the rest of the time just editing I was really all my all my job was just to listen and be there to speak up and hear and not hear anything else that's it and everybody else was sent to collaborate so the first day of the mystery school the mystery school happened all the team arrived all the equipment was there and David got this strong prompt to invite Nada to come to the mystery school for two weeks and Nada came she just wrote beautiful song and then she played at the opening of the mystery school and after the song I didn't hear it because I was absent in that session and I came back to the house everybody said you have a name you have a name for your movie that song is the name of your movie take me home so the name was given to me on day one I didn't come up with it and the theme song was given to me by Jesus through Nada so all those elements came in to be open to collaborate in such a big dance and my little part is so small and yet my part is for me in a way and everybody's part is for me as well but also there's an internal journey going on for everybody that is part of it it's like a huge example because I know a lot of you as you've listened to us and as we've gone through this week you probably are having some of those thoughts like wow if I say just yes lead me, guide me what will be asked of me what are you going to have me do and in the end the miracle is collaborative but the miracle is ultimately that you start to realize that you aren't the doer, you aren't the body you aren't the one you know how much stress and anxiety we have over feeling like we are the doer I have to do this I have to do this or else if I don't do this I'll let people down I can't face that I'll just be guilty I want to crawl in a hole I can't face that this is always coming from the identification with the timeline and with the body, with the doer and what Francis is sharing is she not only was given the dream and the inspiration for the movie Jesus saying I'll take care of it but it took a lot of patience to even forget about it have Jesus bring it back in but even during this process you're saying I did so little because that was what all the mind training was for was to just listen and follow and don't identify with the doer so in the end you can see that should be another incentive to listen and follow because Jesus says in the Course it cannot be difficult to do the task that Christ has appointed you to do for it is He who does it oh my gosh it is He who does it in the end it's Christ, JC Central that orchestrates everything it's Christ that seems to be using all the symbols but the you that seems to have the weight and the burden the heavy shoulders that's what's getting undone is the belief that you're that person that has to do things to think of all the strain that we experience and the stress of feeling we have to do things and think of all the guilt of believing we've done the wrong things or we've done things that are not good and somehow there's some kind of penalty or whatever or a feeling of wrongness for the things we've done there was a point in my life too where Jesus said you have never done anything wrong and I was like what? and He said and you have never ever done anything right either I was shocked with the first one but the second one was like think about it for a minute you've never done anything wrong and you've never done anything right because it's been your identification with the body and with the person that was done wrong, done right that's really deep but that's where He's lifting us to above the battleground is not a place of doing let me see the world differently let me see the world differently and that's with Jesus with the Holy Spirit again this is like talk about a miracle case study this is like a miracle case study just filled with examples that in the end I had to keep praying and praying and tuning in but it just was light and that's the way I feel with the travels and the talks and the gatherings and all the stuff over the last 30 years I can't really say it cost me anything because it's been a joy actually and that's I got that early on in my life one time when I was out driving back I think in the in the 1980s, late 80s and I was looking and there was a car in front of me with a bumper sticker and so I get close as I can so I can read the bumper sticker because I'm getting so many messages from the bumper sticker and I'm used to seeing in the old days I was used to seeing bumper stickers life's a bitch and then you die but this time I get close to see the bumper sticker and it says life's a joy and then you ascend and I'm like oh my god that's my life philosophy on a bumper sticker I'm not going to forget that and that's what we mean by you are not the doer when you give way to this glorious miracle it's like everything is mystical everyone's playing their part perfectly and you're like watching this thing thank you for allowing me to behold the ease the divine ease of it's you're doing it I'm being done through by the spirit and what a great way to really I mean really experience that during the filming of this movie yeah because I you know I in the last few days I talked with some of you and I do notice and connect with this theme of unworthiness and feeling like there's feeling I'm not good enough I'm not I don't have what it takes somehow to do this and I feel very relate to this at the beginning especially because I think even a couple of years after I joined the community there was a reading I did recommended by a friend this reader is a corset miracle psychic so he uses corset language to understand but he give you a reading about your you know ego and so I I just when I can't remember the reading but I did say ask him at the end I said I feel so unworthy and weak like how what do I need to do to feel strong and he just pause for the longest time but then at the end he said you have no hope that's the end and I was like what because the question it was really what do I need to do to because I I'm ready you know I'm so willing and so eager to heal and to feel this worthiness but when he said you have no hope that was how I learned and I was like wow somehow that ended me to keep searching for that actually and for years after I always remember what he said but what I took from that was maybe there was no hope in this world because I really never became more confident in this world I didn't feel ever you know I got it I improved myself to the degree that I feel good about myself now there was no sense of self improvement I'm laughing because I'm thinking at that moment you have no hope that sounds like that was the end of your belief in self improvement okay then you're gonna have to show me internally it was so shocking that I didn't even know how to move forward from that point in my mind mentally because I was also thinking and so it was some kind of stop was brought but right now I can laugh about it because right now I feel after this project it was a clear feeling that you know with myself I can do nothing but with him everything is possible and I don't need to feel I don't need to feel strong of myself actually I feel good that I don't feel strong on my own somehow I started to turn around like yeah I don't feel and I'm happy with that now because I want to rely on him always you know after this especially after this experience it's not so much the fact that a movie got made it proved anything it's more the internal journey that I had finished for the last two and a half years taught me something this is the process that I take away not an end product but I take away this this internal journey that I know that Jesus is with me and I know I can just ask and that's all I need to do that was reinforced day in and day out for two years, two and a half years and that habit was ingrained now in my mind and that is really the only gift I walk away because someone asked me are you gonna make a second movie I said I'm in the same space I still don't know how to make a movie I have no improvement after a movie project I have a little bit of improvement in this certainty that I can hear Jesus and I will ask him that's the certainty I gained I also feel like I'm thinking of those years during the six years of communication and mind training there is a point we work with so many people all over the world so it's kind of like a global ministry with centers here and centers there doing this and leading this and this and I was quite active with a lot of it but you know Jesus worked with the apostles and Jesus was pretty active in the upper room and all the meetings with the apostles and everything but remember those scenes from 2000 years ago where they would kind of be wandering out toward the hills and everything and Jesus would say to the apostles I'm going off to pray now and I'm leaving you so watch your minds because I'm going off to commune with the Father so I've had that, there was a time during those six years where I've been so active and working so closely with so many people and I felt that Jesus was saying now just step back and just commune just go into the stillness and commune you don't need to be so seemingly active and interactive and then Jesus said Francis will lead the ministry that was in those six years too well that brought up that's another thing and then there was lots of reactions and everything but Francis strength has not been the problem because when Francis gives herself over to Spirit the Spirit is very uncompromising the Spirit has a lot of confidence and strength and it just came through and I remember it took a little while for you that was another letting go and getting out of the way but then it just would come through she would have meetings with people very matter of fact she could just be very direct with people because the Spirit was coming through her that was very helpful for me too because that was the time I was to really step back and then of course there was just like with the movie team there was some reflections one of our friends that came out and said Francis is like a little Chinese general now now that is not actually a description of weakness when you get called a Chinese general but this was how when the Spirit comes through you it's like let your yay be it's not kind of wishy-washy oh maybe boom boom boom boom ok next meeting boom boom boom boom boom ok next meeting boom boom boom this is what I was doing for years in all my meetings direct direct ok next meeting I'm dying I'm going to kill myself here's the guidance ok next meeting I mean it's so it's so strong for one time I was in Pennsylvania and I'm driving through Pennsylvania and one of the students is calling and the cell phone and I'm going there reception what is it what is it I'm in hell I'm going through my dark night I'm dying here I'm I'm suicidal I'm suicidal I think I'm going to kill myself oh well you know I'm just in charge here this is not personal at all and then I go drive a little bit further I got cell reception to get phone I could kill myself I'm sorry I'm listening oh well you start to realize it's the spirits in charge and you're not doing anything it's just not personal you're there to offer your heart you're there to let the spirit pour through you and offer all the love and joy and acceptance of it is but you have no control over the outcomes not suicides not following not following you know you start to realize it's all for your mind it's all one lesson for you to be peaceful to be still that's the whole lesson of everything there aren't separate purposes and Francis is saying I have no desire to be powerful it's also with the sense of I have a desire my full desire is to listen and follow and to be uncompromising in listening and following not to argue back with the guidance not to be wishy-washy and when tell so and so this not to go I don't want to say that just deliver the message you know often times that's the way the spirit is so it's good because what you're really talking about is true strength strength of the spirit following the spirit it's not a personal kind of strength not at all really and when we start to be following Jesus in a very uncompromising way I think it is inevitable we face a lot of the seeming disagreement and conflict they seem to be external only because they're reflecting of internal uncertainty and I definitely see that of myself because you know looking back I feel it is very clear from the when I started the project till when I ended the project at the beginning how much I still want to listen to external sources and do not feel I can hear from within and the external definitely reflects back you can imagine for someone like Soran who invited me to do a sustainability talk and the next time we saw each other he came to make a movie you know though we did say healing was the goal but he came to make a movie and then there's listen to me what listen to you who don't know anything we should position the camera here focus on your audio let me handle the camera oh you no that's that's the constant but to me I feel like I see that external reflections really is only pointing to an internal conflict they're not going to be there forever when I become more and more certain and that is definitely my experience because because I did practice this you know even yesterday some people talk yeah it's easy to share no private thoughts with community because you have the shared agreement yes that's very true that's why we do encourage you start there start with someone that have the shared agreement have the shared purpose have the shared context and we feel safe with each other because we're doing it for ourselves our mind cannot be too frightened to open up you know we can't open up when we're in a state of fear so it is definitely the case I spend years to practice this to learn to open up and know I'm safe in the safe community then when the team came they still they're all still very devoted a little less context so it takes a lot for me to relay the context to talk and to be very clear and to speak up and that is definitely a lesson when you work for Jesus you need to speak up you cannot there is no room when you lead something there is no room to be a victim I cannot point at my team to say someone someone is no no there is no room it's all me it's all me because it's my am I clear did I say that you know it's all come back to it there is no room to be a victim that's a wash away from pointing fingers to anything if I see anything I need to check I need to pray and listen and deliver so it's very clear and then after this this years a couple of years of leading my team Sorin actually from just came for one month only and then he's gonna go back and continue his life he came back and stayed you can see he's part of the community now so after these two years then finally many many times in the process I ask whether because we have the funds we can outsource any element of the movie to a professional you know we can give a professional musician to do the score which is the music we can give a professional person to do something and Jesus always says no no it's all for the ones he bring over for the sole purpose of mind training so everything was done in the house by amateurs through the purpose of collaboration and mind training through out to music to everything until the very last month then I was given two studios to do the final color balancing and the sound balancing which we do not have the equipment to do anymore and that to me it was one step further to actually be so clear with studio Hollywood studios who have absolutely no context of this work at all and for me clearly I don't know what I'm talking about and they are the ones who are professional who make professional movies who are the professional studios and for me to come direct them that was another step up and that's where the final lesson that with Jesus I don't need to refer to any external and that was so mind blowing to me because before that point I still have this fantasy we are amateurs and by the point I can give it to professionals everything will be done it was so wonderful it's going to be easy money can buy it it's going to be easy I will be able to sit back and relax that is a huge mind opener by that time myself and my team have gone through years of mind training when I started communicate with the professional studios I realized that underneath their work there's no inspiration so it was going through the motions day in and day out you can imagine you know this is the world where a lot of people don't really know how to find their spark in every moment so they accept a compromise and the compromise is I can live most of the time just in comfort and going through the motions most of the time is boring and is not so happy but maybe there's some good days I will be on holiday for two weeks every year I will be having family Christmas dinner and they're professionals so professionals paid you will see the salary for your skills for your abilities for what you do you don't necessarily have done a lot of emotional healing but you can go and do a competent job and get paid a salary for it and so like that's a huge step in the sense of thinking okay it's come this far now the professionals they've got it and they get paid so of course they'll do a great job and yet it almost like came back also I was thinking of we don't want to skip over the editing because how much footage how many hours of footage 300 hours 300 hours of footage has to come down to one hour and 20 minutes it's like it's like Michelangelo you know it's like imagine the statue of David in Rome you know it starts off what as a block of marble and then takes a lot of taking away you have to take away a lot of marble before you have this beautiful marble statue in one sense Francis again is not a filmmaker but it's one thing just to make it through the team the issues the resistances the tech issues and and shooting all this footage 300 hours of footage and then begins the cutting away what's the movie about what will emerge what story is to be told what's to come that was a huge listen and follow thing just there even before you go to the professional and that was a long phase actually a very long phase two years of editing Soren helping out different ones Peter you know there's a whole team a lot of listen and follow there and then this part with the professionals is almost like once you make it through the editing you think now I'm home free no Soren actually after the project because he always planned that's it after the one month of shooting his part was done so he went back home to Copenhagen and then we feel so connected through the months like it feels like inseparable anymore and then Soren said to me I'll come back to Mexico to help you editing and he came back two months later with a finished movie he edited it himself and because he is a filmmaker and he brought the movie and I watched it I said no and that was the beginning of our next phase of collaboration but that you did a pretty good job you were like you took instructions the sound guy no you're the sound guy no you're the sound guy you're the sound guy 300 hours of footage off goes Soren I'm more than the sound guy I am a great documentary filmmaker I'll just make my own film Francis no so it's like undoing the self concept undoing washing rinsing rinsing rinsing because it's like in the end we're saying Jesus you lead the way Jesus it's your movie Jesus it's your ministry Jesus it's your everything why is it Jesus everything well because he was the first one to complete his part in the atonement he was the first one to realize who he was and then what does it say in the course he was put in charge of the plan of atonement that's why everything is under Jesus's control we always talk about Christ control that's our great prayer every day let me be under Christ control let me be guided let me be led because wouldn't you want the one who's made it through the keyhole and escape time and space to be the one that's leading you or do you want to just speculate you know so this is a really good example about how even with the editing then with the professionals you were paying you might mention like the colorization and how that whole thing went well first of all to reach that point you know was so yeah it was just not easy but it's very very rewarding you know so I have been editing you know bounce back and forth we have two systems in two different houses so we send files huge humangas we have this big hard drive stationary hard drive we send our file back and forth we have a cold file very small and then we can open it up in each computer when we change something but by the point we're going to take it to Portugal to the professional studio we never take the file offline ever so they have never left our hard drive on our own computer before but I'm now going to take it off into a small hard drive that I can travel to Portugal so I thought let's just try it we finally reached that point that the movie is logged in logged in and then let's just take it offline and when we take it offline that was hell because we couldn't open the file anymore yeah when we reached that point we took it offline and we started to try it back and forth we could not open the file at first it was part of the file couldn't open and then more and more and the whole thing neither of us could open the file anymore I'm sure that brought up the belief in loss they were like don't tell me we went through all that and we've lost the file yeah I know David actually all throughout the process has been keep saying it's not about the product it's not about the product and that point was like maybe it's really not about the product maybe it's literal so basically Sorin sent the file because we were working on Apple system so we sent it to Apple Technician who developed the software and just to analyze they said give us three days we're going to analyze the file and see how to revive it and during the three days we got nothing to do because we were finished and Sorin just said the file structure that we were working on were very complicated layers on layers on layers and layers he said it's just like my mind it's so messy and he said let me clean it up let me just you know it's lost but I as a follow up I just clean up the file anyways in his hard drive so he did clean up then Apple came back after three days saying it's corrupted it's not reversible or sorry guys it's done and then after they announced it the file came back after Sorin cleaned it up we have no idea what was the problem and how the solution happened except that he just decided to clean his mind as a symbol clean on the screen what he perceived as still messy that's all we did so finally Jesus probably was having fun too like what you guys are doing so good why don't we try to undo the belief in loss here I'll just throw some scenes in there and it will seem like you've lost everything now let's throw in the word corrupted it's corrupted it's irreversible can't bring it back and Jesus is like now we can really have some fun and forgive the belief in loss for once and forever so you don't have to replay this one over but you can see how different it is from how it looks in the world like oh my gosh I put my heart into this and this is everything I've worked for and now it's corrupted it's irreversible but from the perspective of listen and follow it goes on like Jesus is like oh this is fantastic we can really undo that wedged in belief in loss down in the unconscious this will flush it up I bet it did I mean I'm sure your emotions during that time it was so annoying we have also the team who got involved in Utah they were in Utah to call them our file is is gone that was that's the update yeah but also when the file came back you know it was so close to the time I travel we already bought the ticket way before and when I opened the file once I just thought put it on the hard drive I don't want to touch it anymore you can imagine when I flew when I was on the flight to Portugal how I just thought I don't know whether they can open this thing I would fly all the way over with something I just I don't want to touch anymore and I would go there and they would see whether they can open and I have just no idea what's going to happen a professional studio we just hired the Mexico team too it's like you signed a contract was it for finalizing and finalizing the sound so again this was like okay we made it this far we got our file we'll pay for the finalizing of the sound and this and this and these are the experts and then yet it's still all under the direction of spirit so even with professionals they can come in you know it's kind of like our movie next when the military the FBI was pretty much saying bravo coming here we'll do this and this and this and he's like please just do exactly as I say and I'll save your life that's what this is in our mind is Jesus is saying please just do exactly as I say and I'll save your life so that same scene plays out in numerous ways in Portugal but also in Mexico because in your mind you said well I've signed a contract a very big contract they're supposed to do all these things provide all these things but as Francis goes into the meetings when she's with her team she just very direct and this do this and this when you're working with professionals it can seem a bit more like the I know mine that's why they pay me the big bucks because I've got the good ideas and that's why I'm the professional and you're the amateur let me tell you what to do and so that played out in Mexico we signed two studios one in Mexico one in Portugal because at that time I didn't know where I was going to be so it just happened simultaneously and then the Mexico one was I will go into a little bit further finish this one with Portugal so basically I landed in Portugal and give them the file and they say we have other projects so we'll wait until next week so in the meantime you'll have the weekend you can just relax and throughout the weekend I just thought I don't know they can open it or not so Monday morning I walk into the studio and I see the movie on the screen laid out I was like thank god and they just basically told me everything is okay now and so I thought wow what a relief basically that time in Portugal was very good in that they're very professional but it's still like a little bit of fight of who is making the decision here because they're the expert we know how the color should look like and JP and I who were there we were like no we have a vision the color is this way no no no that's not how it is it's this way okay can you please just listen to me because I have a vision for this movie of course you're the director of course of course but it was like a struggle every single way but in the end it was a good collaboration very professional then I came back to Mexico it was oh my Mexico started sound like David said they signed a contract and I have a deadline I was going to Japan I only had two months there and then they said yeah yeah we will deliver this first phase at this date and by this date oh can we delay can we delay delay delay and by the time I said no actually no not anymore and can I ask what's the reason oh because I think I want to go have a holiday I said but we signed a contract we have a date didn't you work toward that date it's gonna be fine Francis it's going to be fine so it was like basically I have to be so firm I was so frustrated every time I left and David just came back and said just say what you mean to them you know be direct I said but we had a meeting there at the temple when things started to get frustrating with these people who they were getting paid and they were not following the contract following instructions when Francis started to get frustrated she would take it out on JP who helped with the sound you know she did and JP and JP was driving me to the meeting back and forth because it was an hour drive to the meeting and hour back so on the way they're not doing this so he's got an earful every time he drives me and so when we're having a morning meeting at the temple JP's like yeah I'm really getting an earful on these drives but Francis they're not doing this meanwhile Svava's recording her first album and she's using a professional studio in Guadalajara in Mexico too and they're like oh we don't know about this and this and we're not sure about this and this and so I was getting an earful from Svava about these professionals that are not doing their job so when we have our morning breakfast meeting I was just like listen Francis Svava you're paying these professionals a lot of money you are the customer you are paying them and you have a vision you have a vision for this music that comes from the spirit and this movie that's coming from spirit and they're the ones you're like the client they're the ones that are you're paying them so you need to tell them exactly what it is that you're being guided you can't think of them as professionals or Jesus this is for the whole universe you can't think of it in that horizontal kind of way so it's like Francis you're going to have to be really direct with here's the contract here's what's deliverables the things that I've been promised the time frame and everything she's teaching, she's going off to Japan she's doing trips like this this is a precise little time that she's available this isn't just oh yeah I can catch you later she's going to be in Japan after this thing and then the same as Svava she just wrote out this email very clear very direct and then she read me the email and she said can I send this said of course you can send this this is exactly what you're feeling this is exactly what your guidance is so it was really last night it was really true empathy it was just being a non-compromised true empathy like what are the instructions just follow the instructions and don't get into people pleasing just because you believe they're professionals and they should know better you know that's not the case that's not really the lesson and then we didn't you also had to let go of the outcomes Svava had to let go of the outcome of professionally produced album and you had to let go of the outcome of thinking that they would be able to do their job what was it with sound? yeah because also I feel like the quality of the work just I couldn't believe is this really professional how can the quality be this be this there is no care there is no inspiration there is no quality I always just reflect a confused mind when I receive it was mistakes everywhere it was typos everywhere and I was like oh my god so I have to basically give them a talk about paying attention to what you're doing and every time I go there they started to avoid because they wanted to talk I said I just want to talk about the quality I want to talk about the integrity and it was very very hard for both because I still believe they must know what they're doing and Jesus said I'm directing you and you can trust me this is where quality comes from quality is in a clear mind the ones who have a peace of mind delivers quality there is care there is inspiration there is clarity the ones who know the skills but there are no inspiration it's confusing so don't refer to confusion come back to clarity so continuously that's what I was in my communication I was missing my team because I thought that was more potato to talk to my team so supportive of me here is like you can't really talk about mind training you can't talk about forgiveness definitely not Jesus but let's talk about integrity let's talk about honesty let's talk about quality let's talk about what we have agreed on and even just that it takes a lot of communication but also throughout that last phase the listen and follow just continued on and there are just so many so many examples at the very end when made it and made it there was a big event which is going to the Adobe studio to balance all the sound in the Adobe studio and that's the most expensive process so the sound engineer pushed it all the way to if that is done no more adjustments, that's locked in so that's the last step the last step was pushed and pushed and pushed until two days before I fly to Japan so I said will you leave me no time if there's anything happen after that I cannot make any change anymore and he said nothing should change that's good that's the end so we and supposedly it's just very quick run-through because they charge by the hour so we did a quick run-through and the sound is completely out of sync so the dialogue and the mouth we spent long days correcting the sync and very very long day and I came back I was so tired and I said to JP I said I'm so tired I don't need any more to check one more time but I think this is our final product I should have a look and take it from the studio I should have a final look to know this is our final product so I said will you be able to help me do a final run tonight and he was just as tired but he said yes I will do a final run so we went and then by about 10 o'clock I said just give me not good even if it's good just let me know anyways because I just want to know so by the end of the night he gave me a thumb up so I thought what does that mean thumb up I said is that so that means it's all good and he said well you might not want to hear this it's a little out of sync I said how we saw everything on big screen how can it be out of sync so subtle that you might be able to live with it but I tell you I think because he's a musician so he's very sharp he said I think it is one frame out of sync which is a 25th of one second out of sync so I watched it and I watched it and I was like I can't tell but I don't know I can live with this so I said I'm gonna go to bed and then the next morning at 5 I was praying I said Jesus if it is your will to have it out of sync that's it if it is not your will you tell me because I have no I don't even have the eyes to judge anymore and then he woke me up at 5 he said go to Final Cut which is the program and use auto sync to find out and I was like auto sync I didn't even know there is auto sync function after two years of editing auto sync really but how I don't know how to I don't know how do I find how to use auto sync he said I'll show you so he showed in my mind literally what to do which button to click and then I flip out of bed go to the computer open my program check auto sync it was one frame out of sync JP was right and then I can truly relax and Jesus all told me the same thing and I was just like thank you Jesus that's how we finished the whole thing with a precision that he can show me in my mind how to operate a software that I don't know how to operate and in the end it also was again about no people pleasing and so forth so you are actually things were not going well in terms of with Mexico doing their part and so I remember you told me the story where you had signed this big thick contract and the last and it was down to the last day and you really needed help from Jesus and the sign like am I to go through with this or am I to fire the company that basically has been working on this in Mexico seems like again a decision to be made stay with them fire them and then when you fire them then then what comes after that at this stage she's even had communications with film festivals and all kinds of things going on and she still doesn't know if she'll have a movie imagine applying to film festival and oh yeah well there's one tiny thing here so she ends up you can tell the story you a page the last page of a contract falls onto the floor so you can imagine that was two days before I fly to Japan at the evening and the next morning I got this one frame corrected so that's the only one day left I can get everything the hard drive and all together then I'm ready to pack and leave the project also for good and I also have to do one more thing to ship it to Portugal ship the hard drive to Portugal and then so Marga Nicolín's sister was there on standby to ship it because FedEx closed at this hour so we were all like every part of ready to get it shipped and as I was putting and I thought okay this contract I don't want to use anymore I'm packing I'm going to throw it into the trash I'm clear out all my notes of two years I'm clear out all the paperwork I am done and then this one last page fell on the floor so I pick it up last page of the contract so I pick it up just to throw it in the trash bin and it says the deliverables of this Mexico form the deliverables I read I have this I don't have that I don't have that I don't have that I only have one of the four things they promised what so I called them and said this is not what we agreed on this doesn't matter Francis you got what you need that's enough it's good the rest of it is not important I said but that's our contract it takes a long time I said I'm flying tomorrow this needs to be happening today didn't they say let the team in Portugal they can handle the stuff that we didn't do the three things out of the four you see it just keeps coming and coming all for mind training all just say what you mean follow through basic integrity that any of us would have that Portugal team they can handle they just simply do this I said no but that's not their job it's your job and it's on paper so the last day I said you're doing this today and they're so angry but that's that's how I have to to make this project finish to really hold you know hold true to all our agreement it's not to be taken lightly because even though there are form they're just as any other form in the time and space it's not to be taken seriously but somehow the shared agreement especially when we pray on things and when we agree on it's actually to be followed through I learned that from Jesus you know when I pray and Jesus give me a very clear instruction I'm carrying it through to the end because not because the end result or anything it's because where it's coming from so that was very important to me so I basically just said to Marga hold off sending it to FedEx we have to send it today so I'm gonna make sure that happens so I was on the call with Mexico team from morning till end and they finished I think by about five o'clock so we can send it before FedEx close and that was in the next morning I flew I left Mexico and so the saga continues then they send two hard drives of the movie over to Portugal and so they send it over so that the Portuguese company can then carry it forward and do what they're gonna do is handling the image and Mexico handling the sound so in the end these two elements gonna be merged together and we decided to have the Portugal team do the merging so the Mexico we just send the whole file over to be merged and so Francis calls me up and she says well we sent two hard drives and to send it over to Portugal so we go to this company to do the final merge you know it's getting down now we're getting down toward the end of that part we aren't into distribution you're all part of that tonight but we're talking about the final merge and then she says there's an issue and I said what's the issue she said well there I was in Japan you were in Japan she said the Portuguese immigration is holding the hard drives and they will not release them they are in immigration and they will not release them and she said the credit card that we're using from the movie team they are somehow they have our credit card and the immigration and immigration is charging us every day and holding both hard drives necessary for the team over there to do it holding it every day and charging a fee a daily fee for holding it and I said but why is immigration it's almost like it's not like cocaine or although in Portugal you know anything goes I'm still thinking is immigration holding hostage the film at this stage you know firstly it was corrupted and now it's caught up in international politics immigration will not release it and will charge a penalty to the credit card every day and she said well I'm going to have to get to the bottom of it then we find out that it's because the recipient which is a studio owns the government tax and the government say we will not release the hard drive until you pay the tax and it's a big amount and the studio said we will not pay that tax so how long the hard drive will be there indefinite and they had only a week because the Cannes Festival and everything was approaching they're fully booked except a week for our project and and they the hard drives were held that was also another letting go we're like okay we really reached the end and this is this is it it's like you can do one thing then the next and the next and then the immigration they are holding the hostage and they will not release them because of the big tax and everything so it's like now but everything happens for forgiveness it's the only purpose it's not ever about the product it's not about anything it's not about the festival showing the film so then the next thing you got guided to do was to send the film over the internet you know how big the file is because you sent it on two hard drives but they've been captured at the border and they're being held hostage and so you ended up how long did it take to send? three days three days to send the file over to Portugal to the company over the internet bypassing the border because Susana called me from Utah I was in Japan with Kirsten and she's like what do we do Francis there's no hope to be finished I said let's just pray so we hang up and I prayed and I said to Jesus what is this for? Jesus said for a miracle and I was so happy so I caught her back I said this is for a miracle so let's just be miracle minded and let's not worry about the rest of it and then gradually in the next day or something the prompt came let's just send it over to the internet so they take a team a whole team in Mexico borrow the house from our friend who have fiber optic and move the computers over to their house and did a three day project over there with a collaboration so thus with God all things are possible and that was just to complete the whole phase then on distribution of the next phase in terms of really now it's how Jesus would you use this movie applying to film festivals and looking at different options and everything but I think that's been kind of evolving and getting clear maybe you can share a little bit about the way that it's just day by day we're discovering I think the thing is this whole journey was such a big lesson to just let him lead the way and do my part which is very minimal listen and follow and don't attempt to skip steps and don't attempt to look too far ahead so after we finished everything we showed a premiere at our monastery in August just two months ago so this is tonight will be a European premiere with all of you guys so after that premiere we just basically laid it out this is as far as we've gone in our mind that's as far as we've gone we didn't see any step further than that night and then but after that so many invitations actually came to me and to the team so we actually so many we had to do a very 10 day trip in California straight after just to show the film in San Francisco, Los Angeles and San Diego and then next year we have a big tour around the United States around April or May to show but it feels like it's not really just a screening event there is so much context about this movie like today where we are sharing all throughout the week it is really a case that is so to speak because Spirit want us to to see how every symbol every project every relationship in this world can be used for him it may come through it's not going to be the moment we say yes then you know that's done it's actually we go through a lot of seeming obstacles we clear a lot a lot of things in our unconscious mind which reflect you know which is showing up in the conscious awareness throughout the consistent saying yes but ultimately I think it's so it is so profound it's so simple it seems hard but it's so simple on my part it's so joyful and so miraculous I think that Spirit just want us to live a miraculous life as long as we still are here in this world he just want us to know give our lives give our mind a collaboration a relationship over to him it's so miraculous and so magical my life in the last 10 years in the last 2.5 years is so magical because I got to be the witness of oh my god this happened this problem happened but I don't need to sort out the problem I pray for the solution while the problem is resolved it was so much fun and so much joy and laughter and collaboration with different people and it's really a magical journey and I think that is really the central message and I want to share that message more than just the movie itself so we were saying that when we did the California tour and the next year when I'm going to travel in the United States it will be more like at least a weekend retreat with context with some teaching and some experiential like the diet session that we did and the showing and the Q&A because it is pointing to some kind of practical practical way we can live our lives and I really wanted to be a thorough a thorough message just not but what is tonight you will see what is showing up on screen is already very deep and very very in terms of the healing you can see a lot that's another thing I thought to Jesus many times I thought you pick an area I feel the most inadequate and incompetent to do I just I feel so inadequate artistic expressions and pictures and images and because I was very logical and you know analysis and yet he said to me that the best way to to teach and to share is to show show your own life and show is not to talk the talking is is really just for you because the talking is a practice of letting Jesus show me what is to be talked about but it's to show so this is what I think is very effective because people's lives are shown and knowing the context and how it got made just give you more context and appreciation because we set the camera there at the beginning all throughout I have no idea who was going to go through what transformation and that was all captured on screen and you can see it there are relationship issues couple there are couple in the movie tonight you will see that they arrive there engaged as an engaged couple and when issues come up they have to share to share no private thoughts with each other inside a relationship and there are family construction there too actually Nikolai is sitting here she is the aunt and there is a mother and daughter the three of them all on a spiritual journey they show up in the monastery individually but they together and how is their relationship inside that context and we also have a cook she was an amazing cook she came to the monastery and cooked for 10 years such an amazing cook like food here was just professional she owned her own restaurant and yet she reached the point she was going through motions there was no spark anymore because cooking was good it was what she loved but that's the only way she knows she can be loved by anybody it become a burden it become a responsibility it's this love and hate I wanted because that's how I know I have a value to you but I don't want it because it's heavy it's responsibility so that's also her transformation journey in and how of course you will see a little bit of what Emily talked about how we use prayer to decide everything you know we don't really know the characters and their prayers or what issue they were facing when they came here but you see through prayer solution was offered nobody needs to know problems but if we pray together solution got offered that's what you can see on screen too so as you watch the movie tonight again I would like you to watch it very much like when we watched Rocket Man and it was more watch your thoughts watch your emotions because again that's where the healing occurs is in the mind and so as you watch the movie pay close attention to what's going on in your consciousness because that's going to be the greatest healing value it's like every movie is just a backdrop for mind training and that is so important the listen and follow is really the message we're sharing how important that goes on all through the day and even through your night time dreams you can be guided by spirit you can have lucid dreams you can go through here comes another replacement we blew a tire but I would also say that how we talked about the script is written that was our script yesterday everything's the past seek not to change the world seek rather the last one you are very good so what I'm saying is even this basic lesson about seeking not to change the world if you listen to everything Francis has been sharing it's so much based on listen and follow and it's not about trying to fix or change people or fix or change even in the end the movie you saw the trust it takes it's corrupted it's this it's that it's captured by the Portuguese immigration I mean you have to just totally let go and stay with listen and follow what do you have for me spirit you see how safe that is and how wonderful you're not concerned about the outcomes did the film make it did it live did it die listen follow I'm going to do that when when I was down in Mallorca in Spain you know I had a friend come all the way down from Germany to interview me for her radio show and we would talk afterwards and went outside on the back porch and talking about it I said oh yeah we got this movie coming I started talking about the movie she got all excited she said I can help you get that movie into a German film festival and she said but I will have to of course re-edit the movie so here we go to all of this and then I can get it in the German festival but I will have to re-edit we went on a tour in California we were I think we were in Los Angeles and there was a young man who was there who lives with his parents and he watched the whole thing but he's quite good with watching films in his mind and everything and he was basically saying if the purpose of this movie was to tell people and promote the monastery he said I can help you need to re-do the whole movie you start to see it's like the mind determines what things are for and then it offers this advice he was even offering a suggestion about the motive for making the movie and that's just the way the ego works it's always projecting meaning out I lesson number two in the workbook is something I see all the meaning it has for me and then it's trying to adapt and adjust oh you'd make a nice marriage partner there are a few things that you need to change there's one of them you know but you see how it works the ego is always reading meaning and saying oh this would work out really good at this festival or this or that you re-edit the movie and here Francis has used the whole thing for listen and follow and we just have a good laugh at all this because Jesus is always so humorous he's always pointing out it's your own lesson it's always your own lesson nope it's not that it's your own lesson forgive but forgive forgive we know that feeling where we think we can improve something even with the course of miracles I thought Ken and Judy and Bill and Helen did a pretty good job bringing the course into this realm I mean I got that book and then I thought great I'm just going to use this book and I'm going to read it I'm going to pray to Jesus pray to the Holy Spirit and follow whatever they say and then there was like a second book that came out and an errata oh we have to make some corrections and then a third edition then a fourth edition and then a fifth edition and I'm like I think what's going on is still a little bit I can do it better I can do it better the second time the third time the fourth time the fifth time you know this is just the way the ego operates whatever is there even though the first edition said seek not to change the world seek rather to change your mind about the world could read seek not to change a course in miracles seek rather to change your mind about a course in miracles I mean in the five editions basically the workbook's the same and that's what we're supposed to apply we're supposed to use it apply it we don't have to turn into the scribes and Pharisees and I think I'd change this and I'd add this on and leave this out and you know like we're like we're making a birthday cake and we can't stop with the icing we keep oh a little there missed a little spot there you know oh you know maybe some candles maybe some candles that don't go out you know it's just we don't need to add anything to the world all we have to do is listen and follow and see the world differently and that's just what this whole miraculous case study has really been about is that one thing and also just if I had this goal of making the end result you can see how emotionally ups and downs I would have to go through how many terminal stress I would go through emotionally if the end goal is a product but if the goal is listen and follow how can the whole throughout the journey you can stay very very gleeful because the opportunity of listen and follow is always there that's where nothing can affect your state of mind anymore because the goal is something the ego cannot take away so the ego cannot affect your emotional state of mind when I give power to one thing I cannot take away which is my purpose to listen and follow and it has been really joyful and that's why I say this life before God takes the final step this happy dream can be so joyful once the purpose becomes single and I believe you would agree with that the single purpose and when we say everything else it is really a journey of washing away everything about that purpose once that is done it just feels so happy and joyful well I'm feeling better if you want to start to come up and prepare if you're here and then Emily has I got a microphone up here if it doesn't work Emily has wanted to share a few things while you're here we've brought all kinds of books and everything from all around just to make it real easy for you because it's not so easy to mail them all over the country and the world so Emily's going to share a bit while Ned is setting up there and then that premiere of that the theme song this is the song that named the movie that'll be great to hear that too because it's so profound yeah thank you so much David and Frances that was so inspiring I've seen the movie and I can't wait to see it again tonight I feel like it's even a deeper level for me so thank you I think most of you have seen that we have our bookstore out here past the coffee station just to let you know that you'll have the opportunity during lunch and dinner again today if you want to purchase any books and also tomorrow morning during breakfast and that will be the last time that it's open and some of you may have already spoken to some of the volunteers in the bookstore but just to let you know pretty much all of the books I think David did mention in one of his sessions he doesn't sit down and write books and the way that they come through is actually in sessions like this and retreats and gatherings where people ask their practical day-to-day questions like you have all been asking and then David answers from the spirit what exactly are the yeah whatever comes through in an answer to those specific questions has them been transcribed over the years and put into these beautiful books so I feel if any of you still feel like you have specific questions on your heart and maybe you haven't felt to ask them during the retreat or there's just questions starting to percolate I can assure you that any questions you have will be answered in those books they are amazing so yeah if you feel inspired and you want to continue on this experience that you've been in for this week and bring it home with you and have David in your sitting room or last thing before you go to bed answering your deepest questions of your heart I would just recommend maybe picking up some of the books and taking them home with you so yeah beautiful retreat now and Neda is going to play this song that inspired yeah take me home inspired the name of the movie and I know I did hear this song the first time Neda played it at the Mystery School and I just had like tears rolling down my face it was so beautiful and still every time I listen to it now it just touches me so deeply so thank you Neda okay well I think we've reached very close to our lunchtime and then we're going to pray a bit over lunch but I think we may have a couple different options for you the afternoon slot from around three to five so we'll put that on the boards something a little different than we've done before and then to have a good dinner and then come come a little bit early to the showing of the session we'll start at seven and I think we'll have we'll just have a group prayer at that time a prayer of gratitude like a global prayer to really send out our prayers and our love to everyone, everywhere and then the movie and then after the movie it'll just be very quiet yeah it could be a pretty quiet and early night tonight because the movie is only an hour and twenty and we'll have no set up we'll have no discussion after we'll just have a prayer and then lead into the movie and we'll wait until the credit finish then you can just take your time to rest and allow whatever come up to be percolated and tomorrow morning we'll come back here for our final session