 Hey what's up guys, welcome back to my channel, I hope you're doing amazing and if you're not I hope your day gets better. I think that's my intro. Today I'm gonna be telling the story of the worst hallucination episode I ever had. I know, yeah, positive stories with Lydia. My room's an absolute mess and I'm gonna tidy it up soon, I promise. I've been having a bit of a moment. Okay, you'll have to excuse it, I'm sorry. This episode happened earlier on this year and when it happened I made a video talking about it so there is already a video on my channel talking about it. This story happened a while ago and I did make a video talking about it and my god, why are you being loud? So this story happened, I want to say, in around May time. This episode happened as a result of a huge dissociative episode and this was just before I got diagnosed with dissociative disorder because of this episode. I got diagnosed with dissociative disorder because of this episode. So this story is... It's intense, okay? And when this happened I believed it was a dream and the original story time idea is going to be linked in the description down below. It's also this thumbnail if you just want to scroll through my channel and find it. It's intense and it's real and it's scared me when it happens. Now I can look at it and be like, well, I know why it happened and blah blah blah blah blah blah. Like, I know all of that but hey, that's just that, isn't it? So I'm gonna start rambling on and get on with the video. But before I do, if you're new here, hit the subscribe button, leave a like and if you have any video requests you'd like me to do, if you have any video requests or any video ideas you'd like me to make videos on, leave them in the comments down below and I will do them as soon as I can. So if you didn't know, I wrote a book which you can buy on Amazon. It's an actual thing. Edition two is getting released at the end of the year. Amazing. And now let's get on with the story. Why the fuck am I dabbing? I'm in a weird mood but I'm also really tired because I got woken up today. So this story is... I don't know how many times I've said this but it's fucking real and intense and... Ah, it happened. Okay, so this happened back when I lived in Preston, which was quite a while ago now. I feel like I've told this story a lot but I can't reiterate the importance of it and this is like a story time, so yes bitch. This is... So let me get started anyway. So long story short, I was in my bedroom and yeah, I know bedroom. What was I up to in there? I don't know. I was then walking outside and what I should point out at the start of this is I believe this was a dream when I woke up in the morning. I didn't know this actually happened until I checked my call history, which will make sense in a little bit. So I was walking outside and walking... I can't remember where I was walking from. Like I said, I thought it was a dream. So I was walking back from somewhere doing my flat and there was this half person. So this person was like a half person, a half silhouette, a ghostie. Do you know what I mean like in films where you can see like ghost outlines but they're not actually ghosts because that's not how that shit works. I don't think. I don't know. Don't see ghosts. You let me know in the comments. So there was this half person with a walking dog and the dog is important. The dog is the important part in this story. So I crossed the road. I was like, this shit's fucking weird. What the fuck? Crossed the road and then blacked out, hit the floor. And if I had my other phone to hand, I'd show you the damage I did to it. I dropped the phone. Obviously, it shot at all. And then when like the next came around, I was running around a field around a corner and there was these... This person had transformed into a dog in front of my eyes and started chasing me. And then all these other invisible animals started running after me. And this probably sounds really fucking crazy. It's actually happened. Like I couldn't make this shit up if I tried and it was so terrifying at the time that I actually phoned the police. I was so afraid of these ghosts. And I had the recording of this phone call. It's on my phone now. But I literally said on that phone call, I'm gonna sound crazy. These ghost things are chasing me. I don't know where the fucking animal what's going on but I'm getting chased by ghosts. Can you imagine the response I got? I know the police turned up and I know they threatened to arrest me and I know they drove me home. These ghosts, right? Before the police turned up, I was running. Like I actually fucking ran. Like let's just appreciate that for a moment. I ran. I'm unfit as fuck. The stair made me tired. Walking to my pet unicorn that's there makes me tired. I'm lazy as fuck, okay? The fact that I ran is a big deal. And I didn't even know what I was. Like I remember trying to use Google Maps to work out where the fuck I was and I didn't know. So I was in some unknown part of Preston that I didn't know. Getting chased by ghosts. Because you know, average Saturday evening. And what happened next is even worse. So they then transformed back into people. There was a large group of people then. I started screaming, leave of me the fuck alone. Leave me alone. Leave me the fuck alone and stop chasing me. Leave me the fuck alone. And they didn't. They then transformed into invisible fucking bird. I literally couldn't make this shit I wanted to. They all flew up to the lamppost. Like it was on top of the lamppost that was there. It was all there. I was here running that way. And these birds started flying through me. And the next thing I knew I hit the floor. And then when the police turned up, now it's gonna get interesting. I remember I kept dropping my phone. Kept dropping it because I couldn't. I was completely out of it. Like I kept dropping it. I thought my hands wasn't real. They was just invisible. I thought I was turning invisible because they had gone inside of me. Lydia was a bit delusional that night. And the police drove me home and told me if I was to be found outside again, they would arrest me. Thank you Lancashire police. I really do appreciate that. I hope everyone gets the sarcasm. Um, so then when I was back in my flat and I woke up the next morning, I was like, oh, what actually happened? Oh, that was a really weird dream, you know, not thinking anything of it. So I went on to my phone and then I checked my call log. I checked all my call logs and I was like, shit. I actually phoned the police. This actually happened. I saw that my phone was all cracked and I was like, then did that really happen? And nothing that intense has happened since, but something like that very similarly did happen very soon after. And I think I mentioned this in the living with visual hallucinations video, but I'm going to tell you the story anyway. So after that incident of a couple of weeks later, I was sat lying in bed and the next thing I knew, I was awake and I was seeing this rain slash snow stuff falling in my room and I was feeling it. So it was a full on tactile hallucination. I'm going to make a video soon explaining what tactile hallucinations are and what the difference is in all the different types of hallucinations. That's a whole other video. But this, I was lying in bed and I looked over at my door and I saw a shadow coming through and then the door slammed shut and the lock closed and I was like, what the fuck? And I think I definitely have told the story before. I called security because I was convinced because I kept seeing the shadows move. This little ghost dog thing transformed into my room and then this invisible dog was in my room. The same one that was chasing me down the street. The invisible dog was there. And I was like, what the fuck? That doesn't make sense. How the fuck did that happen? I was like, oh, my windows open. They came through the window. I was so fucking terrified. I can't even put into words how afraid I was of all of this because it really, really did fuck with my head. I was like, what the fuck is going on? I ended up calling security and being like, there's fucking someone in my bathroom. There's invisible things in my room. I keep feeling rain in my room. What the fuck's going on to help me? And he came up to my room and phoned the police and ambulance server and Lydia went to hospital because Lydia was definitely seeing things because I literally saw the door closed. Let's imagine this is my door. I physically saw it closed. Like it's closed. I saw a shadow of a person coming out. I saw the hand open the door to flick the lights switch off and then close it again. I physically saw it happen, but it didn't happen. And it's like how the fuck did my mind construct something like that? And the reason I'm telling this story is to say that people can have hallucinations and it's not the same as doing some stupid LSD trick. Hallucinations are terrifying. They are horrible to live with and you don't want them. Anyone ever offers you drugs that can cause hallucinations or drugs in general, don't do it. Like hallucinations are fucking horrible. You don't want them. Anyone who like fakes it or wants it, fucking leave. Like hallucinations are the worst thing and it's the one thing about my mental health that I genuinely hate more than dissociation. I genuinely hate it so much and it's fucking horrible. The reason I'm telling this story though is so you know you're not alone. Like if you're going through it and if you're dealing with it, I just want you guys to know that you are not alone because other people go through it so you are not alone. Didn't that make sense? My brain's not. I'll be going live again tomorrow evening when I get in from university. I'm not setting it up as a schedule. I'll just be going live tomorrow at some point during the evening. I'm in the UK so it'll be after 7 p.m. UK time. So we're around 8 p.m. British summer, not British summer time, GMT. I don't know if GMT stands for what. 7 p.m. GMT, are we going live? If you're new here, hit the subscribe button, leave a like and if you've got any video requests, ideas, questions or anything you want to add to this or if you've had a similar experience, leave it in the comments down below and I will try and answer every single comment. I am very busy. I'm trying to get this new, the second edition of my book released by the end of the year so I'm working very hard on that. If you'd like to buy the first edition of my book, the link is in the description and also on screen now. That was a mouthful. Holy fuuuuck. But yeah, if you're new here, make sure you're doing things because just support means so much to me and I love, love talking to people. So please come and join the live stream tomorrow. We have a laugh. We talk. We have a conversation and my girl, I'm really going to need your moral support tomorrow because this bitch got a lot going on Tuesday. So yeah, I think that's all I've got to say for today and I'll catch you guys tomorrow with a new video. Yeah, I'm doing videos every single day at the moment. So woo. I'll catch you guys soon. Peace.