 Third time, welcome to Above Live Channel. The purpose here is to inspire your spirit to fill you with hope. We're gonna attempt one more time. One, two, three times. Two channel, a live stream with Sinead O'Connor this morning. It's the last day of July, 2023. And we have been having some sound challenges today. I'm gonna just double check my sound. I'm gonna head over here to my laptop and see what's happening. Bingo, yee-haw, cowgirl, we got this. I'm just gonna check my laptop because all of these lovely, lovely people have been patiently with me. We're gonna let everybody pop back in if you choose to. We are gonna check, check, check, check, check. Make sure we have a sound quality, Sinead O. Okay, just a minute. You can hear me. You can hear me. Okay, let's fix this beautiful mop. I hear we got him. Uh-huh, uh-huh. Here we go, here we go now. Okay, so we're all gonna come back into this live stream. Thank you for being here. For those of you who are watching the replay, aren't you lucky? Oh, this is the third time we have tried and there was no sound. I talked for like five minutes and there was no sound. Now usually on Above Life channel, I will checkity-check my sound and today I just jumped right in and didn't check. And so now we have sound, yay. Happy to be with you. We're using my phone. Cheers to this Monday, the last Monday of July, 2023. Mm-hmm, mm-hmm. Tomorrow's a full moon, y'all, full moon. It is the Celtic High Holy Day of Lunisa. I actually have been following the eight holidays of the Celtic Wheel this year. I've been working in a program with Marie Kennedy, or Mari, Mary Kennedy, M-A-R-I, Mary Kennedy, the Celtic Wheel. It's beautiful. I have such a draw and such a connection to the Celtic energy and tomorrow is Lunisa. For some, for like pagans and other folks, they call it llamas, llamas, yeah. And it's really this beautiful energy of like when all of the seeds have been planted, all of the crops have been tended to, now it's time to allow that harvest. So we have imagine a big buckets, just baskets that we're gonna fill with all the goodness that we have done all of our work this year. Think back to January and February and March and April and May and June and July. Now here we are stepping into tomorrow, August 1st, and we are gonna receive, begin to then pluck the fruits of the harvest. You've done lots of work. I know it might not seem like it. It might not seem like, oh my gosh, it's August already, but it is tomorrow. So August 1st is a very special day for me, as you know. It's the anniversary of my dad's transition into the afterlife. And without that happening, I would not be here channeling and sharing because that two years after that, during my immense grief process, I was really close to my dad. You know the story. If you don't watch it, it's on a both life channel where two years after his death, then I literally had a psychic awakening during one weekend. And I'm like, oh, I thought everybody just taught, like saw dead people and saw energy. And I just thought everybody did that. I'd never even been to a psychic till after I became one. And so August 1st is really sacred. This time last year, I was in Disney on a solo trip working with my personal healing, doing my inner work. And it was a hard time, very hard time. It was 20 years last year since my dad died. And it just felt like a threshold for me and with so much going on in my life, you know? So now here I am today with you and we are gonna channel on Mondays, we do our channeling with afterlife celebrity guests. And part of the purpose of that is to inspire you to honor your personal journey, your healing journey. And so much of what we deal with in this lifetime is so challenging, right? And we fight with our heads and our hearts. And sometimes we feel this in most of the time we feel this inner conflict. And a lot of times now we're seeing it externally played out in our families and our workplaces and the economy and politics in inequalities and fighting for rights and humanitarian challenges and global environmental challenges. There's just so much, right? Can be very overwhelming for you as an empath. And here, here now, in this space, in this sacred container of above life channel we are gonna connect with someone who recently crossed over. And I know that there's been wonderful channelings. I think other psychics, I'm sure other psychics have had to have channeled her by now. And she did have a recent transition. And sometimes I don't channel people when they have a lot of mental health stuff and especially regarding the way that the manner of death and the choice of the death, in this case, that in so much suffering, I don't usually channel right away, as you know. And in this case, I actually thought I was gonna channel Prince today. I was like, oh, I'll channel Prince and we'll talk about the song Nothing Compares to You that he wrote and that Sinead, this beautiful young up and coming talent from Ireland was able to sing. And so see all the tie in here. We got Lamas tomorrow or Lunisa tomorrow in the Celtic wheel. We've got this energy of the harvest. We've got this energy of so much going on in the world and lots of like pressure, pressure, pressure in our heart space and in conflicts with our minds and our mental health challenging stuff for us. All of us are dealing with things, right? And her transition, like I'm gonna say, I'm gonna tell her like, so she, I could hear her. We talked a little bit off and on and I was like, oh girl, like in this life, I wasn't a fan. Like, and like most people, I thought she were crazy. Like, I'm like, oh, she's crazy. Oh, okay. You know, and I didn't know if it was like trying to get attention or, you know, what the deal was or just mental health stuff or whatever, cause you expect that. Like in the public eye, people have mental health stuff. People have breakdowns and whatever all the time. It's still like just a thing. You just go, whatever. I have enough to deal with in my life, right? So I didn't really pay attention to you at all. And then she laughs. She's like, see, this is why I like you. She says, see, this is why I like you. You're a straight talker. Like you just say what you feel. She's like, and I appreciate that. She says, I can respect that. I can respect that. And I'm telling her so, so for now, but now it's important. I wanna talk to her specifically. I wanna talk to her specifically about a topic area that some of you guys are gonna be like, what? I wanna talk to her about menopause. I'm not kidding. I wanna talk to you, Sinead, about the hormone scenario and how that contributed, because listen to me, people. Listen to me. If you can't relate yet, you're gonna add some boy and be able to relate to this. It's been like this secret kind of thing like women's bodies change. Oh my gosh, you know, and then they get crazy. Well, it's true we do, it does happen. It does, and I found out a scary, scary statistic that did you know that most women who take their own lives do so during menopause? Midlife. Did you know that? Did you know that? The highest suicide rate for women is during menopause. There's a reason for that because it does invoke depression, suicidal ideation, these incredible feelings of highs and lows like what looks like bipolar, but it's not. It's estrogen, progesterone, and testosterone all fucked up. And I know from personal experience. So Sinead, we're gonna have real girl talk here, real talk, and I know that there's been lots of trauma around the uterus. And a lot of people claim in rights to uteruses. And that somehow women's reproductive, the ability to create life is of commodity. It's like capitalism. Because you can sell your eggs and your uterus, you can write your uterus, you can do all these things. And that's up to the woman. And I'm not declaring any judgment or feeling about that. I'm just proving a point here by sharing these things. And we are taught from young, as young women, how to behave, how to be a woman, how to be attractive, and that our whole purpose is to be beautiful and attractive and to adhere to the needs of other people and conform and chameleon-like and people-pleased in all of this. And so we choose to either people-pleased to go along, to get along, to survive or we rebel. And or the third option is we do both. We have times in our lives when we are towing the line, walking the line, being the perfect, being so good. And then we have the other flip side of us that's like rebellious and partying and utilizing our body in ways that maybe are extreme. So what we have here now, everyone, with Shanae's assistance is the opportunity to be on this precipice of recognizing the power of women and the embodiment of the body of the woman as sacred, not as a commodity, not as something to be bought and sold and traded. Even women and ourselves, we have traded. I know I have. I had been a trophy wife my first marriage. I was the trophy wife. Just so happened, I also had a fucking brain and college degrees and made good money at a job. However, that was neither here nor there. The way I looked, the way I presented, the way I could speak and articulate, that was value. That was commodified. And so to then having all these children and being able to be the mother and be the play the role and be the best son of that. I'm not suggesting we aren't happy in having relationships and having marriages and partnerships and beautiful romantic relationships and beautiful sensual expression of our true nature. I'm not saying that those things are bad and that we don't get that. We get that too. But we also get a lot of crap. We have to move through a lot of structure in order to get to pockets of places where we can be our sacred selves, where we can be ourselves, where we can find our alignment. And for you, Sinead, you are in part a stand for the recognition of how freaking menopause, how our bodies, our physical bodies, our sanctuary and our sacred space and yet can also be a target, right? Such as with your mother's abuse, such as with other abuses that you, violations that you've had. And so too many people can relate to this. So let us have this conversation. Do you guys feel me? I'm channeling her energy. Can you feel her energy coming in through me? She literally, it's like a dagger. She puts this, actually Sinead let's use that. I have a beautiful, I have a Selenite dagger. I don't know where it is actually, I'm looking at for it. I have a, oh, I think it's over here. I have a Selenite dagger. We're gonna use that Sinead for our conversation here to bring the information through in a way that people, because we're gonna trigger. You and I will trigger during this conversation people who have had sexual trauma, child sexual abuse, who have had experiences where they felt like they've been over sexualized or been cast aside because they don't fit a mold, whether it be body dysmorphia stuff or projections of a body or what you should look like and you don't fit that role, whether it be because of a cultural variation of what beauty is or being on the inside or being on the outside or not being the pretty girl or being the pretty girl or whatever. Like you can't win. See, do you feel her energy coming in? You guys, seriously, I did not feel like this this morning. So here we are now. Let me grab that, I think it's over here just a second. Let me grab that dagger. It's for alignment. It's for alignment. We're gonna be doing some healing work with Ms. Sinead O'Connor. This is not gonna be a normal traditional channeling where you get all the answers that you guys want in the gossip that people that are just passers by that are like the paparazzi on YouTube. The viewers who become like paparazzi that just want the gossip. This isn't hot gossip. This is power. So Sinead, this, I gift this to you, my dear sister and the lineage of St. Joan of Arc energies. And this sword is about alignment. It's about the power of inside of us, of using our energy, calling our energy back to ourselves and ourselves and our soul center. We're gonna have a long conversation, aren't we? Because there's a lot to talk about in this. I want you to, I know you have a lot of the mother wound. Actually, she likes it like this. A lot of the mother wound energies. And also a desire to share with others how best to heal, to compost, to create medicine out of the pain and the suffering that you have. So first of all, is it okay if I share with them some of the things you've already said to me? Well, yes, yes, yes, go ahead and do that. Yes, go ahead, yes, yes, yes, absolutely. Go, go, go, yes, please, please, please do it, please do it. Please share. She said about her life when she and I talked the other day. Because I was contemplating, I'm like, I don't only wanna, everybody's gonna channel her as a whole thing, but it feels like though that she's left such an impact. I'm like, I literally can barely hold my hand and she said, let me hold it. Let me hold it for you. She says, sister, she calls me sister, sister, let me hold it. We are one, share, she says, share it. She said, she sort of never been born. She says, I did not belong here. I did not belong here. I should have never been born. Not because of hate, of hating myself, but because it's a sheer tragedy. My birth should have never happened, never. So, Sinead, are you kind of in a way, this isn't the right word. I don't know how to say this word, say this. Oh God, I can't express it that way. People will go off their fucking, they will jump off the cross and run to the hills. It's like the sacrifice. Like she was, she says, my life was horrible. It was horrible, it was horrible. And she says, and, so then why would I stay? Why would I fight so hard to stay? She says, why would I fight so hard to stay, why? She said, why did you choose to stay? My life wasn't in the nightmares that yours was. My life wasn't the nightmare. You can't, you cannot compare bad dreams. You can't compare nightmares. She has said, but to think of the moments of hope that I had and having my own children, my own family, is that the reward, she says, the reward for survival or is that the sheer stubbornness that I had in me to not give in? But she says, but that's not even true. There were so many moments. I have tried to leave so many times. I'm like, well, obviously you weren't good at trying to kill yourself until, what, 54? Are you 54 now? Obviously you weren't that good at it. And she says, oh, she says, oh, it's not for lack of trying. Well, so is there like a martyr energy here? I'm gonna say that word, you guys. And I don't mean it in a disrespectful way. I mean it in a truth, kind of sharing the truth. Talk to me about that. Oh no, she says, no, no, I think she says, no, I think you have a right. You should ask. She says, you should ask the hard questions. You should ask. There's a difference between killing yourself in the mind and actually doing it to your body. When your body has been through so much, so much torturous experience at the hands of others to use your own hands seems like blasphemy. So did you believe in God? Oh, not for some time. Do you believe in God now? Oh, not in the way that some Christians would. Are you still mad at the Pope? Oh, absolutely. The people in power don't have control over the people that work for them that are underneath them. And they are just figureheads, she says. They're just figureheads. It's the average everyday people like the teachers that can do something, she says, that can at least see, intervene in some way that can be the positive light, the hope or the faith. I've had a very difficult relationship with the Catholic church and would be considered a raging, fiery atheist in some respects. And yet, seeking God or the understanding of a God greater than what I learned or what it seemed as though caused me pain because of being a girl. She says a girl, just like that, a girl. I love how you say that, a girl. Can you say that again? Cause I can kind of match that tone. And she says, girl, girl, a girl. She says, you should learn Gaelic. I would love to, actually, that's interesting. Okay, yeah, focus, focus, focus. The shaved head was an attempt to repel. To not look so pretty, I get that. I totally get that because I feel more, I feel more connected to the boyish energy within me or that not boyish masculine, we'll say masculine, when I have my head shaved on the sides and it's not quite as puffy or whatever. I feel a little more, in some ways, I feel safer in my body. Like I feel more in charge of my body in that way. Like I own myself kind of when I have a little more masculine energy, but then I also stand out too when I do that. Cause it's like, why does she have her head shaved? And then people are trying to figure me out. Like, what is she? Well, it's her vibe. I'm not sure, you know, kind of thing. So I get that, but you kept it all these years. It doesn't seem as important, you know? It doesn't seem like physical appearance, she says. It doesn't seem as, it doesn't have the value. And she says, and as you age, it seems so much less important. I'm like, oh, I think it's more important in some attributes, in some ways. And she's showing me other religions, studying other religions, looking, she said I'm a seeker, trying to find other ways to understand why, why the world is the way it is, why, why, she says, you would say energy, you know, trying to understand the energy. I can hear her accent when she's talking. I kind of love that. I'm not very good at the accent, as you all know. I suck at them. She's like the energy. Oh, Sinead, I have to share this. So two psychic things before we tried to talk three times, which actually three is really powerful. We got to talk about that number and why I think that that is our deal today. So I have a divine feminine deck. Ah, yes, she says you got it. She's such a divine feminine embodiment. It's like that sacred womb space, that fire in your belly. And she says, when they took my womb, she says, it was a great loss to me. It was a devastating loss. This is why we were gonna talk, remember? She says, remember? She's like, trying to keep me on task. I'm like, you're trying to keep me on task. Remember, we were gonna talk about the hormone piece, how it changes the alchemy in the body, changes. We got to talk about that. Yes, we will. I was using the divine feminine deck that I have, the 13 moon Oracle deck, which is this one, 13 moon Oracle deck. And one of the archetypes is the initiator. She's called, and she has a sword actually. She has a sword, just a dagger, but she has a sword. And her colors are purple, crown chakra, but then it's also the colors of fire because the card I got today was challenge. Got the fire element is in the middle, in the wings. I'm sorry, the air element is in the middle of the fire. Energy is here as well, and the wings. So I got the challenge card. I shouldn't know that it was gonna be, this would be a challenge. But I also did something, Shanae, to connect with the Celtic energy of the roots and I used to be Owans today. So we'll have to talk about that. We'll talk about that when I clear, when we're wrapping up. I also did use the emerald temple oils. I used the courage oil today, and I put it on my altar for you because you are a brave woman for living as long as you did. So we have the courage oil, which actually smells a little bit like fire. Again, this is the emerald temple oils. You smell that? Yeah, I like fire. She says, yeah, I like fire. I like fire. She says, I like the fire. Yeah, you're Brigid. She says, you're named after the Celtic goddess. Yeah, I am. But I also use, I have another name that I use and look under as well. So it kind of is a balance for me. So I don't have to just be the fire goddess. I can also find the balance of the masculine as well. Oh, Brigid was pretty strong though. She says, Brigid is pretty strong. She's very well loved in Ireland. I know, yeah, I know. My name is spelled a little different, but you have the fire. You have the fire, she says. All right, so let's talk about the uterus then speaking of fire. Fire is that sacred chakra, that energy in the womb space, that sensuality, that shakdi energy, that Kundalini. Ah, yeah, she says, yeah, it's not just for sex. It is not. It is not. It is not. It is not. Ooh, and then she says that as a tool. As a tool, like I'm thinking for pleasure and she keeps referring to the body, the female body as this commodity. I'm gonna keep saying that because that's what she's presenting it as. And she's like, we have to stop. She says, we have to stop that. That has to stop, that has to stop. And she says, I know it wasn't my place to be a voice for that. I was too messed up. She said I had too much of my own healing work to do. I could not be thought of seriously. You know, and the people like the Angelina Jolie's and things like that, she's showing me images of people who deal with like the sex trafficking and all that kind of stuff. Bringing women's and girls and like indigenous people and the issues of the awareness of how they're so treated like a second class citizen. I'm like, not even in places like third world countries, we're talking in the United States, Sinead. She says, yeah, I know, you rolled back. You rolled way back. She's like, I don't know, you guys are collectively losing your minds. I'm like, I know, this is why we're having this conversation. Yes, I know. Yes, I know. Sometimes it gets worse before it gets better, you know? She's like, the calm after the storm, maybe? I hope so, maybe we'll see. So that spirituality of the womb space, of that cauldron inside of us where we do alchemize energy, maybe that's why, you know, back, there are stories of the priestesses in the temples where there was this, that sex was used, that intimacy that intercourse was used as healing as medicine and in a way that was devotional and not like the women's bodies, the women chose to use their bodies in these ways. And there's a lot of, there's a lot of work out there now about Tantra in ways that like respectfully and consensually and ways to work with the body and to honor and love the body as a temple and to be devoted to the body. And a lot of that is about the consent. She says, that's what you have. She said, that's the peace, that's the key. She said, that's the key, it's the consent. That is the freedom. And she says, a child does not have that. They cannot do that. They cannot have that. And so therefore the adults are supposed to protect the child from the womb being desecrated, destroyed, utter destruction. And then I see, as she's saying that, the goddess Kali, creator, preserver, destroyer. She says, yes, three, the sacred three, yes, three. Which I see in the three, the besikapaisis, the overlapping circles. It looks like a Venn diagram. And this energy is the masculine, the feminine, the sacred third. And we are the sacred third. And she says, how many more children should be sacrificed? Or are they just simply born to be? To be that. Until they grow into adults, then to continue to be in service too. What is that? What kind of a life is that? That is not a life. We all seek freedom and the key is the consent. But you cannot have that when you're a child. You must have then protection. The protection of community, of family, of other adults, of other people. They have the responsibility because a system and a structure cannot protect children. And in fact can hide the victimization of children. She doesn't say victimization, she says other things. I'm not gonna say it here because I don't know if YouTube will strike me. I would like to use all your language, but I do need to be conscious of that. I do have to filter. Not out of any disrespect whatsoever, I would totally say that. But TikTok is easier to say stuff like that, but I can't. Triggers for many of you. I'm sorry for those of you who are watching and who are feeling this very deeply in your body. I'm sorry that whatever happened to you happened. And I acknowledge, honor and witness the power that you have right here right now as the person you are today, as the adult that you are to heal yourself. Not to pretend it didn't happen, but to feel the reconnection of that sacred womb. To feel that portal of your body as yours. To be the one in agency of your body, the one to consent, the one to decide how you will express and share that body. That's your power, your sovereign. Right now, here and now. Feel pure in this moment and moving forward. I spread them. Hand on the lower womb abdomen and exhale. She says, ah, good. How do you get them and their bodies like that? She said, I was never in my body. I could not be in my body. She said, that was a struggle. I had many, many, many, many days to feel my body. The one way was through music, you know, to feel the vibration in my chest of singing and the guitar and the feeling, the humming on my belly. The guitar was my womb. Have that's beautiful, you guys. The guitar was her womb. When they took it out, you know, I thought I would die. She said, I thought I was going crazy. I was losing my mind. I know what that feels like, that entering the menopause, I said, but I did not, we had this conversation earlier, but I did not lose my uterus. Like I still have that, I still have my parts, so I haven't had to deal with that, but I've had to deal with some other things related to that. Starting back in 2015 for myself, actually before that, right after the birth of my fourth child, I mean, I had to deal with some of that stuff. It was hard, challenging. And I really had to, I, myself, personally, I really had to try to befriend my body, because it was so, it caused me so much pain all the time, every month. And consistent pain and just horrific, like I couldn't go out of the house. It was awful. So I became angry at my body and I had to find ways to love my body again, especially my womb space, especially that uterus, especially my womb space, everything that made me a woman, right? I needed to find ways to reconnect with that and love my body again. And after she wasn't producing children, it wasn't a utilitarian type of a thing and it didn't seem like I had to find a way, a new way to use that space again. It's like kind of like when you, this is a horrible example, but I'm gonna say it, kind of like when your kids move out of the house and then you have their room and you're like, what should I use this room for? It's kind of like that, like in the uterus. I'm like, what should I use my womb for? And I'm like, oh, alchemy, it looks like a bowl. Like it could be a cauldron if that's your jam or it could just be a bowl, like a medicine bowl where you mix herbs or you make something, you put your oils in, you can smell them. Like it feels like alchemy. So for me, that womb space is alchemical for me. That's what it is. Like a big bowl, you know? And that really became my symbol for reconnecting with my body again. And then, so after, I had a procedure done in like 2015 and so after that, I didn't have my cycles anymore. A couple of times, just really not a big deal, like once or twice since that time, that's it. And so all that pain was gone, but it was like there was vacancy, like there was nothing. I'm like, wait, what? So all of a sudden I just shut it down. Like I just stopped it working. And I'm like, that was kind of abrupt and weird. Like I closed for business, you know? And then I'm like, oh, and it took me a long time until last summer of 2022 when I started having like hot flashes. And I'm like, what the fuck is wrong with me? I thought my body was on fire inside out. I'm like, whoa, this is not Shakti. You know? It's like, whoa. And then like my libido was raging and then it was nothing. It was raging and it was nothing. It was raging. Like what is happening to me? Like what is going on? And then went to a natural path and had those conversations and tried to do things naturally and tried to help manage that, you know, through magnesium and some other kinds of things to help with the sleeping and to help with the hormones raging. And then did all the tests on make sure my thyroid was fine. And then I did all the tests on the hormone levels finally and found out that I was so low in estrogen, progesterone, and to start all three were like, phew, gone. I'm like, shit, head. So then of course I started researching HRG hormone replacement therapy, which is very tricky for people and it is an up and down thing. So instead I lost a crap ton of weight and didn't eat really much because I just wasn't interested in it. I was super depressed. I'd never been depressed in my life and I was so depressed. And I thought it was because of just personal stuff which let's be clear, I had a lot of personal stuff. So that was that too. But I had never been at a place where I felt like I didn't really need to be here anymore. You know? And I experienced that a couple of times. Once in August last year, I'm just gonna say I'm gonna be so forthright with you guys. Once in August last year, I really thought I don't wanna be here. I'm done. I'm out. I'm out. I just felt like that. I just felt that way. I didn't go through any of that stuff that Sinead you did many, many, many times but I felt that way. And then again, oh, it's gonna make me a little emotional in January. I was like, is this all there is? Maybe I'm just done. And then I went to Disney in February for my 50th birthday and had all sorts of, I tried to reconnect and feel better about being there again and seeing a beautiful hotel. I enjoyed my time there. It was very healing, but it was also hard. And then I came back and I was just like, life was just so different. We were on counseling. We were just trying to navigate my understanding my body in a new way and what I want for my life now. She said, go ahead with it. She said, go on with it. Sinead just says, go on with it. Go on with it. That's the truth. She said, it's the truth. It's the truth, you know? It's the truth. Yeah. You gotta honor the truth. She said, you gotta honor it. And I promised the people who loved me that when I came back from that trip, including my sister, I told her that I would get medicine. So I took, I started to take medication for depression and anxiety. That helped with it for sure. It helped me, it helped clear the clouds a little bit in my head. Not feel like everything was just so not worth it. Everything, literally every part of my life. And I have four awesome, I have four incredible kids. I have people who love me and friends who love me. I just was like, none of them mattered anymore. There was no motivation, nothing. It's just flat lined. So I started taking medication and that helped. I actually took a generic of Lexapro. I'm still on it now. I'm 100% all for medication when it's needed. I tried the homeopathic route people did not work well for me. And I tried as long as I could. And then, so I did that. And then went to the gynecologist, the hormone doctor for hormone replacement therapy stuff, did all the testing. And she was like, yes, you are severely in deficit. Yeah, then no wonder why. She says, no wonder why there's depression. No wonder why there's lack of motivation. When you wonder why you can't sleep. No wonder why you're having trouble eating. No wonder. She's like, you check every single box on every single one of these. I'm like, okay. Wow, so this is what happens. She said, yeah, now Shanade says, now imagine that. Now do that and have them give you time and all. Here you go. And then try to handle that. Like there's something wrong with you. She says, you knew better. You knew better. She says, you knew better. You had all sorts of resources. And she says, not that I didn't. I just didn't know. I just thought this is just, you just suffer. You suffer because that was what my life was. That's all I knew was the struggling. That was normal. That was in a way, Shanade says, in a way that was comfort. The struggle was comfort. I'm gonna ask your people. She says, I'm gonna ask your people who are listening. Is struggle comfort for you? Is it? Because if it is, that's fucked up. You gotta change that. That's what you gotta change. That's what you gotta change. Change. Sorry. I need to talk my, can I speak my native tongue because speaking here is so hard. She says, you spend time with me. You'll get, you'll pick it up. Okay. I could totally hang out with you. Oh yeah. Oh great. A crazy friend, huh? In the afterlife, you're not so crazy. I know, but don't tell people that. Just don't tell people that. Am I healed? I'm not healed. I'm not done. She says, but my work is just starting now. It's just beginning. She says, it's just beginning. She says, do you know I've met Amy Winehouse up here? She's amazing. What a talent. Yeah. Yeah. We all have our struggles. But when struggle becomes your comfort, that's the problem. That is not normal. That's fucked up. That's fucked up. She says, that's not cool. That is not cool. Okay. I got you girl. I got you. I got you too. I got your back. I got yours too. I got your back too. I got sister. Got to. I consider myself more of a folk singer. What would we do a song about uteruses? How would we do that? How about we call it womb? Room for your womb. How about we call it that? Rock and womb woman. Rock on. I can't sing. I don't play guitar either. She says, you can do a spoken word. Just spoken. You can do the spoken word. You can do it. You can do it. Give you a pint and you'll be fine. No. No, no thank you. I gotta work on that too. So yeah, so I did start some hormones. Just super low dose of soy science and other stuff. First started with, I'm just, I don't mind sharing at all, estradiol and estradiol for estrogen and then progesterone. Progesterone, I do oral. I know that it's better to do a patch with progesterone, but because I have a uterus, you have to do it a certain way or something like that. If you don't have one, you don't have to have that. It's like a whole thing. They have to balance it out so you don't start your cycles again. And I don't want my cycles again. Are you kidding me? I got out of that. I don't want to, I have to deal with that again. So I went on the hormones. Those just those two, estradiol and progesterone. And in seven weeks, I gained 17 pounds. Not kidding. Okay, okay. I needed to gain weight. It's okay. I'm not like, you see now, look now. See, like I got a little extra. I got my jaws spilling out a little bit. I'm fine. I look healthier. Don't I you guys? Come on, I do. If you look back at my videos in like February, January, even December, I looked sick because I was like 118 pounds. That is too skinny. I'm almost five nine bitches. I'm almost five nine. I'm almost five nine. That is too skinny. That is like my high school weight. I am 50 years old. I should not be that. And it's awful. Cause then I lost muscle mass. All my muscles just like, my skin was just sagging. It was disgusting. It was not a good scenario. So then I got my healthy weight back. So now I'm like, whoa, whoa. We got a balance now. We got a balance. Cause now I want to eat. Like I actually, the hormones actually create some cravings and some of that's natural. And I didn't have it for so long. And now I'm like, oh, now I gotta find the balance. Right? But it feels good to have my personality again and to have like a bunch of energy and then understand the kind of the balancing of things. It's, it's, I feel more alive again. So thank God for that. You know, thank God for modern technology and medical technology, you know? She says, yeah. So do you think it would be different if you had hormones? Yeah, yes. Yes. Yes, it would be different. Very different. Well, she says, that was the beginning of the downward slope again, the downward slide. She said, what you said about women committing suicide. I agree. I understand. I'm like, I know too, because I felt like it wasn't worth being here. I was just like, what's the point? Everything just felt flat. It just felt everything felt hard and there was no joy and no, I didn't want to be connected to anybody. I didn't want anybody touching me. I didn't want anybody near me. I was like, I couldn't really receive love. People were trying to give me love and I couldn't really fully receive it. I mean, I can give it back a little bit and stuff and do some of that, but I couldn't like really embody like my Shakti, my fire, my passion. And I should have been passionate. I mean, I have lots of opportunities for that. I just wasn't quite me, you know. She said, yeah, it would have been very different. I think part of what people can learn is to take care of their bodies. When other people, you can't expect other people to take care of your body. They're not gonna do it for you. They're not gonna do it for you. That's what she says. They're not gonna do it for you. You have to do that. That is your responsibility. That's part of what you were created for the body. And so the body does need to be tended to, even if other people disrespect you, disrespect your body and treat you like a commodity. It's on you to say no. It's not about pushing them away from you. It's about knowing yourself so strong and solid inside. You are the sword. You're the sword. You're the sword. It's not about fighting people off or defending yourself or getting people to like you or want you. It's about you understanding the gift of your body and how to treat it. How to treat yourself. Your self, your self. Your self? How do you say yourself? Say it again. How to treat yourself. I can't do it. I can't do the self. It's like a, how do you do LF? She's like, how to treat ya? Okay, yeah, I can do that. How to treat ya? How are you treating ya? What's it about? What's this about? The truth. What is the truth? She says, I'm proud of ya. She's telling me that. I'm proud of ya for sharing. For being honest. I'm like, dudes, if you're watching the videos, you would've been able to tell how skinny I was. She's not talking about that. I didn't want attempt to leave. I thought about it, but I never, I couldn't leave my kids, you know? I couldn't imagine giving up and walking away. Just couldn't do it. She says, my son left, you know. I do know that. I did hear that. You know what? I know, I was on Instagram. I have been so bad on my social media, you guys. I am so awful. I'm hardly on Facebook. I'm barely on Instagram. I'm on TikTok a lot right now. And usually different names. I do, yes I do. I think it's beautiful. Yeah, thank you. Appreciate that. You have to do the right for you. Yeah, I know. Well, feels good to you. You have to do that, yeah. But I was on Instagram just briefly. And I am Brigitte Inspire, just briefly. I'm more on Brighton Burch more. And I happen to see Amanda Ellis. Do you know Amanda? Yes, I talked to him. I talked to Amanda. Yes, we talk, we spoke, we spoke. Okay, so Amanda must have channeled her. I'm assuming it. I didn't see it. I didn't watch it. I totally 100% respect Amanda. So whatever she shared, whatever place the two of them focused on would be right on target. Just 100%. I don't have to see that to know that. Amanda Ellis, it's her name. If you don't follow her, you should. E-L-L-I-S Amanda. She's out of the UK. She has great card decks, incense, candles, sprays, that kind of stuff too. She's product. She's good, very good at what she does. And she talked about menopause herself too. She talked about it. I think, I think that was her. I think it was on her. Was it on her Instagram? I don't know. I know she's talked about it before because I'm like girlfriend, I'm going through it too. It's been like a year, it sucks. Anyway, gotta support each other. Actually it doesn't suck that much anymore. Now that I know what's up, I'm like, I'm just taking care of it, you know? I'm just taking care of it. So, you're taking care of your body. She said the body, you're taking care of your body. That's what you're doing. That's the difference. She said, that's the difference. She said, I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't do it anymore. I could not do it anymore. I could not give my body what it needed. I couldn't do it anymore. She said, my son, he left before me, you know? He had a lot of problems and stuff. He's sick too, you know? Yeah, you can't blame yourself. You can't be like this, oh, I gave my children, my mental health, they should use whatever. He says, she says, you know, they say I'm bipolar and people have shared that. Mental health, right? Mental health challenges or problems or things. I'm like thinking, girlfriend, I can't believe you lived as long as you did. 54, I think? Are you 54, 56, something like that? I'm 50, like four more years, girlfriend. I can't believe you lived as long as you did with as hellish of a childhood you had. So I can't believe you lasted as long as you did, honestly. And so you lasted long enough to have children, to give them an opportunity to be people. I mean, I think that's a beautiful gift, regardless of what kind of mom you were or were not able to be. That's just like, our children choose us, we don't choose our children, you know? There's some soul contracts there and some stuff that's complicated, but they choose us. So now at least your spirit and his spirit can be together. Yes, he says yes, yes. And my mother too, my mother. I don't know how you could, I shouldn't say I don't know how you could forgive your mother, but I, in afterlife spirit, it's different. So yeah, spirit doesn't hold grudge, it's nothing like that. That's a resistance in the mind and the lack of forgiveness. So forgiveness is the healing way. She says yes, it's grace, it's grace. And then she says, oh my God. She says to me, I don't know whether to call you Brighton or Bridget. I think you just outed me. Should they eat that? We're on the live stream, so there you go. Okay, thank you my dear. You know what I hear, kind of vibe I hear? There is a song, Fast Car by Tracy Chapman. Oh, Tracy Chapman, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. And it's remade by somebody else. I think it's a country singer actually, I can't think of what it is. And it's on the radio now, like mainstream radio. The reason why I know is because I hear it in my car because I have an old car and it, I have radio you guys, like radio. Can you imagine? Doesn't have a screen or anything, it's radio. And I hear it in this Fast Car and I say, so Sinead, when I hear that song, I think of you, that song, the lyrics sound like you, the words sound like you. I could hear you singing it. She said, yeah, she says, I'm like, have you sang it? She said, yes, I have. She says, and then she says to me to Google it. So now I'm curious about Googling it. Does anybody know? Okay, so I gotta listen, I gotta read the chat. I've spent so much time in this space with you, which is freaking amazing. This is worth the price of admission, right, you guys? Right? This is worth three times trying to get into this. Let me just check my, I love, wait, Tracy Chapman, that song. I'm gonna say hi to people in the chat. Darrell, nice to see you. She's commenting on the accent. That's because in past lives I've been Irish at a huge Celtic love for Celtic energy. 56, okay. Hey, Deja. Hello, Christopher. Suzanne, King. Luna, Spectrum. Patty, of course, Lola. Hitting home, yeah. Peter, hello. Robin. Annette, Arlene. Luna. Mary. Nice to see you. Oh, okay, thank you. Kalik, lots of hearts in the chat. Beautiful, thank you. Hi, Nikki. Oh, Nikki, you're so fun. You're so, okay, sorry. Nikki Simon. Hey, beautiful. Hello to Canada. All right, hey Grace. We just talked about that. We just, okay, so I'm gonna wrap with this. And now we can, we can, we can wrap. Okay, hi, Samantha. So, Sinead, you know who you remind me of a little bit? Like kind of the vibe, like I can hang out with. You don't remind me of her, but Carrie Fisher. Like as far as like friends go, like Carrie Fisher is totally a spirit life friend for me. And Sinead, you could totally be a spirit life friend for me, which is, I feel the same way. I feel the same way. I feel the same way, okay. All right, so I did the OM, which is Celtic Tree Wisdom before I did my session with you today. And she said, oh, that's cool, that's cool. I like the trees, okay. And so I pulled one of them. The OMs, these are called staves. The sticks are like pieces of the tree. It's like divination tools. It's like a card deck, except it's wood. It's a tree I love, the trees I love. I've been using these since fall of 2020. These have been such a huge part of my journey and they're Celtic. Okay, so this one is, I think this is Hazel. Let's see, one, two, three. The little, see that image on here? The little stick with the little hash marks. That's the stave, or that's a picked PICT. That's like a letter or a sound. And they used to, this is like ruined stones kind of thing, ruins. Or they're using like Nordic mythology too. The Nordic folks use these as well, like the Vikings and things like that. But very Celtic, very Druid vibes. Here you go. And it's, so the stick is considered a stave. And this word or the symbol is a picked PICT. Okay. And, so this one is the Hazel. There's 20 trees. And you could use them like, use the ones in your land and stuff like that. I have some that I've gathered from places I've gone, especially the birch. That's a really special one for me. I love the birch, the rowan, and the willow. Yes, those are like my big heavy hitters. This is the Hazel. One, two, three, four. Is that four? Yes, and to the left. Okay. So Hazel, so I'm gonna read to you a little bit about what this might mean for you. Okay, you guys ready for that? Let's see where we have. Gotta find it in the book. Here we go. Ready, ready, ready? Hi, Opal, nice to see you. Okay, let's see. So it covers the summer solstice. So it's in alignment with June 20th or 21st. I'm depending upon where you are in the hemispheres, right? So it's in the northern hemisphere. The key words for the Hazel, for this oom, is water, the moon, bounty and abundance. We just talked about that. August 1st is tomorrow, right? Lunisa, Lamas, okay. So it totally fits that energy. Intuition, wisdom, insight, knowledge, sage advice, divination, poetry, which is like lyrics, right? For songs, I love poetry myself. Creative pursuits, high perspective and clarity. So if you receive this in a reading, it could mean your feminine nature, the changing of the moon, the lunar principle of receptivity and mystery, and the goddess Sophia of higher wisdom are all relevant now. Your female lineages have something to say to you as do your spiritual heritages. Take some quiet time to tune in and listen to their nurturing messages. Take your intuition seriously. Find time to sit maybe by a body of water near your home, a lake, the ocean, a river or stream. This tree suggests appreciation. Appreciating the cycles. What cycle are you in right now? This tree suggests acceptance of where you are right now. As it is possible, it is impossible to push the river into a different flow, okay. So there's more, but you get the idea. This is right in alignment with what we were talking about, the feminine, the divine feminine, the womb of the woman and the energy, the alchemy of how we change of our bodies, of our sacred sensuality, of our Shakti and our life-source energy and how we consent and get to take care of ourselves through our freedom of our consent and through the sovereignty of who we are and using tools like this beautiful sword, this selenite sword, which is the energy of also Saint Joan of Arc we're calling in as well as the initiator bringing you into alignment. This is not a tool for pain. It's a tool for alignment and it's multi-purpose, isn't it? She says, yeah, I like that. I could get a tattoo of that like on my arm. No, I wanna get it. I'm gonna get it on my left thigh actually. I have a little rose there and I wanna make it into like a dagger with the big roses around it. But that is for the future at some point. Tattoo is not expensive, you know, but it's a creative expression. So maybe I'll just buy a poetry book instead. That works. All right, my friends, thank you so much for being here. I appreciate you. Hey, Passion Pixie is here in the house. Hi, Sugar Kai, nice to see you as well. Thank you very much. All right, my friends, thank you for being here on Above Life Channel. On our Monday Channeling Session today with Sinead O'Connor from the afterlife. Wow, this was powerful. I gotta go back and listen to this is powerful. You guys, I had like a whole bunch of stuff scheduled today and I just, everything just got pushed. In fact, I actually have to go to the pharmacy and pick up on my hormone prescription. Seriously, I'm not kidding. I have to, seriously, I do, it's on my list. I should, it's on my list for today, so. All right, so much love to you all, so much love to you, my friend, my sister. Thank you. So much love to you all on your healing journey, on your embodiment journey. God, we could do so much work around this topic, my friends. Yes, we could. Maybe we should have some small groups. Maybe we should do something. We'll see, see what comes of this, right? Thank you for being here. I hope we've inspired your spirit, filled you with some hope and encouraged you to live your life. This is yours after all and you get to live it. You get to choose to live it. It's your choice. Just live it. Thank you for being here today and for being here in your body on the earth at this time. I'm glad to know you. I was gonna say, I should talk about my, I have a group coming up August 10th. I have a group coming up August 10th. Look in the description if you wanna join in. Yeah.