 just because you're going through spiritual waiting doesn't make you any better than anyone who's not. But it's just something that a very small percentage of people go through in this particular lifetime. And so it makes it much harder to connect with others and be able to talk about all of these things because most people aren't going through it. And so what happens is you begin to break down these ego barriers that have been the way that you live throughout your entire life. It shatters everything because the majority of people aren't going through this. On top of just feeling like no one understands you and I know that's something that I personally go through a lot. Even people that I love so dearly and I've been close with for 10, 15, 20 years. I feel like all of a sudden don't get me anymore and don't know me. Like don't know me anymore. And that can be isolating and very depressing in itself.