 Hello everybody, I'm so excited. We have one of your favorite guests today Cindy back on the channel We don't have as much time today as we normally do, but we definitely wanted to follow up today on a few things One being self-sabotage another being the veil this time of year and the idea of mercury retrograde all the fun stuff That's going on. Hello Cindy Hello Bryce and everyone it's such a pleasure to be here as always and I have to say guys So as you see Cindy is sitting in her beautiful yoga school right now where I have the pleasure of teaching on Sunday mornings She just taught a class now when I'm done teaching a class I don't look as good as Cindy looks right now So let's just take a moment to appreciate Cindy and all of her beauty because honestly after I'm done teaching I always feel like I look like a hot mess, but I mean you look gorgeous Cindy. So I'm envious Ponytails ponytails Everything So all right, so people I'm gonna let you get started with what you want to start talking about today Well, we were talking just a little while ago about how it's October the 1st and Mercury's in retrograde But you know October is also like my favorite time of year There's a lot of movement in the air and I love like the whole Halloween season and everything like that And it's always when I said I always feel a lot of movement and I would consider this to like Kali season Like if you think of the goddess Kali It's like this this feeling of death and rebirth like happening together because it's the season where Nature is changing and the trees are going into hibernation. So there's like this little mini death all this letting go energy that's happening right now and But but that makes room for the the seeds that are to be plant to be planted in the future So it's like this this a lot of movement Kali death and rebirth going on Plus the veils are thinning as we start to move toward the end of October and you might be feeling that as well Where I don't know you just might get a sense of there's like there's just something something out there Beyond what you can see with your eyes and ears But with your other perceptions as well And you might even feel it through the mercury retrograde that's happening right now, too That we just I think we just got into that what two or three days ago or so Which is not necessarily a bad thing, but what was funny is right when we were Recording brice, but they hit the record button and she hit the what do you hit the like the end button instead That's a total mercury retrograde. Yeah I text Cindy I was like, sorry hot back back on and then we hop back I was like that cuz we've been talking about mercury retrograde I was like mercury was listening that was listening So yeah, but the annoying thing about mercury retrograde is the technology sometimes your computer will blip out a little bit during this time your Cell phones they always recommend not buying a new computer or buying a new cell phone during mercury retrograde not signing new contracts during mercury retrograde, but Mercury retrograde is also a time for like projects to be to come to completion or something's been working on to actually come into fruition During mercury retrograde because in some ways mercury retrograde is like the fall season where it's like it can end things as well It's positive. So it's not all just oh so annoying when it's mercury retrograde There are things to look out for but it's also a beautiful time to like find things coming into completion Mm-hmm. Yeah, this is all you know perfectly working in with the season The main thing I would say from mercury retrograde to be careful of is to make sure that you communicate clearly and to not make assumptions I think that's where you can Make some mistakes with like miscommunication with your relationships, especially because I think we're We're in Libra season to where a lot of relationships stuffs will begin to come up So make sure that you communicate don't make assumptions Don't assume that your partner or whoever that you're talking to knows what you're talking about like Communicate it and make sure that your communications are clear, you know, it's funny I've mercury retrograde has been a part of my understanding for many many many years now as Cindy as well when you're in the yoga world You kind of learn this stuff through your journey through yoga And I'm not gonna be here on Sunday and I was texting with Cindy I mean how many times have I talked to you about my class on Sunday just because I wasn't sure So yeah, and that's the thing like you and it is I think Mercury retrograde also does give a time for people to kind of step back a little bit and just self-examine Sometimes and your triggers are maybe a little bit different during mercury retrograde like you said you can you can miss read I mean text messages are hard to read anyway, you know If they're like over a certain subject you could miss read how somebody wrote something and and that's common So it's a time to kind of sit back and reflect on that as well, you know And so it's and we mercury retrograde. I believe it stays retrograde for like three weeks But then the week before and the week after it's always shadow. Yeah, it's it's a long period of time Mm-hmm. Definitely So yeah, be mindful of that and as we said we're coming into or we're we're in October we're steeped in that energy and How there's a lot of movement In the air right now and the message is that I keep getting and I've even made some videos about it because it just Keeps coming in over and over again. It is To elevate your frequency It's I mean not just because of the seasons and everything but just everything that's going on with the world Collectively all of this Information and all of just these energy know the energies some energies are good some energies are not so good Hmm and to protect you from those forces that are going to be more manipulative It is absolutely essential for you to elevate your frequency to protect yourself I mean do the internal work We're you know, we're gonna talk about self-sabotage in a minute how we do that but the importance right now to really do the work to To move up to the to know like your contentment your joy your peace Yeah, love all these things and how that acts as a better protection Than the fear because a lot of times we put protection on out of fear. Yeah, and that's not going to be as effective From the Natural your auric field that expands when you're in a place of like joy or reason or peace or happiness Yeah, that's going to make your your auric field, which is your your your protective barrier Come from a much more expanded space and it's coming from your internal light instead of from your fear You know what I mean? So it's understanding the difference between those two kinds of protection Absolutely, not protecting yourself out of fear but protecting yourself out of your own sovereignty Yeah, I'm gonna power your own worth your own confidence. Yes meaning in your truth protecting yourself with your own authenticity That is going to be such much more empowering and more Just a better a better source in use of your energy, but it's so important To do that right now like to really get into that space now because we know this time of year The veil is the thinnest. That's when the that's I mean, that's why we have certain festivals this time of year But I think what we're starting to understand Especially those who are in like kind of waking up process of what reality really is when we talk about the veil thinning We're not just talking about it being thin for like demonic forces or evil forces It's also thin for good forces as well like good spiritual stuff But the difference is the good spiritual stuff will not manipulate you But that will there they have the good spirits have more of a respect for your boundaries as well because you are also a Spiritual being just because you're inhabiting a body doesn't mean that there's not a part of you that connects to the other side The veil as well and but yeah, I'm so glad because this came up yesterday I or the day before I was talking with some people that we talked a lot about how people are now understood starting to understand that these Issues of dark and light are literally coming from the same conduit sometimes the same realm But it's up to you It's up to you to again as you said find your sovereignty and understand which path you're willing to go down And I love that you wanted to talk about that and of course of course one of the ways where we don't respect ourselves self-sabotage and sometimes we're doing it You know Yeah, the self-sabotage. I mean, it's one of those things where We don't realize we're doing it half the time and the reason we do it is Out of protect it goes perfectly into what we're talking about because it's out of protection Yeah, usually we hold ourselves small, but because we're trying to protect ourselves from from something like either from from being hurt usually and But the protection that comes from that is not the same As I said the protection that comes from like freeing yourself from self-sabotage Well, that's understanding It's understanding the difference like the self-sabotage is going to come from your ego fearing being exposed Versus Exposing yourself already because you You want to be authentic you want to be free you Your I mean you're ready to step in and do the work that you're here to do your No matter what like no matter who's gonna come at you with with criticisms Because as you know and as you've already experienced it doesn't matter how awake you are you can be awake You can be enlightened. You can read lots and lots of books. You can be highly knowledgeable But you're gonna be attacked Anyways, no matter how enlightened you are so you might as well I mean that's in other words that part is not gonna go away, right yet make that part disappear and Self-sabotage comes in from wanting to protect you yourselves From those kind of experiences or those kind of inevitable from the yeah, but what you Need to understand is none of that goes away, right? necessarily but the way that you handle it will be completely different and You'll be yourself. You'll be free. You'll be authentic. Yeah, that makes sense Yeah, and I will say too because you're totally right and we see this a lot And I've had to put up. I mean everybody knows that I've had some issues with some certain Emails I've gotten that we're kind of scary as far as like our safety just because of the things we're doing with that kind of go Against the narrative of certain religious stories However with the whole like negative comments all that kind of stuff when I first put myself on YouTube That stuff really bothered me, but the weird thing is More and more it happens the less and less it bothers you And so people ask me a lot about starting channels. I'm like just do it. You're gonna get people you're gonna They're jerks everywhere. You're gonna get people That yeah, they get that criticism, but guess what there's an elite button There's a block button and the more it happens the less it actually bothers you It's like water off your back, you know And so and so you're totally right like that stuff's never gonna go away There's always gonna be critics out there and usually when they're criticizing you They're coming from their own place of insecurity. It's about them not about you Exactly, it's a projection of their own issues and it's not it has nothing to do with you at all So so you're absolutely right about that you're absolutely and I do and it is sad See there's so many people out there that have so much to offer the world their light is so bright But they dim it because of that fear of of the inevitable that's gonna happen anyway, you know So that's probably like the number one reason they're one of the at least one of the top reasons for sabotaging ourselves because we are afraid of the And especially if you've done this this kind of work in previous lifetimes when you were seriously persecuted like I'm talking about You know thrown into the bottom of wells and burned at the stake and this kind of things that memory holds within your within your body and The idea of persecution is very very it feels very real Yep, and we'll hold ourselves small out of fear of persecution and It is I mean that is self-sabotage But it's a calm self-sabotage comes from the ego wanting to protect itself, right? And wanting to protect the different identities that it created for for you that mainly out of you know Mainly out of protection. Yeah, so what would your suggestion be if somebody so let's just say let's just give an example That there's somebody watching right now that wants to start putting their research or their work out there on YouTube like we do But they're afraid what would your suggestion be to people to calm their nerves down to be able to walk into that place of insecurity and fear but still Be able to move forward in not sabotage their you know, I'm saying they're not sabotage their own light What would what was there any exercises people can do or there's there's a saying? I don't know who said it originally, but it's feel the fear and do it anyways Yeah, because Most likely the fear is not going to go away completely if you wait for your fear to completely go away. You'll never do anything, right? Part of the growth process is actually moving through the fear That's what actually builds your confidence and in your capacity to do more is When you look at your fear straight in the eye and you say, you know what I see you I Acknowledge you but I'm gonna do this thing anyway. I'm gonna step I'm gonna make this step anyway, and if I fail I mean failure is nothing but just I mean or the idea of failure is actually, you know Kind of stupid because you're gonna fail a thousand times before you get anything, right? Anyway, so absolutely Nobody does it's the way we view failure. It's the way we view criticism and it's going into your own brain and your own mind and in changing your Ideas about that. Yeah, like like what we just talked about the the fear of persecution or the fear being criticized Or what people will think that's all made up in your brain I mean it comes from a real place. I mean it comes from from a real You know probably a real fear But you know as I said a lot of the times that fear doesn't just completely go away You have to look at yourself look at your fear and say, okay, is this really Valid right is this really true? Because there's the other saying that says just because you think a thought doesn't make it true exactly That's one of my favorite. I say that to myself a lot. Don't believe everything you think. Yes, don't believe everything you think Yeah, because we are our own worst critics and I know I tell this to you know and The type of yoga that we that that I my boy the shot It's my sorts where people come in they practice that on their own open space and our other students the room and we have beginner students They're always nervous to come in because what if they mess up and other people and I always say, you know Everybody in that room is so focused on their own on their own stuff. I'm gonna notice you Yeah, so it is not believing those thoughts that you have about yourself and that whole You know that you this we have this idea that we have to be perfect and everything And there is no such thing as perfection You can give yourself space to be a beginner to don't compare your beginning to someone else's chapter 10 I love that quote. Yeah, I love that quote so much. Yes, absolutely Absolutely, and yeah, yeah, I do not compare your beginning to somebody else's chapter 10 There anything that you start doing to somebody that's been doing it for a long time. It's yeah, that's just your own That's just you your own ABUSC you're just doing that to yourself and and you know and and that's and we have to have growth like anything you do I mean synapses or you probably remember the first yoga class you ever took Yes, and you look at yourself now and how much not not just physically things have changed but mentally mostly everything that things have changed The video you ever do versus the one you do five years from now like there's growth there And it's fun to see people grow and change and learn really have that wisdom of learning through failure That's where wisdom comes through is through failure. So so yeah, yeah, so the the the the This you know and when you start to move through these fears I mean it might bring up some of more of the deeper emotions, you know Sometimes that we get shackled by shame. We get shackled by guilt. We get shackled by all these these underlying emotions that keep us small but what you want to ask yourself to is that energy can't exist if You don't want it to Like why and this is you know, this is not necessarily a popular way to look at this But it is you know, it just all goes back to taking responsibility for your own emotions and your own feelings If you're experiencing something over and over and over again It's because there is also been an unwillingness to want to let it go So how is the these these experiences or how is this shame or this guilt or this fear? Asking yourself, how is it actually feeding you like why are you holding on to it? Why do you want it? You're getting you're getting to reach deeper to ask that question because on a conscious level you'll say Well, I don't want it who wants to feel shame who wants to feel guilt who wants to feel fear? I mean, nobody wants to on a conscious level, but if you still have it you're holding on to it I mean, you're the one that's holding on to it for what I think it's feeding you in some way Yeah, and asking yourself How is this fear feeding me or how is my shame feeding me or how is my guilt? Actually giving me something that on some deep level. I want it, right? You know, it's so funny Bridget and I and for people who are a little Bridget is another teacher at Cindy's yoga school So y'all should check our classes out too because you can take zoom for their classes We were actually talking about this one day about how people, you know will come in and that they want to change They want to move through something, but it's almost like they can't let go the stuff They want to change because it's familiar. Yes They'd rather stay suffering in the familiar than step out into the unknown even if the unknown is healing But they're they're familiar with the suffering. It's like an old teddy bear. They're familiar with it It's a bad habit, you know, but then they when they start to like realize that it's like they immediately just run back to To the the stuff they actually don't consciously want to be in because they're that fear again That's that fear of not of the unknown of what would it be like to actually heal myself? What would it be like to not have this chain that binds me this idea? I have about myself which goes back to one of the first episodes We did where we talked about the trauma that we have in the body and I'll link on those down below guys So you can watch some of the older episodes. We've done kind of touching on this as well. So, yeah We're so complicated. We're complicated Little ego deaths that we need to experience and the ego deaths feel like real deaths Sometimes I mean the energy of having to let something go. Yep It's not just as easy as oh, I'm just going to let it go, you know I'm gonna say it and it's gonna happen Because there is a often times like a grieving process that comes along with letting go of the familiar Yeah, there's an energy of grief that has to come through an energy of Even sometimes then that trepidation of the unknown because some people I mean And I know this because I've felt this too a true Like trepidate not just fear but like that That fear that freezes you that definition that kind of fear that comes through From experiencing things that are not known to you. Yeah, and the willingness to move through though those feelings Yeah, I think that's what People get caught up. It's like oh my gosh if I feel that it's going to kill me Right your feelings are not gonna kill you if you're willing to say, you know what I'm going to just feel this fear I'm gonna feel the trepidation moving through my body. I'm gonna feel the The well, you know, whatever else the grief We're afraid of the actual emotion. Yeah, but the emotion is not gonna kill you The the motion will kill you if you hold it inside for too long and it binds your energy But the emotion itself is not gonna is not gonna kill you But we're afraid to go into the emotion thinking that we're gonna get stuck into it that we're gonna spiral down And we're not gonna be able to lift ourselves back up again But you're holding yourself in the in the space of healing, you know Get someone even you know get a counselor get someone that you can talk to about it Have some friends around you that can hold sacred space for you while you're going through these Experienced and letting these emotions process, but it's the emotions that we fear. It's us It's our own selves that that keeps us from Experiencing those feelings because we're afraid we're afraid of the feeling but it's just a feeling Exactly and that's when we talk about yoga like the whole idea of your thoughts And I always say to students sometimes like thoughts come up as emotions It's not gonna be like a story that runs through your head Sometimes you're gonna all of a sudden feel a gross emotion and we don't and it's the good emotions We don't mind feeling it's the gross one that make you go So I would do this but and that's it is almost like yeah ego deaths are uncomfortable They're painful But it's almost like that my experience is with stuff like that and it can last for months Like that process can last for a long time But if you if you allow it to like run through you it almost like wears out its welcome. Yeah eventually you're ready to just It dissipates. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, you almost get tired of it It's just done and so when you feel it's but before you're pushing it down so much any time it tries to put Put his head up you push it down more and then the minute you it's like those jack-in-the-boxes the minute you just let it come up It will eventually and it's not gonna happen again. It's not gonna happen in like five minutes It's gonna take a process of you giving that up But yeah, it is I've been I went through an ego death probably a couple of years ago We're like for two months straight I was in this just deep deep deep depression and it was like and it really and for me When I got to the other side of that and sometimes you'll have multiple there's multiple things that we're carrying around that will Come up, but um when I got to the other side of it. I was like, oh My yoga practice is working then Because it came up and I one of my teachers asked The guru our guru in India like Guruji. Why is this so painful? Is it necessary for this to be painful and Guruji said? Yes, because pain is real No, it's very real and and and and that but and that's why I think yeah We do carry it but once you release it every your whole the whole people's bodies shift everything just starts to shift and reorganize itself Because now you've made space for your light to shine even brighter. Yeah, exactly So but but that is yeah another I would say that that's another like in the top five reasons why we self sabotage ourselves That would be the the other one is we're afraid of our own emotions we think that our emotions are and and not to say that they're they're gonna be pleasant but If you just allow yourself to feel and know that you're strong enough You to carry it through that there is in the other sides to it Yeah, if you're strong enough to carry it around inside of you all these years and you're strong enough Yeah, you're strong enough to process it. Yeah, and those and those are and that's one thing I think we've talked about this Cindy like I know there's a Kind of a narrative out there with the young ones today that to be triggered is wrong Like if someone gets triggered then they need then the person who triggered them needs to apologize But coming from schools of yoga. That's not that's not good, you know people and they're triggered. That's not the person who's triggering you That's not their responsibility To maintain your emotions That's your responsibility and when you these triggers that we have of emotions are actually quite sacred and that's that's your body And your psyche telling you hey, you need to look at this we need to process this You you know you work through it not shove it back down again and make the person apologize, but we need to actually Work through this because your higher self wants you to reach that that that ascension What wants you to raise your vibration your higher self? Wants you to have that healing Especially now. Yeah, especially right now when it's needed the most Yeah Yeah, even like low-level World humanitarian level they say hurt people hurt people Mm-hmm world to be a be a peaceful place work on yourself, right? And that brings me to another reason why we sell sabotage It is we're afraid of our own light. We're afraid of our own power in You know, we talked about Carl Jung before in shadow work. This will be called your golden shadow Where we push we repress our light because we're afraid of our own power and We're afraid of the responsibility that comes with that and so it's easier It's easier to stay small because there's no like responsibility or or anything in that But the second you make yourself big and powerful you're like oh shit because then it's like exposure, you know, yeah, like oh shit man With great power comes great That's true guys in the Bible as as to who much is given much is expected Material stuff. That's also knowledge light power Yeah, and you're right and the way you can recognize your golden shadow It's similar to the way you recognize your like your your darker shadow is by Looking at the people who inspire you like those people who just really Inspire you and you you want to look at you're drawn to them for whatever reason and You look at them and if you take a moment to to write down or think about their traits that That calls you or that that really do inspire like oh wow, you know I love her so much because she's so open or she's so brave or she's so Courageous and she says what she needs or what she wants to say. She doesn't hold back whatever that That is for you That is your golden shadow. Those are the parts of you that you're repressing. You're seeing it in them But they're just a mirror of you Absolutely, they're showing you well Hey, you have the capacity to also Speak your truth and you have the capacity to shine that bright and you have the capacity to be that Courageous and to be that great, but you're holding it down. You're repressing it because you're afraid of it I love that. That's how you can see the golden shadow Reflected and other people look at how other people inspire you and how you may say oh well I can't ever be that of course you can you just pushed it down Well, we do that and people have talked about that with other people like people that like make you mad or piss you off like That that that is also a reflection of qualities in you that you should work on But I love that you're also saying the positive side of other people that you really you know like oh my god Like Cindy for example y'all Cindy is one of the calmest Human beings like you are always so calm and so grounded like you handle I've known Cindy for years now and Cindy and I have Kind of seen stressful situations together in certain things and Cindy where I'm in the corner crying Cindy's calm Cool and collected and she's very methodical and very organized And so it's that same thing when you see that quote you guys when you see somebody in your life You're like I really like the way they do this in this positive way That's something that's in you as well. That's exactly recognized it. So I love that you're talking about that I love that. I love that so much and y'all Cindy really is calm Cindy is a very inspirational person to be around Yes earth energy Yes super calm super as you got the you got the Vata But with your Vata though with your Vata energy you're a creator though, you know You you create things you you say things you express things your energy moves the intelligence, you know, oh, thank you Y'all I'm telling you if you guys live in the Atlanta air I know we've gotten somebody's coming down to your yoga school that watches us here But y'all you should absolutely check out the website check out Cindy zoom classes If you're not in the Atlanta area because she's literally The most positive person to be around and those those energies kind of rub off on you You know when you're around somebody who inspires you You walk away feeling better about yourself and that you've had that you don't have as much fear anymore because they have shown You a side of you that that that has allowed you to tap into so I love that so so so much That's a that's such a great Great, and that's a great way to also start to elevate your frequency is I mean you've heard this before I mean nothing that I'm saying to you is nothing that you haven't heard before But being around people who inspire you instead of people that put you put you down What is it the top five people that you're around there? You're they're the ones that matter the most and to also Surround yourself with people You know at least a couple of people who you feel are a little higher than you I don't let your ego get in the way and put yourself in there because those are the ones that are going to inspire you to Elevate yourself and help pull you up. Yeah It's like they say you are the company you keep exactly Yeah, so I love that and that's why it's important I know people have gone through a lot of talk therapy where they we have to make the decision sometime to cut out toxic people Yes, it's it's a harsh thing to do, but that's boundaries That's you setting your own boundaries that you can't be around someone that's constantly pulling you down down down down down Because we are spiritual beings and and that is you know setting that sovereignty in those boundaries. So yeah, absolutely Yes, so Yeah, that's a that's a good one and being afraid of your own power being afraid of your golden shower Cuff and shower For Cindy's other channel Humor is a good thing too by the way You have to have humor when you're going through processes like this if you can't laugh at yourself or you can't like laugh in general It's gonna be a rough ride. No, it totally is You know some of the most wrong dogs used to say that right didn't wrong dogs used to say the most spiritually evolved people have a sense of humor Oh, yeah, like that's comedy is a sign of a spiritually evolved human being you know So yeah, and that's I the guys over at mystery archive threat said this one nine I loved it. We were actually talking about literal demons and he said the one thing demons don't understand is laughter Yeah, you're in a spiritual battle. Sometimes if you just turn around and laugh at the sucker They don't know what to do. And so they leave you alone Yeah, I'm telling you like these manipulative forces they feed off of fear Right elevate yourself up to joy to laughter to humor. They can't get in Yeah, so It's it's so important that we we do this right now Especially with all this movement and changing you're moving into this golden age To this age of Aquarius what that means is I mean, you know, it's not just about Undoing ourselves from the untruths that are out there Because those untruths are only reflections of our own Yeah, you have to like you have to pull it back in because you can go out there and say, oh, there's this wrong You know, they're wrong here and they're wrong there and they're wrong there and they're wrong there And that's fine You know, you have to expose some of the wrongs that are in the world But if you don't point it back in where it's you're nothing's really gonna change just I'm gonna say the same I'm so glad you said that because that we've heard from many like Spiritual psychics on this journey of this awakening and they keep saying that in order for like the flip We're waiting for the flip to happen There has to be a certain amount of people who are at a certain vibrational level So what they're saying is what Cindy just said, you know, as far as all the wrong doings of the world Those are gonna those are being taken care of at this point You got to look at the man in the mirror because I'm gonna move into this new Reality about sovereignty and hire that it's all gonna be nobody's gonna come and just plug you up and give you that you Have to do that yourself and so a lot. Thank you for saying that because I think people need to hear that It's not about, you know, we of course we need to take Responsibility for some of these people that have done terrible things to other humans in the in a very law and order type of Way, but in the meantime You have to you have to terror by Janine says this a lot the terror are lovely terror by Janine that we love so much that You know in a lot of ways the simulation that we're living in we created ourselves For us to learn and move through now I know a lot of people are gonna have a hard time with that But it is kind of a self simulation so that you can evolve You're giving your your higher self is giving us you individually and collectively these lessons To be able for your greater good so that you can rise up through it. I mean, that's the whole Flower the out Like yeah, yeah, no mother Lotus. Yeah, exactly. Exactly. That's that's you'll see that only every like you We're putting out a whole bunch of like cliche memes today Right sometimes there's truth Reminder of all these things again because our thick heads won't take it in sometimes. I know repetition. It's all right And that's why I have to repeat things. That's why there's mantras is repetition until you actually get it. Yeah yeah, and Yeah, another part of cell sabotage, too is this unwillingness to want to look at ourselves as These as human or as these imprint, you know, you were talking about ideas of perfection When we look at our own imperfections, we don't like to do that. No, we hate to look at our is again It's an egoic thing. We hate to look at our own imperfections We would rather project our imperfections out to other people Which is what we end up doing when we end up judging and saying, oh, no, you're wrong And what I do is better than what you do and all that That's just projection of you not wanting to look at your own like Ideas of imperfection like you created some kind of story in your head of what perfection looks like and Anything that goes outside of that That's the stuff that we we don't we'll we'll push it down. We don't like to look at it and Yeah, so we totally sabotage sabotage ourselves with the idea that we have to look and be a certain way and if we fall outside of that spectrum of And you know and it falls it in like in everything like dog dogmatic beliefs Religions and all that, you know, they have an idea of you have to be like this And if you're not this then you're a sinful person or you're bad Or or you're gonna go to hell and all these other things and so that that puts a fear in you that puts a fright in you and To then finally have to expose that. Oh, you know, these are these are my human qualities It's it brings up all that insecurity and again It brings up some of that that feeling of shame and all that stuff too, which is again, it's just all made up It's all made up Absolutely. It's yeah, absolutely. It's it's literally, you know, I said the simulation is literally as your own You created this world and so you are the control that you can you can change it and it's not as Sometimes for some people that is it's just easy as going. Oh, I can change it. I'm gonna change it for for most of us Yes, well time to actually get to that point of change and and you know, so absolutely and we had Cindy and I have had many conversations because we do live down here in the south so Yeah, I understand about the whole very The fear-based projection coming from relief belief system. It's and again It's a belief system. They can be can come from anywhere, but you'll see it sometimes with with certain religious doctrines Yeah, yeah, we get it down here in the south. It's the Bible belt, but this is all over the world, right? You have like Oh, no, yes belief system. It's that whole idea an opinion You know, I've said this on David's channel like all these if you look at belief systems If you look at all these churches Catholic Protestant, whatever they're all just different opinions On the same tax and that those opinions become these belief systems That then go to war with each other when somebody doesn't follow that belief system So you kind of see on the bigger scale what you're doing to yourself on the the macro versus the micro You know what beliefs that where are you fundamental and dogmatic in your belief systems that you don't even know you're that that's yourself sabotage And I can tell you this you can get rid of your belief systems like that and still be a good person and I think that's where we get caught up like with our like spiritual self righteousness Or this morality spiritual morality or any kind of morality in general Is that you need it? This is what's been indoctrinated Indoctrinated within us is that you need it in order to be a good person and that's not true No, you know one of the things and this might not be a very popular belief Usually when I tell people this they think I'm crazy But one of the things that I did is probably a couple of years ago Is I took my moral code. I wrote it down on a piece of paper Took it to the cemetery and burned it like I burned my moral code And this is called a grand vanishing ritual by the way And and usually if I do some grand vanishing that means like I need this needs to be done But the reason that I did it though isn't because I'm going to become like this immoral person and do all this stuff It's because I realized how much my moral code was feeding into self righteousness Right, I was looking at people saying oh, well, you don't follow my morality and this and then I could feel like the self-righteousness come up Where I would be judging other people because they didn't fit within my framework of morality And I was like, you know what? No, I can't this isn't this isn't working. So, you know, I burned it I mean, I've burned it in the cemetery. We and I'm still a good person. At least I think I am So in other words, it's like you have to kind of watch these beliefs because again, this is an egoic thing and Again, some people will hear that will go She doesn't have any morals But the thing is you're a good person Yeah, anyways, I mean if you're going through something serious like through like some serious addiction Then, you know, you might need a set of rules to you to get yourself, you know To get yourself right or to thinking right or to get yourself where you know where you want to be but um When your morality starts to feed self-righteousness And it causes you to blame and to put judgment on other people. Yeah burn it Yeah, I love that. We we see that now with like virtue signaling Like nobody likes a virtue signal or there you go There are people that put their virtue out there and then shame you if your virtue doesn't match their virtue There you go guys. I love again mac mac. I love that. That's the spiritual self-righteousness That's the way the ego creeps into your to your growth and to your awakening. It's going to creep in wherever it can So, um, you have to watch that But I mean you really have to watch it because it'll start to it'll come up. You'll feel it Yeah, you feel like that. Oh, I'm better than you kind of things My beliefs are better than my opinions are better than your opinions Yes, and my beliefs are better the way and my path is better than your path. That's what you hear a lot Yeah, yeah, and and even even the bible says my mom my my mama used to say this to us all the time growing up Judge not least you be judged. Mm-hmm judge not least. Oh, but by the grace of god go I You know and I love how you said that even like if you're a good person if we're talking about morals If you're a good person at the core of your being you don't need a moral code, do you? You'll be good if you're listening to your higher self And you're connected in your filter is your heart You're gonna do the right thing your filter doesn't need to be this outside idea of what morality looks like Right filter be your own heart like the chambers and the opening and the goodness of your heart Let everything filter through that And you'll you'll be okay Yeah, and you know the folder I get the more I learn that there is no such thing as like black and white Like there is no such thing as like truly good or truly bad most actions and most people Go in and out in shades of gray And I love that because when you take away that moral code and you're you're dealing with other people You have more of an understanding or an openness to where they're coming from You know and that's that whole live and let live idea like like I you know judge not least you be judged And um and that I think if people I love that I'm gonna have to go do that write down all the things that I cling to and burn it And we have some great if you want if you want me to take you through like I'll take you through a whole the whole The whole thing we should do it. I'm for sure a great time of year to do it And I love y'all we got some great cemeteries Yeah, we should I totally do it We if you want I could film it too and show people as well because and I think we're starting in this like great awakening I think we're learning a lot about these Believe systems that we've been indoctrinated into our dna that we're having to purge out of us because again, yeah Human beings are way more complicated than just a set of rules, aren't they? Oh, yeah more complicated and way more way more beautiful To just a set of rules. I heard one like progressive christians say once and I really liked this And we know that the word sin means to kind of the original world was like to miss the mark to not Know really who you are that was the original a definition of sin, but she said you know My understanding now is to sin is to do something intentionally to hurt somebody else or and her are intentionally hurt myself And I love that because even though those are two rules She's following it still gave flexibility of like if i'm not intentionally hurting someone If there's because things are just life is just so much more complicated and yeah, so I love that guys I will definitely film a burning ceremony And I'll give us a chance we can film some of marietta as well because marietta is a beautiful beautiful little Town it's a suburb of atlanta. It used to be like its own little town, but now it's kind of considered an alana suburb. So So yes, yes Good stuff I know We're gonna have to close out soon because I have to jump on a call with prime minister But I wanted to let you guys know so we had our opening episode on the sacred blue tent We're not calling it the red tent We're calling it the blue tent because tiffany blue is the color of god And it's the sacred and blue is also at one of the definitions I've learned from sabrina gao is that blue also means a highly intelligent woman So the sacred blue tent, of course, it's a channel on telegram It's myself sabrina gao toronto some lots of other women That are coming together to put together shows once or twice a week With other powerful women and men pertaining to the divine feminine because that's coming back as well into this age Of aquarius where it's going to be balanced between the divine masculine and the divine feminine Of course, the divine feminine is also found in male males as well. It's not just women it's it's just this energy and so Nobody encompasses the divine feminine quite like sunday does and so i've we've talked to sunday off camera She is going to be one of the guests coming up on the sacred blue tent Where she will be talking more about mary magdalene's teaching all that kind of stuff and I will be guys I know we've been talking about this off camera We are going to be doing a future episode on this channel on my channel with sunday and sabrina gao and toronto Because sunday is the mac daddy of understanding the teachings of mary magdalene Whereas sabrina and toronto know the lineage of mary magdalene So that would be such a freaking powerful show to have like at all I mean, this is the age of mary magdalene, isn't it? She's coming back. I want to share this So this is this will be really quick. It's a it's a story I don't know if it's myth or if it's true or but it doesn't matter It's just a great story and it's in this book right here called the serpent of the light This was written before 2012 because remember the world was supposed to fall apart in 2012 And it was written by drum below melts melts just the tech. I don't know how to say his name But anyways at the very beginning of it, you know, he talks about this transition into the divine feminine And in his story, he says that the earth has a kundalini just like we have a kundalini The earth has ones too and the base of the earth's kundalini is at the core of her like in her magma core But there's a talk to the kundalini, which is which is usually at the surface of the earth Okay, and it moves about every 13 000 years the kundalini's the earth's kundalini moves And 13 000 years ago or so it landed in Tibet where the top of her Her kundalini was in Tibet. That's why there was so much like spiritual awakening and all this stuff happening in the area of India and Tibet and all that because the earth's kundalini was feeding this right well again, it moves Every 13 000 years and you can think of this also lining up with moving into the age of aquarius too And it happened the probably around the 1940 1950 or something like that the earth's kundalini Oh cindy I think we lost you let me text her quickly guys Hold on Well, this is leaving us on a bit of a cliffhanger where the kundalini um Landed I think I think it was in americas. I think is where it landed because I think I've heard this before I'll give her a few more minutes and see if we can get her back on I'll tell you why guys. I'm going to put down the description box Oh, yeah, we lost her so I'm going to put down the description box I'll where the kundalini landed because I've heard this before We are actually going to be talking about kundalini on the sacred blue tent as well because some people have some some Not correct ideas on kundalini. Um, so we're going to be discussing that topic as well on the sacred blue tent So thank you so much. You can descend. I know we've lost her now, but thank you to send you guys I'm going to put all of her contact information her youtube channel Her website everything is going to be down in the description box below If you check out sacred garden yoga again, you can see the whole schedule There's multiple different styles and lineages of yoga at cindy's yoga school So if you're confused about what style you want to practice That would be a great place to start even if you're not in atlanta You can take her classes on zoom the only class It's not after on zoom is actually my class that I teach on sunday mornings And that's because of the style of yoga that I teach Does not allow for zoom has to be very hands-on. So anyway guys lots of love to all of you guys and I will talk to you all soon Bye