 Hey there, this is probably going to be a bit of an interesting video, but it's one that I'm really compelled to make today Spear science has been through a lot in the last few years and You know a lot of things are changing right now There's a lot of YouTube creators today who are stepping down from making YouTube content because of whether it's burnout or just Needing a shift and to take a break and to move on And I've really been thinking a lot about the direction and future of this channel and all of the different things that we want to do And how we want to do it specifically You see the thing is I don't really want to leave I don't have any intention of closing shop and moving on into something else because Spirit science really does offer something that is very unique in the world And it's not something that I want to see go away But at the same time lately the last three years especially I've had trouble keeping up with creating content with facilitating our community with everything and the reason is actually a financial one The truth is several years ago I was in a car accident that came with a very big bill that the insurance company didn't pay for they refused and my Accountants at the time encouraged me to pay for everything out of pocket from the company in doing so We drained spirit studios of all of its resources And it put me in a position where I was struggling to afford to keep on the staff that we had Helping to create new content and help run the mystery school and all of these kinds of things So we let go of most of our team and then a year later the mystery school itself was hacked Now many of you know about this story and when that happened it felt like the whole everything was just cut out from beneath us We were put in a really really difficult position or I should say I was because I had to let go of everybody Spirit science went from having a team of over 15 people on staff to being a team of one once more and In addition to that I've been straddled with a very very large amount of debt When all of this stuff happened it was such a devastating blow. I really shut down I stopped being able to create as much content and I went within and I went on the journey of finding myself just working through the emotional stress of everything that I had to deal with it has been very very difficult at times and You know through all of it I am grateful because the lessons that I've received have made me into a person that I wouldn't have been otherwise Today I am clearer and stronger and more knowing of who I am and what my path is But that hasn't changed the fact that over the course of all of this time, you know Whenever resources come in instead of being able to bring on support to help move the ball forward most of the resources end up going towards filling in debt holes and This is very stifling. It's really stopped spirit science from being able to produce as much content as we want I want to see us producing a new spirit science episode every week I want to get to the point where we're producing the elixir series once at least every month But it's just difficult when that money has to go into filling in the holes of debt that I've been carrying. I Really want to get past this and ultimately I have to ask for help in order to make that happen I can't do this alone and so to help us move forward today We're relaunching our patreon to see if this is something that you the world really wants and you know, this is a hard thing to say and I don't know if I don't even know if it's right to say But I think I should tell you this truth In my heart of hearts deep in my soul. I don't think that I could ever quit this work But I have to say in the last few years There have been a lot of times where I've just wanted to throw in the towel There have been times where I've just wanted to let go give up and quit because of how hard things have been It's not easy creating when you're constantly stressed about being able to support yourself Or support the people around you who are helping you to get through this But I know that the work of spirit science. I know that this work is really meaningful to so many people I am amazed by how many amazing comments people make You know, despite how many nasty cruel vicious comments there are Because let's face it. There are so many people out there who are cruel and mean and that is degrading as well But despite that there are so many people who have expressed that their lives have been fundamentally transformed because of spirit science And it honestly it took me a really long time to be able to come to terms with that To be okay in knowing that I was someone in my team the people around me We were doing work that was impacting people in such a profound and meaningful way And it's for that reason that I don't ever want to stop And so I'm making this video today to ask you for help I can't do this alone and I'm really struggling to right now I need to bring on some help to be able to start making consistent spirit science episodes So if you feel like you want to see spirit science not only survive but thrive Please visit our patreon We're just launching it today and it would be such a blessing to receive your support So that we can get out of this debt crisis And get into a place where we're really doing well making plenty of content for you to enjoy And helping make this world be a better place Shining bright under the virtues and principles of truth love and authenticity Much love