 Tomorrow, I'm turning 20 and you know, I think it goes back to when I was younger, you think of what you are going to be doing at certain ages in your life, experiences you will hope to had, things you've hoped to accomplish and but yet when you're young, I don't know when even thinking about being 14 years old, thinking about being 20, I remember guys in my life that were 20 years old, older friends and there's just like wow, that's so much older and I can't imagine what I'll be doing but now I know what I'm doing at 20 and honestly, I'm scared. Honestly, 2020, I don't know, it marks kind of a step into, I don't know, I'm already an adult but at the same time being 20, it seems to have that much more pressure to it but at the same time, I feel inadequate. People often ask me and they'll give me questions saying, how do you become so passionate about sharing the gospel and how do you have so much zeal in your faith and honestly, it's not always like that. I don't feel always like I'm ready to take on the world with God and I'm just ready to share the message and do all this great stuff and just go for it and just trust in God and that kind of thing. A lot of the times, I just feel like, what am I doing? What is going on? I'm scared. I don't have these tools. I don't have these skills. I don't have these doubts. I have this stuff but at the same time, I know God's put me where he's put me for a reason and that's what I tell people is like, God's got you where he's got you for a reason and yeah, you're inadequate. Yeah, you don't have the tools necessary because if you had everything you needed in and of yourself, you'd never pray. You'd never even think about God because you got it. You're, you know, but that's not where we're at and when we can come to terms with that and me, I'm coming to terms with that continually and just saying, you know what? Yeah, I feel inadequate. Yeah, I feel scared. Yeah, I feel ill-equipped but I know that God's got me and I know that I can trust in God despite what I'm feeling and you know, there's a lot of things that I hope to do and there's a lot of dreams that I have and as I turn 20 years old tomorrow, it's one of those things where I'm just like, okay, it's time. It's time to do some stuff but at the same time, I know God's got me here for a reason and those things will come but maybe they won't come and that's okay but at the end of the day, I know that I just want to be trusting Christ and I know I don't have everything I need. I'm not totally equipped to do everything I want to do. I'm scared out of my mind. Sometimes I'm overwhelmed and I know sometimes you guys are too but when we can come to terms with those feelings, when we can come to terms with those experiences of that feeling of not being enough, of feeling like we're not doing enough, like we are not enough, we can rest in the fact that Christ is enough for us and he is ready to work through us despite all the stuff in ourselves that gets in the way and despite our feelings of inadequacy, God is going to use us but it takes that stepping out encourage, it takes that stepping out in faith to really do something and stop making excuses, stop saying I'm behind, stop saying I'm ill equipped, stop saying I just don't have it because you might be right, you might not have it but God has it and he can work through you and as I'm saying that stuff to you, I need to believe in myself. I don't have anything special, I don't have any unique crazy gifting that is just, you know, out of this world, I'm not a genius, I'm not a, but I'm me and at the end of the day that's what you gotta give to God, you gotta give God you and that's all I ask for and so I mean, yeah, I know this, I've been rambling some but I hope this will encourage you guys and as I turn 20 years old, I'm excited for what the future holds and I know a lot of you guys have been asking about my age and well, there you go, this is the answer, you don't need to ask anymore but I hope you guys have a wonderful day and I look forward to seeing you a lot more in the future and yeah, I hope you guys have a blessed day, God bless guys, bye.