 the men still kind of suck they're just pissing me off and they're making me angry and my blood pressure is rising jennany please just turn the video off if you're watching like i don't want you to see this i don't want you to have to endure this i don't want i don't want to i don't want to do this look at us look at us who would have thought so as you can see oh mess so it is time for another episode of booktube twin test okay the way the booktube twin test works is i asked you guys what booktubers do i have the most similar reading taste to and they recommend me three books that they love do they think i'm gonna love as well star ratings correlate to points and if someone gets 15 points which is the maximum they're my booktube twin we've already found one more books like where is my booktube twin and i like to shake it up i like to sometimes do this with booktubers who loads of you recommended i like to try out ones that one or two of you recommended so the booktube today is jennany from this story it ain't over i am so excited two of you said that i have a very similar reading taste to jennany one person said it and then one person like seconded it seconded it seconded it seconded it so i'm counting that as two so we're doing booktube twin test with jennany i have watched her for a very long time i'm gonna be honest since before i even started my channel and i'd never really thought of us as having similar reading taste but if two of you have said it we're gonna put it to the test so i'm really excited to see what she picks so shall we just go ahead and find out let's see what i'm gonna be reading in this vlog okay i just got jennany's video through i'm really really nervous clap if you have anxiety i kind of have no idea what she's gonna be trying to do i feel i feel sick but i can't wait any longer i got the video through this morning and i really should be doing other stuff right now like that i need to get done urgently but we we just have to watch this guys i'm feeling nervous but also hopeful okay we've got to find out let's go hey mag i hope you're doing well thank you so much for asking me to do this video for you and for making me the next contestant of the twin test i have watched quite a few of your videos but i know you like a lot of thrillers and mysteries and horror and honestly i don't really pick up a lot of mysteries all that often so when you initially asked me i was kind of terrified because this could go very badly but i do feel like after doing my thorough research i've found that you have quite similar tastes in certain types of books and i think i've narrowed down a few favorites of mine that you will most likely hopefully really enjoy so i know you really loved babble by rf quang the book of 2022 i know you're a big fan of the poppy war series i know you really loved i'm glad my mom died like janette kurti i know you have thunderhead by neil schusterman on your favorites list on goodreads which gave me a lot of hope because this is also my favorite of the side series and then i also noticed that you gave a five star rating to little fires everywhere by select eight which i think speaks to the fact that you may have a similar ish taste to me when it comes to literary fiction but who knows so having talked to youtube and your goodreads i feel like i've gotten a pretty good sense of the books where we are pretty similar in our taste so the first book i want to recommend to you is my favorite book ever the one that i tell everybody and their mom about and i think it's become my brand honestly and the book is kai gai by vishita tal this book is a really incredible feminist retelling of the hindu epic the ramayana which was a story that i grew up with and this book takes the perspective of a minor character in the epic and tells her story and the epic she's given sort of this evil stepmother role and is really hindering our heroes but in this book we start to understand her and i think maybe you'll particularly enjoy like the political aspects and the fact that you really enjoyed babel and the poppy war as some fantasies i think you'll most likely really enjoy this one it's got so many layers to it so many themes really great characters and i hope that you love it and i'll try not to take it personally if you don't end up liking this one okay so the next thing i want to recommend you is one that i'm not actually sure if you write or not i checked on your goodreads it said that you didn't but i'm not quite sure because i know you've read this author's other books so we'll see so that book is the southern book club's guide to slaying vampires by grady hendrix this is actually the only grady hendrix book that i have read and i absolutely loved it to death i love the atmosphere of this book and the thrilling nature of it and the horror aspects of it but i also really love the concept of it just being like a story about a mom versus dracula and i think it pokes at a lot of interesting social themes and issues and i overall really enjoyed my time with it while also feeling like i got a lot out of it okay and then the final book that i'm going to recommend you is one of my all-time favorites i never stop thinking about it i do think this is another one that you may potentially not love as much as me but you'll still think it's really great so i still want to recommend it to you and i think based off the fact that you liked little fires everywhere you will probably enjoy this one this one is a little bit more love story focused so the book is the stationery shop by marjon kamali this is a really beautiful and moving historical fiction literary fiction romance in slight ways it follows two characters who were teens in iran during the 1950s during all the political upheaval and they are separated by different circumstances and they are meeting again many years later in our present day and you are trying to figure out what happened in between and it's just a really beautiful beautiful book it explores not only this starcross lovers situation but also the political aspect it taps into mental health motherhood so many other great themes and i overall think it's like a fantastic brilliant book it'll definitely make you cry so get some tissues ready especially for the end but i love this one and i hope you love it too all that said i really hope you enjoy all these books thank you so much for asking me to do this and i'm so terrified of how this is gonna go but hopefully it'll be okay okay oh my gosh okay okay okay okay okay okay so i'm so hungry she picked kakey i was hoping she would pick that i've wanted to be kakey for so long i put it on like book club polls i've been trying to fit it into so many different blogs and i'm so happy that that's on there and freaking grady hendrix i love i want to read already hendrix so i'm so i'm with the grady hendrix on there i'm so i can't even speak i'm so excited well today is going to be the best reading vlog ever southern book club's going to save vampires i don't own it but it's one of the ones from him that i've wanted to get to most i just like grady hendrix i think he's my kind of horror and then the last one i've never heard of the stationery shop it could be because i think kind of historical literary fiction is something i used to read a lot when i was younger like i loved like the kite runner and the mountains echoed for example just something i could think of on top of my head but um i haven't heard of that one it's like that genre recently i don't tend to look into a lot but i'm excited i'm excited i'm feeling really good vibes about this tbr i'm kind of shook like i think this could be it guys i'm so excited okay it's time to start reading i decided to start with the southern book club's guys playing vampires by grady hendrix because this was just calling to me it was something about it that was saying megan pick me up guys i am obsessed i love it i cannot put it down i am only 90 pages in i'm already getting like five stuff in by the way this dust jacket does not want to stay on like if i'm not clenching it tightly it does not want to stay on how cute though i'm like trying to get you to get it to focus there's like a little like live look how cute is that like a library stamp anyways i'm loving this so basically all you need to know is we're following particularly one mum patricia patricia and her friends who are members of this book club but they read like a lot of like chew crime or like kind of like horror thriller books together right and obviously the tartars of southern book clubs guide are saying vampires so i don't think it's a spoiler to say there's gonna be vampires and i think we've just met the vampire but like he seems kind of nice off the get go you know he seems kind of like a nice vampire so why are we gonna kill him that's what the title suggests and he seems kind of nice act the fool girl i'm here act the fool if you watch my channel a lot you'll know i'm some inexplicable reason obsessed with american mums i just love them or just like mums in general like suburban mums i just associate that with america but i suppose big little lies which i loved is australia i'm pretty sure the book is set in australia i'm obsessed with suburban mums i think it's such an untapped like share of the market like even what typically those women are encouraged to read and what it's marketed to the reader it's not stuff about them it's about like the women they wish they were whatever i love books about them about them oh mums women this book is talking about like the mental workload that women and mothers carry and i'm just like yeah there's just something about the writing i am completely hooked not much has happened in the first hundred pages we've established the book club and we've met the supposed vampire i know there could be more vampires but this guy seems like a vampire he had to be invited in and you don't like the sun does he glisten is he a monster bella i love the south setting the southern setting as well in america i mean i've never been but i think it's a very evocative setting i think this is set in like the nineties as well which is a fun setting i think this is gonna be my favorite grade at hendrix so far i've given him a 3.5 and a 4 so far i'm getting five star feelings i just want to read this i don't even know what to say to you i love patricia as a character already i just i love books that have a slightly mundane life like she's like having to do carpool and her daughter's on the soccer team and like this and that like mundane life juxtaposed with like crazy shit and i feel like that's gonna happen but i've just enjoyed meeting her and meeting the friends and like being in their setting and in their lives for a bit i've loved it so i've got to tell you something guys the rest of this vlog i'm going camping tomorrow for the first time ever with tom's family are you tough enough for the job no when you think of a camping kind of person it's not immediately me but i've been with tom now almost seven years and i've never been camping with them and they love camping so it's time we're going for four nights so i'm going to take this and kai key so a big chunk of this log might be whilst we're camping which i'm a little bit nervous about because i'm a little bit nervous that like i'm looking on a talk because i'll be around like strangers like not them but like strangers in the the camping field but we're gonna do lots of walking lots of nice walks but i think there's also gonna be a lot of time to read so i'm gonna take these and hopefully read a lot of them over the next couple days so i've just packed up everything i probably won't read much more tonight because i need to go wash my hair and then get ready for camping tomorrow but i think there's gonna be a lot of time for reading so definitely gonna finish this while camping if not a good chunk of kai key as well i'm very excited i'm nervous but i'm excited to take along with me we'll have lots of fun b-roll we're gonna have lots of fun hopefully and hopefully it won't be as daunting as i think it's gonna be anyways i will see you when we're camping i'll probably see you once we're there next so yeah wish me luck and i'll see you soon but i cannot wait i'm gonna read this in the car on the way there tomorrow i'm gonna read it whilst we're there i am beyond excited to continue with this book these women i love women i love mums i love mums i love mums try not to say mother challenge failed good morning i've come to the top of the hill so i'm not near anyone so i can talk to you um we had our first night's sleep here my first night camping it was great i was surprised by how much i enjoyed it got woken up for half six by the sheepies there's a i don't want to move you because you've just i've perched you correctly there's can you see the cow like looking straight at me hello mr cow okay now i gotta get you situated again i think that's fine so yeah i'm having a great time we're just about to have like a fry up for breakfast and we're gonna go out for a walk i'm having a great time i'm also having a lot of fun reading my book while we're sitting around i read quite a lot in the car journey yesterday and then i've just been sitting here this morning reading some i'm up to page 250 of the southern book clubs guide to saying vampires i'm loving it i think it's gonna be a five star love mums so i don't just want anything but like fuck men fuck men i'm right aren't i mr cow yep we hate him i just hate the husbands oh this is set in like the 90s so like it's not as if we're in the 50s but like the men still kind of suck they're just pissing me off and they're making me angry and my blood pressure is rising and a twist just happened in the book where we were kind of like building building building and then something like kind of put it into it and stopped it and i'm just i'm intrigued to see where the story is going to go and i want it to go in a certain way and i want us to like get this vamp let's get this vamp but i don't know i'm loving the writing it i think this is grady hendrick's best book by far that i've read so far i really enjoyed both horror store and particularly from a girl support group i think he's good at writing like older women i don't know but i know my best with exism is teenagers so i'm intrigued to see that as well but yeah i'm just really loving it i'm loving the writing i'm loving the storyline i feel like it's just potted gray i feel like this setting is very vivid and i just love mums like there's a lot about what it takes to be a mum or a traditional wife or not even just a traditional wife but like i think there's still today expectations for a partner that um a woman takes on a tradition like you can easily fall into gendered stereotypes i don't know and that's what that's not necessarily always a bad thing it can be a choice but it comes with certain responsibilities like i know that my mum for example is better at organizing the family stuff she's like the organizer you know my dad lovey dad peace out and i'm more of an organizer in my relationship so just certain responsibilities i think you can easily fall under just talking about that is really interesting i hope with the husbands get their comeuppance for them pissing me off and i hope we go catch the spam isn't that right this cow's really bugging me out i am on your turf to be fair that's fine it looked away but yeah i'm excited i'm going to have some sausages eggs and then we're going to go for a nice walk i'm really excited i'm having a great time guys i was so nervous about camping only thing i'm nervous about is washing my hair i think i'm going to try and wash it tomorrow morning but i'm a bit nervous because my hair takes forever to dry and i just think it's good we'll see how that goes but yeah i'm going to go finish this but i feel like jennany might have a five-star we might have a five-star to start us off oh my god what if i get another booktube twin this would be a really unexpected booktube twin like mara i was pretty sure was gonna get three five stars at least gets three good ratings what if we had to get another one what if i have two booktube twins i'm getting ahead of myself i've read one book but i think this is definitely going to be a five-star so the next morning we visited the town of bakewell home of the bakewell tart and of course of course i had to make sure i visited my favorite fudge shop in the entire world they have lots of shops over uk but i haven't had it in about three years there's none near me i genuinely believe rodie's fudge is the best fudge to ever exist and i love it so much so i picked up like three packs of that and then we explored bakewell and bakewell is actually the town that lambton is based off of in pride and prejudice that's the town that lizzie goes to with her aunt and visits there and then i think mr darcy visits them in the inn so it was so cool walking around there and imagining that part of the novel set in this area and actually the coolest part was apparently the rutland arms which is like a pub and hotel apparently jane austin actually stayed there and rewrote part of pride and prejudice while staying in that hotel how cool is that i believe that she said that darbyshire is her favorite county as well which is where we were placed we were in and i don't know just so cool imagining jane austin staying at that hotel and writing part of pride and prejudice was so cool i've come a bit higher today because a guy moaned grass i'm out of breath so i just climbed a really tall hill he's moaned grass down there so i've come up a bit higher hopefully you can hear me okay i hope it's not too windy it is hot today it's our last day so i last spoke to you i think on tuesday i didn't speak to you yesterday because i finished this right before we went on our walk and then we went on the walk and i was so tired i think i only went on the start of the walk if you saw the clips you know when like we're on the top we're in that kind of heathery bit with the rocks and stuff we then like climbed all the way down into the village you can see below and then climbed all the way back up so tired i haven't got it in me i'm exhausted i'm in shock and i am traumatized but yeah it's really hot today but yeah i finished this right before i went on the walk i didn't have time to talk to you and then i was exhausted before when we came back here's the thing we want to know ratings because that's going to determine how many points jananina's got to start off with um here's the thing i loved this i really enjoyed it i loved it i had such a great time it was amazing i've been debating whether i give it a 4.5 or a 5 and i think kind of if you're debating that and then it's a 4.5 so i loved it but it's not quite a 5 it's a 4.5 now that's still a great strong start it still bodes well it means that jananine can't be my book to twin because she can't get full points but we can get close we can get close i loved this my two reasons that i'm giving this a 4.5 and not a 5 are i feel like the other women in the book club we have like mary ellen kitty grace um slick i don't know i think that's the main four of them they particularly like mary ellen and kitty but also the other ones they never really seemed like fleshed out characters to me like i would get confused i don't know who mary ellen was other than someone who's headlines like i didn't or kitty particularly those two grace and slick especially by the end i have a bit of a clearer idea because they have i guess more distinctive things happen to them by the end of the book but the other two i have no idea who they are i have no idea who they are sorry like they just weren't they weren't fleshed out enough i think for me to give five stars hopefully the wind isn't that bad if it is i apologize i mean patricia is the main character and it's kind of more her story than like a group of women's story so i think it's not like a deal breaker for me like i don't really mind but i think it it prevents me from giving it a five star and also the ending um i didn't dislike i liked how the ending went but it wasn't quite how i pictured it to go and i think perhaps this book i mean it is like it's 400 pages i think it could have been 50 60 70 pages shorter i think there's a few moments particularly maybe throughout the latter half where i feel like we're going around in circles a little bit and like we could have just sped things up a bit and kept the pace going so i loved it i think it's great it's by far my favorite grady hendrix it's exactly my kind of thing this does like i always say grady hendrix does camp horror but this does go there with some of the like i was like grossed out like grossed out with body horror with extreme topics if you need trigger warnings i would look them up for this because like it goes there it's pretty graphic when some of this stuff happens listen i'm a baby this is like my level of horror okay but yeah i'm excited we're gonna go for our last walk today it's our last whole day today and just like being on this holiday is making me even more excited for costrica which if you guys don't know is my next trip oh shit my lens cap i am so excited it's happening near the start of november start mid- november and i just can't i kind of believe i'm getting to go on holiday you guys like it actually is crazy like me and tom we're just talking about how crazy it is that i am this lucky and in this privileged a position to go on holiday with some of you so if you have been interested the um i'll put the date up there's the last the final date to book is coming up if you do want to come on costa rica trip i think it's i want to say like 16th of september but i'm on holiday and my brain is like in holiday mode so i'll put the correct date up on the screen which is the last date you can back but if you don't know i'm going costa rica we're visiting a lot of the beaches in costa rica um but we're going to see baby turtles we're going to go canoeing we're going to snorkeling we're going to go we're going to go guys the settings that we're in we're in like kind of the jungle we're not in the jungle jungle we're in like the jungle by the beaches jungle you know what i mean there's gonna be sloths hell the monkeys that near the hotels i can't even get my words out because i'm so excited so yeah there's still spots available there's nine people booked on at the moment um so there'll be 11 of us including me and tom tom's coming as well which is crazy so if you're interested i'll leave the link down below there's still time to book if you want to join us and it's honestly the nine people who have booked i've been getting to know them we've got like a group chat and i've been speaking to a lot of individuals while like throughout the process and i cannot tell you what a lovely group it is like they are so they all seem so nice and i'm just so excited to go costa rica together like what the hell i booked my flight right before we came on this trip and i'm just so excited so if you want to join us there's still nine spots available i'll leave the link down below oh fly and like i said yeah you've got like months months and a bit to book if you want to join more if you want to come the more the merrier i'm just so excited so oh i just choked on my own hair oh so yeah anyways i'm gonna go we're gonna go for a walk today our last walk and it's gonna be hot so i'm gonna try and film my zen climbing that hill yesterday to like push me up some of it okay it was a struggle but like when you look back and said oh my god i just climbed all of that that is a sense of achievement you know are you guys understand if you see in the clip all the way down all the way back up kind of gacked anyways i'm gonna go start um kaikei next because that's what i brought with me and i have the audiobook so i'm hoping that i'll read a good chunk of it today and then obviously tomorrow we're traveling home and that'd be a couple hours so i'm just planning on reading that in the car so i'm really excited i don't know what to expect but i've pretty much everyone i've heard read it has loved it so i'm really excited hopefully this clip hasn't been too windy for you it's windy here guys i'm in the peak district okay it's windy look at us look at us who would have thought what the hell am i saying okay bye what a great time i was really nervous because i've never been before not usually i didn't think of myself as a kind of girl but they made a lot of tom made sure it was like you know i was gonna be okay so i had a great time i loved the walk through and it was just so beautiful i love the peak district so much i just think it's just such a beautiful it's one of my favorite places i think in england i just love it in the current home yesterday i got basically halfway through kaikei by the shnevy patel so basically all you need to know about this is that is a retelling of the character kaikei from the hindu epic ramayana and in that i believe she is like there's like a authors note at the beginning she's kind of like a evil stepmother i want to like tell you if you don't know i don't know i mean i know it going to it because i've read the authors note at the beginning but she like i think does something to do with her stepson right and he is i guess the protagonist of that epic and she's kind of like a side character she has villainess and this is kind of a feminist retelling of her role the only thing i have to really compare this to is greek myth retellings i guess it's the only kind of retellings of ancient texts that i have read and it's similar to that in that the other ones i've read it starts kind of at the character's childhood and we see them grow up i guess the pointless book is for us to understand her and see that she's not a villain and see where she's come from or see her descent into villainy i don't know i don't really feel like that's going to happen and i'm not disliking it but there's just something about it i'm not loving stop why you stop why you're ahead okay if you guys have watched a lot of my videos you know i've had issues with greek myth retellings where i can see that the writing is beautiful i can see the like the um i can see that the character development is amazing but there's just something about a story being predetermined going into it that doesn't work for me and i feel like that's almost happening in this because i feel like there's certain plot beats from the original that the author if they're like deciding to stick to it if they're deciding to kind of stick to the plot beats has to hit and there's a certain character development that you have to show and sometimes i feel like that can lead to characters having sorry someone's hoovering outside characters having reactions or reacting to events and developing from them in a way that doesn't feel entirely realistic like an event will happen and that will change them in a way that they have to change for the story to move on in the way that it has to but it doesn't feel entirely earned to me i don't know so that's upsetting because i want to love this i've heard nothing but great things at the moment it's probably like a 3.5 like i'm enjoying it but it's not entirely holding my attention it's not entirely captivating me the writing there's something about the writing i'm not vibing with but i don't know i've predominantly listened to the audiobook for this first half and i don't know if perhaps this writing is but would be better read just physically but now i've started the audiobook i like once i start a book with the audiobook i can't stop even if i read it physically i'm still gonna have the audiobook now that i've started you know and his thing i don't know the original story uh similar with greek myths i often like i didn't know the story of cersei before i read that so i think it could be more impactful for me if i had grown up with that story or i knew that story and i can see it's being very important and impactful for people to read but i also feel like it's i don't i don't know the main story but i have my assumption is she's kind of like this villainous character and i feel like this is this book is really trying to just make her like an angel like nothing has really happened yet but halfway through for her to show any signs of moral grayness and i just feel like we need that i don't know i don't know if i'm i don't know if i'm interested in like a complete like 180 like redemption arc of an originally villainous character for me what would be more interesting is like moral grayness leaning towards redemption leaning towards like understanding them but i feel like they need to be a little moral grayness like i feel like cersei did that really well but there was like elements of cersei she did some stuff you're like go and i just don't feel like we've had that yet oh my god there's noise everywhere okay i'm gonna go finish this i'm liking it i'm not loving it and i'm very i'm sorry because i wanted to love this so bad jenny please just turn the video off if you're watching like i don't want you to see this i don't want you to have to endure this i don't want i don't want to i don't want to do this i'm just gonna shut down and i don't want to talk about it i finished kiki um i'm gonna give it a three i'm gonna give it three stars and i know this is like your favorite book ever and i just i don't want to i don't want to do this to someone okay i don't want to i don't it was a three it was a three so that puts jenny on maths seven and a half points so far this was just a classic case for me of a something that happens to me a lot where if i don't vibe with the writing for whatever reason i don't think the writing is bad if i just don't personally connect to the style of writing i cannot connect to the book that happens to me quite a lot i feel like i'm a broken record i say it all the time but if the writing just doesn't work for me it's like a barrier for me to enjoy the rest of the story in all books and it happens quite a lot and i'm quite a picky caster and i was just talking about this particular writing style that didn't work for me but it doesn't mean i think it's bad i like i said i'm picky do you know what i mean i can't tell you what works and what doesn't for me just sometimes different writing works for me and sometimes different writing doesn't and it stops me from enjoying a book so that was number one i feel like i just never fully connect to the story never fully connect to the characters never got into it because i wasn't jamming with the writing style and that's a pretty you know it happens to me pretty regularly i feel like i need to figure out a way of there's no way of finding that out before reading a book do you know what i mean other than not reading authors who knows all the writing style doesn't work for you again and there is something about retellings of myths or epics or these kind of stories i mean like i said my own experience has been with greek retellings that i can never give a five star maybe one day something will come along but sursy sort of achilles silence the girls ones i've read before there's just something about the predestined nature of the storyline that just never works for me i always feel like the book and my experience of it are a little bit constrained by the original text you know that's how i always feel so i think those were the two main things holding it back but for this is a three star that i can understand why it's someone's five star if you don't have that problem with retellings like i do if you like the writing style also if you've read the original epic i think this could be really fun because for me i don't know the story and i feel like there was elements in this with how the author had twisted it that would be like oh my god you know like a great reading experience if you have read the original but i just haven't but you know what like i know i know this is jenny's notebook but isn't that beautiful that it can be someone's favorite book and someone else cannot love it you know i love babble some people don't love that i love strange case the alchemist daughter some people don't love that when someone says to me they didn't love strange case the alchemist daughter like i fully can't understand it and isn't that great that we can feel such passion and like love for a book and not everyone has to get it but like we get it you know and so the fact that someone else can experience that with this book i greatly admire but i don't want to talk about anymore because i feel bad it felt really bad but it was just a three for me i also feel like you can tell that it's a debut a little bit so the last book of this vlog the stationary shop and i have been told you know i've been warned that i'm gonna cry i'm in danger so i saved this for last and i'll check in with you on some of my thoughts in a bit okay i'm halfway through the stationary shop i've just sat down and my camera has eight percent left so we're gonna talk quickly about this i don't have a ton of thoughts anyways we are in iran in 1953 i believe yes when there's a lot of political upheaval at the time but we're kind of following that political upheaval through the lens of a young couple who meet and fall in love he is very pro the prime minister and it's her i know it's their relationship their romance but also set in this time of political upheaval and how that's affecting their relationship that's all you basically need to know firstly can i just say this book has like beyond deckled edges i don't know how well it will show up on camera but they are insane i thought i had deckled edges before but these are deckled deckled edges maybe i didn't have deckled edges before this is like my first proper taste because wow that's like they're intense how am i feeling about this i'm enjoying it i'm really loving the writing i think the writing is very beautiful but i'm not disliking it i'm just not loving it you know i feel like this could be a strong four star but for some reason i was expecting more even though i hadn't heard this book before this video something that i think it is capturing very well is young love you know the like the uh awkwardness but also their overwhelmingness of young love i've spoken about this before me and tom met when i was 16 and so i don't know some of their interactions at the start of the book when they first noticed each other reminded me of the awkwardness when me and tom met and you're like trying to like figure out does this person feel this or is it just me and it kind of reminded me of that but obviously this is set in the 1950s in different culture and so there is there's even more kind of like restriction over like what they can do like even holding hands in public is like well you know girl you know so i don't know i feel like that was my favorite part kind of when they were meeting and you could feel that tension the book has gone in a different direction now basically the start of the book you know you meet her in prison day in america married to a different man you know as an elderly woman and you know that he left her he abandoned her in some way in the in 1953 back when they first fell in love and she's gonna maybe get the opportunity to speak to him again and i don't know i think yes there is an intrigue like oh what happened how has she been dealing since but like i've had a little sneaky flick ahead because it's not split timeline we have that bit at the beginning and then we go back in time i don't think that is gonna happen until like the last 50 pages i think i'm on page 150 i think the next 100 pages are just gonna be like the rest of my girl's life and i don't know if that is necessarily i don't know if i'm invested enough in the characters for that to be interesting to me so i don't know i'm enjoying it i don't know if i'm gonna cry because something sad kind of just happened and i didn't i was like stone faced i was like girl megan have some emotions so i really don't know how i'm feeling about this i'm gonna go ahead and finish the book and yeah see what i think of it by the end because i'm enjoying it a lot of you have mentioned how much you love this when i i think i mentioned it in a tbr cluedo lately and loze you're like oh my god i cried you know i just don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know how i'm feeling so as you can see oh mess i gotta stop meeting like this i keep crying in vlogs i was like i'm gonna fucking bore my eyes out in i don't know what to rate this book i don't know i don't think it's i don't know if it's a five and that's made me sob the rest of the book didn't give me five stars you know it could be like a four point i'm trying to say if it's a four or four point five i don't think it's a five i don't look insane but i don't think the whole book was a five star for me i think i'm gonna give it a four point five but i'm gonna go sleep on it when i'm less emotional i can't sleep like this you um i can't connect my thoughts so i'm gonna go bed and um i will speak during the morning my final thoughts on this and how many points we're ending up on okay bye obviously i saw you last night i was obviously in a bit of a state okay so i wanted to like collect myself before i gave you my final opinions on this book and i'm gonna be honest i still i'm not sure how to talk about this adequately but um as you can see i cried for like the last 40 ish pages of this book maybe probably like 50 pages of this book i'm absorbing so much i'm an empath i absorb it all on streamed my patrons again if you watched my last vlog i sobbed on stream with my patrons i promise i don't usually make it a habit but there's some like new patrons who joined at the start of august who were like the two live shows i've been to you've been sobbing i feel like this year i haven't really had books that made me cry and i feel like with this and the last book i well last vlog gretta james i'm like finally crying again i love a good cry when reading anyways i've been trying to figure out what my final rating for this is gonna be because like i kind of should give it a five but i think it's gonna be another 4.5 okay i think it's a 4.5 because it's difficult right you know to describe this because at the midpoint i was kind of like i don't know how i feel about this book i don't know what i'm thinking what's my opinion but this isn't the kind of book that i think you really know how you feel about it until the end it's the kind of book that like it builds throughout and every new page means so much because of the previous pages you've read and everything becomes more impactful based on what you've read before and the way that the story builds so i don't think it's the kind of book that you can judge midway however it had a five star ending for me but i don't know if that means i give it a five star overall and there's a little bit with the ending i'm not going to spoil anything for you i find this quite a difficult book to speak about that spoiling because it goes in a certain direction that i don't want you to have like any inclination going into this but i'm hoping by the way my light camera has no battery and i'm charging it whilst filming i hope it's not gonna die there's a little bit at the ending that i just i selfishly want more from and i know that's not what the book is trying to do and i know that's kind of the whole point of the book is that we don't get more from that ending but like i'm like i've just read the whole book for that for that it makes it even more painful so yes this book is very fucking sad okay i sobbed painful sobs don't go into this looking for hyper time this is a very emotionally impactful book but like all that ending i can't i can't i can't take it i am i am inarticulate i literally can't talk to you about it but i would very hard recommend this i had never heard of it before this video so i'm so glad that jenny made me read it but it's freaking sad i don't i can't even think about it i can't even think about it and like terms of like where the story was going i pretty i knew from an early point that this was going to be the arc of the story it's not about that it's not a story that you need to like predict it's just a story that you need to experience and go on the journey with it was beautiful but it's a 4.5 it's not quite 5 and listen let it be known i have a video that i really want to do but i can't do it until i have a certain amount of 5 stars this year so like if i wanted to make my life easier i could have given these both 5 stars because it would make my life a heck of a lot easier if i'm telling you right now i'm almost spoiling for you but it would make my life so much easier if i'd given these 5 stars but i want to be truthful booktube twintests is a scientific experiment with strict parameters and so i can't lie i could have given these 5 my life would be 10 times easier but they weren't but listen 2 4.5s is pretty good when it comes to booktube twintests i'm very sad that i didn't love this one as much as everyone else has i feel like everyone else has loved this and i it just didn't do it for me but that gives jenny i think per per my calculations 12 points overall which puts her here on the leaderboard pretty much like middle of the pack which is pretty good pretty good i mean everyone has done pretty well on booktube twintests like well let's let me not be mean but like apart from gabby and erin so it's the game tight at the top of the pack but no one else has come close yet to mara's full full house full point so i hope you guys enjoyed watching me read these books and i hope you enjoyed this video coming camping with me which was so much fun i just want to tell you guys now and i'm probably gonna be saying this the rest of the year i am so excited for all the videos i've got coming the rest of you guys don't even know like so many fun vlogs coming and even into next year i've already planned some of that i cannot wait i want to read everything right now i'm just in such a good reading mood and such a good video mood like i'm just enjoying everything so much and i feel so creatively excited so i hope you enjoyed this vlog thank you so much for watching to the end and i will see you very soon in another one bye