 Hello, beautiful souls. This is Christy with Art of Awakening. Thanks so much for watching and just want to let you know I appreciate your being here and spending time with me today. All right, so I was actually kind of like not wanting to do a video today even though I had told everybody I'm doing a video every day in April and I just like today I woke up and I just like I don't want to do it and I don't know if you I'm sure you can relate like we've all had that experience where you know we just just don't want to do something and sometimes it's like it's not that we don't like doing it it's just like something in us just puts the brakes on and sometimes it's things that we really do want to do but there's there's those brakes being put on like what's up with that. So I spent some time today avoiding making a video and I went to the Y and I went swimming and then I went and lifted some weights and then I went out to the woods and I sat for a long time and it's a beautiful day it's like the first day that we've had that's like really super beautiful spring day so you know I went out to it's funny because there were all these cars in the parking lot and you know when I got there which usually isn't the case it's like there's this trail but you know there usually are not huge amounts of cars but today it was so beautiful that there were but everybody was going up the mountain and I went the other direction and like I saw I briefly glimpsed one other person like the whole time it was awesome so I had some time to sit there and just sort of be in nature which was great and you know at first it's like oh you know I started doing all this meditation and stuff and it was good but then after a while the guidance was like just don't do anything like don't meditate don't pray just just sit and I don't know if you are anything like me but I find it hard to just sit it's not something that you know I think it is something that comes naturally to to most people except that we have been so trained and programmed not not to be natural that it becomes very very hard to just be but it was a beautiful day and it actually felt really good to just sit so after a while I mean it took a long time for my mind to stop fretting and to just relax and just enjoy and I realized well the sun's out so I ended up just really taking a sun bath which was beautiful and I came home and I figured you know after I did all this that I would probably feel in the mood to do a video and I was wrong I just didn't and so I sat down and like asked spirit just like what the hell what the heck is going on here and it said just doodle and I just realized it's like you know what it's this whole sometimes when we have blocks it's just like we are in this whole perfectionism loop and it's really kind of fear of failure though when I'm talking about spirit animals I talk a lot about the superpowers because I like to think of the spirit animals each of having their own superpowers and that's what helps them to survive for instance you know the wolf can run tirelessly for hours and hours and hours and even days on end you know it's a superpower you know the bison will gather around a young and so it's got this protective defense it's a very you know got that defense instinct that is sort of a superpower if you think about it you know the defensive ability of a bison so they all have superpowers I just uploaded a video on the Jesus bug the water strider recently and you know just to be able to walk on water that's pretty amazing superpower but the reason why the reason why you know it's important to the reason why it's why we're interested in this in the spirit animals is that they represent energies within ourselves and honestly each of us has superpowers too and you you know you've got multiple superpowers but one superpower that a lot of people don't even think of it as a superpower is the ability to make mistakes to f up right to really f up and you know it doesn't feel like a superpower that at the time when you do it but it's not even so much the making mistakes it's the the willingness to make mistakes and I think that's where this is going because I am honestly just doodling with words as well I'm doodling with with images here and this is just I'm just telling you kind of what spirits prompting me to talk about so the willingness to make mistakes because honestly that's part of the creative process and if you I mean we think of God is perfect and yeah God's perfect but look at the the process the process of creation of evolution I mean you could look at things that don't make it as as mistakes right it's failures there's there's been even before humans came in the scene there's been plenty of extinctions in the world you know happening and then new things coming forward and what seems to occur when there's a period of mass extinction is that life springs forward with amazing diversity and vitality after something like that happens and you know that that's occurred in history but it's also like you can see it you know anytime there's like like the volcano that went off those Mount St. Helens way back when and it it really covered many many many acres in ash and everything died pretty much not everything but um but it looks like everything died it was just bleak and then scientists kept going back and just the amazing vitality that just kind of sprung out of that I mean everything the life just came back and it came back with a vengeance it was like it just was given this green light to just really blossom forth and and and that's what happens with creativity it's like creativity sometimes I think artists and scientists kind of do the same thing we push push the boundaries we push the boundaries we test we test things what would happen if I do this what would happen if I do that and sometimes these ideas seem crazy sometimes there are things that maybe everybody around you would be like that's crazy why would you do that but we get these you know bugs in our heads that oh we want to try it and we go ahead and sometimes like it's a total disaster and and I think this is true of athletes sometimes um you know and sometimes people who like I look at kids and sometimes kids the ones who get in trouble right sometimes they're the ones that are like the super creative ones and they're just trying they're just trying stuff and some don't make and that's the thing it's like there's a risk there's always a risk but what's the bigger risk you know to die trying to you know to die in the in the I'm not saying we should all die or jump off cliffs or anything I'm not saying that at all but but I think there's a there's a metaphorical death that can happen when we don't follow our gut right and you know what's worse to die following your gut or to die not following your gut because what's going to happen when when when that you know if you are a creative person we all are at some level and and some of us feel just more compelled than others to follow the creative path and I think it depends on you know the lifetime that you're in and so forth but if you're one of those it's called called forth to create something out of your life and I'm not you know it doesn't have to be art it can be anything it could be just creating a beautiful life or a fascinating life whatever it is or just learning it's you know finding the truth I think honestly I think you know what scientists do is they're seeking the truth and the same thing with artists of all sorts even you know artists of their own lives we're all artists of our lives we'll have that capacity um and so this idea of making mistakes is part of the process because you gotta be willing to get out there and risk risk failure it's the only way I mean the only path to success is you know by way of failure honestly look at young children learning to walk you know any one-year-olds I mean I know a one-year-old to just learn to walk his name is Drew he's really cute um and you know some of them are more cautious than others but they all do fall down you know and without falling down they will never ever learn to walk what does a one-year-old do you know sometimes they cry a little bit but a lot of times they laugh they fall down they laugh but what happens when a toddler falls down and they look they look to the mom or the dad whoever sitting there that they trust they'll fall down the first thing they'll do a lot of them I mean unless it really hurts if they've really hurt themselves they cry but usually what I've noticed is they'll fall down and they won't necessarily react right away they'll look to mom or dad and see what their reaction is and if mom goes oh oh my god then they'll cry and if mom goes you're okay just get up you know let's get you up and try again then they do and which toddler do you think is going to learn to walk faster and with more sure steps right and learn to run so this is something that we can do for ourselves is just be accepting first of all you know um just to recognize that yeah sometimes sometimes risks are necessary and especially especially when we're facing blocks when we're facing those like that feeling if I can't do this or just don't freaking want to even though you know that it's something you need to do we all have that spiritually right I don't want to do that a couple weeks ago I just kept getting this guidance to go in the swimming pool go in the pool just just get get yourself in the pool go swimming and I was like no I don't want to do it I just don't want to because I have a wide membership and it's wonderful and and I was like you know there's chlorine in there and there's all sorts of screeching kids and they have this rain tree going a lot of times and it's really noisy and blah blah blah I had all these excuses and finally spirit was like just get in the pool just get in the pool so I did got in the pool and even though it was like Sunday afternoon and it was crowded and there were screeching kids and you know everything but it felt amazing I hadn't been swimming in a long time and it was really exactly what I needed it was really healing I've been kind of dealing with some physical issues and it was incredibly healing so I've been swimming regularly ever since but it was sort of like that that resistance sometimes and taking the risk so like I said this is a complete doodle including everything I'm saying so oh anyway yeah where was I getting to so I apologize if this is disjointed so this is a risk I'm taking to make an incredibly disjointed video but I would love to hear your comments on that if that rings true you know if there's anything I'm saying rings true for you I wouldn't love to hear it or if it doesn't if you honestly if you if you're seeing this and think this is the most stupid video I've ever seen give me that feedback too I would love to see it I'd probably laugh at it but um anyway so yeah the creative risk taking and by creative I mean we are all creating our lives we are creators of our lives and I think it's even not so much I mean sometimes it's like yeah we have to decide to take a risk but other times the risk just comes to us right we just get in situations where we have to react or you know do something and sometimes we mess up and you know it's really all about how do we react to that react to that failure I mean do we we take that little inner child of ourselves selves and go oh no oh no you fell down it was horrible right and then what we do we we we get afraid next time right if we do that and I think sometimes that's what holds us back and it makes it very difficult to move forward when we know we need to is because we've got that or whatever it is you know that experience of believing that messing up was a bad thing or or painful or can we be the mom or dad it says hey okay you fell down you fell down it's all right pick yourself up we can be that if we can be that kind of mom or dad to ourselves you know we're gonna be ready to go right next time so anyway anyway like I said I'm just kind of having fun with this and and this is something that I think has a lot to do with play because when I when I teach watercolor a lot of times what I find is people are afraid to play and and really art is play it's about play it's about just you know that's why I'm saying what art and science are very similar it's kind of it's an experimentation each one even if you know what you're doing even if you're doing something that you know that even a master painter that's set up a still life or something and then that there's still every stroke is an experiment every stroke especially with watercolor because like you never know how the water exactly is going to go you cannot completely plan watercolor which is why I love this medium so much because it's always a surprise and it's always a co-creation with the medium and and that's true you know regardless like you know in life as well it's always a co-creation because we cannot control every last little thing and again that is part of the risk as well so this looks like some little stream stream and a tree it looks like springtime to me I'm going to put a little more leaves leafy things in here with a bigger brush I mean this is a really tiny piece because like I said I was like sort of trying to get through this block and so one spirit told me to doodle and it was sort of like you know don't don't make a big deal out of it can be really small can be really small and that is sometimes a good way to get out of blocks it's just just one little baby step like sometimes sometimes it's enough sometimes it's a big risk just to get out of bed for some people right for some of us some of the time sometimes it's just like okay get dressed put on some clothes and if that's where you're at right now that's fine risk it give yourself a good you know give yourself a cookie for it if you manage to get out of bed maybe not a cookie maybe like a nice bowl of raspberries or something or a cookie whatever it's almost Easter after all but so anyway I think this is probably long enough I'll let you get back to whatever you were doing get outside and have some fun in the sun yeah I think I might go out there again pretty soon too so um anyway thank you for for sticking with me if you stuck with me this long I hope it has been helpful to you and thank you for your likes and your subscribes and thank you very much to everybody who has purchased my decks and and or purchased the session the links to those are below if you're interested and you have a lovely day I'll catch you again tomorrow