 because as a child you knew it already. You knew that as a child. When ego had not yet built up, what was making that child do what it did? It's that impulse, it's that. It's the impulse of truth. And as the child grows, that impulse of truth is increasingly obscured. It's a matter of surrendering, surrendering, surrendering. But being present, not trying to detach yourself from what life is throwing up.