 Yeah Probably super confusing for you guys because you don't know why I'm wearing my hoodie backwards But we actually just filmed the tiktok. So I'm not weird. I don't do this on a daily Yeah, so what is good Marvel Squad and welcome back to our channel I hate making videos like this or starting off videos like this. So I feel like it's so depressing We have something to talk about. I just want to be like real and open I feel like you guys enjoy that and you guys like to feel like you're not alone and the title and thumbnail is not a lie We're gonna talk about that I'm gonna explain what led to that and how I'm feeling. Let me just start by saying it's not actually called off We are it's not nothing's called healthy. You're healthy and love each other It was just you know We're just going into a pretty much a story time and what happened and how I'm feeling today because I'm feeling effects from it the next day I'm just gonna talk about what happened last night first Talk about what I'm feeling today, but you're gonna make chicken. Yeah, I'm making I'm making chicken good in there We haven't eaten all day today. It's because we bet on top of feeling down Okay, so I want to sum up the story for you guys in a short and sweet way But I also want to be real. I'm a freaking happy like you need to start and tell them why The video is titled away the video. Okay, so I like because we are not lying. No, we weren't but yeah Oh, so last night we went for a really fun dude. This was nasty Yeah, it said packed on the first and it's the 10th. Oh It's like almost two weeks. Yeah, we're not gonna eat that. So we're gonna eat now No Let's order food. That sounds like fun. We love ordering. Yeah, but we're got to order food for dinner, too So what are we gonna do? One second guys just a quick pause for in this delay. Sorry. So we figured it out We're not eating the healthiest, but we're getting buffalo wild wings Also ignore this pimple right here. You know working on getting my acne away You're in a bad mood or if you're feeling down This is legit turn on the lights in your house open up the windows, right? Play music and do things that you like to do when you're happy. Yes, I agree with that That's why I went outside earlier just to lay out in the sun because the Sun's like my therapy diets don't matter when you're unhappy Yeah, so they don't so I just want to be real with you guys So just so you guys know like real couples and like people who are in relationships They fight they get into arguments they get into bigger mints. They go through stuff. We fight It's part of life. I feel like me and Bill don't fight in the extent that we did last night I feel like that was like the worst it's ever been in our relationship But you know sometimes you get to a breaking point and it happens like it's part of life And I don't love him any less. You don't love me any less like we get over it Like that's the one thing we do is we don't go to bed sad obviously last night We kind of did because there's reasons but you actually kicked me out of the room So I did so and I ended up falling asleep in the guest room passed out and then I wake up When I was on the bed, we were like bill yeah, I did that's back to your body. I smacked your body so they'll wake up We're gonna get okay, so we had a really fun Easter Sunday. I hope everyone had a blessed day I hope that was an amazing day friends and family happy holidays. I hope you had a great Easter We had a great we had an amazing To Sanibel Island on a boat with our friends family and it was just like a blast It was the best time and it was honestly a very good day Up until about 8 p.m. So I leave the party Well, I leave the house because I was a brutally exhausted like we went to the house at 10 30 and then we got back at like 5 I didn't leave there till about 7 30 ish. So I was like I was in the sun all day I was ready to go shower. I had salt water in my hair I was ready to go home shower into bed and you know, I felt like at the time Bill should have came home with me. I don't know I just feel like out of respect for your partner like I am so chill like I really don't care Like I'm like, okay Go out and like go have fun like I be back whenever like I am not that type person But since we were out all day, it would have been nice to come back You know get the week scheduled up because you guys don't know we are going to LA for like almost two weeks But we're gonna be in LA We're gonna go to Coachella and all that fun stuff. So Monday and Tuesday and this comes up Obviously, it'll be Wednesday will be in LA, but Monday and Tuesday today's Monday We were supposed to bust everything down and get all of our videos done and get ready for tomorrow Because Tuesday, you know, I have a bunch of stuff going on But then we have to go over to Ann and Anthony's because we're flying out of Tampa Airport So I just want to give a little summary of why I I wanted to give a little summary of why I was feeling mad. I was mad. You didn't come home with me And so not only did I let him stay out He proceeded to come home almost at 12 o'clock at night and I was like bro I wanted to go to the gym in the morning. I wanted to do stuff I understand too because like I didn't want to stay out that late because Monday mornings are like, you know hectic Yeah Monday started the week and everything. It's really always hectic. So like coming home and Sunday at Midnight, you know, I'm like now. I'm home. I was drunk and You know how drunk he was not no, I'm not luring his words. I'm not a bad drunk. Okay. I will say I don't get aggressive I don't fight and we don't drink and we don't drink at all If we drink it's on occasion like Easter. No, but if I do the thing is I didn't even like think I was going to All the way up till nighttime, but if I do I'm like a really good drunk You are he's not a mean drunk Yeah, no, I'm just like bill's a bill's a good drunk and honestly He didn't live that life in high school. So I like let him do it and like I said, I don't drink But he will on occasion unlike special occasions But anyways, so I'm annoyed because I had to wait up for him because he didn't have a key to the house So it's 11 o'clock. I'm like, where are you bro? Like I'm tired as heck I could have went to bed at nine I was getting irritated finally comes home and as I was gonna have a talk with him like hey like things need to change Like you can't be doing this like, you know, like just stuff like that. You want to know what he does Laughing because he's drunk and doesn't realize he's not taking me serious when he starts laughing. I Was already mad y'all like I think I was I was exhaust so exhausted that I was going psycho You can do to someone when they're pissed at you was laugh at them No, we got it was so bad guys. It was like a screen match. Well, I was once well I wasn't screaming. I was you weren't screaming you were sitting there patient, but you kept the thing with bill is like This is not funny No, the thing with bill is he likes to like Coddle you or like come close to you when you're feeling sad and for me if I am that mad Bro, you better back up you better back up because I I'm mad Okay, so maybe more mad if you wouldn't like give me my space I like to show emotions physically so when she's mad I like to you know, like come up by her which I love that I really do appreciate that you're not type of guy, but I also know you the type of person that I just like my space for at least An hour Fine with how mad I was last night He came home drunk not trying to have a serious conversation and he was laughing it really miss I was like go sleep in the guest room. I kicked him out of the room But the thing was I usually go on the couch, right? Yeah, but I still want to be close to you I just went to the guest room. Oh, it's so bad that he actually want to get laid down and I Remember laying down. I really like what a minute and ten seconds in a lay down I'm like I should get back up and just go right back in that room and lay next to her and say shut up I'm sleeping right here, but then all of a sudden I get waking up Like I ended up passing out and this was like what I don't need a couple minutes Yeah, I wake up to Mariah going Wake up my butt Yeah, you were so freaking confused And in my head I'm like oh Imagine a girl that's mad at me that tells you to go sleep somewhere Even though you didn't want me to go sleep somewhere Yeah, and I actually do it and then he comes back in the room and I'm trying to explain you go You probably even remember this. I'm just confused why you're mad. I'm just confused why you're mad Why are you mad? I don't get it. I was confused because like to me like it was not that big Oh, it was a big deal and I understand to you was but to me I'm like I'm like like I came home a little y'all this was like two hours of just repetitive I'm like, you know what? I'm going to bed. I was so mad and so you pass out. I pass. I wake up in the same room Yeah, that now honestly. Oh, but we missed a big part. I literally last night. I was so mad I said I don't want to get married to you anymore. That's not taking me serious I'm done with you like you're not here. That's when I was like, all right This girl is literally like I need to I need to like not keep responding PSA guys Laughs when you said that though. I'm pretty sure I laugh I'm not married PSA. I just want to say I don't agree with like you get in fights You like I'm gonna break up with you or oh, I want a divorce or oh I'm like, I don't like to do that because I feel like that's like mentally like I don't know it makes you feel bad And I don't like to make Bill feel like that You're stuck with me. I said Mariah. I'm sorry, but you're stuck. Yeah, you're going crazy You're stuck. You're not leaving which guys don't take that serious. He doesn't mean I'm actually stuck Like I am not drilled to his hip where I have to stay with him. It's not like stop they they're gonna take it different No, I'm not controlled like, you know, we could split up at any given time, but we're not I'm in love with him I just know that we are gonna be together forever And I know you know that if that doesn't show how real of a couple we are then I don't know what else will like literally Well, you were you came and sat on me today, and you're like, I'm sorry. Yeah, I did say I'm sorry I was like, I shouldn't have said that I was like, you're stuck with me. She was Like you're stuck with me. I just have reminding him and I'm like, I'm so sorry that I like went crazy on you last night It was literally a mixture of being tired exhausted and you just not listening. Yeah, so she literally I don't know if you're being serious or you're just trying to get a rise out of me or make me like feel That you are not just like joking when you said that you want to call a engagement Oh, yeah, we joking or I was so mad moment. I just wanted to hurt you. That sounds so bad They're not hurt physically. I'm meaning like with my words. I'm eating with my words No, I would never I think we've both been taught and raised not to put our hands on each other But I literally was so mad that I wanted to like since he wasn't listening I just wanted to hurt him with my words. Obviously that didn't happen. He was just still laughing She doesn't sometimes she tries to like say mean things when she's like super super mad That sounds so bad guys. I don't want you to think I mean no the few times that's happened in the 60 years that we've been dating Yeah, it barely happens like I don't like to act like that. That means I'm mad I never take you serious. I literally just kind of sit there. I'm like Okay, so anyways, so sum up the story. I just want to say PSAA. We don't physically hurt each other Like we're not verbally abusive like we're very good with our words It just comes time to get to a point where like you're so mad It's like you don't realize what's coming on your mouth and I acknowledge that I apologize I gave him a hug and I said, I'm sorry like that wasn't right for me to say the things that I said I acknowledged it, but basically the sum of the story I got mad I said I was gonna call the engagement and blah blah blah and no alright You were like trying to get a rise out of me You're like alright, what else can I say to make this guy not laugh and realize I'm being legit So anyways, so that's like a pack right now to never use like if we get married when we do When you're mad From now on never mention breaking up never mention divorce never mention calling anything off Because like first of all it gets you nowhere second of all it makes you feel like crap It does I'm talking for you now because I can see it makes you feel like crap in the morning or whatever when you're like I would I shouldn't have said that well today like we should just get mad at each other and avoid the splitting part of Trying to get I want to explain to so that's what kind of leads in today's video I want to do like a really fun uplifting video, but my headspace has been like not right that fighting really took a toll I'm my like my headspace and like my time to go to bed. I don't even I don't even think about if I got home at 12 We must not want to go to like 130. I don't even know anyways It was just a really bad night that it just wiped me out today And like I said, I really wanted to give them up lifting video But I also want to be real and wrong like I don't want to just like fake a smile for you guys because like You know you guys are family and people go through bad days Like and I want to be real and document like a night that just happened and just show you guys like it's it's normal Like yeah, sometimes we put a smile on the camera when it looks like we're having this great perfect relationship But it's not always perfect like we go through our struggles. We go through our stuff and like we're happy today So like we would be you know all smiling happy today If it wasn't like such a big thing that like it just affected you and my headspace is like my energy level is Like I right now don't feel like doing anything but calling up on the couch and just yeah And just like watching a TV show. Yeah and watching a TV show I'm like we also we never like I feel like we've never faked our emotions on camera. No If we are upset sometimes we like skip filming and I know there's some days that we actually miss uploads And that could be because maybe that day we just weren't fully like ourselves and we don't like to miss uploads Like that's the last thing we want to do But sometimes we're just physically mentally like this year has been so chaotic like there I think that's why I think there's been so much going on that sometimes it boils up And then in the days of you have so much to do and you're like maybe we should as much as we want to maybe we should Yeah, and we'll just post you know next posting that it's been as much as we don't want to miss it But I just want to make awareness of like mental health and just like no like it's okay to not have good days And you can feel sad and it's okay. I'm going to stay tomorrow's gonna be a better day I'm gonna make today a better day. I'm gonna relax and appreciate my time because you never know What's gonna happen tomorrow? And I just want to get out of this headspace and feel better and you know not feel like this Cuz I oh I literally had to go outside and like just sit out in the sun That's like my therapy. We were literally like in the middle of about to film this video And she's like you know what I can't I need to go outside I need I want to tan because I want to I want to recoup and like just feel like happy and warm Yeah, and it like you know it helped. Yeah, I hope it did. Yeah, it just obviously the Sun But yeah today has just been a little bit of a rough day for me, but I love you guys and We're very happy and I'm just so thankful that I have you and that you handle situations in the way that you do You complete me and I'm just really I want to be that rock And you know I want to be that rock on the aisle in less than a year and I get to see your cute face Every down has enough. Yeah, so just wanted to show you guys the real side of life and our relationship So I feel like we don't talk about it much But I want to be able to express things and show you guys that it is normal and you know It's not always picture-perfect and a good thing. We didn't have a ring cameras up in here last night Honestly, I would probably want to watch that back dude And I'm over here like Recording so we get those moments because I just feel like you can't like I don't want to relive them But I feel like I don't want to live it. I'm trying to get past that. That was the worst out of my life Yeah, but I do take you serious. Okay. I don't want you to think it's all a joke cuz you're feeling you were drunk You weren't even you were incoherent. It's okay life happens. I I'm not gonna hold that against you It's fine. I would have laughed at myself too if I was drunk, but all right, you guys we're gonna go finish our day I gotta get packing. Oh, I got so much packing to do. Oh, I haven't even started packing I gotta start we're gonna be gone for like a week and a half. We better hurry up Yeah, because we literally leave when tomorrow at like five. I want to go to Anna and Anthony's my god Yeah, so stay tuned for our LA content. We'll also be with Jules and saw Yeah, I get ready for our future uploads. It's only up from here. Okay? So today, you know was a little bit of a down day in the beginning it was but I feel like I don't know You're already looking like you're starting to feel better I am like I feel like now that I kind of talk to you guys I kind of feel like that was therapy and it kind of let it out and let you guys Thank you proper squad for the therapy Yeah, like now I know like all I have to do now is pack and relax and get ready for the fun week They were about to endure tonight. That sounds like a fun time. That does sound like a fun time Before we end this video. 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