 Hi guys. Happy 69th birthday to me. I am late. I get that. My birthday was in February, but I don't know. You know, I just was not in the birthday frame of mind and didn't have any kind of a video or anything of that to kind of talk about and celebrate because at that time I wasn't feeling very very excited about being 69. I just really have a hard time with it because I don't I don't feel 69. I don't think I act 69. Most of the time I don't really think I look 69. So when I thought about oh my gosh 69 years old next year it'll be 70. It was it was kind of scary in that sense you know but yeah 69. So what what are my thoughts about being 69 being almost 70 and then into my 70s and I said to myself you know you have to really work on being the best you you can be and you have to embrace the fact that you're 69. It beats the alternative right not being here. I'd rather be alive and be 69 and be somewhat healthy and enjoy my life and you know have a relationship that I cherish with my husband even though having a relationship you cherish with your spouse is something you have to always work on it doesn't just happen you know I said to Jay the other day love does change it matures it it becomes more accepting and more welcoming and stuff like that in a more or less my way or no way I think as people the longer you're together your love changes it blossoms in many many different ways we have a wonderful companionship so we're friends and that makes a big difference and we like a lot of the same things not everything but a lot of the same things and we've had a lot of togetherness because we both work in the same industry so finding that balance with your significant other you know cherishing them and if you don't have a significant other I think finding that balance in yourself to find things that you like to do to stay active to stay young to stay you know connected keep your mind engaged your body engaged I have struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember and it still is a struggle and each year I say yeah I'm going to lose weight I'm going to do this I'm going to do that it isn't that easy it isn't that easy but it's still a goal so 69 I have to I have to admit that I when I hear that number it feels and sounds so ancient and I know there are some very many beautiful women that I know especially on YouTube I look at you know Babs take control beauty who is just absolutely beautiful we talk a lot on Facebook and she's in her 80s you know 80s I mean she's absolutely gorgeous and that gives me hope it gives me hope so for my birthday this year and I I'm really all about transparency I want to be as transparent as possible and I do a lot of skincare review you guys know I review a lot of wigs I happen to love this as a portrait mode by Raquel Welch oh my gosh initiated cappuccino I love this hair probably my ultimate favorite here right now but you know so I talk a lot about beauty and skincare and I know that there's some negative thoughts and feelings when people say anti-aging but that's really what I call it what I've always called it so it's very hard for me to change my vocabulary just like when I research a topic for my real estate classes I research it and then I put in a folder all of the supporting documents and all of the different tools that I want to share and use to get the topic across to my participants my students now that research nobody says research they all say my collateral you know and so it's I know there's many different words anti-aging aging gracefully whatever whatever you want to call it and negative aside at 69 I have been trying to anti-age I mean I realize I'm going to keep getting older and that's awesome I guess no that really is awesome I get it but and to me anti-aging means I'm going to do everything I can to you know maybe look younger feel younger be more vibrant be more energetic all of that is a package deal to me I'm not ashamed to say that I'm into anti-aging I like wearing makeup I I love when I can have beautiful hair my bio hair is not all that great although it's getting a lot better but I love all of the pieces of being a woman being a girly girl wearing the makeup trying you know this and that there are certain things I've never done you know I've never had any kind of like cosmetic surgery and you know and I've never I've never been against anything like that it's just I haven't done it and I've always been on a budget so my skin care is more budget orientated I do use retin A as many of you know and a lot of you've asked me for a little update so I I've been since I had my most surgery I kind of laid off a lot of skin care well now I'm back in the game I'm using my retin A a couple of times a week the 0.01 percent and a couple of times a week on that I use a lot of my the ordinary serums I use vitamin C so there's a lot of my skin care things that I have picked back up and that I am using if I have to say what is the one thing that's made the biggest impact over the course of years for me aside from say retin A that is something that I think because I've used it so consistently I mean every single day since 2016 I've used a collagen supplement a powder I put it in my coffee in the morning and I and I use this all the time this is this is something I do all the time and I think that it has helped my skin and it's even probably helped my bio hair as well you know maybe maybe to some degree but it certainly has helped my skin it has helped my skill I went to I went to go and see a specialist and they looked at my skin and she said my goodness your skin looks so hydrated and it's the collagen because I do have dry skin so overnight miracles don't happen but over the course of time all the little things you can do to keep yourself looking younger anti-aging whatever you want to call it it all will kick in if you're consistent so when I say that the collagen number one sunblock number two I don't care what you do if you're not wearing sunblock you know when you're an outdoor lover like me sunblock hats whatever it's going to impact your skin in a negative way so sunblock crucial collagen to me has been a big thing and I did go to sorry my battery died it seems to be the story of my life my battery dies it's like it's like totally crazy um anyways so I did go and I went to a clinic a very very well respected clinic locally and I talked to this most lovely lovely lady and the the doctor that I had was absolutely fabulous she spent a lot of time looking at my skin and she was pretty shocked that it was 69 maybe they just say that for everyone I don't know but um so we talked about what was bothering me and my skin and of course my budget and my 11s have bothered me so you know I sleep with a frowny on and my 11s just really really bothered me I have droopy eyes and all that stuff my wrinkles and my wrinkles my jowls I know will be a facelift but I ended up having something called xymian x e o m i n like 32 units put in and on my 11s and right here on the edge of my brow just to kind of maybe lift my brow slightly I don't know that it's kicked in fully yet because it takes days it's um this is a variation of Botox so it takes days for it to really kick in and it's been today is Sunday it's been like four days so it should be kicking in maybe it's already kicked in um I think my 11s look a lot better this is not filtered I don't I'm in a regular makeup on that I normally have on in my videos my ring light but um but I think that my 11s are like so much better even though I have not slept with the frowny so I had that done and I can't wait to see when it fully kicks in what what I look like but it may be something that I do every four months or something depending on how these 11s look because this is what I'm worried about I'm not looking to have a facelift I can't afford anything like that but again is it anti-aging maybe um I'm trying to look the best I can possibly look and feel the best I can possibly feel so I just want you to know that's what I have done and so you might see my 11s disappear eventually I know they have not been really bad and I know sleeping with the frowny has really helped my muscles and all of that but I'm so thrilled with the results so far and the the clinic in Wyndham that I went to I will link the information if anyone's local she she's fabulous she's absolutely fabulous fabulous and I can't wait to go for a follow-up so you want to take a look at it send us some photos and stuff like that so she could see but 69 and I don't think there's anything wrong with using the word anti-aging I do know that there is an obsession with aging where it's a negative thing an obsession with people wanting to stay as young as they can to the degree that they destroy their faces I've seen that happen and I've seen it happen with millionaires you know rich people movie stars do I want to be Madonna no um Priscilla Presley comes to mind too I don't want to be them I want to be the best version of 69 I can be and what I've hated about my face other than the fact that I'm fat and I have jowls what I've hated has been my 11s and I just feel happy birthday Monica I've done something to help my 11s not look as bad as they were and I feel so so super happy about that so I wanted to share that with you because I know some of you might say oh you're looking really good or your you know skin um it is no skin here right now but this is the very very first time I've had anything done other than one facial in my life and um I am so glad I saved my pennies for it because it's not anything that's covered and I wanted to make sure that I didn't take it out of some other money but I saved my money some of my birthday money and I just put money into a little pocket in my wallet to be safeguarded for this and that's exactly what I used the money for and as of this point in time of this filming my husband has no clue he has not noticed anything different about me I'm waiting for him to say something and then I'll tell him but right now he has no clue and who knows if he'll watch this video at least if he watches this video he won't watch all the way through I don't think and I'm not to share when this is going to be published so this is sort of my confessional my 69th birthday confessional what have I done to myself yeah that's what I've done what do you think how do you think I mean do you can you see my 11s I love my results so far I do so anyway thank you so much for watching I know this is just a video about nothing but it's gonna I think I'm gonna call it my my confessions of my 69th birthday love you all and I will see you in my next video