 What now, at Chris's school in 1975, this is the first year, but you were in the first year of busing, correct? I was bused, let's say. Okay, I'm born in 65, so in 75, I'm 10. See how long it took me to realize that? Is that learning disability? I'm literally had to count it. So I'm 75 and 10, so I would say in... What's funny is that you're born in 65. Dr. King's alive. Yes, that's the thing of like how much, like the Voting Rights Act... The Voting Rights Act doesn't have until 68. So I'm born, my parents can't vote. Wow. I mean, they can, but it's... It's dicey. They're gonna get, like as you pointed out a few weeks ago, like they're gonna get probably fucked up at the polls. Yeah, they're gonna get the ass kicked. But what's important about that is not that Martin Luther King was so long ago, it's that it was so recent. Yes. That wasn't that long ago. No, no. Yeah, yeah. Yes, his parents, you're the oldest? I'm the oldest of my mother's kids, yeah. So could not vote. Did they vote the first year? I have no idea. Yeah. I have no, no, you know. They didn't make a decision. I mean, they eventually voted, but yeah, I don't, you know. Fantastic, okay. Now, Chris's bus, one of the first years of busing. Now, when the... 73, 72, 73. 72, 73. When the black kid, there were how many, like 10% of the school was black? No, no, no, no, no, no. It was me from PS 277 was me and three girls, three black girls out of, I don't know, the school. 800, a thousand? Yeah, something like that, yeah. Four kids out of that. So you would get at when the bell would ring. Yeah. Everyone would, you'd... Oh, that grade school was grade school, like my first days of grade school, I remember it like, you know, there was like parents outside with like signs, no busing. Oh my God. Niggas go home, whatever, right? That was grade school. And it was, you know, it was hostile and kids would call you nigger and spit on you and throw bags of shit and piss at you for the holidays. But, for the holidays, occasional teachers would call you a monkey or whatever. Yeah, that's the story I'm trying to get to. Like, teachers would say... Explain the story. It feels going somewhere. Teachers would tell you shit, I need a breath, the janitors or whatever. Bell would ring at three in high school or late grade school. One time, one time or a couple of times. I just remember, yeah, because we used to get out early, like they would let us out at 2.45. They let the black kids out early so they wouldn't get beat up. Yeah, you'd kind of like get that over with because you don't want to just, it's easier to watch you. So we'd get out at 2.45. Since 1700. Yeah, and that was, so I remember one of my teachers, ah, time to let the animals free or something. Time to let the animals free. Yeah. And then the janitor said something you said. Something awful. Savages or something. I don't know. Yeah, just awful. But everyone's against you. I mean, it wasn't even me. It was like... You and four other people. It was just whatever. That were just against black people. Yeah, it was just, yeah, they weren't, they probably didn't know my name. Insane. Yeah. And you don't, have you in therapy and all the shit you're doing, are you acknowledging that how crazy that is? I, yeah, it's weird. I've always been able to tell jokes about it. But yeah, now in therapy, I'm allowed to, you know, experience it as trauma. Yeah. You can say. And not feel like a bitch. Feel like, you know, I did. And not feel like a bitch and, yeah. And like, I'm, I should, that's a fine thing to acknowledge that happens. It's a fine thing to acknowledge. And it's also, you know, the thing about trauma is, when you're experienced trauma, it's not that you, it's basically, whenever you think about it, like it's happening for the first time. Yeah, your body doesn't know when, it doesn't know if it's present, past or future. Right. So yeah, therapies allowed me to put it in the past. Like therapies allowed me to go, okay, I'm probably not gonna get jumped today. Yeah.