 Our beloved messenger was sitting alone in a room and he was praying in the night, in the depth of the night in the darkness. And as he was praying his beard had become completely drenched with his tears and literally his tears were dripping from his from his beard onto his clothes. And then after he's praying then he's sitting and he's making dua and subhanAllah there's literally a small puddle in front of him. And his companions asked like Ya RasoolAllah, like what's wrong? Like what is it? Like what has happened that has you weeping like this? And he said my ummah, my ummah. And he just kept repeating this like my ummah, my ummah, my ummah. And then subhanAllah on another narration he says I miss my brothers. And they said Ya RasoolAllah we're right here. We're right here with you. You don't have to miss us. Like we're with you Ya RasoolAllah. He said no. You're not my brothers. You're my companions. My brothers and my sisters, they're the ones who believe in me and they follow me and they've never seen me. That's you. You've never seen the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam wa alayhi. I'm not in person maybe in your dreams be admirable but if you've seen him in your dreams and you've seen him. But yet this is he's weeping for you. This is something that I want us to understand like as we're in this month. What is the blessing? What is the na'ama that Allah Azawajal has granted us? Literally you are the ummah that even the enviyah were jealous of. You are the ummah that when Prophet Musa alayhi sallallahu alayhi sallam wa alayhi sallam, I saw that there is an ummah that they literally covered the entire horizon in their numbers. Ya Allah let that be my ummah. He said no. This is the ummah of Ahmad. He said Ya Allah I see in the ummah food. I see that there is an ummah that one day of their ibadah is a lifetime of ibadah. One night that they spend in worship of you is a lifetime of ibadah Ya Allah. Musa alayhi sallallahu alayhi sallam has answered the dua of even Prophet Musa. He said no. This is for the ummah of Ahmad. This is la ilat of qadr. That even Musa alayhi sallallahu alayhi sallam is saying Ya Allah there is an ummah so blessed. Even subhaninikhanik when Isa alayhi sallallahu alayhi sallam returns. There will be people who will go to Isa in worship and he said no no no. Today I am not your prophet. Today I am from the ummah of Muhammad. Allahumma salli wa sallam alaihi wa sallam alaihi wa sallam. And that Allah Subhanahu wa ta'ala has granted you that. He has gifted you to be from the or asking Allah Ya Allah make me from that ummah. And yet Allah Subhanahu wa ta'ala has granted you that. The tawfiq will look as a gift to you. So then how do we show our gratitude? That's the question. How do we show our gratitude to Allah Subhanahu wa ta'ala for blessing us to be from amongst the greatest ummah? Do we even begin to say Ya Allah? I know it's not because I'm worthy. It's not because of all of my salawat. It's not because I make ten thousand salawat today. It's not because you know I do everything that the Prophet sallallahu wa sallam alaihi wa sallam said to do. It's not because it's not because I'm so great Ya Rabbi. It's only by your mercy. It's only a chance. It's an opportunity. Allah is saying I'm gonna open the door for you. Because also you're from Akhir Zaman. You're from the end of time. So literally I'm gonna open the door for you and give you a chance. Literally there's a narration that talks about like at the end of time there's some people Allah will literally just elevate them and elevate them and elevate them. Why? Because he's saying that he's looking for those who are willing to grasp Nur Muhammadiyyah. Who understand just a little bit of the sweetness of what it means to say I want to be like. I want to speak like. I want to walk like. I want to behave like. I want to eat like. I want to pray like. Habibullah sallam The one who's cool. But the reality in order for us to be grateful we have to understand the magnitude right of who he is but also what he brought. What is it that the Prophet sallam has done for you specifically? If you were to ask yourself what has the Prophet sallam done for you specifically? The first the first thing if we were just to look at ourselves as women. Yes we've read the books. He elevated your status. He raised your rank. But he's deeper than that. He actually confirmed your value at a time when everyone else was devaluing you. He actually was confirming how important you are to even at a time even in our day and time when literally people are like you know girls actually they're not really a thing. Like anybody could be a girl or woman. You're not really a thing. And the Prophet sallam said no no no. She's something great. Like don't get it. Don't get it twisted. That Allah literally created the woman from his name for the Prophet sallam to say like I want to tell you who you are. Don't let the world tell you who you are. Right. No don't let society tell you who you are. Right. Don't let anybody else define your femininity. Don't let anyone else define you as a woman. Let me tell you who you are according to the one who created you. Why? So you can take your place in your position so that you can play your role. And to let you know it I'm going to exemplify it for you time after time after time in every stage of your development. For example when Habib Allah sallallahu alayhi wa sallam was unable to be sitting in a circle amongst men. Right. Important men. And our beloved Fatima Zahra alayha sallam. I said why did you say Fatima Zahra alayha sallam when you say Allahumma salli ala sayyidina Muhammad. And then what do you say? So Fatima Zahra alayha sallam. That when she would walk into a room, the beloved messenger of Allah alayhi sallatu sallam as a young girl, he would get up, welcome her, kiss her hand and then sit her in his place and he would move over. What is he saying? He says you belong here. He said you have a place here. He's saying I will not allow someone right to push my daughters out. That you have a place next to the messenger of Allah sallallahu alayhi wa sallam. And I love you to sit here. I love you to be beside me. When we look at Subhanallah even the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam's love for our mother Khadija. Love for the mother of Fatima. Like it's the way in which their interaction and their love and their sweetness right between them. There's no question when we read the Seat of the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam how he worked for her, how he made sure that her business was successful, that he made sure that she didn't lose dollars, she didn't lose business, that her business would expand. But then Subhanallah, even when he would climb in the cave of Hira and Jabal al-Nur, there would be moments where our mother Khadija would actually climb up the mountain and sit with the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam. She would bring him food and they would share loving moments. There wasn't ever a time he was like, you know, what are you doing here? Like, don't you know him? I'm praying. I'm in Khalbo. I stay home. I'll be back. Oh, he'd welcome her and they have like, you know, sweet little talks before then she would decide, you know, she'd go back. Even when the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam was toward the end of his life, he witnessed, he just picked up a necklace right of our mother Khadija, and just looking at her necklace and having the memory of it being around her neck, it would bring him to tears. Think about that for a moment. That his level, he's not just sentimental, but this level of love that he has, that even once, I won't say who in this moment, right? Said like, what business do you have with this old Quraishi woman? And the Subhanallah, the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, alayhi wa sallam, he said he became angry than anyone had ever seen him. And he began to list her qualities. She believed in me when no one else believed in me. She supported me when other people turned me away. And this level, subhanallah, like, I think about what it means to be hafizat edil ghayb, what it means for the woman to be the one who is the guardian of the unseen. That's mentioned in Surat al-Nisaa. What does it mean to be hafizat edil ghayb, that she's a guardian over the unseen? The Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam describes that for us in his relationship with Khadija, like how she supported him, how she assuaged his fears when he was in that moment of revelation, when literally the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam is coming down from like the most important moment of his life, right? And he has just absolute, he has doubt, he has concern, he's like I don't know what just happened to me, I don't know if I've been touched by a jinn, I don't know if an oracle has happened, like I have no idea what just happened. But I have enough trust in you and respect for the way that you treat me and the way that you hold me and the way you're just willing to understand that he runs to Khadija and she looks at him and she knows, are you worried that you would be touched by a jinn or he'd never, he could have went to his friends, he could have went to Abu Waqar, said he didn't, he went to our mother Khadija, what is he teaching you about you in that moment? What is he teaching you about the power that you have? What is he teaching you about how your rank is elevated, that how she is the one who then took him to Waqa and said I have no doubt, I'm not in question about who you are, we just need the details, right? We just need to know what we call it, but I'm clear. I know Allah has elevated you, I know Allah would never disgrace you, I know you're blessed by Allah, right? And I'm going to prove, let me prove it to you. She even has enough knowledge in and of herself that when, he says I see him now, right? She just slight, she removes her scar, do you still see him? He says, I don't see him now that you've removed your scar. She says see I told you that was an angel, because had it been a jinn he would never be shy from me. What is he telling, in this narration, what is he telling you that the power of a knowledgeable woman, that the power of a woman who understands the difference in the qualities of the jinn and the melaika, then she takes him, subhanAllah, again, to waqa her cousin and he confirms, hey, you're the last prophet and she's like, How do we know about what Sumayah brought? What is it that gave her that kind of courage, that kind of heart is her proximity to the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, it's her following, right? It's her looking at the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam in his strength, in his example and saying that I can withstand anything from this dunya, if I get to be with you in the Akhir Yalasullah. He's saying, whatever anybody taught you about weakness or that you're afraid and you're too frail to stand up, no, no, no, no, no, you're the first believers, you're the first martyrs, you're on the front line. He's saying women, you got this, you have this. And see details for us, even what happens with Fatima Zahra, by the time she's 12 years old, he calls her, you are the mother of your father. The way that she cares for him when Khadijah, passes away. Her level of love, when the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam is literally making Sulaa, he's making Sujood in front of the Kaaba and the warring Arabs at the time literally make this plot to harm him. And they come and they choke him, but then they actually throw this big pot of just animal guts, right? But it's not just guts, it's like also entrails. They throw this on the back of the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, and as Suhana Allah, they're marching even to attack him further. Abu Bakr Siddiq, he sees this, right? And he runs, he sees the Prophet this way, he runs that way to go get help. He passes Fatima Zahra alayhi wa sallam, he passes Fatima Zahra, Fatima Zahra, what's happening? And she's like, they're attacking the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, she doesn't say let me go run and get help, she runs toward the Messenger of Allah sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, and she's the one who picks up the entrails and the guts and throws it in their face and said, do you do this to him for no other reason than he believes in Allah? Why do we have these narrations? To tell you about who you are from the youth of you, from the youngest of you, to the eldest of you, that you have the ability, Suhana Allah, when you walk inside Nur Muhammadiyah, when you have proximity to the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, there's so much you can change, there's so much power that you have. That's the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam who tells Abu Khaira, that the womb is connected to the throne of Allah. Alhamdulillah, our scholars will say, this is not about the woman, this is sila to Rahim, this is about lineage. I say, okay, that's no problem, but can you get sila to Rahim without the Rahim? And the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, he doesn't mince words nor does Allah azza wa jala, so if he wanted to say sila to Rahim, it's just sila to Rahim, but yeah, he just said the Rahim. I'm just saying, like you can't get that without the other. Why did he tell you that? He's telling you that when it comes, he's teaching you about even your natural relationship with Allah sra, he's teaching you about your natural relationship. There's a reason why in the story of Khawla, when she runs to the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, about what happens between her and her husband, they have a disagreement, they have an argument. And she runs to the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, I love this moment. He's like, I've got some idea about it, but I'm not going to give you an answer, because Allah hasn't commanded me yet. So what does she do? She runs to Allah sra, she prays to Rahim, she goes back to the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, what answer do you have for me now? What does she know? What has he taught her about herself? He's taught her that your dua'ahs will be answered. He's telling all of us, you run to Allah when somebody can't give you an answer, don't doubt your ability to make dua'ah and ask Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala to come to your rescue. Time and time again, then Allah came to her rescue, right? And revealing Surat al-Mujaddillah. And then he lays out the rules of restorative justice between her and her husband. And so what the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam is just is teaching us about ourselves. He's literally like the more we study him, the more Allah sra, the more he drowns out the noise, the more he pushes back all those dunya weird voices who don't know what they're talking about. But then in his prophetic example, he taught us how to be loved by Allah subhanahu he taught us how to be loved. What is it that you have to do? Like Allah has literally set you up for all levels of success, right? And every aspect of your nature, Allah azawajal loves you so much, he set you up in the best manner. Now what will you do to say, Ya Allah, I'm so grateful. I will mold and shape myself according to your most beloved, according to Habibullah sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, why so that I can be worthy of what you have created me to be. So I can be worthy of the blessing that you gave me that even other Anbiya wanted. But you gave him to me without even with subhan Allah. Very little, did we do, if anything, honestly. Did we do that Allah said, I'm choosing you for this? But how do we hold on to it? How do we hold on to this rope of Allah? Because it's for sure the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam is the rope of Allah. He's the one who raises you up. He's the one who pulls you up. He's the one that will pull us away from hellfire. He's the walking Quran. He's the example of what the Quran looks like lived. He's the living example of what the Quran is subhan Allah. It's meanings. It's wisdom. It's light. And so then when we look at the Seerah of the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, we read the books about the contents of his character. I want us to make every time we read something about a hadith about his character, make the intention to do it. I make the intention that say, even if once in my lifetime, I will do this. And it will be difficult. I'll tell you a funny story. If I didn't tell you this before, I think I told you this before, but I have to tell you again. So once I was in, I had taken a class on hadith and you know, we were learning about actions and, you know, character of the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam. And so we came across the narration where literally a tea, a fly dropped in his drink. And so he said that, you know, basically dip the fly, the fly drops in your drink and dip the fly because the anecdote is in, the sickness is in one wing and the anecdote is in the other. So I was like, you know, my teacher told me the same thing I just told you. You read something about the Prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam and then you make the intention to shout out once in my lifetime, I'm going to do it. My son was like Bismillah. Then I read that hadith and I was like la la la la la. Because you know, we're Americans, we're straight germophobes. Take us very little to deviate. La la la la la. The very next day, no easy exaggeration. I'm at a friend of mine's house. She pours tea. May Allah, Allah, Yerhamah. She used to make the best tea. I mean the best tea. And so I don't know, we're drinking tea and I'm like, this is so good and I sit it down. And what happens? A fly lands in my tea. And I was like, I looked at it. I immediately knew. I was like, oh, okay, this is a test. Of course, I was like, y'all know, please have mercy on me. Please forgive me. You know, you know, this is, you know where I'm from. Flies, y'all, y'all. But just because, right? Just because. I was like, okay, I just have to do this. Literally, I can't tell y'all go up there. I took the tiniest sip. It was like this when I did it. But it's true, right? That's difficult. I'm telling you. Oh no, I know we're germaphobes. But honestly, anytime you read something about the character of the Prophet when you go through the pages, I just say, oh, Allah, make me like this, mold and shape me to speak like this, to sit like he sat, to behave with my family the way that he behaved. Oh, Allah, bless me to be with my neighbors the way that he was with his neighbors. Oh, because why? Why are you asking for that? Because he's Habibullah. So, Allah, he is the beloved of Allah. And so, if you become like that, what's going to happen? You're going to become beloved to Allah, Subhanallah. What is the result of becoming beloved to Allah? We're all familiar with the narration where Allah tells the Prophet, he said, I wage war. Allah says, I wage war against those who try to harm my beloveds, my Awliya. I wage war. Then Allah says, when I love a servant, like Allah is telling them, right? Like Allah is saying, when I love a servant, I announce it to Jibrael. I tell, yeah, Jibrael, I love Fulam and Fulah. Oh, Jibrael, I love such and such. I love Fatima. I love Khadija. I love Latifa. I love, like, yeah, Jibrael, I love her. And then Jibrael says, yeah, Allah, I love her. And then Jibrael goes to the other chief angels. He tells Mikhail, the biggest one I'm concerned about is that he tells Israel. That's what I'm concerned about. Ya Rabbi, please tell Israel, you love me. Why? So when he comes, he can say, this is one of Allah's beloveds. Please don't snatch my soul. Please, please, Ya Rabbi. But he tells the other angels, Allah, he gives a Senate for it. And Jibrael loves such and such. So they love them. And then, literally, that love is thrust into them. And then Mikhail, and Israfil, and Israel, and the chief angels, and Ridwan, the one who is the guardian of the gates of Jannah. Says, oh, I love this one. What happens if Ridwan loves you? What happens if the angels of Jannah love you who are decorating your home, Ya Rabbi? What happens if they love you? And then they tell the other angels, and then those angels keep the lower angels until the people on earth love that person. And then the people on earth say, I just love, I love her. Why do you love her? I don't know what I love her. Feel about Shekhani Ha'ad. I just love her. Obviously. And then Allah says, and then my servant draws near to me. They come to me with what I've made farmed upon them. What does that mean when you said you draw near to them? When Allah says, like, my servants use that Ibadah to become closer to me. Meaning, they're not the type that just do it out of obligation. They're not the type that says, you know, I got to check the box. I pray to the Lord. I pray to the author. They're not those type. They're the type that's saying my farmed, right, is what I used to become near to Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala. Not the type that they pray in order to only distance themselves from Hellfire. I don't want to go hell so let me pray. No. They're the type that if you're, if your shala is bringing you near and closer to Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala, it means you have it with khusho. You're doing it with, with hudur. You have a presence. You have a concentration. Let your, your, your relationship with Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala has a sweetness to it. You're the one who's like, is it duhoor? Yeah, I'm ready to pray. Let me just go ahead and pray. Let me go ahead and pray my sunnah. I'll just sit here until it's, it's time. And then they continue to draw near to Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala, right, with the involuntary, the voluntary involuntary, the sunnah. The extra obligatory. That which isn't farmed. It's something you like, I just, I don't, it's, I don't have to come to you. I want to come to you. Y'all don't be, I need to talk to you. I don't be whether it's, it's not just because it's bad. I just want to talk to you because you're Allah. I just want to, I just want to, I just want to tell you how much I love you, subhanahu wa ta'ala. Y'all Allah, I want to thank you for the Prophet, Salatullah wassalaamu alayhi, who gave us the doors, the gateways to jannah. Y'all Allah, I want to thank you for making me from amongst us. They're making, they have extra worship, extra ibadah. Allah says, and they keep coming close to me until I love them. And when I love them, I become the eyes in which they see, the ears in which they hear, the mouth in which they speak, the hands in which they take action, and the feet in which they travel. Do you know, what do you understand what Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala saying? Like the level of basirah, the level of wisdom and understanding and commitment and tawfeeq and afya. The Prophet, Salatullah wassalaamu alayhi, you cannot do the fara'id unless you learn it from the Prophet, Salatullah wassalaamu alayhi. You can't learn the sunnah and you can't draw nearer to Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala even with the extra obligatory unless you do it through the Prophet, Salatullah wassalaamu alayhi. So you're not going to be loved by Allah unless you go through his gateway. This is what he is to us. He is literally Babur Rahman. He is literally the doorway to Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala. He's like, and it's not, he's not a mystery. This is what Allah, Allah is so great. He's not a mystery. There's like, you, every single detail about my life, you have it. What I said at this time, how I behaved at this time, how I sat, how I walked, when I brushed my teeth, what I did, when I woke up in the morning, what I said to my wife, how I was with the children, you have every single detail of it. You can't say like, this life is without a map. It's literally like, okay, what did he do this time? Okay. And then at this time of the day, he prayed Salatullah. And then at this time of the day, he did this. It's, it's literally subhanallah, like, you know, color by number. That's how alhamdulillah wassukrilah. My shaykh thought this is, it's actually not so difficult. We think it's like very difficult as a matter of just saying, I submit. I'm coming to you, Ya Rasulullah. Ya Habibi Ya Rasulullah. I'm coming to you. Put me under that cloak, on that burda. Make me under that. Be on me with that. I close with this. I didn't hear the adhan on the other side. I just heard the phone. But I'm looking at the sky and I know it must be Maghrib. I just want to, to end with this. Our beloved messenger, Salanullah Anima, I need you to send them, reminded us on the day of judgment, there will be people who will be running, running. There's some people who will be so nervous they will eat their fingers to the, to this level. Then there's some to their knuckles, some to the ear, some will go all the way up to their shoulder. Some will drown in their own sweat out of fear. And they'll be running, looking for somebody, anybody who can help them, anybody who can save them, anybody who can speak for them, anybody who can advocate for them. They will run to Ibrahim Anayhi Salam and he said, I'm not suited for this. And he will speak out of adab about some things that he did. And then they will run to Mosa, Mosa Anayhi Salam and say, I'm not suited for this. Go to Ahmed, Mosa Anayhi Salam. They will go to Issa and Issa will say, I am not suited for this. That day, if you want salvation, if you want help, you got to run to the prophets, Salanullah Anima. Now, the great thing is, if we were from amongst those who already made that submission, that promise in this dunya, he already knows our name. He's already advocating for us. Every little Jama'a, your name is presented to him and your deeds. Every little Jama'a, he's already making istikfar. He's already making the offering, he's already making shukr for your good deeds. If you make that promise, truly. That's already granted to you. You're not going to be a stranger. You're not going to be running around looking for somebody to help you. You're going to be like, I already know who can help me. And I'm standing next to him. That's what I just want to tell us, that if we increase in our salawat, and I don't just mean the dicker of the tongue, I mean the salawat of the body, the salawat of the heart, the salawat of our soul, the salawat of our character. Let everything about us be a salawat. Let everything about us testify to Allah, I'm not looking blind. I'm not running. Ya Rabb. We ask you by your infinite mercy that you mold and shape us into servants of yours with whom you're well pleased. Ya Rabbi, mold and shape us according to the character of Habibullah, ask that you please bless us to be from amongst those who see him often and much. Ya Rabbi, in our dreams. Ya Rabbi, when we pass from this dunya, let it be him. Ya Rabbi, that greets us into our graves. Ya Rabbi, let it be his hand that pulls us out of our graves on Yomo Qiyama. Ya Rabbi, let it be beside him next to him that we stand. Ya Rabbi, on Yomo Qiyama. Ya Rabbi, let it be from his blessed hand that we take a drink from. Ya Rabbi, at the hold from the rivers of Kofun. Ya Rabbi, let it be with him that we stand. Ya Rabbi, in front of you by which you grant us. Ya Rabbi, by his intercession that you grant us entrance into gender to Firdous al-A'la. Ya Rabbi, with him. And Faht al-Mazahra, without reckoning. Ya Rabbi, by your mercy. Ya Rabbi, by your mercy. Ya Rabbi, grant us a complete and perfect pardon. After which there is no sin nor stain of it. Ya Rabbi, make us from amongst those who are enveloped in your kindness. Ya Rabbi, make us from amongst those. Ya Rabbi, that you have protected from every harm and destruction. Ya Allah, bless us and our children to be from the Qani teen, the Saliheen, the Siddiqeen, Ya Ar-Rahm Al-Rahmeen, and those who have foes on Aadim. Allahumma, Saniya, Nasa'idina, Wa Habibina, Wa Mudana, Muhammad. Wa la ilihi wasum bihi wa sallam. Alhamdulillah.