 Book 1 Chapter 4 of The House of Myrth by Edith Wharton. The next morning, on her breakfast-tree, Miss Bart found a note from her hostess. "'Dearest Lily,' it ran, if it is not too much of a bore to be down by ten, will you come to my sitting-room to help me with some tiresome things?' Lily tossed aside the note and subsided on her pillows with a sigh. It was a bore to be down by ten, an hour regarded at Bellamont as vaguely synchronous with sunrise, and she knew too well the nature of the tiresome things in question. Miss Pragg, the secretary, had been called away, and there wouldn't be notes and dinner-cards to write, lost addresses to hunt up, and other social drudgery to perform. It was understood that Miss Bart should fill the gap in such emergencies, and she usually recognized the obligation without a murmur. Today, however, it renewed the sense of servitude which the previous night's review of her check-book had produced. Everything in her surroundings ministered to feelings of ease and amenity. The windows stood open to the sparkling freshness of the September morning, and between the yellow boughs she caught a perspective of hedges and parterras leading by degrees of lessening formality to the free undulations of the park. Her maid had kindled a little fire on the hearth, and it contended cheerfully with the sunlight which slanted across the moss-green carpet and caressed the curved sides of an old market-tree dust. Near the bed stood a table holding her breakfast tray, with its harmonious porcelain and silver, a handful of violets and a slender glass, and the morning paper folded beneath her letters. There was nothing new to Lily in these tokens of a studied luxury, but, though they formed a port of her atmosphere, she never lost her sensitiveness to their charm. Mere display left her with a sense of superior distinction, but she felt an affinity to all the subtler manifestations of wealth. Mrs. Trenner's summons, however, suddenly recalled her state of dependence, and she rose and dressed in a mood of irritability that she was usually too prudent to indulge. She knew that such emotions leave lines on the face as well as in the character, and she had meant to take mourning by the little creases which her midnight survey had revealed. The matter of course tone of Mrs. Trenner's greeting deepened her irritation. If one did drag one's self out of bed at such an hour, and come down fresh and radiant to the monotony of note-writing, some special recognition of the sacrifice seemed fitting. But Mrs. Trenner's tone showed no consciousness of the fact. Oh, Lily, that's nice of you. She merely sighed across the chaos of letters, bills, and other domestic documents which gave an incongruously commercial touch to the slender alliance of her writing-table. There are such lots of horrors this morning, she added, clearing a space in the center of the confusion and rising to yield her seat to Miss Bart. Mrs. Trenner was a tall, fair woman, whose height just saved her from redundancy. Her rosy blondness had survived some forty years of futile activity without showing much trace of ill usage except in a diminished play of feature. It was difficult to define her beyond saying that she seemed to exist only as a hostess, not so much from any exaggerated instinct of hospitality as because she could not sustain life except in a crowd. The collective nature of her interests exempted her from the ordinary rivalries of her sex, and she knew no more personal emotion than that of hatred for the woman who presumed to give bigger dinners or have more amusing house parties than herself. As her social talents, backed by Mr. Trenner's bank account, almost always assured her ultimate triumph in such competitions, success had developed in her an unscrupulous good nature toward the rest of her sex, and in Miss Bart's utilitarian classification of her friends, Mrs. Trenner ranked as the woman who was least likely to go back on her. It was simply inhuman of Prague to go off now, Mrs. Trenner declared, as her friend seated herself at the desk. She says her sister is going to have a baby, as if that were anything to having a house party. I'm sure I shall get most horribly mixed up, and there will be some awful rows. When I was down at Tuxedo, I asked a lot of people for next week, and I've mislaid the list and can't remember who was coming. And this week is going to be a horrid failure too, and Gwen Van Osberg will go back and tell her mother how bored people were. I did mean to ask the weatheralls. That was a blunder of gusses. They disapprove of Carrie Fisher, you know, as if one could help having Carrie Fisher. It was foolish of her to get that second divorce. Carrie always overdoses things, but she said the only way to get a penny out of Fisher was to divorce him and make him pay alimony. And poor Carrie has to consider every dollar. It's really absurd of Alice Weatherall to make such a fuss about meeting her when one thinks of what society is coming to. Someone said the other day that there was a divorce and a case of appendicitis in every family one knows. Besides, Carrie is the only person who can keep Gusson a good humor when we have bores in the house. Have you noticed that all the husbands like her? All, I mean, except her own. It's rather clever of her to have made a specialty of devoting herself to dulled people. The field is such a large one, and she has it practically to herself. She finds compensations, no doubt. I know she borrows money of Guss. But then I'd pay her to keep him in a good humor, so I can't complain after all. Mrs. Treanor paused to enjoy the spectacle of Miss Bart's efforts to unravel her tangled correspondence. But it is only the Weatheralls in Carrie, she resumed, with a fresh note of lament. The truth is, I'm awfully disappointed in Lady Cressida Reith. Disappointed? Had you known her before? Mercy, no. Never saw her till yesterday. Lady Skidaw sent her over with letters to the Van Osbergs, and I heard that Maria Van Osberg was asking a big party to meet her this week, so I thought it would be fun to get her away, and Jack Steppne, who knew her in India, managed it for me. Maria was furious, and actually had the impudence to make Wynn invite herself here, so that they shouldn't be quite out of it. If I'd known what Lady Cressida was like, they could have had her, and welcomed. But I thought any friend of the Skidaws was sure to be amusing. You remember what fun Lady Skidaw was. There were times when I simply had to send the girls out of the room. Besides Lady Cressida is the Duchess of Belcher's sister, and I naturally suppose she was the same sort, but you never can tell in those English families. They are so big that there's room for all kinds, and it turns out that Lady Cressida is the moral one. Think of my taking such a lot of trouble about a clergyman's wife, who wears Indian jewelry and botanizes. She made Gus take her all through the glass houses yesterday, and bothered him to death by asking him the names of the plants, fancy treating Gus as if he were the gardener. Mrs. Trenner brought this out in a crescendo of indignation. Oh, well, perhaps Lady Cressida will reconcile the weatheralls to meeting Carrie Fisher, said Miss Bart, pacifically. I'm sure I hope so, but she is boring all the men horribly, and if she takes to distributing tracts, as I hear she does, it will be too depressing. The worst of it is that she would have been so useful at the right time. You know we have to have the bishop once a year, and she would have given just the right tone to things. I always have horrid luck about the bishop's visits," added Mrs. Trenner, whose present misery was being fed by a rapidly rising tide of reminiscence. Last year, when he came, Gus forgot all about his being here, and brought home the Ned Wyntons, and the Farleys, five divorces, and six sets of children between them. When is Lady Cressida going? Lily inquired. Mrs. Trenner cast up her eyes in despair. My dear, if only one knew. I was in such a hurry to get her away from Maria that I actually forgot to name a date, and Gus says she told someone she meant to stop here all winter. To stop here, in this house? Don't be silly, in America. But if no one else asks her, you know they never go to hotels. Perhaps Gus only said it to frighten you. No, I heard her tell Bertha Dorsett that she had six months to put in while her husband was taking the cure in the Ingedine. You should have seen Bertha look vacant. But it's no joke, you know. If she stays here all autumn, she'll spoil everything, and Mariava and Osberg will simply exalt. With this affecting vision Mrs. Trenner's voice trembled with self-pity. Oh, Judy, as if anyone were ever bored at Bellamont, Miss Bart tactfully protested. You know perfectly well that if Mrs. Van Osberg were to get all the right people and leave you with all the wrong ones, you'd manage to make things go off, and she wouldn't. Such an assurance would usually have restored Mrs. Trenner's complacency, but on this occasion it did not chase the cloud from her brow. It isn't only Lady Cressida, she lamented. Everything has gone wrong this week. I can see that Bertha Dorsett is furious with me. Furious with you? Why? Because I told her that Lawrence Sulden was coming, but he wouldn't after all, and she's quite unreasonable enough to think it's my fault. Miss Bart put down her pen, and sat absently gazing at the note she had begun. I thought that was all over, she said. So it is on his side, and of course Bertha has been idle since, but I fancy she's out of a job just at present, and someone gave me a hint that I had better ask Lawrence. Well I did ask him, but I couldn't make him come, and now I suppose she'll take it out of me by being perfectly nasty to everyone else. Oh, she may take it out of him by being perfectly charming to someone else. Mrs. Trenner shook her head doffily. She knows he wouldn't mind. And who else is there? Alice Weatherall won't let Lucius out of her sight. Ned Silverton can't take his eyes off Carrie Fisher, poor boy. Gus is bored by Bertha. Jack Stepney knows her too well. And well, to be sure, there's Percy Grice. She sat up smiling at the thought. Mrs. Bart's continents did not reflect the smile. Oh, she and Mr. Grice would not be likely to hit it off. You mean that she'd shock him and he'd bore her? Well that's not such a bad beginning, you know, but I hope she won't take it into her head to be nice to him, for I asked him here on purpose for you. Lily laughed. Ha-ha! Merci du complément. I should certainly have no show against Bertha. Do you think I am uncomplementary? I'm not, really, you know. Everyone knows you're a thousand times handsomer and cleverer than Bertha. But then you're not nasty. And for always getting what she wants in the long run, commend me to a nasty woman. Mrs. Bart stared in affected reproval. I thought you were so fond of Bertha. Oh, I am. It's much safer to be fond of dangerous people. But she is dangerous. And if I ever saw her up in mischief, it's now. I can tell by poor George's manner that man is a perfect barometer. He always knows when Bertha is going to... to fall, Mrs. Bart suggested. Don't be shocking. You know he believes in her still. And of course I don't say there's any real harm in Bertha. Only she delights in making people miserable, and especially poor George. Well, he seems cut out for the part. I don't wonder she likes more cheerful companionship. Oh, George is not as dismal as you think. If Bertha did worry him, he would be quite different. Or if she'd leave him alone and let him arrange his life as he pleases. But she doesn't dare lose her hold of him on account of the money. And so when he isn't jealous, she pretends to be. Mrs. Bart went on writing in silence, and her hostess sat following her train of thought with frowning intensity. "'Do you know,' she exclaimed after a long pause, I believe I'll call up Lawrence on the telephone, and tell him he simply must come.' "'Oh, don't,' said Lily, with a quick suffusion of color. The blush surprised her almost as much as it did her hostess, who, though not commonly observant of facial changes, sat staring at her with puzzled eyes. "'Good gracious, Lily, how handsome you are! Why do you dislike him so much?' "'Not at all. I like him. But if you are actuated by the benevolent intention of protecting me from Bertha, I don't think I need your protection.' Mrs. Trenor sat up with an exclamation. "'Lily, Percy, do you mean to say you've actually done it?' Mrs. Bart smiled. "'I only mean to say that Mr. Grice and I are getting to be very good friends.' "'Hmm, I see,' Mrs. Trenor fixed a wrapped eye upon her. "'You know they say he has eight hundred thousand a year, and spends nothing except on some rubbishy old books, and his mother has heart disease and will leave him a lot more. "'Oh, Lily, do go slowly,' her friend adjured her. Mrs. Bart continued to smile without annoyance. "'I shouldn't, for instance,' she remarked, be in any haste to tell him that he had a lot of rubbishy old books. "'No, of course not. I know you're wonderful about getting up people's subjects, but he's horribly shy and easily shocked, and—and why don't you say it, Judy? I have the reputation of being on the hunt for a rich husband.' "'Oh, I don't mean that. He wouldn't believe it of you, at first,' said Mrs. Trenor, with candid fruitness. "'But you know things are rather lively here at times. I must give Jack and Gus a hint. And if he thought you were what his mother would call fast—' "'Oh, well, you know what I mean. Don't wear your scarlet crepe de chien for dinner, and don't smoke if you can help it, Lily dear.' Lily pushed aside her finished work with a dry smile. "'You're very kind, Judy. I'll lock up my cigarettes, and wear that last year's dress you sent me this morning. And if you are really interested in my career, perhaps you'll be kind enough not to ask me to play bridge again this evening.' "'Bridge? Does he mind bridge, too? Oh, Lily, what an awful life you'll lead. But of course I won't. Why didn't you give me a hint last night? There's nothing I wouldn't do, you poor duck, to see you happy.' And Mrs. Trenor, glowing with her sex's eagerness to smooth the course of true love, enveloped Lily in a long embrace. "'You're quite sure,' she added solicitously, as the latter extricated herself, that you wouldn't like me to telephone for Lawrence Sulden.' "'Quite sure,' said Lily. The next three days demonstrated to her own complete satisfaction Miss Bart's ability to manage her affairs without extraneous aid. As she sat, on the Saturday afternoon, on the terrace at Belamond, she smiled at Mrs. Trenor's fear that she might go too fast. If such a warning had ever been needful, the years had taught her a salutary lesson, and she flattered herself that she now knew how to adapt her pace to the object of pursuit. In the case of Mr. Grice, she had found it well to flitter ahead, losing herself illusively and luring him on from depth to depth of unconscious intimacy. The surrounding atmosphere was propitious to the scheme of courtship. Mrs. Trenor, true to her word, had shown no signs of expecting Lily at the bridge-table, and had even hinted to the other card-players that they were to betray no surprise at her unwanted defection. In consequence of this hint, Lily found herself the center of that feminine solicitude which envelops a young woman in the mating season. A solitude was tacitly created for her in the crowded existence of Belamond, and her friends could not have shown a greater readiness for self-effacement had her wooing been adorned with all the attributes of romance. In Lily's set, this conduct implied a sympathetic comprehension of her motives, and Mr. Grice rose in her esteem as she saw the consideration he inspired. The terrace at Belamond on a September afternoon was a spot propitious to sentimental musings, and as Miss Bart stood leaning against the balustrade above the Socken Garden, at a little distance from the animated group about the tea-table, she might have been lost in the mazes of an inarticulate happiness. In reality her thoughts were of finding definite utterance in the tranquil recapitulation of the blessings in store for her. From where she stood she could see them embodied in the form of Mr. Grice, who, in a light overcoat and muffler, sat somewhat nervously on the edge of his chair, while Carrie Fisher, with all the energy of eye and gesture, with which nature and art had combined to endow her, pressed on him the duty of taking part in the task of municipal reform. Mrs. Fisher's latest hobby was municipal reform. It had been preceded by an equal zeal for socialism, which had in turn replaced an energetic advocacy of Christian science. Mrs. Fisher was small, fiery, and dramatic, and her hands and eyes were admirable instruments in the service of whatever causes he happened to espouse. She had, however, the fault common to enthusiasts of ignoring any slackness of response on the part of her hearers, and Lily was amused by her unconsciousness of the resistance displayed in every angle of Mr. Grice's attitude. Lily herself knew that his mind was divided between the dread of catching cold if he remained out of doors too long at that hour, and the fear that, if he retreated to the house, Mrs. Fisher might follow him up with a paper to be signed. Mr. Grice had a constitutional dislike to what he called committing himself, and tenderly, as he cherished his health, he evidently concluded that it was safer to stay out of reach of pen and ink till chance released him from Mrs. Fisher's toils. Meanwhile he cast agonized glances in the direction of Miss Bart, whose only response was to sink into an attitude of more graceful abstraction. She had learned the value of contrast in throwing her charms into relief, and was fully aware of the extent to which Mrs. Fisher's volubility was enhancing her own repose. She was roused from her musings by the approach of her cousin Jack Stepney, who, at Gwen Van Osberg's side, was returning across the garden from the tennis court. The couple in question were engaged in the same kind of romance in which Lily figured, and the latter felt a certain annoyance in contemplating what seemed to her a caricature of her own situation. Miss Van Osberg was a large girl with flat surfaces and no highlights. Jack Stepney had once said of her that she was as reliable as roast mutton. His own taste was in the line of less solid and more highly seasoned diet, but hunger makes any fair palatable, and there had been times when Mr. Stepney had been reduced to a crust. Lily considered, with interest, the expression of their faces. The girls turned toward her companions like an empty plate held up to be filled, while the man lounging at her side already betrayed the encroaching boredom which would presently crack the thin manir of his smile. How impatient men are, Lily reflected. All Jack has to do to get everything he wants is to keep quiet and let that girl marry him, whereas I have to calculate and contrive and retreat in advance as if I were going through an intricate dance where one Miss Stepney would throw me hopelessly out of time. Through nearer she was whimsically struck by a kind of family likeness between Miss Ben Osberg and Percy Grice. There was no resemblance of feature. Grice was handsome in a didactic way. He looked like a clever pupil's drawing from a plaster cast. While Gwen's continents had no more modeling than a face painted on a toy balloon, but the deeper affinity was unmistakable. The two had the same prejudices and ideals, and the same quality of making other standards non-existent by ignoring them. This attribute was common to most of Lily's set. They had a force of negation which eliminated everything beyond their own range of perception. Grice and Miss Ben Osberg were, in short, made for each other by every law of moral and physical correspondence. Yet they wouldn't look at each other, Lily mused. They never do. Each of them wants a creature of a different race, of Jack's race and mine, with all sorts of intuitions, sensations, and perceptions that they don't even guess the existence of, and they always get what they want. She stood talking with her cousin, and Miss Ben Osberg, till a slight cloud on the latter's brow advised her that even cozently amenities were subject to suspicion, and Miss Bart, mindful of the necessity of not exciting amenities at this crucial point of her career, dropped aside while the happy couple proceeded toward the tea-table. Seating herself in the upper step of the terrace, Lily leaned her head against the honeysuckles, breathing the balustrade. The fragrance of the late blossoms seemed an emanation of the tranquil scene, a landscape tutored to the last degree of rural elegance. In the foreground glowed the warm tents of the gardens. Beyond the lawn, with its pyramidal pale-gold maples and velvety furs, sloped pastures dotted with cattle, and through a long glade the river widened like a lake under the silver light of September. Lily did not want to join the circle about the tea-table. They represented the future she had chosen, and she was content with it, but in no haste to anticipate its joys. The certainty that she could marry Percy Grice, when she pleased, had lifted a heavy load from her mind, and her money troubles were too recent for the removal not to leave a sense of relief which a less discerning intelligence might have taken for happiness. Her vulgar cares were at an end. She would be able to arrange her life as she pleased to soar into that empryan of security where creditors cannot penetrate. She would have smarter gowns than Jody Trenor, and far, far more jewels than Bertha Dorset. She would be free, forever, from the shifts, the expedience, the humiliations of the relatively poor. Instead of having to flatter her, she would be flattered. Instead of being grateful, she would receive thanks. There were old scores she could pay off as well as old benefits she could return, and she had no doubts as to the extent of her power. She knew that Mr. Grice was of the small cherry type, most inaccessible to impulses and emotions. He had the kind of character in which prudence is a vice, and good advice, the most dangerous nourishment. But Lily had known the species before. She was aware that such a guarded nature must find one huge outlet of egoism, and she determined to be to him what his Americana had hitherto been, the one possession in which he took sufficient pride to spend money on it. She knew that this generosity to self is one of the forms of meanness, and she resolved so to identify herself with her husband's vanity that to gratify her wishes would be to him the most exquisite form of self-indulgence. The system might at first necessitate a resort to some of the very shifts and expedience from which she intended it should free her, but she felt sure that in a short time she would be able to play the game in her own way. How should she have distrusted her powers? Her beauty itself was not the mere ephemeral possession it might have been, in the hands of experience. Her skill in enhancing it, the care she took of it, the use she made of it, seemed to give it a kind of permanence. She felt she could trust it to carry her through. And the end, on the whole, was worthwhile. Life was not the mockery she had thought it three days ago. There was room for her, after all, in this crowded, selfish world of pleasure, whence, so short a time since, her poverty had seemed to exclude her. These people, whom she had ridiculed, and yet envied, were glad to make a place for her in the charmed circle about which all her desires revolved. They were not as brutal and self-engrossed as she had fancied, or rather, since it would no longer be necessary to flatter and humor them, that side of their nature became less conspicuous. Society is a revolving body, which is apt to be judged, according to its place in each man's heaven, and at present it was turning its illuminated face to Lily. In the rosy glow it diffused her companions, seemed full of amiable qualities. She liked their elegance, their lightness, their lack of emphasis. Even the self-assurance which at times was so like obtuseness now seemed the natural sign of social ascendancy. They were lords of the only world she cared for, and they were ready to admit her to their ranks and let her lord it with them. Already she felt within her a stealing allegiance to their standards, and acceptance of their limitations, a disbelief in the things they did not believe in, a contemptuous pity for the people who were not able to live as they lived. The early sunset was slanting across the park, through the boughs of the long avenue beyond the gardens. She caught the flash of whales and divine that more visitors were approaching. There was a movement behind her, a scattering of steps and voices. It was evident that the party about the tea-table was breaking up. Presently she heard a tread behind her on the terrace. She supposed that Mr. Grice had at last found means to escape from his predicament, and she smiled at the significance of his coming to join her, instead of beating an instant retreat to the fireside. She turned to give him the welcome, which such gallantry deserved, but her greeting wavered into a blush of wonder, for the man who had approached her was Lawrence Seldin. You see, I came after all, he said, but before she had time to answer, Mrs. Dorsett, breaking away from a lifeless colloquy with her host, had stepped between them with a little gesture of appropriation. End of Book 1 Chapter 4 Book 1 Chapter 5 of The House of Merth by Edith Wharton The observance of Sunday at Belomant was chiefly marked by the punctual appearance of the smart omnibus destined to convey the household to the little church at the gates. Whether anyone got into the omnibus or not was a matter of secondary importance, since by standing there it not only bore witness to the orthodox intentions of the family, but made Mrs. Treanor feel, when she finally heard it drive away, that she had somehow vicariously made use of it. It was Mrs. Treanor's theory that her daughters actually did go to church every Sunday, but their French governess's convictions calling her to the rival of Fein and the fatigues of the week, keeping their mother in her room till luncheon, there was seldom anyone present to verify the fact. Now and then, in a spasmodic burst of virtue, when the house had been too uproarious overnight, Gus Treanor forced his genial bulk into a tight frock coat and routed his daughters from their slumbers. But habitually, as Lily explained to Mr. Grice, this parental duty was forgotten till the church bells were ringing across the park, and the omnibus had driven away empty. Lily had hinted to Mr. Grice that this neglect of religious observances was repugnant to her early traditions, and that during her visits to Belamond she regularly accompanied Muriel and Hilda to church. This tallied with the assurance, also confidentially imparted, never having played bridge before, she had been dragged into it on the night of her arrival, and had lost an appalling amount of money in consequence of her ignorance of the game and of the rules of betting. Mr. Grice was undoubtedly enjoying Belamond. He liked the ease and glitter of the life, and the luster conferred on him by being a member of this group of rich and conspicuous people. But he thought it a very materialistic society. There were times when he was frightened by the talk of the men and the looks of the ladies, and he was glad to find that Miss Bart, for all her ease in self-position, was not at home in so ambiguous an atmosphere. For this reason he had been especially pleased to learn that she would, as usual, attend the young trainers to church on Sunday morning, and as he paced the gravel sweep before the door his light overcoat on his arm and his prayer-book and one carefully gloved hand. He reflected, agreeably, on the strength of character which kept her true to her early training in surrounding so subversive to religious principles. For a long time Mr. Grice and the omnibus had the gravel sweep to themselves. But far from regretting this deplorable indifference on the part of the other guests, he found himself nourishing the hope that Miss Bart might be unaccompanied. The precious minutes were flying, however. The big chestnuts pod the ground and flecked their impatient sides with foam. The coachmen seemed to be slowly petrifying on the box and the groom on the doorstep, and still the lady did not come. Suddenly, however, there was a sound of voices and a rustle of skirts in the doorway, and Mr. Grice, restoring his watch to his pocket, turned with a nervous start, but it was only to find himself handing Mrs. Weatherall into the carriage. The Weatheralls always went to church. They belonged to the vast group of human automata who go through life without neglecting to perform a single one of the gestures executed by the surrounding puppets. It is true that the Bellamont puppets did not go to church, but others equally important did, and Mr. and Mrs. Weatherall's circle was so large that God was included in their visiting list. They appeared, therefore, punctual and resigned with the air of people bound for a dull at home, and after them Hilda and Muriel straggled, yawning and penning each other's veils and ribbons as they came. They had promised Lily to go to church with her, they declared, and Lily was such a dear old duck that they didn't mind doing it to please her, though they couldn't fancy what had put the idea in her head, and though for their own part they would much rather have played lawn tennis with Jack and Gwen, if she hadn't told them she was coming. The Mrs. Trainor, who were followed by Lady Chrissida Wraith, a weather-beaten person in liberty silk and ethnological trinkets, who, on seeing the omnibus, expressed her surprise that they were not to walk across the park, but at Mrs. Weatherall's horrified protest that the church was a mile away, her ladyship, after a glance at the height of the other's heels, acquiesced in the necessity of driving, and poor Mr. Grice found himself rolling off between four ladies for whose spiritual welfare he felt not the least concern. It might have afforded him some consolation, could he have known that Miss Bart had really meant to go to church? She had even risen earlier than usual in the execution of her purpose. She had an idea that the sight of her in a gray gown of devotional cut, with her famous lashes drooped above a prayer-book, would put the finishing touch to Mr. Grice's subjugation, and render inevitable a certain incident which she had resolved should form a part of the walk they were to take together after luncheon. Her intentions, in short, had never been more definite, but poor Lily, for all the hard glaze of her exterior, was inwardly as malleable as wax. Her faculty, for adapting herself, for entering into other people's feelings, if it served her now, and then in small contingencies, hampered her in the decisive moments of life. She was like a water-plant in the flux of the tides, and to-day the whole current of her mood was carrying her toward Lawrence Seldon. Why had he come? Was it to see herself or birth a dorset? It was the last question which, at the moment, should have engaged her. She might better have contented herself with thinking that he had simply responded to the despairing summons of his hostess, anxious to interpose him between herself and the ill-humour of Mrs. Dorset. But Lily had not rested till she had learned from Mrs. Tranner that Seldon had come of his own accord. He didn't even wire me. He just happened to find the trap at the station. Perhaps it's not over with Bertha after all. Mrs. Tranner musingly concluded, and went away to arrange her dinner cards accordingly. Perhaps it was not, Lily reflected, but it should be soon, unless she had lost her cunning. If Seldon had come at Mrs. Dorset's call, it was at her own that he would stay. So much the previous evening had told her. Mrs. Tranner, true to her simple principle of making her married friends happy, had placed Seldon and Mrs. Dorset next to each other at dinner, but in obedience to the time-honored traditions of the matchmaker, she had separated Lily and Mr. Grice, sending in the former with George Dorset, while Mr. Grice was coupled with Gwen Van Osberg. George Dorset's talk did not interfere with the range of his neighbor's thoughts. He was a mournful disceptic. Intent on finding out the deleterious ingredients of every dish and diverted from this care only by the sound of his wife's voice. On this occasion, however, Mrs. Dorset took no part in the general conversation. She sat talking in low murmurs with Seldon, and turning a contemptuous and denuded shoulder toward her host, who, far from resenting his exclusion, plunged into the excesses of the menu with the joyous irresponsibility of a free man. To Mr. Dorset, however, his wife's attitude was a subject of such evident concern that, when he was not scraping the sauce from his fish, or scooping the moist breadcrumbs from the interior of his roll, he sat straining his thin neck for a glimpse of her between the lights. Mrs. Traynor, as at chance, had placed the husband and wife on opposite sides of the table, and Lily was therefore able to observe Mrs. Dorset also, and by carrying her glance a few feet farther, to set up a rapid comparison between Lawrence Seldon and Mr. Grice. It was that comparison which was her undoing. Why else had she suddenly grown interested in Seldon? She had known him for eight years or more ever since her return to America. He had formed a part of her background. She had always been glad to sit next to him at dinner, had found him more agreeable than most men, and had vaguely wished that he possessed the other qualities needful to fix her attention, but till now she had been too busy with her own affairs to regard him as more than one of the pleasant accessories of life. Miss Bart was a keen reader of her own heart, and she saw that her sudden preoccupation with Seldon was due to the fact that his presence shed a new light on her surroundings. Not that he was notably brilliant or exceptional. In his own profession he was surpassed by more than one man who had bored Lily through many a wary dinner. It was rather that he had preserved a certain social detachment, a happy air of viewing the show objectively, of having points of contact outside the great guilt cage in which they were all huddled, for the mob to gay-pack. How alluring the world outside the cage appeared to Lily as she heard its door clang on her. In reality, as she knew, the door never clanged. It stood always open, but most of the captives were like flies in a bottle and having once flown in could never regain their freedom. It was Seldon's distinction that he had never forgotten the way out. That was the secret of his way of readjusting her vision. Lily, turning her eyes from him, found herself scanning her little world through his retina. It was as though the pink lamps had been shut off and the dusty daylight let in. She looked down the long table, studying its occupants one by one. From Gus's trainer, with his heavy carnivorous head sunk between his shoulders as he prayed on a jelly plover, to his wife at the opposite end of the long bank of orchids, suggestive with her glaring good looks of a jeweler's window lit by electricity, and between these two what a long stretch of vacuity. How dreary and trivial these people were. Lily reviewed them with scornful impatience. Carrie Fisher, with her shoulders, her eyes, her divorces, her general air of embodying a spicy paragraph. Young Silverton, who had meant to live on proofreading and write an epic, and who now lived on his friends and had become critical of truffles. Alice Weatherall, an animated visiting list whose most fervent convictions turned on the wording of invitations and the engraving of dinner-cards. Weatherall, with his perpetual nervous nod of acquiescence, his air of agreeing with people before he knew what they were saying. Jack Stepney, with his confident smile and anxious eyes, half way between the sheriff and an heiress. Gwen Van Osberg, with all the guileless confidence of a young girl who has always been told that there is no one richer than her father. Lily smiled at her classification of her friends. How different they had seemed to her a few hours ago. Then they had symbolized what she was gaining. Now they stood for what she was giving up. That very afternoon they had seemed full of brilliant qualities. Now she saw that they were merely dull in a loud way. Under the glitter of their opportunities she saw the poverty of their achievement. It was not that she wanted them to be more disinterested, but she would have liked them to be more picturesque. And she had a shamed recollection of the way in which, a few hours since, she had felt the centripetal force of their standards. She closed her eyes an instant, and the vacuous routine of the life she had chosen stretched before her like a long white road without dip or turning. It was true she was to roll over it in a carriage instead of trudging it on foot. But sometimes the pedestrian enjoys the diversion of a shortcut which is denied to those on wheels. She was roused by a chuckle which Mr. Dorsett seemed to eject from the depths of his lean throat. "'I say, do look at her,' he exclaimed, turning to Miss Bart with a legubrious merriment. I beg your pardon, but do just look at my wife making a fool of that poor devil over there. One would really suppose she was gone on him. And it's all the other way round, I assure you.' Thus adjourned, Lily turned her eyes on the spectacle which was affording Mr. Dorsett such legitimate mirth. It certainly appeared, as he said, that Mrs. Dorsett was the more active participant in the scene. Her neighbor seemed to receive her advances with a temperate zest which did not distract him from his dinner. The sight restored Lily's good humor, and knowing the peculiar disguise which Mr. Dorsett's marital fears assumed, she asked gaily, "'Aren't you horribly jealous of her?' Dorsett greeted the sally, with delight. "'Oh, abominably! You've just hit it. Keeps me awake at night. The doctors tell me that's what has knocked my digestion out. Being so infernally jealous of her. I can't eat a mouthful of the stuff, you know,' he added suddenly, pushing back his plate with a clouded countenance, and Lily, unfailingly adaptable, accorded her radiant attention to his prolonged denunciation of other people's cooks, with a supplementary tirade on the toxic qualities of melted butter. It was not often that he found so ready in ear, and being a man as well as a disceptic, it may be that as he poured his grievances into it he was not insensible to its rosy symmetry. At any rate he engaged Lily so long that the sweets were being handed when she caught a phrase on her other side, where Miss Corby, the comic woman of the company, was bantering Jack Stepney on his approaching engagement. Miss Corby's role was jocularity. She always entered the conversation with a handspring. And of course you'll have Sim Rosdale as best man. Lily heard her fling out as the climax of her prognostications, and Stepney responded as if struck. Jove, that's an idea. What a thumping present I'd get out of him. Sim Rosdale. The name. Made more odious by its diminutive. Obtruded itself on Lily's thoughts like a leerer. It stood for one of the many hated possibilities hovering on the edge of life. If she did not marry Percy Grice the day might come when she would have to be civil to such men as Rosdale. If she did not marry him? But she meant to marry him. She was sure of him and sure of herself. She drew back with a shiver from the pleasant paths in which her thoughts had been straying, and set her feet once more in the middle of the long white road. When she went upstairs that night she found that the late post had brought her a fresh batch of bills. Mrs. Peniston, who was a conscientious woman, had forwarded them all to Belamond. Miss Bart accordingly rose the next morning with the most earnest conviction that it was her duty to go to church. She tore herself many times. From the lingering enjoyment of her breakfast tray rang to have her great gown laid out, and dispatched her maid to borrow a prayer-book for Mrs. Treanor. But her course was too purely reasonable, not to contain the germs of rebellion. No sooner were her preparations made than they roused a smothered sense of resistance. A small spark was enough to candle Lily's imagination and the sight of the gray dress and the borrowed prayer-book flashed a long light down the years. She would have to go to church with Percy Grice every Sunday. They would have a front pew in the most expensive church in New York, and his name would figure handsomely in the list of parish charities. In a few years when he grew stouter he would be made a warden. Once in the winter the rector would come to dine, and her husband would beg her to go over the list and see that no divorces were included, except those who had showed signs of penitence by being remarried to the very wealthy. There was nothing especially arduous in this round of religious obligations, but it stood for a fraction of that great bulk of boredom which loomed across her path. And who could consent to be bored on such a morning? Lily had slept well, and her bath had filled her with a pleasant glow which was becomingly reflected in the clear curve of her cheek. No lines were visible this morning, or else the glass was at a happier angle. And the day was the accomplice of her mood. It was a day for impulse and truancy. The light air seemed full of powdered gold. Below the dewy bloom of the lawns the woodlands blushed and smoldered, and the hills across the river swam in molten blue. Every drop of blood in Lily's veins invited her to happiness. The sound of wails roused her from these musings, and leaning behind her shutters she saw the omnibus take up its freight. She was too late then, but the fact did not alarm her. A glimpse of Mr. Grice's crestfallen face even suggested that she had done wisely in absenting herself, since the disappointment he so candidly betrayed would surely wet his appetite for the afternoon walk. The walk she did not mean to miss. One glance of the bills on her writing-table was enough to recall its necessity. But meanwhile she had the morning to herself, and could muse pleasantly on the disposal of its hours. She was familiar enough with the habits of Belamonte to know that she was likely to have a free field till luncheon. She had seen the weatheralls, the trainer-girls, and Lady Chrissida packed safely into the omnibus. Judy Tranner was sure to be having her hair shampooed. Carrie Fisher had doubtless carried off her host for a drive. Ned Silverton was probably smoking the cigarette of young despair in his bedroom, and Kate Corby was certain to be playing tennis with Jack Stepney and Miss Van Osberg. Of the ladies this left only Mrs. Dorsett unaccounted for, and Mrs. Dorsett never came down till luncheon. Her doctors, she averred, had forbidden her to expose herself to the crude air of the morning. To the remaining members of the party Lily gave no special thought. Wherever they were they were not likely to interfere with her plans. These, for the moment, took the shape of assuming a dress somewhat more rustic and summer-like in style than the garment she had first selected, and rustling downstairs sunshade in hand with the disengaged air of a lady in quest of exercise. The great hall was empty but for the knot of dogs by the fire, who, taking in at a glance the outdoor aspect of Miss Bart, were upon her at once with lavish offers of companionship. She put aside the ramming pause which conveyed these offers, and assuring the joyous volunteers that she might presently have a use for their company, sauntered on through the empty drawing-room to the library at the end of the house. The library was almost the only surviving portion of the old manor house of Belamond, a long, spacious room revealing the traditions of the mother country and its classically cased doors, the dutch tiles of the chimney, and the elaborate hob grate with its shining brass urns. A few family portraits of lantern-draught gentlemen and tie-wigs and ladies with large head-dresses and small bodies hung between the shells lined with pleasantly shabby books, books mostly contemporaneous with the ancestors in question, and to which the subsequent trainers had made no perceptible additions. The library at Belamond was, in fact, never used for reading, though it had a certain popularity as a smoking-room or a quiet retreat for flirtation. It had occurred to Lily, however, that it might, on this occasion, have been resorted to by the only member of the party, in the least likely to put it to its original use. She advanced noiselessly over the dense old rugs scattered with easy chairs, and before she reached the middle of the room, she saw that she had not been mistaken. Lily, in fact, was seated at its farther end, but though a book lay on his knee, his attention was not engaged with it, but directed to a lady, whose lace-clad figure, as she leaned back in an adjoining chair, detached itself with the exaggerated slimness against the dusky leather upholstery. Lily paused as she caught sight of the group. For a moment she seemed about to withdraw. But thinking better of this, she announced her approach by a slight shake of her skirts, which made the couple raise their heads. Mrs. Dorsett, with a look of frank displeasure, and seldom with his usual quiet smile. The sight of his composure had a disturbing effect on Lily, but to be disturbed was, in her case, to make a more brilliant effort at self-position. "'Dear me, am I late?' she asked, putting a hand in his as he advanced to greet her. "'Late for what?' inquired Mrs. Dorsett tartly. "'Not for luncheon, certainly. But perhaps you had an earlier engagement.' "'Yes, I had,' said Lily confidingly. "'Really? Perhaps I am in the way, then. But Mr. Seldin is entirely at your disposal. Mrs. Dorsett was pale with temper, and her antagonist felt a certain pleasure in prolonging her distress. "'Oh, dear. No. Do stay,' she said, good-humoredly. I don't, in the least, want to drive you away. "'You're awfully good, dear, but I never interfere with Mr. Seldin's engagements.' The remark was uttered with a little air of proprietorship, not lost on its object, who concealed a faint blush of annoyance by stooping to pick up the book he had dropped at Lily's approach. The latter's eyes widened charmingly, and she broke into a light laugh. "'But I have no engagement with Mr. Seldin. My engagement was to go to church, and I'm afraid the omnibus has started without me. Has it started? Do you know?' She turned to Seldin, who replied that he had heard it drive away sometimes since. "'Ah, then I shall have to walk. I promised Hilda and Muriel to go to church with them. It's too late to walk there,' you say. "'Well, I shall have the credit of trying at any rate. And the advantage of escaping part of the service I'm not so sorry for myself after all.' And with a bright nod to the couple on whom she had intruded, Miss Bart strolled through the glass doors and carried her, rustling grace, down the long perspective of the garden walk. She had taken her way, churchward, but at no very quick pace, a fact not lost on one of her observers, who stood in the doorway looking after her with an error of puzzled amusement. The truth is that she was conscious of a somewhat keen shock of disappointment. All her plans for the day had been built on the assumption that Seldin had come to Belamonte. She had expected, when she came downstairs, to find him on the watch for her, and she had found him, instead, in a situation which might well denote that he had been on the watch for another lady. Was it possible, after all, that he had come for birth of Dorset? The latter had acted on the assumption to the extent of appearing at an hour when she'd never showed herself to ordinary mortals, and Lily, for the moment, saw no way of putting her in the wrong. It did not occur to her that Seldin might have been actuated merely by the desire to spend a Sunday out of town. Women never learned to dispense with the sentimental motive and their judgments of men. But Lily was not easily disconcerted. Competition put her on her medal, and she reflected that Seldin's coming, if it did not declare him to be still in Mrs. Dorset's toils, showed him to be so completely free from them that he was not afraid of her proximity. These thoughts so engaged her that she fell into a gate hardly likely to carry her to church before the sermon, and, at length, having passed from the gardens to the woodpath beyond, so far forgot her intention as to sink into a rustic seat at a bend of the walk. The spot was charming, and Lily was not insensible to the charm, or to the fact that her presence enhanced it. But she was not accustomed to the taste the joys of solitude, except in company, and the combination of a handsome girl and a romantic scene struck her as too good to be wasted. No one, however, appeared to profit by the opportunity, and after a half hour of fruitless waiting she rose and wandered on. She felt a stailing sense of fatigue as she walked. The sparkle had died out of her, and the taste of life was stale on her lips. She hardly knew what she had been seeking, or why the failure to find it had so blotted the light from her sky. She was only aware of a vague sense of failure of an inner isolation deeper than the loneliness about her. Her footsteps flagged, and she stood gazing listlessly ahead, digging the ferny edge of the path with the tip of her sunshade. As she did so, a step sounded behind her, and she saw Selden at her side. How fast you walk, he remarked. I thought I should never catch up with you. She answered gaily. You must be quite breathless. I've been sitting under that tree for an hour. Waiting for me, I hope, he rejoined, and she said with a vague laugh. Well, waiting to see if you would come. I seized the distinction, but I don't mind it, since doing the one involved doing the other. But weren't you sure that I should come? If I waited long enough, but you see, I had only a limited time to give to the experiment. Why, limited, limited by luncheon? No, by my other engagement. Your engagement to go to church with Muriel and Hilda? No, but to come home from church with another person. Ah, I see, I might have known you were fully provided with alternatives, and is the other person coming home this way? Lily laughed again. That's just what I don't know, and to find out it is my business to get to church before the service is over. Exactly, and it is my business to prevent your doing so, in which case the other person, peaked by your absence, will form the desperate resolve of driving back in the omnibus. Lily received this with fresh appreciation. His nonsense was like the bubbling of her inner mood. Is that what you would do in such an emergency? She inquired, seldom looked at her with solemnity. I am here to prove to you, he cried, what I am capable of doing in an emergency. Walking in a mile and an hour, you must own that the omnibus would be quicker. Ah, but will he find you in the end? That's the only test of success. They looked at each other, with the same luxury of enjoyment that they had felt in exchanging absurdities over his tea-table. But suddenly Lily's face changed, and she said, Well, if it is, he has succeeded. Selden, following her glance, perceived a party of people advancing toward them from the farther bend of the path. Lady Cressida had evidently insisted on walking home, and the rest of the church-goers had thought it their duty to accompany her. Lily's companion looked rapidly from one to the other of the two men of the party. Whether all, walking respectfully at Lady Cressida's side with his little side-long look of nervous attention, and Percy Grice bringing up the rear with Mrs. Weatherall and the Trenors. Ah, now I see why you were getting up your Americana, Selden exclaimed, with a note of the freest admiration. But the blush with which the sally was received checked whatever amplifications he had meant to give it. That Lily Bart should object to being bantered about her suitors, or even about her means of attracting them, was so new to Selden that he had a momentary flash of surprise which led up a number of possibilities. But she rose gallantly to the defense of her confusion, by saying, as its object approached, That was why I was waiting for you, to thank you for having given me so many points. Ah, you can hardly do justice to the subject in such a short time, said Selden, as the Trenor girls caught sight of Miss Bart, and while she signaled a response to their boisterous greeting he added quickly, Won't you devote your afternoons to it? You know I must be off tomorrow morning. We'll take a walk, and you can thank me at your leisure. End of Book 1, Chapter 5 Book 1, Chapter 6 of The House of Merth by Edith Wharton This Libervox recording is in the public domain, reading by Bologna Times. The afternoon was perfect. A deeper stillness possessed the air, and the glitter of the American autumn was tempered by a haze which diffused the brightness without dulling it. In the woody hollows of the park there was already a faint chill, but as the ground rose the air grew lighter, and ascending the long slopes beyond the high road Lily and her companion reached a zone of lingering summer. The path wound across a meadow with scattered trees, then it dipped into a lane plumbed with astors and purpling sprays of bramble. Wents through the light quiver of ash leaves the country unrolled itself in pastoral distances. Higher up the lane showed thickening tufts of fern and of the creeping glossy verdure of shaded slopes. Trees began to overhang it, and the shade deepened to the chuckered dusk of a beech-grove. The bowls of the trees stood well apart, with only a light feathering of undergrowth. The path wound along the edge of the wood, now and then looking out on a sunlit pasture or on an orchard spangled with fruit. Lily had no real intimacy with nature, but she had a passion for the appropriate and could be keenly as sensitive to a scene which was the fitting background of her own sensations. The landscape outspread below her seemed an enlargement of her present mood, and she found something of herself and its calmness, its breadth, its long, free reaches. On the nearer slopes the sugar maples wavered like pyres of light. Lower down was a massing of gray orchards, and here and there the lingering green of an oak-grove. Two or three red farmhouses dozed under the apple trees, and the white wood-inspire of a village church showed beyond the shoulder of the hill, while far below in a haze of dust the high road ran between the fields. Let us sit here, Seldon suggested, as they reached an open ledge of rock, above which the beaches rose deeply between mossy boulders. Lily dropped down on the rock, glowing with her long climb. She sat quiet, her lips parted by the stress of the ascent, her eyes wandering peacefully over the broken ranges of the landscape. Seldon stretched himself on the grass at her feet, tilting his hat against the level sun rays and clasping his hands behind his head, which rusted against the side of the rock. He had no wish to make her talk. Her quick breathing silence seemed a part of the general hush and harmony of things. In his own mind there was only a lazy sense of pleasure, veiling the sharp edges of sensation as the September haze veiled the scene at their feet. But Lily, though her attitude was as calm as his, was throbbing inwardly with a rush of thoughts. There were in her, at the moment, two beings, one drawing deep breaths of freedom and exhilaration, the other gasping for air in a little black prison house of fears. But gradually the captive's gasps grew fainter, or the other paid less heed to them. The horizon expanded, the air grew stronger, and the free spirit quivered for flight. She could not herself have explained the sense of buoyancy which seemed to lift and swing her above the sun-suffused world at her feet. Was it love, she wondered, or a mere fortuitous combination of happy thoughts and sensations? How much of it was owing to the spell of the perfect afternoon, the scent of the fading woods, the thought of the dullness she had fled from? Lily had no definite experience by which to test the quality of her feelings. She had several times been in love with fortunes or careers, but only once with a man. That was years ago, when she first came out, and had been smitten with a romantic passion for a young gentleman named Herbert Melson, who had blue eyes and a little wave in his hair. Mr. Melson, who was possessed of no other negotiable securities, had hastened to employ these in capturing the eldest Miss Van Osberg. Since then he had grown stout and wheezy, and was given to telling anecdotes about his children. If Lily recalled this early emotion, it was not to compare it with that which now possessed her. The only point of comparison was the sense of likeness, of emancipation, which she remembered feeling, in the whirl of a waltz, or the seclusion of a conservatory, during the brief course of her youthful romance. She had not known again till to-day that likeness, that glow of freedom, but now it was something more than a blind groping of the blood. The peculiar charm of her feeling for Seldon was that she understood it. She could put her finger on every link of the chain that was drawing them together. Though his popularity was of the quiet kind, felt rather than actively expressed among his friends, she had never mistaken his inconspicuousness for obscurity. His reputed cultivation was generally regarded as a slight obstacle to easy intercourse, but Lily, who prided herself on her broad-minded recognition of literature, and always carried an omar-kayam in her traveling bag, was attracted by this attribute, which she felt would have had its distinction in an older society. It was, moreover, one of his gifts to look his part, to have a height which lifted his head above the crowd, and the keenly mottled dark features which, in a land of amorphous types, gave him the air of belonging to a more specialized race, of carrying the impress of a concentrated past. Expansive persons found him a little dry, and very young girls thought him sarcastic, but this air of friendly aloofness, as far removed as possible from any assertion of personal advantage, was the quality which piqued Lily's interest. Everything about him accorded with the fastidious element in her taste, even to the light irony with which he surveyed what seemed to her most sacred. She admired him most of all, perhaps, for being able to convey as distinct a sense of superiority as the richest man she had ever met. It was the unconscious prolongation of this thought which led her to say, presently, with a laugh, I have broken two engagements for you today. How many have you broken for me? None, said Seldon, calmly. My only engagement at Bellamond was with you. She glanced down at him, faintly smiling. Did you really come to Bellamond to see me? Of course I did. Her look deepened meditatively. Why, is she murmured, with an accent which took all tinge of coquetry from the question? Because you're such a wonderful spectacle, I always like to see what you are doing. How do you know what I should be doing if you were not here? Seldon smiled. I don't flatter myself that my coming has deflected your course of action by a hair's breadth. That's absurd, since, if you were not here, I could obviously not be taking a walk with you. No, but your taking a walk with me is only another way of making use of your material. You are an artist, and I happen to be the bit of color you are using today. It's a part of your cleverness to be able to produce premeditated effects extemporaneously. Lily smiled also. His words were too acute not to strike her sense of humor. It was true that she meant to use the accident of his presence as part of a very definite effect, or that, at least, was the secret pretext. She had found for breaking her promise to walk with Mr. Grice. She had sometimes been accused of being too eager. Even Judy Treanor had warned her to go slowly. Well, she would not be too eager in this case. She would give her suitor a longer taste of suspense. Where duty and inclination jumped together, it was not in Lily's nature to hold them asunder. She had excused herself from the walk on the plea of a headache. The horrid headache, which, in the morning, had prevented her from venturing to church. Her appearance at luncheon justified the excuse. She looked languid, full of a suffering sweetness. She carried a scent-bottle in her hand. Mr. Grice was new to such manifestations. He wondered, rather nervously, if she were delicate, having far reaching fears about the future of his progeny. But sympathy won the day, and he besought her, not to expose herself. He always connected the outer air with ideas of exposure. Lily had received his sympathy with languid gratitude, urging him, since she would be such poor company, to join the rest of the party, who, after luncheon, were starting in automobiles on a visit to the Ivan Osbergs at Peekskill. Mr. Grice was touched by her disinterestedness, and, to escape from the threatened vacuity of the afternoon, had taken her advice and departed mournfully in a dusthood and goggles. As the motor-car plunged down the avenue, she smiled at his resemblance to a baffled beetle. Selden had watched her maneuvers with lazy amusement. She had made no reply to his suggestion that they should spend the afternoon together. But as her plan unfolded itself, he felt fairly confident of being included in it. The house was empty, when at length he heard her step on the stair and strolled out of the billiard-room to join her. She had on a hat and walking-dress, and the dogs were bounding at her feet. I thought, after all, the air might do me good, she explained, and he agreed that so simple a remedy was worth trying. The excursionists would be gone at least four hours. Lily and Selden had the whole afternoon before them, and the sense of leisure and safety gave the last touch of lightness to her spirit. With so much time to talk, and no definite object to be led up to, she could taste the rare joys of mental vagrancy. She felt so free from ulterior motives that she took up his charge with a touch of resentment. I don't know, she said, why you are always accusing me of premeditation. I thought you confessed to it. You told me the other day that you had to follow a certain line, and, if one does a thing at all, it is a merit to do it thoroughly. If you think that a girl who has no one to think for her is obliged to think for herself, I am quite willing to accept the imputation, but you must find me a dismal kind of person, if you suppose that I never yield to an impulse. But I don't suppose that. Haven't I told you that your genius lies in converting impulses into intentions? My genius, she echoed with a sudden note of wariness. Is there any final test of genius but success, and I certainly haven't succeeded? Selden pushed his hat back and took a side glance at her. Success, what is success? I shall be interested to have your definition. Success, she hesitated, why, to get as much as one can, out of life, I suppose, it's a relative quality, after all. Isn't that your idea of it? My idea of it? God forbid. He sat up with a sudden energy, resting his elbows on his knees and staring out upon the mellow fields. My idea of success, he said, is personal freedom. Freedom? Freedom from worries? From everything, from money, from poverty, from ease and anxiety, from all the material accidents, to keep a kind of Republic of the Spirit. That's what I call success. She leaned forward with a responsive flash. I know, I know, it's strange, but that's just what I've been feeling today. He met her eyes with the latent sweetness of his. Is the feeling so rare with you? He said. She blushed a little under his gaze. You think me horribly sordid, don't you? But perhaps it's rather that I never had any choice. There was no one, I mean, to tell me about the Republic of the Spirit. There never is. It's a country one has to find the way to, oneself. But I should never have found my way there if you hadn't told me. Ah, there are signposts, but one has to know how to read them. Well, I have known, I have known, she cried with a glow of eagerness. Whenever I see you, I find myself spelling out a letter of the sign. And yesterday, last evening at dinner, I suddenly saw a little way into your Republic. Zoldan was still looking at her, but with a changed eye. Hitherto he had found, in her presence and her talk, the aesthetic amusement which a reflective man is apt to seek in desultory intercourse with pretty women. His attitude had been one of admiring spectatorship, and he would have been almost sorry to detect in her any emotional weakness which would interfere with the fulfillment of her aims. But now the hint of this weakness had become the most interesting thing about her. He had come on her that morning in a moment of disarray. Her face had been pale and altered, and that diminution of her beauty had lent her a poignant charm. That is how she looks when she is alone, had been his first thought. And the second was to note in her the change which his coming produced. It was the danger point of their intercourse that he could not doubt the spontaneity of her liking. From whatever angle he viewed their dawning intimacy he could not see it as a part of her scheme of life, and to be the unforeseen element in a career so accurately planned was stimulating even to a man who had renounced sentimental experiments. Well, he said, did it make you want to see more? Are you going to become one of us? He had drawn out his cigarettes as he spoke, and she reached her hand toward the case. Oh, do give me one. I haven't smoked for days. Why such an unnatural abstinence? Everybody smokes at Bellamond. Yes, but it is not considered becoming in a Jean-Phil a Marier, and at the present moment I am a Jean-Phil a Marier. Ah, then I'm afraid we can't let you into the Republic. Why not? Is it a celibate order? Not in the least, though I'm bound to say there are not many married people in it, but you will marry someone very rich, and it's as hard for rich people to get into as the kingdom of heaven. That's unjust, I think, because as I understand it, one of the conditions of citizenship is not to think too much about money, and the only way not to think about money is to have a great deal of it. You might as well say that the only way not to think about air is to have enough to breathe. That is true enough in a sense, but your lungs are thinking about the air, if you are not. And so it is with your rich people. They may not be thinking of money, but they're breathing it all the while. Take them into another element, and see how they squirm and gasp. Lily sat gazing absently through the blue rings of her cigarette smoke. It seems to me, she said at length, that you spend a good deal of your time in the element you disapprove of. Salden received this thrust without discomposure. Yes, but I have tried to remain amphibious. It's all right, as long as one's lungs can work in another air. The real alchemy consists in being able to turn gold back again into something else, and that's the secret that most of your friends have lost. Lily mused. Don't you think, she rejoined after a moment, that the people who find fault with society are too apt to regard it as an end, and not a means. Just as the people who despise money speak as if its only use were to be kept in bags and gloated over. Isn't it fair to look at them both as opportunities, which may be used either stupidly or intelligently, according to the capacity of the user? That is certainly the same view, but the queer thing about society is that the people who regard it as an end are those who are in it, and not the critics on the fence. It's just the other way with most shows. The audience may be under the illusion, but the actors know that real life is on the other side of the footlights. The people who take society as an escape from work are putting it to its proper use, but when it becomes the thing worked for, it distorts all the relations of life. Seldon raised himself on his elbow. Good heavens! he went on. I don't underrate the decorative side of life. It seems to me the sense of splendor has justified itself by what it has produced. The worst of it is that so much human nature is used up in the process. If we're all the raw stuff of the cosmic effects, one would rather be the fire that tempers a sword than the fish that dyes a purple cloak, and a society like ours waste such good material in producing its little patch of purple. Look at a boy like Ned Silberton. He's really too good to be used to refurbish anybody's social shabbiness. There's a lad just setting out to discover the universe. Isn't it a pity he should end by finding it in Mrs. Fisher's drawing room? Ned is a dear boy, and I hope he will keep his illusions long enough to write some nice poetry about them. But do you think it is only in society that he is likely to lose them? Seldon answered her with a shrug. Why do we call all our generous ideas illusions and the mean ones truths? Isn't it a sufficient condemnation of society to find oneself accepting such phraseology? I very nearly acquired the jargon at Silberton's age, and I know how names can alter the color of beliefs. She had never heard him speak with such energy of affirmation. His habitual touch was that of the eclectic who lightly turns over in compares, and she was moved by his sudden glimpse into the laboratory where his faiths were formed. Ah, you are as bad as the other sectarians, she exclaimed. Why do you call your Republic a Republic? It is a closed corporation, and you create arbitrary objections in order to keep people out. It is not my Republic, if it were, I should have a coup d'etat and sit you on the throne. Whereas in reality you think I can never even get my foot across the threshold. Oh, I understand what you mean. You despise my ambitions. You think them unworthy of me. Selden smiled, but not ironically. Well, isn't that a tribute? I think them quite worthy of most of the people who live by them. She had turned a gaze on him gravely. But isn't it possible that, if I had the opportunities of these people, I might make a better use of them? Money stands for all kinds of things. Its purchasing power isn't limited to diamonds and motor-cars. Not in the least, you might expiate your enjoyment of them by founding a hospital. But if you think they are what I should really enjoy, you must think my ambitions are good enough for me. Selden met this appeal with a laugh. Ha! Ah, my dear Miss Bart, I am not divine providence to guarantee you're enjoying the things you are trying to get. Then the best you can say for me that after struggling to get them I probably shan't like them? She drew in a deep breath. What a miserable future you foresee for me. Well, have you never forsaken it for yourself? The slow color rose to her cheek, and not a blush of excitement, but drawn from the deep wells of feeling. It was as if the effort of her spirit had produced it. Often and often, she said, but it looks so much darker when you show it to me. He made no answer to this exclamation, and for a while they sat silent, while something throbbed between them in the wide quiet of the air. But suddenly she turned on him with a kind of vehemence. Why do you do this to me? She cried. Why do you make the things I have chosen seem hateful to me, if you have nothing to give me instead? The words roused seldom from the musing fit into which he had fallen. He himself did not know why he had led their talk along such lines. It was the last use he would have imagined himself making of an afternoon solitude with Miss Bart. But it was one of those moments when neither seemed to speak deliberately, when an indwelling voice in each called to the other across unsounded depths of feeling. No, I have nothing to give you instead, he said, setting up and turning so that he faced her. If I had, it should be yours, you know. She received this abrupt declaration in a way even stranger than the manner of its making. She dropped her face on her hands and he saw that for a moment she wept. It was for a moment only, however. For when he leaned nearer and drew down her hands with a gesture less passionate than grave, she turned on him of face, softened, but not disfigured by emotion, and he said to himself, somewhat cruelly, that even her weeping was an art. The reflection steadied his voice as he asked, between pity and irony, Isn't it natural that I should try to belittle all the things I can't offer you? Her face brightened at this, but she drew her hand away, not with a gesture of coquetry, but as though renouncing something to which she had no claim. But you belittle me, don't you? She returned gently, and being so sure that they are the only things I care for? Selden felt an inner start, but it was only the last quiver of his Egoism, almost at once he answered quite simply, but you do care for them, don't you? And no wishing of mine can alter that. He had so completely ceased to consider how far this might carry him, that he had a distinct sense of disappointment when she turned on him a face sparkling with derision. Ah! she cried, for all your fine phrases you're really as great a coward as I am, for you wouldn't have made one of them if you hadn't been so sure of my answer. The shock of this retort had the effect of crystallizing Selden's wavering intentions. I am not so sure of your answer, he said quietly, and I do you the justice to believe that you are not either. It was her turn to look at him with surprise, and after a moment. Do you want to marry me? She asked. He broke into a laugh. No, I don't want to, but perhaps I should, if you did. That's what I told you. You're so sure of me that you can amuse yourself with experiments. She drew back the hand he had regained, and sat looking down on him sadly. I am not making experiments, it returned. Or if I am, it is not on you, but on myself. I don't know what effect they are going to have on me, but if marrying you is one of them, I will take the risk. She smiled faintly. It would be a great risk, certainly I have never concealed from you how great. Ah! it's you who are the coward, exclaimed. She had risen, and he stood facing her, with his eyes on hers. The soft isolation of the falling day enveloped them. They seemed lifted into a finer air. All the exquisite influences of the hour trembled in their veins, and drew them to each other, as the loosened leaves were drawn to the earth. It's you who are the coward, he repeated, catching her hands in his. She leaned on him for a moment, as if with a drop of tired wings. He felt as though her heart were beating rather with the stress of a long flight than the thrill of new distances. Then, drawing back with a little smile of warning, I shall look hideous and doubly close, but I can trim my own hats, she declared. They stood silent for a while after this, smiling at each other, like adventurous children who have climbed to a forbidden height from which they discover a new world. The actual world at their feet was veiling itself in dimness, and across the valley a clear moon rose in the denser blue. Suddenly they heard a remote sound, like the hum of a giant insect, and following the high road, which wound whiter through the surrounding twilight, a black object rushed across their vision. Lily started from her attitude of absorption. Her smile faded, and she began to move toward the lane. I had no idea it was so late. We shall not be back till after dark, she said, almost impatiently. Zeldin was looking at her with surprise. It took him a moment to regain his usual view of her. Then he said, with an uncontrollable note of dryness, that it was not one of our party, the motor was going the other way. I know, I know, she paused, and he saw her reddened through the twilight. But I told them I was not well, that I should not go out. Let us go down, she murmured. Zeldin continued to look at her. Then he drew his cigarette case from his pocket, and slowly lit a cigarette. It seemed to him necessary, at that moment, to proclaim by some habitual gesture of this sort. His recovered hold on the actual. He had an almost purile wish to let his companions see that, their flight over. He had landed on his feet. She waited while the spark flickered under his curved palm. Then he held out the cigarettes to her. She took one with an unsteady hand, and, putting it to her lips, leaned forward to draw her light from his. In the indistinctness, the little red gleam lit up the lower part of her face, and he saw her mouth tremble into a smile. Were you serious, she asked, with an odd thrill of gaiety, which you might have caught up, in haste, from a heap of stock inflections, without having time to select the just note. Zeldin's voice was under better control. Why not, he returned. You see, I took no risks in being so. And as she continued to stand before him, a little pale under the retort, he added quickly. Let us go down.