 Hey Tribe, so it may not be a secret to some of you that throughout my life I had a lot of challenges and initially it was in my teens when I realized I don't want to do regular studying which is a huge thing in my country like you in my country at least back in the day you had to study even if you didn't want to or you didn't know what you better choose some random crap and you study but there there's no alternative especially if you have a high enough IQ and unfortunately I did have a high enough IQ and then at that day I realized that's not my path it was a long struggle maybe I'll tell about that struggle in a another video it's actually a great story but then I decided that I want to become an IQ instructor a martial arts instructor and it was a huge battle with my parents I had to convince them that that's the right choice and again long story short nobody believed in me in the beginning that I am going to make it or that's a good idea and it took me eight years from the day I thought and came up with the idea that I want to be an IQ instructor it took about eight years for me to become one and then eventually nobody said anything about that everybody said you know what you're actually right or they just speak silent then I started my YouTube channel the martial arts journey which now is a big thing a pretty big thing I think and initially I saw the vision that it's gonna be big but nobody believed in me again everybody said like what the heck are you doing this is you know this is crap this is nonsense and now I don't get that that much anymore and it's interesting enough that right now I am back in that period again what you could say I just finished listening to an audio book really good one a short but great book called the dip by Seth Cody a very good marketing expert if not the best in the world and he specifically spoke about that whenever you want to do something exceptional whenever you go on to a path of doing something big something unusual you will have to face the dip like a long period where things won't work out nobody will believe in you and you will kind of feel like it's hopeless like there's it's not going anywhere and you have to live through that to make it to the other end and yeah to finally achieve it and I've been through that already I can just mention to you I've been there a couple of times through my kid okay you're then through my YouTube channel but I don't think that I will get there again and when I started my news project called the journey I didn't expect as much backlash and I have to admit I made some big mistakes I started from the wrong and I should have started from small things and then developed big things and then I went the opposite way kind of told everyone about the big final results that I want to see and achieve and it was too big it was too vague and people freaked out especially because I also connected with that with a certain outfit long story if you don't know but a long story short again I am facing a dip again and finally I'm starting to see some moments of success where I'm saying oh you know this is gonna work but the beginning of it which started well right now it's April 2020 it's I started announcing all of this at the beginning of the year so very beginning of January so it's been about four months now that I'm on this journey and it was way bumpier than expected I thought that my achievements will help me already kind of go through this journey on an easier way or kind of in other words my influence the fact that I already have a hundred thousand followers plus on YouTube and there's a lot of people who are interested in my martial arts journey I thought naturally they'll be interested in this journey as well and they weren't probably do a lot because I freaked them out so it's kind of my fault too I didn't go through this in the best approach but also too that's a lesson that's the wonderful thing about that it's because if I wouldn't have screwed up the beginning of taking this next step in the journey then I I wouldn't have I wouldn't have faced these difficult times that I have to go through now and I wouldn't have learned all these lessons I was forced to remember again what it means to start over what it means to do something that people don't believe in you doing and what it starts what it means to start a new YouTube channel when you're not getting those views and you're not getting those likes just because you're already out there and and it's so right now I can really appreciate it because those lessons are so valuable because I remember again what it means to start from ground zero and for me it's so important to support other people in their journeys to inspire people and motivate them to to get through the dip and just to live their dreams and although it may sound a bit naive but but honestly that's what I'm really passionate about and for me to go through this journey again and to remember so vividly so clearly what huge challenges it takes to start something new it's great because now I can relate again much more with people who are going to go through this path as well but now the reason I'm making this video and what this video is about I'm trying to call it the hard lessons I learned lessons I learned the hard way so this is this meaning that if this will become into a serious this is episode one but if it will turn into serious of the episodes I will be sharing what I learned through direct experience because again as I criticized in one of my videos sometimes we read something in a book and we're like so hyped and excited this sounds so good and we go and tell the whole world about it and then we expect the whole world to believe it just because we find it cool but until we go for a process of actual application until we actually deal with situations where we apply that knowledge that knowledge beforehand is kind of not that useful it doesn't have that same weight so in this series in a certain format which I will introduce to you just a moment in this series I decided to share the specific lessons I learned the hard way or in other words through direct experience the difficulties I bumped into and what methods I sought out and that helped me so the the way I will do this I have my laptop in front of me so you see it here and I started with this picture not without reason it's because this is actually the let me show you this is actually the desktop picture I have a rotating desktop but but luckily this is this is the one right now and this is a thing I did already a number of times where back in the day when I was struggling with my initial like you know journey just trying to become an instructor and I needed some inspiration I needed some reminders that I will make it through I would make a desktop wallpaper with a symbol which would inspire me which would remind me what what motivates me and what I'm about and give me kind of that inner strength but I would also do this I would add some quotes or ideas that resonated with me that I found through that challenge and that kind of really gave me that motivation that sense of this is what I need to work on this is what I need to focus on this would this is what is going to get me through this and and so I would put it on that cool wallpaper and then every time I would see it I would look at it I would read in that would remind me what I need to focus on again to get through this dip through this challenge for this difficulty and this I haven't done this for years because my life was pretty good I was you know having a successful like kiddo school for for seven years then my YouTube channel switched the dojo I mean I dropped the dojo but then the YouTube channel picked up and then I had good views and and so my life was I had my challenges but it was growing quite smoothly and now and back into the space of where I struggle again I need to overcome obstacles and that's one more time when I decided I need to do this again kind of spontaneously came up that that desire to use symbolism and then specific discoveries to motivate myself so what I'm going to do in this series it's a long-winded intro but I believe it's available one and also to I'm actually doing this in one take consciously because that's my new practice and I find it awesome but coming back to the video I will be taking the specific wallpaper that I made and the quotes that I used and already that that it happened it's not like oh I just did it today and I'm gonna share it with you but but it's like I used it actually to support myself and I will share my deepest discoveries and and challenges and how I overcame them recently with you using that wallpaper as a reference because it was an actual process that that went through me wasn't I wasn't doing it for someone else I was actually doing it for myself so let's start with this so I'm gonna look at this wallpaper I'm gonna I will specifically bring it up bring it up to you like I will make it I will put on all the screen obviously you're this is editing stuff and you're already seeing that and I will point out to what I'm looking so so first of all you're seeing the Batman and to some of you who know me from my videos or personally it's it's not a secret that I'm a huge fan of Batman and that's a story that deserves an episode of itself and probably I'll make them the feature of sharing why I'm so in love with Batman but to not make this video too long I'll just share the basics there was a certain period where I was struggling in my kind of desire passion to become an Ikea instructor and I that's when I discovered the character of Batman I watched Batman begins and and that story really resonated with me and that was when I realized that and I dug into the methodology mythology sorry of Batman reading the graphic novels reading the stories about him and I learned that you know he doesn't have superpowers obviously he's rich but as Christopher Nolan the director of Batman begins in the Dark Neutrology said Batman's greatest superpower is his super willpower or super discipline and and that really resonated with me that that it's what makes Batman special or the character of the mythology is that he he's very in a way he's very tunnel visioned which gives pros and cons but but he's all about achieving your purpose no matter what he's all about 100% dedication 20% education where he is kind of pushing out everything out the window which is not serving his purpose his all life is about living his purpose and and there's a story element of Batman where he struggles to to be become a crank flater and he goes for seven years to travel the world and and to learn all the skills possible so he would be able to achieve his highest goal and and that just inspires me so much that that that metaphor that that mythology and that symbol of complete devotion and whenever I see Batman whenever I see that sign it reminds me that I need to completely devote myself to this there I should not look backwards I should not look sideways I should be totally dedicated to this I should devote my 100% to this and I should learn everything that I need to learn about this and I should push through and there's some great Batman graphic knowledge actually I have some here and my room of my parents place there's some really good ones which is Batman year one that's probably the best one but there's also Batman the Dark Knight returns and and these ones again I don't want to make go too long into the details on this one but Batman year one is the story of Bruce Wayne becoming Batman or or how he starts and he gets into trouble and he gets like beaten up and he doesn't know what to do he's kind of lost and confused and try stuff and some stuff doesn't work it's really awesome it's really inspiring and well written by Frank Miller a legendary graphic novel guy but also his the other one which is again one of my favorites is where Batman is old and he is struggling to come back as Batman and the community local community of Gotham they're not supporting him and and a lot of people are getting him crap here he's old and he's struggling with you know his heart and like his heart is giving up on him like physically and he has knee problems and so on and it's such an incredible story but the thing is the Dark Knight that that whole again storytelling is all about him not giving crap about failure not giving up even though you know the world thinks he's crazy and things he's doing nonsense he just keeps on pushing through having that tunnel vision so believe it or not this is my short version of telling why a lot Batman but I hope you're starting to see the picture so that every time I see that symbol it reminds me fuck everything just push through it you will make it it's important that you become your best self is that you do not give up against adversity that you keep on going you keep on owning it until you become your version of the Batman so that's why on my desktop you see Batman this time because I was having a difficult time and struggling thing also how do I make through this how do I push through this dip and I just had to see Batman this and you can see this version of Batman he's kind of this powerful zone and kind of a bit a bit secretive and kind of a bit symbolic like it's not a clear figure and that that just get that strength of fuck yeah you know I will own this and then you also see a couple of phrases so here's doubt is the mind killer doubt is the greatest sin and again this video has become a bit longer than I expected so I'll see the short versions of my answer but the short for the short story is that years ago I was reading Dune I read a nice book I really liked it only read the first part but it was really incredible very inspiring to you and and there's a phrase that comes up in the book a few times I think it's it says fear is the mind killer so so the idea is that if you allow fear to hold yourself then the brain doesn't work as well kind of a short version but I also came to my own version of it is doubt is the mind killer that you should not give into doubts because doubts are there but you shouldn't give into them and because they kill your brain you're not seeing the real picture anymore when you have doubts and paralyze is you so I should not give in to doubt also doubt is the greatest sin that's a quote actually from the Bhagavad Gita a sacred religious kind of text but I think it goes beyond religion and it depends also on the the way it was translated but it's an Indian book from a long long time ago again it deserves another episode but basically it's a guy in Kolar Juna talking to a god digger Krishna and they have a dialogue about it's kind of what it means to just serve your purpose and and one of the phrases there is that that you shouldn't have doubts and actually now I just remember as I spoke so it's connected but doubt is the greatest sin it's I once read that that's what Buddha said the Buddha Siddhartha Gautama he said that doubt is the greatest sin that you should not doubt and and that phrase again there's a long story there's so many good stories I should start telling them on video but there is one moment in my life when I remembered I saw clearly that I should not believe in doubts doubts are just noise and and the doubt is a sin but that's that's why I like that powerful phrase when we go that doubt is the greatest sin in terms that you should not doubt and that doesn't mean you shouldn't you know consider whether this is good or whether this is bad but doubt is beyond that doubt is just kind of going back and forth in circles and never coming to conclusion you should you know be smart and consider with if this is the right way make you know some adjustments but doubt itself you should be out of the window you shouldn't use doubt as a mechanism as a tool so that's why I like the phrase doubt is the greatest and that was because I was having doubts when I started this new journey so I had I want to make sure that I don't give into doubts and those two phrases they kind of allowed me to to keep it pushing through and not remember to not listen to them the next one is no great achievements came without resistance that's a bit inspired by the the book the dip of Seth Godin but also I know that from experience that that if you start sending you unusual and big resistance will come and bigger it is the more resistance you will have it's not a bad sign it's just sending you to push through and that's why I wrote this down for myself in kind of in other words that if you're having a lot of resistance there's a big chance you're doing something right I experienced that before and I used that phrase to remind myself and then a couple more I have the right to my attempts and failures there is nothing I should be ashamed about about that and also to I just get to give you a pointer actually all of this I didn't write it down in one day initially I started with it that is my killer that is the greatest sin and then some days later I would I would get get that insight that feeling of oh this idea is kind of giving me the strength to keep on and then I would write down no resistance and then sometime later and this one another one came down and so I was using this actively I'm still using this on my desktop but actively I was using it for like three months that's a whole journey packed into this picture but yeah so a couple more I have the right to my attempts failures there's nothing I should be ashamed about a lot of people were giving me crap when I started this new journey and they were saying you know you're going crazy this is a midlife crisis and again I understand why people thought that but but that was hard you know when the hundred people say to you that that same negative comment starts getting your head and I started feeling a bit paralyzed when I was publishing new footage new content on my new channel I was I started to feel like I'm afraid to push publish something that people will judge me for and I realized it's starting to paralyze me because people are expecting a lot from me especially I guess because I showed some good things on my initial channel and people were some people were let down that I'm not publishing any more videos on that so they wanted me to keep keep doing something as great but I realized I need to fail and I embrace failure I think it's an awesome thing to embrace failure it's a great method but obviously you know we're still human and failures do you scare us it's kind of natural for human beings but but I realized that I shouldn't be ashamed of my failures and there were some moments where I would publish a new video you know like I tried any video I tried myself to curse myself for 10 days it's kind of unusual you know it was a new video was a new new experiment and I knew some people will give me the eye and be like what the heck are you doing you're crazy and I was a bit of ashamed of that feeling and I realized look eventually the realization that made me stronger was the realization that I it's my process I need to do this it's my thing fuck off everyone you know it's my failures and and leave them to me like if you don't want to watch those videos don't watch them I shouldn't feel ashamed about my explorations I shouldn't be ashamed about the stuff I fail that it's I need it if I don't fail if I don't allow myself to fail it don't take risks I will never achieve anything beyond my current potential that's that's how we expand that's how we grow and and I realized that I need to put it in my head that I have the right to fail I have the right to experiment nobody can forbid me from doing that and and I shouldn't be ashamed of it and fuck everyone so so that was a powerful powerful moment and the last one everything that I will learn here will be useful to someone else in the future including myself that's another motivating force that I used already in the past but I kind of really remembered it and then this time and this challenging time and that was I need another video about this if you're interested you can watch it it's like a 10-minute video where I call it how I motivate myself there's some other texts next to it but but that's kind of the basic the basis of it and I speak about the how it was always important for me to feel that I'm serving others to feel that that I'm a part of a bigger whole and that's like an actual belief that I have it's not an idea that I do feel like I'm a part of the whole and that I need to serve I need to be useful I need to put in value to everyone I need to give back to the world because the world has given me so much you know this body it's a whole another story but the essence of it is this body these clothes everything was given to me this life air everything and I need to kind of serve back and give back for forgetting this and and I did realize in the past that if I want to be able to give much I need to experience a lot I need to go through shit I need to overcome challenges that others haven't yet I need to climb the mountain and experience stuff which others haven't yet so I could look from there and say look no I saw the steps I know what you're going through I've been there and and maybe these discoveries that I made will help you and so so so that's what allows me to have that courage to experiment to try things to to not give into fear and and yeah that's that's kind of how I motivate myself on another level by realizing that sorry I was talking a long time without making a rake so I'm about to be done though yeah so let me get back to that point so yeah that my troubles and the troubles I'm going through is not only for myself but it's also for others that I need to keep on pushing through that I need to keep challenging myself and and go through shit and develop and develop myself and to overcome it and learn from it because whatever I will learn that's what will make me valuable that's what will make me useful to others because that's that's a real value and that's kind of what this video is about and that's kind of what I'm sharing sharing here so so yeah that kind of covers my my thing my my desktop it's a long episode it's much longer than I usually make but I feel this is important and this is like useful stuff but do let me know what do you think about it all what do you think about the city what do you think about this kind of format as you know I'm experimenting and trying things and and I have my beliefs I have my knowledge as well so I make my own decisions but I always appreciate hearing your feedback if it means something to you it always means so much to hear that from me because I will keep doing this one way or another but to know that you know the thing touched you makes me even more motivated to continue so so let me know what you think about this format and I have already I'm working on another desktop for myself the challenges I'm only coming right now it'll take a while until I will go through that process and then I can then digest it and share it but I'm thinking about doing that there's a lot of stories I remember while talking to you that I think are super good and super valuable some of them are like when I was traveling in India talking to monks and and some then when I was living in an Aikido school in Switzerland and there's some good story but I think yeah just I just realized I probably should put them on video because some people might benefit from them but yeah let me know what you think I really appreciate your feedback don't forget that and I hope you like this video and as also to try it out you know don't hesitate to try out and make a desktop for yourself what symbol inspires you what pushes you to go forward put that on your desktop put on the main phrases do your thing own your life so thank you for sticking through until the very end it's great it spends me honest and sincere time with you and your questioning