 CHAPTER 12 THE ALASKIN This first night and dawn in the herd of his wilderness, with a new import of life gleaming down at him from the mighty peaks of the Chugach and Cannae ranges, marked the beginning of that uplift which drew Alan out of the pit into which he had fallen. He understood now how it was that through many long years his father had worshipped the memory of a woman who had died. It seemed to an infinity echo. Unnumbered times he had seen the miracle of her presence in his father's eyes, and once when they had stood overlooking a sun-filled valley back in the mountains, the elder halt had said, Twenty-seven years ago, the twelfth day of last month, mother went with me through this valley, Alan. Do you see the little bend in the creek with the great rock in the sun? We rested there before you were born. He had spoken of that day as if he had been but yesterday, and Alan recalled the strange happiness in his father's face as he had looked down upon something in the valley which no other but himself could see, and it was happiness, the same strange soul-aking happiness that began to build itself a house close up against the grief in Alan's heart. It would never be a house quite empty. Never again would he be alone. He knew at last it was an undying part of him as it had been a part of his father, clinging to him in sweet pain, encouraging him, pressing gently upon him the beginning of a great faith that somewhere beyond was a place to meet again. In the many days that followed, it grew in him, but in a way no man or woman could see. It was a secret about which he built a wall, setting it apart from that stoical placidity of his nature which some people called indifference. Olaf could see father than others because he had known Alan's father as a brother. It had always been that way with the elder halt, straight, clean, deep breathing, and with a smile on his lips in times of hurt. Olaf had seen him face death like that. He had seen him rise up with apesome courage from the beautiful form that had turned to clay under his eyes and fight forth again into a world burned to ashes, something of that look which he had seen in the eyes of the father he saw in Alan's. In these days, when they nosed their way up the Alaskan coast together, only to himself did Alan speak the name of Maristandish, just as his father had kept Elizabeth Holt's name sacred in his own heart. Olaf, with mildly casual eyes and strong in the possession of memories, observed how much alike they were, but discretion held his tongue, and he said nothing to Alan of many things that ran in his mind. He talked of Siberia, always of Siberia, and did not hurry on the way to Seaward. Alan himself felt no great urge to make haste. The days were soft with a premature breath of summer. The nights were cold and filled with stars. Day after day, mountains hung about them like mighty castles, whose battlements reached up into the cloud draperies of the sky. They kept close to the mainland and among the islands, camping early each evening. Birds were coming northward by the thousand, and each night Olaf's campfire sent up the delicious aroma of flesh pots and roasts. When, at last, they reached Seaward, and the time came for Olaf to turn back, there was an odd blinking in the old Swedes' eyes, and as a final comfort, Alan told him again that the day would probably come when he would go to Siberia with him. After that, he watched the Norden until the little boat was lost in the distance of the sea. Alone, Alan felt once more great a desire to reach his own country, and he was fortunate. Two days after his arrival at Seaward's, the steamer which carried mail and the necessities of life to the string of settlements reaching a thousand miles out into the Pacific, left Resurrection Bay, and he was given passage. Thereafter, the countless islands of the North Pacific drifted behind, while always northward were the gray cliffs of the Alaskan Peninsula, with the rampartid ranges beyond, glistening with glaciers, smoking with occasional volcanoes, and at times so high, their snowy peaks were lost in the clouds. First touching the hatchery at Karolok, and then the canneries at Ujak and Chignik, the mailboat visited the settlements on the island of Unga, and then scourged swiftly the 300 miles to Dutch harbour and Unalaska. Again, he was fortunate. Within a week, he was birthed on a freighter, and on the twelfth day of June, set foot in Gnome. His homecoming was unherald, but the little gray town with its peculiar black shadowings, its sea of stovepipes, and its two solitary brick chimneys brought a lump of joy into his throat as he watched its growing outlines from the small boat that brought him ashore. He could see one of the only two brick chimneys in northern Alaska gleaming in the sun, beyond it, 50 miles away, where the ragged peaks of the Sortulth range, looking as if one might walk to them in half an hour, and over all the world between seemed to hover a misty gloom. But it was where he had lived, where happiness and tragedy and unforgettable memories had come to him, and the welcoming of its frame-buildings, its crooked streets, and what to others might have been ugliness, was a warm and thrilling sing. For there were his people. Here were the men and women who were guarding the northern door of the world, an epic place, filled with strong hearts, courage, and a love of country as inextinguishable as one's love of life. From this drab little place shut out from all the world for half the year, young men and women went down to southern universities, to big cities, to the glamour and lure of outside, but they always came back. Nome called them its loneliness in winter, its gray gloom in springtime, its glory in summer and autumn. It was the breeding place of a new race of men, and they loved it as Alan loved it. To him the black wireless tower meant more than the Statue of Liberty, the three weather-beaten church spires more than the architectural Colosseum of New York and Washington. Beside one of the churches he had played as a boy, he had seen the steeples painted, he had helped make the crooked streets, and his mother had laughed and lived and died here, and his father's footprints had been in the white sands of the beach when tents dotted the shore like gulls. When he stepped ashore, people stared at him and then greeted him. He was unexpected, and the surprise of his arrival added strength to the grip which men's hands gave him. He had not heard voices like theirs down in the states with a gladness in them that was almost excitement. Small boys ran up to his side, and with white men came the eskimo greening and shaking his hands. Word traveled swiftly that Alan Halt had come back from the states. Before the day was over, it was on its way to Shelton and Candle and Kevalik and Kotsibu Sound. Such was the beginning of his homecoming. But ahead of the news of his arrival, Alan walked up Front Street, stopped at Balkis Restaurant for a cup of coffee, and then dropped casually into Lohmann's offices in the Tinbank building. For a week, Alan remained in gnome. Carl Lohmann had arrived a few days before, and his brothers were in from the big ranges of the Coris Peninsula. It had been a good winter and promised to be a tremendously successful summer. The Lohmann herds would exceed 40,000 head when the final figures were in. A hundred other herds were prospering, and the eskimo and laps were full cheeked and plump with good feeding and prosperity. A third of a million reindeer were on the hoof in Alaska, and the breeders were exultant. Pretty good when compared with the fact that in 1902 there were less than 5,000. In another 20 years, there would be 10 million. But with this prosperity of the present and still greater promise for the future, Alan sensed the undercurrent of unrest and suspicion in gnome. After waiting and hoping through another long winter with their best men fighting for Alaska Salvation at Washington, word was traveling from mouth to mouth, from settlement to settlement, and from range to range that the bureaucracy which misgoverned them from thousands of miles away was not lifting a hand to relieve them. Federal office holders refused to surrender their deadly power, and their strangling methods were to continue. Coal, which should cost $10 a ton if dug from Alaska mines, would continue to cost $40. Cold storage from gnome would continue to be $52 a ton when it should be 20. Commercial brigandage was still given letters of marquee. Bureau's were fighting amongst themselves for greater power, and in the turmoil Alaska was still chained like a starving man just outside the reach of all the milk and honey in a wonderful land. Porporizing, degrading, actually killing the political misrule that had already driven 25% of Alaska's population from their homes was to continue indefinitely. A president of the United States had promised to visit the mighty land of the north and see with his own eyes, but would he come? There had been other promises, many of them, and promises had always been futile. But it was a hope that crept through Alaska, and upon this hope men whose courage never died began to build. Freedom was on its way, even if slowly. Justice must triumph, ultimately, as it always triumphed. Rusty keys would at last be turned in the locks which had kept from Alaskans all the riches and resources of their country, and these men were determined to go on building against odds that they might be better prepared for that freedom of human endeavor when it came. In these days, when the fires of achievement needed to be encouraged and not smothered, neither Alan nor Carloman emphasized the menace of gigantic financial interests like that controlled by John Graham, interests fighting to do away with the best friend Alaska ever had, the biological survey, and backing with all their power the ruinous legislation to put Alaska in the control of a group of five men that an aggrandizement even more deadly than a suffocating policy of conservation might be more easily accomplished. Instead, they spread the optimism of men possessed of inextinguishable faith. The blackest days were gone, rifts were breaking in the clouds, intelligence was creeping through like rays of sunshine. The end of Alaska's serfdom was near at hand, so they preached, and knew they were preaching truth for what remained of Alaska's men after years of hopelessness and distress were fighting men, and the women who had remained with them were the mothers and wives of a new nation in the making. These mothers and wives Alan met during his week in Nome. He would have given his life if a few million people in the States could have known these women. Something would have happened then, and the sisterhood of half a continent possessing the power of the ballot would have opened their arms to them. Men like John Graham would have gone out of existence. Alaska would have received her birthright. For these women were of the kind who greeted the sun each day, and the gloom of winter was something greater than hope in their hearts. They too were builders. Fear of God and love of land lay deep in their souls, and side by side with their men forked. They went on this epic struggle for the building of a nation at the top of the world. Many times during this week, Alan felt it in his heart to speak of Maristandish, but in the end, not even to Carl Lohman, did word of her escape slips. The passing of each day had made her more intimately a part of him, and a secret part. He could not tell people about her. He even made evasions when questioned about his business and experiences at Cordova and up the coast. Curiously, she seemed nearer to him when he was away from other men and women. He remembered it had been that way with his father, who was always happiest when in the deep mountains or the unending tundras. And so Alan thrilled with an inner gladness when his business was finished, and the day came for him to leave Nome. Carl Lohman went with him as far as the big herd on Corris Peninsula. For one hundred miles up to Shelton, they rode over a narrow gorge, four-foot railway on a hand car drawn by dogs. And it seemed to Alan, at times as though Maristandish were with him, riding in this strange way through a great wilderness. He could see her. That was the strange thing which began to possess him. There were moments when her eyes were shining softly upon him, her lips smiling, her presence so real he might have spoken to her if Lohman had not been at his side. He did not fight against these visionings. It pleased him to think of her going with him into the heart of Alaska, riding the picturesque pup mobile, losing herself in the mountains and in his tundras, with all the wonder and glory of a new world breaking upon her a little at a time, like the unfolding of a great mystery. For there was both wonder and glory in these countless miles running ahead and drifting behind and the miracle of northward sweeping life. The days were long. Night as Maristandish had always known night was gone. On the 20th of June, there were twenty hours of day, with a dim and beautiful twilight between the hours of eleven and one. Sleep was no longer a matter of the rising and setting of the sun, but was regulated by the hands of the watch. A world frozen to the core for seven months was bursting open like a great flower. From Shelton, Alan and his companion visited the eighty or ninety people at Candle, and thence continued down the Kevalik River to Kevalik on Kotsibu Sound. A Lohman powerboat run by laps carried them to Corris Peninsula, where for a week Alan remained with Lohman and his huge herd of fifteen thousand reindeer. He was eager to go on, but tried to hide his impatience. Something was urging him, whipping him on to greater haste. For the first time in months, he heard the crackling thunder of reindeer hooves, and the music of it was like a wild call from his own herds, hurrying him home. He was glad when the weekend came and his business was done. The powerboat took him to Kotsibu. It was night as his watch went when Paul Davidovich started up the delta of the Kubelk River with him in a lighter-rich company's boat, but there was no darkness. In the afternoon of the fourth day they came to the Redstone, two hundred miles above the mouth of the Kubelk as the river winds. They had supper together on the shore. After that Paul Davidovich turned back with the slow sweep of the current, waving his hand until he was out of sight. Not until the sound of the Russian's motorboat was lost in distance did Alan sense fully the immensity of the freedom that swept upon him. At last, after months that had seemed like so many years, he was alone. North and eastward stretched the unmarked trail, which he knew so well. A hundred and fifty miles straight as a bird might fly, almost unmapped, unpeopled, right up to the doors of his range in the slopes of the Endicott Mountains. A little cry from his own lips gave him a start. It was as if he had called out aloud to Tautuk and Amuktulik and to Kyok and Navadlok, telling them he was on his way home and would soon be there. Never had his hidden land which he had found for himself seemed so desirable as it did in this hour. There was something about it that was all mothering, all good, all sweetly comforting. To that other thing which had become a part of him now. It was holding out its arms to him, understanding, welcoming, inspiring him to travel strongly and swiftly the space between, and he was ready to answer its call. He looked at his watch. It was five o'clock in the afternoon. He had spent a long day with the Russian, but he felt no desire for rest or sleep. The musk-tang of the tundras coming to him through the thin timber of the river courses worked like an intoxicant in his blood. It was the tundras he wanted before he lay down upon his back with his face to the stars. He was eager to get away from timber and to feel the immeasurable space of the big country, the open country about him. What fool had given to it the name of barren lands, what idiot's people were to lie about it in that way on the maps. He strapped his pack over his shoulders and seized his rifle, barren lands. He set out walking like a man in a race, and long before the twilight hours of sleep they were sweeping out ahead of him in all their glory, the barren lands of the map-makers, his paradise. On a knoll he stood in the golden sun and looked about him. He set his pack down and stood with bared head, a whispering of cool wind in his hair. If marriage-standish could have lived to see this. He stretched out his arms as if pointing for her eyes to follow, and her name was in his heart and whispering on his silent lips. Immeasurable the tundras reached ahead of him, rolling, sweeping, treeless, green and golden, and a glory of flowers, a thrill with a life no forest land had ever known. Under his feet was a crush of forget-me-nots, and of white and purple violets, their sweet perfume filling his lungs as he breathed. Ahead of him lay a white sea of yellow-eyed daisies, with purple iris high as his sneeze in between. And as far as he could see, waving softly in the breeze, was the cotton-tufted sedge he loved. The pots were green. In a few days they would be opening, and the tundras would be white carpets. He listened to the call of life. It was about him everywhere, a melody of bird life subdued and sleepy, even though the sun was still warmly aglow in the sky. A hundred times he had watched this miracle of bird instinct, the going to bed of feathered creatures in the weeks and months when there was no real night. He picked up his pack and went on. From a pool hidden in the lush grasses of a distant hollow came to him the twilight honking of nesting geese and the quacking content of wild ducks. He heard the reed-like musical notes of a lone organ duck, and the plaintive cries of plover and father-out, where the shadows seemed deepening against the rim of the horizon, rose the harsh rolling notes of cranes and the rackious cries of the loons. And then, from a clump of willows near him came a chirping twitter of a trush whose throat was tied for the day, and the sweet sleepy evening song of a robin. Night, Alan laughed softly, the pale flush of the sun in his face, bedtime he looked at his watch. It was nine o'clock, nine o'clock and the flowers still answering to the glow of the sun, and the people down there in the states called it a frozen land, a hell of ice and snow at the end of the earth, a place of the survival of the fittest. Well, to just such extremes had stupidity and ignorance gone through all the years of history, even though men called themselves super-creatures of intelligence and knowledge. It was humorous, and it was tragic. At last he came to a shining pool between two tufted ridges, and in this velvety hollow the twilight was gathering like a shadow in a cup. A little creek ran out of the pool, and here Alan gathered soft grass and spread out his blankets. A great stillness threw in about him, broken only by the old squalls and the loons. At eleven o'clock he could still see clearly the sleeping waterfowl on the surface of the pool, but the stars were appearing. It grew duskier, and the roast into the sun faded into purple glue, as pale night drew near, four hours of rest that was neither darkness nor day. With a pill over sedge and grass under his head he slept. The song and cry of bird life wakened him, and at dawn he bathed in the pool, with dozens of fluffy newborn ducks dodging away from him among the grasses and reeds. That day, and the next, and the day after that he travelled steadily into the heart of the Tundra country, swiftly and almost without rest. It seemed to him at last that he must be in that country where all the bird life of the world was born, for wherever there was water in the pools and little streams, and the hollows between the ridges, the voice of it in the morning was a babble of sound. Out of the sweet breast of the earth he could feel the irresistible pulse of motherhood, filling him with its strength and its courage, and whispering to him its everlasting message, that because of the glory and need and faith of life had God created this land of twenty hour day and four hour twilight. In it, in these days of summer, was snow abating place for gloom, yet in his own heart as he drew near to his home was a place of darkness which his light could not quite enter. The Tundras had made Maristandish more real to him. In the treeless spaces in the vast reaches, with only the sky shutting out his vision, she seemed to be walking near to him, almost with her hand in his. At times it was like a torture inflicted upon him for his folly, and when he visioned what might have been, and recalled too vividly that it was he who had stilled with death that living glory which dwelt with him in spirit now, a crying sob of which he was not ashamed came from his slips. For when he thought too deeply, he knew that Maristandish would have lived if he had said other things to her that night, the bothership. She had died not for him, but because of him, because in his failure to live up to what she believed she had found in him, he had broken down what must have been her last hope and her final faith. If he had been less blind, and God had given him the inspiration of a greater wisdom, she would have been walking with him now, laughing in the rose-tinted dawn, growing tired amid the flowers, sleeping under the clear stars, happy and unfrayed, and looking to him for all things. At least so he dreamt in his immeasurable loneliness. He did not tolerate the thought that other forces might have called her, even had she lived, and that she might not have been his to hold and to fight for. He did not question the possibility of shackles and chains that might have bound her or other inclinations that might have led her. He claimed her now that she was dead and knew that living he would have possessed her. Nothing could have kept him from that, but she was gone, and for that he was accountable, and the fifth night he lay sleepless under the stars, and like a boy cried for her with his face upon his arm, and when morning came and went on, never had the world seemed so vast and empty. His face was grey and haggard, a face grown suddenly old, and he travelled slowly for the desire to reach his people was dying within him. He could not laugh with Kyok and Navadlok, or give the old Tundra call to Armok Tullik and his people who would be riotous in their happiness at his return. They loved him. He knew that. Their love had been a part of his life, and the knowledge that his response to this love would be at best a poor and broken thing filled him with dread. A strange sickness crept through his blood. It grew in his head so that when noon came he did not trouble himself to eat. It was late in the afternoon when he saw far ahead of him the clump of cotton woods near the warm springs very near his home. Often he had come to these old cotton woods, an oasis of timber lost in the great Tundras, and he had built himself a little camp among them. He loved the place. It had seemed to him that now and then he must visit the forlorn trees to give them cheer and comradeship. His father's name was carved in the bowl of the greatest of them all, and under it the date and day when the elder halt had discovered them in a land where no man had gone before. And under his father's name was his mother's, and under that his own. He had made of the place a sort of shrine, a green and sweet flowered tabernacle of memories and its bird song and peace in summer and the weird aloneness of it in winter had played their parts in the making of his soul. Through many months he had anticipated this hour of his home coming, when in the distance he would see the beckoning welcome of the old cotton woods with the rolling foothills and frosted peaks of the Endicott Mountains beyond. And now he was looking at the trees and the mountains, and something was lacking in the thrill of them. He came up from the west between two willow ridges through which ran the little creek from the warm springs, and he was within a quarter of a mile of them when something stopped him in his tracks. At first he thought the sound was the popping of guns, but in a moment he knew it could not be so, and the truth flashed suddenly upon him. This day was the fourth of July, and someone in the cotton woods was shooting firecrackers. A smile softened his lips. He recalled Keogh's mischievous habit of lightning a whole bunch at one time, for which apparent wastefulness-snavadlook never failed to scold her. They had prepared for his homecoming with a celebration, and Tautuk and Armukhtulik had probably imported a supply of big bangs from Alakakat or Tanana. The oppressive weight inside him lifted, and the smile remained on his lips. And then, as if commanded by a voice, his eyes turned to the dead cotton-wood stub, which had sentineled the little oasis of trees for many years. At the very crest of it, floating bravely in the breeze that came with the evening sun, was an American flag. He laughed softly. These were the people who loved him, who thought of him, who wanted him back. His heart beat faster, stirred by the old happiness, and he drew himself quickly into a strip of willows that grew almost up to the cotton woods. He would surprise them. He would walk suddenly in among them, unseen and unheard. That was the sort of thing that would amaze and delight them. He came to the first of the trees and concealed himself carefully. He heard the popping of individual firecrackers, and the louder bang of one of the giants that always made Navadluk put her fingers in her pretty ears. He creeped stealthily over a knoll, down through a hollow, and then up again to the opposite crest. It was as he had thought. He could see Keok a hundred yards away, standing on the trunk of a fallen tree, and as he looked, she tossed another bunch of sputtering crackers away from her. The others were probably circled about her, out of his sight, watching her performance. He continued cautiously, making his way, that he could come up behind a thick growth of bush unseen, within a dozen paces of them. At last, he was as near as that to her, and Keok was still standing on the log with back toward him. It puzzled him that he could not see or hear the others, and something about Keok puzzled him, too, and then his heart gave a sudden throb and seemed to stop its beating. It was not Keok on the log, and it was not Navadluk. He stood up and stepped out from his hiding place. The slender figure of the girl on the log turned a little, and he saw the glint of golden sunshine in her hair. He called out, Keok, was he mad? Had the sickness in his head turned his brain? And then, Mary, he called, Mary's standish, returned, and in that moment Alan Holt's face was the colour of grey rock. It was the dead he had been thinking of, and it was the dead that had risen before him now. For it was Mary's standish who stood there on the old Cottonwood log, shooting firecrackers in this evening of his homecoming. End of chapter 12 of The Alaskan by James Oliver Kerwood Read by Lars Rolander Chapter 13 of The Alaskan This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Reading by Lars Rolander The Alaskan by James Oliver Kerwood Chapter 13 After that one calling of her name, Alan's voice was dead, and he made no movement. He could not disbelieve. It was not a mental illusion or a temporary upsetting of his sanity. It was truth. The shock of it was rending every nerve in his body, even as he stood as if carved out of wood, and then a strange relaxation swept over him. Some force seemed to pass out of his flesh, and his arms hungling. She was there, alive. He could see the whiteness leave her face, and a flash of colour come into it, and he heard a little cry as she jumped down from the log and came toward him. It had all happened in a few seconds, but it seemed a long time to Alan. He saw nothing about her or beyond her. It was as if she were floating up to him out of the cold mists of the sea, and she stopped only a step away from him, when she saw more clearly what was in his face. It must have been something that startled her. Vaguely he realised this, and made an effort to recover himself. You almost frightened me, she said. We have been expecting you and watching for you, and I was out there a few minutes ago looking back over the tundra. The sun was in my eyes, and I didn't see you. It seemed incredible that he should be hearing her voice, the same voice, unexcited, sweet and thrilling, speaking as if she had seen him yesterday, and with a certain reserved gladness was welcoming him again today. It was impossible for him to realise in these moments the immeasurable distance that lay between their viewpoints. He was simply Alan Holt. She was the dead, risen to life. Many times in his grief, he had visualised what he would do if some miracle could bring her back to him like this. He had thought of taking her in his arms, and never letting her go. But now that the miracle had come to pass, and she was within his reach, he stood without moving, trying only to speak. You! Mary standish, he said at last. I thought he did not finish. It was not himself speaking. It was another individual within him, a detached individual trying to explain his lack of physical expression. He wanted to cry out his gladness, to shout with joy. Yet the directing soul of action in him was stricken. She touched his arm hesitatingly. I didn't think you would care, she said. I thought you wouldn't mind if I came up here. Care? The word was like an explosion, setting things loose in his brain, and the touch of her hands sent a sweep of fire through him. He heard himself cry out a strange, unhuman sort of cry as he swept her to his breast. He held her close, crushing kisses upon her mouth, his fingers buried in her hair, her slender body almost broken in his arms. She was alive. She had come back to him, and he forgot everything in these blind moments, but that great truth which was sweeping over him in a glorious inundation. Then suddenly he found that she was fighting him, struggling to free herself and putting her hands against his face in her efforts. She was so close that he seemed to see nothing but her eyes, and in them he did not see what he had dreamt of finding, but horror. It was a stab that went into his heart, and his arms relaxed. She staggered back, trembling and swaying a little as she got her breath. Her face very white. He had hurt her. The hurt was in her eyes, in the way she looked at him, as if he had become a menace from which she would run if he had not taken the strength from her. As she stood there, her parted lips showing the red of his kisses, her shining hair almost undone. He held out his hands mutely. You think I came here for that? She panted. No, he said. Forgive me. I'm sorry. It was not anger that he saw in her face. It was instead a mingling of shock and physical hurt, a measurement of him now, as she looked at him, which recalled her to him as she had stood that night with her back against his cabin door. Yet he was not trying to piece things together. Even subconsciously that was impossible, for all life in him was centred in the one stupendous thought that she was not a dead but living, and he did not wonder why. There was no question in his mind as to the manner in which she had been saved from the sea. He felt a weakness in his limbs. He wanted to laugh, to cry out, to give himself up to strange inclinations for a moment or two, like a woman. Such was the shock of his happiness. It crept in a living fluid through his flesh. She saw it in the swift change of the rock-like color in his face and his quicker breathing, and was a little amazed. But Alan was too completely possessed by the one great thing to discover, the astonishment growing in her eyes. You are alive, he said, giving voice again to the one thought pounding in his brain. Alive! It seemed to him that word wanted to utter itself an impossible number of times. Then the truth that was partly dawning came entirely to the girl. Mr. Halt, did you not receive my letter at gnome? She asked. Your letter? At gnome? He repeated the words shaking his head. No. And all this time you have been thinking I was dead? He nodded because the thickness in his throat made it the easier form of speech. I wrote you there, she said. I wrote the letter before I jumped into the sea. I went to gnome with Captain Rifle's ship. I didn't get it. You didn't get it? There was a wonderment in her voice, and then, if he had observed it understanding, then you didn't mean that just now. You didn't intend to do it? It was because you had blamed yourself for my death, and it was a great relief to find me alive. That was it, wasn't it? Stupidly he nodded again. Yes, it was a great relief. You see, I had faith in you even when you wouldn't help me, she went on. So much faith that I trusted you with my secret in the letter I wrote. To all the world but you, I am dead. To Rossland, Captain Rifle, everyone. In my letter I told you I had arranged with a young, slinket Indian. He smuggled the canoe over the side just before I leaped in and picked me up. I'm a good swimmer. Then he puddle me ashore while the boats were making their search. In a moment she had placed a gulf between them again, on the other side of which she stood unattainable. It was inconceivable that only few moments ago he had crushed her in his arms. The knowledge that he had done this thing, and that she was looking at him now as if it had never happened, filled him with the smothering sense of humiliation. She made it impossible for him to speak about it, even to apologize more fully. Now I'm here, she was saying in a quiet, possessive sort of way. I didn't think of coming when I jumped into the sea. I made up my mind afterward. I think it was because I met a little man with red whiskers, whom you once pointed out to me in the smoking cellone of the gnome, and so I'm your guest, Mr. Holt. There was not the slightest suspicion of apology in her voice, as she smothed back her hair where he had crumpled it. It was as if she belonged here, and had always belonged here, and was giving him permission to enter her domain. Shock was beginning to pass away from him, and he could feel his feet upon the earth once more. His spirit visions of her as she had walked hand in hand with him during the past weeks, her soft eyes filled with love faded away before the reality of a merry standish in flesh and blood, her quiet mastery of things, her almost omniscient, unapproachable-ness. He reached out his hands, but there was a different light in his eyes, and she placed her own in them confidently. It was like a bolt of lightning, he said, his voice free at last, and trembling. Day and night I have been thinking of you, dreaming of you, and cursing myself because I believed I had killed you, and now I find you alive and here. She was so near that the hands he clasped lay against his breast, but recent had returned to him, and he saw the folly of dreams. It is difficult to believe. Out there I thought I was sick. Perhaps I am, but I am not sick, and you are really you. I am glad if I wake up and find I have imagined it all as I imagined so many of the other things. He laughed, freeing her hands, and looking into eyes shining half out of tears at him, but he did not finish. She drew away from him with the lingering of her fingertips on his arms, and the little heartbeat in her throat revealed itself clearly again, as on that night in his cabin. I have been thinking of you back there. Every hour, every step, he said, making a gesture toward the tundra server which he had come. Then I heard the firecrackers and saw the flag. It is almost as if I had created you. A quick answer was on her lips, but she stopped it. And when I found you here, and you didn't fade away like a ghost, I thought something was wrong with my head. Something must have been wrong, I guess, or I wouldn't have done that. You see, it puzzled me that a ghost should be setting off firecrackers, and I suppose that was the first impulse I had of making sure you were real. A voice came from the edge of the cotton woods beyond them. It was a clear, wild voice with a sweet thrill in it. Mary, it's called. Mary. Supper nodded the girl. You are just in time, and then we are going home in the twilight. It made his heart thump, that casual way in which she spoke of his place as home. She went ahead of him, with the sun glinting in the soft coils of her hair, and he picked up his rifle and followed eyes and soul filled only with the beauty of her slim figure, a glory of life where for a long time he had fashioned a spirit of the dead. They came into an open, soft with grass and strewn with flowers, and in this open a man was kneeling beside a fire no larger than his two hands, and at his side watching him stood a girl with the two braids of black hair rippling down her back. It was Navadluk who turned first and saw who it was with Mary Standish, and from his right came an odd little screech that only one person in the world could make, and that was Kio. She dropped the armful of sticks she had gathered for the fire, and made straight for him. While Navadluk taller and less like a wild creature in the manner of her coming was only a moment behind, and then he was shaking hands with stampede, and Kio had slipped down among the flowers and was crying. That was like Kio, she always cried when he went away, and cried when he returned, and then in another moment it was Kio who was laughing first, and Alan noticed she no longer wore her hair in braids as the quieter Navadluk persisted in doing, but had it coiled about her head just as Mary Standish wore her own. These details pressed themselves upon him in a vague and unreal sort of way. No one, not even Mary Standish could understand how his mind and nerves were fighting to recover themselves. His senses were swimming back one by one to a vital point from which they had been swept by an unexpected sea, gripping rather incoherently at unimportant realities as they assembled themselves. In the edge of the tundra beyond the cotton woods, he noticed three subtled air grazing at the ends of ropes, which were fastened to cotton, tufted niggerheads. He drew off his pack as Mary Standish went to help Kio pick up the fallen sticks. Navadluk was pulling a coffee pot from the tiny fire. Stampede began to fill a pipe. He realized that because they had expected him, if not a day, then tomorrow, or the next day, or a day soon after that, no one had experienced shock but himself, and with a mighty effort, he reached back and dragged the old Alan Holt into existence again. It was like bringing an intelligence out of darkness into light. It was difficult for him afterward to remember just what happened during the next half hour. The amazing thing was that Mary Standish sat opposite him with a cloth on which Navadluk had spread the supper things between them, and that she was the same clear-eyed, beautiful Mary Standish who had sat across the table from him in the dining saloon of the noob. Not until later, when she stood alone with Stampede Smith in the edge of the cotton woods, and the three girls were riding dear back over the tundra in the direction of the range, did the sea of questions which had been gathering begin to sweep upon him. It had been Kio's suggestion that she and Mary and Navadluk ride on ahead, and he had noticed how quickly Mary Standish had caught at the idea. She had smiled at him as she left, and a little farther out had waved her hand at him, as Kio and Navadluk both had done, but not another word had passed between them alone. And as they rode off in the warm glow of sunset, Alan stood watching them, and would have stared without speech until they were out of sight, if Stampede's fingers had not gripped his arm. Now go to it, Alan, he said. I'm ready. Give me hell. End of chapter 13 of The Alaskan by James Oliver Kerwood, read by Lars Rolander. Chapter 14 of The Alaskan This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Reading by Lars Rolander. The Alaskan by James Oliver Kerwood, Chapter 14. It was thus with a note of something inevitable in his voice that Stampede brought Alan back solidly to earth. There was a practical and awakening inspiration in the manner of the little red-whiskered man's invitation. I've been a darn fool, he confessed, and I'm waiting. The word was like a key opening a door through which a flood of things began to rush in upon Alan. There were other fools, and evidently he had been one. His mind went back to the gnome. It seemed only a few hours ago, only yesterday, that the girl had so artfully deceived them all. And he had gone through hell because of that deception. The trickery had been simple and exceedingly clever because of its simplicity. It must have taken a tremendous amount of courage now that he clearly understood that at no time had she wanted to die. I wonder, he said, why she did a thing like that. Stampede shook his head, misunderstanding what was in Alan's mind. I couldn't keep her back, not unless I tied her to a tree. And he added, the little witch even threatened to shoot me. A flash of exultant humor filled his eyes. Begin, Alan, I'm waiting. Goat the limit. For what? For letting her ride over me, of course, for bringing her up, for not shuffling her in the bush? You can't take it out of her hide, can you? He twisted his red whiskers, waiting for an answer. Alan was silent. Mary Standish was leading the way, up out of a deep in the tundra, a quarter of a mile away, with Navadlok and Keok close behind her. They trotted up a low ridge and disappeared. It's none of my business, persisted Stampede, but you didn't seem to expect her. You're right, interrupted Alan, turning toward his pack. I didn't expect her. I thought she was dead. A low whistle escaped Stampede's lips. He opened his mouth to speak and closed it again. Alan absurded him as he slipped the pack over his shoulders. Evidently, his companion did not know Mary Standish was the girl who had jumped over board from the gnome. And if she had kept her secret, it was not his business, just now to explain, even though he guessed that Stampede's quick wits would readily jump at the truth. Her light was beginning to dispel the little man's bewilderment as they started toward the range. He had seen Mary Standish frequently aboard the gnome. A number of times he had observed her in Alan's company, and he knew of the hours they had spent together in Skagway. Therefore, if Alan had believed her dead, when they went ashore at Kordova, a few hours after the supposed tragedy, it must have been she who jumped into the sea. He shrugged his shoulders in deprecation of his failure to discover this amazing fact in his association with Mary Standish. It beats the devil, he exclaimed suddenly. It does, agreed Alan. Cold hard reason began to shoulder itself inevitably against the happiness that possessed him and questions which he had found no interest in asking when a board ship leaped upon him with compelling force. Why was it so tragically important to Mary Standish that the world should believe her dead? What was it that had driven her to appeal to him and afterward to jump into the sea? What was her mysterious association with Rossland, an agent of Alaska's deadliest enemy John Graham, the one man upon whom he had sworn vengeance if opportunity ever came his way? Over him, clubbing other emotions with its insistence, wrote a demand for explanations which it was impossible for him to make. Stampede saw the tense lines in his face and remained silent in the lengthening twilight, while Alan's mind struggled to bring coherence and reason out of a tidal wave of mystery and doubt. Why had she come to his cabin aboard the gnome? Why had she played him with such conspicuous intent against Rossland? And why, in the end, had she preceded him to his home in the tundras? It was this question which persisted never for an instant swept aside by the others. She had not come because of love for him. In a brutal sort of way he had proved that, for when he had taken her in his arms, he had seen distress and fear and a flash of horror in her face. Another and more mysterious force had driven her. The joy in him was a living flame even as this realization pressed upon him. He was like a man who had found life after a period of something that was worth than death. And with his happiness he felt himself twisted upon an upheaval of conflicting sensations and half convictions out of which, in spite of his efforts to hold it back, suspicion began to creep like a shadow. But it was not the sort of suspicion to cool the thrill in his blood or frighten him. But it was not the sort of suspicion to cool the thrill in his blood or frighten him. For he was quite ready to concede that Marie Stangisch was a fugitive and that her flight from Seattle had been in the face of a desperate necessity. What had happened aboard ship was further proof and her presence at his range a final one. Forces had driven her which it had been impossible for her to combat and in desperation she had come to him for refuge. She had chosen him out of all the world to help her. She believed in him. She had faith that when him no harm could come and his muscles tightened with sudden desire to fight for her. In these moments he became conscious of the evening song of the tundras and the soft splendor of the miles reaching out ahead of them. He strained his eyes to catch another glimpse of the mounted figures when they came out of hollows to the cloth tops. But the lazy veils of evening were drawn closer and he looked in vain. Birds on grew softer. Sleepy cries rose from the grasses and pools. The fire of the sun itself died out, leaving its regions in a mingling of vivid rose and mellow gold of the edge of the world. It was night and yet day and Alan wondered what thoughts were in the heart of Marie Stangisch. What had driven her to the range was of small importance compared with the thrilling fact that she was just ahead of him. The mystery of her would be explained tomorrow. He was sure of that. She would confide in him. Now that she had so utterly placed herself under his protection, she would tell him what she had not dared to disclose aboard the gnome. So he thought only of the silvery distance of twilight that separated them and spoke at last to Stampede. I'm rather glad you brought her, he said. I didn't bring her, protested Stampede. She came. He shrugged his shoulders with a grunt. And furthermore I didn't manage it. She did that herself. She didn't come with me. I came with her. He stopped and struck a match to light his pipe. Over the tiny flame he glared fiercely at Alan. But in his eyes was something that betrayed him. Alan saw it and felt a desire to laugh out of sheer happiness. His keen vision and sense of humor were returning. How did it happen? Stampede puffed loudly at his pipe, then took it from his mouth and drew in a deep breath. First I remember was the fourth night after we landed at Caldova. Couldn't get a train on the new line until then? Somewhere up near Chitina we came to wash out. It didn't rain. You couldn't call it that, Alan. It was the Pacific Ocean falling on us, with two or three other oceans backing it up. The stage came along, horses swimming, coach floating, driver half drowned in his seat. I was that hungry I got in for Chitina. There was one other climbed in after me, and I wondered what sort of fool he was. I said something about being starved or I'd have hung to the train. The other didn't answer. Then I began to swear. I did, Alan. I cursed terrible, swore at the government for building such a road, swore at the train, and I swore at myself for not bringing a long grub. I said my belly was as empty as a shoot-off cartridge, and I said it good and loud. I was mad. Then a big flash of lightning lit up the coach. Alan, it was her sitting there, with a box in her lap, facing me, dripping wet, her eyes shining, and she was smiling at me. Yes, sir, smiling. Stampede paused to let the shock sink in. He was not disappointed. Alan stared at him in amazement. The fourth night after, he caught himself. Go on, Stampede. I began hunting for the latch of the door, Alan. I was going to sneak out, dropped in the mud, disappear before the lightning come again. But it caught me, and there she was, undoing the box, and I heard her saying she had plenty of good stuff to eat, and she called me Stampede like she known me all her life, and with that coach rolling and rocking and the thunder and lightning and rain piling up against each other like sin. She came over and sat down beside me and began to feed me. She did that, Alan. Fed me. When the lightning fired up, I could see her eyes shining and her lips smiling, as if all that hell about us made her happy, and I thought she was plump, crazy. Before I knew it, she was telling me how you pointed me out to her in the smoking room, and how happy she was that I was going her way. Her way, mind you, Alan, not mine. And that's just the way she kept me going up to the minute you hoe inside back there in the cottonwoods. He lighted his pipe again. Alan, how the devil did she know I was hitting the trail for your place? She didn't, replied Alan. But she did. She said that meeting with me in the coach was the happiest moment of her life, because she was on her way up to your range. And I'd be such jolly good company for her. Jolly good, them were the words she used. When I asked her if you knew she was coming up, she said no. Of course not. And that it was going to be a grand surprise. Said it was possible she'd buy your range, and she wanted to look it over before you arrived? And it seems queer, I can't remember anything more about the thunder and lightning between there and Chitina. When we took the train again she began asking a million questions about you and the range in Alaska. Soak me if you want to Alan. But everything I knew she got out of me between Chitina and Fairbanks. And she got it in such a sure fire, nice way that I'd have soap out of her hand if she'd offered it to me. Then sort of sly and soft like she began asking questions about John Graham. And I woke up. John Graham? Alan repeated the name. Yes, John Graham, and I had a lot to tell. After that I tried to get away from her. But she caught me, just as I was sneaking aboard a downriver boat, and, cool as you please, with her hand on my arm, she said she wasn't quite ready to go yet. And would I please come and help her carry some stuff she was going to buy? Alan, it ain't a lie what I'm going to tell you. She led me up the street telling me what a wonderful idea she had for surprising you. Said she knew you would return to the range by the fourth of July, and we sure must have some fireworks. Said you was such a good American you'd be so disappointed if you didn't have them. So she took me in a store and bought it out. Asked the man what he'd take for everything in his joint that had a powder in it. Five hundred dollars. That was what she paid. She pulled a silk something out of the front of a dress with a pad of hundred dollar bills in it. An inch thick. Then she asked me to get them firecrackers and wheels and sky rockers and balloons and other stuff down to the boat. And she asked me, just as if I was a sweet little boy, who'd be tickled to death to do it. In the excitement of unburdening himself of a matter which he had borne in secret for many days, Stampede did not observe the effect of his words upon his companion. Incredulity shot into Arlan's eyes and the humorous lines about his mouth vanished when he saw clearly that Stampede was not drawing upon his imagination. Yet what he had told him seemed impossible. Mary Staddish had come aboard the gnome, a fugitive. All her possessions she had brought with her in a small handbag, and these things she had left in her cabin when she leaped into the sea. How then could she logically have had such a sum of money at Fairbanks, as Stampede described? Was it possible that think it Indian had also become her agent in transporting the money ashore on the night she played a desperate game by making the world believe she had died? And was this money possibly the manner in which she had secured it in Seattle, the course of her flight, and the clever scheme she had put into execution a little later? He had been thinking crime, and his face grew hot at the sin of it. It was like thinking it of another woman, who was dead and whose name was cut under his father's in the old cotton wood tree. Stampede, having gained his win, was saying, You don't seem interested, Alan, but I'm going on or I'll bust. I've got to tell you what happened, and then if you want to lead me out and shoot me, I won't say a word. I say curse a firecracker anyway. Go on, urged Alan, I am interested. I got him on the boat, continued Stampede and she with me every minute smiling in that angel way of hers, and not letting me out of her sight a flick of her eyelash, unless there was only one hole to go in and come out it. And then she said she wanted to do a little shopping, which meant going into every shack in town and buying something, and I did the lugging. At last she bought a gun, and when I asked her what she was going to do with it, she said, Stampede, that's for you. And when I went to thank her, she said no, I don't mean it that way. I mean that if you try to run away from me again, I'm going to fill you full of holes. She said that, threatened me. Then she bought me a new outfit from Toe to Summit, boots, pants, shirt, hat, and necktie, and I didn't say a word, not a word. She just led me in and bought what she wanted and made me put them on. Stampede drew in a mighty breath, and a fourth time wasted a match on his pipe. I was getting used to it by the time we reached Tanana, he half-growned. Then the hell of it began. She hired six Indians to tote the luggage, and we set out of the trail for your place. You're going to have a rest, Stampede, she says to me, smiling so cool and sweet like you wanted to eat her alive. All you've got to do is show us the way and carry the bums. Carry the what, I asked? The bums, she says, and then she explains that a bum is a thing filled with powder, which makes a terrible racket when it goes off. So I took the bums, and the next day one of the Indians sprained a leg and dropped out. He had the firecrackers, pretty near a hundred pounds, and we whacked up his load among us. I couldn't stand up straight when we camped. We had crooks in our backs every inch of the way to the range. And would she let us cash some of that junk? Not on your life, she wouldn't. And all the time, while they was puffing and panting, the Indians was worshipping her with her their eyes. The last day when we camped with the range almost in sight, she drew him all up in a circle about her and gave him each a handful of money above their pay. That's because I love you, she says. And then she begins asking them funny questions. Did they have wives and children? Were they ever hungry? Did they ever know about any of their people starving to death? And just why did they starve? And Alan so helped me thunder if them Indians didn't talk. Never heard Indians tell so much. And in the end she asked them the funniest question of all. Asked them if they'd heard of a man named John Graham, and one of them had. And afterward I saw her talking a long time with him alone. And when she came back to me, her eyes were sort of burning up, and she didn't say good night when she went into her tent. That's all, Alan, except... except what, Stumpede? said Alan, his heart throbbing like a drum inside. Stumpede took his time to answer, and Alan heard him chuckling and saw a flash of humor in the little man's eyes. Except that she's done with everyone on the range, just what she did with me between Chitina and here, he said. Alan, if she wants to say the word why you ain't boss anymore, that's all. She's been here ten days, and you won't know the place. It's all done up in flags waiting for you. She and Navadluk and Kyok are running everything but the deer. The kids would leave their mothers for her and the men, he chuckled again, why the men even go to Sunday school, she started. I went. Navadluk sings. For a moment he was silent. Then he said in a subdued voice, Alan, you've been a big fool. I know it, Stumpede. She's a flower, Alan. She's worth more than all the gold in the world. And you could have married her. I know it, but it is too late now. I'm warning you. I don't quite understand, Stumpede. Why is it too late? Because she likes me, declared Stumpede a bit fiercely. I'm after her myself, Alan. You can't butt in now. Great Scott, gasped Alan. You mean that, Maristandish? I'm not talking about Maristandish, said Stumpede. It's Navadluk if it wasn't for my whiskers. His words were broken by a sudden detonation, which came out of the pale gloom ahead of them. It was like the explosion of a cannon a long distance away. One of them cussed, bummed, she explained. That's why they hurried on ahead of us, Alan. She says this fourth of your live celebration is going to mean a lot for Alaska. Wonder what she means? I wonder, said Alan. End of chapter 14 of The Alaskan by James Oliver Curwood, read by Losh Rulander. Chapter 15 of The Alaskan This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Reading by Losh Rulander. The Alaskan by James Oliver Curwood. Chapter 15 Half an hour more of the tundra, and they came to what Alan named Goestkloof, a deep and jagged scar in the face of the earth, running down from the foothills of the mountains. It was a sinister thing in the depth lay abysmal darkness as they descended a rocky path, one smooth by reindeer and caribou hooves. At the bottom, a hundred feet below the twilight of the plains, Alan dropped on his knees beside a little spring that he grouped for among the stones, and as he drank he could hear the weird whispering and gurgling of water up and down the clove, choked and smothered in the moss of the rock walls and eternally dripping from the crevices. Then he saw Stampede's face in the glow of another match, and the little man's eyes were staring into the black chasp that reached for miles up into the mountains. Alan, you've been up this gorge? It's a favorite runaway for the links and big brown bears that kill our fawns, replied Alan. I hunt alone, Stampede. The place is supposed to be haunted, you know. Ghost clue, if I call it, and no eskimo will enter it. The bones of dead men lie up there. Never prospected it, persisted Stampede. Never. Alan heard the other's grunt of disgust. You reindeer crazy, he grumbled. There's gold in this canyon. Twice I found it where there were dead men's bones. They bring me good luck. But these were eskimos. They didn't come for gold. I know it. The boss settled that for me. When she heard what was the matter with this place, she made me take her into it. Nerve? Say, I'm telling you there wasn't any of it left out of her when she was born. He was silent for a moment and then added, when we came to that dripping slimy rock with the big jello skull laying there, like a poisoned toadstool, she didn't screech and pull back, but just gave a little gasp and stared at it hard, and her fingers pinched my arm until it hurt. It was a devilish looking thing, jello, a sick orange and soppy with the drip of the wet moss over it. I wanted to blow it to pieces, and I guess I would if she hadn't put her hand on my gun. And with a funny little smile, she says, don't do it, Stampede. It makes me think of someone I know, and I wouldn't want you to shoot him. Darn funny thing to say, wasn't it? Made her think of someone she knew? Now, who the devil could look like a rotten scowl? Alan made no effort to reply except to shrug his shoulders. They climbed out of gloom into the light of the plain. Smoothness of the tundra was gone on this side of the crevice. A head of them rolled up a low hill, and mountain wood hills piled one upon another until they were lost in misty distance. From the crest of the ridge, they looked out into a vast deep tundra, which ran in among the out guarding billows and hills of the Andecott mountains in the form of a wide semi-circular bay. Beyond the next swell in the tundra lay the range, and scarcely had they reached this when Stampede drew his big gun from its holster. Twice he blazed in the air. Orders, he said a little sheepishly, orders Alan. Scarcely were the words out of his mouth when a gel came to them from beyond the light mists that hooured like floating lays over the tundra. It was joined by another, and still another, until there was such a sound that Alan knew. Tau took an amok tulik, and topgok and tatpan, and all the others were splitting their throats in welcome, and with it very soon came a series of explosions that set the earth a thrill under their feet. Bums, growled Stampede, she's got chink lanterns hanging up all about to. You should have seen her face, Alan, when she found there was sunlight all night up here on July 4th. From the range a pale streak went sizzling into the air, mounting until it seemed to pause for a moment to look down upon the grey world, then burst into innumerable little balls of puffy smoke. Stampede blazed away with his forty-five, and Alan felt the thrill of it, and emptied the magazine of his gun, the detonations of revolver and rifle drowning the chorus of sound that came from the range. A second rocket answered them, two columns of flame leaped up from the earth as huge fires gained headway, and Alan could hear the thrill chorus of children's voices mingling with a vocal tumult of men. All the people of his range were there. They had come in from the timbre-naked plateau, and high ranges where the herds were feeding, and from the outlying shacks of the tundras to greet him. Never had there been such a concentration of effort on the part of his people, and Mary Standish was behind it all. He knew he was fighting against odds when he tried to keep that fact from choking up his heart a little. He had not heard what Stampede was saying, that he and Armukhtulik and forty kids had laboured a week gathering dry moss and timber fuel for the big fires. There were three of these fires now, and the tom-toms were booming their hollow notes over the tundra, as Alan quickened his steps. Over a little knoll, and he was looking at the buildings of the range, widely excited figures running about, women and children flinging moss on the fires, the tom-tom-beaters squatted in a half-circle, facing the direction from which he would come, and fifty Chinese lanterns swinging in the soft night breeze. He knew what they were expecting of him, for they were children, all of them, even Tautuk and Armukhtulik, his chief herdsmen, were children. Navadluk and Kyok were children, strong and loyal and ready to die for him in any fight or stress. They were still children. He gave Stampede his rifle, and hastened on, determined to keep his eyes from questing for Marie Standish in these first minutes of his return. He sounded the tundra call, and men, women and little children came running to meet him. The drumming of the tom-toms ceased, and the beaters leaped to their feet. He was inundated. There was a thrilled crackling of voice, laughter, children's quills, a bubble of delight. He gripped hands with both his own, hard, thick, brown hands of men, little, softer, brown hands of women. He lifted children up in his arms, slapped his palm affectionately against the men's shoulders, and talked, talked, talked, calling each by name, without a slip of memory, though there were fifty around him counting the children. First, last and always, these were his people. The old pride swept over him, a compelling sense of power and possession. They loved him, crowding in about him like a great family, and he shook hands twice and three times with the same men and women, and lifted the same children from the arms of delighted mothers, and cried out greetings and familiarities with an abandon which a few minutes ago, knowledge of maristandish presence would have tempered. Then suddenly he saw her under the Chinese lanterns in front of his cabin. Soquena, so old that he hobbled double and looked like a witch, stood beside her. In a moment Soquena's head disappeared, and there came the booming of a tom-tom. As quickly as the crowd had gathered about him, it fell away. The beaters squatted themselves in their semicircle again. Fireworks began to go off, dancers assembled, rockets hissed through the air. Roman candles popped. From the open door of his cabin came the sound of a phonograph. It was aimed directly at him, the one thing intended for his understanding alone. It was playing, when Johnny comes marching home. Maristandish had not moved. He saw her laughing at him, and she was alone. She was not the maristandish he had known aboard ship. Fear, the quiet pallor of her face, and the strained and repression which had seemed to be a part of her were gone. She was aflame with life. Yet it was not with voice or action that she revealed herself. It was in her eyes the flush of her cheeks and lips, the poise of her slim body as she waited for him. A thought flashed upon him that for a space she had forgotten herself, and the shadow which had driven her to leap into the sea. It splendid, she said when he came up to her, and her voice trembled a little. I didn't guess how badly they wanted you back. It must be a great happiness to have people think of you like that. And I thank you for your part, he replied. Stampedas told me. It was quite a bit of trouble, wasn't it, with nothing more than the hope of Americanizing a pageant to inspire you? He nodded at the half-dust in flags of his cabin. They rather pretty. It was no trouble, and I hope you don't mind. It has been great fun. He tried to look casually out upon his people, as he answered her. It seemed to him there was only one thing to say, and that it was a duty to speak what was in his mind calmly and without emotion. Yes, I do mind, he said. I mind so much that I wouldn't trade what has happened for all the gold in these mountains. I'm sorry because of what happened back in the Cottonwoods, but I wouldn't trade that either. I'm glad you're alive. I'm glad you're here. But something is missing. You know what it is? You must tell me about yourself. It is the only fair thing for you to do now. She touched his arm with her hand. Let us wait for tomorrow. Please, let us wait. And then, tomorrow, it is your right to question me and send me back, if I'm not welcome. But not tonight. All this is too fine, just you and your people and their happiness. He bent his head to catch her words, almost drowned by the hissing of a skyrocket and the popping of firecrackers. She nodded toward the building beyond his cabin. I'm with Keok and Navadlok. They have given me a home. And then swiftly she added, I don't think you love your people more than I do, Alan Halt. Navadlok was approaching, and with a lingering touch of her fingers on his arm, she drew away from him. His face did not show his disappointment, nor did he make a movement to keep her with him. Your people are expecting things of you, she said. A little later, if you ask me, I may dance with you to the music of the tomtoms. He watched her as she went away with Navadlok. She looked back at him and smiled, and there was something in her face which set his heart beating faster. She had been afraid aboard the ship, but she was not afraid of tomorrow. Thought of it and the questions he would ask did not frighten her, and a happiness which he had persistently held away from himself triumphed in a sudden, submerging flood. It was as if something in her eyes and voice had promised him that the dreams he had dreamt through weeks of torture and living death were coming true, and that possibly, in her ride over the tundra that night, she had come a little nearer to the truth of what those weeks had meant to him. Surely he would never quite be able to tell her, and what she said to him tomorrow would in the end make little difference. She was alive, and he could not let her go away from him again. He joined the tomtom beaters and the dancers. It rather amazed him to discover himself doing things which he had never done before. His nature was an aloof one, observing and sympathetic, but always more or less detached. At his people's dances it was his habit to stand on the sideline, smiling and nodding encouragement, but never taking apart. His habit of reserve fell from him now, and he seemed possessed of a new sense of freedom and a new desire to give physical expression to something within him. Stampede was dancing. He was kicking his feet and howling with the men, while the women dancers went through the muscular movements of arms and bodies. A chorus of voices invited Alan. They had always invited him, and tonight he accepted and took his place between Stampede and Amok Tully, and the tomtom beaters almost burst their instruments in their excitement. Not until he dropped out half-breathless did he see Mary Standish and Kyok in the outer circle. Kyok was frankly amazed. Mary Standish's eyes were shining, and she clapped her hands when she saw that he had observed her. He tried to laugh and waved his hand, but he felt too foolish to go to her. And then the balloon went up, a big six-foot balloon, and with all its fire made only paid glow in the sky, and after another hour of handshaking, shoulder-clapping, and asking her questions about health and domestic matters, Alan went to his cabin. He looked about the one big room that was his living room, and it never had seemed quite so comforting as now. At first he thought it was as he had left it, for there was his desk, where it should be, the big table in the middle of the room, the same pictures on the walls, his gun rack filled with polished weapons, his pipes, the rugs on the floor, and then, one at a time, he began to observe things that were different. In place of dark shades, there were soft curtains at his windows, and new covers on his table, and the homemade couch in the corner. On his desk were two pictures in copper-colored frames, one of George Washington and the other of Abraham Lincoln, and behind them criss-crossed against the wall, just over the top of the desk, were four tiny American flags. They recalled Alan's mind to the evening aboard the Gnome, when Maristadish had challenged his assertion that he was an Alaskan and not an American. Only she would have thought of those two pictures and the little flags. There were flowers in his room, and she had placed them there. She must have picked fresh flowers each day, and kept them waiting the hour of his coming, and she had thought of him in Tanana, where she had purchased the cloth for the curtains and the covers. He went into his bedroom, and found new curtains at the window, a new coverlet on his bed, and a pair of red Morocco slippers that he had never seen before. He took them up in his hands and laughed when he saw how she had misjudged the size of his feet. In the living room he sat down and lighted his pipe, observing that Kyok's phonograph, which had been there earlier in the evening, was gone. Outside the noise of the celebration died away, and the growing stillness drew him to the window from which he could see the cabin where lived Kyok and Navadlok, with their foster father, the old and showered Sokvenna. It was there Mary Standish had said she was staying. For a long time Alan watched it, while the final sounds of night drifted away into utter silence. It was a knock at his door that turned him about at last, and in answer to his invitation Stampede came in. He nodded and sat down. Shiftingly his eyes travelled about the room. There been a fine night Alan, everybody glad to see you. They seemed to be. I'm happy to be home again. Mary Standish did a lot. She fixed up this room. I guessed as much replied Alan. Of course Kyok and Navadlok helped her. Not very much. She did it, made the curtains, put them pictures and flags there, picked the flowers, been nice and thoughtful, hasn't she? And somewhat unusual, added Alan. And she's pretty? Most decidedly so. There was a puzzling look in Stampede's eyes. He twisted nervously in his chair and waited for words. Alan sat down opposite him. What's on your mind Stampede? Hell mostly, shot back Stampede with sudden desperation. I've come loaded down with a dirty job and I've kept it back this long because I didn't want to spoil your fun tonight. I guess a man ought to keep to himself what he knows about a woman, but I'm thinking this is a little different. I hate to do it. I'd rather take the chance of a snake bite, but you'd shoot me if you knew I was keeping it to myself. Keeping what to yourself? The truth, Alan. It's up to me to tell you what I know about this young woman who calls herself Maristandish. End of Chapter 15 of the Alaskan by James Oliver Kerwood, read by Lars Rolander. Chapter 16 of the Alaskan. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer please visit LibriVox.org. The Alaskan by James Oliver Kerwood. Chapter 16. The physical sign of strain in Stampede's face, and a stolid effort he was making to say something which it was difficult for him to put into words, did not excite Alan as he waited for his companion's promise disclosure. Instead of suspense he felt rather a sense of anticipation and relief. What he had passed through recently had burned out of him a certain demand upon human ethics, which had been almost callous in its insistence, and while he believed that something very real and very stern in the way of necessity had driven Maristandish north, he was now anxious to be given the privilege of gripping with any force of circumstance that had turned against her. He wanted to know the truth, yet he had dreaded the moment when the girl herself must tell it to him. And the fact that Stampede had in some way discovered this truth, and was about to make disclosure of it, was a tremendous lightning of the situation. Go on, he said at last. What do you know about Maristandish? Stampede leaned over the table, a gleam of distress in his eyes. It's rotten, I know it. A man who backslides on a woman the way I'm gonna ought to be shot. And if it was anything else, anything, I'd keep it to myself. But you've got to know, and you can't understand just how rotten it is either. You haven't ridden in a coach with her during a storm that was blowing the pacific out of bed, and you haven't hit the trail with her all the way from Chitina to the range as I did. If you'd done that, Alan, you'd feel like killing a man who said anything against her. I'm not inquiring into your personal affairs, reminded Alan. It's your own business. That's the trouble, protested Stampede. It's not my business. It's yours. If I'd guessed the truth before we hit the range, everything would have been different. I'd have rid myself of her some way, but I didn't find out what she was until this evening, when I returned Kioch's music machine to their cabin. I've been trying to make up my mind what to do ever since, if she was only making her get away from the States. A pickpocket, a coiner, somebody's bunco pigeon chased by the police, almost anything we could forgive her. Even if she shot up somebody, he made a gesture of despair. But she didn't. She's worse than that. He leaned a little nearer to Alan. She's one of John Graham's tools sent up here to sneak and spy on you, he finished desperately. I'm sorry, but I've got the proof. His hand crept over the top of the table, slowly the closed palm opened. And when he drew it back, a crumpled paper lay between them. Found it on the floor when I took the phonograph back, he explained. It was twisted up hard. Don't know why I unrolled it, just chance. He waited until Alan had read the few words on the bit of paper, watching closely the slight tensing of the other's face. After a moment, Alan dropped the paper, rose to his feet, and went to the window. There was no longer a light in the cabin where Mary Standish had been accepted as a guest. Stampede, too, had risen from his seat. He saw the sudden and almost imperceptible shrug of Alan's shoulders. It was Alan who spoke, after a half mixture of silence. Rather a missing link, isn't it? Adds up a number of things fairly well, and I'm grateful to you, Stampede. Almost, you didn't tell me. Almost, admitted Stampede. And I wouldn't have blamed you. She's that kind, the kind that makes you feel anything said against her is a lie. And I'm going to believe that paper is a lie, until tomorrow. Will you take a message to Tautuk and Amuk Tulik when you go out? I'm having breakfast at seven. Tell them to come to my cabin with their reports and records at eight. Later I'm going up into the foothills to look over the herds. Stampede nodded. It was a good fight on Alan's part, and it was just the way he had expected him to take the matter. It made him rather ashamed of the weakness and uncertainty to which he had confessed. Of course they could do nothing with a woman. It wasn't a shooting business yet, but there was a debatable future if the gist of the note on the table ran true to their unspoken analysis of it. Promise of something like that was in Alan's eyes. He opened the door. I'll have Tautuk and Amuk Tulik here at eight. Good night, Alan. Good night. Alan watched Stampede's figure until it had disappeared before he closed the door. Now that he was alone, he no longer made an effort to restrain the anxiety which the prospector's unexpected revealment had aroused in him. The other's footsteps were scarcely gone when he again had the paper in his hand. It was clearly the lower part of a letter sheet of ordinary business size and had been carelessly torn from the larger part of the page so that nothing more than the signature and half a dozen lines of writing and a man's heavy script remained. What was left of the letter which Alan would have given much to a possessed read as follows. If you work carefully and guard your real identity in securing facts and information, we should have the entire industry in our hands within a year. Under these words was the strong and unmistakable signature of John Graham. A score of times Alan had seen that signature and the hatred he bore for its maker and the desire for vengeance which had entwined itself like a fibrous plant through all his plans for the future had made of it an unforgettable writing in his brain. Now that he had held in his hand words written by his enemy and the man who had been his father's enemy all that he kept away from stampede sharp eyes blazed in a sudden fury in his face. He dropped the paper as if it had been a thing unclean and his hands clenched until his knuckles snapped in the stillness of the room as he slowly faced the window through which a few moments ago he had looked in the direction of Mary Standish's cabin. So John Graham was keeping his promise the deadly promise he had made in the one hour of his father's triumph that hour in which the elder Holt might have rid the earth of a serpent if his hands had not revolted in the last of those terrific minutes which he as a youth had witnessed and Mary Standish was the instrument he had chosen to work his ends. In these first minutes Alan could not find a doubt with which to fend the absoluteness of the convictions which were raging in his head or still the tumult that was in his heart and blood. He made no pretense to deny the fact that John Graham must have written this letter to Mary Standish. Inadvertently she had kept it and finally attempted to destroy it and stampede by chance had discovered a small but convincing remnant of it. In a whirlwind of thought he pieced together things that had happened. Her efforts to interest him from the beginning, the determination with which she had held to her purpose, her boldness in following him to the range, and her apparent endeavor to work herself into his confidence and with John Graham's signature staring at him from the table these things seemed conclusive and irrefutable evidence. The industry which Graham had referred to could mean only his own and Carl Lohmans, the reindeer industry which they had built up and were fighting to perpetuate and which Graham and his beef-barren friends were combining to handicap and destroy, and in this game of destruction Clever Mary Standish had come to play a part. But why had she leapt into the sea? It was as if a new voice had made itself heard in Alan's brain, a voice that rose insistently over a vast tumult of things, crying out against his arguments and demanding order and reason in place of the mad convictions that possessed him. If Mary Standish's mission was to pave the way for his ruin, and if she was John Graham's agent sent for that purpose, what reason could she have had for so dramatically attempting to give the world the impression that she had ended her life at sea? Surely such an act could in no way have been related with any plot which she might have had against him. In building up this structure of her defense he made no effort to sever her relationship with John Graham. That he knew was impossible. The note, her actions, and many of the things she had said were links inevitably associating her with his enemy. But these same things, now that they came pressing one upon another in his memory, gave to their conclusion a new significance. Was it conceivable that Mary Standish, instead of working for John Graham, was working against him? Could some conflict between them have been the reason for her flight aboard the Gnome? And was it because she discovered Rosalind there, John Graham's most trusted servant, that she formed her desperate scheme of leaping into the sea? Between the two oppositions of his thought, a sickening burden of what he knew to be true settled upon him. Mary Standish, even if she hated John Graham now, had at one time and not very long ago been an instrument of his trust. The letter he had written to her was positive proof of that. What it was that had caused a possible split between them, and had inspired her flight from Seattle, and later her effort to bury a past under the fraud of make-believe death he might never learn. And just now he had no very great desire to look entirely into the whole truth of the matter. It was enough to know that of the past and of the things that happened she had been afraid, and it was in the desperation of this fear with Graham's cleverest agent at her heels that she had appealed to him in his cabin, and failing to win him to her assistance had taken the matter so dramatically into her own hands. And within that same hour a nearly successful attempt had been made upon Rosalind's life. Of course the facts had shown that she could not have been directly responsible for his injury, but it was a haunting thing to remember as happening almost simultaneously with her disappearance into the sea. He drew away from the window, and opening the door went out into the night. Cool breath of air gave a crinkly rattle to the swinging paper lanterns, and he could hear the soft whipping of the flags which Mary Standish had placed over the cabin. There was something comforting in the sound, a solace to the dishevelment of nerves he had suffered, a reminder of the day in Skagway when she had walked at his side with her hand resting warmly in his arm, and her eyes and face filled with the inspiration of the mountains. No matter what she was or had been there was something tenaciously admirable about her, a quality which had risen even above her feminine loveliness. She had proved herself not only clever, she was inspired by courage. A courage which he would have been compelled to respect even in a man like John Graham, and in this slim and fragile girl it appealed to him as a virtue to be laid up apart and aside from any of the motives which might be directing it. From the beginning it had been a bewildering part of her, a clean swift unhesitating courage that had leaped bounds where his own volition and judgment would have hung waveringly, that one courage in all the world, a woman's courage, which finds in the effort of its achievement no obstacle too high and no abyss too wide, though death waits without reaching arms on the other side. And surely where there had been all this there must also have been some deeper and finer impulse than one of destruction, a physical gain, or of mere duty in the weaving of a human scheme. The thought and the desire to believe brought words half allowed from Allen's lips, and he looked up again at the flags beating softly above his cabin. Mary Standish was not what Stampede's discovery had proclaimed her to be. There was some mistake, a monumental stupidity of reasoning on their part, and tomorrow would reveal the littleness and the injustice of their suspicions. He tried to force the conviction upon himself, and re-entering the cabin he went to bed, still telling himself that a great lie had built itself up out of nothing, and that the God of all things was good to him because Mary Standish was alive and not dead.