 propped up against a white boring wall right now and that's because this is my first video in the new apartment oh i do have an update on my weight so hey guys rye after razi here and thank you so much first of all for sticking around when uh there was this huge birth of time big birth of time where there were no videos coming out from me i've been overwhelmed as i've talked about numerous videos at this point but i think i think i'm in a place now where i'm going to prioritize making videos and putting them out on a consistent regular basis for myself and for y'all now you're probably wondering why i propped up against a white boring wall right now and that's because this is my first video in the new so i want to show you this apartment that i was so excited for for multiple videos and finally moved in we've actually been here for just over a month a month in two days we're like 90 95 percent there and by we i mean my boyfriend and i bow he was in the last video and and dukey let's not forget duke no one could ever forget dukey and we're about 99 95 percent moved in you know we still need some furniture pieces and things like that but for the most part it's really starting to feel like home and that's really exciting and i love it here i love it here don't make me leave okay so yeah let's so here we are where are we right now we are in my new office lovely okay i'm gonna i know i'm sure i'm making you dizzy right now i'm just me and myself dizzy this is the office well actually rewind let's go to the front door and do the grand official tour from the beginning okay let's go bye so this is the three-way i don't really have you'll notice i don't really have anything on the walls yet so a little closet and opening here cool cool and then into the first bathroom this is the guest bathroom if you will which has a nice little bathtub but wanted to get one of these bamboo things so you can put your like you know your ipad or whatever your book a little glass of wine whatever you want if you will while you're taking a nice relaxing bath and yeah okay one of the next room down the hall oh and it's got this nifty nest thing i i mean i've heard of it but i never never used it myself until now but it will i can i can like set the temperature remotely from an app and then when i leave the apartment it knows and it'll go into eco mode which means that it'll stop cooling and it'll let it go up to like 77 78 degrees and once i enter the apartment it'll start cooling again sweet right so this is my office i still don't have my uh that the like wall tiles up yet i think i might want to get like a neon written sign just make it a little more lively than the last one last one was literally just those white panels and so i want to you know add some more character to it but yeah this is where i'm doing a lot of work onto the rest of the house my arms getting tired holy crap this thing's heavy i forgot okay this is the kitchen i love this kitchen it's super i mean this whole apartment is super modern contemporary and it's just so streamlined we got these cool um little bar stools to go with it cabinetry here a little hidden fridge not little but a nice hidden fridge freezers down below yeah this is the master we don't have the end tables yet those are coming in a couple days tv this is actually meant for the living room that's why it's so big but um i don't know what we're gonna do yet we've got the two we wanted to mount it on the wall and it's so hard to get anyone to come out and install a tv we were using task rabbit which is if you don't know is an app where you can like hire independent contractors to come out and do like random stuff and i've used it before it's great but we've gone through so many different task rabbits who confirmed and then like the day before would cancel and i think that's just a recurring problem with people working in general and employees like it's hard to find people to work and to commit and to come through anyway okay check out this view so this is the rest of the building over here and then this is the view of la pretty cool right pretty sweet so that is the view and on we go into the closet arguably one of the most important features in the apartment nice walk in built-in little dresser this is my dresser and then the master uh this bathroom just screams serenity and peace and clean nice shower it's i'm i'm so grateful and happy to be living here this is like this is a big stepping stone for me and it is an important waypoint for me and marker um as i build my career in what i'm doing and it's just so nice to live somewhere that feels like you know i'm like excited to come home and spend time here so these windows all around the apartment um are floor to ceiling and these blind there's blinds for all of them and they come up and down that goes all the way through to the bedroom and there's some on this wall too facing our patio excuse me and this is not just some basic patio this is a nice patio and so it's not a lot of people put this astro turf out here so i just lay down the big grass and then i'm gonna get a little like area rug to go right here and then eventually actually monday which is in two days i'm gonna have some furniture to go out here tables get some plants make it really like homey like a nice outdoor zen of vibes so that i can enjoy being outside in my own private like space and dukey loves it too huh dukey dukey you like the apartment babies do you like it yeah you do duke's like seriously opened up so much he's way more chill he's like not afraid to walk around the apartment and explore things and go up to windows and he's super playful like this has just been such a solid move for dukey huh babies oh boy oh thank you he's so sweet he's so sweet so anyway yeah that is the tour of the apartment itself maybe one of these days i'll take you through through the amenities when i'm not feeling embarrassed to go walk around with the camera in my hand but yeah i'll do that eventually but this is our beautiful two bedroom two bathroom apartment with a balcony and a high rise in downtown la it's like it's pretty amazing all right so i had my workout this morning and i want to try out this new protein batter i got so i'm gonna reach out to man instagram and they wanted to send me some vegan protein batter i've never had vegan i've always done away which is dairy and so i want to try it out and i figure why not try it out with you guys i'm not being sponsored they didn't offer me free product in exchange for doing a social post or anything like that i just think whenever there's something like new and interesting that i can try out i would much rather try it out with you guys and share the experience with you and i'm gonna be totally honest so i have no like you know steak in the game i have no reason to like pretend to like this protein if i don't like it or whatever so here we go not to mention this is like free promo for this company whatevs you know i firmly believe that first of all i don't want to be the type of person who wants to make a dollar off of every single little thing that's not that's not who i am that's not how i want to be and i also believe that when you're giving of yourself and without letting other people's take advantage of you when you're giving of yourself and you have that generous spirit and you kind of just help people out here and there help companies and brands and whatever then it'll come back to you tenfold that's biblical okay so i'm not sure how to pronounce this company actually new zest new new zest new zest maybe let me focus in on that this is news new zest or new zest kind of reminds me of nudist but so this is clean lean protein machine rich chocolate so it got rich chocolate and then there's also smooth vanilla it says it's vegan gluten-free dairy-free soy-free lectin-free it says there's 20 grams 20 to zero grams of protein per two scoops i wonder if these scoops are kind of small because that seems like so this is the smooth vanilla smooth vanilla not really i usually actually i never get vanilla protein i'm supposed to cream it um because i'm not a big vanilla person i love chocolate i'm a sucker for chocolate so actually these are pretty decent size scoops so that's the scoop size and it says two of these and this is obviously like a sample bottle size so let's try it out and let's use their little shaker they gave me okay i hate i hate i'm not i'm not i'm not bashing this company's shaker but like this is just common in a lot of shakers it has this free little like springy ball in it and it helps break up the protein chunks and helps mix it but i found that most most but i found that most good quality protein you don't need you don't even need this little thing i throw that away i always just use the shaker bottle in the top and i shake it and it mixes just fine i don't like those things they're loud and clingy and it's just it's just an extra part that you end up losing or it gets lodged in your dishwasher whatever it's not necessary oh it's made by blender bottle that's why blender bottle always has these balls in it that's actually part of the logo all right let's try the vanilla because i never i never do vanilla because i'm like i don't want it but who knows maybe i'll love it maybe i'll switch okay add water let's see the recommended amount because that makes a big difference guys if you ever mix like a protein or even a pre-workout or something like that and you're like this tastes disgusting check the instructions to see how much water they're actually saying to put in there because oftentimes it's way less than what you think and it makes it taste better or if it's too strong add more water to dilute it and then you get like a kind of a lighter flavor that might be more palatable for you so this is saying to add i don't see any instructions on how much water to add which is interesting because usually when they do their quality control and they check to see how it tastes there's an optimal amount of water that you want to add and they recommend that to people so that they there's a better chance that they'll like it but so i'm here that's something i would recommend put on how much is the recommended amount of water anyway small detail let me add some water too thick 12 ounces hmm let me try that again okay so when it was too thick i'm tasting i feel like i'm right now i'm tasting some artificial sweetener p protein isolate natural vanilla flavor and thao thao thao matin thao matin i need to look up what that is really quick first of all well when it was really thick um the vanilla flavor was pretty pronounced and it was good now that it's more like a normal protein shake consistency but i would consider normal consistency the flavor really falls flat and it's really watery and i don't care for it i if i would have known i would have left it at like eight ounces of water six to eight ounces of water but then it would have been really thick which is so that's weird to me okay i'm looking up thao thao matin t-h-a-u-m-a-t-i-n uh clean lean protein natural sweetener that's what it is thao matin is a low calorie sweetener and flavor modifier the protein is often it's a protein the protein is often used primarily for its flavor modifying properties and not exclusively as a sweetener the thao matins were first found as a mixture of proteins isolated from the ketempe fruit of west africa how interesting is that so i guess it's a natural sweetener kind of like stevia kind of has that stevia quality it's not terrible the sweetener i still think as it stands with almost 12 ounces of water in here this protein is not good it's just not it mixed really well and i have a problem with that um it's not grainy there's no lumps so the consistency is good but that vanilla it just falls flat so i'm actually going to dump this out and i'm gonna try the protein see if i like that better this one is rich chocolate let's see how rich this chocolate is it needs to be pretty rich excuse me to impress these taste buds scoop number one scoop number two see now had they labeled the bottle with the appropriate amount of water then i would have known not to add 12 ounces so i'm gonna only add eight to 10 ounces of water and then we'll go from there i was so thick it's almost like pudding okay let's go up to 10 ounces remember the first time i had 12 ounces and it was like too watery so i add a little bit it's just over eight try it again that's better i'm honestly disappointed it's pea protein pea protein i feel like is notoriously hard to make taste good it's just not enjoyable to drink now for someone like me if i if it's really important for me to go for a vegan protein oh no i don't like that after taste some really bitter jarring i don't like that yeah i don't i'm not a fan of this protein sorry sorry news is but um okay sorry i had to swap out the battery so i think with this brand i actually prefer the vanilla and i think if i keep it at eight to nine ounces um then it'll taste good and it'll be just about the right consistency and something's wrong with that chocolate flavor it's not it's bitter it's almost dark chocolatey which i love dark chocolate but then it just has this like overwhelming bitter quality that's not it's not a good bitter we're gonna try this vanilla we're gonna do it right let's give it let's give it a fair shake so to speak it's mild it's clean it's well mixed it's smooth it doesn't have any bitterness whatsoever very clean one minor gripe about this is that at eight to nine ounces it's a little thick just a little thick it's kind of makes you go like okay i would add some more water to this if i didn't think that it was gonna detract from the flavor but also to that it's solid it's solid i i could i could recommend this and be okay with it and have a clear conscious i just wouldn't run to the store or online necessarily to buy this now like i was saying if i if it was really important to me to get a vegan protein and this is a brand that i was familiar with and i would go with the vanilla and i would be perfectly content and i'd be good to go and that'd be fine it's fine i'm not loud but it's fine yeah and just in general i want to communicate that i've been incorporating more vegan products into my diet like uh impossible beef and beyond burger so eventually going vegan with my protein will be nice but i'm not going to do it any sooner than um my ability to find a product a protein that i enjoy and like to drink as much as the one i like to drink now oh i do have an update on my weight so as a lot of you guys know my peak weight about a month and a half two months ago was 203 pounds that's the most i've ever weighed the most since before the pandemic that i had ever weighed was probably like 175 i think so to be 203 was mind blowing and soul crushing in a lot of ways but i've been working on dieting since then and going back to the gym and incorporating exercise being more mindful of things like that and so i've managed to lose about seven pounds give or take of fat and that fluctuates day to day which is totally normal it's i'm sure it does for you as well and it is normal so don't worry about weight fluctuations that are like two three pounds um and i'm gonna keep doing this i'm gonna keep updating on my weight loss journey and the things that i'm doing with my diet and stuff like that i'm still eating factor 75 meals i'm getting a little sick of some of the the meals so i'm gonna see if there's more options that i can switch to and try i noticed that a lot of their meals have a lot of like sauce a lot of cream a lot of cheese and it's sometimes i don't want all that something sometimes i just want something that's like really fresh and healthy and light it doesn't have a bunch of sauce and shit in it you know what i mean anyway that's where i'm at so far making progress i'm doing great let me know how you guys are doing in the comments ask me your questions if you want to ask them i'm trying to be more active on on social media in general instagram whatnot i went through a bunch of questions that i hadn't touched in like four months so i'm slowly slowly getting the train moving back up again um like this video if you liked it subscribe if you haven't subscribed share this video this channel with other people that you might think are would benefit from it the to the hiv community people who are newly diagnosed people who are struggling or who just might benefit from seeing more people like themselves who are thriving surviving you know living their best life and as well as the lgbtq community i want to do more of that type of content mental health fitness um this this channel is overall is just about living your best life living to your potential and really taking charge of your life and not being a victim to it taking ownership and responsibility and with that said i'm out i'll be back soon i've got more great content coming for you