 I guess everyone can only see their own situation. The situation that I'm in is that I can see the birds. I think they will really be heartbroken. I see how much we take away from birds. Imagine you're in a place where there's no one like you and you finally find that partner and then you don't have them anymore. That's what hurts me so much. Birds that just don't get that chance all the time. Come on, Blue. Let's go. Hello, everyone. My name is Marlee McCohen and this is Leo. And we want to welcome you to our channel. But we have someone else who wants to welcome you to the channel as well. And that is Blue, where we're going. And Blue's going to come in here now. All right. Blue will be back. Crazy fun fact, guys. This is the third time I am filming this and I'm filming it with my phone. Because apparently my camera audio didn't work with my first mic. Didn't work with my second mic. And so now we are here on my phone. So if it feels like I'm looking somewhere weird, it's because it's suddenly a different camera for me. So anyway. Okay. Hello. For those of you who are new to my channel, welcome. If you love birds, you're going to love this channel. What are you doing? You want to go see Blue? Okay. If you love animals, you're really going to love the channel. If you don't know anything about birds, then this is going to be a very interesting channel for you. So please subscribe. I'm almost at 200,000. And I'm really excited about 200,000. Numbers doesn't really mean anything. It just, you know, sometimes it's just milestones that are exciting to meet. Anyway, guys, I would say this is the second hardest video I've ever had to make in my life. Except it's technically now the fourth hardest video because it's the third time on this one. First hardest video was me losing my bird Picasso. Go back and watch that. If you have found my Picasso, a mustache, any time within the last two years, then maybe you found my Picasso. So you guys are probably wondering why this video is going to be so hard and it's some really, really sad news. And this is very hard for me to do. And so, yeah. And for those of you who are completely new I've got to give you some backstory. And for those of you who have never been to this channel before, this will also help. I'm going to make this quick. Long story short, Blue, the blue bird that was following Leo around and is also watching Leo intently right now, was given to me by a viewer who fell upon hard times. She became homeless and she contacted me and asked me to take in her bird. And I did. I thought it would only be a few months, but it turned out to be a year. Naturally, of course, I've gotten really attached to the bird as has George and everybody that is here all the time. But so has Leo. So this video is particularly hard for me because I have to say goodbye to Blue, a bird that has been in my care for a year. Imagine you have a dog for a year or any other animal. Imagine how heartbreaking that is. But that isn't just the hardest thing. I think the hardest thing for me is the bond that Blue and Leo have. They eat together. They preen each other. They sleep together. They wait for each other. One isn't happy without the other. So being here and seeing it firsthand, it's just very heartbreaking. I feel bad. I feel like Blue is going to be like, where are you taking me? What are you doing? Did I do something wrong? This is not exactly... Blue has changed a lot in this year. For one thing, they thought Blue was a female and Blue just recently got his ring in the last malt. So it could only be like 17, 18, 19 months old at NACS. You could see how this is very hard for me. I don't know how Blue is going to handle it and I don't know how Leo is going to handle it. I'm really hoping for the best but I gave them my word that I would take their bird until they were on their feet and now they're on their feet and I have to honor my word. So that's where we're at. So all of my sadness doesn't come from a place of me thinking they can't take care of the bird at all. It's just literally the loss that I am feeling. So I just wanted to make a sit-down video and tell you guys this. Yesterday I stayed home from class because I was literally depressed about the situation. It hurts my heart so much. Just, you know, the loss for the birds. I don't know if they know. I'm telling them, I stayed up till 6 a.m. last night with both the birds so they could have every last moment together. Just like sitting there watching them like sleep together, hang out together. You can see how they follow each other. This really breaks my heart but on the plus side, these are two people that have gotten their lives together. A lot of you have donated to their GoFundMe and, you know, I'm sure that helped them in their time of need. So thank you guys for that. And because of that, that's why we're going down there today ourselves to drop off the bird and make sure that you guys could see full circle of, you know, how things turned out, what happens when you, you know, support a GoFundMe or, you know, a story that you see on here just like I always want to be able to follow up to see where things are. I'm just trying to guess what kind of comments there would be so I'm just trying to answer questions before. There's a lot of things I could have or should have done differently. You know, I didn't foresee any of this. I didn't know I'd have the bird for so long. I didn't know even that he would get attached to Leo. I didn't know how hard that would be. If it was just my attachment, then, you know, okay, it's your bird. But there are two other birds involved and either or could result to flucking, sadness, depression, loss of appetite. And I really hope she has the skills to look out for those signs in blue. And I will tell her that, of course. I know a lot of you will say, because I saw it on Parrot Station, like to her, well, why don't you just let Marlene keep them? They're already bonded. I totally understand, you know, if it was Picasso, I would want Picasso back. I guess everyone can only see their own situation. The situation that I'm in is that I can see the birds. I think they will really be heartbroken. I think I tried to say this in the last video that I made that you guys obviously didn't get to see is like, my birds are mostly rescues. So, you know, I see how much we take away from birds and, you know, these birds rely on us as humans and that's not natural. And the problem with that is they have a hard time even finding a bird that they would want to mate with or partner up. Obviously, these are both males, so it's not an issue of that, but still they bond and befriend each other and get attachments. So, imagine you're in a place where there's no one like you and you finally find that partner and you don't have them anymore. That's what hurts me so much is that that's happening to like birds that just don't get that chance all the time. But, blue will probably be getting a lot of soul attention over there and I'm sure that will be good for blue and just in case you guys ask, I did not say to her anything. I didn't offer. I didn't feel like there was an opening for me to say like, hey, let me get you another bird because I saw that some of you suggested that. I didn't feel like that was appropriate so I did not put that out there but what I did put out there is that if for any reason you feel that blue is unhappy, please know that blue is welcome back here and I will find you another bird. I think the bird is probably very different now, you know? So that's where I'm at. I'm going to make this video to keep you guys updated, let you know that that's what's about to happen, let you know how I feel about it, give you guys as much details as I possibly can. I don't often do many sit-downs anymore but this next video I hope you guys stay tuned will be me giving, you know, blue back and it will probably be a very bittersweet thing because how amazing that they were able to get back on their feet. So I'm very proud of them a lot of success in their new endeavor. I believe they will be successful and be able to follow their dreams. If you guys witness anything from this and hopefully it goes well, then we all know that even if you fall on the hardest of times you can turn your life around. I hope you can use this as an inspiration. I hope you stay tuned to see what happens. I love you guys so much. Don't forget to support my work on spreading the Engage Not Caged word with videos on Patreon. My Patreon is my Flyders Club so when I say hello Flyders, that's what I'm talking about. Hope you guys notice I did blue eyeshadow today for blue. I chose to have you guys support me making the videos rather than my work with Burt specifically because I feel like that is what I can honestly offer to the world is more videos and that helps me pay for an editor and helps me get videos out earlier for you guys on Patreon and do more and bigger things that we've been able to give back through. So thank you for that guys. I love you so much.