 People didn't realize what was going on with me and I was carrying around a secret. It was like carrying around unexploded ordnance like I knew at some point this is gonna go off. I sat down with a small group of people and they were the first people that I ever told I had a I had a major issue on my hands. Their reaction was concerned. It wasn't it wasn't disappointment. It wasn't anger. It was that they looked at me and the mess that I was and they said we got to be there for this guy and I wish I would have known I wish I would have understood that that's how it was gonna play out. The main thing I would say to anyone who knows that they're carrying around a secret and a burden and a problem is do not be afraid to seek help.