 Oh girl, it's hot. Look at this floor. I just did these floors this morning Got a call from my mom this morning and that my Fathers one of his brothers has passed away and I feel Ridiculously horrible for them y'all because this is their first sibling on my The first sibling that my father has lost and so I know this is gonna be difficult for them and And I was able to see him my uncle David when I was in Texas last time. So we are you know, definitely Was blessed to do that. Is this I Hate that I'm out here right now because My gut instinct was telling me and I I already had it in my head That I knew that my family members will be passing away with you know Because we that's just a part of life deaf is a part of life Now I'm gonna be 41 this year and My mom is in her 60s and she's the baby. So yeah, that means that my dad is a middle child He's only 64. So yeah, that means that you know, eventually people are gonna start passing away so I just did of course none of us first first saw a pandemic so You know, it was funny. I was over Ms. Lori's house When I'm going through stuff I tend to I don't necessarily say that I am I Keep it in cuz I don't grow what is that? Oh, sorry I don't necessarily keep it in but I need to be by myself for a while I do I don't necessarily internalize things, but I need to be by myself for a while I Don't need to be around people other people that are going through stuff or people in general I'm introvert at heart really so She kept you know, Miss Lori kept asking me if there are things. Okay, are you okay? I'm okay. I'm fine I'm just I need to be in a certain mindset and I'll come over and speak to you guys. So Hey, I was it two or three days ago. I went over there and She was basically like, you know She was just asking me what happened with my cousin and I my little cousins, you know, and babies And I told her what happened and she basically was like, you know, she's like see when stuff like this happens It makes me wonder like how can there be a God and this happens and I looked at her I said absolutely not because this is where faith comes into play and I get it you guys It's okay to question, you know, and And it's okay to question and ask why but this is what I think is is the confusing part for People who are not Christians or non-believers in general is and I've had this discussion with her, you know before and she's like how can When the man around the corner killed his entire family and she's like, how can God let that happen? I said, that's my God. She you see when I'm saying that's not God doing that That is the enemy that is that was that man Acting out on sin and doing that at the end of the day We are not immune from bad things happening if anything gets gonna get worse because the enemy is gonna want to Put throw everything at you to make you not believe to question why You know what I mean, but I told I said, oh, no I come from a believing family and we tap into our fix so as soon as I heard that about my cousin I immediately got to the scriptures looking at words of comfort words of peace so I can have that Good morning y'all. It is early girl. What time is it? It's a little off the five o'clock. Yeah, this is me. I get up early. It is It's Saturday yesterday Y'all I am the neutral person Meaning It's just my personality. I guess I'm the neutral friend Don't put me in the middle of your bullshit though I'm just gonna say that but I tend to be the neutral friend I'm the person that everybody gets along with not everybody but mostly people get along with so yesterday I went over to Miss Lori's house my friend and neighbor and I was cracking up because if I go to this side of the house These people are talking about the other people in the house if I go on this side They talking to me about those people itself and I'm not the type of person I don't care any information to the other party. I just listen. I laugh my ass off But I'm also a type of person. I don't take sides What's right, what's right, what's wrong, what's wrong, and if you get mad you get mad and I've had those conversations over there One time Let me tell you something baby, I'm honest if you don't like it, you don't like it So one time I was over there and I had a couple of drinks. We were all over there. We were partying I had a couple of drinks with them and So I told my friend I said this is a dysfunctional ass house and the other lady that was there her friend it was there was a green with me and laughing and Ms. Lori didn't like that and I said if you don't get mad get mad at me don't get mad at her She doesn't want to get mad at me y'all I'm not getting mad at me if you don't get mad don't get mad at her because I guess when I love when I said that when I love She snapped off on her. That's what you get mad at her for I'm the one that said it and I'll say it again This is a dysfunctional ass house and even her husband agreed with me But anyway, long story short. I said if you want someone to lie to you you could you know I'm not just seeing just think in line to you. What's so funny a honey? I had so many drinks I forgot just seeing was sitting up there at Justine was there in the kitchen. Justine turned around. She's like, um, is everything okay? I said, yeah, justine. Hey girl Anyway, y'all this is a comforter I got now, you know, this is a good comforter because they back himself this this comes with just a comforter and two pillow shells the euro pillow shims, I believe and This was on herself for $49 originally was a hundred and fifty nine three way fair All right, you guys I am here to take down my hair. This is my first wash and go for the year so girl I'm looking like some backup singer for Prince. I don't know why I had it like that. Oh Lord child, how much money you have now like a little over 20 a little bit Okay, okay Okay, all right. So the first thing we're gonna do is lightly spray my hair I know it's kind of redundant the middle of my hair is still wet like right here The crown she's still wet So let's lightly spray That's it. Take off my glasses shake my head we're gonna allow her to Continue to fall and air dry naturally naturally girl just air dry Girl and then tomorrow I mean tonight, I'll do the same thing put my cuz it's still wet in the bag tonight I'll do the same thing Put my hair in little mini pineapples and then put my bunny on and then tomorrow She should be after them, but definitely girl Texas in two years and so yes I'm excited y'all. I need to be close to my family right now I really does help, you know to be because we don't have any family and I just Got my tribe of friends here and and Phoenix within the last five years But that's not enough for me right now So excited. Yes, I just want to share that y'all and I will be Joining on joining that are vlogging that process of moving back. It's gonna be a while looking me being the organizer I need to go ahead and create my spreadsheet. I mean, I don't don't talk to me too much I need to get a spreadsheet going on what we got to do Yeah, so I'm excited. I can still do my same job and work from home My husband said he'll probably take a couple of months off. I'm like a couple of months. You got that much money I Can I take a couple of no, I gotta work. I want to work. I'll go crazy if I don't work. So I Can work anywhere. I can work anywhere globally actually, but yeah We actually have an office in Irving. So if I wanted to I could work in the office every now I'll be working from home. The good thing about Look Dallas school system is not it and it's not so good either However, there are pockets of black communities which helps like my baby said to just another day He's like, I don't have any black friends It's not sad That is sad. So I've always had it in my back of my head This is why it's so important to visualize yourself Where you want to be even when my husband was I never moved back to Texas. I ain't never moved back to Texas I already had it in my heart and I verbatim said it You know, we have to move back to Texas before this child goes to high school before middle school actually By 10 and we're doing it. Okay, so I'm excited y'all. It's kind of I'm okay because hey, I moved from Texas to here now. We're moving back So I'm okay. My husband has family in Texas to y'all just so you know, he and Jb has cousins. He's never met on my husband's side. He's met his cousins, you know My sister's kids, but again, it's good. It'll be good to be around all that. I'm so excited Christmas with the family and with this COVID ho, though, but Christmas and just holidays Yeah, I could cry like I could seriously cry happy tears God is good though. God is good. Hey you guys it's Friday girl this big ass money It's Friday and I'm ready to swing. It's early. I couldn't sleep y'all I couldn't sleep because I'm so excited about the possibilities So I've already started to tell some people I told my neighbors that are actually from Paris, Texas And they're like, oh my god y'all sad. Y'all should be happy. Most of people I'm telling them that live here I already said y'all should be happy But They're like, okay, they they invited me in my neighbors from Paris, Texas Invited Mike me in to talk to them, which is the first time Sister pandemic kid, but they know that we've been vaccinated anyway But they were like where you and Alex can go but you gonna have to leave the baby here to my Jb girl Just like some grandparents. He actually recommended that I try out that we check out Denton Denton, Texas is near North is Louisville that area Louisville too was recommended. So y'all that's the thing about Dallas it being so spread out like a spider web There's so many pockets that you can look into so those who you don't know. I'm originally from Texas girl Yeah, I should know this by now grew up in Longview, Texas. Let me back up I was actually born in Columbus, Ohio. Most of my family are Texan though Everybody is in Texas in between East Texas Dallas in Houston got a lot of family members in Houston Got some family in California and family in Ohio But full hundred of them are situated there. So anyway Went to school in Denton, Texas where UNT it's that University of North Texas Lift and Irving for a while lift and where do we live it? We lived in Irving then we lived in Los Calinas and then I moved to former's branch Which is all the same area now We were looking at the prices of houses and they have still gone up in Texas too. Wow It used to be About the same So anyway, we're just trying to not go I'm gonna pull up my laptop and start a spreadsheet I'm very organized and so like I stated in the previous clip y'all let me take off this No, that looks even worse Let me just do like this as I stated in the previous clip. We have a two-year plan And one thing that I think is really important is talking about finances, especially as a couple So my husband sometimes doesn't come out right to say so I'm like you need to work on a communication skill so he asked me how much Do I have on my car to pay off and I said, well, I got about as I should have had this car paid off Oh wow y'all y'all been following me since I purchased this car So I have about 6,000 I can I could pay that off soon Honestly, and so he has paid. Thank you God for blessing me with a husband that can provide He's paid off his car One of the reasons why we were I feel like we just stuck in Phoenix and said his job was paying off his stupid loans Yes, baby So he's been with that company for 14 years and for 14 years They were paying off his student loans and I think it's paid I think he's like a couple of a couple of thousands love like less than 5,000 of his student loans And he's done me too, but God is good y'all then what I'm gonna tell you the power of men is manifesting power of prayer Everything is just lining up. I even you know the church that I look to look at online full gospel holy temple which is on Linda being just in a freeway out in Texas. I think that's Irving Texas actually and I said, okay. This is why I tell myself. Okay, when I move back to Texas, that's gonna be my church home I've been saying that for like I Kid you not been seeing this for nine years when I move back to Texas That's gonna be my church home, but I never pushed You know the notion to move back to Texas Texas because again, like I said the huge incentive was getting my husband's student loans paid off and so Yeah, I Looked at a couple of forums Online joined a couple of groups Facebook groups with African-American women and moms and The homeschool laws are pretty simple in Texas too. You don't even have to like here I have to submit a intent to homeschool here in Arizona. You don't have to do that in Texas. So, yeah Even was looking at your for me when my best friend live it, but I don't think she likes it And this help I hasn't even responded to me. I sent her a message message Yesterday and she hasn't even responded so My name is I hell I was even like I told y'all was considering Tyler, but my neighbor said Tyler is not the place My husband lived in Tyler actually for a while. So, yeah, you know, we'll think we still have time I mean, there's so many pockets. Like I said of neighborhoods To consider so once we get down there, it'll be easier, you know what I mean, so You guys this is what my hair looks like. This is what I'm wearing Let me turn this camera around so you actually really see girl Makeup hair wash and go looks good for a change girl. Let's go girl. I Was here they were just working on the Jimmy Choo store the last time I was here. They didn't even have this Put that back