 How does anyone have anything that they want to bring, bring the session or bring up this morning? Is this springboard for discussion? I just had a really intense dream last night. It was all about the desire for a mate, an ideal mate. Leah was in the dream last night. But it seemed clear that it wasn't even so much about wanting a physical mate. It's just wanting somebody that wants you as much as you want them kind of thing and completion because of that. Someone that would want to be with you as much as you want to be with them? Yeah. And I can see the fantasy of how human relationships don't achieve that, but there's still that intense yearning and I was just really getting in touch with them yearning. It's probably a distorted miracle in this. You can make that observation even in subtle forms like that where they think a bit in terms of more along the lines of just companionship than just necessarily a sexual attraction or some of the other things. But even companionship is an ego motivation. Still companionship still has those elements of wanting another body just to be there, just to be able to talk to, just to...at times it's not even the talk. It's just a sense of being with someone else in body. And it still involves the idea of relationships and involving bodies instead of a pure mind relationship. And when you talk about it as an intense yearning, that is getting more to the heart of the ego, that intense yearning, because the ego is continually telling the mind you must seek outside yourself to complete yourself. It is a sense like you use the word completion. It is a real sense that where the thrust of that yearning comes from is this deep, deep feeling of incompletion and so much wanting to be complete. And beyond all idol sections Jesus says, what you are asking for you have every right to ask for. Completion is your inheritance. It's just that you're asking in the wrong place kind of like you're still thinking of completion. You believe that completion lies outside yourself on the screen. So, like you're saying, even the sense of a companionship or just someone to be there with you is still a form of that. And we've talked about it other times as the ego's most special love relationship is the ego's most posted gift. And I've called it other times kind of like the ace card for the ego. The yearning seems to be at times strongest in those respects. I mean there seems to be other times yearnings for specific things. But this one seems to be more the one that the mind believes is kind of the end all. If I could just have that, life would be terrible. Everything else, if I had that one. And the teachings that we keep going into is that that's another trick. I mean people who have tried to play that out, they find what they think is the ideal companion even. And of course it's not, there isn't that sense of completion. There is no, it's not like they come to the end of the rainbow with that. Then the mind is still looking. This is great now. What's next? What else can I add? And just by that feeling of thinking you can add something else, that should be a clue, that that's the ego at work. As we move along and we go, keep going into this and people seem to be attractive and come and join with us, you know, just in the sense of what the world would call community, those are the things that will come up. Where one person will seem to stand out more than the rest and be attractive in some way or another. And you'll notice it come up and it will obscure the complete equality of the sonship and it will always obscure the true identity. And until it's completely transcended, it will always seem very attractive, at times intensely attractive. That what you're describing is kind of like the jewel, the jewel and the ego's crown. I mean it's the name from my spouse. Jewel. There's a book, The Aquarian Gospel. Jesus Christ and he goes through all these temptations when he's in Egypt at number six, I believe, and there it's described as the angel idol where this woman of entrancing beauty comes to Jesus as he's sitting there in contemplation and she comes in, she doesn't even say a word. He just sits down and starts to play and sings songs of Israel, you know, some of the songs of his upbringing and of his life. And those beautiful songs of the line she just sings and then she just gets up and she leaves. I don't even know where it is spoken. And the way it's described in there is, you know, Jesus, the heart of Jesus, the passions and whatever were stirred and what ensued was she would come back periodically and it was a very much a period of unrest for Jesus and very much a temptation. And after all these other temptations, deceit and different things, you know, it's like, here is this. And there it says it was like a 40, again a 40 day, it seems to be this number that seems to come up for 40 days. You know, as he attempted and then he arose and said, you know, in my to be the demonstration of unconditional love, this love, divine love that comes, you know, not from this world. And it says he arose and talked over and, you know, said that their paths would cross but that he had to go on and do what he had to do. And those are the kind of things that, you know, as I was going on my journey, you know, I came across that in the book and I was working with the course and other things, you know, it was like it all started to come together like, oh yeah, I can see where trying to bring it down to a personal kind of love. You can't have impersonal love and personal love. They can't go together. And that was just a great little story, a little parable on the temptations of maybe to the house. You know, eventually when you follow it in, when you really follow it in and you come to your right mind, so to speak, you see that they don't, they can't go together and you can't mix them. But that's always been a real helpful story. If you think about that yearning too, it's in terms of, like you said, a distorted miracle impulse. In one sense it gives you just a sense of the power of love or the power of the miracle just by the strength of it. Except it seems to be coming through the lens and being perceived as a lack. But you can imagine the strength of it without the lens. When it comes to the ego's lens is a distorted miracle impulse, you know, it's an intense yearning. But when it comes, when you were able to lay aside the ego, it just comes straight into consciousness without going through the ego's lens. It's quite powerful. And I would say if I had to describe it, it's kind of like the other day, or yesterday I was mentioning our friend Mary, who's feeling this enormous urge to extend and feeling kind of like she's going to explode or she's feeling like it's hard to stifle it. Because once you really go with it for a while, then that's what it is. It's just this tremendous urge to extend and be of help. Kind of like in the movie Groundhog Day when Phil goes through all these things over and over, tries to manipulate people, get this woman in bed, read her and do this, do that. Finally he gets this uncontrollable urge to be helpful when he's going around fixing tires on cars and catching a child as he falls from the tree every day at the same time and doing the Heimlich maneuver or helping this guy who's choking. It's like he's just looking everywhere to find, oh, another place I can help. It's like an uncontrolled urge and that's what gets him out of the loop. The loop of linear time where it just seems like to repeat, which is what linear time is like just repeating the past over and over and over. And that's what makes Groundhog Day such a powerful metaphor is because not only can you see the loop, which is real symbolic of the loop that everyone has experienced on Earth, but you also see a metaphor of the way out of the loop. And that's just to be totally helpful, to completely lose yourself in that urge to be truly helpful. And that's intense. You will experience that. I'm having just thoughts or wanting to get clear about expectations and what I was getting in meditation was to have expectations of anyone based on what they've said in the past is just going to her. That I can't trust really what anyone says. I can only trust who they are. I can only trust the Holy Spirit or the Holy Spirit in them. And I can't trust anything in form related to them or have expectations. If we look at expectations, the mind, the deceived mind has a very, very deep rooted belief in scarcity and lack and unworthiness, guilt. And that's what special relationships are in the world. All of these perceiving oneself as a person and perceiving your brothers as person's bodies. That's all set up to solve the problem of guilt. In other words, the world was made to solve the problem of guilt. The world was made to solve the problem of lack. The world was made to solve the problem of scarcity. It was the whole belief that one can make it in the world or adapt and adjust to the world and have fulfillment and completion in that adjustment is erroneous. And the expectations are always, if you really trace them down, there's still a belief in incompletion or a belief in lack that has to still be there in the mind. Why would it be important what someone else said? Why would it be important what somebody else did? Why would anything in the world be important for that matter if one had a real sense of completion, one's own completion of mind? So the lack and incompletion is what has to be questioned. Those who sees themselves as whole make no demands. It's a great line from the Course.