 What do you think of the basic non-pathologized thing of women have bodies that once a month are like, hey, are we doing a baby this month? Okay, well, here's deal with this, sploosh. And then, and also just a world where men are bigger than women and women need safety and women need, the thing you were saying about like, what do you make of, do you resent nature for the situation that women find themselves in? Right. Because it's so much of it's like- It's so powerful. Patriarch and did it and it's like, I always think like no one's a bigger sexist than God. The whole thing is set up that it's, I think it evens out with women's ability for emotional connection that men don't have. Like all that price you pay there, you like get back in like love and shit, a love beam. Yeah. Anyhow, what do you think of like, or wanting to get married or wanting to have a kid by 40 or all these things that are just kind of like, almost factory settings for women, how do you deal with them and do you have them? Yes. I feel like I was very driven career-wise for a long time and because I had that, Red Ark for my dad and my mom was always encouraging in my career, I never felt pressure. My sisters are married one several times and they each have kids. No one's ever given me that like, when are you doing it? So I've never felt that pressure. I've also felt trapped by marriage and I didn't dream of it. I always felt like stand up is my wedding all the time. I mean, do I want a nice photo of me? They're everywhere. I could get a photo shoot. I don't need to put on a wedding dress or I could and then post those. But like, I don't need that attention and sometimes I worry or I perceived it to be like, is that why people are getting married? Like that one big day where everybody looks at you, you know? Yeah, which we satisfy with job. Yeah, I badly want to trust myself and feel happy of myself and confident. And at this point it's like, I owe that to myself and I feel like I'm there. So with this new partner in my life, met him in like last summer, I felt like a Disney when it was like blowing me towards him. Like, and it was like, is the universe sick of me and my broken picker? And they're like, we're gonna help, you know? Or that scary trust part within myself is like, or is it another alcohol? And I'm like, oh. Yeah, yeah. So it's sort of like, I offered this man my trust, which is a gift. I did my best to not bring old stuff into it. I feel like it's someone wonderful coming into my life. What was the question again? I guess it's, what do you make of- Oh, right, right, right. The biological urges that you find yourself. He has kids from a previous marriage. That was never like a deal breaker or anything like that. I had to stop parents. I've met him right after I froze my eggs. So I have like healthy young eggs on my- You froze them in Alabama, right? Cause I have some bad guys. Yeah, they're there, they're getting eaten as we speak. I have some really awful nurse. Maybe goodness. You don't have to make the payments anymore. No, they're chilling in Bev Hills. Hello. My eggs are 90210, baby. So it's like, I did that for a reason because it's a vulnerable thing to say out loud. I'm not scared right now. Well, this goes to the same thing of like- It's any dream or wish or- But especially it's somehow you're betraying feminism by saying like, I would like to be a mother. I disagree. Okay. I disagree. You know where I'm coming from though. Yes. Yeah, I'm not like, oh my gosh, that's a wild take. But like, come on, feminism is like, it has such a bad rap. In like any movement, who gets the most press? The worst people of it. But it scares, I think, reasonable people. Like any movement. Sure. It scares like the people who are like, ah, I don't really fucking agree with that. I guess the only time that this idea bothers me is when a female's like, I'm not a feminist. No, but I'm not, I think that- I love men. Right, I think that's also stupid. I love men. Yeah, I think that's also stupid. So it's more about vocalizing a dream in public because it might not happen. Honestly, yes. Honestly, even like back in the day when I was young and full of hope, it was scary for me to be out loud to be like, I wanna be on SNL. Like you fucking loser, you're never gonna make it. So to me, it's sort of like a feeling like, I do wanna be a mom. Is my path a step mom? Or, you know what I mean? I think there is absolutely a biological pole and my body rocks me once a month. Thankfully, I don't have to deal with anything like PCOS or anything intense with my, I have a very healthy cycle, but even still with a healthy 28 day cycle, my face is breaking out. I'll have a face breakout. I have cramps. I'm irritable. When I'm ovulating, I'm horny. Like the body is incredible. These are not novel things, meaning like this is, there's a book called Period Power that my girlfriend, who's a therapist recommends to her patients, which is like- It's incredible. It just explains what your body's gonna be doing almost to the hour. Yes. In your cycle. And that is totally, I was always gonna go totally cool. But it's sort of like, I have a, you know, my next or my new hour is including a lot of the stuff that we're talking about, the freezing of the eggs, how I think there should be a license before you're allowed to fuck, how on that test there should be the cycle and learning about the cycle. And I explained that it's complicated and whatever, but the heart of the joke is like, your boobs are bigger and like more attractive. You are horny. Your discharge is like sticky because it's like, I'm gonna get your jizz and keep it in me. And you are more attractive in that way because your body's like, I want a baby. So it's like- It's funny from the guys, there's a couple of months ago, my girlfriend, I was like, we were on Zoom or FaceTime and she was, she looked really good. And I was like, I like wanna buy you gifts. And she was like, I'm ovulating. She was like, that makes sense. Cause like it works on us too. And there was a study that strippers in Atlanta got more tips when they were ovulating. Wow, that's cool. And I think that's part of it. Also, for example, like you spend, there's plenty of jokes about this, but like, you know, spend so long trying not to get pregnant. And then by the time you actually want to, it's like such a mind shift. My boyfriend is fixed. So like, we have incredible sex and I'm not worried. Even though like, I'm saying like, in so many ways, like I'm really in love with him. Like I deeply love him as a person and I think he's incredible. And it's like, yeah, I wanna make a baby with you. I also want a puppy, but I'm on the road a lot. You know what I'm saying? I don't know where the reality is on that. Cause I do wanna have a kid with him. He has a vasectomy. I remember, it was probably a flip it comment, maybe on one of our first dates and maybe he was saying it cause he wanted to leave the window open to someone who's in their 30s who like isn't married to be like, he's like, I have a vasectomy. It can be reversed. It was like a flip it comment. But like, of course that's lodged in my brain. Like, I'm like, why did he say that? Did he say that cause he didn't wanna like maybe miss out on continuing dating me? Did he say that cause he feels that? Also, like women don't know, you fool. Women know more about this shit than you do. Actually, I'm trained to reverse right now. Is that something you wanna make me say? Is that? Yeah. I have a scalpel in my purse. Yeah. Actually, I don't know what that would do. So I guess to answer your question is like, I can't really, like pardon me, what if I say like, yes, I wanna have a baby and I'm just waiting to talk to him about it? I don't know if that's true. Like, have I tamped down so much in my life, in my feelings? Like even career wise, where you go, we're taught to basically like not want it too much. You know, you're just sort of like standing next to Jamie Foxx and you're like. Yeah, I just create. Yeah. I don't know this outcome. No, I don't get caught up in outcomes. This is fucking Jamie Foxx I have no idea. Cause you don't, you're just trying to keep it cool and do your job and whatever, but there are exciting parts about it. And so it's like, does everything seep into all areas of your life where I'm just remaining calm and like maybe it will happen. You're being a cool girl. Yeah, because that it could, and that's like so much of even stand up. Again, and that's the thing that you were saying earlier or that we were both saying. It's like the certitude of therapy, the certitude of like, I know why I did what I did because of this. And even like, do I even believe anything? Yeah. Or is it just purely kind of like, that day's chemicals and the cycle's a perfect example of it, where there are things that you would, hills you would die on one day and the next day you don't even remember the conversation. And it's like, and I have that, I've realized that about myself where I'm like, I don't even have fixed belief. I say I believe this and then I do MDMA and I no longer believe that. So it's just chemical, chemically dependent is who I am. Yeah. And so this idea of like, do I wanna be a mom? Do I wanna look like a mom? Do I wanna picture of a mom? Do I wanna do this? And it's impossible to know. Yeah, I don't know the answer because it's irrevocable. Yeah. It's not just like, maybe we try it out. No, exactly. And then of course someone could be like, oh, you can foster, you can do this. It's like, it's not that I'm against any of that, but it's like that decision to have a child of my own with someone else if that's what happened. It's like, yeah, that's not just like the 18 year thing. It's like, you don't go back. So how do you make that decision? I mean, that's how I felt about marriage for a long time. And I can't tell if I'm fine. I would say at this point, like I do love this man as a partner. Like I wanna go through life with him and I haven't really felt like that. And then of course my joke brain is like, is it easier for me to be open to marriage now that I'm closer to death? You know, like it's like less years till death do us part. The commitment is shorter. But truthfully it's like, I do wanna go through life with him. He's a great partner. And I feel like I feel all the cliche things that I never really did, which is interesting. Like you'll know when you know and it's a different feeling. Yeah, it's embarrassing. It's embarrassing when you fall for it. Really embarrassing. And I'm sort of just- And also the idea that maybe, and maybe this one's fake too. 100. Hey, did you like that? Did you like that? Yeah, did you like it though? You want more? Don't wanna work? Would rather watch videos of me grab acid with people? First of all, go up here to subscribe and then go up here to watch more clips. This is like when the weatherman says there's a high parenthesis coming in. I'm not really used to the green screen.