 and back from Pilates guys I don't even think let me start this over welcome back to another vlog I haven't vlogged in a while guys but let me tell you I have been going to Pilates for the last I want to say maybe it's been two full months maybe two and a half and let me just kind of see and let me tell you guys your girl has been like going through the motions so it's club Pilates and it's there everywhere pretty much they opened up a new location where I lived so I was like okay let me just join all of the good girlies were during that I guess pre-opening maybe up until like recently they they got I'm not gonna say got rid of but they moved a lot of stuff around and there's certain girls that I absolutely they're hard but I like them because they push me and then there's others who are just like soft and then there was one who she's had like a lot of knowledge on muscles and certain things that we were working medically medical term wise I used to go to one girl she's she was cool for the beginning but she's kind of soft and I feel like the class that I go to with her because now she's on the my schedule I may have to switch my schedule again just so I can get like another person but I noticed that it's nothing wrong with her I just feel like I work a little bit harder with the other girl so this particular of this other girl that I go to on Saturdays she's during the week so I'm trying to figure out how I can squeeze her in at minimum at least once a week during the week like early in the morning because she's so good she's hard but she's really really good but they ended up switching some stuff around which I did not like because all the people who signed up for like a membership kind of now have to like get used to new girls and it's nothing wrong with that but I think a lot of them are new to Pilates possibly just finishing their courses and stuff like that but let me tell you my girl on Saturday so last Saturday I'm gonna tell you guys this let me say last Saturday I like let me turn my lights down so last Saturday we were doing like a sculpting class and I'm just gonna sit my camera let me sit back down so last Saturday we did like a sculpt a sculpting class which is like a jumpboard class and not last Saturday I actually skip last Saturday but the Saturday before but not oh I skip last Saturday because Saturday before she I was so tired like I got home and literally couldn't do a thing like worn out I hate cardio but I know I need to do it so today was a lot better because I kind of like mentally prepared myself because I did not expect it to be like that with her I did take another jumpboard class sculpting class with another lady she was good too but I feel like the way I felt with this one like I was sweating so much but it's worth it it is I had like a trial not a trial like a um I got like a Thanksgiving packet whatever that was right so I paid like 159 a month but that it may go up I think so this is unlimited classes I only go three times a week which I probably should be doing more because I think the other packet you only get two classes a week so that's kind of but then also too the good thing about having unlimited is that you're able to book out in advance like a lot of days a lot of the other girls they can't do it so that's the benefit of it it is more money but if you are thinking about joining Pilates baby do it okay I used to do floor Pilates for a really long time and I like it because I feel like I have more control sometimes the reformer is kind of like annoying for me but I do prefer the floor Pilates but let me tell you if you can get like a class pass or something and get into one of these classes like at minimum like a jumpboard sculpting class you're gonna be like what the freak like it's a different type of cardio but it's definitely worth it so I did end up going to Sephora you guys know we love a Sephora let me sit you guys over here all right so I think it's stuff from Sephora guys I need some more gym clothes if y'all know of any good gym clothes I don't honestly one thing about me I really don't care about how I look at the day I'm workout place I just be trying to get in and get out that's it like I don't care what you got on account cute you look I just want to get in and get out but I went to so far and got some more all nighter spray now I was gonna try the other one by what is it Patrick star the I think it's called so or I don't know something like that in the red not red gray in red bottle but I noticed that it was like a spray not a spray nozzle like this one but I did hear the other one's good maybe I'll just use this out and then try that one and then I went to get some Tatcha dewy skin cream now I had a sample of this some months ago and it was like a nice little sample and this thing was like so bomb it ain't cheap one thing about skincare and stuff I've never used to put a lot of stuff on my face you guys know I'm a Vaseline girl but Vaseline is not a moisturizer so I am noticing like moisture like when I don't have anything on my face I'm noticing that it looks different and it feels different you don't necessarily have to buy something as expensive as this but I wanted to try that because I had that sample so beautiful face a beautiful feet whether the future maybe they meant to put features beautiful I can't even see I don't look I can see that I don't look you can see that this thing same beautiful faces of what maybe I thought it said face beautiful faces beautiful futures that's too beautiful futures your purchases support education okay okay okay make sense all right so let me see comes with this little thingy right here which is just okay it says futures I get it because they're doing like a giving back situation here I got education program for girls okay I like that Tatcha and then it just comes in this box here nothing crazy it's really bright in here guys so I don't know and I got the largest one which ain't saying a little bit more but it could be just the damn bottle looking like it's bigger because that little sample one with that other one let me see let me open it up oh it's giving me more maybe maybe I got gypped this is the largest one but I'm noticing that the way the bottle looks the bottle looks bigger but that other one that I saw that was a little bit smaller than this one I don't know I felt like the illusion of it looking bigger it's because of the bottom can you guys see that little clear thing and it may not even be bigger I don't know don't try to play Tatcha okay but it does come with a little scoopy thing here so you have to stick your finger in there just choose like the little thing which I like that's made in Japan now the first ingredient I can't see I'm so I'm all over a rich cream of anti-oxidant packed Japanese purple rice and hyaluronic acid that makes the skin that feeds the skin pumping hydration for a dewy healthy looking glow honestly when I have this little sample that's why I was like I need to buy it I know with a nine bucks but I like it they are supporting the girlies and that's probably why it has the flowers and stuff they're supporting like a program for girls yeah oh okay so this does have what to do like am and p.m. well anyway I got this I like this so now if you got into like buying like stuff like this and you want to keep like old school you can I just don't happen to try this and really like it a lot of stuff that I do buy guys I don't I don't necessarily like just be trying it out I already had a sample before it and I'm a girl who doesn't really like to have a bunch of stuff unless I know it really works never been the person to try different products on my skin but I had no I know certain things as you get older you want to keep your skin moisturize the same thing with like body scrubs and stuff like that actually I want a new body scrub because the Quay one it's always like so out but then I also got mine my clean skin club so this is my you guys not purchase this and I get it delivered every 90 days some of the girls on tiktok were like oh you can just go ahead and get one some Amazon but I made $25 for two boxes and that's like 90 days so a little bit over 90 days but for whatever reason I had an extra box the last time and I know I was using it so the next box will come in 90 days which I always get to but clean skin howl at skies and that's it so I'm going to go get grab me something to eat before I actually shower and stuff I just came from Pilates but I need some protein in my body and I have some leftover quinoa from yesterday and like a stir-fry I made like a stir-fry I still breathe I made like a nice little stir-fry and I'm gonna put like avocado I have a green juice and that will be my lunch then I'm gonna shower and get ready to go outside okay I'm gonna go to like I don't know maybe to I need some gym clothes like I have not purchased any gym clothes from Amazon like the girls do I just feel like I'm not gonna have any luck because I'm tall but maybe I should actually go and try to look to see what I find because I am tall and maybe I'll find something for the girlies to our tour I keep looking up because my lens so let's do that and let's go grab some food to eat before we actually shower and get some reporting done today I guess so I am getting ready to eat my salad I don't even want to show you guys this so it's so big don't judge it looks really really big because I have a whole head of like kale in here and then I had some quinoa left and I just kind of sprinkled it on the top like it's huge it's kale, green peppers, red peppers, onions I've put some walnuts in here hemp seeds and then I made a walnut like Brazilian nut dressing it's huge but I'm watching 13 reasons why well first let me backtrack I watched Kelly Rowland's movie yesterday let me tell you before he even got like I don't even think it was 30 minutes in she was with the guy and um basically like she went was behind the other girl had sex with him or did she have sex with him or did she kiss him? I was just like what the hell Kelly I know it's a movie but I didn't think it was all that it kind of was giving me I don't know it's interesting cool it is crazy because the guy Travon said his name you know he was in Bird Box and I think what happens when I see movies that are not like I don't know I just it just seemed a little bootleg to me it did it seemed a little bootleg but the actors I like the actors she did pretty good but I just thought it was kind of corny and here's my green juice but I'm watching 13 reasons why I never saw this the girl must have killed herself and now she has like tapes that went out to certain people I think it's more like about suicide and just maybe other things that go on in school that some parents just overlook and teachers overlook because no one cares guys they don't care there's like a it's not a ton of them and the ones that do care it's just not enough of them and I'm sure they're like born out but I'm gonna wash this and eat my food and drink my juice this is watercress not watercress meringue of green apple green pear kiwi and ginger and cucumber let me tell you so moment you stick a piece of ginger fresh ginger in your juice magnificent all right let me watch this show and then show it's almost one of five I didn't record anything today like I'm still gonna try to get outside I am mm-hmm I haven't recorded nothing all right watch this and then try to record something today catch y'all later all right guys so I just got up the shower I ate my salad and now I'm just about to get dressed so I was on tic-tac tic-tac is so addictive like literally um but when I tell you people are going on and on and on about the tisa risa story it's crazy it's crazy but let me close this out and get ready oh I left my um my tacha let me get my tacha hold on urban spray because my urban one I like to put this little plastic thing on the floor in my room or into my makeup because I um I still have carpet in here but we're gonna open this up and we are going to take my tacha out can I tell you I just put on my perfume that is the jo malone red bottle scarlet poppy this thing smells like a million bucks like literally and let's make sure I have I still have I had bought a travel size one but now I got the bigger one which is this one whoo I like this so right now just having my regular moisturizer but I am gonna throw on let's put tacha over there not tacha that I'm gonna I'm gonna put on some of this dewy chatter saying so right I'm gonna put on some of the dewy I don't even think I need the the top because I think there's some sitting on the top I mean the scooper yeah let me scoop some of that out and put it on my face and then not a lot though I'm going to um I'm just gonna put I like this this is not cheap guys but I'll tell you right now my mirror's here and I have a mirror there I absolutely love it I didn't use a lot I just use a little bit from the top listen I might change my bathroom center over and get like a little like a little um ottoman instead of there just switch some things around in there all my face products because my sink is not huge I do have like it's not it's not big around the sink but I do have a centerpiece I'm thinking about putting some of my um face products there with like the refrigerator and stuff I don't know I don't want it to look cluttered so maybe I'll go on Pinterest and see what some people do because my bathroom is kind of like a spa style not spa I guess because this is like brown and uh rubbing up some of the um that thing on me yeah so I want to change like the middle but I just don't want it to look cluttered I still want it to look really nice and like neat and stuff I hate clutter I don't do clutter at all and I like to be able to see certain parts of like a surface so I'm letting this kind of sit on my face my little brother so let's get ready I put the tattoo on I don't know if you guys can see like I really really like this when I had the sample I was just like in awe and I just never went and got it but your girl got it now yeah and I got the bigger one but I don't know if I got gypped I'm being honest because I see this little clear thing and it's not going all the way down there uh and this is supposed to be the what did I say earlier the 2.5 um fluid ounce one but I like it all right so let's get ready to film a video and go meet up with a friend we can chit chat catch up I haven't been like really going anywhere well I guess I could give you guys a quick little I don't know I guess a story time so I usually don't talk about work on here but when I tell you I have been having the hardest time with a manager the funny part is I used to work with her before and when she got to my team it was just like something just wasn't wasn't right and I didn't know I'm very very intuitive so when I realized it I was just like okay I still was trying to be nice um I mean it got to the point where this lady and I'm gonna say it all it started from her asking me about that was my my Laura Mercier the honey one um it started with her asking me about screen prints and that was like screen prints to like the plan that we worked for of like stuff that was like in the system so I was saying to myself like they have access to see this so I didn't know where this was coming from so I was just like like lady what like what are you doing here so I was like is this a problem I want to send them screen prints and then when I said to her she said well I just wanted to know why you send so many so I said well they sent me screen prints okay and she goes oh um well I was just asking maybe they I just thought maybe they was asking you to do it and I'm just like no like like no okay that was the first thing so let me backtrack she has a friend that works on the team and she probably see this and I hope she does fast forward she's picking she's picking now I have to address it so I address it with her I'm looking over here this is a Revlon pencil I address it with her and um it was still like okay I was still letting this slide I let everything I'm just like okay whatever chow it got to the point where this lady like the way she was it's almost like she don't even know how to be normal with me and I'm like whatever you got going I don't have nothing to do with me but she started picking on me about idol time idol time I am a team lead and I am like all over I'm pulled here sometimes people call me to jump on the call really quick my team other people like just other just people from other departments and stuff that need help with something I'll jump on the call with them right and um sometimes it'd be like 30 minutes sometimes it's five sometimes it's an hour right but when you're on a call you're not necessarily you don't necessarily have your fingers on the mouse so when she started picking on me about idol time I was just like 20 hours I was like what time of day is this what time of what time of day is this because when I see 20 hours a month I'm thinking an hour a day for lunch this is what I'm thinking so I said are you sure this is not lunch she says no it accounts for lunch this report it doesn't and I knew that it didn't I just wanted to see what she was going to say so I said okay so that was the first time she sent it to me so I asked her for a printout of the last six months because I want to see if it's the same thing now she doesn't and I already knew my old manager already had told me it's 66 hours before they actually say something to you about your idol time and the reason why I knew that is because there was a guy on my team he had it was like 87 hours and I was like are you sure I said I'd speak to him often like this doesn't make sense that particular manager never said anything to that employee she knew that I spoke to him but I was never gonna tell him because I'm like that's not my job okay so back to the new manager mind you she's a black woman and I'm saying that for a reason because it seems like most women that I know that have an issue at work it's either it's never usually a man it's either if she's black if the if my friend is black then the woman is the manager is black as well so the first time she sent this she crossed out names I figured out I was like okay this doesn't account for lunch I'm gonna sign off for lunch right but before I actually did that she sent me the second one the second one that she sent she forgot to cross out names so I was like perfect that was only God showing me just how I mean at this point I just I really feel sorry for her like I mean it got so bad guys so I really really feel sorry for her um because there's no way you got you happy at home even if you have a husband there's no way you're happy like girl get it together so fast forward she didn't cross out two of the names one of them I'm gonna say two but I'm gonna say one for sure because this is when I said what I said so I being me I um I went to my director at the time who was no help either and I realized that at the end of the day they're always gonna go with what a manager says it doesn't matter because it was bullying she was baiting I mean like it was so bad guys like bad so I go to her about the time and I said it doesn't account for lunch and I said but you came to me but you didn't go to the other person who had 50 something I was you know what she said well this is to the director too I wanted to see if the other person's time would change so you come to the person with the least hours who has the most responsibilities girl shut up like literally shut up issues grown right so I said um okay so one day I made sure I was a hundred percent sure about me signing out my lunch break I called the help desk and I told them like hey um you know what what do you guys think about this and the guy says oh you have to sign out I said oh I've been logging off of the system but not necessarily on my lunch break though so I said okay I'm gonna do it which I knew what was gonna work and okay I logged off guys I'm looking for my um oh so I thought long enough but the day before I started this I um I was on my lunch break and so this is before I actually started signing out on my lunch break so I go to lunch we had a power outage in the neighborhood so that means from 12 o'clock literally up until the next day because the lights didn't come back on until the next day so well that night and I didn't log back on until the next day so that means that it was sitting for those hours so I was expecting her to send me the time the idle time she did so I sent her a breakdown and I said well this is the day I started to sign out on my lunch break and I said and this is the day that I had the power outage I said so if you calculate back those hours including a training that I was taking here are the hours I was showing up here and she tells me she don't need a screen print she don't need a uh she don't need a breakdown I said yeah you do okay so I give it a breakdown now she said something to the other person the reason why is because I called pulled her card and said well you didn't send anything to them and they asked me how I know I said I had because I'm like hold up you want here but did she say something to you no right okay fine so that was that time I started signing out I tell this particular co-worker like you need to sign out now I knew they was gonna do it for a little while and I knew that they were stopped and they did and I was so sure that they did and she mentioned the time to him or her she mentioned the time to them again and said you know ask me what I've been doing but I was just like I told you to to sign out but I said this is good because now I know that it works and I know that they report is pure bullshit and they are taking this report and giving it to people it's not accurate right so I'm gonna say this being a truth teller at work does nothing for you okay we met with my director the old director and I asked um I asked I'm supposed to throw that out I asked um because the meeting wasn't going anywhere she was brewed that other director let her talk rude and it just didn't get anywhere so at the end of the call I said I would like to speak to the person who you spoke to in HR because I've been asking to move to another team right now I they have moved a ton of people there they have okay and I say okay maybe because I'm a team lead they probably can't do it like super easy but I have seen them move people like clockwork they was a girl on my team when I first got to this particular team who did not want to work with the manager that came before her it was a lady she didn't want to work with this lady before this lady even touched down to the team they moved that girl and I suppose the race called all day because she was a white girl before the new manager hit that team they moved that girl okay so that's it I see I see what y'all doing but I didn't I didn't really care right okay fast forward um I don't even know if the guy ended up signing sorry signing that whatever but that meeting with that director I told her that's my new brush guys I like him I told her I said let me speak to the person in HR that you spoke to now you guys listen up really clear I asked that for a reason because my director wasn't doing a effin thing and I feel like she brushed it under the rug because she got a new position in another department and she wanted to leave it and just be done with it which I thought was very cowardly of her okay never had a problem with this lady but I was like oh your true colors just came out right but you know you can't trust folks anyway so anyway I asked to speak to this lady now this is going into the the year the 2020 I don't even know what year that was uh for like the new review like your ending year review for your raise for next year mid-year is in July my mid-year was fine no issues child when I tell you this lady this was retaliation all the way and I told this to HR the new HR lady and I told this to my director they did nothing this was retaliation let me tell you what this lady did this I have never in my years of working they got anything under so it's like a hundred percent of the bonus and then a plus depending on what they want to give you I think she gave me last year and ever since I've been under her it hasn't been the greatest but it's never been under a hundred percent this rat lady gave me 40 percent y'all I didn't even know that was a thing straight up didn't even know when I saw that I told first of all one thing I'm not as embarrassed because it looks crazy on her if you gave me this you never mentored me from July to December that was odd to me but they literally let it go guys like I'm when I tell you don't ever go to HR it is not worth your time and I even told HR this is no point to come to you guys like there's no point she gave me 40% they let that go you messed up my money and when I tell you so much things went through my head at that very moment I was like this lady when she has her day boy oh boy oh boy she is going to be sick to her stomach she may think things is running smooth and you know all like she may think things are running smooth but I tell you I know for sure Hummer is a bitch and it may not come back to her it may come back to her kid if she got a husband her husband affect something and then she's going to be wondering what happened because look what you did to me right okay cool the bonus was low I left it alone right um I actually didn't even care I just was like it just showed me more see the thing about is that the more she does that's very that's so it's almost like demonic the more I know I need to stand clear of her because she is wicked to her core and I'm going to use the word wicked but when they say the devil is here on earth he's not in red he doesn't have horns he is your co-worker he is a family member he is your neighbor she has something in her that is not right okay and I know this so I just I stand clear the way her emails come across they're very threatening um condescending like just a lot and I'm just like ooh gruffo sorry for you like oof it's just it must be really sad to be her um so let me just dab this over a little bit so they didn't do anything about it I went to HR Chai even did a survey okay and got people to write things that she put in my review oh she told she told me that I didn't answer emails let me tell you something I knew who she got it from she never told me but I knew who she got it from because one of the girls from another team had asked me she said she's mentioned that one there I said who doesn't add answer emails like who doesn't answer emails so you know what I did I pulled over 200 emails and responses now we don't have a specific amount of time you should respond but I pulled over 200 emails with me responding if you email me at four you're not getting a response I ain't there when I tell you I pulled all of this and then just it was just like a lot like stress just I mean this lady is a luna damn tech and the fact that they let all of this go down I'm gonna put on my my um NARS cream and concealer this what is this this is this is deep oh cafe when I tell you it was this pointless for me to even do all of that asking to be moved to another team you know watching them move people and not move others I'll say this people who even let it go down who didn't do anything about the treatment because she still is she's still the same way to this day I just don't I just don't say nothing I'm waiting for them to do what they need to do with me they're not free of the rest either when you see something you don't say anything you are a part of the problem it's like racist people right if you are even matter of fact not even just racist people uh people in general who see things that's not right and they don't say anything yeah you may not want to get involved but you need to say something so all I know is that that bonus was low they let it slide she's still the same way and one thing I want to say is when she does have her her day she's gonna be wondering why is something happening to her whatever you put out it it always gonna it it always comes back to you I don't care I don't care um so I just I just kind of stay staying clear of her but when I tell you I always get things that I am supposed to have so her cutting my bonus I don't like it didn't even phase me like I laughed at first my one of my other friends she was like really really sad about it because she she worked with me and she was like this is so f-ed up and I was like nah it's all good I said it's all good and um I said it just shows me more and more and more how messed up this lady is and how you know things are working here and you know I said nobody's saying anything but I said nobody's saying anything but the people who see it and don't say anything they'll have their day two cut off at 30 minutes so they'll they'll have their day two right and I'm just gonna be here on the sideline like mine and my business okay so essentially basically it all ended up where she gave me the low bonus they ain't doing anything we got a new director I asked him can I move like stress to the gods guys and when I mean stress not stress to where it's like you can't avoid like you have no control over the stress pain in your neck I was going to see a therapist because of this lady like my therapist was like she's gaslighting you like she's baiting you like I would read everything to her she's like this is crazy nothing and I was saying to myself god like what do you want me to do do you want me to just leave but then I'm like oh no you're gonna give me my coins before I leave you gonna give me severance you know but she lucky I'm telling you I'm changing and I always say this to people like be careful how you treat people because let me tell you there is some effing unhinged people out there her messing with my bonus could have sent somebody else through the roof okay but luckily I have other streams of income you never really know what you're gonna get from the job anyway I just know I've never got under 100% ever in my life and for her to go deep down to 40 and then what she wrote maybe one day I'll share it with you guys like I still have it it was it was written so bad like I'm like you guys read this and thought this was normal and I've been on this team for this long working with these people nobody has ever said anything she comes over here and says all these things and y'all okay with it I don't have any when I say I have zero respect for them I just do the work and that's it I am not chummy choppy enough no smile no laughing I don't care if she could be laughing I don't give I don't care I do not trust her she's very sneaky her friend that's on the team is very sneaky her friend is the senior on my team so I'm her team lead we had a training one day with the entire team guys can you believe this lady said she didn't get training so I asked everybody else I said y'all was on the phone with what's her name right there was like yeah I said what she said she didn't get training there was like she was asking questions I said this is what she told them so that girl I would not talk to her on my cell phone she cannot call my cell phone straight she cannot I am me the only way I will communicate with her is via email and on a company line like zoom call period same thing with my manager they are the two sneakiest bees I've ever met in my life like their friends I don't care what she says that is her friend they both do like real estate um they do like real estate together I believe and um but yeah the ghetto so now it's just like I got to the point where like the other day I was like on I was on a thousand like I was so pissed off see I can't even do my makeup and talk guys because I'm over here like um I was so pissed off that I was just like you know what I people like her I'm sure she was a bully in school I'm sure she was a bully in school like almost 100 percent sure and to be quite honest she probably was the mean black girl who was mean to black girls who who had like uh nice things I can see that I can just see it like I honestly I'll be laugh at that sometimes on the phone now because I just feel like you was a disbelief like I uh it's it's it's just really it's it's disgusting and then later like late I decided to like go on I don't even know what website that was I started reading the reviews about the company I've been here for a long time when I tell you everybody's saying the same thing about management like literally about management I'm just like everybody's not meant to be a manager you when you try to be bossy that's not gonna that does nothing that you try to pump fear into other adults come on come on I thought like I said you got some really really really unhinged people out there play with the wrong person and then I always always think about like things that happen at jobs like like school shootings and stuff like that job shootings people literally going postal and and I always say because there's always a story where someone was sitting there and they were face to face with the the shooter or whatever right and the shooter or whoever just walks past them and I always said it's probably because this person was probably nice to them you know what I mean and they they are specifically going in this place for one particular person or two or three and it's just what it is sometimes especially in jobs uh I just don't play anything that I do and I put out there is something that I would not be ashamed of um you know I don't want to be ashamed of anything and my god that lady I think her daughter worked in now that's another thing it's a lot of family members that work there I never like his husbands and what like I just never in my life been at a company like this and because I worked in New York when I went to the job I was a little shocked the company culture a little different for me I want to use I got this old mac blush I think it's emerald you know I don't even know what this is it's like a reddish but ah your girl your girl been going through it I'm gonna say I'm not gonna say now like she tried it recently and I just it was like whatever go to your mammy you know oh I didn't tell you the best part his best part so they got um they got she's one of my skillset wasn't up to par right she said this to the other director but then I'm like girl you send me a text message before she's blocked because she can't call myself even she sent me a text message about a job at another company to be a manager so if my skip wow like that was very telling girl you so bothered and I know why I don't really know why like I don't really know what her issue is but the Lord don't the Lord listen I've seen it before I've seen her so maybe that's why she angry I don't know they ain't no way I got that much energy for somebody every day no way she's a bully they're not doing anything about it HR is doing nothing about it and she will have her day it's just what it is I had left it to the Lord's hand um but the other thing is we got some new stuff coming in we supposed to get it we not a hundred percent sure so we may be growing as a team and um overall and uh try to get a position open for a team lead on my team for my team so she mentioned that she's like you have any questions and I was like what do you what wait let me just say I'm the current team lead like we had a whole bunch of stuff before it's just it's just very sneaky and I'm just like whatever you're doing behind my back it will always come to light and I'm always gonna have what I need if you guys are going that hard well it's really her and I mean it's her um it's just sad like it's sad that's why I always say like it doesn't matter what color you are if you are a conniving bee that's just who you are like that's who you are don't matter what color your skin is okay it don't matter you got men like that too I worked with a guy in New York he was horrible he was just not he was horrible he was just not a nice person but I heard the company that he came from they was kind of who uh but they said that the people outside waiting for him job and I can see because he's he's an asshole like straight up a hoe and I'm just like people I'm telling you there are some people who don't give a rat's ass about nothing and they will take your ass down quick quick quick quick you know it's just it's just it's just terrible terrible terrible terrible guys it was just it was just it was just terrible it seems kind of dark in here I don't know why um it was just it's just it's just terrible but I realized that I was actually like when I went to HR the second time I gave her the surveys um I think the HR lady was like kind of like what the hell is going on um she she tried to like she tried to get stank to HR lady and I think I think she was trying to get stank because she she probably was like damn and that cost me I'm not gonna just let that slide I said first let's be gonna stop you right there lady her name was I forgot her name I said I'm gonna stop you right there I said I don't know why your tone changed when I started talking about this but we can end this conversation okay because I hear your tone changed you you sound upset how you upset that's why I said they're not to be trusted like they are not to be trusted at all you know um like I said they go out of their way to just do a ton of stuff and whatever happens happens like whatever happens happens just give me severance or whatever the hell you got going or maybe they don't want to give it to me but but I would definitely like get get the story out um but the bonus was the biggest thing that she did and then last this January well mid-year of this mid-year of last year uh was it last year oh it must have been mid mid-year she was like oh a lot of things changed and and I'm just looking at how I was so irritated because she never provided proof of nothing and then oh oh oh the new director said she didn't have to provide me proof of nothing so you're saying that people can say what they want to say they don't need to provide proof at jobs that's very alarming okay so someone can say that someone sexually assaulted them but they don't need to have proof someone can say that someone hit them but they don't need to provide proof child I was just like okay and I just kind of left it like that but when they told me that there was a position open I'm just like okay like I've got like what do you want me to do you would just break out like what do you want me to um hold on guys let me put this mascara shit is it gonna rain I can't get the line straight guys okay um but whatever happens happens I worked with a lady in New York she was just terrible too before I moved and um um they ended up firing her after that's why I'm just like every dog has its day it's all I'm saying whenever you put out it will always always come back to you it will it will always come back to you I don't care how you should go it may not come back to there but tomorrow what do you wear okay hold on I got like yeah just it will come back but just drama like and I and I finally realized that let me end this but like I finally realized that me going to HR and doing all this copying and saving this and saving that I was literally doing it by myself not walking with God in front of me and that's probably why I felt like it was a lot but when I tell you the moment I get on the phone with this lady it's like an armor is over me and God is there like he is with me at that moment I don't say anything if it's not a question I just don't respond and you know I know he's gonna get me out of this situation soon and when he does guys I'm gonna come back and tell you guys how happy I am just to be just to be away from that I just want to do my work and you know keep it pushing I'm not here to make friends with anybody none of that so but he's gonna get me out of it soon he is maybe it's content creating I don't know maybe I'll get like a part-time job and do content creating I don't know something something's gonna come out of this you know you know me going through all that it ain't that wasn't just for me to go through I learned a lot I learned that you know I mean I already knew this about HR and stuff but some really sugar honey ice tea people out there and and it's not just people you are close with you know co-workers and I am a hundred percent sure that the devil moves through a lot of people these demonic spirits these unhinged people um just yeah so that's the drama and I'm gonna try to um upload something when the Lord gets me another situation okay but guys we just can't like I have a little mole here that behind under my thing we can't let the folks get to us I'm sure you guys have a story um and let me tell you I was even still I thought I was trying to be nice it's just that I am really big on not getting sick and colds and stuff like that and I realized that she was getting sick a lot and I was like what's going on right and I was like you've got time to be like you're sick in the head so I told her you know a remedy that she can do just because that's just who I am but I won't say I got damn work I won't say another freaking another another word okay where is oh here go I will I will not say a word to her about nothing and I know I love my myth this myth spirit myth is a lighter one it sounds like it's random but it's not okay all right so I'm gonna get dressed I'm gonna end this vlog but that was just a story time about the dramas of the job and working with working with a black manager the word boss is just not something I like to use manager um because I feel like she's acting like a boss like it's not nice like what y'all think like have you worked with a manager who was a woman who was if you're black and she was black or even if you're not black and the person was the same color same background as you excuse me how was it because baby I mean like I'm so uninspired like there my work is still my work but just she's very very sneaky sneaky I think she's a liar well I know she's a liar her friend is a liar but that was it that was that was if you have dealt with somebody like that comment below what did you do did you just leave because I I know that this I know that's what they're trying to they're trying to push me out and I like hey I'll be 100% honest with you I am so glad I didn't come to this world to be that type of person because you gotta you gotta go out of your way to do things to get somebody to leave like every day you have to wake up and say what am I gonna do to this person today so they can be upset so they can finally leave I want that that's too much energy that is the energy that I want it's just it's just giving me very like unhappy um unhappy with life it's giving me jealousy you can't be me it's giving a lot and women and men who are like that I totally feel sorry for them okay oh this thing keeps falling like oh my god oh that's gonna not tie it tight enough I totally feel sorry for them because every day you wake up and then look at you like even I'm gonna you know what maybe I'll do a part two when the lord gets me out of the situation but I'm gonna read some of the e-bell child when I tell you how they come across they're so threatening like and I'm just like girl ooh the more she does it the more I'm like yo I know you get a wrinkle on your face every single day every single day you do something to me that is another wrinkle added to your face I'm sure like I said I've seen it before okay um but trying to be um soft at work even working from home when somebody like hurt it's very hard but like I said before I was able to constant I was going back and forth for her and I'm like why am I even doing like she's so not worth it that I was mad at myself for even going to a chart and doing all this and doing all that and I knew better I knew that it doesn't do anything for you so it was a waste of time all I'm gonna say to you guys is if you are in a situation and you have a job right now and you're unhappy um I would say just keep looking just keep looking there's soap there's so many jobs out there there be even if you have to consult or get something that is something that you really want to do then do that because honey they're like I said I have seen people leave jobs because they were forced out bullied out and not even six months later the person who bullied them either something happened to somebody in their family they lost their job something happened to them and it's just like they don't realize that it there's new and third law whatever you put out there it will always come back to my battery is blinking so that means I need to charge it so I can get dressed for you guys so that was a story time about what's going on at work if you guys want like a play-by-play on everything that I did y'all need to let me know because I can break it down like Risa Tisa y'all so when I see people being entrepreneurs and just saying if the work failed I'd be so happy for them especially when they have made it because it the setup is it's crazy it's crazy yeah but that's my little story and it's still going on I'm just like just ignoring it like blank stare blink blink blink situation okay and we don't do FaceTime zoom I wish we did because I'm sure my face will say it all I'm sure it will I probably won't be able to smile and laugh with her but the ghetto let me let me charge my battery that I'm gonna actually get dressed so I just have one pair of jeans and let me tell y'all your girl stomach was chubby first and I freaking put my shirt inside so it ended up getting a little wrinkled but just some jeans and I don't know if I want to wear some flat boots not flat because I don't have like super flat I have a small heel I'm actually going to go out with a friend of mine I wasn't going to um I was going to record more but I got some flat boots which I think I may just do these because the heel is like super low and then I got my infamous chunky boots but these are heavy the weather is kind of like in between so I may go ahead and just do these let me do these y'all still put your stuff in your shoes because I do honey child is that her I'm deciding on these two let's see she looking I could have worn all right so I have not worn my because I really the weather is just kind of I don't know I already got this headband on the weather hasn't been like the best so I think I'm just going I think I'm just going to do these because they scrunch down and I need a and I think I'm gonna wear my white bag oh y'all my little tramper is so janky it is I'm not gonna put these one up here I'll do it downstairs that's okay I still put these on my shoes I do with the little dust bag and everything I don't wear these because they they like they super like you know flexible and then let me see I'm also going to can I show you my new lip combo I don't think so I don't have it on today but I think I know where it is and I think I'm gonna take my white bag let me see and even it's like 60 outside even if I wore what jacket holds on because this other jacket is too big not too big too too too big for the style that I'm going for maybe I'll do my crop maybe I'll do my crop I had this one recently outfit it's like a headband a jacket this is a lot it's cute but it's I don't feel like with these boots now y'all can y'all see let me put it back I got so much stuff and I got my my little box light over here let's move that over there and then I could do this my lip will keep moving I could do this jacket this is a lot going on I like my jacket though let me see don't judge me y'all I could do the red jacket I like this one because it got like shoulder pads in it but then I have my I got my white no I don't want to do that one um let me say I got my red one this would be cute too let me see this one is kind of too like too fitted on the arms this one is not bad my zipper is like doing something janky I don't think I really want to wear this one no girls what am I gonna do I think I may do these and keep it kind of like like I don't know I think I'm gonna do these I'm gonna bring them both downstairs and see which ones are a little bit more I don't know I feel like these because they're more rug but anyway I will take a photo and pop it into you guys but thank you guys for tuning in to this vlog this little chat with me about work and just chatting about everything and I'll make a decision and then my bag I think I am going to carry I think I'm gonna take the white bag yeah I think I'm gonna take the white bag yep so let me just move my stuff around girls let me tell you leave in the house and then making a mess sometimes I'll leave like the dust bag in there just to protect like the bottom actually my wallet and stuff is in my gym bag all right it's time to get up let me take my mirror I got my perfume on and I think I am gonna wear these I hit my toe but I hope I don't have no issues well let's do this anyway guys thank you guys for tuning in to my vlog I haven't done a vlog in a while um I'll catch you guys in the next one if you stay to the end of this vlog you guys already know comment Coco we see you and guys don't forget to follow me on Instagram at Coco Styles NYC and Coco Styles NY and my personal style blog CocoStyleNYC.com and my style services CocoStyleNY and I'm on Tickety Tickety Talk CocoStyleNYC and I'll catch you guys in the next one bye guys let me get it together over here I'm struggling all right guys bye