 Bore and Pease, Book 9, Chapter 11, read for LibriVox.org by Shuleva Markham. Prince Andrew's eyes were still following few out of the room, when Count Benickson entered hurriedly, and nodding to Bulgonsky, but not pausing, went into his study, giving instructions to his Edgident as he went. The Emperor was following him, and Benickson had hastened on to make some preparations, and to be ready to receive this sovereign. Journey shall run to Prince Andrew, went out into the porch, where the Emperor, who looked fatigued, was dismounting. Marcus Palucci was talking to him with particular warmth, and the Emperor, with his head bent to the left, was listening with the dissatisfied air. The Emperor moved forward, evidently wishing to end the conversation, but the flushed and excited Italian, oblivious of decorum, followed him, and continued to speak. And as for the man who advised forming this camp, the dresser-camp, said Palucci, as the Emperor mounted the steps and noticing Prince Andrew, scant his unfamiliar face, as to that person's ire, continued Palucci, desperately, apparently unable to restrain himself. The man who advised the dresser-camp, I see no alternative but the londic asylum or the gallows. Without heeding the end of the Italian remarks, and, as if they were not hearing them, the Emperor recognising Balconsci addressed him graciously, I am very glad to see you, go in there, where they are meeting, and wait for me. The Emperor went to do the study. He was followed by Prince Peter Mikhailovich Balconsci and Baron Stein, and the door closed behind them. Prince Andrew, taking advantage of the Emperor's permission, accompanied Palucci, whom he had known in Turkey, into the drawing-room where the counter was assembled. Prince Peter Mikhailovich Balconsci occupied the position, as it were, of chief of the Emperor's staff. He came out of the study into the drawing-room with some maps which he spread on the table, and put questions on which he wished to hear the opinion of the gentleman present. What had happened was, the news which, afterwards, proved to be false, had been received during the night of a movement by the French to outflank the Drissacamp. The first to speak was General Armfield, who, to me, the difficulties had presented itself, unexpectedly proposed a perfectly new position away from the Petersburg and Moscow roads. The reason for this was inexplicable, unless he wished to show that he too could have an opinion. As he urged that at this point the army should unite and there await the enemy. It was plain that Armfield had thought of that plan long ago, and now expounded it not so much to answer the questions put, which, in fact, his plan did not answer, as to avail himself of the opportunity to air it. It was one of the millions of proposals, one as good as another, that could be made as long as it was quite unknown what character the war would take. Some disputed his arguments, others defended them. Young Count Toll objected to the Swedish general's views more warmly than any one else, and in the course of the dispute drew from his side-pocket a well-filled notebook, which he asked permission to read to them. These voluminous notes Toll suggested another scheme, totally different from Armfield's obtuse plan of campaign. In answer to Toll, Paolici suggested an advance and an attack, which, he urged, could alone extricate us from the present uncertainty and from the trap, as he called the drissacamp, in which we were situated. During all these discussions, Fuel and his interpreter, Voltaugin, his bridge in court relations, were silent. Fuel only snorted contemptuously and turned away, to show that he would never demean himself by replying to such nonsense, as he was now hearing. So when Prince Volkonsky, who was in the chair, called on him to give his opinion, he merely said, Why ask me? General Armfield's has proposed a splendid position with an exposed rear. Why not this Italian gentleman's attack, for a fine, or a retreat, also good. Why ask me? said he. Why you yourself know everything better than I do. But when Volkonsky said, with the frown, that it was in the emperor's name that he asked his opinion, Fuel rose and, suddenly growing, animated, began to speak. Everything has been spoiled. Everything muddled. Everybody thought they knew better than I did, and now you come to me. How meant matters? There is nothing to mend. The principles laid down by me must be strictly adhered to, said he, drumming on the table with his bony fingers. What is the difficulty? Nonsense! Childishness! He went up to the map, and speaking rapidly, began proving that no eventuality could alter the efficiency of the dresser-camp, that everything had been foreseen, and that if the enemy were really going to outflank it, the enemy would inevitably be destroyed. Paolochy, who did not know German, began questioning him in French. Volkswagen came to the assistance of his chief, who spoke French badly, and began translating for him, hardly able to keep pace with it, Fuel, who was rapidly demonstrating, said not only all that had happened, but all that could happen, had been foreseen in a scheme, and that if there were now any difficulties, the whole fought lay in the fact that his plan had not been precisely executed. He kept laughing sarcastically. He demonstrated, and at last contemptuously ceased to demonstrate, like a mathematician who seizes to prove in various ways the accuracy of a problem, that has already been proved. Volkswagen took his place, and continued to explain his views in French, every now and then turning to Fuel, and saying, Is it not so, your excellency? But Fuel, like a man heated in a fire to strike, those on his own side shouted angrily at his own support of Volkswagen, when, of course, what more is it there to explain? Paolochy and Michaud, both attacked Volkswagen simultaneously in French, armfuled the dressed Fuel in German, tall explained to Volkonsky in Russian, Prince Andrew listened and observed in silence. Of all these men, Prince Andrew sympathized most with Fuel, angry, determined and absurdly self-confident as he was. Of all those present, evidently he alone was not seeking anything for himself, nurse no hatred against any one, and only desired that the plan, formed in a theory arighted by years of toil, should be carried out. He was ridiculous and unpleasantly sarcastic. But yet, he inspired involuntary respect by his boundless devotion to an idea. Despite of this, three marks of all except Fuel had one common trait that had not been noticeable at the Council of War in 1805. There was now a panic fear of Napoleon's genius, which, though concealed, was noticeable in every rejoinder. Everything was assumed to be possible for Napoleon. They expected him from every side, and evoked his terrible name to shatter each other's proposals. Fuel alone seemed to consider Napoleon a barbarian like everyone else who poses a theory. But besides this feeling of respect, Fuel evoked pity in Prince Andrew, from the tone in which the courtiers addressed him, and the way Paolucci had allowed himself to speak of him to the Emperor, but above all, from a certain desperation of Fuel's own expressions, it was clear that the others knew, and Fuel himself felt, that his fall was at hand. And despite his self-confidence and grumpy German sarcasm, he was pitiful, with his hair smoothly brushed on the temples and sticking up and tufts behind. Though he concealed the factor in the show of irritation and contempt, he was evidently in despair that the sole remaining chance of verifying his theory by a huge experiment and proving it sound as to the whole world was slipping away from him. The discussions continued a long time, and the longer they lasted, the more heeded became the dispute, culminating in shouts and personalities, and the less was it possible to arrive at any general conclusion from all that had been said. Prince Andrew, listening to this polyglot talk, and to his surmises, plans, refutations and shouts, felt nothing but amazement at what they were saying. A thought, such as long sins, and often a cure to him during his military activities, the idea that there is not and cannot be any signs of war, that therefore there can be no such thing as a military genius, now appear to him an obvious truth. What theory and science is possible about a matter, the conditions and circumstances which are unknown and cannot be defined, especially when the strength of the acting forces cannot be ascertained? No one was or is able to foresee in what condition our or the enemy's armies will be in a day's time, and no one can go to the force of this or that detachment. Sometimes when there is not a coward at the front to shout, we are cut off and start running, but a brave and jolly lair to shout, Hurrah! A detachment of five thousand is worth a thirty thousand, as a chongraben, while at times fifty thousand run from eight thousand, as at Austerlitz. What science can there be in a matter in which, as in all practical matters, nothing can be defined, and everything depends on innumerable conditions, the significance of which is determined at a particular moment which arrives no one knows when. Armfield says our army is cut in half, and Paolucci says we have got the French army between two fires. Michaud says that a worthlessness of the dresser camp-lising having the river behind it, and Ful says that is what constitutes a strength. Tol proposes one plan, Armfield's another, and they are all good and all bad, and the advantages of any suggestions can be seen only at the moment of trial. And why do they all speak of a military genius? Is a man a genius, who can order bread to be brought up at the right time, and say who is to go to the right and who to the left? It is only because military men are invested with pump and power, and crowds of sicker fans flatter power, attributing to it qualities of genius it does not possess. The best generals I have known wear, on the contrary, stupid or absent-minded men. But Gratian was the best, Napoleon himself admitted that, and of Bonaparte himself, I remember his limited, self-satisfied face on the field of astrolids. It only does a good army commander not need any special qualities, on the contrary. He needs the absence of the highest and best human attributes, laugh, poetry, manners, and philosophic inquiring doubt. He should be limited, firmly convinced that what he is doing is very important, otherwise he will not have sufficient patience, and only then will he be a brave leader, God forbid that he should be human, should love or pity, or think of what is just and unjust. It is understandable that a theory of their genius was invented for them long ago because they have power. The success of a military action depends not on them, but on the man in the ranks who shouts we are lost or who shouts hurrah, and only in the ranks can one serve with the assurance of being useful. So thought Prince Andrew as he listened to the talking, and he roused himself only when Paolucci called him and everyone was leaving. At a review next day the emperor asked Prince Andrew where he would like to serve, and Prince Andrew lost his standing in court-circles forever by not asking to remain attached to the sovereign's person, but for permission to serve in the army. End of chapter 11 This recording is in the public domain. War and Peace Book 9, Chapter 12 Read for LibriVox.org by Andrew Coleman Before the beginning of the campaign, Rostov had received a letter from his parents in which they told him briefly of Natasha's illness and the breaking off of her engagement to Prince Andrew, which they explained by Natasha's having rejected him, and again asked Nicholas to retire from the army and return home. On receiving this letter Nicholas did not even make any attempt to get leave of absence or to retire from the army, but wrote to his parents that he was sorry Natasha was ill and her engagement broken off, and that he would do all he could to meet their wishes. To Sonia he wrote separately, adored friend of my soul, he wrote, nothing but honour could keep me from returning to the country, but now, at the commencement of the campaign, I should feel dishonoured not only in my comrades' eyes, but in my own, if I preferred my own happiness to my love and duty to the Fatherland. But this shall be our last separation. Believe me, directly the war is over. If I am still alive and still loved by you, I will throw up everything that had fled you to press you for ever to my ardent breast. It was, in fact, only the commencement of the campaign that prevented Rostov from returning home as he had promised, and marrying Sonia. The autumn in Otrigno with the hunting, and the winter with the Christmas holidays and Sonia's love, had opened out to him a vista of tranquil, rural joys and peace, such as he had never known before, and which now allured him. A splendid wife, children, a good pack of hounds, a dozen leashes of smart bauzois, agriculture, neighbours, serviced by election, thought he. But now the campaign was beginning, and he had to remain with his regiment. And since it had to be so, Nicholas Rostov, as was natural to him, felt contented with the life he led in the regiment, and was able to find pleasure in that life. On his return from his furlough, Nicholas, having been joyfully welcomed by his comrades, was sent to obtain remounts, and brought back from the Ukraine excellent horses, which pleased him and earned him commendation from his commanders. During his absence he had been promoted captain, and when the regiment was put on war-footing with an increase in numbers, he was again allotted his old squadron. The campaign began, the regiment was moved into Poland on double pay, new officers arrived, new men and horses, and above all everybody was infected with a merrily excited mood that goes with the commencement of a war, and Rostov, conscious of his advantageous position in the regiment, devoted himself entirely to the pleasures and interests of military service, though he knew that sooner or later he would have to relinquish them. The troops retired from Vilna for various complicated reasons of state, political and strategic. Each step of the retreat was accompanied by a complicated interplay of interests, arguments and passions at headquarters. For the Pavlegrad Hussars however, the whole of this retreat during the finest period of summer and with sufficient supplies was a very simple and agreeable business. It was only at headquarters that there was depression, uneasiness and intriguing. In the body of the army they did not ask themselves where they were going or why. If they regretted having to retreat it was only because they had to leave billets they had grown accustomed to, or some pretty young Polish lady. If the thought that things looked bad, chance to enter anyone's head, he tried to be cheerful as befits a good soldier and not to think of the general trend of affairs but only of the task nearest to hand. First they camped gaily before Vilna, making acquaintance with the Polish land owners, preparing for reviews and being reviewed by the emperor and other high commanders. Then came an order to retreat to Svenciani and destroy any provisions they could not carry away with them. Svenciani was remembered by the Hussars only as the drunken camp. A name the whole army gave to their encampment there and because many complaints were made against the troops who taking advantage of the order to collect provisions took also horses, carriages and carpets from the Polish proprietors. Rostov remembered Svenciani because on the first day of their arrival at that small town he changed his sergeant major and was unable to manage all the drunken men of the squadron who, unknown to him, had appropriated five barrels of old beer. From Svenciani they retired further and further to Drissa and thence again beyond Drissa, drawing near to the frontier of Russia proper. On the thirteenth of July the Pavlograd's took part in a serious action for the first time. On the twelfth of July, on the eve of that action, there was a heavy storm of rain and hail. In general the summer of 1812 was remarkable for its storms. The two Pavlograd's squadrons were bivouacking on a field of rye which was already in the air but had been completely trotted down by Catalan horses. The rain was descending in torrents and Rostov, with a young officer named Ilyin, his protege, was sitting in a hastily constructed shelter. An officer of their regiment, with long moustaches extending on his cheeks, who after riding to the staff had been overtaken by the rain, entered Rostov's shelter. I have come from the staff count. Have you heard of Ryevsky's exploit? And the officer gave them details of the Sultanov battle which he had heard at the staff. Rostov, smoking his pipe and turning his head about as the water trickled down his neck, listened inattentively with an occasional glance at Ilyin who was pressing close to him. This officer, a lad of sixteen who had recently joined the regiment, was now in the same relation to Nicholas that Nicholas had been to Denisov seven years before. Ilyin tried to imitate Rostov in everything, and adored him as a girl might have done. Stryjinsky, the officer with long moustache, spoke grand eloquently of the Sultanov dam being a Russian thermopoly, and of how a deed worthy of antiquity had been performed by General Ryevsky. He recounted how Ryevsky had led his two sons onto the dam under terrific fire, and had charged with them beside him. Rostov heard the story, and not only said nothing to encourage Stryjinsky's enthusiasm, but on the contrary looked like a man ashamed of what he was hearing, though with no intention of contradicting it. Since the campaigns of Austerlitz and of 1807, Rostov knew by experience that men always lie when describing military exploits, as he himself had done when recounting them. Besides that, he had experience enough to know that nothing happens in war at all as we can imagine or relate it. And so he did not like Stryjinsky's tale, nor did he like Stryjinsky himself, who, with his moustaches extending over his cheeks, bent low over the face of his hearer, as was his habit, and crowded Rostov in the narrow shanty. Rostov looked at him in silence. In the first place there must have been such a confusion and crowding on the dam that was being attacked, that if Ryevsky did lead his sons there, it could have had no effect except perhaps on some dozen men nearest to him. Thought he, the rest could not have seen how or with whom Ryevsky came onto the dam, and even those who did see it would not have been much stimulated by it, for what are they to do with Ryevsky's tender paternal feelings when their own skins were in danger? And besides, the fate of the Fatherland did not depend on whether they took the Sultan of Dam or not, as we are told was the case at the Mobley. So why should he have made such a sacrifice, and why expose his own children in the battle? I would not have taken my brother Petia there, or even Ilian, who is a strange to me, but a nice lad, but would have tried to put them somewhere under cover, Nicholas continued to think, as he listened to Stryjinsky. But he did not express his thoughts, for in such matters, too, he had gained experience. He knew that this tale redounded the glory of our arms, and so one had to pretend not to doubt it, and he acted accordingly. I can't stand this any more, said Ilian, noticing that Rostov did not relish Stryjinsky's conversation. My stockings and shirt, and the water is running on my seat, I'll go and look for shelter. The rain seemed less heavy. Ilian went out, and Stryjinsky rode away. Five minutes later, Ilian, splashing through the mud, came running back to the shanty. Hurrah! Rostov, come quick! I found it! About two hundred yards away, there's a tavern where ours have already gathered. We can at least get dry there, and Mary Hendrikovna's there. Mary Hendrikovna was the wife of the regimental doctor, a pretty young German woman he had married in Poland. The doctor, whether from lack of means, or because he did not like to part from his young wife in the early days of their marriage, took her about with him wherever the Hussar regiment went, and his jealousy had become a standing joke among the Hussar officers. Rostov threw his cloak over his shoulders, shouted to Levrushka to follow with the things, and, now slipping in the mud, now splashing right through it, set off with Ilian in the lessening rain, at the darkness that was occasionally rent by distant lightning. Rostov, where are you? Here! What lightning? They called to one another. End of Chapter 12. War and Peace. Book 9, Chapter 13. Read for LibriVox.org by Andrew Coleman. In the tavern before which stood the doctor's covered cart, there were already some five officers. Mary Hendrikovna, a plump little blonde German in a dressing jacket and nightcap, was sitting on a broad bench in the front corner. Her husband, the doctor, lay asleep behind her. Rostov and Ilian, on entering the room, were welcomed with merry shouts and laughter. Dear me, how jolly we are! said Rostov, laughing. And why do you stand there gaping? What swells they are! Why are the water streams from them? Don't make our drawing-room so wet! Don't mess Mary Hendrikovna's dress! cried other voices. Rostov and Ilian hastened to find a corner where they could change into dry clothes, without offending Mary Hendrikovna's modesty. They were going into a tiny recess behind a partition to change, but found it completely filled by three officers, who sat playing cards by the light of a solitary candle on an empty box, and these officers would on no account yield their position. Mary Hendrikovna obliged them with the loan of a petticoat to be used as a curtain, and behind that screen Rostov and Ilian, helped by Lavrushka, who had brought their kits, changed their wet things for dry ones. A fire was made up in the dilapidated brick stove. A board was found, fixed on two saddles and covered with a horsecloth. A small samovar was produced, and a cellarette and half a bottle of rum. At having asked Mary Hendrikovna to preside, they all crowded round her. One offered her a clean handkerchief to wipe her charming hands. Another spread a jacket under her little feet to keep them from the damp. Another hunkies coat over the window to keep out the draught, and yet another waved the flies off her husband's face, lest he should wake up. Leave him alone, said Mary Hendrikovna, smiling timidly and happily. He's sleeping well as it is, after a sleepless night. Oh no, Mary Hendrikovna, replied the officer, one must look after the doctor. Perhaps he'll take pity on me some day, when it comes to cutting off a leg or an arm for me. There were only three tumblers. The water was so muddy that one could not make out whether the tea was strong or weak, and the samovar held only six tumblers of water. But this made it all the pleasanter to take turns in order of seniority to receive one's tumbler from Mary Hendrikovna's plump little hands with her short and not over clean nails. All the officers appeared to be, and really were in love with her that evening. Even those playing cards behind the partition soon left their game and came over to the samovar, yielding to the general mood of courting Mary Hendrikovna. She, seeing herself surrounded by such brilliant and polite young men, beamed with satisfaction, try as she might to hide it, and perturbed as she evidently was each time her husband moved in his sleep behind her. There was only one spoon. Sugar was more plentiful than anything else, but it took too long to dissolve. So it was decided that Mary Hendrikovna should stir the sugar for everyone in turn. Rostov received his tumbler, and, adding some rum to it, asked Mary Hendrikovna to stir it. But you take it without sugar, she said, smiling all the time, as if everything she said and everything the others said was very amusing and had a double meaning. It is not the sugar I want, but only that your little hand should stir my tea. Mary Hendrikovna assented, and began looking for the spoon which someone meanwhile had pounced on. Use your finger, Mary Hendrikovna, it will be still nicer," said Rostov. Too hot, she replied, blushing with pleasure. Ilian put a few drops of rum into the bucket of water, and brought it to Mary Hendrikovna, asking her to stir it with her finger. This is my cup, said he, only dip your finger in it, and I'll drink it all up. When they had emptied the samovar, Rostov took a pack of cards, and proposed that they should play kings with Mary Hendrikovna. They drew lots to settle who should make up her set. At Rostov's suggestion it was agreed that whoever became king should have the right to kiss Mary Hendrikovna's hand, and that the booby should go to refill and reheat the samovar for the doctor when the latter awoke. Well, but supposing Mary Hendrikovna is king, asked Ilian, as it is, she is queen, and her word is law. They had hardly begun to play before the doctor's dishevelled head suddenly appeared from behind Mary Hendrikovna. He had been awake some time, listening to what was being said, and evidently found nothing entertaining or amusing in what was going on. His face was sad and depressed. Without greeting the officers he scratched himself, and asked to be allowed to pass as they were blocking the way. As soon as he had left the room all the officers burst into loud laughter, and Mary Hendrikovna blushed, till her eyes filled with tears, and thereby became still more attractive to them. Returning from the yard the doctor told his wife, who had ceased to smile so happily, and looked at him in alarm awaiting her sentence, that the rain had ceased, and they must go to sleep in their covered cart, or everything in it would be stolen. But I'll send an orderly. Two of them, said Rostov. What an idea, doctor! I'll stand guard on it myself, said Ilyin. No, gentlemen, you have had your sleep, but I have not slept for two nights, replied the doctor, and he sat down merrily beside his wife, waiting for the game to end. Seeing his gloomy face as he frowned at his wife, the officers grew still merrier, and some of them could not refrain from laughter, for which they hurriedly sought plausible pretexts. When he had gone, taking his wife with him, and had settled down with her in their covered cart, the officers lay down in the tavern, covering themselves with their wet cloaks, but they did not sleep for a long time. Now they exchanged remarks, recalling the doctor's uneasiness at his wife's delight. Now they ran out into the porch, and reported what was taking place in the covered trap. Several times Rostov, covering his head, tried to go to sleep, but some remark would arouse him, and conversation would be resumed to the accompaniment of unreasoning merri, childlike laughter. It was nearly three o'clock, but no one was yet asleep, when the quartermaster appeared with an order to move on to the little town of Rostrovna. Still laughing and talking, the officers began hurriedly getting ready, and again boiled some muddy water in the Samovar. But Rostov went off to his quadrant, without waiting for tea. Day was breaking, the rain had ceased, and the clouds were dispersing. It felt damp and cold, especially in clothes that were still moist, as they left the tavern in the twilight of the dawn, Rostov and Ilyin both glanced under the wet and glistening leather hood of the doctor's cart, from under the apron of which his feet were sticking out, and in the middle of which his wife's nightcap was visible, and her sleepy breathing audible. She really is a dear little thing, said Rostov to Ilyin, who was following him. A charming woman, said Ilyin, with all the gravity of a boy of sixteen. Half an hour later the squadron was lined up on the road. The command was heard to mount, and the soldiers crossed themselves and mounted. Rostov riding in front gave the order forward, and the hossars, with clanking sabers and subdued torque, their horses hooves splashing in the mud, defiled in falls, and moved along the broad road planted with birch trees on each side, following the infantry and a battery that had gone on in front. Tattered blue-purple clouds reddening in the east were scutting before the wind. It was growing lighter and lighter, that curly grass which always grows by country roadsides became clearly visible, still wet with the night's rain. The drooping branches of the birches, also wet, swayed in the wind, and flung down bright drops of water to one side. The soldiers' faces were more and more clearly visible. Rostov, always closely followed by Ilyin, rode along the side of the road between two rows of birch trees. When campaigning, Rostov allowed himself the indulgence of riding not a regimental, but a Cossack horse. A judge of horses and a sportsman, he had lately procured himself a large, fine, metalsome doughnets horse, done coloured with light mane and tail, and when he rode it, no one could out-gallop him. To ride this horse was a pleasure to him, and he thought of the horse of the morning of the doctor's wife, but not once of the impending danger. Formally, when going into action, Rostov had felt afraid. Now he had not the least feeling of fear. He was fearless, not because he had grown used to being under fire, one cannot grow used to danger, but because he had learned how to manage his thoughts when in danger. He had grown accustomed when going into action to think about anything, but what would seem most likely to interest him, the impending danger. During the first period of his service, hard as he tried, and much as he reproached himself with cowardice, he had not been able to do this, but with time it had come of itself. Now he rode beside Ilyin under the birch trees, occasionally plucking leaves from a branch that met his hand, sometimes touching his horse's side with his foot, or without turning round, handing a pipe he had finished to an hersar riding behind him, with as calm and careless an air, as though he were merely out for a ride. He glanced with pity at the excited face of Ilyin, who talked much and in great agitation. He knew from experience the tormenting expectation of terror and death the cornet was suffering, and knew that only time could help him. As soon as the sun appeared in a clear strip of sky beneath the clouds, the wind fell, as if it dared to fall, as if it dared to fall. It dared not spoil the beauty of the summer morning after the storm. Drops still continued to fall, but vertically now, and all was still. The whole sun appeared on the horizon and disappeared behind a long, narrow cloud that hung above it. A few minutes later it reappeared brighter still from behind the top of the cloud, tearing its edge. Everything grew bright and glittered, and with that light, and as if in reply to it, came the sound of guns ahead of them. Before Rostov had had time to consider and determine the distance of that firing, Count Ostermann Tolstoy's adjutant came galloping from Vitebsk with orders to advance at a trot along the road. The squadron overtook and passed the infantry and the battery, which had also quickened their pace, rolled down a hill, and passing through an empty and deserted village again ascended. The horses began to lather and the men to flush. Halt! Dress your ranks! The order of the regimental commander was heard ahead. Forward by the left! Walk! March! came the order from in front, and her sars, passing along the line of troops on the left flank of our position, halted behind our Uleens, who were in the front line. To the right stood our infantry in a dense column. They were the reserve. Higher up the hill, on the very horizon, our guns were visible through the wonderfully clear air, blightly illuminated by slanting morning sunbeams. In front, beyond a hollow dale, could be seen the enemy's columns and guns. Our advanced line, already in action, could be heard briskly exchanging shots with the enemy in the dale. At these sounds, long unheard, rust of spirits rose as at the strains of the merriest music. Trap-trap-trap! Cracked the shots, now together, now several quickly, one after another, again all was silent, and then again it sounded as if someone were walking on detonators and exploding them. The her sars remained in the same place for about an hour. A cannonade began. Count Osterman, with his suite, rode up behind the squadron, halted, spoke to the commander of the regiment, and rode up the hill to the guns. After Osterman had gone, a command rang out to the Uleens. Form column! Prepare to charge! The infantry in front of them parted into platoons to allow the cavalry to pass. The Uleens started, the streamers on their spears, fluttering, and trotted down hill towards the French cavalry, which was seen below to the left. As soon as the Uleens descended the hill, the hussars were ordered up the hill to support the battery. As they took the places vacated by the Uleens, bullets came from the front, whining and whistling, but fell spent without taking effect. These sounds, which he had not heard for so long, had an even more pleasurable and exhilarating effect on Rostov than the previous sounds of firing. Drawing himself up, he viewed the field of battle opening out before him from the hill, and with his whole soul followed the movement of the Uleens. They swooped down close to the French dragoons. Something confused happened there amid the smoke, and five minutes later our Uleens were gulloping back, not to the place they had occupied, but more to the left, and among the orange-colored Uleens on chestnut horses, and behind them in a large group, blue French dragoons on grey horses could be seen. End of Chapter 14. War and Peace, Book 9, Chapter 15. Read for LibriVox.org by Andrew Coleman. Rostov, with his keen sportsman's eye, was one of the first to catch sight of these blue French dragoons pursuing Uleens. Nearer and nearer in disorderly crowds came the Uleens and the French dragoons pursuing them. He could already see how these men, who looked so small at the foot of the hill, jostled and overtook one another, waving their arms and their sabers in the air. Rostov gazed at what was happening before him, as at a hunt. He felt instinctively that if the Hussars struck at the French dragoons now, the latter could not withstand them. But if a charge was to be made, it must be done now. That very moment, or it would be too late, he looked round. A captain, standing beside him, was gazing like himself, with eyes fixed on the cavalry below them. Andrew Sevastianich, said Rostov, you know we could crush them. A fine thing, too, replied the captain. And really, Rostov, without waiting to hear him out, touched his horse, galloped to the front of the squadron, and before he had time to finish giving the word of command, the whole squadron, sharing his feeling, was following him. Rostov himself did not know how or why he did it. He acted as he did when hunting, without reflecting or considering. He saw the dragoons near, and that they were galloping in disorder. He knew they could not withstand an attack, knew there was only that moment, and that if he let it slip, it would not return. The bullets were whining and whistling so stimulatingly around him, and his horse was so eager to go, that he could not restrain himself. He touched his horse, gave the word of command, and immediately, hearing behind him the tramp of the horses of his deployed squadron, rode at full trot down hill towards the dragoons. Hardly had they reached the bottom of the hill before their pace instinctively changed to a gallop, which grew faster and faster, as they drew nearer to our Rulans and the French dragoons who galloped after them. The dragoons were now close at hand. On seeing our Hussars, the foremost began to turn, while those behind began to halt. With the same feeling with which he had galloped across the path of a wolf, Rostov gave reign to his doughnets horse, and galloped to intersect the path of the dragoons' disordered lines. One Ulan stopped, another who was on foot, flung himself to the ground to avoid being knocked over, and a rideless horse fell in among the Hussars. Nearly all the French dragoons were galloping back. Rostov, picking out one on a grey horse, dashed after him. On the way he came upon a bush, his gallant horse cleared it, and almost before he had rotted himself in his saddle, he saw that he would immediately overtake the enemy he had selected. That Frenchman, by his uniform and officer, was going at a gallop, crouching on his grey horse, and urging it on with his sabre. In another moment, Rostov's horse dashed its breast against the hindquarters of the officer's horse, almost knocking it over, and at the same instant Rostov, without knowing why, raised his sabre and struck the Frenchman with it. The instant he had done this, all Rostov's animation vanished. The officer fell, not so much from the blow, which had but slightly cut his arm above the elbow, as from the shock to his horse, and from fright. Rostov rained in his horse, and his eyes sought his foe to see whom he had vanquished. The French Dragoon officer was hopping with one foot on the ground, the other being caught in the stirrup. His eyes screwed up with fear, as if he every moment expected another blow, gazed up at Rostov with shrinking terror. His pale and mud-stained face, fair and young, with a dimple in the chin, and light blue eyes, was not an enemy's face at all suited to a battlefield, but a most ordinary, home-like face. Before Rostov had decided what to do with him, the officer cried, I surrender! He hurriedly, but vainly tried to get his foot out of the stirrup, and did not remove his frightened blue eyes from Rostov's face. Some Hussars who galloped up disengaged his foot and helped him into the saddle. On all sides the Hussars were busy with the Dragoons. One was wounded, but though his face was bleeding he would not give up his horse. Another was perched up behind an Hussar with his arms round him. A third was being helped by an Hussar to mount his horse. In front the French infantry were firing as they ran. The Hussars galloped hastily back with their prisoners. Rostov galloped back with the rest, aware of an unpleasant feeling of depression in his heart. Something vague and confused, which he could not at all account for, had come over him with the capture of that officer, and the blow he had dealt him. Count Ostermann Tolstoy met the returning Hussars, sent for Rostov, thanked him, and said he would report his gallant deed to the emperor, and would recommend him for a St George's Cross. When sent for by Count Ostermann, Rostov, remembering that he had charged without orders, felt sure his commander was sending for him to punish him for breach of discipline. Ostermann's flattering words and promise of a reward should therefore have struck him all the more pleasantly. But he still felt that same vaguely disagreeable feeling of moral nausea. But what on earth is worrying me, he asked himself as he rode back from the general. Illian? No, he's safe. Have I disgraced myself in any way? No, that's not it. Something else, resembling remorse, tormented him. Yes, oh yes, that French officer with the dimple. And I remember how my arm paused when I raised it. Rostov saw the prisoners being led away, and galloped after them to have a look at his Frenchman with the dimple on his chin. He was sitting in his foreign uniform on an Hussar pack horse, and looked anxiously about him. The sword cut on his arm could scarcely be called a wound. He glanced at Rostov with a faint smile, and waved his hand in greeting. Rostov still had the same indefinite feeling, as of shame. All that day, and the next, his friends and comrades noticed that Rostov, without being dull or angry, was silent, thoughtful, and preoccupied. He drank reluctantly, tried to remain alone, and kept turning something over in his mind. Rostov was always thinking about that brilliant exploit of his, which to his amazement had gained him the St George's Cross, and even given him a reputation for bravery. And there was something he could not at all understand. So others are even more afraid than I am, he thought. So that's all there is in what is called heroism. And did I do it for my country's sake? And how was he to blame, with his dimple and blue eyes, and how frightened he was? He thought I should kill him. Why should I kill him? My hand trembled, and they have given me a St George's Cross. I can't make it out at all. But while Nicholas was considering these questions, and still could reach no clear solution of what puzzled him so, the will of fortune in the service, as often happens, turned in his favour. After the affair at Tostrovna, he was brought into notice, received command of an Hussar battalion, and when a brave officer was needed, he was chosen. End of Chapter 15. Warrant piece, Book 9, Chapter 16, read for levervox.org by Andrew Coleman. On receiving news of Natasha's illness, the Countess, though not quite well yet, and still weak, went to Moscow with Petia and the rest of the household, and the whole family moved from Maria Dimitrievna's house to their own, and settled down in town. Natasha's illness was so serious that, fortunately for her and for her parents, the consideration of all that had caused the illness, her conduct, and the breaking off of her engagement receded into the background. She was so ill that it was impossible for them to consider in how far she was to blame for what had happened. She could not eat or sleep, grew visibly thinner, coughed, and as the doctors made them feel, was in danger. They could not think of anything but how to help her. Doctors came to see her singly and in consultation, talked much in French, German and Latin, blamed one another, and prescribed a great variety of medicines for all the diseases known to them. But the simple idea never occurred to any of them, that they could not know the disease Natasha was suffering from. As no disease suffered by a live man can be known, for every living person has his own peculiarities, and always has his own peculiar, personal, novel, complicated disease, unknown to medicine. Not a disease of the lungs, liver, skin, heart, nerves, and so on mentioned in medical books, but a disease consisting of one of the innumerable combinations of the maladies of those organs. This simple thought could not occur to the doctors, as it cannot occur to a wizard that he is unable to work charms, because the business of their lives was to cure, and they received money for it, and had spent the best years of their lives on that business. But above all, that thought was kept out of their minds by the fact that they saw they were really useful, as in fact they were to the whole rust of family. Their usefulness did not depend on making the patient swallow substances for the most part harmful, the harm was scarcely perceptible as they were given in small doses, but they were useful, necessary, and indispensable, because they satisfied a mental need of the invalid, and of those who loved her. And that is why there are, and always will be, pseudo healers, wise women, homeopaths, and alapaths. They satisfied that eternal human need for hope of relief, for sympathy, and that something should be done, which is felt by those who are suffering. They satisfied the need seen in its most elementary form in a child, when it wants to have a place rubbed that has been hurt. A child knocks itself and runs at once to the arms of its mother or nurse to have the aching spot rubbed or kissed, and it feels better when this is done. The child cannot believe that the strongest and wisest of its people have no remedy for its pain, and the hope of relief, and the expression of its mother's sympathy while she robs the bump comforts it. The doctors were of use to Natasha, because they kissed and rubbed her bump, assuring her that it would soon pass if only the coachman went to the chemists in the arbat, and got a powder and some pills in a pretty box for a rouble and 70 copex, and if she took those powders in boiled water at intervals of precisely two hours, neither more nor less. What would Sonia and the Count and Countess have done? How would they have looked if nothing had been done? If there had not been those pills to give by the clock, the warm drinks, the chicken cutlets, and all the other details of life ordered by the doctors, the carrying out of which supplied an occupation and consolation to the family circle. How would the Count have borne his dearly loved daughter's illness? Had he not known that it was costing him a thousand roubles, and that he would not grudge thousands more to benefit her? Or had he not known that if her illness continued, he would not grudge yet other thousands, and would take her abroad for consultations there? And had he not been able to explain the details of how Metivier and Fella had not understood the symptoms, but Frisad and Mudrov had diagnosed them even better? What would the Countess have done? Had she not been able sometimes to scold the invalid for not strictly obeying the doctor's orders? You'll never get well like that, she would say, for getting her grief in her vexation, if you won't obey the doctor and take your medicine at the right time. You mustn't trifle with it, you know, or it may turn to pneumonia, she would go on, driving much comfort from the utterance of that foreign word, incomprehensible to others, as well as to herself. What would Sonia have done? Without the glad consciousness that she had not undressed during the first three nights, in order to be ready to carry out all the doctor's injunctions with precision, and that she still kept awake at night so as not to miss the proper time when the slightly harmful pills in the little guilt box had to be administered. Even to Natasha herself, it was pleasant to see that so many sacrifices were being made for her sake, and to know that she had to take medicine at certain hours, though she declared that no medicine would cure her, and that it was all nonsense, and it was even pleasant to be able to show by disregarding the orders that she did not believe in medical treatment and did not value her life. The doctor came every day, felt her pulse, looked at her tongue, and regardless of her grief-stricken face, joked with her. But when he had gone into another room, to which the Countess hurriedly followed him, he assumed a grave air, and thoughtfully shaking his head, said that though there was danger, he had hopes of the effect of this last medicine, and one must wait and see that the Malady was chiefly mental but, and the Countess, trying to conceal the action from herself and from him, slipped a gold coin into his hand, and always returned to the patient with a more tranquil mind. The symptoms of Natasha's illness were that she ate little, slept little, coughed, and was always low-spirited. The doctors said that she could not get on without medical treatment, so they kept her in the stifling atmosphere of the town, and the Rostovs did not move to the country that summer of 1812. In spite of the many pills she swallowed, and the drops and powders out of the little bottles and boxes of which Madame Chos was fond of such things, made a large collection, and in spite of being deprived of the country life to which she was accustomed, youth prevailed. Natasha's grief began to be overlaid by the impressions of daily life. It ceased to press so painfully on her heart. It gradually faded into the past, and she began to recover physically. End of Chapter 16. Natasha was calmer, but no happier. She not merely avoided all external forms of pleasure—balls, promenades, concerts, and theatres—but she never laughed without a sound of tears in her laughter. She could not sing. As soon as she began to laugh, or tried to sing by herself, tears choked her. Tears of remorse, tears at the recollection of those pure times which could never return. Tears of vexation that she should so uselessly have ruined her young life, which might have been so happy. Laughter and singing, in particular, seemed to her like a blasphemy in face of her sorrow. Without any need of self-restraint, no wish to coquette ever entered her head. She said and felt at that time that no man was more to her than Nastasia Ivanovna, the buffoon. Something stood sentinel within her, and forbade her every joy. Besides, she had lost all the old interests of her carefree, girlish life that had been so full of hope. The previous autumn, the hunting, uncle, and the Christmas holidays spent with Nicholas at a treadmill were what she recalled oftenest, and most painfully. What would she not have given to bring back even a single day of that time? But it was gone forever. Her presentiment at the time had not deceived her, that that state of freedom and readiness for any enjoyment would not return again. Yet it was necessary to live on. It comforted her to reflect that she was not better as she had formally imagined, but worse, much worse, than anybody else in the world. But this was not enough. She knew that, and asked herself, what next? But there was nothing to come. There was no joy in life. Yet life was passing. Nastasia apparently tried not to be a burden or a hindrance to anyone, but wanted nothing for herself. She kept away from everyone in the house, and only felt at ease with her brother Petia. She liked to be with him better than with the others, and when alone with him she sometimes laughed. She hardly ever left the house, and of those who came to see them was only glad to see one person, Pierre. It would have been impossible to treat her with more delicacy, greater care, and at the same time more seriously, than did Count Pesukov. Nastasia unconsciously felt this delicacy, and so found great pleasure in his society. But she was not even grateful to him for it. Nothing good on Pierre's part seemed to her to be an effort. It seemed so natural for him to be kind to everyone, that there was no merit in his kindness. Sometimes Nastasia noticed embarrassment and awkwardness on his part in her presence, especially when he wanted to do something to please her, or fear that something they spoke of would awaken memories distressing to her. She noticed this and attributed it to his general kindness and shyness, which he imagined must be the same towards everyone as it was to her. After those involuntary words, that if he were free, he would have asked on his knees for her hand and her love. Uttered at a moment when she was so strongly agitated, Pierre never spoke to Nastasia of his feelings. And it seemed plain to her that those words, which had then so comforted her, were spoken as all sorts of meaningless words, are spoken to comfort a crying child. It was not because Pierre was a married man, but because Nastasia very strongly felt with him that moral barrier, the absence of which she had experienced with Coriagin, that it never entered her head, that the relations between him and herself could lead to love on her part, still less on his, or even to the kind of tender, self-conscious, romantic friendship between a man and a woman, of which she had known several instances. Before the end of the Fast of St. Peter, Agrafeina Ivanovna Belova, a country neighbour of the Rostovs, came to Moscow to pay her devotions at the shrines of the Moscow Saints. She suggested that Nastasia should fast and prepare for Holy Communion, and Nastasia gladly welcomed the idea. Despite the doctor's orders that she should not go out early in the morning, Nastasia insisted on fasting and preparing for the sacrament, not as they generally prepared for it in the Rostov family, by attending three services in their own house, but as Agrafeina Ivanovna did, by going to church every day for a week, and not once missing vespers, matins, or mass. The Countess was pleased with Nastasia's zeal. After the poor results of the medical treatment, in the depths of her heart, she hoped that prayer might help her daughter more than medicines, and, though not without fear, and concealing it from the doctor, she agreed to Nastasia's wish, and entrusted her to Belova. Agrafeina Ivanovna used to come to wake Nastasia at three in the morning, but generally found her already awake. She was afraid of being late for matins. Heastily washing and meekly putting on her shabbiest dress at an old mantilla, Nastasia, shivering in the fresh air, went out into the deserted streets, lit by the clear light of dawn. By Agrafeina Ivanovna's advice, Nastasia prepared herself, not in their own parish, but as a church, where according to the devout Agrafeina Ivanovna, the priest was a man of very severe and lofty life. There were never many people in the church. Nastasia always stood beside Belova in the customary place before an icon of the Blessed Virgin, let into the screen before the choir on the left side, and a feeling, new to her, of humility before something great and incomprehensible, seized her when at that unusual morning hour, gazing at the dark face of the Virgin, illuminated by the candles burning before it, and by the morning light falling from the window, she listened to the words of the service, which she tried to follow with understanding. When she understood them, her personal feeling became interwoven in the prayers with shades of its own. When she did not understand, it was sweeter still to think that the wish to understand everything is pride, that it is impossible to understand all, that it is only necessary to believe and to commit oneself to God, whom she felt guiding her soul at those moments. She crossed herself, bowed low, and when she did not understand, in horror at her own valeness, simply asked God to forgive her everything, everything, and to have mercy upon her. The prayers to which she surrendered herself most of all, were those of repentance. On her way home at an early hour, when she met no one but Bricklayer's going to work, or men sweeping the street, and everybody within the houses was still asleep, Natasha experienced a feeling new to her, a sense of the possibility of correcting her faults, the possibility of a new, clean life, and of happiness. During the whole week she spent in this way, that feeling grew every day, and the happiness of taking communion, or communing as Agriphina Ivanovna, joyously playing with the word, called it, seemed to Natasha so great that she felt she should never live till that blessed Sunday. But the happy day came, and on that memorable Sunday, when dressed in white muslin, she returned home after communion, for the first time for many months she felt calm, and not oppressed by the thought of the life that lay before her. The doctor who came to see her that day ordered her to continue the powders he had prescribed a fortnight previously. She must certainly go on taking them, morning and evening, said he, evidently sincerely satisfied with his success, only please be particular about it. Be quite easy, he continued playfully, as he adroitly took the gold coin in his palm. She will soon be singing and frolicking about. The last medicine has done her a very great deal of good. She has freshened up very much. The Countess, with a cheerful expression on her face, looked down at her nails, and spat a little for luck, as she returned to the drawing room. End of Chapter 17. War and Peace, Book 9, Chapter 18, read for LibriVox.org by Andrew Coleman. At the beginning of July, more and more disquieting reports about the war began to spread in Moscow. People spoke of an appeal by the Emperor to the people, and of his coming himself from the army to Moscow, and as up to the 11th of July no manifesto or appeal had been received, exaggerated reports became current about them, and about the position of Russia. It was said that the Emperor was leaving the army because it was in danger. It was said that Smolensk had surrendered, that Napoleon had an army of a million, and only a miracle could save Russia. On the 11th of July, which was Saturday, the manifesto was received, but was not yet in print, and Pierre, who was at the Rostovs, promised to come to dinner next day, Sunday, and bring a copy of the manifesto and appeal, which he would obtain from Count Rostovchin. That Sunday the Rostovs went en masse at the Rusimovsky's private chapel, as usual. It was a hot July day. Even at ten o'clock, when the Rostovs got out of their carriage at the chapel, the sultry air, the shouts of hawkers, the light and gay summer clothes of the crowd, the dusty leaves of the trees on the boulevard, the sounds of the band, and the white trousers of a battalion marching to parade, the rattling of wheels on the cobblestones, and the brilliant hot sunshine were all full of that summer languor, that content and discontent with the present, which is most strongly felt on a bright hot day in town. All the Moscow notabilities, all the Rostovs acquaintances, were at the Rusimovsky's chapel, for as if expecting something to happen, many wealthy families who usually left town for their country estates had not gone away that summer. As Natasha, at her mother's side, passed through the crowd behind a liveryed footman who cleared the way for them, she heard a young man speaking about her in two louder whisper, that's Rostov, the one who, she's much thinner, but all the same, she's pretty, she heard, or thought she heard, the names of Koryagin and Bolkonsky. But she was always imagining that. It always seemed to her that everyone who looked at her was thinking only of what had happened to her. With a sinking heart, Richard as she always was now when she found herself in a crowd, Natasha, in her lilac silk dress, trimmed with black lace, walked, as women can walk, with the more repose and stakedliness, the greater the pain and shame in her soul. She knew for certain that she was pretty, but this no longer gave her satisfaction as it used to. On the contrary, it had tormented her more than anything else of late, and particularly so on this bright, hot, summer day in town. It's Sunday again, another week past, she thought, recalling that she had been here the Sunday before, and always the same life that is no life, and the same surroundings in which it used to be so easy to live. I'm pretty, I'm young, and I know that now I am good. I used to be bad, but now I know I am good. She thought, but yes, my best years are slipping by, and are no good to any one. She stood by her mother's side and exchanged nods with acquaintances near her. From habit she scrutinised the ladies' dresses, condemned the bearing of a lady standing close by, who was not crossing herself properly, but in a cramped manner, and again she thought with vexation that she was herself being judged, and was judging others, and suddenly, at the sound of the service, she felt horrified at her own vileness, horrified that the former purity of her soul was again lost to her. A comely, fresh-looking old man was conducting the service with that mild solemnity which has so elevating and soothing an effect on the soles of the worshippers. The gates of the sanctuary screen were closed, the curtain was slowly drawn, and from behind it a soft, mysterious voice pronounced some words. Tears, the cause of which she herself did not understand, made Natasha's breast heave, and a joyous but oppressive feeling agitated her. Teach me what I should do, how to live my life, how I may grow good forever, forever, she pleaded. The deacon came out onto the raised space before the altar screen, and holding his thumb extended drew his long hair from under his dalmatic, and making the sign of the cross on his breast began in a loud and solemn voice to recite the words of the prayer, in peace, let us pray unto the Lord. As one community without distinction of class, without enmity, united by brotherly love, let us pray, thought Natasha, for the peace that is from above, and for their salvation of our souls, for the world of angels, and all the spirits who dwell above us, prayed Natasha. When they prayed for the warriors, she thought of her brother and Denisov. When they prayed for all travelling by land and sea, she remembered Prince Andrew, prayed for him, and asked God to forgive her all the wrong she had done him. When they prayed for those who love us, she prayed for the members of her own family, her father and mother and Sonia, realizing for the first time how wrongly she had acted towards them, and feeling all the strength of her love for them. When they prayed for those who hate us, she tried to think of her enemies and people who hated her in order to pray for them. She included among her enemies the creditors and all who had business dealings with her father, and always at the thought of enemies and those who hated her, she remembered Anatole who had done her so much harm. And though he did not hate her, she gladly prayed for him as for an enemy. Only at prayer did she feel able to think clearly and calmly of Prince Andrew and Anatole, as men for whom her feelings were as nothing compared with her awe and devotion to God. When they prayed for the imperial family and the synod, she bowed very low and made the sign of the cross, saying to herself that even if she did not understand, still she could not doubt, and at any rate, loved the governing synod and prayed for it. When he had finished the litany, the deacon crossed the stall over his breast and said, Let us commit ourselves and our whole lives to Christ the Lord. Commit ourselves to God. Natasha inwardly repeated, Lord God, I submit myself to thy will. She thought, I want nothing, wish for nothing, teach me what to do, and how to use my will. Take me, take me, prayed Natasha, with impatient emotion in her heart, not crossing herself but letting her slender arms hang down as if expecting some invisible power at any moment to take her and deliver her from herself, from her regrets, desires, remorse, hopes, and sins. The countess looked round several times at her daughter's softened face and shining eyes and prayed God to help her. Unexpectedly, in the middle of the service, and not in the usual order Natasha knew so well, the deacon brought out a small stool, the one he knelt on when praying on Trinity Sunday, and placed it before the doors of the sanctuary screen. The priest came out, with his purple velvet beretta on his head, adjusted his hair, and knelt down with an effort. Everybody followed his example and looked at one another in surprise. Then came the prayer just received from the synod, a prayer for the deliverance of Russia from hostile invasion. Lord God of might, God of our salvation, began the priest in that voice clear, not grand eloquent, but mild, in which only the Slav clergy read, and which acts so irresistibly on a Russian heart. Lord God of might, God of our salvation, look this day in mercy and blessing on thy humble people, and graciously hear us, spare us, and have mercy upon us. This for confounding thy land, desiring to lay waste the whole world, rises against us. These lawless men are gathered together to overthrow thy kingdom, to destroy thy dear Jerusalem, thy beloved Russia, to defy all thy temples, to overthrow thy daughters, and to desegrate our holy shrines. How long, O Lord, how long shall the wicked triumph? How long shall they wield unlawful power? Lord God, hear us when we pray to thee. Strengthen with thy might our most gracious sovereign Lord, the Emperor Alexander Pavlovich. Be mindful of his uprightness and meekness. Reward him according to his righteousness, and let it preserve us, thy chosen Israel. Bless his councils, his undertakings, and his work. Strengthen his kingdom by thine almighty hand, and give him victory over his enemy. Even as thou gavest Moses the victory over Amalek, Gideon over Midian, and David over Goliath. Preserve his army. Put a bow of brass in the hands of those who have armed themselves in thy name, and gird their loins with strength for the fight. Take up the spear and shield and a rise to help us. Confound and put to shame those who have desired evil against us. May they be before the faces of thy faithful warriors, as dust before the wind. And may thy mighty angel confound them, and put them to flight. May they be ensnared when they know it not. And may the plots they have laid in secret be turned against them. Let them fall before thy servant's feet, and be laid low by our hosts. Lord, thou art able to save both great and small. Thou art God, and man cannot prevail against thee. God of our fathers, remember thy bountious mercy and loving-kindness which are from of old. Turn not thy face from us, but be gracious to our unworthiness. And in thy great goodness and thy many mercies, regard not our transgressions and iniquities. Create in us a clean heart, and renew a right spirit within us. Strengthen us all in thy faith. Fortify our hope. Inspire us with true love, one for another. Arm us with unity of spirit in the righteous defence of the heritage thou gave us to us, and to our fathers. And let not the scepter of the wicked be exalted against the destiny of those thou hast sanctified. O Lord our God, in whom we believe, and in whom we put our trust, let us not be confounded in our hope of thy mercy, and give us a token of thy blessing, that those who hate us and our orthodox faith may see it, and be put to shame and perish, and may all the nations know that thou art the Lord, and we are thy people. Show thy mercy upon us this day, O Lord, and grant us thy salvation. Make the hearts of thy servants to rejoice in thy mercy, smite down our enemies, and destroy them swiftly beneath the feet of thy faithful servants. For thou art the defence, the sucker, and the victory of them that put their trust in thee, and to thee be all glory, to Father, Son, and Holy Ghost, now and forever, world without end. Amen. In Natasha's receptive condition of soul, this prayer affected her strongly. She listened to every word about the victory of Moses over Amalek, of Gideon over Midian, and of David over Goliath, and about the destruction of thy Jerusalem, and she prayed to God with a tenderness and emotion with which her heart was overflowing, but without fully understanding what she was asking of God in that prayer. She shared with all her heart in the prayer for the Spirit of Righteousness, for the strengthening of the heart by faith and hope, and its animation by love. But she could not pray that her enemies might be trampled underfoot, when but a few minutes before she had been wishing she had more of them that she might pray for them. But neither could she doubt the righteousness of the prayer that was being read on bended knees. She felt in her heart a devout and tremulous awe at the thought of the punishment that overtakes men for their sins, and especially of her own sins, and she prayed to God to forgive them all and her too, and to give them all and her too, peace and happiness. And it seemed to her that God heard her prayer. End of chapter 18. War and Peace Book 9, Chapter 19, read for LibriVox.org by Andrew Coleman. From the day when Pierre, after leaving the Rostovs with Natasha's grateful look thresh in his mind, had gazed at the comet that seemed to be fixed in the sky, and felt that something new was appearing on his own horizon. From that day the problem of the vanity and uselessness of all earthly things that had incessantly tormented him no longer presented itself. That terrible question why, wherefore, which had come to him amid every occupation, was now replaced not by another question, or by a reply to the former question, but by her image. When he listened to, or himself took part in, trivial conversations, when he read or heard of human baseness or folly, he was not horrified as formally, and did not ask himself why men struggled so about these things, when all is so transient and incomprehensible. But he remembered her as he had last seen her, and all his doubts vanished. Not because she had answered the questions that had haunted him, but because his conception of her transferred him instantly to another, a brighter realm of spiritual activity in which no one could be justified or guilty, a realm of beauty and love which it was worth living for. Whatever worldly baseness presented itself to him, he said himself, well, supposing NN has swindled the country and the Tsar, and the country and the Tsar confer honours upon him, what does that matter? She smiled at me yesterday, and asked me to come again, and I love her, and no one will ever know it, and his soul felt calm and peaceful. Pierre still went into society, drank as much, and led the same idle and dissipated life, because besides the hours he spent at the Rostovs there were other hours he had to spend somehow, and the habits and acquaintances he had made in Moscow formed a current that bore him along irresistibly. But latterly, when more and more disquieting reports came from the seat of war, and Natasha's health began to improve, and she no longer aroused in him the former feeling of careful pity, an ever-increasing restlessness which he could not explain took possession of him. He felt that the condition he was in could not continue long, that a catastrophe was coming which would change his whole life, and he impatiently solved everywhere for signs of that approaching catastrophe. One of his brother Masons had revealed to Pierre the following prophecy concerning Napoleon, drawn from the Revelation of St John. In chapter 13 verse 18 of the Apocalypse it is said, Here is wisdom, let him that hath understanding count the number of the beast, for it is the number of a man, and his number is six hundred, three score, and six. And in the fifth verse of the same chapter, and there was given unto him a mouth speaking great things and blasphemies, and power was given unto him to continue forty and two months. The French alphabet, written out with the same numerical values as the Hebrew, in which the first nine letters denote units, and the others tens, will have the following significance. A1, B2, C3, D4, E5, F6, G7, H8, I9, K10, L20, M30, N40, O50, P60, Q70, R80, S90, T100, U110, V120, W130, X140, Y150, Z160. Writing the words L'Ompérée Napoléon in numbers, it appears that the sum of them is six hundred and sixty six, and that Napoleon was therefore the beast foretold in the Apocalypse. Moreover, by applying the same system to the words Carendure, 42, which was the term allowed to the beast that spoke great things and blasphemies, the same number six hundred and sixty six was obtained, from which it followed that the limit fixed for Napoleon's power had come in the year 1812, when the French Emperor was 42. This prophecy pleased Pierre very much, and he often asked himself what would put an end to the power of the beast, that is, of Napoleon, and tried by the same system of using letters as numbers, and adding them up, to find an answer to the question that engrossed him. He wrote the words L'Ompérée Alexandre, La Natione Ross, and added up their numbers, but the sums were either more or less than six hundred and sixty six. Once when making such calculations, he wrote down his own name in French, Comte Pierre Bazouhov, but the sum of the numbers did not come right. Then he changed the spelling, substituting a Z for the S, and adding D and the article L, still without obtaining the desired result. Then it occurred to him that if the answer to the question were contained in his name, his nationality would also be given in the answer. So he wrote La Russes Bazouhov, and adding up the numbers got six hundred and seventy one. This was only five too much, and five was represented by E, the very letter elided from the article L' before the word Emperor. By omitting the E, though incorrectly, Pierre got the answer he sought. El apostrophe Russ Bazouhov made six hundred and sixty six. This discovery excited him. How, or by what means, he was connected with the great event foretold in the Apocalypse, he did not know, but he did not doubt that connection for a moment. His love for Natasha, Antichrist, Napoleon, the Invasion, the Comet, six hundred and sixty six, L'Ompere Napoleon, and El apostrophe Russ Bazouhov. All this had to mature and culminate, to lift him out of that spellbound petty sphere of Moscow habits in which he felt himself held captive, and lead him to a great achievement and great happiness. On the eve of the Sunday, when the special prayer was read, Pierre had promised the Rostovs to bring them from Count Restoption, whom he knew well, both the appeal to the people, and the latest news from the army. In the morning, when he went to call at Restoptions, he met there a courier fresh from the army, an acquaintance of his own, who often danced at Moscow Balls. Do please, for heaven's sake, relieve me of something," said the courier, I have a sack full of letters to parents. Among these letters was one from Nicholas Rostov to his father. Pierre took that letter, and Restoption also gave him the emperor's appeal to Moscow, which had just been printed, the last army orders, and his own most recent bulletin. Glancing through the army orders, Pierre found in one of them, in the lists of killed, wounded, and rewarded. The name of Nicholas Rostov awarded a St George's Cross of the Fourth Class for courage shown in the Ostrovner affair, and in the same order the name of Prince Andrew Balkonsky appointed to the command of a regiment of chasseurs. Though he did not want to remind the Rostovs of Balkonsky, Pierre could not refrain from making them happy by the news of their sons having received a decoration. So he sent that printed army order, and Nicholas's letter to the Rostovs, keeping the appeal, the bulletin, and the other orders to take with him when he went to dinner. His conversation with Count Restoption, and the latter's tone of anxious hurry, the meeting with the courier who talked casually of how badly things were going in the army, the rumours of the discovery of spies in Moscow, and of a leaflet in circulation, stating that Napoleon promised to be in both the Russian capitals by the autumn, and the talk of the emperors being expected to arrive next day, all aroused with fresh force that feeling of agitation and expectation in Pierre, which he had been conscious of ever since the appearance of the comet, and especially since the beginning of the war. He had long been thinking of entering the army, and would have done so had he not been hindered, first by his membership of the Society of Freemasons to which he was bound by oath, and which preached perpetual peace and the abolition of war, and secondly, by the fact that when he saw the great mass of Moskovites who had donned uniform, and were talking patriotism, he somehow felt ashamed to take the step. But the chief reason for not carrying out his intention to enter the army, lay in the vague idea that he was El apostrophe Rusbezhukov, who had the number of the beast 666, that is part in the great affair of setting a limit to the power of the beast that spoke great and blasphemous things, had been predestined from eternity, and that therefore he ought not to undertake anything, but wait for what was bound to come to pass. End of Chapter 19. War and Peace, Book 9, Chapter 20, read for LibriVox.org by Andrew Coleman. A few intimate friends were dining with Rostovs that day, as usual on Sundays. Pierre came early so as to find them alone. He had grown so stout this year, that he would have been abnormal, had he not been so tall, so broad of limb, and so strong that he carried his bulk with evident ease. He went up the stairs puffing and muttering something. His coachman did not even ask whether he was to wait. He knew that when his master was at the Rostovs, he stayed till midnight. The Rostovs footman rushed eagerly forward to help him off with his cloak and take his hat and stick. Pierre, from clump habit, always left both hat and stick in the ante-room. The first person he saw in the house was Natasha. Even before he saw her, while taking off his cloak, he heard her. She was practising so far exercises in the music room. He knew that she had not sung since her illness, and so the sound of her voice surprised and delighted him. He opened the door softly and saw her. In the lilac dress she had worn at church, walking about the rooms singing. She had her back to him when he opened the door. But when, turning quickly, she saw his broad, surprised face. She blushed, and came rapidly up to him. I want to try to sing again," she said, adding as if by way of excuse, it is at least something to do. That's capitol. How glad I am you've come. I am so happy to-day," she said with the old animation Pierre had not seen in her for a long time. You know Nicholas has received a St. George's Cross. I am so proud of him. Oh yes, I sent that announcement. But I don't want to interrupt you," he added. And was about to go to the drawing room. Natasha stopped him. Count, is it wrong of me to sing? She said, blushing, and fixing her eyes inquiringly on him. No, why should it be? On the contrary. But why do you ask me? I don't know myself," Natasha answered quickly. But I should not like to do anything you disapproved of. I believe in you completely. You don't know how important you are to me, how much you've done for me. She spoke rapidly, and did not notice how Pierre flushed at her words. I saw in that same army order that he, Balkonsky, she whispered the name hastily, is in Russia, and in the army again. What do you think? She was speaking hurriedly, evidently afraid her strength might fail her. Will he ever forgive me? Will he not always have a bitter feeling towards me? What do you think? What do you think? I think," Pierre replied, that he has nothing to forgive. If I were in his place. By association of ideas, Pierre was at once carried back to the day when, trying to comfort her, he had said that if he were not himself, but the best man in the world, and free, he would ask on his knees for her hand. And the same feeling of pity, tenderness, and love, took possession of him, and the same words rose to his lips. But she did not give him time to say them. Yes, you, you," she said, uttering the word you rapturously. That's a different thing. I know no one kinder, more generous, or better than you. Nobody could be. Had you not been there then, and now too, I don't know what would have become of me, because tears suddenly rose in her eyes. She turned away, lifted her music before her eyes, began singing again, and again began walking up and down the room. Just then Petia came running in from the drawing room. Petia was now a handsome rosy lad of fifteen, with full red lips, and resembled Natasha. He was preparing to enter the university, but he and his friend Dobolensky had lately, in secret, agreed to join the Hussars. Petia had come rushing out to talk to his namesake about this affair. He had asked Pierre to find out whether he would be accepted in the Hussars. Pierre walked up and down the drawing room, not listening to what Petia was saying. Petia pulled him by the arm to attract his attention. Well, what about my plan? Peter Kiryaliyech, for heaven's sake, you are my only hope," said Petia. Oh yes, your plan. To join the Hussars I'll mention it. I'll bring it all up to-day. Well, Monshire, have you got the manifesto? Ask the old count. The countess has been to Mass at the Rosimovskys and heard the new prayer. She says it's very fine. Yes, I've got it," said Pierre. The emperor is to be here to-morrow. There's to be an extraordinary meeting of the nobility, and they are talking of a levy of ten men per thousand. Oh yes, let me congratulate you. Yes, yes, thank God. Well, and what news from the army? We are again retreating. They say we're already near Smolensk," replied Pierre. Oh Lord! Oh Lord! exclaimed the count. Where is the manifesto? The emperors appealed. Oh yes, Pierre began feeling in his pockets for the papers, but could not find them. Still slapping his pockets, he kissed the hand of the countess who went to the room, and glanced uneasily around, evidently expecting Natasha, who had left off singing, but had not yet come into the drawing-room. On my word, I don't know what I've done with it. He said, there he is, always losing everything, remarked the countess. Natasha entered with a softened and agitated expression of face, and sat down looking silently at Pierre. As soon as she entered, Pierre's features, which had been gloomy, suddenly lighted up, and while still searching for the papers, he glanced at her several times. No really, I'll drive home. I must have left them there. I'll certainly—but you'll be late for dinner. Oh, and my coachman has gone. But Sonia, who had gone to look for the papers in the anti-room, had found them in Pierre's hat, where he had carefully tucked them under the lining. Pierre was about to begin reading. No, after dinner, said the old count, evidently expecting much enjoyment from that reading. At dinner, at which champagne was drunk to the health of the new chevelier of St George, Shinshin told them the town news, of the illness of the old Georgian princess, of Metivier's disappearance from Moscow, and of how some German fellow had been brought to Restoption and accused of being a French spyar. So Count Restoption had told the story, and how Restoption let him go, and assured the people that he was not a spyar at all, but only an old German ruin. People are being arrested, said the count. I've told the countess she should not speak French so much. It's not the time for it now. And have you heard? Shinshin asked. Prince Galitsin has engaged a master to teach him Russian. It is becoming dangerous to speak French in the streets. And how about you, Count Peter Kerileevich? If they call up the militia, you too will have to mount a horse. remarked the old count, addressing Pierre. Pierre had been silent and preoccupied all through dinner. Seeming not to grasp what was said. He looked at the count. Oh yes, the war, he said. No, what sort of a warrior should I make? And yet everything is so strange, so strange. I can't make it out. I don't know. I am very far from having military tastes. But in these times no one can answer for himself. After dinner the count settled himself comfortably in an easy chair, and with a serious face, asked Sonia, who was considered an excellent reader, to read the appeal. To Moscow, our ancient capital, the enemy has entered the borders of Russia with immense forces. He comes to despoil our beloved country. Sonia read painstakingly in her high-pitched voice. The count listened with closed eyes, heaving abrupt sighs at certain passages. Natasha sat erect, gazing with a searching look now at her father, and now at Pierre. Pierre felt her eyes on him, and tried not to look round. The countess shook her head disapprovingly and angrily at every solemn expression in the manifesto. In all these words she saw only that the danger threatening her son would not soon be over. Shinshin, with a sarcastic smile on his lips, was evidently preparing to make fun of anything that gave him the opportunity. Sonia's reading, any remark of the counts, or even the manifesto itself, should know better pretext present itself. After reading about the dangers that threatened Russia, the hopes the emperor placed on Moscow, and especially on its illustrious nobility, Sonia, with a quiver in her voice, due chiefly to the attention that was being paid to her, read the last words. We ourselves will not delay to appear among our people in that capital and in other parts of our realm for consultation, and for the direction of all ourselves, both those now barring the enemy's path, and those freshly formed to defeat him wherever he may appear. May the ruin he hopes to bring upon us recoil on his own head, and may Europe delivered from bondage glorify the name of Russia. Yes, that's it! cried the count, opening his moist eyes and sniffing repeatedly, as if a strong vinaigrette had been held to his nose, and he added, Let the emperor but say the word, and will sacrifice everything, and begrudge nothing. Before Shinshin had time to utter the joke he was ready to make on the count's patriotism, Natasha jumped up from her place and ran to her father. What a darling our papa is! she cried kissing him, and she again looked at Pierre, with the unconscious cocketry that had returned to her, with her better spirits. There, here's a patriot for you! said Shinshin. Not a patriot at all, but simply, Natasha replied in an injured tone. Everything seems funny to you, but this isn't at all a joke. A joke indeed, put in the count. Let him but say the word, and we'll all go. We're not Germans. But did you notice, it says, Before consultation, said Pierre, Never mind what it's for. At this moment, Petia, to whom nobody was paying any attention, came up to his father with a very flushed face, and said in his breaking voice, That was now deep, and now shrill. Well, papa, I tell you definitely, and mama too, It's as you please, but I say definitely, That you must let me enter the army, Because I can't. That is all. The countess, in dismay, looked up to heaven, clasped her hands, and turned angrily to her husband. That comes of your talking, said she. But the count had already recovered from his excitement. Come, come, said he. Here's a fine warrior. No, nonsense. You must study. It's not nonsense, papa. Petia Obolensky is younger than I, and he's going too. Besides, all the same I can't study now, when? Petia stopped short, flushed till he perspired, but still got up the words. When our father land is in danger, That'll do, that'll do, nonsense. But you said yourself, that we would sacrifice everything. Petia, be quiet, I tell you. Quite the count with a glance at his wife, who had turned pale, and was staring fixedly at her son. And I tell you, Peter Kirillich here will also tell you. Nonsense, I tell you. Your mother's milk has hardly dried on your lips, and you want to go into the army. There, there, I tell you. And the count moved to go out of the room, taking the papers, probably to reread them in his study, before having a nap. Well, Peter Kirillich, let's go and have a smoke, he said. Pierre was agitated and undecided. Natasha's unwontedly brilliant eyes, continually glancing at him, with a more than cordial look, had reduced him to this condition. No, I think I'll go home. Home? Why are you meant to spend the evening with us? You don't often come nowadays as it is, and this girl of mine, said the count good-naturedly, pointing to Natasha, only brightens up when you're here. Yes, I had forgotten. I really must go home. Business, said Pierre hurriedly. Well then, au revoir, said the count, and went out of the room. Why are you going? Why are you upset? Asked Natasha, and she looked challengingly into Pierre's eyes. Because I love you, was what he wanted to say. But he did not say it, and only blushed till the tears came, and lowered his eyes. Because it is better for me to come less often. Because, no, simply I have business. Why? No, tell me! Natasha began resolutely, and suddenly stopped. They looked at each other with dismayed and embarrassed faces. He tried to smile, but could not. His smile expressed suffering, and he silently kissed her hand, and went out. Pierre made up his mind not to go to the Rostovs any more. End of chapter 20.