 someone's just watching me hi everyone welcome back to my channel welcome to another video we're doing a drive with me i haven't done one in a very long time because i haven't had my car in a very long time well that's all right i've had our uni for a few weeks now but i thought we'd do a drive with me today a bit of a mukbang i'm going to get well kind of a mukbang i'm going to get starbucks because i haven't eaten today i really really really really really need a coffee right we're gonna have to turn the music off though because copyright i asked for some assumptions on my instagram i actually haven't read them all yet usually i like to leave it as like a little surprise for myself so it's just as exciting for you guys no for me as it is for you oh we have the most ridiculous feed bumps in this place uni's been very interesting recently obviously we are in lockdown so starbucks drive thru has pretty much been the only thing we've done trying to get out of the road hon she wants to get run over let's go vroom vroom vroom bit oh that is such a nice car there is a massive Ferrari like showroom centre shop i don't know what they're called right down here by my uni it's making me really sad actually that i don't have music so i might have to just ditch you guys in a minute and find us you got them there sorry you're not going to be able to hear anything i'm saying driving solo i'm just living through my hands when i'm sober i just don't like who i am i've got a lot of enemies i used to be my friends hello we are by nilly at starbucks i've already been in this queue for about 10 minutes and i have a feeling i'm going to be here for about another half an hour also you guys missed out i was driving down the motorway massive flashing sign says car on fire slow down so i slowed down like that's going to stop me from catching on fire i was just waiting to see a car actually on fire like a full blown exploded car or something like that nope there was just a car on the side of the road with its bonnet open no fire nothing no smoke very disappointing i mean i'm glad for the his ever car it was there wasn't on fire but like don't tell me there's gonna be a car on fire also i was kind of scared i was gonna catch on fire myself so i did have to go in that outermost lane so that i didn't catch on fire i think that's all i had to update you on haven't decided what i'm gonna get yet i don't even know what the starbucks festive drinks are let's have a look eggnog latte who who who drinks an eggnog latte and their sandwich has gravy in it that is just so not what i want so they only have three drinks maybe i'll get a toffee nut latte or should i get a gingerbread latte guys i really want to get lip fillers i know everyone's gonna be like don't eat lip fillers jeez i don't know where that came from firstly that sounded like a compliment to myself by saying i didn't need them but can you see my lips because i can't oh i also can't drive without glasses on i just want right so if anyone can just let anyone tell me how much i should get because everyone gets like a mil right and all my friends that have had lip fillers have had started with a mil and then eventually got like another mil a few months later again i feel like i say now i wouldn't do that i could just get a mil and like if it faded well dissolved or whatever then that's fine i'll just deal with it whatever but i also said that about dyeing my hair blonde which i spent far too much money on now after the first time i said i was only gonna do it once same with my eyelash extensions and acrylic nails which i haven't actually got for a very long time but as soon as i start getting them again i will get them all the time so am i just adding another expense to my life that i can't afford i need to put glasses on to be able to read this menu hi hi can i get a toffee nut latte please i just found my ex bitch pull up on the next oh my god they have them as frappuccinos as well i feel like a gingerbread frappuccino would be nice i've got a shit i've got gingerbread oh my god she can still hear me i forgot oh that was so embarrassing i was just screaming and i forget that my microphone's on all the time and she can hear me and my window is still open okay i'm gonna see you when i've got my food bye we're just gonna have to deal with the lighting i'm sorry okay i have my toffee nut latte it smells like a toffee milkshake oh i guess it's kind of what it is no it's got coffee i didn't even try it yet but i don't like it okay well it definitely tastes like a toffee nut latte like that's exactly what i thought it was going to taste like i don't know if i prefer it to a normal latte i feel like it's going to be very sick here i'm glad i did not get a bigger size let's answer some assumptions okay a lot of these i'm not gonna answer you're smart as hell i'm really gonna understanding people firstly that's really cute i think yeah i think i am actually very okay firstly i don't think i'm smart i think in terms of like understanding people i actually do think i'm very like in tune with people's emotions just from stuff that's happened in my life like i've just learned so yeah i would say that's true sometimes at a cost your family are actually really rich and you try to hide it by being relatable she then says i don't think this i love you i love you too i don't think i've ever like said my family doesn't have money like my they we definitely do oh that sounds bad we're definitely very comfortable and i have nothing to complain about in my life in terms of that kind of stuff my dad started his own company and he's done very well for himself so yeah we do have money but like it's not like an unrelatable amount of money like i'm not a trillionaire like i'm not about to inherit millions of pounds it's such an awkward topic to talk about i don't think that's what makes people relatable i think it's just about showing your actual personality and just not being fake on camera you work hard and put a lot in a lot of effort into school it doesn't come easy to you yeah i don't think it comes easy to me i think it definitely used to when i was like in primary school i was very clever in primary school and then gcscs i did work very hard for them i did work very hard for them but i also really wasn't in a good headspace at the time i was revising for them and i still did very well so i don't know whether that was from me working hard or as it was just from me like naturally being clever i think probably a bit of both but by the time i got to my a levels down the drain i don't know where where it went like i worked really hard for my levels as well and did nowhere near as good as i did in my gcscs obviously they're considerably harder and i'm not gonna lie i did have a few distractions during my levels yeah i don't think i'm naturally clever anymore especially at uni oh my god like i don't feel clever at all i definitely have to work hard if i want to do well which is a shame because i used to be clever but i don't know it doesn't matter um this is a very strange you would get with a guy who just broke up with his long-term girlfriend just because you don't like her um no i that's a really weird thing to do like that's very strange i i only going to get with a guy if i like him not if i don't like his ex-girlfriend i don't know where this has come from am i missing something should i be really offended by this he used to want to go to oxbridge interesting uh no i never really considered it properly a lot of my friends weren't doing it it was a lot of hard work originally when i chose my a levels i thought i was going to do medicine at university which is obviously a very difficult course to get into and a very difficult course to actually do even when you get onto the course so doing medicine at oxbridge just seemed like a ridiculous idea so i never considered it and i just don't think i'm clever enough i mean my a level grades would not have let me in anyway so i don't know why i'm saying that and also i just don't think i could have handled the pressure you found making friends at uni easy um all of the two friends that i have yes um no i'm joking kind of am i yeah i'm not gonna lie i haven't really found it that difficult considering like covid and everything i thought it was gonna be impossible and i was terrified that i wasn't gonna have no friends no one was going to talk to me and i was going to be by myself crying in my room every day which i kind of do do anyway but usually i have a friend there to cry with but yeah i think i was just really lucky and that i just met people who i just clicked with instantly like we are so similar we just get on like literally from the like day i met them or we got on so well you had your heart broken vibe it's one way to put it just tell me how it is you don't enjoy youtube as much as you used to i don't i don't think okay i think that's partly true i go through phases with how much i enjoy youtube sometimes i really really enjoy it sometimes i hate it want to quit it never do it again in my life uh a bit dramatic but there have definitely been times i mean you want to see in the gaps on my channel where i don't upload for like two months just because i don't know what i want to film i get really demotivated if i upload a video and no one wants to watch it i'm like why don't i put 20 hours of my life into that video and i go through phases of the content i'm making whether i really enjoy and whether i don't but yeah like when i was doing when i was at school i really really enjoyed filming like school vlogs just because firstly it was what i was doing with my day anyway so it didn't feel like i was taking time out of my day to sit down and film a video which would have stressed me out because i had so much work to do i just didn't have time for that you guys seem to really enjoy those kind of videos and i love watching them back because i've got all my friends and them and obviously i'm not at school anymore same with uni like i'm gonna do another week in the life probably soon because whenever we come out of lockdown so it's a bit interesting because i like those kind of vlogs but yeah sometimes if i just don't know what to film like during my gap year i just had no idea what to film because i wasn't doing anything if i'd been traveling i think i would have loved it i was so excited to make traveling videos during that time i really didn't like it but i think i'm kind of getting there again i mean honestly i'll see you tomorrow and i'll probably hate youtube but right now i do like it you smoke packs i do not smoke i hate cigarettes i hate the smell of them i hate the taste of them i hate being around anyone who's smoking or has smoked if i ever had a boyfriend who's smoked i well i wouldn't have a boyfriend who smoked because i could not deal with it like i genuinely hate it your body count is double digits nope absolutely not but if it if it was there'd be nothing wrong with that you care too much about other people's opinions again it depends who it is like if people like people i don't know random strangers on the internet comment on my videos comment on tiktok instagram whatever i don't care i really don't care like i've never really got that much hate definitely had some it really doesn't faze me it actually makes me laugh like i kind of find it funny that people are that angry that they take the time out of their day to write me a message that i then just laugh at unless i've done something actually wrong then please call me out for it but like just making comments on people's appearance i've had a fair few of them it's just like why but people in real life who i actually know and whose opinions i value and who i care about definitely like even if i love something or love something like about myself or like i really want to buy this or really want to do this if someone who's important enough to me says that looks awful or you really shouldn't do that or that's embarrassing something like that i mean that wouldn't be very nice and i probably shouldn't love them as much as i do if they're saying that to me but this is a hypothetical situation i probably wouldn't do it wouldn't buy it wouldn't wear it whatever it is because i think i do care too much what other people think because i doubt myself a lot okay and the last one is that i'm struggling with uni yes and no i feel like i've said yes and no to every single one of these assumptions i think i'm just very emotional right now i don't know what's going on with my body she's not really handling anything i can't really stomach any food i can't sleep i don't know what's happening um she's shutting down we're getting a little bit better i'm fine no one call 999 on me i just don't know what's going on like i don't even think what obviously it is mental you can be really sad and it will literally physically hurt your body like your brain is so powerful so i'm just trying to tell my brain that we're actually good and we can sleep at night and we can eat a full meal and we can do our work work is a lot like it's very stressful and i think because i've had a year and a half out of any kind of responsibilities like that i think it's just a bit of an adjustment i'm just trying to get used to like self-discipline and self-control and time management and all that kind of stuff but it's a learning curve we're all going to get there together anyways i'm going to end this video here because i've been filming for so long i hate i'm gonna hate myself in a few days time when i come to edit this video and it's gonna take me like 10 hours because i just chapped absolute rubbish out my ass so i really hope you guys enjoyed this if you did please give it a thumbs up subscribe if you aren't already and i will see you guys next week with another video