 Okay, a moment of honesty. I don't think I'm gonna post this but I'm losing my battle to control my drinking It's like essentially all I think about these days What is up everybody? This is Chris from the rewired soul where we talk about the problem, but focus on the solution And today I'm doing something a little bit different So I want to preface this by saying I started my channel originally to just help as many people as possible With mental health issues as well as addiction issues. I myself have been clean and sober since June 23 2012 and my mission is just to help as many people as possible so that clip you just saw was from another youtuber named big no-no he his name is Noah and Just to give you a little bit of background. I stumbled across his channel when I first got into YouTube I was doing research I do a lot of research whenever I get into anything and I want to see if there was anybody else on YouTube who Was talking about sobriety and recovery and things like that and the videos I came across on his channel We're talking about sobriety. Okay, so in that clip, obviously He's not doing well. All right, so in this video. I wanted to talk about the issues he's having but First and foremost, I just want to make it very clear like this is not a malicious video in any way in any way at all I have two goals with this video two goals The first one is to help you out. I want to help you See what happens. Hopefully you can learn from it and hopefully you can avoid some mistakes Second goal Noah if you see this video, I've shot you a DM on Instagram already Feel free to reach out if I can help in any way, okay? So like I said, this video is not meant to be malicious in any way I got to preface it with that because my style of helping people who are struggling with addiction You get a lot of tough love. All right, because there's a very thin line between Supporting somebody and enabling somebody so we have to be honest We have to be blunt and we have to be truthful like we have to explain what the actual issues are So hopefully we can get through that that thickness of the delusion that addiction causes. Okay, so In this video, I've set it up. Okay with various clips to kind of show you the progression So like I said when I found big no-nose channel, I saw a lot of stuff about recovery But the first video I saw from him. That was the newest video came from July 6th 2017 and here's a clip from it. I was this person and now I'm someone else Different Rambling is all fucking over the place. I think it is but I'm different now I'm someone who parties with his buddies on the weekends and I'm someone who doesn't actively struggle with depression and anxiety anymore Okay, so in this clip. This is a very short clip. Just let you know that is a 20 something minute long video There's a very short clip. I just wanted to give you some context So as soon as I saw that after I had already subscribed to him I quickly hit the unsubscribe button because I have seen this story play out so many times All right, so in this video in the in the overall video He talks about struggles with depression and where his life's been at and whether or not he's gonna continue on YouTube And what his goals are and what he wants to achieve and all sorts of stuff Okay, but he admits that he's been drinking again, but it's just partying He just goes out with his friends and everything's cool. And like I said, I have seen this story play out Far far far too many times and I just knew that this was heading towards disaster I was like, this is not going to end. Well, all right And what what breaks my heart is that I've looked at watched a bunch of Noah's other Videos and this is a man who has been clean for over a year in the past and I Won't go too far into it, but he clearly has worked a program before he speaks the lingo. He's good about Keeping the anonymity of the program if you will but he understands Program, okay, and that's why it breaks my heart when I see this happening I'm like this is gonna go somewhere very very wrong. All right, so this next clip Okay, now we're gonna start getting into the progression of how this actually goes. All right So this next clip comes from about two months later. No actually the next month on August 14th Check it out. It's definitely an intense thing to say. Hey, I think I'm an alcoholic Who's trying to control his drinking? It just sounds so stupid. It's like the most Moronic thing to say out loud. Was I happier sober? No, have I overall been happier since I got back out in the world as a drinker? Yes It seems like I'm an alcoholic. I'm just not a far gone alcoholic. I'm not like an extreme Alcoholic, but this is something I want to do and if I can learn to control my drinking And I can find peace with it Then that's great. And if I can't make God give me the courage to admit it and just move on to the next thing Cuz I have dreams. I have goals. I have responsibilities. I have passions. I have hobbies got things that matter a lot more than drinking Okay, so this is a video titled am I still an alcoholic? Now the first mistake you made Noah was You looked up the definition of alcoholism from Wikipedia. I don't know how it's 2018 and people are still looking at Wikipedia Wikipedia is not a credible source. I can go in and edit whatever I want and It's not too hard like people play pranks on Wikipedia all the time So yes, there is some good information on Wikipedia not a credible source. All right So by the way, stay tuned to the end of this video because I am going to give you guys something pretty cool All right. So that is first off that is a bad source of information, but This video this next video he made it just hurt It hurt me so bad because you can see that he's admitting he's an alcoholic But he's trying to justify and rationalize What he's doing. Yeah, I am an alcoholic, but if this were on a spectrum, I'm not a bad alcoholic I'm the okay alcoholic. I'm one who isn't too far gone But like he says at the end is that he just hopes he hopes that he's able to get the help he needs If this is and here's something that I teach at my rehab Constantly all the time every day I say I hope my only hope for each person who I am trying to teach how to live a life of sobriety Is that they don't need to go back and do more research? Okay? I hope that they understand that they are biologically different There is something wrong with the way that their brain processes dopamine where you cannot turn an Abnormal drinker into a normal drinker Science has not discovered a way to do that yet but no one mentions in this video that this is something that he's trying to do and If you're watching this you might know this quote. It says the great obsession Okay, the great obsession of every alcoholic is to somehow some way Drink like other people. All right. I might have screwed up that quote But you get what I'm saying that is our obsession. We keep going back That is the cause of so many relapses We don't want to admit that we are different than other people. Okay, the same book that I'm referencing It says nobody nobody likes to admit that they are Different than other people, but this is something that we have to do And analogy I give all the time is that my dad has diabetes and it has almost killed him before if my dad Does not fully surrender to the fact that he is a diabetic It will kill him. It's the same thing with an addiction to drugs or alcohol If we don't admit if we don't understand if we don't concede to the fact not the opinion But the fact that we are truly an alcoholic or an addict it can potentially kill us. Okay now It hurts because I see that Noah says that since he's been drinking again. He's he's not as depressed He's having fun again something that most addicts and alcoholics know is that Originally the drugs and the alcohol they start as the solution to all of our problems But eventually they become the main source of all of our problems So what you're watching with these clips is the steady progression of addiction. All right So this last set of clips I'm gonna show you is from his most recent video Which was recorded on January 12th of this year Okay a moment of honesty, I don't think I'm gonna post this but I'm losing my battle to control my drinking It's like essentially all I think about these days am I gonna drink tonight? What time will I start drinking? What time do I have to get up tomorrow? How can I make it seem like I'm not drinking that much? I Had like this hell scare stop drinking because my health scare moment. I thought I was okay started drinking heavy again I had like a gastrointestinal thing Stenocus hurting stop drinking sounds like scared for my body my life Moment I started to feel a little bit better started heavily drinking again Even drinking what I don't want to drink it's happening literally just drinking Yeah, what I don't even want to drink and there you have it, okay? That's only about a five-minute video. And by the way, I'll link to all the full videos below so, you know I you don't you don't think I'm taking anything out of context or chopping it up funny But now he's at a place We call these the yes, okay, so in his other videos. He's talking about like I still have control I haven't had any medical issues My life is still manageable and all these things we call those the yes Addiction is a progressive disease. Okay, so people who relapse the the lie that they tell themselves is like, okay Okay, I still got it under control. I still got it under control. Everything's gonna be fine But it progresses to a place where all the things that we said haven't happened They haven't happened yet. So his most recent video in January that He's starting to experience the yes. He's having medical issues. He can't stop He's drinking when he doesn't want to drink So that's why I say like I really try to beat it into my client's heads that you need to figure this out now Fortunately, fortunately for Noah, it's alcohol, but don't get it twisted Thousands upon thousands of people die each year from alcoholism but if you are somebody who is an opioid addict like I was like This is killing people over a hundred people a day or dying from this That's why it's so important to understand that this is something that that that is wrong with me. Okay And it's not necessarily wrong. It's it's like an allergy. You know what I mean There's nothing wrong with being having an abnormal reaction to alcohol or drugs It's just something we have to accept imagine somebody with a peanut allergy who Like just think about the insanity real quick of somebody with a peanut allergy And them them just every time they go to the store. You they're like, you know what? I'm going to eat peanuts like a normal person this time This time it's going to be different this time. I'm not going to have an allergic reaction It's going to be okay, right? You would look at that person like they were nuts But for some reason not some reason there's a lot of Neuro biological explanations for this of why we justify that it's going to be different this time with alcohol or drugs So unfortunately, Noah is back in the situation that he started in you know what I mean And I really hope I really hope that he gets some help, you know, and I'm always here I'm always here. No, if you see this we're plotting my dm on instagram. You know what I mean? Like I'm here to help people But I really hope you all can learn lessons from this because my fear Here's my fear. My fear is that people who have followed Noah And watched his relapse They might have thought that they can do the same same thing. You know what I mean? That's my fear. That's my word Like I said at the end of this video I'm going to provide you with something if you head over to the rewired soul.com if you stuck with me this whole time Go on over to the rewired soul.com. I have an addiction course out there Usually it's a hundred dollars. I just want to help people if you use the coupon code It's free it s f re I've put it right here for you Right, you can go take my addiction course for free You'll begin to understand why you cannot turn an abnormal drinker Or a drug addict into a regular user because I explain the brain science behind it. All right And I don't care like I'm not here to become rich off this stuff So if you don't think it'll help you and you think it'll help somebody else Go give that coupon code to all your friends all your family members Educate people about addiction so we can hopefully prevent more relapses in the future All right, so anyways, I hope this video helps some of you out And if you want to see the progression like I said, you can check out Noah's full videos down here Okay, but anyways, um, if any of you have experienced with relapses If any of you can relate to what Noah's been going through go ahead and leave your comments down below Okay, but anyways, if you like this video, please give it a thumbs up And if you're new here, make sure you click the subscribe button I'm always making videos about addiction recovery mental health and all that good stuff If you want to check out some other videos on my channel click or tap on one of those thumbnails right there All right, but everybody stay well go out love each other help each other and this rule will be a much better place I'll see you next time