 I was probably as low down as possible for a human to get. My severe mental health issues caused me a lot of heartache, family-wise. When you become really severely mentally impaired, the overriding factor then is suicide. And you think and think and think and you don't get any peace. That's what happened to me, is the fact that it just took over my life. You tend to get in a train of thought where nothing will change, nothing will make any difference. Very well, they think I'm here. Men's Edges are initially set up for people who are suffering problems with bereavement, depression, ill health. They come here, I'm for a couple of hours every day, they forget about their problems. Your mental health stops for a few hours and you think about something else. There's such a relief, you know? And that's what we do. We have one rule that we not care us, but we care. So the lottery has helped us a lot in the fact that they've enabled us to get tools that we can really do things with. It gave me a purpose to get up in the morning. I was nervous coming here. It took me three attempts to actually come into the place. I'm always going to be ill, but now I don't sit at home, staring at that square box in the corner. That's not life. This is life. I've always had mental health issues, but now they're behind me, you know?