 Hello everybody. Welcome to day two of our 30 day challenge. Of course, I'm Bryce and I'm here with my friend Emmy who is one of the other I don't see sponsoring channels participating challenge. We challenge channels. We should Y'all Speech is challenging today. Very challenging. I was telling Emmy this might be kind of a harder conversation today We are going to talk talk a little bit about the dark night of the soul and what that looks like But just some humor. I just got off with shanti from Aquarius rising Africa where we also spoke a little bit about this But so I'm very vata. I'm if you see my body like I am so vata. It's not even funny. I'm bought the pizza I don't have much cop in me whatsoever, but the one cop a thing that I do have is my hair I am very very thick hair. I work very hard every day to straighten it. So it does not look as thick as it is I have the propensity in the myso room to come out looking like Albert Einstein because my hair is so thick And so I keep Doing things to my hair to try to calm it down and this morning I sprayed After my shower so much leaving conditioner in my hair to make it smooth That it actually feels weird and it feels dirty. And so if you see me I know I mess with my hair a lot But if you see me messing with my hair, that's why and unfortunately I had to jump on a show immediately So I couldn't jump in and wash it out, but I know this is first-world problems, but Lord have mercy if anybody with thick hair knows how to manage thick hair I'm still trying to figure it out at 39 years old My mother used to when I was really little my mom would have to when I would wash my hair And it was really long my mom would have to put conditioner in my hair and then braid it wet And then I would sleep with it so that she could actually brush through it the next day without me crying Because that's how thick it was and how knotted it would get it's like that one of the my dad has really thick hair So it's like one thing I got from my dad But um, but yeah, my sister also has really thick hair too. So I it's you know Grass is always green on the other side, right? I see people within our hair. I'm like, oh man That'd be so easy to have hair like that. So so anyway anyway so if you if you're like me and you buy a leaving conditioner don't spray that much in it because Gonna end up feeling really dirty I can't relate my hair my hair is very very fine. I'm glad that it has curl to it because otherwise I would look like You know bless my niece's heart my Oldest niece she has my mother has very thin hair and my sister and I both got our dad's hair thick hair My niece has very thin hair and it's it's she keeps trying to grow it out long and it's just She's such a beautiful little girl anyway She's got that dark her dad's family's Italian So she's like the one kid in our family that has like the dark hair or the darker skin But she's got these big blue eyes. So she's beautiful God knew what he was doing when he created her But her hair but I mean she's eight so whatever but bless her heart that hair So anyway It is day two of our challenge today as I just said and Emmy has been on this road for a while now And so I said this yesterday in the video that I put out When it comes to using exercise as a modality for healing You never want to compare somebody's Chapter 10 to your chapter one and I really want people to understand that this is not a sporting competition Of course for me. I've been doing this for 16 years So there's going to be a level of tolerance and a level of endurance and strength that I'm gonna have in my practice at This point that is person starting now is not going to have that's just science That's just the way it is but the but the way I see it is that especially in the spiritual world is that my Duty now as somebody who has been doing this for almost two decades is To be of service is To be that voice that's going to talk people off the ledge That's what my teachers have done for me And then one day in the future for those watching that are starting now You're going to be that person that's helping somebody else You know talk them off the ledge when they're having these moments these come to Jesus moments these dark nine to soul moments It's so much. It's so it means a little bit of head of everyone. So she's hitting some some obstacles now That aren't fun. Are they They're not fun, but it's necessary It's the initiates path and I actually had a long conversation this morning with taught about it actually about the initiates path And when you when you take on something like this You are asking For lessons and you're asking to change and and I think we have this romanticized view of what change looks like Like a Hollywood view of it, but it's actually it's messy and it's hard and Sometimes it's the universe saying how bad do you really want this and The person that perseveres and keeps pushing forward Even if that pushing forward is them on the floor literally crawling to their yoga mat Is the person that will eventually break through to the other side? And I wanted to kind of talk about that because I don't want you guys when you hit these These boulders because sometimes they feel like boulders when you hit them like they're in movable boulders I don't want you to quit. I Don't and I love that people in our group are talking about I can only do 10 minutes stay great perfect 10 minutes more than you did a week ago No practice is in vain Even the practices even the workouts even the stuff that feels like shit feels heavy. It's going into your bank of Transformation Right, you know, this is beautiful. So many of the things that you say go around in the circles of my recovery groups What you just said like, you know, you have to give it away to keep it If you don't give it away it stagnates within you and then you're gonna lose what you've been given so it's like It's just such a beautiful flow and then what you just said and I I'm I'm an absolute emotional basket case today guys I will try to keep it together, but I don't know if you've seen my eyes get all watery when Bryce was saying It's not fun is it? No, I'm having a rough day but there's just so much beauty in this and Like what Bryce was saying, I've been doing shadow work for five years, but I have not explored the yogic path as of yet and It's really humbling because you think that you're so far and you think that you've done So much work and you're and I have I have done so much work I'm so far But you think that you're you know on this level and then you put yourself in a situation You're just like that and the law is so much to heal. Oh my god I will say Emmy so I actually was talking to Stephanie about you yesterday your ears might have been ringing and I said because Emmy is a Friend of mine, and she's been doing this before I even thought of doing the third day challenge She was doing this that's why we started the series and I'm gonna validate for you as a teacher who deals with Hundreds of people a year going through this You are approaching the work in our stanga yoga as Somebody who already understands what the work is and I see that in you when I talk to you You're accepting of all the cuz sometimes being an ashtanga teacher isn't fun Because I have to I have to part of the role of an ashtanga teacher is to kind of have tough love and It's it's from a place of love Because when a student's on the floor and they think they can't do it and and as a teacher if I think they can't do it I won't give them the posture to do it yet. I'll wait, but if I think they can I have to hold there I have to hold their foot to the fire and say get up get up off the mat get up Lean backwards catch your ankle do catch your ankle like I have to be tough Because I have to be that person that's holding them to show them That that path is open Right, and that's not fun to do because I am a very I mean I've probably cried more on my channel than have it I've invested in water proof mascara guys, so And I am a very sensitive person I am a very sense I create a hallmark commercials Come on like Christmas is coming up in all those hallmark movies. You best believe I watch those all the time And I cry and I cry so when I see somebody who's struggling There's a part of me the friend in me wants to get on the mat and hug them and cry with them But the teacher in me has to hold it back be non-emotional To show them The path that they're going it is available to them, right? It's not it's not easy. It's not that's why a lot of people Don't will run from the Achton go because it's not an easy path to take and but with you and me like I see that with you It's you're easy for me to teach You're super easy for me to teach because you asked me a question. I give you the answer and you go okay And you do it because you know you already know the wisdom behind the teachings And that's what we're leaning on is and it's hard It's really hard like a Shanti and I were talking about this this morning And I kind of spoke about this yesterday the video with the anaerobic versus the aerobic and how we've been so Programmed especially in the Western world to how to look at exercise and for a lot of people I've been there. I've been there where I've used exercise as a way to bully myself Right. I've been in that position where I've done too much because I'm trying to bully myself Right and so that has to be course corrected And sometimes we feel so fragile as humans that when we get one little pain or one little sore muscle We run from the activity when in reality That's what's supposed to happen That's what's supposed to happen It's like those mental modifications that they talk about in the yoga sutras. It's like Ego Ego tries to steer you away from pain and toward pleasure, but it's a computer program So something that may seem painful, but will give you Positive results in the long run is typically avoid it. You know you get get start doing this Oh, this hurts my body hurts. I've been I've been in pain for six fucking weeks But I do it and I keep doing it because I'm seeing the results I'm seeing the stuff coming up and breaking loose and coming out I have this bathroom scale and I know that I told you this before but I'm just so amazed by this I've been doing a stronger for six weeks My bathroom scale is one of those kind that gives you other data like percent body fat and percent water and Pounds of muscle pounds of bone that kind of stuff. I Don't know if it's accurate or not, but it is consistent It has said the same thing for the last two or three years. However, I've had long. I've had the scale it I've had like a hundred between a hundred and sixteen and a hundred and seventeen pounds of muscle and six point two six point two pounds of bone for three years that said that in Six weeks I've went up to a hundred and twenty one pounds of muscle and six point six pounds of bone So I'm gaining muscle and I'm gaining bone and all this stuff is coming out and my pastures are nowhere near perfect But I keep doing it. I Keep doing it. I have certain days of the week that I have committed and I just keep showing up. It's like What I was told in my recovery programs Bring your body your mind will follow just show up to show up to your quiet time in the morning Show up to the meetings show up to making phone calls. Just show up Yeah, and it'll and it'll happen Yeah, what do you share that go ahead? Sorry No, I I was done go ahead. Well, I was gonna talk about get about like well That's the anaerobic isn't it and I want to bring that back kind of talk about this today because I've struggled with this I've been very open Shanti and I a few months ago did a video a body morphic disorder and I'll put that down in the description box below I won't go through everything I went through with body morphic disorder And this is why there's a great saying and I love it is be kind to everyone. You don't know the battles They're facing and I kind of spoke about this yesterday with Marnie Alton We see Marnie Alton as someone who's a beautiful woman. She's very fit But if you listen to her interviews, you see some of her struggles, too No one in this no one gets out of this whole alive We all have our process to bear and I have definitely in my life very much struggled with body morphic disorder where I've literally thought I was the ugliest girl in the room and literally Hated my body and I know where that comes from. I know exactly where that comes from I talk about it in the body morphic disorder video won't get into it here, but actually in this In this signal group that we have going on one of our friends asked this morning Hey, because I have for day two you have to write five things you like about yourself and Say said hey, why don't we all give something we like about ourselves and it got me thinking for myself And I realized that it I'll be 40 in February. So I'm on the eve of turning 40. I Got kind of emotional myself because at this point in my life. I love my body I'm at a point in my life through all my practices and really going up against that where I Love putting on a bathing suit and going to the beach. I Went trade my body for the world at this point But I had to go through all of that darkness and all that ugliness and with the aerobic and the anaerobic I brought this up. So with aerobic if we look at what's happening scientific Science and spirituality are really one in the same true science not That science that we have but it's a real science, right? And that's why back in our Lantian times our ancestors the priests were often also the scientist God is science and so if you look at what's happening with these forms of exercise I was born in 1983. So I was born into a world of jazzer size That was really big in the 80s low-fat diets Were really big in the 80s and 90s. I remember going to my grandmother's house and she would have fat free cookies Now we know it's terrible for you But that that's the world that I was born into and so even though I've never had a weight problem I've had body image issues Because of certain things that I was exposed to as a child and in the 80s and 90s We were kind of taught that we had to Do all this cardio run do jazzer size do all these kinds of things in order to Perfect our body in order to burn the calories in order to have a bathing suit body And so I think a lot of us especially coming from the 80s and 90s of your 30s 40s 50s now that Idea is still ingrained in us But now we know different because we know that aerobics is actually going to put your body into fighter flights And so the body is just scrambling for any energy it can it will actually slow the metabolism down It will make you more hungry So you're taking in food because your body literally thinks you're going into war like physical war and what happens after war Famine and so your body's that's how incredible your body is it's preparing for the next step But what we see psychologically with women especially women I know it happens to men too, but a lot with women is they cling to the aerobics Because they're trying to beat themselves up And so it becomes this cycle of mental abuse where your body is swelling and then playing from the Intense cardio because that's what the body is going to do because I think she wore but you're beating yourself up because you see yourself As bloated in fat you're getting hungrier and then you're denying that food because you don't want to gain weight Right and so it becomes this repetitive cycle Well what we see with anaerobic the opposite of this is what the bar and the yoga is providing you with and the anaerobic is Basically, so what we do in Astana yoga and what Marnie Alton teaches the beginning of the practice of Astana yoga You're getting your heart rate up in the sensation So that's the little peak of cardio and we're doing just enough cardio to get the heart pumping you get the blood flushing through the system Which is your Prana it's your life force, but then we pull it back and we have you hold positions In bar you're doing squats and so that's going to bring your body into anaerobic And so what is that? What do I mean by anaerobic? So that means that the the body is now not using energy that's associated with the nervous system So the nervous system can actually lean into the sensation Versus being panicked into the sensation and so the it's able to drop into stored energy Okay, so in aerobics the body is trying to survive so that's why you're getting hungrier It's looking for these empty calories and so it's not touching the cellulite It's not touching that because it can't it needs to hold the cellulite for when you're in famine after the war Okay, I hope that makes sense with the anaerobic the nervous system can relax And so it goes into the muscle development and so instead of just grabbing for empty energy empty calories It's actually digging into held stored energy So the physicality of that would be the fat the cellulite which the energetic is stuck emotions Coming with that So the muscles carry information so not only so when you're in the squat when you're in the yoga pose of the quads They're on fire and the inner thigh is on fire fire But you bring your attention to that fire Not only is your body in a physical way burning taking fuel from stored energy to harness the fire But it's also Pulling out stuck emotion too with that and that's I'm sticking it. That's why bar yoga are so effective For not only people usually lose a lot of weight doing bar and yoga so anaerobic is the key to weight loss and Slimming down, but it's also the physical activity. That's going to give you the The cause and effect you need in order to explore emotions because it's actually allowing your nervous system to dig into those emotions Because the nervous system isn't in fight-or-flight. I hope that makes sense. And again a lot brilliant explanation Yeah, that was awesome. And that's a hard pattern. I think for us We're close to the same age. I mean, I think for a lot of us who are born in the late 70s 80s 90s And we have already a set patterning in our head that in order to lose weight. We got to go run 20 miles a day Or do the robics and there are there is some aerobics in this in this challenge But I only scheduled it at certain times most personal trainers who know this will tell you only do cardio once a week For your heart and then the rest of it needs to be anaerobic Yeah, and so if that's something that people are struggling with I want you to ask yourself like if you're Your body doesn't know you're on a treadmill You know you're on a treadmill, but your body doesn't your body literally thinks you're running for your life Right, so what are you running if you are so in the cardio? What are you actually running from? What are you running from I used to be a runner. I was addicted to running My body was so inflamed when I was a runner. Oh my god was my body inflamed I didn't know how inflamed my body was until I started yoga from the running because we get used to the pain We get used to oh, I'm swollen up. We sometimes confuse inflation with being bloated Well, your body is literally telling you I'm in war right now. I Got a store of fat food because we're gonna go into famine after this when you're not you know this But your body doesn't that's how amazing your body is that it can do that. So let's think about that Let's think about that from the positive perspective our bodies are such incredible machinery That if we were to go we are in a war, but it's an information war But if we were to literally have to go into a physical war like our ancestors did our body knows how to do that Our body knows how to store food away hold on to it While you're physically fighting Because it knows that once that's over you're gonna go into serve starvation or famine So it's preparing you for that for that dark night of winter Now that we know this it's like back bending back bending is really challenging for a lot of people in yoga Because we have more nerve endings on the front of our chest Why do we have more nerve endings on the front of our chest? because in tribal times a Spear might fly over a wall and we need to learn how to cover instinctually cover our vital organs and So when you're asked to do a back bend Not only are you opening up hurt emotion, but you're also being asked to open up nerve endings that instinctually By design of nature you want to cover and The minute I've studied that with the nervous system that changed my back bending because when I started to go back and I felt That panic I was able to breathe into it Because no spear was coming for me in the yoga room Nobody was gonna hurt me So I haven't I've been had the opportunity in that moment of friction To calm the fire down. It's okay. I did the same thing Bryce I'm just gonna scale it back a little a lot because I am nowhere near back bending My heart space needs so much work you guys so one of the things that Bryce had me do was take take a long towel or What do you call them that the bands that they like why call them a lungi because we have so we use in India But you can use like I'm seeing if I have robe like a belt for a row. Yeah. Yeah or a scarf a long scarf Yeah, you take the scarf and you put your hands in the end and straight arms and you go back with it No bent elbows keep your arms straight I couldn't do it with my arms as stretched as far apart as I could on this scarf I couldn't do it and I kept working at it kept working. I get to like about here kept working at it Well now I can go up and back and up and back with straight arms at the end. So I'm making progress, but I tell you what so much fear Was coming up when I would get to this spot like this and I'd be like How is what what is this? So I was like Nothing's gonna happen. Why am I so afraid of stretching my chest? Like so I just breathed into it I just I was like I'm safe. I'm fine. There's Nobody here that's gonna hurt me What is my deal and as soon as I leaned into that fear and and just Was completely confident that I was safe and there was nothing that was gonna happen to me. I Was able to go back into the stretch and now I can go back and forth and back and forth No problem, but there was a huge Rock there obstacle. I just it was Yeah, it was crazy herbs and when you yeah, well, that's part of the opportunity to you have like when you first start doing this Exercise using exercise as a modality for healing When you hit the hard parts you panic like that's your yes. Everyone's first experience is to panic and run away And the more and more and more You bring yourself to the level of discomfort needed the more you can like calmly go into the discomfort and so like Stephanie can't join us today because she's She can't get to the it's a long story She'll tell you when our next our next episode, but you know, she's been doing my sore and I Always tell people like when you go into my sore room and you see someone who's been practicing for a really long time Like if you were to see me practice right now after 16 years, my practice is pretty clean and I get very focused It doesn't mean that it's easy But I've been doing it for so long that I'm able to now enter into hard parts of my practice with a calm mind Right, that's the power of this practice is that the the the hesitation and discomfort is there It's still there in different ways, of course the body opens and changes So it just comes in different forms the deeper you get But I'm able to approach it in a very calm way Because I've gone through the the not I've gone through the panic I punched a fucking teacher coming out of a back then like I how how much spastic can you get? You know there, you know And so I've been through that flailing on my mat like a fish out of water Flop shop hot mess express everything. I've been through it and through that I learned I Had to learn through my own experience that The obstacles are gonna come Whether I'm prepared or not they're gonna come same in life. The obstacles are gonna come The action is never gonna change The only thing that I have control of is my reaction to the action And it's so much easier if I can come at an obstacle with Being calm with a calm mind a focused mind then coming to the obstacle frantic and Like a like a flop shop in a shit show and and so you start to see it on your mat That's another area where the practice becomes an exercise for life Because as you start to be able to work through these triggering postures all the sudden When something in your real life happens, that's hard Your perception of that action changes and the way that you greet that action You welcome it as Shanti says you just welcome it You know, let's talk about some of the hardest things anyone can go through a divorce Heartbreaking doesn't mean you're not gonna feel the pain of the divorce. You're not gonna cry But you're able to perceive it a different way as a moment in time That's offering you an opportunity to learn and grow The pain is still gonna be there because pain is real And that's what's needed to bring you to that next level of awareness and understanding Everything in life then becomes a practice Everything in life because the whole point of life is for the soul to know itself The point of life isn't to come here and when the rose bush contest in your neighborhood and have the best You know Christmas tree at Christmas time and be the best account and have you know a Harvard edge against up the point of life The point of life is to know yourself to know and I said this too and I want to reiterate this I think sometimes in the West we think that spirituality is you know the divination and the talking to their spirits No, it's not spirituality is knowing your own spirit knowing your own soul And that runs through your fascia That runs through to the tips of every toe There's so much information there and it is gonna be it's it's just gonna come away I've told you this any it comes in waves and usually wait when you're where where Emmy is and you're literally feel like you're pushing up against a boulder and everything hurts and You're in that dark night of the soul. It doesn't feel like you're gonna come out the other side It just feels like you're kind of stuck But from my experience in my own body and from the hundreds of students I've taught over the year That's usually what happens right before breakthrough It's always darkest before the dawn and so I don't want that's the last Point in your practice you should ever be quitting Because let's see what happens. This is where it gets interest. This is what I keep saying This is where it gets where Emmy is right now Is where it's interesting interesting. This is the plot twist This is the plot twist. Let's watch what's gonna happen. See, I don't know what her breakthrough is gonna be That's the surprise. She doesn't know what her breakthrough is gonna be But one day it's gonna happen She's gonna either wake up one morning and all of a sudden a Ton of weight's gonna have dropped off or she's gonna get our mat all of a sudden She'll do that back then with no problem with no pain I don't think Todd will mind me telling this story on When Todd first started going to India, I'll give you an example of what I'm talking about This was when he had just finished school. He was a photographer and this was in Let's see. He's 11 years older than me. So this was probably the mid 90s So before the internet was in everyone's houses and all that kind of stuff and he was already kind of interested in esoteric stuff And he was always kind of the weird kid. He was a skateboarder. You know, he's covered in tattoos You know, he was always kind of a little bit different So he was already interested in in spirituality and all that kind of stuff He was a photographer and artist and he would have people bring in magazines to give him inspiration for what they wanted out of the photography Session and someone brought in a details magazine and there was in the magazine was an article about photography Joyce now The person wasn't paying attention. They had other pictures for Todd but Todd ended up discovering this article and he read it and he was like so interested in this yoga this teacher in India and So at the end of the article it had a list of teachers in America There were students of the topic Joyce if you wanted to practice with one of them And one of them was Tim Miller who lives in San Diego, California and Todd was living in Georgia at the time And so Todd literally went to the phone book looked up Tim Miller's phone number and called him on you know, the actual no cell phone Tim Miller answered and Todd was like I want to study. He's like Todd was like, I want to study with you I'm gonna go to Indian study with this Indian guy that I just read an article on and Tim said, okay, here's the address. You just write him a letter To tell him you want to study with him. And so Todd wrote a letter nailed it to India And he said for like six months He had run to the mailbox and checked to see if he never got a letter back But in the meantime in the meantime he had bought a book on yoga And so he was trying to teach himself some yoga before he went to India But six months later he hadn't heard back from the topic Joyce. He called him again. He said I've sent him a letter It's been six months. I haven't heard back and Tim said, oh, you won't hear back You just have to go now. He's waiting for you And so this like 22 year old kid Handed up selling all of his photography equipment. Mind you, this is what he was doing for a living He sold all of his photography equipment everything to be able to afford To go to India and at that point he said he landed in Bangalore There was no Carriage for your suitcases. They just dumped them all the budget chickens running around you had to Kind of dig through and find your suitcases get a rickshaw go four hours into my store They dropped him off at this house and lacks me for him and Todd just kind of knocks on the door and Alma his top of your wife answered she goes. Oh, yes, you come you come Well, apparently the top of Joyce was napping at the time. And so Todd had to go upstairs and wake him up His first meeting was to like wake him up to pay him Well over time, you know Todd's practicing. This is his first time with a teacher He's the youngest one there And everybody is getting a kick out of the fact that the older students that Todd did not have a teacher in America That he literally bought a book and taught himself some stuff and then came to India because that just wasn't heard of people went Studying with an American teacher first and then went to India and Todd just went straight to India And they were encouraging him to tell Guruji like this is hysterical go tell Guruji And so Todd got the courage and was at one night because they would go to their house at night and talk with them And you know, there wasn't many students you could do that and he said, you know, I they want me to tell you that I learned this because of a book and Todd said Guruji got so mad all of a sudden. He was like book learning Incorrect, you have to have teacher book learning incorrect And so Todd was like oh shit and so for weeks after this Guruji was on top of Todd cranking him in every single posture Making him do things over and over and over again like really pushing him Todd said he felt like that he was trying to get him to quit and he never quit and Then Todd said one day he woke up and he was extremely sick had a really high fever Stuff was coming out of his mouth and the other end Just y'all we've all been there and so Todd went and checked in himself into an Ayurvedic clinic And he spent 24 hours in the Ayurvedic clinic. They gave him fluids. That was it and then they sent him on his way And so Todd was going back home and he lived right beside the joist is his house was right beside and Guruji was sitting outside And he saw Todd walking down the street. He goes you Why you know today? Like why didn't you come today? Why you know today? And as Todd got closer to Guruji Guruji saw time he goes Complete revolution That's what he said He's seen that Todd had a complete and Todd said I've been at the Ayurvedic clinic very very sick and Guruji said correct Any medicine and Todd said no just flew it and he said Guruji said correct After that when Todd came back the next day. It was a totally different ball game He had proven himself to Guruji and Todd said after that happened He all the sudden dropped like 20 pounds in two weeks All the sudden his practice got really easy All the sudden he was flying through primary series. No big deal Guruji had a level of respect for him that he had never seen before because Todd stuck with it proved himself and And Todd said we finished primary series He was all excited because he all the sudden was doing primary series. No pain super easy. He was walking past Guruji is like routine. No pain primary series and he said guru Guruji laughed chuckled is that all tomorrow's second series much pain Started a second series and that's that started Todd and Guruji. I mean Guruji he could never say there was only like 12 students at that time so he really got to know with students and Todd he could never say the name Todd for some reason. So he just called him Charles. He could be like Charles The first time in a back then that Todd had to catch his ankles coming back and charot was assisting Who's my teacher now since Guruji has passed away and charot? He heard Guruji say something to sure I'm kind of does truck was okay And he went to Todd and he was why we have to these wind-ups and he grabbed Todd's arm and Todd said in a moment he realized That sure off was gonna make him catch his ankles and that is a huge deep back then and Todd said just something Instinctual just came out and he just yelled No, really loud and your teachers like head is right beside you when you're doing this and sure I just whispered in Todd's ears. Yes Yes And so It was that instinctual like Guruji knew it was time in between Todd's first and second trip He came back for a few months and then he was gonna go back to India So he was practicing and he went to a class and he thought I'll just go to this class And he had never had an American teacher before so he didn't know what to expect and He got a bad adjustment and it popped his hip out When he was really injured and when he went to India the next time he told Guruji when he saw him I will actually know he didn't say anything. It was just when he was practicing Guruji noticed. He goes all Painting they they painting they say that India PAI pain and then they add the ING at the end I love it painting like it's hurting and Todd said yes bad bad adjustment and Guruji said well, no worries fixing well Todd said whenever Guruji would say fixing Your heart would hit your stomach. It was a gut punch because Outside of the shawl and they would call it a yoga surgery like you were about to have a yoga surgery Basically his fixing that he was gonna fix it, but it was gonna be rough And so Todd he just Guruji knew instinctually which posture he had been injured in I was Upavishchakurasana and so every day for weeks Guruji was shorter. He was like 5-2 He was like he like crawls on you and Todd said he would like crawl on him and Adjust him and do all these things and move his body and figure it out and then Todd said one day The planets must have been aligned for Todd that day He was an Upavishchakurasana with his legs are spread apart hands are at his feet and his chest is gonna go to the floor And he said Guruji came behind him Put his knees on his thighs and put his chest against Todd's back and he whispered in Tide Todd's ear you go And he pushed him all the way to the floor and Todd said his thigh his hip popped so loud that Todd Popped back up again Guruji fell off of Todd started laughing and said oh bad man Bad man just a whole started laughing at the end of Todd's practice as he was leaving the shawl a Guruji said you come tomorrow You come tomorrow So Guruji knew that Todd was gonna wake up in pain tomorrow And sure enough Todd said he woke up in pain the next day now Todd lived right beside the choices And so Todd said if he was late Guruji would just yell up at the window You'll come to Todd because he was right there, but he came in the next morning and he's in a lot of pain He got through his sun salutations and Guruji came to him and said you go take rest now Go home all he wanted to do was to come in and do the sun salutations that next day to flush the hip Todd is 50 years old now Ever since that happened. He has never had a hip problem since Whatever happened in that room with the Tabi Joyce that hurt so bad Removed whatever karma was there and popped it right back into place and it has since has never been that again and That's the power of this practice There's more story people to tell you so many stories There was a woman who? lost her period and That is serious for women. I that happened to me once in this practice You know, that's our barometer of health and and yoga we want to respect that and she told Guruji like I haven't had my period and Guruji just said no worries or it's fixing no worries and he made her do some yoga postures and he adjusted her and her period started That's how powerful the body is the power of adjustments and the power of allowing yourself to be the students and To be at the mercy upset. I'm not telling you to go out there and find some haphazard teacher You know, you got to trust the teacher before you allow yourself to be vulnerable But in that trust even when things are painful, you know that once you break through the other side You break through the other side and the body is going to respond I mean the first story I told overnight it totally changed him his body changed He went from being kind of a chubby kid to having a six pack Because it released Something about the pressure Guruji was putting him on every single day the pain the pain the pain Something that just broke free and released and left him and he had to go to the Aririta hospital He was shit all day but uh it released literally it released You know, and so that's those are all there's so many stories like this I mean I shared about when I broke my sacra and the pain I went through with that And it was the best thing that ever happened to me because now my sacrum is the strong it is it has ever been You know, these are just stories that people have, you know, the word guru means to transmute darkness to light Every single person is a guru has a guru inside of them But you can't find that guru until you go to a guru I'm not talking about a cult leader. There's a difference There's a difference between a cult leader and a guru a guru is not my teacher in India has no idea where we're living He doesn't I have to find my own apartment. He doesn't keep up with us He doesn't tell us what to eat or anything like that. We just go in and do our classes and leave like a school Right, that's a that's a teacher. That's not a cult leader you know and so Once you find an actual master teacher guru you then are happy ability to find the guru inside of you and that's also too and This morning. We were talking about this that the path of finding the inner guru is the initiates path into spirituality and It's not going to be easy There's gonna be many times where the universe is gonna come up and say you sure you want to do this I'm gonna challenge you right now You sure you want to keep going and More and more things of different obstacles are gonna appear You know and that's that's that's the friction that's that's what you signed up for And so that being said like I don't want to scare anybody because it's such a beautiful process Once you lean into the process once you lean into it's like the more the more your heart breaks the more the light can come through If you have an ugly cried With snot coming out of your nose with your pants on your yoga pants on backwards Your hair looking like Albert Einstein at 4 30 in the morning The just wait it's coming And those those days when it's 4 30 in the morning and your yoga pants are on backwards And you got snot coming out of your nose and you're ugly crying Your hair looks like Albert Einstein When you look back on your process those are the most beautiful times It's not the days when you're you've got the beautiful lululemon outfits on and your hair is graded beautifully and your Floating through your practice. Those aren't the practices you remember Those aren't the practices where there's transformation It's the ones that are messy And ugly And you got smells coming off of you you didn't even My god, Bryce, I don't think I've ever stunk so bad in my life Brutal Stephanie I was like this is why I have a set of yoga clothes that I practice it and it's set of your clothes that I teach it and I have smelled the most foul smells coming off as soon as but you get used to it and you just keep going and I am telling you right now romantically. I Will never practice in front of a partner Mmm. I won't do it Well, first of all, that's my time. It's got nothing to do with them And I think if we can see it that way of that time, it's just it's just you and God It's all it is if you leave your partner out of it Then you're taking care of yourself and you can be more, you know Gotta say something inappropriate. I guess I'll say it anyway the moves I learned in yoga. I can use later, but I knew it When I'm you know, it's four o'clock in the morning that kitchen's mine. You can't come in That's my my kitchen is my jala my kitchen. I practice. It's not fancy I practice in front of the refrigerator with a dog bowl right there Like, you know, that's my that's where I practice and that's my time That is my time and that's why I was explained I don't know was you I was talking this about me or someone else but the yoga mat You know, I'm very particular and a lot of people who I've been practicing for a long time My yoga mat is my yoga mat. I will not I know my if you I can have a ton of black mats I know which one's mine and it becomes very even though we shouldn't be attached to it It's got all my product on it. It's undergarments. Yeah, you don't share your underwear with people, you know I'm actually a very clean person. I shower twice a day, you know But but my yoga mat I only clean my yoga mat when I come back from India Other than that I let it get grimy because it's my grind It's my grind. It's my Prana It's my grit. That's on that mat and my teacher too because my teacher and you know in India like an hashtag I know it's something you also flow world like don't step on each other's mats. No, you can walk on each other's mats I walk on other, you know, especially in India the mats are so close together You can't help but overlap your mat sometimes, but but that's that's that's my sweat I had a mat once that I the back of it. I rubbed through my feet. There were holes in the back of it I got my second Nanduka and I thought about framing that mat just putting in a big old frame Because that mat had been everywhere with me that Matt happened around the world with me those footprints were mine That was like my my shredded path You know, and that's something to be proud of like when you go through this dark night of the soul When you go through this when you allow yourself to be put in that pressure cooker and you come out the other side Be proud of yourself For what you did. It's not easy If it were easy, everyone would do it. If it were easy, we wouldn't be in the world predicament We're in now because everyone would be doing it. It's not easy It's not I had this at my birthdays are really hard. I have a really hard time with my birthday I'll have a moment of vulnerability here because I always thought that I would have children and I've never had the opportunity to have children and I'm gonna be 40 and so now I know with the flip of the timeline That's gonna be a possibility But in the matrix where it now it might not be a possibility for me and The last birthday I'm always it always seemed to be in India over my birthday. I Think it was like my 37th birthday I was are my 36 so one of my late 30s I was coming up to my birthday in India and I was having like that pity party of panic like I'm getting older I'm not a place where I can have a child. I really thought I would have well. I love children I would love to be pregnant. I would love to have a baby Has it happened yet? I don't know what's gonna happen So I was having this like pity party and then I was in my practice in this in the shala and all of a sudden There's this big famous orange wall because orange is of the color of the muck since so they paint a wall orange And and I was in the shala and I turned the transition And I kind of saw the wall that I see every day. It's always there and It's something hit me really really really hard Yeah, I don't have kids. I don't have the white picket fence and the Carpooling and all that stuff that I always wanted But look at where I am I'm in the most sought-after yoga shala in the world I'm in 2000 people apply within the first five minutes and only like 300 to 500 get accepted and I immediately got accepted This so this is the alternative and this is amazing and that's my baby is to be able to now return around and give This back to other people, you know, that's my baby. That's my contribution right now to humanity It's not to produce another human which I would love to do But it's to to bring this teaching continue to bring this teaching to the West because it is It is a powerful teaching and to who much is given much is expected Todd always told me and this was true that you never want to be the student that sits the guru's feet You always want to be the student at the back of the room that gets called to the guru's feet And when I first went first got accepted Into KPJ where I and I was going to take on charade. I knew who charade was Because in the yoga world, he's like the top celebrity, right? Because he's the main parm guru I knew who he was, you know who I was just a new student that got accepted and so many students go there and they Robble for Attention from charades. You see their egos start to me. They want they want validation And I had already done a lot of work on myself before I went to India with David grief my original teacher And so I made it a point that I was going to be very very aware of that with myself Like I was going to I wasn't going to try to like get charades attention. I was I was just going to be me I was just going to be a student and be me and see what happened. I wasn't going to lie And I sure I About the second month into my time being there We have these cards that they put as you put the base of your class card that you put the face of your mat Everybody has one it has your whole schedule on it And he was working with me And I saw him been down and like look at my card Examine my card for men. I thought oh shit is does he think I'm in the wrong class like But he didn't say anything. He just looked at my card. He went on to the next student Well the next day I was sitting in the lobby waiting because in my and India you have to be called in because there's so many people You can't just go if you call. He'll sit in the lobby waiting and I heard charades scream but he's you come and I heard it again, but he's You come and my friend my Russian friend roommate was sitting beside me like hit my arm And he was like charades talking to you and I was like oh Because be our ICE is the is French. It's breeze but in America we say Bryce, but I didn't register that and so I went in He had he had a spot for me and I realized at that point he doesn't you know if he doesn't consider if you're just kind of there and he He'll call you like the fat Russian or the tight German like he never he won't learn your name He only learns your name if he considers you your student So at that moment, I realized that he now considered me his student And it was such a humble because I had not tried. I just went there just to learn and It was such a lesson for me a humble a humbling lesson that the more we stay humble in this practice The more the practice is going to open itself to you and you always have to remember that no teachers going to give you that Validation they're just there to give you the tutelage. So you find the validation So you find that within you over the years I've gotten closer to Shirat because of the Mysore Foundation and I've been back multiple obviously. He authorized me, you know And so I do have an established relationship with him as my teacher as My teacher I wouldn't ask him Nutrish I probably wouldn't go to him about marital advice or anything like that some people do, you know But just as my teacher and to hear his perspective, but I also know he's coming from a different culture than I am He makes fun of us in the West because we don't have arranged marriages. And so he's like, oh My Western students come in new partner every four years Indian students one partner whole life. It's because it's a range and he's like he does But so I understand there's a different culture there like I would listen if my parents picked my fucking husband I would not be sitting here on YouTube right now I probably would have already like ran ran off by now because we have very my parents and I have a very different perception of What I'm attracted to They would have picked for me and I'm very stubborn if I'm not attracted to you. There's no way you're getting any loving for me Like that would have been a very dead marriage. So You know, but I laugh at that because he's funny when he's and he can do a full-on American accent, you know So I laugh that he makes fun of us too, you know, like in India, they do the head bobble And my Indian friends have tried to teach me what different head bobbles mean, but to me they all look the same But when you're in India, you start to kind of do it because you're talking to so and you just kind of start to bobble your head back When they're talking to you and Sharath will bobble at you. So you kind of like bobble back and This one day in conference a kid from Miami. I say kid He's like a 40 year old but a kid from Miami raised his hand asked a question and Shratt answered it and Shratt goes is that good enough and the kid bobbled his head and Shratt goes you You will pull your neck out Indians have been doing that since we were born you American never bobble your head You were gonna pull your neck out doing that and tomorrow you're gonna come in to do a sun citation You're gonna be like this So he has a sense of humor about that, you know He has a sense of humor about the different cultures and I see it too like, you know I'm never gonna go to him for marital advice because he's in an arranged. He loves his wife, but it's a very different Culture I Want to be passionately in love with my husband I want to be arranged to him, you know, that's just not that's not the romance that I dreamed about as a little girl So, you know, it's it's it could be funny it could be funny, you know about He he at one point he I'll say this too in India one of the biggest problems that is women we face it as white women I'll say that we face in India is being groped So it essentially in South India. It's very Conservative more so than the South of the United States and they can't even like hold hands or do PDA in public And so it's all arranged marriages. So there's a lot of boundaries when it comes to that So what they do the guys watch a lot of P. O. R. N Right, of course they do and most of the P. Oh, that's the trigger word on YouTube guys So I'm spelling it. So a lot of P. O. R. N that they watch involves white people and So they see us white women in our yoga pants early in the morning and they think But that's what we do And so they'll drive by on a scooter and now I've been groped And so what Sharath does one one time I got so bad that he actually provided us with sticks so we can whack As they drove by and then he paid what they call box sheesh Which is like bribery for the cops to start monitoring that area in the morning to keep us safe I was telling Stephanie this story though that One time when I got grabbed in the boob, I was walking home for practice and I was like a hot mess Like I was not looking like a P. O. R. And star. Let me just tell you that like I Was looking like Albert Einstein like no no casting director would have ever hired me in this moment My boobs were sweaty and I was gross and I was my mind was on my practice And I was walking back home and a scooter went by and someone grabbed my boob Remember even react. I was like what sucks for them. My boobs really sweaty You guys just got a really sweaty boob like that's disgusting like I don't even want to grab my own boobs right now. They're so I was just so unfazed by it and and that's but that's that's a you know But Sharath will try to protect at one point it got so bad that he made sure that every female student had a male Student pick her up on a scooter or walk with her to the Shala because he didn't want any of the females by themselves at that moment So he's very considerate of the cultural stuff like that And all of that guy was telling Stephanie this you know all of these stories from India when you embark on the spiritual practice Not only does the practice get hard, but your life starts to get a little bit crunchy too a little bit staticky too because stuff is coming up in you and what's coming up is gonna attract that Outside of you to mirror it so that you can really really work through it. It's not to punish you It's not to put you in a place to turn you away from the practice. It's going okay These issues are coming up now So let's work on them in your actual life away from the practice the practice is giving you the opportunity to observe Now let's work on them in your life And so I really want to express that if stuff starts to get hard That's why we have the support group on signal Emmy and I are available. Just just say I need help. I Need a shoulder to cry on I need someone to talk me off the ledge right now You know and that's what because it's it's and if it gets that way then yay in a really fucked up way yay You did something right because something is presenting itself to you I don't know if you want to speak more on that any about about the life side of this as well Yes, I would love to So I'll go back a little bit and even include some of my Reiki attunements When I would get okay, and this applies because exercise changes your vibration whether it's yoga bar any kind of energetic Movement like that is going to change your vibration so When I would do my Reiki classes And I didn't notice this until after like my third class I Didn't make a connection. I noticed it, but I didn't make a connection as to what it was But for like a week after I would get attuned to new Reiki energies My husband would be a total dick And I'm like I could not figure it out Well, I finally Asked one of my teachers and I was like why does my husband turn into such an asshole after I get attuned to new Reiki energies And they're like oh honey because you're raising your vibration and his is not in harmony with yours And it takes a few days to level it out. I'm like, oh It makes so much sense This morning. I'm doing my yoga practice I had some kind of emotional something break loose and I'm just ugly crying on my mat While doing my poses mind you it so does not look anything like what you think it looks like It just doesn't okay So I'm continuing to do it and I'm gently talking to myself Just keep going on to me and Emmy and and I was arguing with myself in my head Just going back and forth back and forth and I'm like, would you just stop Challenging me and just do it and so I just went as far as I could and Then I noticed today and in homeschooling My little guy my seven-year-old Constantly arguing with me constantly wanting to change this. I want to do this first. No, I want to do that first I want to do this person. I'm like would you just And I'm like it's my yoga Yeah Yep, I Did something really something raised something and he is out of attuned with my energy And he is arguing with me and fighting with me because our vibrations don't match So just look for that in your life like in animals too When you're when you're when you have a sudden change like a breakthrough or a rakey attunement or any kind of energetic level up And you're just out of harmony because you're in harmony with everybody in your home You will it's called entrainment You know our our heart fields can extend up to 20 feet And so when we're in a room of people we entrain them To our energy And so you know your your whole household is used to a certain level when would you level yourself up Nobody's vibing with you and it's chaotic and people can act like my husband did like a jerk You know and it just took us a while Now what we do if I if I have a new class or do something we're aware of it And we can you know make precautions for a few days and be like and if something comes up or if something erupts We're like oh, it's just because our energies don't match and then you know go in separate rooms and it's whatever um, but yes, I'm glad that you brought that up because When your energy changes it can cause things to happen In your home life your work life with people in the grocery store, you know, whatever Knowledge is power and knowledge protects so knowing that being prepared for that is going to help this transition be a lot smoother I know a lot of people though will embark on a spiritual journey and they end up divorced because it can't All of a sudden you're on two different paths, you know You marry someone and you're going in one trajectory, but you you decide to take another path and they don't come with you And I you know you do what you have to do in your life But I just wanted to say that that if you decide that it's it can't work. That's okay, too That's okay, too. It's all up to you. It's all up to what you feel like you need to do in your journey You know and and most I mean I think a lot of people You know for me When I pick romantic partners, I'm looking for I've always looked for spiritual people. That's why I always date poor guys I'm always like looking for the ones who's going to sell everything and go to antia You know, but but that some people want, you know, Financial security some people want but I always wanted spiritual security You know and that's and that's okay and that's that's fine, you know But but you just ride the wave just ride the wave as it comes Don't try to force the wave and if my favorite thing one of my favorite things is when you don't know what to do do nothing Wait for the answer to come the answer will come but the friction is beautiful Now, all right, you guys let's talk about now. We've been on about an hour now So I want to go ahead and talk about day three because the last two days You guys have done the same Exercises and today we're doing tomorrow. You're doing ashtaka for the first time And so let me pull up the challenge here For you guys to see day three this will be posted on the community tab later So thursday november third day three You have a choice You can either do 20 minute beginner ashtaka with ashtaka nurse. I love this guy. He's a fellow a peer of mine An authorized teacher There's the link or you can do the gap guy to have primary series with ashtaka nurse Here's the link. This is about sick. It takes about 60 minutes to get through the half primary series with him Now Emmy you've been doing half primary series. I will also put the the description box me teaching Stephanie and any half primary series that goes a little bit slower Than his because his is just him doing it very cleanly Now somebody new to this might see half primary series to think oh, that's going to be really easy You want to talk about a half primary series Emmy You guys I am so out of shape Like i'm not out of shape. I've exercised almost my whole life. I exercised through all seven of my pregnancies You know, I have I've had a food addiction issue So my weight has been up and down, but even when I was heavy. I've always exercised I've not done a strong that it is kicking my abs Um, I will be honest with you guys I have such a hard time even getting through Sun salutations and the foundational standing exercises. I am ready to quit Before I even get to primary series. Okay. It is so difficult for me And you know, not everybody's going to have that issue like you were saying in other videos brice. Sometimes people um, sometimes people don't Have their stuff come out until they're in second series or after you know, that was me my stuff didn't come out Actually, I keep talking. I mean, I'm going to pull this up because the 20 minute Ashtanga beginners is the sun salutations and fundamental sequence And so I wanted to bring that up because I don't want um I don't want people to jump into the half primary thing. It's going to be easy and then get discouraged Yeah, because it's so hard and I just I love Ashtanga. There's so much like he He's a calm presence that he really has. Yeah, his videos with his His little the baby. Oh my gosh. So so cute. I love them So let me so this is the 20 minute. Let me make sure I've got the volume off so we don't get copyright, uh Yeah, and I I put him up I could have very easily done this to my own videos, but I really like like this teacher And so I wanted to support him. That's why I put him up instead of myself with this Sorry, it's playing an ad guys. We don't get to pick the ads. Do we I mean they just put him on so So And here we go. Here's another one. Um, so that the 20 minute Ashtanga morning flow for beginners This is just going to be the sun salutations in the fundamental sequence Which is what starts off all the series? And so this is a great place to start for people who are super new To Ashtanga yoga like he's got the Ashtanga body. You see that long lean body. That's because he's doing anaerobic stuff, right? So, um, that's the typical Ashtanga body for men and women very very thin very long lean muscles So he's doing the opening chant and then he's going to be doing going through the sun salutations here Um, you see how Ashtanga our downward dogs are closer together because what he's doing right now Is warming up the serratus interior muscle which is going to be coming in the jump back jump through series Which you're not going to do if you do the 20 minutes, but I'm just letting you know. That's why it's a little bit different um Let's see here Let's go here. Let's see. So he's gonna he's going to be showing you This is a very clean practice as I said. This is why I did this with Emmy and Stephanie So clean practices are what's expected of people like him and me because we're teachers, right? We've been doing this for years so, um Don't expect your practice to look like this To be able to jump back like that, right? That is what We are expected to do not a beginner Just step back Right and I want you to I so when we do these demos like this would be considered in the yoga world a demo Yeah Is showing what the cleanliness looks like So he's going to take you through the sun salutations serename scar a and serename scar b And then he's going to take you through the standing sequence. Okay I think Yeah, here we go standing sequence. So he's doing the standing sequence here So this is just the foundations of the awesome practice So if you're new to yoga, I would suggest that you just do the 20 minutes Okay And that's what you work with for now is just the 20 minutes Yeah That's it And then as time goes on and your body opens up and you get stronger Then we start to work and he's going to do the three closing postures and then he's going to have you take rest And that's it right Okay, here's the guided half primary series. So this is the um The half primary series we actually get into the seated The seated series. So he's going to take you through all the fundamentals I love how he's doing this well as the sun's coming up because that's what it's normally like He's going to be taking you in through the seated series And the seated series is where you have all the jump backs and all the jump throughs And so if you're not used to doing that it's a lot It's a lot to be able to do the jump backs and jump throughs, especially if you're new especially if you are um Not familiar with ashtanga yoga if you're used to vinyasa flow vinyasa flow and yoga Let's remember that vinyasa flow is not yoga It's yoga size. It's a bastardization Of the real yoga. Okay. This is the yoga that's coming from the yoga karanta That's thousands and thousands of years old. Yeah, and so if you watch this jump back jump through This is what you're going to be doing a lot. It's a lot So with that being said tomorrow if you get on the mat And you're thinking that the half primary series is going to be something that you can do and it becomes difficult I don't want you to get discouraged This takes a really long time. He's going to have you do the back bends to here if you uh Jump back drop back stand up. That's not something I expect any beginners to do This takes years to be able to do this And there is a sequencing if you want to learn how to jump back jump or do a drop back stand up You need a teacher to help you do this. Okay You need a teacher to help you do this This is one of the things you have to learn to do to get into second series You see how he's walking his hands closer to his ankles. That's because eventually he's going to be catching his ankles That's that story of with todd. I told you where he was like no inshrat said yes See he's walking it a beginner is not going to be doing this This takes years Years to be able to do the full closing sequence is not I don't expect beginners to do the full closing sequence at all I don't want you to hurt yourself, right? um So you'll after you do if you do do up to navostina you'll come and you'll just do the three closing You skip through that and just do the three closing. That's all you need to do Don't overwhelm yourself Because if you and we'll have Stephanie later this week talking about her experience in mysore um And what mysore is like Because you're not expected to do all of that it you will be stuck at half primary series doing that for years Before you're given the next posture in the middle of second because the middle of primary series is where you're starting to put your Legs behind your head. So it takes a while. Okay, so if the half primary series Let's go back to the challenge again. If the half primary series is too much for you Then you just do the 20 minutes All right, and then you'll have your questions and then friday You'll either do 20 minutes Again with ashtanga nurse or 30 minute bar with marnie altered or both or I give you the option to do both of them Yeah, and then friday saturday's your your rest day. Okay, so don't overwhelm yourself anything you want to share with them about Expect the unexpected with ashtanga yoga Yeah, just just be present just show up and be present don't have try not to have any expectations Try not to have any expectation. I know that we do have expectations, but just try to like Set them aside um because it really does not look like What you think it's going to look like and and it was exciting for me the first few times that When I started the workout the nitty gritty stuff doesn't really come until you do it and this I have so much respect for this path Doing the same movements putting your body in the same positions Really bring stuff up. It really brings stuff up So if you're fighting with yourself and you're having a hard time holding the position Just notice it. Just observe it. Just witness it. Don't try to change it Don't try to tell yourself. You're not doing it right or you're never going to get this or you're not capable or you're not able or you're Don't don't do any of that try or try not to when you do do it when you do do it do do When you do when you do do that Just okay, this is what i'm doing and just observe it Like meditation Interesting. That's how I reacted when I hit this hard asana Interesting interesting Interesting. I tried to beat myself up. There are a couple of advanced postures In the first half of primary series, especially john yusha shasana c Embry jasana d those are advanced postures In the it's a primary series because it's yoga chikita. It's physical therapy. That's why it's primary not because it's easy But because it's physical therapy the point of the first series is to get you to lose weight To tone your body up to get the physical gross body in shape So when you go to second series, which is nerve therapy You're physically prepared to take on the nerve therapy, which we call the batshit crazy series because that's what people are really crying in the corner you know, so so That's so that's the only reason why this series comes first guys. It's not because it's easier per se second series is harder, but in a different way Yeah So please if the path primary is too much for you You just do the 20 minutes It's enough to do the 20 minutes And don't beat yourself up. You just say interesting I thought I get that all the time. I thought I actually The cynical side of me kind of the bitch and me we all have that side of us when I give these men that come to my class They're like, yeah, you know I do cross fit. I'm like, oh, okay Okay, you do cross fit Cross fit. That's so cute Welcome to the real work I had this guy that keeps me all the time And I knew I was told from another student that he was Coming to me because he had a crush on me, which I don't date my students So, um, I was like, well tough tough shit for him. He's taken the wrong path But I was so hard on him I ended up becoming like his personal trainer Like he was like that girl's a ball buster. You want to get fit and and that's it He was my student for years before he moved because he lost his shit ton of weight All of a sudden all he was doing was yoga. He wasn't doing any more of the gym stuff Um, so, you know, whatever gets people in the room gets them in the room, you know, but once they're in the room They're all yours so Yeah, yeah We have people in time come to a yh the beginner course because I used to run the beginner courses And we would have husbands and wives come and the husbands would be there with their wives because their wives thought This would be a fun date night experience And after the six weeks was over the wife would leave and the husband would stay Because he was like this shit's hard, you know, and that's why you're like real yoga You see and when you do ashtonga you see that this practice was created by men for men because there's a lot of upper body strength in it It's very masculine. This practice is very masculine and most most ashtonga teachers are men straight men I've always had male teachers. I do better with male teachers actually I do way better with male teachers The female teachers are my friends The male teachers are my teachers um, you know and it's it's uh It It will kick your ass. That's why ashtonga is the most humbling thing you will ever do As a teacher myself, I have to go back to india every 18 months now Which is different now with the whole lockdown situation But just in general because I have to continue practicing in order to be able to teach So I have to continue having my asset ass handed to me in order to be able to hand your ass to you That's how serious this is You know how seriously they take it and so if you want to you know, if your if your husband thinks he's a macho man It's so funny. Why is crack me up? You're like, yeah, I do rowing. I'm like Darling that's sweet Let me give my hands on you Oh, but can't you pick your own? I mean you saw what I mean And it's I I will met it is sexy to see a man with a clean yoga practice to see a man like Ashtonga nurse who is very when you hear him talking. He's very calm. He's a great dad You see the yoga in him and that's sexy that is sexy to see a man that has dedicated himself to that You know, the world would be a better place if more men in the western world did this For sure But all right guys, I know we've been we've gone over an hour now But let us know let any of you know down in the comment section below how you guys are doing and there's anything that we can help you with Um Do you have any funny moments during oh some people said their kids are doing it with them and their kids are It's so awesome. I think their son is like a soccer player was like this shit's hard I'll tell you one last funny story before we we sign out So I what used to be director of yoga for wellness centers of america So I was responsible for the whole yoga program in all the different Locations hiring all the teachers a lot kind of stuff But my day was I taught a lot of the classes at one location I taught to and I spent my day in yoga clothes because that's what I did Um, not a bad job, right? And I have this one guy because in this center, we had chiropractic yoga nutrition Massage therapy. It was like one big center and I had my office near the front desk And I would I always was they would chit chat with the girls at the front desk. I loved working there I'm still really good friends with all the people I worked with there And this one guy would come from massage and he would see me every day. He would come and he'd be like I need to know how to get a body like yours and I said well you do yoga He was like no, but how do you do that? I was like you do yoga you want a yoga body? You do yoga. No, but like what can I do in the gym? Dude nothing That's how you get that you do yoga So yes, so if more if more western men actually did this practice, I think the world would be a way better place It would take definitely take the male ego down wouldn't it wouldn't it Yeah, it's it is so humbling but so addicting It it I love it. I and I'm so grateful to be doing this in At this time I'm I'm glad that I have been through what I've already been through And doing yoga now if I would have tried this before I don't I don't I really I highly doubt I would have stuck with it It comes to you when it's supposed to come to you Call it like willy walka's golden ticket like if you find the ash danga practice you found the golden ticket But it comes it's like ayahuasca. They say ayahuasca calls to you the plant calls to you It's been calling to me for years now. Um, I was actually supposed to go to dieta and peru right before lockdown happened I was more afraid of that going for 10 days to peru to do dieta Then I have ever been about going to India so Then lockdown happened, but the ash danga practice is the same way the lenient yoga will come to you when it's time It's medicine. This is we call your practice your prescription. This is your medicine Right the opening chance You're calling to the jungle doctor what they say the jungle doctor to remove your poisons Those are your attachments. Those are your mental attachments. Those are your Your boulders that you're going to hit against you're asking To have them removed you're consenting To clear that pathway between you and god that your own ego The soul your soul knows who you are Your ego is what's convincing you of what you aren't And that's the battle that you're facing right now is going up against your it's the story of hanuman Oh to that one last story before we sign off from the ramayana ramayana rom Barry's his wife seeta Beautiful woman and ravana who was the ten-headed demon who lives on Sri lanka Seal seeta takes her away and rob is just So out of sorts you can't find his wife his beautiful wife So he hires hanuman Who is the monkey warrior god hanuman is associated with mars planet mars also tuesday Now in the process hanuman's father is bayu the wind the breath and hanuman has these powers but Like us kind of like kind of goes through like amnesia and forgets that he has these powers But rob hires hanuman because he's such a great warrior to go and find seeta And when he realizes that seeta is being held in Sri lanka with ravana the ten-headed demon that can't be slain He remembers all the sudden that he has these abilities So he jumps all the way from india to Sri lanka And he finds seeta He finds where she is and instead of just sneaking her out to rom He knows if he sneaks her off the island and takes her off Ravana will just come get her again So he knows that he has to man up and he has to go up against the ten-headed demon ravana That can't be slain in order to bring seeta back to rom I won't go into the details of what he does. You'll have to read the ramayana But he ends up defeating ravana and he brings seeta back to rom But what is this story really about? Rom is god Seeta is your soul Always makes the emotional ravana The ten-headed demon who can't be slain you cut one head off another one grows back. That's your ego hanuman The son of value of your breath Is your courage? It takes courage To go up against your ego So that you can return your soul to god But you are hanuman you are all of those things You are seeta you are ravana and you are hanuman and that that hunt that element of hanuman That's why I love one of the kids in the slums gave me this little hanuman that I hang in my car It's hanging in my car. It's this cheap little hanuman. It's been hanging at my rear view window for years now to remind me That's why hanuman is so important the monkey god Because that's your courage It takes courage To remember who you are. You're not ravana. You're not your ego You're a child of the most high and you have abilities in you And you'll never you're never going to find that courage You're never going to find that that divinity within you unless you take the chance To return your soul to go up against ravana You can't do it sitting on the couch What eating popcorn watching the movie guys? No Not gonna happen. That's why I keep saying you're the storm you're hanuman You're hanuman you're hanuman and your seeta And you're ravana, but you think you're ravana ravana that has convinced you this is who you are but who you are You're seeta and hanuman and you're returning yourself back to wrong So you guys got this You're gonna have to go to war. That's why hanuman's the the monkey god of war He's the warrior because when mars is associated with hanuman and tuesday the day tuesday You are a warrior That's why you came to earth So you guys got that got this you're all we have almost I forgot to say this I was gonna say this in the beginning. We have almost 500 people now. So oh my gosh, awesome Should have said that in the beginning There we go. Um, it's never too late to start. So please keep sending me those emails guys It's just a template. You can shift the days. It's no big deal. Send me the email I created this for you guys you take it and run with it. It's yours So so you guys are doing great to who much is given much is expected So take what you've learned pass it on to somebody else and keep moving forward guys Right. We didn't come this far to only come this far Amen. All right guys. We love you and we'll talk to you soon. Bye everybody