 Hello, everybody. Welcome back to Esoteric Atlanta. Of course, my name is Bryce and today we're going to be going into part two of the book, The Return of the Divine Sophia. We're just going to be doing chapter three today. Last week part one was a little bit long and if you missed last week's part one, I will put a link to it down in the description box below along with the whole playlist understanding the Magdalene. So let's go ahead and get into chapter three. There's going to be some Egyptian names in this chapter and I apologize if I'm not saying them correctly. I will try to say them correctly, but please don't judge me. Alright, so chapter three is called The Feather of Truth. I had not yet found a place upon which I could stand. I conceived the divine plan of law and order not to make all forms. I was alone. I had not yet emitted shoe nor had I yet emitted teffnut. Nor existed any other who could act together with me. One might think I could have devised easily into the study of the goddess, but in truth I was afraid. While the idea of becoming an initiative of any golden path of wisdom strongly appeals to any seeker of truth, I knew the path to enlightenment has never been easy. No, it hasn't. Nothing good is ever easy. Again, that comes back to friction. You have to have the friction and friction is always extremely uncomfortable. Thus, I stepped back from taking the plunge. There were several reasons for this. The first was that I was a commercial advertising photographer and had a successful business in the quote-unquote real world. My spiritual studies were private and even though I had a strong natural gifts of clairvoyance and clairaudience in our site and our hearing, same I have that too, and frequently saw information about other people with my spiritual vision, I had always kept my esoteric interest private. To begin a study of the divine feminine would be a big step for me and I wasn't sure how it would impact my worldview. Secondly, I knew that any true spiritual commitment can completely change your life. And at this time, when these events began to unfold, my spiritual training had already moved in another direction with an extraordinary group of spiritual masters I had encountered at the age of 19. These powerful but elusive sages taught about a process of meditation called soul travel, which allows seekers to begin to experience the higher worlds for themselves, to activate their subtle spiritual bodies and use them to travel in the unseen realms of God, while still maintaining our lives in the three-dimensional world. I feel like that's kind of what a lot of us are doing now. I know for me, like I am very aware that I'm existing here on the third density planet talking to you guys on a camera, but I'm also heavily in the quantum. I know I'm after traveling. I know I'm going off with certain people that aren't in my third density life anymore, but are with me in the quantum. I have memory of seeing them in the quantum and I, so I hope that makes sense. I think a lot of us are kind of starting to experience this as we move into the ascension. These two worlds are going to start to merge together as one. Thank God because I am sick of just seeing people in the quantum. If you're one of those people that I am seeing just in the quantum, I'm sick of just seeing you in the quantum. I want to see you in the third density world too. I was already being guided by wise enlightened teachers and I had just received my third initiation. The third reason that I stepped back from Shasta's invitation was my own Christian background. As a mystic who had been seen and heard and felt invisible worlds of spirit from the time I was a child, I knew that my studies were already beyond the bounds of my family's conservative belief system. My dad had been raised a Baptist and my mother was a Methodist, yet none of the ministers I queried at our local churches seemed to know about the spiritual beings of light that I studied with at night in my dreams. They looked outside themselves for answers, relying on Scripture to tell them what to say. I could see that there was no direct connection with the living intelligence of the divine and thus, even within the houses of God's worship, the light was dim. I agree. Of course, I believe the houses of worship, the Baptist church, the Methodist church, the Catholic church, the Episcopalian church, Lutheran, Pentecostal, all of the churches and all of the temples. I believe that they're all satanic. So that's why the light is dim. If you've been joining me on the dark outpost, you know that Penny is an insider who has been talking about that. Basically, very graciously, I'm so grateful for her. She's been backing the research that Stephanie and I have been doing, claiming that these churches are not here for our highest good. And I will be bringing her on my channel at some point to tell her story. It will have to go to rumble, but that is coming. So keep your eyes and ears open for that. As a child, I also noticed a great hypocrisy within the church. On the one hand, the church leaders seemed to honor Jesus, the God of unconditional love. Yet on the other hand, they taught the doctrines of blame and guilt, fear and damnation from their pulpits, threatening punishment to all who did not conform. They also seem to cultivate a rivalry between the various factions of their own Christian creed while preaching to their congregation, judge not these to be judged. This made no sense to me. How could the God of unconditional love be a fearful angry God of wrath? How could they preach tolerance and forgiveness yet make other people their enemies? Same questions I've had my whole life, same questions probably a lot of you have had your whole life. And now we know the answer to that. That is because the God of the Bible is Lucifer, not source creator. Perhaps discouraged by these same observations, my mother took it upon herself to find a gentler approach to Jesus that we could all identify with. When I was 10, she discovered a sweet Episcopalian parish about five miles from our house. I was confirmed there at the tender age of 13. I loved the sacred rituals with their formal robes and wafting incense. The gatherings were kind and heartfelt and I was grateful not to hear the threat of fire and brimstone every Sunday. I knew even then that each of us comes into this world again and again to perfect our inner natures and that the love and kindness are keys to shaping our inner natures in the divine image. No matter what the pomp or circumstance of religion, it is the province of the heart that the real wisdom dwells. So at the time I met Shasta, my older sister and her preacher husband had become fundamentalist. My dad was still a Baptist and my younger sister and my mother were evangelist. They believed that Jesus was the only spiritual teacher who had ever told the truth, the only guide to salvation. I believed that there had been many great spiritual avatars and masters who had come to this planet. Jesus was the latest and perhaps the greatest world teacher, the one who had come to bring the message of the age of Pisces, a 2160 year cycle that had begun about 400 years before he was born. From what I could see, the message had been corrupted and even as a child I felt the great imbalance the male dominated patriarchal had imposed on the world. So I was leery about pushing a path that might take me even further from my family's belief. Yeah, Jesus is not the Christ. Jesus is Nithra. Yeshua and Magdalene were the teachers of the Christ. Everybody's the Christ. We have to stop saying wasn't the Christ because everybody's the year of the Christ. You watching you're the Christ. You have the Christ consciousness and your Kundalini. Magdalene and Yeshua came in to start to teach that to not bring on the age of Pisces but to bring on the Tartarian age because we know that the true God does not demand human sacrifice. Nithra was sacrificed. Jesus was sacrificed because their God is Lucifer and Lucifer does the whole human sacrifice thing. The light, the true God, we don't play. We don't play with sacrifices like that, right? So let's just be clear about that. All right. The magical world of spirit. Born with the gift of inner sight and hearing, I spent the best days of my childhood in a forest across from my parent's house, communing with the trees and magical springs that bubbled up from the earth. This was the church of God that I knew and loved and it was in the forest that I wrote my first poems to God, listening to the small still voice that speaks within. There I learned to see the fairy realms and the elemental spirits that oversee the planet and animal kingdoms. So she has an asterisk here. I know what elementals are but I'm going to go ahead and read the asterisks and the place at the bottom in case there are people who don't know what they are. The elemental spirits are devas, are natural spirits from the angelic kingdom that serve in accordance to God's will to assist nature. So like fairies, leprechauns, like that kind of stuff. Yeah. Like the guardian angels of the human world, these elemental spirits supervise the world of nature and sometimes when I was very still, I could even hear the trees talking in the rustling of the leaves. But these flashes of knowing swept in and out, born on the wings of their own mysterious currents. I did not know how to control these gifts. They came and went as they would. Same. Same, same, same. And the same thing happened to me as a kid. I'm sure a lot of you watching have the same. You didn't know how to control. I still learned how to control at 39. So I know now, years later, as a long time initiate of the mysteries that the gifts of inner sight, hearing and feeling and knowing are just a part of the naturally unfolding gifts of every spiritual experience. The masters teach that there are 33 of these inner gifts, which we acquire on our own spiritual road to God, including the gifts of healing and telepathy, levitation and lucid dreaming. So let's go ahead down to lucid dreaming. The four main gifts are clairvoyance, inner sight, clairaudience, inner hearing, clairsentience, inner feeling, claircognitive abilities or inner knowing. Each of these gifts may develop in different order according to the personal history, experience and life plan of a seeker. Other gifts include mind to mind and communication such as telepathy, the ability to move objects with the mind, also called telekinesis, plant to animal communication and the gift of lucid dreaming, which allows us to develop a conscious gateway into the inner planes. I think I kind of have all of these. I have never moved anything with my mind but I keep feeling, I was telling my friend the other day I keep feeling like my hands can be like I keep wanting to like put my hands out and like do things. I don't know. Maybe I'm crazy. I don't know but I keep wanting to like do that. All right. But since there was no one there to teach me except the tall forest angels that appeared from time to time, I spent my time in the woods in prayer, hoping fervently that someone wiser would come along to connect the dots. Little did I know that the great Varagi masters who had heard the call would arrive to initiate me into their teachings when I was 19 years old. The Varagi masters, the Varagis are an unbroken line of spiritual adepts whose purpose is spiritual liberation of the soul within this lifetime. Like Jesus, they are interested in helping people free themselves from the burden of the worlds of suffering. I had first met the elusive adepts in the spring of my sophomore year of college at Florida State University. They were the great spiritual teachers I had prayed for in my early years. Not only did they understand how the multi-dimensional planes of the universe are layered but they knew the spiritual mechanisms that allowed us to travel from one dimension to another. Discovering the Varagis was like finding a roadmap to creation. The name Varagi derives from the Sanskrit root Viagra meaning detachment. So I know that sounds like the sex drug but it's Viagra meaning to detach and we talk about this a lot in yoga. This is coming from, I knew that, I know what this is. This is coming from the great spiritual teachings of the East. The name lies at the heart of their mission for these sages have become detached from the affairs of the world and follow a path of inner truth. Unlike those of us still ensnared in our emotions, minds, sexuality, or materialism they focus on the inner landscape of heaven, transcending the physical plane through soul travel. They have Viagra teach that the three purest aspects of God are love, sound, and light. The trinity of creation itself. Love is the force that binds the universe together, the very fabric of creation. It is the essence from which all things are composed. The constantly moving adamantine particles that are the living body of the cosmos itself. Sound is the mechanism through which all worlds come into being. The underlying vibration that creates and sustains all things. In Freemasonry this is called the lost note. This essential knowledge has been rediscovered by our physical scientists today and is referred to as a spring theory. In the beginning was the word begins the Gospel of John. This is the sound current that has been known as Alm, the Shabda, the Vani, the Nada, and the music of the spheres. So let's go down to there's an asterisk here too. Science now calls the sound particles phonons which became light particles or photons. They are joined together by gluons, the waveforms of sound transmission into the waveform of light. Many of us had heard the roar of this current in the movement before we dropped into sleep. Through specific exercises the Vararagi teach the aspiring initiate to serve these sounds towards the center of creation. We find a reference to this in Edmond Bordeaux, Zelensky, a scene gospel of peace. And this is from the scene gospel of peace. And when the sun is in the high heavens then you shall seek the holy stream of sound. In the heat of noontime all creatures are still and seek the shade. The angel of the earthly mother are silent for a space. Then it is that you shall let into your ears the holy stream of sound for it can only be heard in silence. Truly this is the voice of God if you did not know it. For it is written and the beginning was the sound and the sound was God and the word was God. I tell you truly when we are born we enter the world within the sound of God in our ears. Even the singing of the vast chorus of the sky and the holy chance of the stars in their fixed routes. It is then that the holy stream of sound transverses the vault of stars and crosses the endless kingdom of the heavenly Father. And I will say again we know it sounds like she's still a little bit confused about some things that we've learned now but that's okay. That's okay. The awakening happens slowly. The real Yashua, the real Magdalen of course we know were not the truth as they were not born Jewish. They were born into the priest and priesthood of Isis. They were Egyptian. And the Ascenes, so the original spelling of Isis is E-S-S-E. So that's the Ascenes. The Ascenes were the priest and priesthood of Isis. The Ascenes are mentioned in the Bible. Again if you've been on this channel for a while you know that's where we get the the name Tennessee is the country of Isis where the Isis temple is in the Norse Dam. This is why the controllers the Freemasons have had to try to flip it to make the Isis and Osiris teachings satanic and make the Bible good. But we know that the Bible is actually satanic and the teachings of Isis and Osiris are the true healings of God. This is also where we get Alm. And I know I've spoken about this before. Patanjali in Sutras he tells you that the proper name of Ishwata or God is Alm because Alm has no beginning and no end. It's a vibration. So if you chant Alm you feel it resonating through your body. If you go out nature you'll also hear if you're really quiet you'll hear nature alming with the vibration the sound frequency of God. Right so it's all connected. The Varagi teach that the creation is divided into many dimensions all vibrating at slightly different frequencies. The Alm is the mechanism that allows each dimension to come into existence. Sound organizes atoms into the shapes that we recognize creating form mass height and weight. Yet the sound is beyond duality emanating from every atom. Through the hearing of the cosmic vibration we can establish a direct contact with Christ consciousness itself. As the divine vibration moves out through the world of form it generates friction creating sun and stars in the entire spectrum of visible light. That's what I've been saying. Oh you gotta have friction. Do you think spirituality is just about being peaceful all the time and looking for those unicorns. That's not spirituality. You have to have that friction to create that light the Shiva the Shakti. You can't the Shiva the soul can't create the expression of the soul the Shakti without friction to do so. So anyway and it has been said that the sun itself is a visual expression of this word. Sound brings all things into being from a state of potentialized possibility. This is why it has been said in magic that to know the true name of a thing is to also command it. Hence why Lucifer's real name is Yelda buff and they try to not tell those Lucifer because Yelda buff is his real name. We talked about that in one of the Pukron books. We don't know his real name. We don't know how to like get rid of them right. This oh that's also why you know I get really upset if you're taking yoga classes you should be speaking Sanskrit. You should not be calling yoga postures by their English names. That is entirely disrespectful first of all. Second of all the Sanskrit has a vibration of healing. So if you're calling the postures by their proper names or Sanskrit names you are healing. You are starting the vibration of healing. If you're not doing it you're teaching yoga and you're not calling them by the Sanskrit names you should not be teaching yoga. Just point blank period. And that's why because the three rules of our Yuveta are sound our excuse me our breath food and vibration vibration is sound and Sanskrit is a holy language. This brings us to light the transmitter of heat warmth and illumination. Without life nothing would have life. Thus the ancient saw the sun as a visible symbol of God itself the unmanifested source behind all things. It was this profound image that I have seen painted on the walls of the dormitory rooms in a dream so long ago the ancient symbol for the sun. The ancients believed that there is both a physical and spiritual sun this supreme benefactor of the material and spiritual worlds. The Mayans called this the kunab ku a term meaning one meaning in one measure one heartbeat behind it all. This is the great central sun or the light that lights the world. Paracelsius the famous alchemist of the 15th century wrote there is an earthly son and there is an eternal son which is the source of all wisdom and those whose spiritual senses have awakened to life will see that the sun has been conscious of his existence but those who have not yet attained spiritual consciousness may yet fill his power by an inner facility which is called intuition. Franz Hartmann the German theosophist and friend of renowned theosophist Madame Helen Blavansky writes the sun is the center of power of heart of things. The sun is the symbol of wisdom a storehouse of power each living being contains within itself a center of life which may grow to be a sun. Yes the solar plexus right here your helios is right here in the solar plexus and also I'm going to say to the sun we've had is not a real sun because the controllers the Luciferians they want to mimic God so they created a fake sun as some people are seeing two sons right now the real ones coming back. The terrestrial sun is the image or reflection of the invisible celestial sun the former is in the realms of spirit while the latter is in the realms of matter the latter receives its power from the former. Hits throughout the centuries many knew that the spiritual grounds are the true world of cause while the physical world is the ground of effect. Yeah what happens in the quantum it has happened in the quantum first. In simple terms this means that our thoughts beliefs and words have the power to change our reality. Our cultures are generated by what we think fill and do and shaping the very foundation of the world we experience. So some 25 years ago when I first met Shasta this was the path that I was traveling about Isis I knew only that she had been a great queen in Egypt and that long ago with her husband Osiris and her son Horus she had been part of the most famous trinity in all of Egypt for over 7,000 years. Legends surrounded her myths of courage resurrection and eternal life but I had not yet devolved into these matters too deeply then. I was deep in the lesson of my third initiation with the masters of the Far East so now let's talk about the awesome power of initiation itself. This section is the reluctant initiate. There was a classic story about a young seeker who was eager to have his second initiation. He had come to his master full of ambition and he wanted to advance quickly up the ranks. Every day he would say to his teacher give me my second initiation please give me my second initiation please I beg of you you. All in time his patient master would reply all in time but in Achila's mind it was not fast enough. He ranked all the initiates according to their initiation level so whenever he met any of the other disciples he would ask what initiation are you. This told the cell of whom he should be friends with and whom he should try to emulate. Some would nod and say proudly I'm a second initiate others would scratch their chins and say thoughtfully I'm a third initiate so others would take a deep breath and sigh quietly hmm I am a fourth initiate. The older ones would smile kindly shake their heads and say in a compassionate tone yes I am a fifth initiate. One day at the chalice sat an audience with his master he watched as other disciples were summoned. As the student bowed in respect before his teacher the master spoke, Zutsu it is now time for me to offer you your sixth initiation are you ready. Oh no master the older disciple protested please don't give me another initiation master I beg of you. The young chila was shocked as Zutsu left the master's building. The boy ran after him caught him by arm. Why he stammered incredulously why would you turn down such an opportunity that is all any of us want to become great masters. The wise student smiled down and said when I entered the master's teaching during my first initiation I left my family's business and gave up my inheritance thus learning to place the inner world above the outer world. During my second initiation I let go of my wife and children who could not find their way to any spiritual path let alone mine and thus I learned attachment and to allow others to pursue their own evolutionary paths. During my third initiation I came down with a crippling disease and discovered that beneath it was my own suppressed rage from childhood and the anger at losing my family I released it and healed and then in my fourth initiation my house was swept away by a flood and I went to live in the forest learning to eat the seeds and berries. There I learned humility appreciation for animals and plants and to move into sympathetic resonance with nature. Finally during my last initiation I died twice and came back from the dead becoming a twice born. Now I'm just beginning to walk the path of my true immortality. The young killer's mouth hung open it was a moment before he could even gather his wits but why? He blurted out before he could stop himself why do you keep going at all? Because it smiled because of losing all these things I have found something greater. The children could barely utter the words but what? What is that? I have found myself and we say that I said this before on this channel and the Ashokha lineage that I teach we always say the easiest people to teach are the beginners and the advanced students because both the beginners and the advanced students know that they know nothing. It's the intermediate students that are the hard ones to teach because they think they know everything. The catalyst event. So what propels us to begin the search for deeper truth? What sets our feet on the path to awakening? For some of us it is a tragedy, a change of life so profound that it sweeps away all the old comfortable answers that we have relied on to understand the world. Whether it be the death of a child, the end of a marriage, the dissolution of a career, the wiping away of our dreams through some financial crisis the usual answer will not suffice. Pain becomes the catalyst that mobilizes us to take action and we search for something greater than the predictable version of reality we have been inculated with since childhood. For some it is like a siren song in the quiet moments when we are most alone. It hovers like an unspoken yearning beyond the day-to-day busyness of our lives. A longing ancient beyond years. This is the cry of the soul calling for itself. It whispers of a time when we knew more, understood more and were connected to our eternal self. It is the remembrance of an age when growing up meant growing into mastery and wisdom was the real goal of life. But the modern mind now trained by the distractions of our swift and superficial societies to ignore such whispers brushes it aside until finally the mechanism of pain and suffering forces us to listen. So it was for me. Many things had changed in my life before I was ready to step into the path with Shasta. So it was to be nearly five long years before I began my studies with her. My engagement to a music producer in Britain had ended in heartbreak and I had returned to the States on my knees in prayer. I entered a dark end of the soul where I remained for nearly a year and a half while trying to rebuild my photography business, my home and all the things that I had abandoned when I left for England. This is the mystical death that precedes resurrection. Were one descends to the depths of one sorrow or pain, a time of crisis where the seeker must be willing to endure this dying of the old self that precedes spiritual rebirth, out of the ashes came a new beginning. Each day as I knelt down by my altar to pray, I began to hear angels' voices raised in song constantly praising the Divine. In the process, my inner spiritual gifts of clairvoyance and clairaudience took a leap to another level. Later I was to learn that this process of dying to the old self is considered essential to the path of enlightenment, absolutely. Tamalachi, a modern-day Christian Gnostic rites, dying is part of your living. You cannot have one without the other. Everything is interconnected and interdependent. It is the nature of things ever becoming. You must learn to accept and embrace the whole of life and the whole of yourself if you would discover the spirit and truth. The light and the darkness must be joined and you must realize the sacred unity. Only later did I realize how true this was and his wisdom was at the very heart of the great mother. The Ancients have called this power process of dying and being reborn in initiation and like the reluctant initiate Zitzu, it was always about letting go of what we have once held dear to find a more enduring path. The Christian term, term it as being born again since the death of the ego allows a powerful shift in consciousness that then propels us towards a greater spiritual awakening. The structures that had once supported our life crashing down and in their place something greater is born like Zitzu, this ego death ultimately leads us to our higher self. In my meditations I began to hear angels singing in constant praise of the divine. I heard messages about the nature of love and spiritual surrender and I began to actively discourse with these higher spiritual beings of light. People began asking me to do readings for them and my clairvoyant abilities increased as I began to see past lives and those around me as well as the arc of their present mission here on earth. I found myself tracking the reasons behind their blocks and traumas and relationships and fears and backwards through time. For the first four years I did these readings without ever charging money but in time there was such a demand for my sessions that it began impacting my ability to respond to my photography advertising clients and as with all the gifts of the spirit when we serve from a place of the heart our gifts have a life of their own. In time my desire to help others allowed me to discover the core wound behind my clients loneliness, separation and abandonment issues and I realized that at the root of this suffering was our inability to realize that we are never alone and that we have never been abandoned by God. During these readings I also began to see angels around people, wonderful spirit guides who were completely committed to the enlightenment of my clients. Some of these guides were there to help families relationships or career. Others were there as sources of inspiration for someone's artistic or creative talents. Some were connected to a person's spiritual mission while other guides have been a part of their spiritual team for many lifetimes. All this made me start to wonder about my own guardian angels and at one point I realized that while I could see other spirit guides quite well I had no idea about my own. How could I find out who they were? Who could help me with this dilemma? I could think of no one better suited to guide me on this path than Shasta seeing the unseen. I arrived at Shasta's house apprehensive but excited. It had been almost five long years since our first encounter and although I had never approached her for a private session we had continued to stay in touch. We often crossed paths at the symposiums that I had produced in Atlanta area a variety of scientific paranormal or metaphysical topics. Was it possible that Shasta would be able to help me make a breakthrough now? If I could see other people's guides so clearly why couldn't I see my own? Having worked so closely with the Viragi masters for over a decade I had never questioned who my spirit guides were. I had simply assumed that these masters were my only teachers but that couldn't be right. Each of us has at least two and sometimes three spirit angels and guides who have agreed to help us accomplish our life's goals. Certainly I had the right to know my own allies didn't I? Magdalen is one of my guides and as she talked about over lifetimes I did have a life with Magdalen, the life where she came as Magdalen. I had a very interesting connection to her which one day I'll share. I'm not ready to share it yet but one day I'll share my connection to her through lifetime and now she's one of my guides. Shasta met me at the door of her little cottage and led me inside. We sat in the kitchen and I laid out my problems. Why can't I see my own guides? I asked in frustration, in frustration especially when I could see everybody else's. I want to know is helping me from the other side. She listened quietly and then took me by the hand leading me into the healing room. Lighted out she instructed pointing to the bed. She handed me two large double terminated crystals one for each hand to place a silk pouch over my eyes. I want you to simply breathe she instructed her voice a soothing balm. I am going to move some energy blocks out of your field and then we'll see where this takes us. As she began to work my muscles relaxed and my mind slipped into a quiet state. I began to see flickering lights floating all around me in my inner vision. The faces of many different kinds of being appeared and disappeared as if reading me in turn. Angels, animals, masters and even Egyptian divinities floated in and out of my consciousness. Nature, spirits and elementals swept in and I could hear melodies from the higher levels like a chorus of angels voices playing on the radio its volume moving up and down like a wave. After a while I lost all track of time and the separate images stopped and all I could see was a golden light. I don't know how much time had passed before Shafsa touched me on the hand. She took the two crystals from my palms and slowly lifted the eye pouch. I could vaguely see from the shadows in the room that it was now late afternoon. Everybody is here she said in a quiet voice the angels the masters the fairies the elementals the gods the goddesses the question is who do you want to work with they are all interested in you. I sat up slowly blinking really I saw them or at least I think I did. There were a lot of lights Shasta smiled yes I know what do I do now I asked swinging my legs over the side of the bed go home and call them in decide who you want to work with. I only want to work with the highest energy I said she helped me up and handed me an orange eat this before you drive you are not back in your body yet that just gave me chills because I know what that feels like. I think I told you guys like I've just learned recently that I know how to astro travel and apparently I've been astro traveling my whole life and I figured it out with Stephanie because I started to all of a sudden I got hit one day where I was I think I told you guys a story I was sitting down like so close like two o'clock in the afternoon I was editing and all of a sudden I just boom went out and I went somewhere when I came back I had a hard time coming back on my body but this is something that has happened to me my whole life I just didn't know that it was astro travel I had no idea that I had this ability and that's my whole life another part of me has been in the quantum doing other things and you know no one ever tells you that when you grow up in a typical family you know a modern family no one's telling you that that's what's happening to you and so the whole idea about not being back in your body like that since shivers down my spine because I know what that feels like I know exactly what that feels like so I get that that's the other thing I do too is like when I happens to me and I come back and not my body the first thing I do is I reach for something to eat to try to like pull my system back into the physical realm eat this before you drive you are not back in your body yet and you will need to be grounded to get home I nodded what did she mean go home and decide who you want to work with what were my choices oh I guess she had already told me that slowly I walked back to my car deep in thought it was now dusk I sat in the front seat ate my orange then I drove home slowly two weeks later my two spirit guides arrived it completely changed my life and again I hope I'm saying these names right Ariel and Rijel the mother and father of creation their names are Rijel and Rijel and they told me that they had been with me since the beginning of time they are aspects of the divine father and mother and I would like to introduce you to these profound presences now although we will be encountering them in various ways throughout this book Ariel is the mother and Rijel is the father of all that lives and breathes of course they have been known by many names throughout the centuries and religions across the world but no matter what they are called they are the same eternal presences at the heart of creation itself Rijel appears as a large golden eagle whose wings span the universe this is doubtless a metaphor for the one who could see into every mind and heart and yet is above them all while Rijel communicates to me through both words and form it is always through the power of the direct transmission of or frequency that he comes into my field many seers have beheld the same transcendent eagle as a symbol of the divine father including mystics within the Native American tradition as well as the Egyptians Plato Carl Jan and the Aki Shamans of Central American Ariel is the divine mother of love whose sweet energy leads us back to the heart she first appeared as a moving wave form of light and sound a fountain of loving peak and gold energies I could see no defined form when she first appeared but as the months and years passed I was to discover that she took endless forms in all the great traditions of the world I am the doorway of eternity she told me the white dove of hope that enters every age as a promise of that which can be I am the dreams of the holy and the visions of men of reason mine is a blue cloak of daybreak the bird's song and warning mine is the mantle of the evenings in the starlight of heaven's hand I'm the first thought that ever was the portal to your own becoming I'm the snowflakes on your frozen lashes and the tears of your sorrow I am she who is always present waiting endlessly loving endlessly hoping endlessly that my children will awaken in the many years that I was to study with her she always entered my heart with great compassion and kindness hers were the tears of the suffering of humanity and she gave me many discourses about the nature of human pain one day she said to me who has told you that our lives were meant for suffering and pain I have not who has told you that you must toil beneath the yoke of sacrifice I have not I saw in my inner vision of suffering of humanity in the self-imposed struggles we all place on ourselves every day but ariel continued it is my will that you rejoice in one another and share joy as the ever-vescent sparkle of light shimmering at the fullness of the water's edge that you honor my fields and crops my fruits and flowers and bless them with your energy as they have blessed you with theirs her powerful presence seemed to enter my heart and expand it with compassion I saw vast fields of flowers orchards wheat and corn and sunlight over golden plains it is my will that you acknowledge right normally I would edit this out but um something literally just touched my head and like started to rub it if you guys saw anything in the screen will you let me know down the comment section below because I got a little dizzy while I was reading that and I felt someone literally do this to my head so which happens to me a lot and I just cut it out of the editing process but let me know if you saw something because that felt weird that felt different her powerful presence seemed to enter my heart and expand it with compassion I saw a vast field of flowers orchards wheat and corn and sunlight over the golden plains it is my will that you acknowledge the forefooted the wings the small and the fury the hoofed and the clawed and the tribes of your brothers and sisters who live at your sides if you could if you could but remember the languages that they speak you would know who they are besides you no less no more but part of ourselves these are my other children as children as surely as you I saw a stag appear in the woods with his large antlered head and noble continents than other animals appeared around him deer rabbits raccoons wolf spares pumas tigers even elephants and I knew that many of these animals were going extinct through the greed brutality and hunting of men it is my greatest hope that you might learn to live with one another in compassion and tolerance for you are no longer little children the squabbles of your adolescence should have been left behind long ago I knew that the mother was speaking about the spiritual maturity of our societies that seem to simply repeat the same patterns over and over again the same imperialistic government the same warm longering the same tyrannical obsession with greed and negative control that has been has called cycle after cycle of self destruction she was right we should have grown these games of victim and victimizer long ago there's only one god she said and that god is love it matters not what you call it the source of sources express itself through everything and everyone coursing through the universe as a sacred sound filling every vessel I am that vessel and all that it is is created moves through me the portal opens perhaps because of these profound teachers in my own surrendered state my spiritual gifts made a quantum shift now when I pulled up each of my clients soul records I could follow their journeys back through time tracing the quick connections between husbands and wives parents and children are any individual who had known each other in the past I could find the soulmate agreements that bound them and understand why these individuals were in each other's lives again I also began to see not only the angelic protectors around my clients but sometimes shamanic animals creative muses are even masters all these were spiritual allies from the other side who had come to support my clients as part of their spirit team but on occasion I would see a different kind of guide that it could only describe as a divinity or god or goddess the first time this happened I was in San Diego reading for three lovely creative women one of these women was an overlit by aphrodite to goddess of love a presenceful known the Mediterranean and the second reading I saw a beautiful middle eastern desert goddess who hovered over my female client and told her her name was Ishtar I saw her walking around the desert sands and felt that she had known the great loss and pain that some all had to do with losing her love she was a protective goddess for tribal people even then in battle this is where we get Easter from two guys Ishtar the real Easter not the fake one that church tries to sell you she showed me her symbols a crescent moon in the planet Venus but I never heard of her before the third woman was overseen by the goddess who called herself mutt I was saying that right the hot mutt she rose from a rich deep earth as a primordial principle of the mother herself and seemed to come from Africa of course I had heard about after dining in high school but I never heard of mutt or Ishtar each of these goddesses seemed to be a massive benevolent energy with her own symbols personality and gifts how is it possible I asked myself was such beings still existed unless they have lived in higher realms were they some kind of archetype deities who oversaw humanities develop did they exist independent of human thought or were they the residual imprint of long-lived extraterrestrial gods or goddesses from our past who once existed on our planet they seem completely interactive and present with me but drawing on my own worldview I could not understand how they could exist in these contemporary worlds I realized that I had to find out more about them when I got back to Atlanta the feather of mutt or mahat how to pronounce so it's not mahat mahat okay I'm gonna have to look into mahat okay not all right when I returned to Atlanta I made a trip to my local Barnes and Noble and the bookstore I spread out the books I collected around me in a circle they came from a variety of departments there were a coffee table books on gods and goddesses of ancient Egypt Rome and Greece and other books on angels the great mother and related topics I flipped open the Egyptian coffee table book looking for the section on goddesses mahat was the first to appear with her dark brown skin and deep wise continents the book said to come from Nubia the book opened to a page with her picture and I looked down stunned here was a spinning image of the Egyptian statue that I'd seen all those years earlier in aluminum the store where I'd first met Shasta one tall feather rose from her head held in place by a simple headband mahat the goddess of cosmic truth I read beneath the picture hmm what did that mean next I opened historian Barbara Walker's women's encyclopedia of myths and secrets it was a thick book that Shasta had recommended a vertebral encyclopedia of hidden history her listings were alphabetical I flipped to the ems and found mahat an Egyptian goddess and the personification of truth the original name is based on universal indio-european mother symbol ma which simply meant mother holy cow I sat back in my chair this was an interesting coincidence to say the least not only did mahat represent the pursuit of spiritual truth but her presence was like a signal leading to the deeper mysteries was not how we had gotten the original word for mama was Mary's name also derived from the same source was not the holy mother herself that's not where Mary's name comes from guys but I do think mama maybe I close my eyes recalling the smooth ebony statue that I'd seen in the store with the two feathers extending from her headdress I summoned up the image of the goddess who had appeared in my readings she was the quite essential grandmother of wisdom she arose from the earth ancient as time mahat had told me that she was connected with the rhythms of the universe and had shown me a single feather that seemed to represent morality law or truth is this what her two feathers had meant I continue down the page excitedly mahat symbol I read was a feather against which she had weighed each man's heart and soul in her underground halls of judgment there it was the feather I continue to read I've been seeing a lot of feathers lately let me know if you've been seeing feathers a lot I've been seeing a lot of feathers like every time I go outside there's feathers around so I always just saw that with the needles we're watching but that just kind of gave me goosebumps again let me know if you guys have seen feathers too thus the plume of mahat itself became a hieroglyphic for truth the same feathers of truth were worn by other aspects of the goddess such as Isis who was the same law-giving mother I paused to breathe this in Isis mahat was connected to the priestess of Isis who had called me to join them long ago what did all this mean the memory of the statue of mahat rose in my mind that goddess of truth had been there from the beginning I focused my eyes on the page once again my mind now racing I read mahat's laws govern all three worlds and thus she is known as the lady of heaven queen of earth and the mistress of the underworld mahat was the law giver of ancient Egypt my heart jumped did the book say something about nubia and my vision I had seen her arise from the rich soil of nubia I read on the book quoted a writer who had compared his own country meant the honest mahat worshipping tribes of nubia holy smokes there it was mahat was apparently deeply involved with the weighing of the heart ceremonies between lifetimes on judgment day Egyptians believe that they stood before the throne of Osiris the Egyptian god of resurrection allowed their hearts to be weighed against the feather of truth if your heart was light as a feather then you got to enter heaven but if you still had a heavy heart an angry heart or an unforgiving heart then you had to return to earth to resolve your karma not hell do it again this is what the missing gospels tell us too guys of joshua's teachings that there is no hell you just keep coming back until you figure it out whether the church taught you that and they wouldn't have a power over you would they this all happened in the halls of amati the the anti chamber of heaven this was the 42 lords of karma present as the soul protested its innocence before the council of light thought the scribe of the gods wrote the results in the book of life the these were some of the things each soul had to declare i have not been a man of anger i have done no evil to mankind i have not inflicted pain i have made none to weep i have done violence to no man i have not done harm to animals i have not brought the poor i have not found water i have not trampled fields i have not behaved with insolence i have not judged hastily i have not stirred up strife i have not made any man to commit murder for me i have not insisted that excessive work be done for me daily i have not borne false witness i have not stole stolen land i have not cheated in measuring the bushel i have allowed no man to suffer for hunger i have not increased my wealth except with such things that are my own possessions i have not seized wrongfully the property of others and i have not taken milk from the mother mouths of babes holy cow i couldn't think of anybody who lived that honestly the egyptians must have had very high moral standards yes yes they did they had very high moral standards we're told the egyptians were the bad guys and moses and his posse were the good guys it didn't read the aqmoses tablet though it's backwards moses was a dark warlock who worked with grandma's black magic where the egyptians were working with light so it's all inverted you have to invert everything i open a third book it was called angels and archetypes the table of content revealed an entire chapter on the hot below her pictures were these words the hot the newt goddess that personifies the principle of the cosmic order the concept by which not only men but also the gods themselves were governed she represents the embodiment of accuracy honesty fairness faithfulness authenticity legitimacy integrity and justice the absence of rhythm the divine order of the universe that has re reigned since the beginning maat is the motivating force in the universe that drives us to become conscious for in essence the universe is pure consciousness itself one who achieves double mahat is one who has merged their individual consciousness with the cosmic consciousness i set back trying to take it all in this was saying that all cosmic order in the universe symbolized by mahat follow the principles of divine law to bring us back into alignment with the creator absolutely this meant that all karmic challenges we go through our part of the mechanism of mahat that will allow each of us to reach mastery someday that's why i keep telling you guys that no one can pay for your karma no guy on a cross can pay for your karma believing so is denying yourself the privilege of working through your karma it's your work it's the gift god gives you perhaps this god has had appeared in my life long ago to remind me of something i had forgotten and this was somehow connected to the priestess of isis i must call shasta i realized only she might have the power to help me unravel this puzzle who were the priestess of isis what was it about the gods or the goddesses that was so important as being template long ago that was impossible to interact with them in current time to have them appear as spirit guides or teachers i didn't know despite my fear of stepping outside of my comfort zone i knew that it was finally time for me to search for answers