 CHAPTER 30 On the road. All at no was indicative of the break-up that was so near at hand. Dr. Brierley arrived according to promise. He was in a whirl of business all the time. He and Mr. Danvers conferred about the management of the estate. It was agreed that the grounds and gardens should be let, but not the house of which Mrs. Rusk was to take the care. The gamekeeper remained in office, and some outdoor servants, but the rest were to go, except Mary Quince, who was to accompany me to Bartram Howe, as my maid. Don't part with Quince, said Lady Nullis, peremptorily. There won't you, but don't. She kept harping on this point, and recurred to it half a dozen times every day. They'll say, you know, that she is not fit for a lady's maid, as she certainly is not, if it in the least signified in such a wilderness as Bartram Howe. But she is attached, trustworthy, and honest, and those are qualities valuable everywhere, especially in a solitude. Don't allow them to get you a wicked young French milliner in her stead. Sometimes she said things that jarred unpleasantly on my nerves, and left an undefined sense of danger, such as, I know she's true to you and a good creature, but is she shrewd enough, or with an anxious look I hope Mary Quince is not easily frightened, or suddenly can Mary Quince write in case you were ill, or can she take a message exactly, or is she a person of any enterprise and resource and cool in an emergency? Now these questions did not come all in a string as I write them down here, but at long intervals and were followed quickly by ordinary talk, but they generally escaped from my companion after silence and gloomy thought, and although I could extract nothing more defined than these questions, yet they seemed to me to point to some possible danger contemplated in my good cousin's dismal ruminations. Another topic that occupied my cousin's mind a good deal was obviously the larceny of my pearl cross. She made a note of the description furnished by the recollection, respectively, of Mary Quince, Mrs. Rusk, and myself. I had fancied her little vision of the police was no more than the result of a momentary impulse, but really to judge by her methodical examinations of us, I should have fancied that she had taken it up in downright earnest. Having learned that my departure from Noel was to be so very soon, she resolved not to leave me before the day of my journey to Bartram Howe, and as day after day passed by, and the hour of our leave-taking approached, she became more and more kind and affectionate. A feverish and sorrowful interval it was to me. Of Dr. Briley, though staying in the house, we saw almost nothing except for an hour or so at tea-time. He breakfasted very early, and dined solidarily, and at uncertain hours as business permitted. The second evening of his visit, Cousin Monica took occasion to introduce the subject of his visit to Bartram Howe. "'You saw him, of course,' said Lady Nollis. "'Yes, he saw me. He was not well. On hearing who I was, he asked me to go to his room, where he sat in a silk dressing-gown and slippers.' "'About business, principally?' said Cousin Monica, laconically. That was dispatched in very few words, but he was quite resolved, and placed his refusal upon grounds which it was difficult to dispute. But difficult or no, mind you, he intimated that he would hear nothing more on the subject, so that was closed.' "'Well, and what is his religion now?' inquired she, irreverently. We had some interesting conversation on the subject. He leans much to what we call the doctrine of correspondence. He is read rather deeply in the writings of Swedenborg, and seemed anxious to discuss some points with one who professes to be his follower. To say truth, I did not expect to find him either so well-read, or so deeply interested in the subject. Was he angry when it was proposed that he should vacate the guardianship? Not at all. Contrary wise, he said he had at first been so minded himself. His years, his habits, and something of the unfitness of the situation, the remoteness of Bartram Howe from good teachers and all that had struck him, and nearly determined him against accepting the office. But then came the views which I stated in my letter, and they governed him, and nothing could shape them,' he said, or induced him to reopen the question in his own mind. All the time Dr. Briley was relating his conference with the head of the family at Bartram Howe, my cousin commented on the narrative with a variety of little pishes and sneers, which I thought showed more of vexation than content. I was glad to hear that all Dr. Briley related. It gave me a kind of confidence, and I experienced a momentary reaction. After all, could Bartram Howe be more lonely than I had found no? Was I not sure of the society of my cousin Millicent, who was about my own age? Was it not quite possible that my sojourn in Derbyshire might turn out a happy, though very quiet, remembrance, through all my afterlife? Why should it not? What time or place would be happy if we gave ourselves over to dismal imaginations? So the summons reached me from Uncle Silas. The hours at Knoll were numbered. The evening before I departed I visited the full-length portrait of Uncle Silas, and studied it for the last time carefully, with deep interest, for many minutes, but with results vaguer than ever. With a brother so generous and so wealthy, always ready to help him forward, with his talents, with his life in gorgeous beauty, the shadow of which hung on that canvas, what might he not have accomplished, whom might he not have captivated? And yet where and what was he? A poor and shunned old man occupying a lonely house and place that did not belong to him, married to degradation, with a few years of suspected and solitary life before him, and then swift oblivion his best portion. I gazed on the picture to fix it well and vividly in my remembrance. I might still trace some of its outlines and tints in its living original, whom I was next day to see for the first time in my life. So the morning came. My last for many a day at Knoll, a day of partings, a day of novelty and regrets. The travelling carriage and post-horses were at the door. Cousin Monica's carriage had just carried her away to the railway. We had embraced with tears, and her kind face was still before me, and her words of comfort and promise in my ears. The early sharpness of morning was still in the air, the frosty dew still glistened on the window-pains. We had made a hasty breakfast, my share of which was a single cup of tea. The aspect of the house, how strange! Uncarpeted, uninhabited, doors for the most part locked, all the servants but Mrs Rusk and Branstad departed. The drawing-room door stood open, and the charwoman was washing the bare floor. I was looking my last, for who could say how long, on the old house and lingered. The luggage was all up. I made Mary Quince get in first, for every delay was precious, and now the moment was come. I hugged and kissed Mrs Rusk in the hall. God bless you, Miss Maud, darling. You must not fret. Mind the time won't be long going over, no time at all, and you'll be bringing back a fine young gentleman, who knows, as great as the Duke of Wellington for your husband. And I'll take the best of care of everything, and the birds and the dogs, till you come back, and I'll go and see you and Mary, if you'll allow, in Derbyshire, and so forth. I got into the carriage, and bid Branstad, who shut the door, goodbye, and kissed hands to Mrs Rusk, who was smiling and drying her eyes, and curtsying on the hall-door steps. The dogs, who had started gleefully with the carriage, were called back by Branstad, and driven home, wandering and wistful, looking back with his oddly cocked and tails dejected. My heart thanked them for their kindness, and I felt like a stranger, and very desolate. It was a bright, clear morning. It had been settled that it was not worth the trouble changing from the carriage to the railway, for sake of five and twenty miles. And so the entire journey of sixty miles was to be made by the post-road. The pleasantest travelling, if the mind were free. The grander and more distant features of the landscape we may see well enough from the window of the railway carriage, but it is the foreground that interests and instructs us, like a pleasant, gossiping history, and that we had, in old days, from the post-chase window. It was more than travelling pique, something of all conditions of life, luxury and misery, high spirits and low, all sorts of costume, livery, rags, millinery, faces buxom, faces wrinkled, faces kind, faces wicked, no end of interest and suggestion, passing in a procession silent and vivid, and all in their proper scenery. The golden corn-sheafs, the old dark-hallied orchards, and the high streets of antique towns, there were few dreams brighter, few books so pleasant. We drove by the dark wood, it always looked dark to me, where the mausoleum stands, where my dear parents both lay now. I gazed on its somber masses, not with a softened feeling, but a peculiar sense of pain, and was glad when it was quite past. All the morning I had not shed a tear, Good Mary Quince cried at leaving Noel, Lady Nullis's eyes were not dry as she kissed and blessed me, and promised an early visit, and the dark, lean, energetic face of the housekeeper was quivering, and her cheeks wet as I drove away. But I, whose grief was soreest, never shed a tear. I only looked about from one familiar object to another, pale, excited, not quite apprehending my departure, and wondering at my own composure. But when we reached the old bridge, with the tall oseas standing by the buttress, and looked back at poor Noel, the places we love, and are leaving, look so fairy-like and so sad in a clear distance, and this is the finest view of the gabled old house, with its slanting meadowlands and noble timber reposing in solemn groups. I gazed at a receding vision, and the tears came at last, and I wept in silence long after the fair picture was hidden from view by the intervening uplands. I was relieved, and when we had made our next change of horses, and got into a country that was unknown to me, the new scenery and the sense of progress worked their accustomed effects on a young traveller who had lived a particularly secluded life, and I began to experience, on the whole, a not unpleasurable excitement. Mary Quince and I, with the hopefulness of inexperienced travellers, began already to speculate about our proximity to Bartram Howe, and were sorely disappointed when we heard from the nondescript courier, more like an osla than a servant, who sat behind in charge of us and the luggage, and represented my guardian's special care, at nearly one o'clock, that we had still forty miles to go, a considerable portion of which was across the high Derbyshire mountains, before we reached Bartram Howe. The fact was we had driven at a pace accommodated rather to the convenience of the horses than to our impatience, and finding at the quaint little inn where we now halted, that we must wait for a nail or two in the loose shoo of one of our relay, we consulted, and being both hungry, agreed to beguile the time with an early dinner, which we enjoyed very sociably in a queer little parlour with a bow-window, and commanding with a little garden for foreground a very pretty landscape. Good Mary Quince, like myself, had quite dried her tears by this time, and we were both highly interested, and I a little nervous too, about our arrival and reception at Bartram. Some time, of course, was lost in this pleasant little parlour, before we found ourselves once more pursuing our way. The slowest part of our journey was the pull-up the long mountain road, ascending zigzag as sailors make way against the headwind by tacking. I forget the name of the pretty little group of houses, it did not amount to a village, buried in trees where we got our four horses and two persilience, for the work was severe. I can only designate it as the place where Mary Quince and I had our tea, very comfortably, and bought some gingerbread, very curious to look upon, but quite un-eatable. The greater portion of the ascent when we were fairly upon the mountain was accomplished at a walk, and at some particularly steep points we had to get out and go on foot. But this, to me, was quite delightful. I had never scaled a mountain before, and the ferns and heath, the pure boisterous air, and above all the magnificent view of the rich country we were leaving behind, now gorgeous and misty in the sunset tints, stretching in gentle undulations far beneath us, quite enchanted me. We had just reached the summit when the sun went down. The low grounds at the other side were already lying in cold grey shadow, and I got the man who sat behind to point out as well as he could the sight of Bartram Howe. The mist was gathering over all by this time. The filmy disc of the moon, which was to light us on, so soon as twilight faded into night, hung high in air. I tried to see the sable mass of wood which he described, but it was vain, and to acquire a clear idea of the place as of its master. I must only wait that nearer view, which an hour or two more would afford me. And now we rapidly descended the mountainside. The scenery was wilder and bolder than I was accustomed to. Our roads skirted the edge of a great heathy moor. The silvery light of the moon began to glimmer, and we passed a gypsy bivouac, with fires alight and cauldrons hanging over them. Which was the first I had seen. Two or three low tents, a couple of dark, withered crones, veritable witches, a graceful girl standing behind, gazing after us, the men in odd striped hats, with gaudy waistcoats and bright-coloured neck handkerchiefs, and gated legs stood lazily in front. They had all a wild, taudry display of colour, and a group of olders in the rim made a background of shade for tents, fires, and figures. I opened a front window of the chariot and called to the post-boys to stop. The groom from behind came to the window. I'm not those gypsies, I inquired. Yes, please, them. Them gypsies sure miss, he answered, glancing with that odd smile, half contemptuous, half superstitious, with which I have since often observed the peasants of Derbyshire, eyeing those sievish and uncanny neighbours. CHAPTER 31 BARTRIM HAL In a moment a tall, lies girl, black-haired, black-eyed, and, as I thought, inexpressibly handsome, was smiling, with such beautiful rings of pearly teeth at the window, and in her peculiar accent, with a suspicion of something foreign in it, proposing with many curtsies to tell the lady her fortune. I had never seen this wild tribe of the human race before, children of mystery and liberty, such vagabondism and beauty in the figure before me. I looked at their hovels and thought of the night, and wandered at their independence, and felt my inferiority. I could not resist. She held up her slim oriental hand. Yes, I'll hear my fortune, I said, returning the sibbled smile instinctively. Give me some money, Mary Quince. No, not that, I said, rejecting the thrifty sixpence she tended, for I had heard that the revelations of this weird sisterhood were bright in proportion to the kindness of their clients, and was resolved to approach Bartram with cheerful auguries. That five-chilling peace, I insisted, and honest Mary reluctantly surrendered the coin. So the feline beauty took it with curtsies and thankies, smiling still, and hid it away as if she stole it, and looked on my open palm still smiling. She told me, to my surprise, that there was somebody I liked very much, and I was almost afraid she would name Captain Oakley, that he would grow very rich, and that I should marry him, that I should move about from place to place a great deal for a good while to come, that I had some enemies who should be sometimes so near as to be in the same room with me, and yet they should not be able to hurt me, that I should see blood spilt, and yet not my own, and finally be very happy and splendid like the heroine of a fairy tale. Did this strange girlish charlatan see in my face some signs of shrinking when she spoke of enemies, and set me down for a coward whose weakness might be profitable? Very likely. At all events she plucked a long brass pin with a round bead for a head from some part of her dress, and holding the point in her fingers and exhibiting the treasure before my eyes. She told me the time must get a charmed pin like that, which her grandmother had given to her, and she ran glibly through a story of all the magic expended on it, and told me she could not part with it, but its virtue was that she were to stick it through the blanket, and while it was there neither rat, nor cat, nor snake, and then came two more terms in the catalogue, which I suppose belonged to the gypsy dialect, and which she explained to me as well as I could understand, the first a malevolent spirit, and the second, a cove to cut your throat, could approach or hurt you. A charm like that, she gave me to understand, I must by hook or by crook obtain. She had not a second, none of her people in the camp over there possessed one. I am ashamed to confess that I actually paid her a pound for this brass pin. The purchase was partly an indication of my temperament, which could never let an opportunity pass away revocably, without a struggle, and always apprehended, some day or other, I'll reproach myself for having neglected it, and partly a record of the trepidations of that period of my life. At all events I had her pin, and she my pound, and I ventured to say I was the glader of the two. She stood on the roadside bank, curtsying and smiling, the first enchantress I had encountered, and I watched the receding picture with its patches of fire-light, its dusky groups and donkey-carts, whiter skeletons in the moonlight, as we drove rapidly away. They, I suppose, had a wild sneer and a merry laugh over my purchase, as they sat and ate their supper of stolen poultry about their fire, and were duly proud of belonging to the superior race. Mary Quince, shocked at my prodigality, hinted a remonstrance. It went to my heart, as it did, there's such a lot young and old, all alike thieves and vagabonds, and many a poor body wanting. Tucked Mary, never mind, everyone has her fortune told some time in her life, and you can't have a good one without paying. I think Mary, we must be near Bartram now. The road now traversed the side of a steep hill, parallel to which, along the opposite side of a winding river, rose the dark steeps of a corresponding upland, covered with forests that looked awful and dim in the deep shadow, while the moonlight rippled fitfully upon the stream beneath. It seems to be a beautiful country, I said to Mary Quince, who was munching a sandwich in the corner, and thus appealed to, adjusted her bonnet and made an inspection from her window, which, however, commanded nothing but the heathy slope of the hill, whose side we were traversing. Well, Miss, I suppose it is, but there's a deal, a mountains, is not there? And so, saying, honest Mary leaned back again and went on with her sandwich. We were now descending at a great pace. I knew we were coming near. I stood up as well as I could, in the carriage, to see over the postillian's heads. I was eager, but frightened too, agitated as the crisis of the arrival and meeting approached. At last a long stretch of comparatively level country below us, with masses of wood as well as I could see irregularly overspreading it, became visible as the narrow valley through which we were speeding made a sudden bend. Down we drove, and now I did perceive a change, a great grass-grown park wall overtopped with mighty trees, but still on and on we came at a canter that seemed almost a gallop. The old grey park wall flanking us at one side, and a pretty pastoral hedgerow of ash trees irregularly on the other. At last the postillians began to draw bridle, and at a slight angle, the moon shining full upon them, we wheeled into a wide semicircle formed by the receding park walls, and halted before a great fantastic iron gate, and a pair of tall fruited piers of white stone, all grass-grown and ivy-bound with great cornices surmounted with shields and supporters, the ruffian bearings washed by the reins of Derbyshire for many a generation of ruffins, almost smooth by this time, and looking bleached and phantasmal like giant sentinels, with each a hand clasped in his comrades to bar our passage to the enchanted castle, the florid tracery of the iron gate showing like the draperies of white robes hanging from their extended arms to the earth. Our courier got down and shoved the great gate open, and we entered between somber files of magnificent forest trees, one of those very broad straight avenues whose width measures the front of the house. This was all built of white stone, resembling that of con, which parts of Derbyshire produce in such abundance. So this was Bartram, and here was Uncle Silas. I was almost breathless as I approached. The bright moon shining full on the white front of the old house revealed not only its highly decorated style, its fluted pillars and doorway, rich and florid carving, and ballastrated summit, but also its stained and must-grown front. Two giant trees overthrown at last by the recent storm lay with their upturned roots, and their yellow foliage still flickering on the sprays that were to bloom no more, where they had fallen on the right side of the courtyard, which, like the avenue, was studded with tufted weeds and grass. All this gave to the aspect of Bartram a full-on character of desertion and decay, contrasting almost awfully with a grandeur of its proportions and richness of its architecture. There was a ruddy glow from a broad window in the second row, and I thought I saw someone peep from it and disappear. At the same moment there was a furious barking of dogs, some of whom ran scampering into the courtyard from a half closed side door, and amid their uproar, the balling of the man in the back seat who jumped down to drive them off, and the crack of the persilience whips who struck at them, we flew up before the lordly doorsteps of this melancholy mansion. Just as our attendant had his hand on the knocker, the door opened, and we saw, by a not very brilliant candlelight, three figures, a shabby little old man, thin and very much stooped, with a white cravat, and looking as if his black clothes were too large, and made for someone else, stood with his hand upon the door. A young, plump, but very pretty female figure, in unusually short petticoats, with fattish legs, and nice ankles in boots, stood in the centre, and a dowdy maid like an old charwoman behind her. The household paraded for welcome was not certainly very brilliant. Amid the riot the trunks were deliberately put down by our attendant, who kept shouting to the old man at the door, and to the dogs in turn, and the old man was talking and pointing stiffly and tremulously, but I could not hear what he said. Was it possible? Could that mean looking old man be Uncle Silas? The idea stunned me, but I almost instantly perceived that he was much too small, and I was relieved and even grateful. It was certainly an odd mode of procedure to devote primary attention to the trunks and boxes, leaving the travellers still shut up in the carriage, of which they were by this time pretty well tired. I was not sorry for the reprieve, however, being nervous about first impressions, and willing to defer mine. I sat shyly back, peeping at the candle and moonlight picture before me, myself unseen. Will you tell? Yes or no? Is my cousin in the coach? Screamed the plump young lady, stamping her stout black boot in a momentary lull. Yes, I was there, sure. And why the puck don't you let her out, you stupid you? Run down giblets, you never do nought without driving, and get cousin moored out. You're very welcome to Bartram. This greeting was screened at an amazing pitch, and repeated before I had time to drop the window and say thank you. I'd let you out myself. There's a good dog. You wouldn't a bite cousin. The parenthesis was to a huge mastiff, who thrust himself beside her, and this time quite pacified. Only I didn't go down the steps, for the governor said I shouldn't. The venerable person who went by the name of giblets, had by this time opened the carriage door, and our courier, or boots, he looked more like the latter functionary, had lowered the steps, and in greater trepidation, the night experienced when in after-days I was presented to my sovereign, I glided down to offer myself to the greeting and inspection of the plain-spoken young lady, who stood at the top of the steps to receive me. She welcomed me with a hug and a hearty bus, as she called the salutation, on each cheek, and pulled me into the hall, and was evidently glad to see me. And you're tired of it, I warrant. And who's the olden, who? She asked eagerly in a stage whisper, which made my ear numb for five minutes after. Oh, oh, the maid! And a precious olden! Ha, ha, ha! But look how grand she is, with her black silk cloak and crepe! And I only entwilled cotton, and rubbed an old co-burg for Sundays. Oh, it's a shame! But you'll be tired, you will. It's a smartish pull, they do say, from knoll. I know a spell of it, only so far as the cat and fiddle near the London Road. Come up, will you? Would you like to come in first and talk a bit with a governor? Father, you know, he's a bit silly he is this while. I found that the phrase meant only bodily infirmity. He took a pane of Friday, neuralgy, something or other, he calls it, rheumatics it is, when he takes old jubelets there, and he's sitting in his own room. Or maybe you'd like better to come to your bedroom first, for it is dirty work travelling, they do say. Yes, I preferred the preliminary adjustment. Mary Quince was standing behind me, and as my voluble kinswoman talked on, we had each ample time and opportunity to observe the personnel of the other, and she made no scruple of letting me perceive that she was improving it. For she stared me full in the face, taking in evidently feature after feature, and she felt the material of my mantle pretty carefully, between her finger and thumb, and manually examined my chin and trinkets, and picked up my hand, as she might a glove, to con over my rings. I can't say of course exactly what impression I may have produced on her, but in my cousin Millie I saw a girl who looked younger than her years, plump but with a slender waist, with light hair, lighter than mine, and very blue eyes, rather round, on the whole very good-looking. She had an odd, swaggering walk, a toss of her head, and a saucy and imperious, but rather good-natured and honest countenance. She talked rather loud with a good ringing voice, and a boisterous laugh when it came. If I was behind the fashion, what would cousin Monica have thought of her? She was arrayed, as she had stated, in black twilled cotton expressive of her affliction, but it was made almost as short as the skirt of that of the prince of the Bavarian brew-girls. She had white cotton stockings and a pair of black leather boots, with leather buttons, and for a lady, prodigiously thick soles, which reminded me of the navy boots I had so often admired in punch. I must add that the hands with which she assisted her scrutiny of my dress, though pretty, were very much sunburnt indeed. And what's her name? she demanded, nodding to Mary Quince, who was gazing on her awfully, with round eyes, as an inland spinster might, upon a wail, beheld for the first time. Mary curts it, and I answered. Mary Quince, she repeated. You're welcome, Quince. What shall I call her? I have a name for all of them. Old Giles there is Giblitz. He did not like it at first, but he answers quick enough now, and old Lucy Wyatt there, nodding towards the old woman, is Lucia de Lamour. A slightly erroneous reading of Lamour Moore, for my cousin sometimes made mistakes, and was not much versed in the Italian opera. You know it's a play, and I call her Lamour for shortness. And she laughed hilariously, and I could not forbear joining. And winking at me, she called aloud Lamour, to which the crone, with a high-called cap, resembling Mother Hubbard, responded with a curtsy and yassum. Are all the trunks and boxes took up? They were. Well, we'll come now, and what shall I call you, Quince? Let me see. According to your pleasure, Miss, answered Mary, with dignity, and a dry curtsy. Why, you're as hoarse as a frog, Quince. We'll call you Quincy, for the present. That'll do. Come along, Quincy. So my cousin Millie took me under the arm, and pulled me forward. But as we ascended, she let me go, leaning back to making inspection of my attire from a new point of view. Hello, cousin, she cried, giving my dress a smack with her open hand. What a plagued you want of all that bustle. You'll leave it behind last the first, but you jump over. I was a good deal astounded. I was also very near laughing. For there was a sort of importance in her plump countenance, and an indescribable grotesqueness in the fashion of her garments, which heightened the outlandishness of her talk, in a way which I cannot at all describe. What palatial wide stares those were, which we ascended, with their prodigious carved banisters of oak, and each huge pillar on the landing-place crowned with a shield and carved heraldic supporters. Florid oak panelling covered the walls, but of the house I could form no estimate, for Uncle Silas's housekeeping did not provide light for haul and passages, and we were dependent on the glimmer of a single candle. But there would be quite enough of this kind of exploration in the daylight. So along dark oak flooring we advanced to my room, and I had now an opportunity of admiring at my leisure the lordly proportions of the building. Two great windows with dark and tarnished curtains rose high as high again, as the windows of knoll, and yet knoll in its own style is a fine house. The door frames, like the window frames, were richly carved. The fireplace was in the same massive style, and the mantelpiece projected with a mass of very rich carving. On the whole I was surprised, I had never slept in so noble a room before. The furniture I must confess was by no means on a par with the architectural pretensions of the apartment. A French bed, a piece of carpet about three yards square, a small table, two chairs, a toilet table, no wardrobe, a chest of drawers. The furniture painted white and of the light and diminutive kind was particularly ill adapted to the scale and style of the apartment, one end only of which it occupied, and that but sparsely, leaving the rest of the chamber in the nakedness of a stately desolation. My cousin Millie ran away to report progress to the governor, as she termed Uncle Silas. Well, Miss Maud, I never did expect to see the like of that, exclaimed Honest Mary Quince. Did you ever see such a young lady? She's no more like one of the family than I am. Look, bless us, and what she dressed like. Well, well, well. And Mary, with a roof or shake of her head, clipped her tongue pathetically to the back of her teeth, while I could not forbear laughing. And such a scrap of furniture. Well, well, well. And the same ticking of the tongue followed. But in a few minutes back came cousin Millie, and with a barbarous sort of curiosity, assisted in unpacking my trunks and stowing away the treasures, on which she ventured a variety of admiring criticisms, in the presses which, like cupboards, filled recesses in the walls, with great oak doors, the keys of which were in them. As I was making my hurried toilet, she entertained me now and then with more strictly personal criticisms. Your hair's a shade darker than mine, and it's none the better of that, though, is it? Mine said to be the right shade. I don't know. What do you say? I conceded the point with a good grace. I wish my hands was as white, though. You do lick me there, but it's all gloves, and I never could abide them. I think I'll try, though. They are very white, sure. Wonder which is the prettiest, you or me? I don't know, I'm sure. Which do you think? I laughed outright at this challenge, and she blushed a little, and for the first time seemed for a moment a little shy. Well, you are half an inch longer than me, I think, don't you? I was fully an inch taller, so I had no difficulty in making the proposed admission. Well, you do look handsome. Doesn't she, Quincy lass? But your frock comes down almost to your heels, it does. And she glanced from mine to hers and made a little kick-up with the heel of the naviboot to assist her in measuring the comparative distance. Maybe mines are thought too short, she suggested. Who's there? Oh, it's you, is it? She cried as Mother Hubbard appeared at the door. Come in, Lamor. Don't you know, last year, always welcome. She had come to let us know that Uncle Silas would be happy to see me whenever I was ready, and that my cousin Millicent would conduct me to the room where he awaited me. In an instant all the comic sensations awakened by my singular cousin's eccentricities vanished, and I was thrilled with awe. I was about to see in the flesh, faded, broken, aged, but still identical, that being who had been the vision and the problem of so many years of my short life. End of Chapter 31 Chapter 32 of Uncle Silas by Joseph Sheridan Lafannou This Librivox recording is in the public domain. Chapter 32 Uncle Silas I thought my odd cousin was also impressed with a kind of awe, though different in degree from mine, for a shade overcast her face and she was silent as we walked side by side along the gallery, accompanied by the crone who carried the candle which lighted us to the door of that apartment which I may call Uncle Silas's presence chamber. Millie whispered to me as we approached, mind how you make a noise, the governor's as sharp as a weasel, and nothing vexes him like that. She was herself toppling along on tiptoe. We paused at a door near the head of the great staircase, and Lamoul knocked timidly with her rheumatic knuckles. A voice clear and penetrating from within summoned us to enter. The old woman opened the door, and the next moment I was in the presence of Uncle Silas. At the far end of a handsome, wainscotted room, near the half in which a low fire was burning, beside a small table on which stood four wax lights, in tall silver candlesticks, set a singular looking old man. The dark wainscotting behind him and the vastness of the room in the remote parts of which the light which fell strongly upon his face and figure expended itself with hardly any effect, exhibited him with the forcible and strange relief of a finely painted Dutch portrait. For some time I saw nothing but him. A face like marble with a fearful monumental look, and for an old man singularly vivid strange eyes, the singularity of which rather grew upon me as I looked. For his eyebrows were still black, though his hair descended from his temples in long locks of the purest silver and finest silk, nearly to his shoulders. He rose tall and slight, a little stooped, all in black, with an ample black velvet tunic, which was rather a gown and a coat, with loose sleeves, showing his snowy shirt some way up the arm, and a pair of wrist buttons, then quite out of fashion, which glimmered aristocratically with diamonds. I know I can't convey in words an idea of this apparition, drawn as it seemed in black and white, venerable, bloodless, fiery-eyed, with its singular look of power and an expression so bewildering, was it derision, or anguish, or cruelty, or patience? The wild eyes of this strange old man were fixed upon me as he rose, and habitual contraction, which in certain lights took the character of a scowl, did not relax as he advanced toward me with his thin-lipped smile. He said something in his clear, gentle, but cold voice, the import of which I was too much agitated to catch, and he took both my hands in his, welcomed me with a courtly grace which belonged to another age, and led me affectionately, with many inquiries which I only half-comprehended, to a chair near his own. I need not introduce my daughter, she has saved me that mortification. You'll find her, I believe, good-natured and affectionate. Well rest, I fear a very rustic Miranda, and fitted rather for the society of Caliban, than of a sick old Prospero. Is it not so, Millicent? The old man pours sarcastically for an answer, with his eyes fixed severely on my odd cousin, who blushed and looked uneasily, to me for a hint. I don't know who they be, neither one nor t'other. Very good, my dear, he replied, with a little mocking-bowl. You see, my dear Maude, what a Shakespearean you have got for a cousin. It's plain, however, she has made acquaintance with some of our dramatists. She has studied the role of Miss Hoidon so perfectly. It was not a reasonable peculiarity of my uncle that he resented. With a good deal of playful acrimony, my poor cousin's want of education, for which, if he were not to blame, certainly neither was she. You see, her poor thing, a result of all the combined disadvantages of want of refined education, refined companionship, and I fear, naturally, of refined tastes. But a sojourn at a good French conventional school will do wonders, and I hope to manage by and by. In the meantime, we jest at our Miss Fortune's and love one another, I hope, cordially. He extended his thin, white hand with a chilly smile towards Millie, who bounced up and took it with a frightened look. And he repeated, holding her hand rather slightly, I thought. Yes, I hope, very cordially. And then turning again to me, he put it over the arm of his chair, and let it go, as a man might drop something he did not want from a carriage window. Having made this apology for poor Millie, who was plainly bewildered, he passed on, to her and my relief, to other topics, every now and then expressing his fears that I was fatigued, and his anxiety that I should partake of some supper or tea. But these solicitudes somehow seemed to escape his remembrance almost as soon as uttered, and he maintained the conversation which soon degenerated into a close, and to me a painful examination, respecting my dear father's illness and its symptoms, upon which I could give no information, and his habits upon which I could. Perhaps he fancied that there might be some family predisposition to the organic disease of which his brother died, and that his questions were directed rather to the prolonging of his own life than to the better understanding of my dear father's death. How little was there left to this old man to make life desirable, and yet how keenly I afterwards found he clung to it. Have we not all of us seen those to whom life was not only undesirable, but positively painful, a mere series of bodily torments, yet hold to it with a desperate and pitiable tenacity? Old children or young, it is all the same. See how a sleepy child will put off the inevitable departure for bed. The little creature's eyes blink and stare, and it needs constant jogging to prevent his nodding off into the slumber which nature craves. His waking is a pain, he is quite worn out and peevish and stupid, and yet he implores a respite and deprecates repose, and vows he is not sleepy, even to the moment when his mother takes him in her arms and carries him in a sweet slumber to the nursery. So it is with us old children of earth, and the great sleep of death, and nature our kind mother. Just so reluctantly we part with consciousness, the picture is even to the last so interesting. The bird in the hand, though sick and malting, so estimably better than all the brilliant tenants of the bush. We sit up yawning and blinking and stupid, the whole scene swimming before us, and the stories and music humming off into the sound of distant winds and waters. It is not time yet, we are not fatigued, we are good for another hour still, and so protesting against bed we falter and drop into the dreamless sleep which nature assigns to fatigue and satiety. He then spoke a little eulogy of his brother, very polished and, indeed in a kind of way, eloquent. He possessed in a high degree that accomplishment too little cultivated, I think, by the present generation, of expressing himself with perfect precision and fluency. There was, too, a good deal of slight illustrative quotation, and a sprinkling of French flowers over his conversation, which gave to it a character at once elegant and artificial. It was all easy, light, and pointed, and being quite new to me had a wonderful fascination. He then told me that Bartram was the temple of liberty, that the health of a whole life was founded in a few years of youth, air, and exercise, and that accomplishments at least, if not education, should wait upon health. Therefore, while at Bartram, I should dispose of my time quite as I pleased, and the more I plundered the garden and gypsied in the woodlands, the better. Then he told me what a miserable invalid he was, and how the doctors interfered with his frugal tastes. A glass of beer and a mutton chop, his ideal of a dinner, he dared not touch. They made him drink light wines which he detested, and live upon those artificial abominations all liking for which vanishes with youth. They stood on a side table in its silver coaster, a long-naked, rinish bottle, and beside it a thin pink glass, and he quivered his fingers in a peevish way toward them. But unless he found himself better very soon, he would take his case into his very own hands, and try the dietary to which nature pointed. He waved his fingers toward his bookcases and told me his books were altogether at my service during my stay. But this promise ended, I must confess, disappointingly. At last remarking that I must be fatigued, he rose and kissed me with a solemn tenderness, placed his hand upon what I now perceived to be a large Bible, with two broad silk markers, red and gold, folded in it, the one I might conjecture indicating the place in the old, the other in the New Testament. It stood on the small table that supported the wax lights, with a handsome cut bottle of odour cologne, his golden dueled pencil case and his chaste repeater, chain and seals beside it. There certainly were no indications of poverty in Uncle Silas's room, and he said impressively, remember that book, in it your father placed his trust, in it he found his reward, in it lives my only hope, consult it, my beloved niece, day and night, as the oracle of life. Then he laid his thin hand on my head and blessed me, and then kissed my forehead. No, ah! exclaimed cousin Millie's lusty voice. I had quite forgotten her presence, and looked at her with a little start. She was seated on a very high, old-fashioned chair. She had palpably been asleep. Her round eyes were blinking and staring glassily at us, and her white legs and nappy boots were dangling in the air. Have you anything to remark about Noah, inquired her father, with a polite inclination and an ironical interest? No, ah! she repeated in the same blunt access. I didn't snore, did I? No, ah! the old man smiled and shrugged a little at me. It was the smile of disgust. Good night, my dear Maude! And turning to her, he said, with a peculiar gentle sharpness, had not you better wake, my dear, and try whether your cousin would like some supper? So he accompanied us to the door, outside which we found Lamour's candle awaiting us. I'm awful afraid of the governor I am. Did I snore that time? No, dear, at least I did not hear it, I said, unable to repress a smile. Well, if I didn't, I was awful near it, she said, reflectively. We found poor Mary Quince dozing over the fire, but we soon had tea and other good things, of which Millie Parr took with a wonderful appetite. I was in a qualm about it, said Millie, who by this time was quite herself again. When he spies me a napping, maybe he don't fetch me a prod with his pencil case over the head. Odd girl, it is sore! When I contrasted the refined and fluent old gentleman whom I had just left, with this amazing specimen of young ladyhood, I grew sceptical almost as to the possibility of her being his child. I was to learn, however, how little she had, I won't say of his society, but even of his presence, she had no domestic companion of the least pretensions to education. That she ran wild about the place, never except in church, so much as I saw a person of that rank to which she was born, and that the little she knew of reading and writing had been picked up in desultory half-hours from a person who did not care a pin about her manners or decorum, and perhaps rather enjoyed her grotesqueness, and that no one who was willing to take the least trouble about her was competent to make her a particle more refined than I saw her, the wonder ceased. We don't know how little is heritable, and how much simply training, until we encounter some such spectacle as that of my poor cousin Millie. When I lay down in my bed and reviewed the day, it seemed like a month of wonders. Uncle Silas was always before me, the voice so silvery for an old man, so preternaturally soft, the manners so sweet, so gentle, the aspect smiling, suffering, spectral. It was no longer a shadow, I had now seen him in the flesh. But after all, was he more than a shadow to me? When I closed my eyes I saw him before me still, in necromantic black, ashy with a pallor on which I looked with fear and pain, a face so dazzlingly pale, and those hollow, fiery, awful eyes. It sometimes seemed as if the curtain opened and I had seen a ghost. I had seen him, but he was still an enigma and a marvel. The living face did not expound the past any more than the portrait portended the future. He was still a mystery and a vision, and thinking of these things I fell asleep. Mary Quince, who slept in the dressing room, the door of which was close to my bed, and lay open to secure me against ghosts, called me up, and the moment I knew where I was, I jumped up and peeped eagerly from the window. It commanded the avenue and courtyard, but we were many windows removed from that over the hall door, and immediately beneath ours lay the two giant lime trees, prostrate and uprooted, which I had observed as we drove up the night before. I saw more clearly in the bright light of morning the signs of neglect and almost of dilapidation, which had struck me as I approached. The courtyard was tufted over with grass, seldom from year to year crushed by the carriage-wheels or trodden by the feet of visitors. This melancholy verdure thickened where the area was more remote from the centre, and under the windows and skirting the wards to the left was reinforced by a thick grove of nettles. The avenue was all grass-grown except in the very centre, where a narrow track still showed the roadway. The handsome carved balustrade of the courtyard was discoloured with lichens, and in two places gapped and broken, and the air of decay was heightened by the fallen trees, among whose sprays and yellow leaves the small birds were hopping. Before my toilet was completed, in marched my cousin Millie. We were to breakfast alone that morning, and so much the better, she told me. Sometimes the Governor ordered her to breakfast with him, and never left off chafing her, till his newspaper came, and sometimes he said such things he made her cry. And then he only boshed her more and packed her away to her room. But she was by chalks nicer than him, talk as he might. Was not she nicer? Was not she? Was not she? Upon this point she was so strong and urgent that I was obliged to reply by a protest against awarding the palm of elegance between parent and child, and declaring I liked her very much, which I attested by a kiss. I know right well which of us you do think so nice is, and no mistake, only you're afraid of him, and he had no business boshing me last night before you. I knew he was at it, though I couldn't tweak him altogether, but wasn't he a sneak now, wasn't he? This was a still more awkward question, so I kissed her again, and said she must never ask me to say of my uncle in his absence anything I could not say to his face. At which speech she stared at me for a while, and then treated me to one of her hearty laughs, after which she seemed happier, and gradually grew into better humour with her father. Sometimes when the curate calls he has me up, for he's as religious as six he is, and they read Bible and praise, oh, don't they? You'll have that laugh like me to go through, and maybe I don't hate it, oh no! We breakfasted in a small room, almost the closet, of the great parlour, which was evidently quite disused. Nothing could be homier than our équipage, or more shabby than the furniture of the little apartment. Still somehow I liked it. It was a total change, but no one likes roughing it a little at first. CHAPTER XXXIII THE WIND MILWOOD I had not time to explore this noble old house as my curiosity prompted, for Millie was in such a fuss to set out for the Blackberrydale that I saw little more than just so much as I necessarily traversed, in making my way to and from my room. The actual decay of the house had been prevented by my dear father, and the roof, windows, masonry and carpentry had all been kept in repair. But short of indications of actual ruin there are many manifestations of poverty and neglect which impress with the feeling of desolation. It was plain that not nearly a tithe of this great house was inhabited, long corridors and galleries stretched away in dust and silence, and were crossed by others whose dark arches inspired me in the distance with an awful sort of sadness. It was plainly one of those great structures in which you might easily lose yourself, and with a pleasing terror it reminded me of that delightful old abbey in Mrs Radcliffe's romance, among whose silenced staircases, dim passages and long suites of lordly but forsaken chambers, begirt without by the somber forest the family of Lamotte secured a gloomy asylum. My cousin Millie and I, however, were bent upon an open air ramble, and traversing several passages she conducted me to adore, which led us out upon a terrace overgrown with weeds, and by a broad flight of steps we descended to that level of the grounds beneath. Then on, over the short grass under the noble trees we walked, Millie in high good humour, and talking away voluably in her short garment, navi-boots, and a weather-beaten hat, she carried a stick in her gloveless hand. Her conversation was quite new to me, and resembled very much what I would have fancied the holiday recollections of a schoolboy, and the language in which it was sustained was sometimes so outlandish that I was forced to laugh out right, a demonstration which she plainly did not like. Her talk was about the great jump she had made, how she snowballed the chaps in winter, how she could slide twice the length of her stick beyond bridles the cowboy. With this and similar conversation she entertained me. The grounds were delightfully wild and neglected, but we had now passed into a vast park beautifully varied with hollows and uplands, and such glorious old timber massed and scattered over its slopes and levels. Among these we got at last into a picturesque dingle, the grey rocks peaked from among the ferns and wildflowers, and the steps of soft sward along its side were dark in the shadows of silver-stemmed birch and russet thorn and oak, under which in the vaporous night the earl-king and his daughter might glide on their aerial horses. In the lap of this pleasant dull, were the finest blackberry bushes I think I ever saw, bearing fruit quite fabulous, and plucking knees and chatting we rambled on very pleasantly. I had first thought of Millie's absurdities, to which, in description, I cannot do justice, simply because so many details have, by distance of time, escaped my recollection. But her ways and her talk were so indescribably grotesque, that she made me again and again quiver with suppressed laughter. But there was a pitiable, and even a melancholy meaning underlying the burlesque. This creature, with no more education than a dairymaid, I gradually discovered had fine natural aptitudes for accomplishment, a very sweet voice, and wonderfully delicate ear, and a talent for drawing which quite threw mine into the shade. It was really astonishing. Poor Millie, in all her life, had never read three books and hated to think of them. One, over which she was want to yawn and sigh, and stare fatiguedly for an hour every Sunday, by command of the Governor, was a stout volume of sermons of the earlier school of George III, and a drier collection you can't fancy. I don't think she read anything else, but she had not withstanding ten times the cleverness of half the circulating library misses one meets with. Besides all this, I had a long sojourn before me at Bartram Howe, and I had learned from Millie, as I had heard before, what a perennial solitude it was, with a ludicrous fear of learning Millie's preposterous dialect, and turning at last into something like her. So I resolved to do all I could for her, teach her whatever I knew, if she would allow me, and gradually, if possible, effect some civilising changes in her language, and, as they term it in boarding school, her demeanour. But I must pursue at present our first day's ramble in what was called Bartram Chase. People can't go on eating blackberries always, so after a while we resumed our walk along this pretty dale, which gradually expanded into a wooded valley, level beneath and enclosed by irregular uplands, receding, as it were, in mimic bays and harbours at some points, and running out at others into broken promontries, ending in clumps of forest trees. Just where the glen which we had been traversing expanded into this broad but wooded valley, it was traversed by a high and close pailing, which, although it looked decayed, was still very strong. In this there was a wooden gate, rudely but strongly constructed, and at the side we were approaching stood a girl who was leaning against the post with one arm resting on the top of the gate. This girl was neither tall nor short, taller than she looked at a distance. She had not a slight waist. Sooty black was her hair, with a broad forehead, perpendicular but low. She had a pair of very fine, dark, lustrous eyes and no other good feature, unless I may so call her teeth, which were very white and even. Her face was rather short and swarthy as a gypsies, observant and sullen too, and she did not move, only eyed us negligently from under her dark lashes as we drew near. Altogether a not unpicturethed figure with a dusky red petticoat of joggett and tattered jacket of bottle-green stuff with short sleeves which showed her brown arms from the elbow. That's Pegtop's daughter, said Millie. Who is Pegtop? I asked. He's the miller, see, yonder it is, and she pointed to a very pretty feature in the landscape, a windmill crowning the summit of a hillock which rose suddenly above the level of the treetops like an island in the centre of the valley. The mill not going today, beauty, bawled Millie. Noa, beauty, it banked, replied the girl, louringly and without stirring. And what's gone with the style, demanded Millie aghast, is tore away from the pailing. Well, so it be, replied the wood nymph in the red petticoat showing her fine teeth with a lazy grin. Who's have been and done all that, demanded Millie? Not you, nor me, lass, said the girl. It was old Pegtop, your father did it, cried Millie, in rising wrath. Up and it wore, she replied, and the gate locked. That's it, the gate locked, she repeated, sulkily, with a defiant side glance at Millie. And where's Pegtop? Back to the side somewhere. How should I know where he be? She replied. Who's got the key? Here it be, lass, she answered striking her hand on her pocket. And how dost you stay us here? Unlock it, has he this minute, cried Millie, with a stamp. Her answer was a sullen smile. Open the gate this instant, bald Millie. Well, I won't. I expected that Millie would have flown into a frenzy at this direct defiance, but she looked instead puzzled and curious. The girl's unexpected audacity bewildered her. Why, you fool, I could get over the pailing as soon as look at you, but I won't. What's come over you? Open the gate, I say, or I'll make you. Do let her alone, dear, I entreated, fearing a mutual assault. She has been ordered, maybe, not to open it. Is it so, my good girl? Well, that's not the biggest fool of the two, she observed commendatively. That's it, it lass. And who ordered you? exclaimed Millie. Further? Oh, pegtop, what that summer to laugh at it is. Our servant are shutting us out of our own grounds. No servant to yawn. Come, lass, what do you mean? He be old Silas's miller, and what's that to thee? With these words the girl made a spring on the house of the padlock, and then got easily over the gate. Can't you do that, cousin? whispered Millie to me, with an impatient nudge. I wish you'd try. No, dear, come away, Millie, and I began to withdraw. Look, ye lass, till be an ill-day work for thee when I tell the governor, said Millie, addressing the girl, who stood on a log of timber at the other side, regarding us with a sullen composure. We'll be over in spite of you, cried Millie. You lie, answered she. And why not, has he? demanded my cousin, who was less incensed at the affront than I expected. All this time I was urging Millie in vain to come away. Yon lass is no wildcat like thee, that's why, said the sturdy fortress. If I cross, I'll give you a knock, said Millie, and I'll giddie another, she answered, with a vicious wag of the head. Come, Millie, I'll go if you don't. I said, but we must not be beat, whispered she vehemently, catching my arm, and ye shall get over it, and see what I will gear. I'll not get over. Then I'll break the door, for ye shall come through, exclaimed Millie, kicking the stout, pailing with her ponderous boot. Purr it, purr it, purr it, cried the lass in the red petticoat with a grin. Do you know who this lady is? cried Millie, suddenly. She's a prettier lass than now, answered Beauty. She's my cousin Maude, Miss Ruffin of Knoll, and she's a deal richer than the Queen, and the Governor's taking care of her, and he'll make ol' peg-top bring you to reason. The girl eyed me with a sulky listlessness, a little inquisitively, I thought. See if ye don't, threatened Millie. You positively must come, I said, drawing her away with me. Well shall we come in? cried Millie, trying her last summons. You'll not come in that much, she answered sirlily, measuring an infantisimal distance on her finger with her thumb, which she pinched against it, the gesture ending with a snap of defiance, and a smile that showed her fine teeth. I've a mind to shy a stone at you, shouted Millie. Fair away, I'll shy with you as long as you like, lass. Take heed ye yourself, and beauty picked up around stone as large as a cricket-ball. With difficulty I got Millie away without an exchange of missiles, and much disgusted at my want of zeal and agility. Well, come along, cousin, I know an easy way by the river when it's low, answered Millie, she's a brute, is not she? As we receded we saw the girl slowly wending her way towards the old, thatched cottage, which showed its gable from the side of a little rugged eminence, emboured in spreading trees, and dangling and twirling from its string on the end of her finger, the key for which the battle had so nearly been fought. The stream was low enough to make our flank movement round the end of the pailing next it, quite easy, and so we pursued our way, and Millie's equanimity returned, and our ramble grew very pleasant again. Our path lay by the river bank, and as we proceeded the dwarf timber was succeeded by grander trees, which crowded closer and taller, and at last the scenery deepened into solemn forest, and a sudden sweep in the river revealed the beautiful ruin of a steep old bridge, with the fragments of a gatehouse on the farther side. Oh, Millie, darling, I exclaimed, what a beautiful drawing this would make! I should so like to make a sketch of it! So it would! Make a picture, do! Here's a stone that's pure and flat to sit upon, and you look very tired. Do make it, and I'll sit by you. Yes, Millie, I am tired a little, and I will sit down, but we must wait for another day to make the picture, for we have neither pencil nor paper. But it is much too pretty to be lost, so let us come again to-morrow. Tomorrow be hanged, you'll do it today, bury me wick, but choose shall. I'm wearying to see you make a picture, and I'll fetch your conundrums out of your drawer, for do it, choose shall. She vowed that by crossing the stepping-stones close by, she could, by a short cut, reach the house, and return with my pencils and block-book in a quarter of an hour. Away then, with many a jump and fling, scampered Millie's queer white stockings and navi-boots, across the irregular and precarious stepping-stones, over which I dared not follow her. So I was feigned to return to the stone, so pure and flat, on which I sat, enjoying the grand silvan solitude, the dark background, and the grey bridge midway, so tall and slim, across whose ruins a sun-beam glimmered, and the gigantic forest trees that slumbered round, opening here and there in dusky vistas, and breaking in front into detached and solemn groups. It was the setting of a dream of romance. It would have been a very spot in which to read a volume of German folklore, and the darkening colonnades and silent nooks of the forest seemed already haunted with the voices and shadows of those charming elves and goblins. As I sat here enjoying the solitude and my fancies, among the low branches of the wood, at my right I heard a crashing, and saw a squat-broad figure in a stained and tattered military coat, and loose, short trousers, one limb of which flapped about a wooden leg. He was forcing himself through. His face was rugged and wrinkled, and tanned to the tint of old oak. His eyes black, bead-like and fierce, and a shock of sooty hair escaped from under his battered wide awake, nearly to his shoulders. This forbidding-looking person came stumping and jerking along toward me, whisking his stick now and then viciously in the air, and giving his fellow hair a short shake, like a wild bull preparing to attack. I stood up involuntarily with a sense of fear and surprise, almost fancying I saw in that wooden-legged old soldier, the forest demon who haunted, dare fry shoots. So he approached, shouting, �Hello, you! How came you here?� to say? And he drew near, panting, and sometimes tugging angrily in his haste at his wooden leg, which sunk now and then deeper than was convenient in the sod. This exertion helped to anger him, and when he halted before me, his dark face smirched with smoke and dust, and the nostrils of his flat, drooping nose expanded and quivered as he panted, like the gills of a fish, an angrier or uglier face it would not be easy to fancy. �You'll all come when you like, will you? And in and out, but what pleases yourself, won't you? And hope thou, thus, dear, who are ye, I say? And what the deal see in the woods here? Come, be sturdy!� If his wide mouth and great tobacco-stained tea, his scowl and loud discordant tones were intimidating, they were also extremely irritating. The moment my spirit was roused, my courage came. �I am Miss Ruffin of Knoll, and Mr. Silas Ruffin, your master, is my uncle. �Oh!� he exclaimed more gently, �And if Silas be thy uncle, thou dost become to live with him, and thou she has come overnight, eh?� I made no answer, but I believe I looked both angrily and disdainfully. �And what make ye alone here, and how was I to note?� �And merely not we, and on no one?� But moored or no moored, I wouldn't let the dookie's self set foot inside the pale in without Silas said let him. �And you may tell Silas, then, the words of Dickon Hawks, and I'll stick to him. And what's more, I'll tell him myself, I will. I'll tell him there be no use of my striving and straining he, day and night and night and day, watching again poachers and thieves and gypsies and they robbing lads, if rules won't be kept, and folk do just as they please is. �Dang it lasts out in luck, I didn't have a brick at thee when I saw thee first!� �I'll complain of you to my uncle� I replied. �So do, and dand up, and you'll find ourself in the wrong box, Lass. Thou canst not say I'd set the docks after thee, nor couldst thee so much as thy right name, nor heave a stone at thee, did I?� �Well, where's the complaint, then?� I simply answered rather fiercely, �Be good enough to leave me!� Well, I make no objections, mind, I'm taking thy word, that moored ruffin. Appen thou, beast, and appen thou, bent, I'm not a wearant, but I take thy word, and all I want to know, just this, did Meg open the gate to thee. �I made him no answer, and to my great relief I saw Millie striding and skipping across the unequal stepping-stones. �Hello, pegged-top! What are you after now?� she cried as she drew near. �This man has been extremely impertinent. You know him, Millie?� I said. �Well, that's pegged-top, Dickon, dirty old hawks that never was washed. I tell you, lad, you'll see what the governor thinks, so he'll talk to you. �I done have said nowt, not but I should, and there's the fact, she can't deny it. She hadn't a hard word for me, and I don't care the top of that thistle, what no one says, nor I. But I tell thee, Millie, I stopped some of thy pranks, and I'll stop more. You'll be shy in no more stones at the cattle. �Tell your tales, and welcome� cried Millie. �I wish I was here when you draw cousin. If Winnie was here, she'd catch you by the timber-toe, and put you on your back. She'll be a good one, yet if she takes out the vee, retorted the old man with a fierce sneer. Drop it and get away, wee� she cried, or maybe I'll call Winnie to smash her timber leg for you. �Aha, there's Morant. She's a sweet one, isn't she?� he replied sardonically. �You did not like it last Easter when Winnie broke it with a kick. It was a kicker-horse,� he growled with a glance at me. It was no such thing to as Winnie did it. And he laid on his back for a week, while Carpenter made him a new one, and Millie laughed hilariously. �I'll fall no more, are ye losing my time, I won't. But mind ye, I'll speak with Silas. And going away he put his hand on his crumpled wide awake, and said to me with a surly difference, �Good evening, Miss Raffin, good evening, Mom.� �And you'll please remember I did not mean out to vex thee.� And so he swaggered away, jerking and waddling over the sword, and was soon lost in the wood. �It's well, he's a little bit frightened. I never saw him so angry, I think. He is awful mad. Perhaps he really is not aware how very rude he is, I suggested. I hate him. We were twice as pleasant with poor Tom Driver. He never meddled with any one, and was always in liquor. �Oh, gin was the name he went by. But this brute, I do hate him. He comes from Wigan, I think. And he's always spoiling sport. And he wops Meg, that's beauty, you know. And I don't think she'd be half as bad only for him. Listen to him whistling. I did hear whistling at some distance among the trees. I declare if he isn't calling the dogs. Climb up here, I tell ye. And we climbed up the slanting trunk of a great walnut tree, and strained our eyes in a direction from which we expected the onset of Pegtop's vicious pack. But it was a false alarm. Well, I don't think he would do that, after all, hardly. But he is a brute, sure. And that dark girl who would not let us through, is his daughter, is she? Yes, that's Meg, beauty, I christened her, when I called him Beast. But I call him Pegtop now, and she's beauty still, and that's the way it. Come, sit down and make your picture, she resumed, as soon as we had dismounted from our position of security. �I'm afraid I'm hardly in the vein. I don't think I could draw a straight line, my hand trembles. I wish you could, Maude,' said Millie, with a look so wistful and entreating, that considering the excursion she had made for the pencils, I could not bear to disappoint her. Well, Millie, we must only try, and if we fail, we can't help it. Sit you down beside me, and I'll tell you why I begin with one part and not another, and you'll see how I make trees and the river. And yes, that pencil, it is hard, and answers for the fine light lines, but we must begin at the beginning and learn to copy drawings before we attempt real views like this. And if you wish it, Millie, I'm resolved to teach you everything I know, which, after all, is not a great deal, and we shall have such fun making sketches of the same landscapes and then comparing. And so on, Millie, quite delighted, and longing to begin her course of instruction, sat down beside me in a rapture, and hugged and kissed me so heartily, that we were very near rolling together off the stone on which we were seated. Her boisterous delight in good nature helped to restore me, and both laughing heartily together, I commenced my task. Dear me, who's that? I exclaimed suddenly, as looking up from my block-book, I saw the figure of a slight man in the careless morning-dress of a gentleman, crossing the ruinous bridge in our direction, with considerable caution upon the precarious footing of the battlement, which alone offered an unbroken passage. This was a day of apparitions. Millie recognized him instantly. The gentleman was Mr. Carriesbroke. He had taken the Grange only for a year. He lived quite to himself, and was very good to the poor, and was the only gentleman for ever so long, who had visited at Bartram, and oddly enough nowhere else, but he wanted leave to cross through the grounds, and having obtained it, had repeated his visit, partly induced no doubt by the fact that Bartram boasted no hospitalities, and that there was no risk of meeting the county folk there. With a south walking stick in his hand, and a short shooting coat, and a wide awake hat in much better trim than Zameel's, he emerged from the cops that covered the bridge, walking at a quick but easy pace. He'll be going to see old Snottle's, I guess, said Millie, looking a little frightened and curious. For Millie, I need not say, was a bumpkin, and stood in awe of this gentleman's good breeding, though she was as brave as a lion, and would have fought the Philistines at any odds with the jawbone of an ass. Apony won't see ass, whispered Millie, hopefully. But he did, and raising his hat with a cheerful smile that showed very white teeth he paused. Charming day, Miss Ruffin! I raised my head suddenly as he spoke, from habit appropriating the address. It was so marked that he raised his hat respectfully to me, and then continued to Millie, Mr Ruffin, I hope quite well, but I need hardly ask, you seem so happy. Will you kindly tell him that I expect the book I mentioned in a day or two, and when it comes, I'll either send or bring it to him immediately? Millie and I were standing by this time, but she only stared at him, tongue-tied, her cheeks rather flushed, and her eyes very round, and to facilitate the dialogue, as I suppose, he said again, he's quite well, I hope. Still no response from Millie, and I, provoked, though myself a little shy, made answer, my uncle, Mr Ruffin, is very well, thank you, and I felt that I blushed as I spoke. Ah, pray excuse me, may I take a great liberty? You are Miss Ruffin of Noel? Will you think me very impertinent, I'm afraid you will, if I venture to introduce myself? My name is Karisbroke, and I had the honour of knowing poor Mr Ruffin when I was quite a little boy, and he has shown a kindness for me since, and I hope you will pardon the liberty I fear I have taken. I think my friend Lady Nollis, too, is a relation of yours. What a charming person she is. Oh, is not she such a darling, I said, and then blushed at my outspoken affection. But he smiled kindly, as if he liked me for it, and he said, You know whatever I think, I dare not quite say that, but frankly I can quite understand it. She preserves her youth so wonderfully, and her fun and her good nature are so entirely girlish. What a sweet view you have selected. He continued, changing all at once. I've stood just at this point so often to look back at that exquisite old bridge. Do you observe, you're an artist, I see, something very peculiar in that tint of the grey, with those odd cross stains of faded red and yellow? I do indeed. I was just remarking the peculiar beauty of the colouring. Was I not, Millie? Millie just stared at me, and uttered an alarmed, Yes, and looked as if she had been caught in a robbery. Yes, and you have so very peculiar a background, he resumed. It was better before the storm, though, but it is very good still. Then a little pause, and do you know this country at all, rather suddenly? No, not in the least. That is, I've only had the drive to this place, but what I did see interested me very much. You'll be charmed with it when you know it better. The very place for an artist. I'm a wretched scribbler myself, and I carry this little book in my pocket. And he laughed deprecatingly while he drew for a thin fishing book, as it looked. They are mere memoranda, you see. I walk so much and come unexpectedly on such pretty nooks and studies. I just try to make a note of them. But it is really more writing than sketching. My sister says it is a cipher which nobody but myself understands. However, I'll try and explain just to, because you really ought to go and see the places. Oh, no, not that, he laughed, as accidentally the page blew over. That's the cut and fiddle, a curious little pot-house, where they gave me some very good ale one day. Millie at this exhibited some uneasy tokens of being about to speak. But not knowing what might be coming, I hastened to observe on the spirited little sketches, to which he meant to draw my attention. I wanted to show you only the places within easy reach, a short ride or drive. So he proceeded to turn over two or three, in addition to the two he had first proposed, and then another. Then a little sketch just tinted, and really quite a charming little gem, of Cousin Monica's pretty gabled old house, and every subject had its little criticism or its narrative or adventure. As he was returning this little sketchbook to his pocket, still chatting to me, he suddenly recollected poor Millie who was looking rather lowering. But she brightened a good deal as he presented it to her, with a little speech which she palpably misunderstood, for she made one of her old curses, and was about, I thought, to put it in her large pocket and accept it as a present. Look at the drawings, Millie, and then return it, I whispered. At his request, I allowed him to look at my unfinished sketch of the bridge, and while he was measuring distances and proportions with his eye, Millie whispered rather angrily to me, and why should I? Because he wants it back, and only meant to lend it to you, whispered I, lend it to me, and after you, bearing me wick if I look at a leaf of it, she retorted at high dudgeon, take it last, give it to him yourself, I'll not, and she popped it into my hand and made a sulky step back. My cousin is very much obliged, I said, returning the book, and smiling for her, and he took it, smiling also, and said, I think if I had known how very well you draw, Miss Ruffin, I should have hesitated about showing you my poor scrawls. But these are not my best, you know. Lady Nollis will tell you that I can really do better, a great deal better, I think. And then, with more apologies for what he called his impertinence, he took his leave, and I felt altogether very much pleased and flattered. He could not be more than twenty-nine or thirty, I thought, and he was decidedly handsome, that is, his eyes and teeth, and clear brown complexion were, and there was something distinguished and graceful in his figure and gesture, and altogether there was the indescribable attraction of intelligence, and I fancied that this, of course, was a secret, that from the moment he spoke to us he felt an interest in me. I am not going to be vain. It was a grave interest, but still an interest, for I could see him studying my features while I was turning over his sketches, and he thought I saw nothing else. It was flattering, too, his anxiety that I should think well of his drawing, and referring me to Lady Nollis. Carries broke. Had I ever heard my dear father mention the name? I could not recollect it, but then he was habitually so silent, that his not doing so argued nothing. End of Chapter 34 Chapter 35 of Uncle Silas by Joseph Sheridan Lafannou This Librivox recording is in the public domain. Chapter 35 We visit a room in the second story. Mr. Carries broke amused my fancy sufficiently to prevent my observing Millie's silence till we had begun our return homeward. The Grange must be a pretty house, if that little sketch be true. Is it far from this? It will be too mild. Are you vexed, Millie? I ask, for both her tone and looks were angry. Yes, I am vexed, and why not, lass? What has happened? Well, now that is rich. Why, look at that fellow, Carries broke. He took no more notice of me than a dog, and kept talking to you all the time of his pictures, and his walks, and his people. Why, a pig's better manners than that. But, Millie dear, you forget, he tried to talk to you, and you would not answer him, I expostulated. And is not that just what I say? I can't talk like other folks. Ladies, I mean. Everyone laughs at me, and I'm dressed like a show I am. It's a shame. I saw Polly Shives, what a lady she is, my eyes, laughing at me in church last Sunday. I was minded to give her a bit of my mind, and I know I'm queer. It's a shame it is. Why should I be so rum? It is a shame. I don't want to be so, nor it isn't my fault. And poor Millie broke into a flood of tears, and stamped on the ground, and buried her face in her short frock, which she whisked up to her eyes, and an odder figure of grief I never beheld. And I could not make head or tail of what he was saying, cried poor Millie, through her buff cotton, with a stamp, and you twigged every word out. And why am I so? It's a shame, a shame. Oh, it's a shame. But my dear Millie, we were talking of drawing, and you have not learned yet, but you shall. I'll teach you, and then you'll understand all about it. And everyone laughs at me, even you, that you try more, you can scarce keep from laughing sometimes. And don't blame you, for I know I'm queer, but I can't help it, and it's a shame. Well, my dear Millie, listen to me. If you allow me, I assure you, I'll teach you all the music and drawing I know. You have lived very much alone, and as you say, ladies have a way of speaking of their own, that is different from the talk of other people. Yes, that they have, and gentlemen too, like the Governor, and that Carries broke, and a precious lingo it is, dang it, why the devil himself could not understand it, and I'm like a fool among you. I could most drown myself. It's a shame. It is, you know it is. It's a shame. But I'll teach you that lingo too, if you wish it, Millie, and you shall know everything that I know, and I'll manage to have your dresses better made. By this time she was looking very roofily, but attentively, in my face, her round eyes and nose swelled and her cheeks all wet. I think if they were a little longer, yours is longer, you know, and the sentence was interrupted by a sob. Now, Millie, you must not be crying. If you choose, you may be just as the same as any other lady, and you shall, and you will be very much admired, I can tell you. If only you will take the trouble to quite unlearn all your odd words and ways and dress yourself like other people, and I will take care of that, if you let me, and I think you are very clever, Millie, and I know you are very pretty. Poor Millie's blubbered face expanded into a smile in spite of herself, but she shook her head, looking down. No, no, Amore, die, fear, twon't be. And indeed it seemed I had proposed to myself a labour of Hercules. But Millie was really a clever creature, could see quickly, and when her ungainly dialect was mastered, described very pleasantly. And if only she would endure the restraint and possess the industry requisite, I did not despair, and was resolved at least to do my part. Poor Millie, she was really very grateful and entered into the project of her education with great zeal, and with a strange mixture of humility and insubordination. Millie was in favour of again attacking Beauty's position on her return, and forcing a passage from this side. But I insisted on following the route by which we had arrived, and so we got round the pailing by the river, and were treated to a provoking grin of defiance by Beauty, who was talking across the gate to a slim young man, arrayed in a fustion, and with an odd-looking cap of rabbit skin on his head, which, on seeing us, he pulled sheepishly to the side of his face, next to us, as he lounged, with his arm under his chin on the top bar of the gate. After our encounter of today, indeed, it was Miss Beauty's want to exhibit a kind of jeering disdain in her countenance whenever we passed. I think Millie would have engaged her again had I not reminded her of her undertaking, and exerted my new authority. Look at that sneak pegtop there, going up the path to the mill. He makes belief now he does not see us, but he does, though, only he's afraid we'll tell the Governor, and he thinks Governor won't give him his way with you. I hate that pegtop. He stopped me a ride in the cows a year ago, he did. I thought pegtop might have done worse. Indeed, it was plain that a total reformation was needed here, and I was glad to find that poor Millie seemed herself conscious of it, and that her resolution to become more like other people of her station was not a mere spasm of mortification and jealousy, but a genuine and very zealous resolve. I had not half seen this old house of Bertram Howe yet. At first, indeed, I had but an imperfect idea of its extent. There was a range of rooms along one side of the Great Gallery with closed window shutters, and the doors genuinely locked. Old Lamour grew cross when we went into them, although we could see nothing, and Millie was afraid to open the windows. Not that any blue-beard revelations were apprehended, but simply because she knew that Uncle Silas's order was that things should be left undisturbed. And this boisterous spirit stood in awe of him to a degree which his gentle manners and apparent quietude rendered quite surprising. There were in this house what certainly did not exist at null, and what I have never observed, though they may possibly be found in other old houses. I mean, here and there, very high hatches, which we could only peep over by jumping in the air. They crossed the long corridors and Great Galleries, and several of them were turned across and locked, so as to intercept the passage and interrupt our explorations. Millie, however, knew a queer, little, very steep and dark backstair, which reached the upper floor, so she and I mounted and made a long ramble through rooms much lower and rudder in finish than the lordly chambers we had left below. These commanded various views of the beautiful, dough-neglected grounds, but on crossing a gallery we entered suddenly a chamber which looked into a small and dismal quadrangle, formed by the inner walls of this great house, and of course designed only by the architect to afford the needful light and air to portions of the structure. I rubbed the window-pane with my handkerchief and looked out. The surrounding roof was steep and high. The walls looked soiled and dark. The windows lined with dust and dirt, and the window-stones were in places tufted with moss and grass and ground cell. An arched window had opened from the house into this darkened square, but it was soiled and dusty, and the damp weeds that overgrew the quadrangle drooped undisturbed against it. It was plain that human footsteps tracked it little, and I gazed into that blind and sinister area with a strange thrill and sinking. This is the second floor. There is the enclosed courtyard. I, as it were, soliloquized. What are you afraid of, Maud? You look as if you'd seen a ghost, exclaimed Milly, who came to the window and peeped over my shoulder. It reminded me suddenly, Milly, of that frightful business. What business, Maud? What a plague are you thinking on, demanded Milly, rather amused. It was in one of these rooms, maybe this, yes, it certainly was this, for, see, the panelling had been pulled off the wall, that Mr. Charke killed himself. I was staring roofily around the dim chamber in whose corners the shadows of night were already gathering. Charke? What about him? Whose Charke? asked Milly. Why, you must have heard of him, said I. Not as I'm aware on, answered she. And he killed himself, did he, hanged himself there, or blowed his brains out. He cut his throat in one of these rooms. This one, I'm sure, for your papa had the wainscotting stripped from the wall to ascertain whether there was any second door through which a murderer could have come. And you see these walls are stripped and bear the mark of the woodwork that has been removed, I answered. Well, that was awful. I don't know how they had the pluck to cut my throats. If I was doing it, I'd like best to put a pistol to my head in fire, like the young gentleman did, they say, in Dead Man's Hollow. But the fellows that cut their throats, they must be awful game lads, I'm thinking, for it's a long slice, you know. Don't, don't, Milly dear. Suppose we come away, I said, for the evening was deepening rapidly in to-night. Hey, and bury me, Wick, but here's the blood. Don't you see a big black cloud all spread over the floor here about, don't you see? Milly was stooping over the spot and tracing the outline of this, perhaps imaginary mapping, in the air with her finger. No, Milly, you could not see it. The floor is too dark and it's all in shadow. It must be fancy, and perhaps after all, this is not the room. Well, I think, I'm sure it is. San, just look. We'll come in the morning, and if you are right we can see it better then. Come away, I said, growing frightened. And just as we stood up to depart, the white, high-called cap and large-sellow features of Old Lamour peeped in at the door. Look what brings you here, cried Milly, nearly as much startled as I, at the intrusion. What brings you here, miss? whistled Lamour through her gums. We're looking where Chuck cut his throat, replied Milly. Chuck, the devil, said the old woman with an odd mixture of scorn and fury, tis at this room, and come ye out of it, please. Master won't like when he hears how you keep pulling Miss Maud from one room to another, all through the house, up and down. She was grabbing sternly enough, but dropped a low curtsy as I passed her, and with a peeped and nodding stare round the room, the old woman clapped the door sharply and locked it. And who has been talking about Chuck? A pack of lies, I warrant. I suppose you want to frighten Miss Maud here. Another crippled curtsy, with ghosts and like nonsense. You're out there, twas she told me, and much about it. Ghosts indeed, I don't value them, not I. If I did, I know who'd frighten me. And Milly laughed. The old woman stuffed the key in her pocket, and her wrinkled mouth pouted, and receded with a grim uneasiness. Homeless brat and kind she is, but wild, wild. She will be wild. So whispered Lamour in my ear during the silence that followed, nodding shakily toward Milly over the banister, and she curtsied again as we departed and shuffled off toward Uncle Silas's room. The Governor is queerish this evening, said Milly, when we were seated at our tea. You never saw him queerish, did you? You must say what you mean more plainly, Milly. You don't mean ill, I hope. Well, I don't know what it is, but he does grow very queer sometimes. You'd think he was dead almost. Maybe two or three days and nights together, he sits all the time like an old woman in a swooned. Well, well, it is awful. Is he insensible when in that state? I asked a good deal alarmed. I don't know, but it never signifies anything. It won't kill him, I do believe, but old Lamour knows all about it. I hardly ever go into the room when he's so, only when I'm sent for, and he's some time to wake up and takes a fancy to call for this one or that. One day he sent for pegtop all the way to the mill, and when he came he only stared at him for a minute or two and ordered him out of the room. He's like a child almost, when he's in one of them daisies. I always knew when Uncle Silas was queerish, by the injunctions of old Lamour whistled and spluttered over the banister as we came upstairs, to mind how we made a noise passing Master's door, and by the sound of mysterious tuings and froings about his room. I saw very little of him. He sometimes took a whim to have us breakfast with him, which lasted perhaps for a week, and then the order for our living would relapse into its old routine. I must not forget two kind letters from Lady Nollis, who was detained away, and delighted to hear that I enjoyed my quiet life, and promised to apply in person to Uncle Silas for permission to visit me. She was to be for the Christmas at Elverston, and that was only six miles away from Bartram Howe, so I had the excitement of a pleasant look forward. She also said that she would include poor Millie in her invitation, and a vision of Captain Oakley rose before me, with his handsome gaze turned in wonder on poor Millie, for whom I had begun to feel myself responsible. End of chapter 35