 This one comes and we reconnect and we make up for lost times. And for many of us it's an awakening that lasts us for a lifetime. But human being falls into the gifla. This is the nature of human being. We fall into gifla. And if we fall into this heat business, the generosity of Allah is that Ramadan will come back. But will you be here next Ramadan? That's the question. Will I be here next Ramadan? Ramadan will always be here until the end of time. It's a promise of Allah SWT His mercy. But when you are here, when we are here during this month, we should take advantage of it. And that's one of the greatest things that we can do is to rebuild that relationship that we have with Allah SWT, the relationship of this spiritual intimacy with Allah SWT because sometimes you just get distant from yourself and from your Lord. What I wanted to do tonight, I wanted to read a poem and a beautiful poem and do maybe a little translation and commentary on it. And it's written by a Persian spiritual master of contemporary Junaid Mishal Gudi. And here at home that is, I think it's a nice poem to read in Ramadan and talk about it. So for those of you who speak Persian, I think I appreciate it more. But I'll try my best to do a translation and explanation of this. So he says, this is a poem, it's called Monajat. Those who don't know what Monajat is, these are poems that the poet is talking directly to Allah. There is no veil. It's this moment, or we call it the moment of intimacy where veils are lifted and you are uncensored with your Lord. When I think that we're not in a room, he says he needs a grammar in order to have a really good life in this world. If you want to get on the corporate ladder, the better your grammar, the higher you'll get. It's the nature of this dunya. But he said, if you want to get with Allah and get higher on the ladder of God to get closer to Allah, you need the grammar of the hearts. And that's different from the grammar of the language that we learn. The grammar of the heart is, there's a beautiful hadith of the Prophet Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam by a man, he's a Muslim, who loses his camel. He loses his camel and he has his entire life is on this camel. Imagine everything he has, and he's just lost. And in that moment, he's dead in the city, he's searched everywhere. He can't find the camel. He loses his entire belonging, a lifetime of saving. Then, suddenly he finds the camel. He's so happy he wants to get granted to Allah with the correct grammar of the tongue, but he can't. Because at that time, the tongue cannot speak, it's only the heart that speaks. And he shouts to the heavens, he says, Ya Allah, you're my servant and I'm your Lord. Thank you. Instead of saying, Ya Allah, thank you, you're my Lord and I'm your servant. So when he says it's backward, what the Prophet Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam told us that Allah knows the coding of the heart. Just like language has coding. Just like your phone has code. What's on the screen is not what's behind the screen. It's zero one, zero zero one, zero zero one, one one zero zero. Whatever it is, right? Allah knows that code in the heart of what you meant to say. Allah knows the thought before it becomes processed in your head. Something goes through your head. Allah knows that. And this is why the ulama said the highest level of taqwa is the taqwa of your thoughts. So he says in this intimacy with Allah, he says that I had a moment of intimacy with Allah and Allah spoke to me in this beautiful, you know, when you have these moments, Ya Allah, what should I do? Ya Allah, I need this. And Allah, he, Allah kahsa, in Allahumma, don't grieve, don't be sad. Allah is with you all the time. You never abandon the servant. We abandon, we think we abandon Allah, we can't. You can't abandon Allah. No matter what you do, we are stuck. We are like a piece on a chessboard. We can go everywhere, but we can't get out of the chessboard. We're always on the chessboard. No matter where you go, you're on the chessboard. Even if you're a king, a queen, you're on the chessboard. That is the design of God. That's not Allah's design. So we can't get out of it. So he says So this man who complains to Allah about this being distant, he said, Allah told me that why don't you make your heart my house and then I will purify your heart. Because everybody is in search of purifying their hearts. Is it just make your heart my house? I will purify your heart. You don't have to do any work. I will do it. I'll take care of it for you. And then tell me all your pain and suffering. Because when we have people go everywhere, they open every door except the door of Allah. It's the last door when we have nowhere to go, we go to Allah. We are supposed to go to Allah first. The first door that you've knocked is the door of Allah. It says, tell me all your pain. Tell me your suffering. Tell me everything that's happening in your heart. All the difficulties you have. People have difficulties again. They don't talk about it with other people. And Allah says, just talk to me. He says, listen, if you talk to me, I will put the ointment of healing on your heart. I'll take care of all the pain, all of the suffering, all of the bruises, everything you're going through, Allah can fix it. Nobody else can fix it. You can go to all of the doctors, you can go to all of the shoes, you can go to everyone. But Allah is the healer of the hearts. So, let the light of God into your heart and it will automatically purify your heart. And talk to Allah about your problems. And Allah will put the ointment of healing and remove all your pain and suffering. I got a good Kerti, Adil, Kaleed, it's the Jabbat, be Allah, be Allah, the Almighty, the Almighty, the Almighty. He says, one of the things about people sometimes when they do, Allah is not going to accept it. If you feel like there's a connection. He said, oh my servant, if you feel like this, you have lost the key of Kabul, right? Of acceptance. It's like, I've been making law, I've been doing this, nothing is happening in my life. He said, if you feel like that, if you have lost the key to the door of acceptance, is it come, you spend one moment with me. One moment with Allah, is an out-finding thing. You don't need out-finding, out-finding thing. Be Afshan, Qadray, Ashki, Keban, Hastag, Kareel, Yorash. Be our Qadray, Ikhlas, whether you are a Qadrash woman. He says, why don't you shed just a tear? These are the tears of remorse. These are the tears of intimacy. These are the tears that, you know, one of the best tears you will ever shed in your life is that moment you just tears will drop from your eyes and somebody will ask you, why are you crying? And you say, I miss my Prophet, Sallallahu Alaihi Wasallam. I just miss him. I'm shedding tears for him. That priceless tear, tears of remorse. When you do something wrong and you feel so bad, you shed a tear. Those are priceless. So he's saying that God is telling me, why don't you just shed a tear? Because I am the buyer of your tears. Allah is the one who is buying. And he says, why don't you just bring just a drop of Ikhlas. One drop of Ikhlas of sincerity. One drop. And he says, I will turn it into an ocean for you. Because the foundation of our religion is sincerity, Ikhlas. If you bring anything with Ikhlas, Allah will multiply it. You can multiply it for infinity. They give you a, for one thing, for one action, they can give you reward that the size of Mount Oher. I have told you, we have a special deal by the Makhan as well. That you found at Dr. Lubam Konowal, Dr. Nashi Bauman. If this dunya, the people of this world, they close their doors on you, don't turn away from us. Why turn away from Allah? People lose their job, they turn away from God. People get betrayed, they run away from God. He is saying, if everybody is shutting their doors on you, come on. Why are you suffering yourself for months? When was it that humans didn't knock on my door and I didn't answer? When did you knock on my door? And I didn't answer. Come knock on my door and I promise I will answer. And this is in our tradition that if you keep knocking on the door, it will open. But you have to keep knocking. Right? You have to keep knocking. There is a story that is based on the Hadith of the Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him, that we do here on Sadr al-Qas. There is a man who is a sinner and he keeps sinning, but he asks Allah for forgiveness. He says, Allah forgive me, Allah forgive me. And then Allah says, He doesn't want to listen to him. And then he says, Allah forgive me. He goes back, Allah doesn't want to listen to him. He says, Allah forgive me, Allah forgive me. And then Allah says, I feel embarrassed not to forgive him. You are forgiven. And Sadr says, what an amazing God. We sin and Allah feels embarrassed not to forgive us. We are sinners, right? Allah says, you know what? This is something keep asking me. I'm going to forgive him. So the doors of Allah is open. But who is knocking on the door of Allah? Nobody. Most people, there are times that, especially in this night of Ramadan, there are times that there is nobody at the door. Like the midnight hour, the hour before Fajr, is empty. It's like when you go here, if you go to a place, if you're going to rush an hour, you're just starting to traffic jam. There's a lot of people on the road. If you go to a store on Saturday and Sunday, there's going to be a line. But if you go, when they first open, there's no line. If you travel an hour anywhere, there's no traffic now. But there's the same thing. There's nobody at the door in the midnight hours. The night is for the awliya. The awliya, they stand up in the night and worship Allah SWT, because they know nobody's there. Nobody's there. Because they're going to the Ka'bah. It's crowded at some time. There's some point, it's not crowded. Especially like in Mecca, it's hard, but at noon time, not a lot of people are making tawab. But that's the best time you can go. If you have the Himmah. So get up at night and do prayers just from Allah SWT. So he says, He says, why don't you come to Me and tell me your haji and me and I'll fulfill it for you instantly. And then ask me anything you want and trust me, I will provide it. Because I'm Allah and I can provide anything in any amount I want. There's no limit for Allah SWT. Allah's treasures are inexhaustible. And then he says, Come to me. And this is a hopeful way of putting this poem. It's always on the hadith of the Prophet SAW. Come. Come, Allah says, come to me and do your auditing before you die. And this is why the doors of Tawbah is open. In Allah, Allah accepted the Tawbah of His servant, the Prophet SAW, until the sword is being ripped from the body. Until the last breath. Allah doesn't close the door of Tawbah. He leaves it open because it's merciful. Allah is mercy. So he's saying, Come at least before you die. Do your auditing. Do your accounting. Do something. What more have I done? What more have I done? Be our Niko Badi al-Jan, woman of Kerdan as-Soma. He said, just bring everything to me. The good, the bad, the ugly, everything that you have done. Let me sort them out for you. I'll sort them out for you. I'll remove the evil in the bad and the good I'll multiply for you. And this is the generosity of Allah and we know that. And then he says, When you have the, when you ate the sustenance of today that we provided for you. When you ate the sustenance because everything that you're eating is when your name has been written on it. Everything that you're eating, your name is written on it before you were created. And that's why they say in our tradition, when guests come in, they come with their own provision. They don't eat your food. They eat the food that was written for them before there was a heaven and the earth. Allah's already written on the tablet. On the note, Mahfoud, there's been written, right? That this food will be eaten by this person at this time. So when guests come in, you shouldn't worry about it. No matter how many people come in, they are coming with their own provision to your house. So he's saying, when you're eating your provision that we provided, just be grateful. Be grateful. Thank you. Thank you very much. Thank you very much, Mahfoud. Thank you very much. Please don't worry about tomorrow's food. I'll provide it. I'll take care of tomorrow. Don't worry about tomorrow's food. When you eat today's food, be grateful. Don't worry about tomorrow's food. I'll take care of it the way I did it today and yesterday. Allah will take care of it. There's a famous story in the mastery of Rumi about this cow that goes in the yard. Rumi said there's a jazeera. It's an island. There's a cow in there. One cow in this island. And it goes in the graves and eats all the grass. And at the end of the day, he looks at it and says, wow, I ate all the grass. There's no grass. So he goes, he sees that and it's big. And then he goes to the stable and the whole night he's like, my god, there's no food tomorrow. How am I going to eat? I ate all the grass and he was gone. So he loses all the weight, he spreads anxiety. He's skinny. And then so the next day he goes up and says, wow, and then he sees all the grass grow again. And then he eats it. Oh my god, he is happy. He eats it. Then night comes and he goes, oh my god, I ate all of it this time. And then he becomes skinny. And then so then Rumi says, he said, oh, Rumi, you're like that cow in that island. Every day, you have the anxiety. What am I going to eat tomorrow? What am I going to eat tomorrow? How am I going to you know, better on the table for my family? Right? And Rumi says that, he says that, oh, think about this. Every person that was responsible for your coming into this world, your father, your grandfather, your great-grandfather, all of the alimony and so on, they all ate food. Allah provided for them, otherwise you wouldn't be here. Now you wouldn't be here. Nobody died of starvation. Right? That's why you're here. That's why I'm here. Because they had food. What makes you think that they're not going to provide for you and your children? Allah is the provider. Right? Allah is the provider. Stop worrying about these things. So he says, when you have the your sustenance for today, just be grateful for the namah of Allah. Don't worry about tomorrow. Allah will take care of it. Allah will take care of it. This is just a haqqawaku. But that doesn't mean you don't worry if you don't do things enough. But you have to trust that Allah is the one who is taking care of it. The Qur'an, Ar-Rahman, Farawona, and so on. He says that read my Qur'an. It's filled with ayah of rahmah, of mercy. Filled with verses of mercy. Just read the verses. I will do the commentary on it myself. Just read. Just read my Qur'an. I will do the commentary on it. And I will fulfill your life with rahmah and with mercy. And again, agar umri guna haddi mashal nobi az-Rahmat, tutaw ba-naumada ben-biso imzaw kardanash ba-maam. And if you have sinned all your life, if you have sinned all your life, don't feel hopeless from the mercy of Allah. And this is, why don't you write a proposal for tola? And I will sign it for you. Just write the proposal for tola and I will sign it and approve it. Many people, they don't know the power of tola. It's the first station on the path of spirituality, the first station is the station of tola. And the last station is the station of navigation when you become eagerness, person. But isn't the last station more important and more powerful and closer to Allah or the first station? Because those who make tola, they instantly become a worthy of Allah. Instantly. And we have books written by al-Awliya and al-Alamah about those people who make tola and they became instant worthy. Instant Awliya. Just turning to Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala. And these are the night of turning to Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala. These are the days and the nights of making tola to Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala and he accept the tola of his servant. Allah accept the tola of his servant. There is nobody turns to Allah but Allah rejects him. He has made it a sunnah that I will not reject if you make tola. You are sincere in making tola. And we know in our tradition there are al-Awliya who make tola like Bishr al-Hafiq. He is an alcoholic and we should not we should be we should look down among people because people don't know about addiction. You know, if you have council people with addiction it's a horrible thing. Now people should look because most people are addicted to their phones. They can't live without their phones. Imagine someone who is addicted to alcohol and to these things and Allah protect us and our families and our children from these charge attribution. But if somebody is addicted to that we should really help them and not look down upon them because this is not our tradition to put people down. There was a man who made tola in here. I knew him man. We mentioned him in the class. Then he made tola from alcohol. Allah in his face was born renewed. I always used to go to him and ask for tola. And he surprised in my community he still called me alcoholic. Look at you know that alcoholic looking with these Muslim now. But he made sincere tola. So people can make tola that they become better than us. Bishops become better than everybody. We mentioned Bishops of Hafi now. You know? Exactly. You know a thousand years later we're mentioning Bishops of Hafi. You know? Why are we in the mosque? Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. The person is soul. An alcoholic. He was dying of khama. Dear people like when they have alcohol in the morning like the first thing in the morning they have their bottle and the last thing in the evening they have their bottle and throughout the day. You know people said Bishops never walked straight. He was always walking like he was always following. Because he was always drunk. But what happened is when Bishops saw the name of Allah on the ground. The name of Allah there was a paper that said Bismillah Rahman Rahim. And he was drunk. And he saw it on the ground and it rained the name and it was money. And he went to pick it up and said I can't walk over the name of Allah. This is a drunk Muslim. I can't walk over the name of Allah. And he went to pick it up and he couldn't because we know this is the first thing they do when the cops stop you wouldn't they do if they think they're drunk. You know walk on a straight line because you can't and they put your hands on it. Nobody they all walk like right? Put your hand on your nose they can't even do that to drunk people because the iron hand coordination is no longer there. You lose that people lose that. So he goes to pick it up but his hand goes somewhere else he falls into the mud. He gets up and says I gotta go I can't do this. How can I walk over the name of Allah? And then he goes again he goes to pick up he falls again. Three times he goes to pick up and then he says Ya Allah you make me fall a million times I'm not gonna go over this. I'm gonna pick this up. I'm not gonna walk over your name. I'm a drunk I'm a horrible Muslim but I'm not walking over your name. I'm not walking over your name. So he picked it up went home he washed it and then he had some nice old perfume so he couldn't perfume on it too and then he put it in a nice cloth and he put it in a high place in his house and then he got knocked out fell asleep he had a dream and he heard the voice of truth that told him the Bishop as you purify our name on that paper in perfumed it you will make your name pure in perfumed it for you need to mention that at the end of time with beauty with Hassan an alcoholic instant because that's the nature of Toba it scans your body from head to toe removes every evil and purifies you in one breath that's the power of Toba you ate the hell kufr you exhaled beauty and that's the power of Allah He can do that with anybody and that's why I don't count anybody you see on the street all of this work they are Islam haters or they could be like you were the Islam hater Abu Sufyan was the Islam hater he was the Islam hater Khalid ibn Walid was the Islam hater pretty much all of the Sahabah they said the talk of them were Islam haters but they became lovers they turned to Allah and Allah accepted so Allah accepted Imran in this month and Allah made us amongst the people that made Toba in turn to him inshallah amongst the people now we have that relationship no matter what you do in life whatever you do in life just remember one thing don't close all the doors to Allah because you will make mistakes young people make mistakes but don't close all the doors to Allah leave the door open keep the window open and that window can save you that window can save you because if you close all the doors then you are by yourself nobody survives on this planet Earth by themselves and if you have an entire planet behind you and you don't have Allah you have nothing there is Allah if Allah is by your side and there is nobody there you have everything because the cosmos is behind you Jibril al-Alih-Sahab is behind you the wing of Jibril there is an amazing poem about Jibril that when he opened the wings in the Siddharah of Muntaha in the 7th heaven which all of the creation from the first heaven to the 7th heaven and size is like a rain thrown in a desert that's how big it is lastness so when you open his wings the entire horizon of the 7th heaven was covered with the wings of Jibril you have Jibril by his size what do you know about superpowers or gangsters or somebody coming on the streets Allah is by your side you have nothing to fear don't close all the doors Allah comes in where people have a little window open and Allah will his life will come through that window and a lot of the people are broken hearted this is the time people are broken hearted a lot of young people go through the trail if you went through the trail don't worry about it if I didn't go through the trail when I was young I would never practice this wisdom I would never practice it it was my friends who betrayed me that I saw practicing so sometime Allah does these things to you you don't know why it happens if you are cornered and a lot of people you know, we had a one of our neighbor committed suicide we got a Muslim who was on the news we lived in the same neighborhood so all these people by their door I was just talking to a few young people about it that things get tough in life this is planet earth I'm sorry, let me just remind you again planet earth this is we came here this is time this is the penitentiary and you can only get out of here on good behavior this is a prison a dunya said to your mu'min the jannah of kafir the dunya is a prison of the believer and it's paradise for the disbeliever but when things get tough they don't know how to get out of it because they don't have Allah if you have Allah I'm telling you if you have Allah you have everything but if you don't have Allah that's what people take their life and that's why suicide is high amongst the non-Muslims and those muslims we don't know their religion but if you know your religion this is called Islam is called the religion of life it's the religion of life and the prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam said let none of you wish for death it's not the religion of death because life is a great gift from Allah and only He gives and only He takes it so when you have it appreciate it I would enjoy it and they'll enjoy it because they enjoy the body we enjoy the soul that's the difference enjoyment of the body lasts about 50, 60, 70, 100 years and as I said and then all the things you eat that's the enjoyment of the body but enjoyment of the soul is eternal because Sa'ala once it enters your heart happiness, that light of Allah then you're happy in this world and you're happy in the Bazaq and you're happy to hear it after eternally insha'Allah and may Allah reunite us back with our prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam as we were in the yawm of Allah so sallallahu alayhi wa sallam