 He wanted to leave now, huh? Let's see. That's my fly swatter right here. What your cute the bitches oh Got one ah you crap up on me, huh nigga. Yeah You like that huh fried the nigga come on come on to the light come to the light So I could send you to the light Come on It's what it's for for you niggas to come to the light Anytime you open the door a little gnats and shit one coming come on come to the lights up to see to the lightning MVP nigga big three You're the team Like I'm just I'm gonna keep it all the way real like I'm not really liking this wall I Don't see no eagles. I see a bunch of cowboys Oh Like this the best thing you do back in 1960 You got Chuck been there That's 1960 So close but still so dirty They don't have they got one evil one wall petition or something Oh Right here Here we go You too little dog you see that you do live that's what they all say Looked at the field Yeah, I know who I can't be wallow He did not play basketball on the yard. No, he did not do none of that You see some chicks you all of a sudden you bully Hey, but now that they got Brian cash won't walk like that. It's all about who the star is Amen, welcome to the pivot bruh shit y'all man I did a skin I woke up me and my woman in the bed I said everybody in my DM get it cuz they do gilly. How you want to finish ever so long? I was playing. I said cuz you gotta make it for you stick You gotta eat it for you be You He read invite me so we don't do that freak man stuff You little freaky to Man Hey, I apologize though. Yeah, you can't make a big thing Someone apologize to you. Yeah, I think that's it I Lot of times you can build callus to certain things you hear people who grew up in whether silly the Miami who's seen so much loss who's seen so much negativity that they learn to walk through it It's not that they learn to heal or they learn to cope. They almost become numb to it, right and Mentioning devs passing There is no amount of adversity. There is no amount of loss There is no amount of lessons learned that could prepare a father to bury their own child You have publicly shown us moments of mourning moments of reflection moments of celebration when you are Taking your quiet moments from that because the one thing I always pay attention to at funeral is All the people that are around that help who's ever dealing get through it Because I know eventually they all leave When you finally got that moment where it was just reflecting on your child and not seeing his face again What was that like for you? It's a struggle man it's a struggle every day and The biggest struggle for me is looking at my kids knowing they ain't never gonna see their brother again The pain in their eyes That's what really give me the most You know what I mean when I got a look at my wife. She just started crying for no reason And it's just like it's something you would never get over. You know what I mean? It's a black hole in my heart forever And I'm gonna be all the way honest with you man. The devil was on my shoulders If I had strong people around me, man, I would resort it back to old gilly, man I don't like the whole fucking city out man. I promise you man Because I got enough money to do it But it was some it was it was people like wallow was people like freeway It was people that let me know that it understand that I'm here for a bigger purpose man And when I sat down and I really thought about it. I Said I don't want to be a fucking mockery to these kids These kids that I tell every day I Try to give them the game that got its attention motivation and education every fucking day Just like I tried to get my son Every day To stay out these streets So now it become more personal to me. It's more personal now It was personal then but it's even more personal now Because I lost my son So I know what it feel to lose somebody that's supposed to die before you And I can sympathize with all these parents out here who lost a fucking child That's the hardest shit you will ever go through in life Nothing will ever be as hard as this Other than losing my wife now when I pray I pray that I die first Take me first Because I don't want to go through this shit again ever in life man Ever in life man, so for me that the mission is To get to these kids man And I try to save See these kids lives man because they know I really been through this shit What you talking about young and you been shot or I've been shot You sold drugs. I've been locked up with 90 pounds of weed young What you talking about out here Anything you could do I done did And I'm telling you ain't none of that shit cool ain't none of that shit got a good ending to it so that's my purpose man and I Stayed prayed up man. I stayed I stayed I stayed praying that God keep that fucking devil off my shoulder man Because we all human and we go all make mistakes. We call do some dumb shit at the drop of a dime So I just pray that God keep me the person that I've grown into and not the person that I used to be That day I became a man. I Was a low-ass boy up to that point. I Thought I was a man because I did man shit. I paid bills. You know what I mean? I took care of my family. I Take care of my sisters. I take care of my dad. I take care of my mom kids that's not even my kids Because they lost they dad But that day I became a man when I watched my son body So it was it was a it was a gift and a curse. It was a good thing and a bad thing Because it was a very painful thing to see your son laying here cold and stiff in but I Know I sent him off right You know what I mean and in Islam, that's a big thing sending them off, right? So and I had some good brothers, man. I want to with the camera am I looking at I Want to look into that camera and what I want to think freeway From the bottom of my heart You is the every step of the way with me brother washing my son's body The hardest shit I ever had to do in my fucking life. I will always love you And respect you brother For life. I appreciate that but yeah That was the day that I Know it was real How does the light shot do Gil like how how do you wake up in the morning and Be what you became which was a light for us Like every time I click on the post from your yours of yours. I expect to laugh Yeah, you know because I know that you're gonna bring joy I know that you and while over and do something or you're talking to your wife or you dancing in pouring water on Your head at a party like I'm waiting for those moments You have become something where you provide People who admire you with the light who might be going through something But when you're going through it like that, how did you find your light bro to be able to continue doing What you've earned the expectations You know Go do all the shit that I'm not doing my life, bro That should make you for tough man That shit really make you for tough. So You know What's done is done Like you said she's not coming back That's the one thing that's a fact so for me to wake up every day and Allow my family to see me in emotional state where I'm not strong That's not strong You know what I mean, I'm only Really weak around my woman and my friends You know what I mean Other than that I Gotta I gotta stay strong for my kids man Because they lost a brother who They probably was a lot closer to Then I was as a father to son You know what I'm saying because at the end of the day if if Y'all three is brothers and all y'all is one year apart I'm gonna go to him to ask him. Hey, what you think I should do about this? Yo, man What you think about this girl? Yo, man Hey You're not coming to pop because you got two peers Right around you that's all y'all the same age y'all wrestle together y'all do the boxing gloves on y'all box together at the crib Y'all y'all go see girls. She got a girlfriend. You you feel what I'm saying. So They've had a relationship with him that was even more closer than me Then my one son it was his rat partner. Mm-hmm. You know what I'm saying, man So it's like I got to be strong for them. I got to be strong for my wife I Gotta be strong, you know, and don't I have my moments Every day it ain't been a day to one by where I haven't had a moment because the reality of it is For some reason Every morning that I wake up That's the first thing on my mind Like I'm like it's like I'm what like I know it's real But it's like so I wake up as my cheese like I almost want to Make myself believe it's a dream You feel what I'm saying. So for me, man, I just I just got to Stay strong man And your life man has given you so much and just sitting here listening to you my one thought was Life cannot kill you if you refuse to die You know, you've gone through so much man, but you've continued to wake up and open your eyes and you live a Lot of times things happen to us, bro And they break us down so much we stop living Yeah, and we don't take care of the people we still have to take care of and we don't affect the people that God gave To affect so from for me to you, man I truly admire who you are what you've come from and the way that you allow all of us to see it So thank you so much for joining us here, bro. We appreciate you Oh Shout out to you in the big three. He's the two-time celebrity champ You're not I'm accurate my ship He's gonna be good like that cuz while I'm playing the negative 47 Okay, you shoot okay shooter. Okay. Let me just say this. This is what this means All the young kids Across the country want to play me in basketball I'm somebody's grandfather Do you think it's another grandfather Do you think that do you think when your grandkids is 20 they like pop up you can't beat me one-on-one All the kids want to play me and I cook up barbecue bacon Season of old Bayhawk's a turn them over And only chopper is 20 years old Y'all go ahead. Yeah, he can play. Yeah, I was going out. Oh, this shit is You can't even back Okay, boys and all I play lethal shooter one or more lethal shooter is six three at least two fifty Why was he driving to the basket pushing me out of bounds me you lethal shooter shoot it Where's my camera man? He like I got a win Like I'm expecting to be from here Oh the score gets six to four now. You told me out of there Think about how many motherfuckers in the NFL and you'd be like Who you looked up to Think about it, they'll be saying oh Emmett Smith Oh, this one might be a motherfucker right in the family. That was good. I want to be better than my uncle dirt Right Records That's how I go. Yeah, so a lot of times the younger brother They'll be there be the best because they have the most passion Yeah, could they see no, right? They see no other brother didn't have the older brother made some mistakes They ain't doing that. Yeah All the time his older brother fueled him to success You know, he know it but he just they got they got close up the most That's why I love Sterling is Shannon Shaw relationship, right? Oh, yeah in his hall of fame speak women say she's Sterling So early was a dog people forget that he's a big man in the youngest, right? But that's what he wanted to be like it's probably and that's what she was his fire his passion and made him That dog was not there. So yeah, but I'm good stories though. It's always good to see them kind of stories Don't look at step digs and Trayvon and all boys You know, you would tell them nothing to be like, no, I just want it because because by nature it becomes not a Jealousy thing for any competition, but it becomes I Want to hear my name too? In the house Because when he was nine and he was the running back for the little Hawks and I was six And everybody was running Johnny He had four touchdowns and he Johnny had four touchdowns today. You like this. You six you like man Now you like now the whole time when you become a running back your whole time now I'm gonna for a touchdown Yeah, that's why you have a little kid here. He had two of the yards rushing. He take him out the game. He mad Not that bad over here So you guys pretty much set the sentence for us to walk and what so crazy is bro how people always say that like y'all Like y'all up it we don't even look at us like that you would tell you would our camera guy will tell you We don't even look at us like that like Bro, every day we usually got on the black Nike sweatpants and sneakers and a day. It's like I Wake up a day. I go to my studio house. I get my content. I go home a Day like for us, we just care like some regular motherfuckers like cuz you just being yourself, you know I mean, it's like we're not trying to we're not trying to win you over with no materialistic shit We don't we just be us man And we trying to get you all the game. That's it Yeah, if you could take it you can leave it either or and we're gonna get your great interviews in the process of Giving you the game, right? So for us, it's like we not in a lane. They not an arm lane. We ain't in Joe Button's lane We not nor relaying. They not know it. No, everybody can eat. Right. Yeah, everybody could get serviced Thanks Bros keep hold up Yeah You can't have the Tiffany blue Rory without without right The Tiffany blue ups You film me and you got the checks of the blue You film me you can't have the Tiffany blue Rory without the Tiffany blue ups any fresh work That's what you call stunt and one-on-one. You have dripology Mmm. Yes, you know, I'm just in my I Only been driving those but my slingshot since while it bought me that joint. I'll wake up a day praying it don't rain Yeah I gotta pull back Don't talk to basketball shit to me Oh You Now do your niggas want to get doing the fucking barbecue grill. I cook the shit out Don't be bringing a little nigga here with no gray hairs on his face Don't fucking basketball shit to me man. I do not play old niggas. That's like playing a fucking tree You know, I'm gonna run around you like you're fucking tree. Do tree do trees move Leave is you will not go by you MVP nigga MVP nigga MVP nigga big three cute Put me on the team Fuck they'll hit many threes is me. No four points. I cook the shit out of Joe Johnson right now I'ma say this I might be a defensive liability, but I'm more of an offensive reliability Then the defense Sound me to fuck up cute Joe I'm the MVP nigga. I'm gonna cook ISO Joe motherfucking Crawford I do