 Hey, welcome to above-life channel the purpose here is to inspire your spirit and to fill you with hope Today, I know it's Wednesday, but hey, I Wanted to try to get some kind of a video in this week, and I wasn't feeling real great on Monday So I wanted to connect with you. So I hope I Hope this works for ya. I Am feeling better and better each day moment to moment. It seems I've got ups and downs, you know emotionally mental health Why is it's it's tough? And I'm not used to my body feeling so tired and fatigued but I'm Being as compassionate with myself as I can so can you let me know if you can hear me? Can you give me a thumbs up? I have no idea if I'll be able to see Hey Patty nice to see you If I'll be able to actually read the comments as they go because they're small and I'm on my phone So yes, you can hear me. Thank you So I wanted to be able to fill you in on an interesting little tidbit I'm not gonna necessarily do a full-on channeling right now But since I have a really oh shoot. I should have brought the postcards I have I have to fill you in on something as to how my heart surgery is related to the Kennedys Like totally 100% legit Like I was fangirling from my hospital bed, okay Nice to see you as you're popping in on above-life channel if you haven't been here for a while and you're like, where have you been? Well, I've been recovering from open heart surgery In fact, yesterday I had some really amazing news that I'm looking forward to sharing with you and that is the first amazing news is I got my bandages off My nurse who comes to the house here to check on me a couple times a week She was like, oh and I call it I affectionately referred to as the tape Bandage thing that goes all the way down the incision across my down my sternum Because it's literally open heart surgery you guys like Yeah, they crack you open like a nut But seriously I know it's disgusting, but I have to be funny about it because if I really think about it too much, I'll vomit and I will also Not be able to breathe because right now my chest and my bones and everything are trying to heal and I can feel that and it But I affectionately referred to my bandage As my bacon because it literally looks like bacon because it's a piece of white staring strip kind of material That because I you know, you wear t-shirts and sweatshirts and hoodies and all that and the lint from the inside of your shirt rubs off on it and That's pretty much all you wear fyi because everything is all uncomfortable and sore and all that um Like really sore and really painful and the ribs and the lungs and everything freaking hurts and feels bruised and all that and so My bacon got pulled off yesterday because she said You know because it's supposed to like peel down little by little by little and she said, you know I think it's ready to come off. Would you like me to help you with it? And I said yes, please because I didn't want to do it. I thought oh, that's disgusting because what if I pulled it off and it like Like I saw my skin or something. Do you know what I mean? Like I was so grossed out Hey, good morning. Hi Hi drew Nice to see you. Hey jennifer. Hey patty. Hey, ana. Hi everybody. Nice to see you um, so I'm gonna make fun of my awi And so and if you'd like to see it if you don't want to see it look away look away, baby Baby look away Okay, but it I'm getting used to it at first. It was really really difficult. In fact, I did a video Right after I got out of the icu when I was at a hotel literally across the street I did a video that showed Me seeing my scar for the first time because I hadn't seen it really And that was right before I took my first shower after a week And it was so emotional for me and I'm like I want to capture this because Not it wasn't vanity. It wasn't like oh my god. Now. I'm ugly because I have a scar. It wasn't like that. It was this Awareness that my body was literally cut in half. My chest was cut in half was divided and I think about that from a spiritual perspective of like masculine feminine and The fact that my heart was torn apart it literally was And that's why I had this surgery what I had was um if you're new here or if you haven't heard I had an aortic dissection Dissection you can google that if you want to type a and is completely unexpected I'm very healthy person did not have high blood pressure symptoms or anything like that. I didn't even have Heart pains or anything like that leading up to it. In fact, I had flu like symptoms for three days prior and that was it and The aortic dissection actually 80 percent of people who have it Die like they don't get to the hospital. It just it ruptures So your aorta the muscle connected to the heart it just ruptures It of the blood doesn't the blood kind of pulls back in and it kind of drowns you or it ruptures, right? Like it just it stops working and so for me there's like this there's a like I mean I was so lucky. It's unbelievable 80 percent of people who have this condition just die because People don't they don't know you don't know about it. It's just happy. You just die all of a sudden In fact John Ritter died of an aortic dissection John Ritter the comedian. Mm-hmm. Yep. How I met your mother was it not how am I your mother 13 rules to dating my teenage daughter I think was his thing and also jack tripper three's company. He died from that aortic dissection. Mm-hmm and um, so it's not like people like People think heart attack cardiac arrest whatever and if people think you're having a cardiac arrest a heart attack and they do um Chest compressions on you it will kill you Your heart will just rupture it will kill you So if they think you're having a heart attack and they treat you like that Or if you lose consciousness and they try to do CPR it could it very very likely it will kill you So I'm like, oh great So I get to the hospital I'm doing great. I'm in the 20 percentile And then I find out that I have to do this surgery immediately within a half an hour of me getting there they're like we need to get you into surgery now and so I I'm like, okay And he's like the doctor the surgeon said So how long have you so how long have you known you've had an aneurysm and I'm like a what? and he said you have Something called an aortic dissection and he said it's it's a it's a life-threatening Condition he said if we don't operate on you within the next two hours you will die and he said And the surgery is high risk I'm like, what does that mean? Well 30 of the people that get the surgery live 30 live Did you understand that that means 70 percent of the people that actually make it to the hospital of the 20 percent that make it to the hospital 70 percent die in the surgery Now granted it's because this heart situation is usually for old people Not for young people. So when somebody like me who's like just hit 50 Has it and I'm like healthy and don't have any other symptoms. There's usually underlying things which I have to now go to the male clinic And get tests for all sorts of like vascular or connective tissue diseases and things like that Because there's got to be there's a potential for some genetic thing or it's just a random fluke um, so I have to do all sorts of you know follow-up and stuff and so Anyway, so that's that so that's what's happened. Um, and that happened on October 13th into October 14th. I had nine hours worth of surgery after that I had another I think eight hours in recovery and it being Intubated I was fully intubated and I had bypass so I was Breathed and my heart was my heart was stopped and I would breathe by machines So my body was taken offline So it'll be a whole interesting thing for us to have conversations about in the future because there's a lot of stuff I got from that experience during that experience that happened to me and I look forward to sharing that at some point, but I need to process it because it's a lot so, um, I came back kicking I'll say that came back kicking And I think I'm probably one of the only people that's ever actually been checked out of the CV. I see you CV is the cardiovascular intensive care unit at Cape Cod hospital This is where the Kennedy connection comes in So Cape Cod hospital is in hyannis Anybody might know what is also in hyannis port Massachusetts I will really really really really need to post the videos that I have of Prior to this experience because I'm going to back up a little bit and share with you So hyannis port hyannis in massachusetts is where the kennedy compound is So where john f kennedy and all the kennedy fam used to go hang out, right? It's a big deal And I knew that And I before I was going away for this weekend with some friends of mine and we were driving We went and picked up our friend in boston at the airport and we were heading down To where were we going we were going to province town massachusetts and on the way We were driving we drove by the exit that said hyannis and my friend that was driving said hey Hyannis and I'm like oh, she's like do you want to stop? I'm like, yes, can we please please please that she's like absolutely we could stop I'm like, all right. Let's do it. So we went and we found the kennedy compound and I totally got busted by a guy in a red truck who was not very happy with me because what I did was I did the same thing you guys that I did when I went when I was in washington state And I did the kurt cobain house I had my sister drop me off and I just walked around because that's like way better than like a car and stuff, you know And because people can walk around, right? So I had that happen. I did that here. I said just drop me off you guys Just drop me off because the driveway said private drive and that said no entry And there was a couple of houses down the driveway and then there's this beautiful house right on the ocean Oh my god, can I just say? How unbelievably beautiful Beautiful the ocean is here Maine and massachusetts and I just I haven't been to vermont Been to new Hampshire But I haven't been to vermont yet That's what i'm going to do next time one of my next trip because i'm going to come back out here again Probably in the spring next year. I would guess maybe some are probably spring. No, I don't know. We'll see It depends on if I can fly then I don't know. Um, and I mean it's just beautiful beautiful there And so I said just drop me off and so they dropped me off and I had my phone and I'm like just walking And I start walking down the street The little private street and all of a sudden this Red truck is like parked behind this like gray house and it starts to come out and it kind of comes toward me And i'm taking pictures and i'm talking on my video and all that so I did a video and stuff and I have all that So I should actually just post that maybe for you guys to see I'll try to do that Now I don't have my it guy with me here and I don't have my my Laptop, but I'll see if I can figure out a way to do it because you guys couldn't see it I totally got busted. So I just pretended like I played so nice and was like Hi, I'm like, oh, I'm such a fan. I said I came from Minnesota and I just had to see and he said well Well, it says he says it says do not enter I said, oh, I said, yeah, I said, yeah, I saw that I figured it meant cars Like you don't want a bunch of cars driving down the road But I thought it was would be fine if I walked down here He says no, no, do not enter. No, that just means don't enter whatever blah blah, but I was super nice about it I said, oh, I said, well, I said, okay. So that's I said, well, that's fine I said, that's fine. At least I got to be here and I was all happy and whatever But the guy was kind of a jerk, but that's just I think the personality Which is fine, you know, I mean He didn't know who I was he didn't know if I was some weird vlogger That was going to break in or something because I mean I might look innocent, but I am not innocent So this was before this was like October 9th. I did this. This was on my way down to my little Trip that I was taking. Okay. And on the trip then in Provincetown is when I got sick And then they sent me by ambulance an hour back to Hyannis Like four days later. Isn't that crazy? So I end up back at the same city Not far from where the Kennedy's Houses and I'm just like, what the heck? It was just crazy. It's just so crazy Not how I expected to be in Cape Cod, but it was just weird. It was just so weird And so so then Fast forward It's been a couple weeks. I've been in Maine I've been staying with a friend of mine who has graciously taken such wonderful care of me in her home Welcome to me into her home and I just taken over the place You know I'm making sure I'm drinking decaf. In fact this morning She bought Starbucks decaf coffee. She didn't bring me Starbucks. She did that yesterday and the day before but she bought like grounded ground coffee And she's like, okay, it's decaf I'm like, okay, and she goes, but you can have more and I'm like, okay So funny. I'm like, I don't really need caffeine that much. Do I? Maybe I don't know Anyway, so it was pretty good. I highly recommend their Christmas blend because that's what we got. It was really good But yesterday I had this idea because I knew she had a day off yesterday She's like a counselor social worker. She works like in the ER. She also does like Facilitation and counseling for individuals and all that too But she's also had to work extra because of the Lewis and shooting and stuff the mass shooting that happened here Yeah, it's like 30 minutes from where I'm at So I'm here recovering and all of a sudden there's this mass shooting and we can't even leave the house It's like a whole thing. I'm like what it was just so weird crazy But then she gets called in to help facilitate for people who were involved in it to help Kind of work through some of their stuff, you know So I mean that's really sweet, but I'm like, oh my god I'm like, she's had like two major traumas in a short amount of time. I'm like, who's helping you? I mean she's got counseling, but I'm just like, oh girl. I'm like So I'm like, we got to do something fun. I said we have to do something fun and so I had this idea to do a vision board because I'm like, I'm new Like my heart like my rip ball of my aorta ripped k at tour It looked like a big tear drop is what they said So they had to sew it up and then they had to put this sheath thing in there To reinforce it put a new valve in there to make sure that I could You know survive, I guess apparently that's what needed to happen. And so they did all that And so I'm like, oh great. I literally had a like a tear in my heart at my rip ball. Is that weird? So freaking weird but anyway So I said we have to do something fun. Let's do let's do some Like vision boards because she brought me home a couple magazines like a christmas magazine and they're really she totally I'm like, dude, you know me christmas magazine and a beautiful architecture houses and main magazine, which is awesome I'm like so hatching new plans because the house is a main On the beach are beautiful you guys. Oh, I've always wanted to come to main And I have never quite got here. In fact, I actually booked a trip here two years ago, and I didn't make it I went someplace else. I went to Connecticut instead and Just totally changed the whole trajectory of my life for the last two years and Now I'm here in Maine and I've been here for a couple weeks. I love it. I absolutely love it. So While I was in massachusetts You know getting fixed getting my heart fixed right by the kennedys And healing from that Okay I then come here and I'm like, let's do something fun blah blah blah last week after like I'm finally able to walk around without Catching my breath so much, you know, and I'm able to like sleep more than maybe about four hours a night Which is great Still working on it right now. I'm pretty I feel pretty good, but after this I'm going to be taking a nap because it's too much I seem good and cheerful because I'm just so relieved that I have news too about Besides my owie besides my bacon being taken off. I have another piece of news to share with you, which is what makes me so happy so anyway So we got so then last night. So we decided we're gonna do vision boards I said, we got to do vision boards. We went to the dollar store and got Tag board and markers and all the stuff last night. Plus we got pizza because I'm like I want pizza. She's like what I'm like. I want pizza. She's like that sounds good I said, but I can't have wine with it. Usually like pizza and wine. She's like, it's okay You don't have to have wine. I'm like, no, but I'm like, oh pizza So we have pizza. It was so good you guys. Oh my god. And then Then we went and got more magazines Because I was inspired because of the magazines that she had brought me last week. I'm like, we need to do Let's do vision boards So I go to we go to the store last night and guess what I find This magazine That talks about the Kennedy assassination the Kennedy Sorry You're going to notice a few things for me Right now. I will be starting occupational and physical therapy when I get back to Minnesota in a couple weeks, but I do have a bit My articulation my speech is a little bit Sometimes it catches we'll say that it has a hitch to it and so I can I talk fast, but sometimes I get my tongue trips over the words And part of that is because what happened was the blood flow was um crimped And when I was having the aortic Dissection was happening when the tear was getting really big and it was bleeding out inside of my body I was losing balance and I was losing Blood to the left side of my body, which is why initially The medical people at the urgent care we went to Said that I because that was the closest place. There was no hospital It was just like this doctor place like two blocks away from where we were at which was fine But and they were great by the way they called the ambulance right away and they took me by ambulance to get They said now we got to go now Because they didn't have a scan scanner there They didn't have a CT scan or anything like that So they thought there was an assumption being made that I was having a stroke Because my tongue was really heavy And my left side was just was really it was starting to sag And I couldn't like walk right like everything like my hand my left hand felt numb It still has a little bit just a little bit of numbness in it And a little bit of numbness here almost like I had a little bit of novocaine kind of And so sometimes it I feel it And my memory sometimes I repeat things a couple of times more than I normally do I know sometimes I do that's kind of a style But a little bit more you might notice that and that part is from the anesthesia because I was Under for so long There's definitely after effects for anesthesia when you're under for What 17 hours like I was plus I was also on bypass. So there's a whole bunch of stuff The oxygen to the brain thing and then not breathing yourself and this whole thing about the connection between the body and the circulatory system a whole bunch of stuff So you might notice that a bit just know that I am aware of it. It is it is something that is totally Rehabable We can use rehabilitation and we can Fix that it's not going to get worse or anything like that But it definitely is a thing and I know and that's why they thought I was having a stroke. I wasn't It wasn't a stroke the blood flow was just crimped off because of the The aorta it was filling up with blood and then it was pumping it into my body after that So The doctor said when I got there I had two hours. He's like in two. He's like two hours. We had two hours I'm like, okay, whatever All right, let's fix it. So the kennedy assassination. Did you know right now? This year it's 60 years this year How interesting is that that I'm here in new england? I was right in hyannis I went to the kennedy compound and I didn't even know it was 60 years and I was healing right there right there Cape Cape Cod hospital I have no idea if they've actually been to Cape Cod hospital. Maybe Maybe they have But I'm like, how fascinating is that? So when I went to get Some fun magazines old school. Look at that the trivia from the 80s magazines Got an Oprah magazine got an architectural magazine I think she got like a healthy magazine or something fun like that But um, this one she's like, oh, you got to get this one. I'm like, yeah, I do. Oh my goodness amazing So it's been 60 years Fascinating So I thought oh my gosh, I have to share that with you guys because it just seems It just seems crazy. Doesn't it like the synchronicities? I'm freaking believable like I could have joined the afterlife And Actually hung out with him and had a conversation So I'm thinking if they want to chit chat with me Although it's so interesting because you know who I've talked to since I've had this experience so I have intentionally not been Channeling or anything like that on purpose only for me. I have not thought about my business or my work or anything like that Except for like, oh my god money freaking out, you know stress like normal people stress, right? I thought about that But I haven't thought about Like oh, I have to channel have to channel. I haven't really thought about that because I just I don't have that I I can't have that stress right now Um, but the fact that this is 60s years later. I have to talk to them. I mean, it just is so interesting um But you know who has been around freddie mercury in fact I had I'm trying to remember where oh this I opened up this magazine He's on the very back page Look at that. Can you even imagine? Look at that It's insane So I have like heavy hitters like just hey loving on me and are like hey, we think you're awesome I'm like, hey, thank you. I think you're awesome too. Let's help some people and freddie is so focused on the empathic energy and and the sensitivity and right now especially with like Um the war in israel or I don't even know. I don't follow Uh current events plus I've been like out of it Like literally not paying attention to anything for the last couple weeks and like trying to just Be awake half of the day and recover and not be on heavy duty pain meds, which I'm not by the way Not on heavy duty pain meds Thank goodness not anymore. So yay. That's awesome Um but um freddie mercury's been around and maybe because it's his his the anniversary His birthday that's kind of the anniversary of his death. Some he's got a milestone coming up and That's kennedy thing is here But also matty perry just left and he left it was a hard thing. I know it was I don't know if that's official I don't know if there's a notice yet about that, but he definitely had a cardiac thing He definitely had a hard thing His heart looks very weak like the walls of his heart look really weak and I don't know what that means I don't know if he had a heart disease or if it was just the drugs and stuff I don't know, but it looks like the walls of his heart were really really weak um That's what it looks like to me and then um Who else somebody else died of a heart attack just recently too. I can't think of who it was Somebody else, but I'm like, what is all what is with all the heart things? Holy crap every all of a sudden all of us are like there's heart heart things going on I'm like, well, do you know why it's because we're overwhelmed you guys So we you and I have a lot of work to do Okay, and the next couple months and into the next year to really lay some foundational supportive Structuring for your heart space Because it's very obvious that our physical hearts are just it's taken a toll The energy is taken a toll the negativity the healing that we're not doing for ourselves And the constant leaks of our energy is affecting us whether it be current events global stuff Whether it be heritage lineage history Whether it be your physical life and things that you have to deal with the very tangible things like you know a job loss or Or an illness or a kid that's struggling or whatever it might be, you know, that's a real that's real shit you guys So we got some work to do you and I okay So what I'd like to do Actually, you know, I'm gonna take a second. I'll come right back here I'll take this I need to grab some I'm gonna get some water. I just need to Stand up for just a minute Oh shoot, I'm gonna be careful because I can't oops I can't use my arms for anything If I get in an auto bed, I have to bear overall I can't use my arms because it can rip open Layers upon layers of stuff that's glued me back together I know that sounds disgusting, but it's just the reality of my life right now So I got water and I got coffee here. Cheers to all of us. Hello queen. Nice to see you I can't read very well my eyes are also a little Little swishy right now. In fact when I came out of the surgery My right eye was totally turned in Completely turned in It wasn't even going out at all. I'm like, oh my gosh. Are you kidding me right now? I had surgery in 2011 to correct the ambliopia And it was pretty in alignment, but sometimes you could see it It's it has been starting. It doesn't last that long. It doesn't last your whole life because it's muscle And they tighten the muscle and then it wears out it gets stretched out, you know, like skin muscle, whatever And So I knew I'd probably have to have surgery again if I chose to or I just wouldn't right And so I knew that it was starting to like when I get tired it goes in you guys can see it You'll see it a lot on on the videos and stuff, which is like whatever fine But now when I got out it came out of surgery. It was totally turned and I was like, oh my god It was more upset about that than a scar on my chest, you know, I was like I look horrible, you know But it is what it is whatever. I'm alive. I have a body. Okay I'm just grateful to have a body now. I'm not so worried about wrinkles anymore. I'm like I Can walk I can feed myself. I can breathe on my own. I mean, they were like surprised at how quickly I got off that feeding to or that Breathing to they took that thing up. I was so grateful too because um I guess it's a big deal the longer you're on it. It's like a thing. It's like a situation So I'm grateful that it wasn't as long as As it could have been so anyway, so back here I'm thinking about Vision boards. Let's have a little mini Check-in maybe with one of the candidates. Let's talk to maybe we should talk to jack a little bit It's interesting because I literally feel like I can come into their living room and I have a Round table with all of them and I did not expect to do a channeling video So this will be interesting because Only current only people who love my channel on above life channel would even stay here in this video to this point to even see a A conversation with the candidates. So maybe we'll just do a little a little one and see Plus I want to be really careful with my energy Because there's been so many people which I appreciate the well wishes and the energy But when people send you energy, it's a lot So prayers is great because you're kind of going through the filter You're going through the bouncers of the angels and the jesus's and the Mary Magdalene's and the jona varks and all of the the pervati and My kalima and all my team are going through them when you're you're praying but when you're spraying energy at me to help me heal it's like Your energy and my energy right now mix so much so it takes a lot of work to kind of sift and sort and That's a lot so Have to set up systems to kind of filter that and stuff. So I appreciate the love a hundred percent. It's been awesome, but um It's kind of overwhelming sometimes, you know to have so much little energy come at you So, um doing channeling and stuff like that and psychic work. Uh, I've been I've been really focusing on my physical body and finally after yesterday I started feeling I turned a corner for sure, you know, I started feeling better. I'm like It must be because I went oh you guys I went to a rock shop a crystal shop and I got my sister a gift Because she's gonna fly here and then she's gonna drive me home to minnesota because I can't fly So um, yeah, so I'll have to show that to you if I have time if I think about there's so many things I want to share with you guys. All right, so let's talk a little bit about this and I'm gonna tell you Kind of the vibes I get when I'm feeling in and I I just want to I want to be able to read these but I just can't do it because it's just too small Yeah, I'm so happy. I'm still here too. Thank you I'm glad to be here too. Uh, thank you. Um So here's the energy that I got. Okay, so when I'm gonna talk a little bit about my experience walking down their little road um In hyannis at the the compound that they have um There which they still have I guess they use it for like retreats and stuff But I'm like, but it's not open to the public. I'm like damn wouldn't that be awesome to go there and You know, let me just I just button this up just in case it kind of falls open too much here My shoulders are killing me you guys you would not expect this probably but I mean my my ribs are very sore And my shoulders are just oh, man. It feels like somebody tried to wishbone me Mm-hmm wishbone me I'm working on something fun. I gotta do I want to do something fun for um Like black friday weekend because I mean the fact that I'm here is a big deal And I want to have joy And feel joy and spread joy and feel happiness and help other people feel good about life too Even when life really sucks because I was at the place where life really sucked and all of a sudden I'm like, holy Shit, I could be dead right now and I'm not wow. Is that interesting? So my team literally said you have a choice. What do you want to do? Do you want to stay? Do you want to go to earth or do you want to come here? Do you want to be here? Where do you want to be and I was on the other side? I wasn't even I'm like, what? I was in the in-between place for a little while and then I kind of was like over to the other side And then I was like, you know, I don't want to stay on the other side too long because I know that I would just be there I wouldn't have never I wouldn't have come back and I did tell um I did tell my one of my one of my significant others That I said, you know That If I wouldn't have if I wouldn't have made it if I would have died I would have been okay I would have totally been okay with that because I know I know that there's afterlife I know that there's universe and I know that I have been through hell and so much pain the last two years that I in my personal journey that Of course, it would make sense that I would die of a broken heart. I mean, of course it would And I put so much pressure on myself and I wasn't compassionate enough with myself and I'm like now I have the chance to be To be the person for me that I am for other people And I'm definitely going to do that So if I can share that journey with you damn right, I'm going to do it damn right so One of the fun things the highlights For me as you know, I have always been interested in the Kennedys and so is my family It's like a thing. It's been a thing since I was like a little kid I wrote papers in fifth grade in sixth grade about the Kennedys about first about jfk jack And then about rfk bobby and all that stuff and that was like about the time I think that it was like the 20th or 25th anniversary Of his assassination and so there was like mini series on like abc or something like that on tv Remember when they had mini series like they do it monday night tuesday night wednesday night Or sunday monday tuesday and everybody watch it as a big deal Like that I was watching that and I was so into it and Fascinated by it and I was in freaking fifth grade I remember because I then I did like I read pt 109 and I read the book four days and I asked for the book four days Which was about how the country mourned and grieved for the loss of the president this young man, you know And and it for his family his little kids and everything And I was so fascinated by that in fifth grade like that is not a normal thing for a fifth grade My parents I know my mom was a little worried going It's a little morbid. Why is she so fascinated? I'm like, I didn't know how to explain it But I was big time and so I got the book for For my birthday and I just devoured it and it means just such a thing learned everything I could about the kennedys Excuse me. Whoo. I do need a nap you guys. I need a nap specifically rfk and jfk specifically those two So When I saw this I was like, what it's 60 60 anniversary is it's perfect here to have a conversation about this So then I'm walking down so fast forward. I'm here, right? And I'm I'm walking down the street And I got to show you the eyes of the videos. I I think I can just put them on YouTube if I can't I can put them on facebook or uh tick tock can put them on my tick tock I might have already put them on my tick tock They might be on my tick tock anyway, so I It was the coolest thing. It was a beautiful day It was a sunny day a little bit windy because it's right by the beach And there's nobody else around and I'm just walking down this and I could see the house and I'm like, oh my god The kennedys could have been walking down the street and could have I mean, this is like no big deal You know and I'm just like, oh my god. I could just picture like photographs from like the 50s and the 60s the black and whites, you know And just their family kind of hanging out playing football, you know on the grass and it was it's a huge piece of land too like well relatively speaking it's oceanfront so it's big for oceanfront But you can't really see it you can only see the back on the side of it And there's like a stone what looks like a fireplace maybe going up the back with like windows and stuff And so you couldn't really get a good view. It's white couldn't really get a good view, but it was But it was enough for me You know, I was just just being there and feeling the earth grid and knowing that this is their family roots felt so amazing to me so Just feeling that right now and connecting into that. I'm like, what a gift And now I'm here and it's like two weeks from now is when the Anniversary of the 60th anniversary of his death is like that's a big deal That's a really big deal. So I imagine it's interesting because I imagine Jackie there And I know she's like not I mean she's the Kennedy by marriage, right? I imagine her there And I imagine the kids there her and john john And caroline just them playing there like having it be like this respite for them And it feels as though because I can feel her energy and she kind of comes through first her energy with her Like soft a little pink sweater that she has and her like to prepants And she feels just very much like this is our space like our space away from the world This is where we can be like typical family so to speak And where the kids can just play and be with their cousins and it's just it's like a safe space for them And that's how it feels very family oriented And so now I'm trying to feel into him and for him him and his brothers It's interesting because he's showing me like I see them like smoking cigars I don't know if they did or not, but it looks like they're smoking cigars No at a different time This is a different time because when I see her and the kids it's after he died Like it's a place for them to be and all that and just like this feeling of family and like It's getting away from like the reality of the world and here's a space for us But then I see him when I ask him I try to tap into him He shows me smoking like cigars and him and bobby and um Teddy seems a little more Teddy seems more disinterested. Let me just say that When you when I see that them talking about politics, there's his dad, you know, joe senior and and and The boys and and and then it feels like There's just this disinterested vibe Like teddy just seems like whatever And I'm like Geez teddy like he just doesn't seem like I'm like I don't I I'm not trying to be rude or disrespectful, but he just does not seem all that interested I don't know why but like it seems like jack Or you know john kennedy and bobby just seem more really more intrigued with like world events and um strategy and and Politics but they're they're talking they're not talking about domestic affairs. They're talking about global affairs So and it's not even like Bay of Pigs and Castro and all that kind of stuff. It's bigger than that. It's like Overseas stuff Like other wars and other places and like almost like this precursor Precursor russia scenario or something even something in like turkey or sudan They're showing me different things that I don't really know off the top of my head about um International relations. I mean I took some classes in college, but that was like 30 freaking years ago So you have to forgive me because I can't make the connections. I'm intellectually but Metaphysically there's all these things and they're fascinated by them. They're just really interested in them and um A lot of civil rights things but not not civil the civil rights stuff that is Was plaguing The us at the time was important and impactful But there was also this layering of this global politics that seemed like The place to focus for the united states in order for it to be like a superpower in order to be able to for it to be You know in command of its economy and to be really Very robust and have money to be able to support other smaller countries and and cultures around the world the us would need to be a force and Would need to really have a strong strong influence and leadership over other types of um not disputes but maybe um And not conflicts either but it kind of inserting ourselves and other things strategically Where we didn't have like a make or break scenario But where it was important enough where we could gain some influence and some some support But it wasn't direct It was kind of on the side coming into a big place on the side doing something for a large country By helping one of its allies without them having to directly help the ally because It would create some problems internally so instead we did it and then we gained some brownie points from that big superpower and it looks like china it looks like um Like the ussr. It looks like um Cuba doesn't look like a thing and I know it was but it like intellectual. I'm like, but I know it was But I think it was a honestly. I think it was a distraction It's how it feels That's what that's one of the vibe. I'm getting they're talking about it because I'm like Bay of Pigs and all that and they're like distraction But you still have to deal with it, but it's smoke and mirrors. It's a distraction You have to understand the economics of things and what's really going on here. What power plays are happening That's what you gotta know. That's what they're saying. That's what you gotta know interesting okay So do you have any recommendations when I say vision board because I'm doing a vision board thing Do you have any recommendations for vision boarding for the rest of us? Like setting intentions and you know, like you your life was cut short like abruptly and If it wasn't If you had the opportunity to really kind of think through our plan Plan ahead. What would you? What would you say to us? Maybe not about your life, but but just general about us and like that whole concept of because I'm in this place You guys where I'm like, how do you plan ahead? and Live day to day when you're like stressed about little things like the garbage bill Or because because like for example, like the money piece is a thing for me. Like I worry about money I mean a lot of people do I think but Then this happens and I have to I have to take a like a year leave of absence for my job at the community center because I can't lift I can't even drive for three months. I can't even lift a milk jug for two months. I mean, it's ridiculous and so I had to quit that job, which is sad because I liked it and it was additional supplemental income So I'm like, oh shoot So like that kind of thing like how do you Not stress out about the little things but also pay enough attention to them so that you can do the bigger things And you can contribute in bigger ways like if you are really upset about you know, the war that's happening You know the stuff that's going on in Gaza And you want to donate money or whatever like you can then you know if you have money But if you don't then how do you you just stress about it? Like how does that work? You know, and I'm not trying to be political, but I'm just giving examples And I'm not trying to not be political either because Honestly, you guys where I'm at now. It's like you guys everybody can have their opinions. That's fine I don't have a problem with it. Just don't be mean about it and don't expect me to agree with you because I'm not going to necessarily Got a 50 50 shot of that, baby So that's and that's okay. I really am fine with that. I really honestly. Um, my god, I don't care I don't care what you think because you're not paying my bills You're not doing my job. You're not taking care of my kids. You're not you're not here you know You don't have a you don't have a stake in my life kind of thing So I'm not going to let what you say or think affect me that much. I'm just not I just I'm not Unless you're part of my posse Then I got you, you know Then I got you back All right, so What do you think? I'm gonna ask them and see kind of see what I can feel. This is kind of nice because I'm channeling, but I'm doing it in a way That's really I don't want to say it's easy, but it's like feely. It's feely like I'm feeling their energy Oh, Lisa. Hey girl. Hey my friend from Florida, I can't read your comments. I'll have to do it later you guys I will promise I'll read them and I'll probably comment on them later. So I just can't do it where I'm Doing this too small He says I think he said I think the the key is to consider it like Curate it like an art gallery Curate the things that you want The things that you desire the things that you'd like to have an experience in this lifetime and you curate it Like an art museum It's not it's not as you have maybe depicted it in the past. He says It's not necessarily a library of wisdom or knowledge. Maybe for some maybe that's Part of what they'll curate wisdom or knowledge and and maybe for some it's about history or ancestry and maybe for others it's about Alchemy and understanding the elements and maybe for others. It's about About something completely different having a voice writing a book singing, you know music It's different for for each person. It's very very deeply personalized But it is The one thing in common is the space that you create for that And it's your space. It's yours. So when you say vision board the board and is the is the representation of the thinking space of the thinking mind coming together with the feeling And expressing that working together to express that And so It isn't something that is like a to-do list or a task oriented thing And I think that's where people get confused because we see it as like this project plan and these goals and these setting the goals And while that works well for the mind and for the the mental Application of something that especially when it's a group Goal or experience or a business or a mission or something like that or a project It helps to communicate that across all the people and all the functions And so there needs to be some of that articulation and shared definition of things but For what you're talking about for your life The alignment is within you And it's really about you understanding The understanding that you have and it's not even as much about understanding how you got here Why you have the desires or dreams, but to let yourself step aside from Stopping yourself from not from having those desires and dreams because it doesn't make sense with your analytical brain Or how your life looks now The idea of dreams and desires is something that is a stretch or a reach If it was so simple you would already have it it wouldn't be something you'd even think about it would already be here So it's it's different than oh how attainable is this It's this it's on a scale of one to ten. It's a nine therefore then I can have that no It doesn't matter how attainable it is It's just simply the acknowledgement of what the dreamer desire is he says because it's not even that You're trying to accomplish or create goals or create some kind of project plan around He says it's just the ability to see What is inside you in a different way and underneath that original identified dream or desire There's a whole host of other things clues and cues and information and tidbits of of Gems of wisdom that will give you more Inspiration to explore other things to learn more about other areas and other things that you've not done yet Or maybe you did when you were younger at one point in your life and now you get to come back to that But you would have never done that you would have never remembered that had you not Allowed yourself to release to ease up on some of the resistance For the dreams and desires to come through not because those dreams and desires are going to be accomplished or achieved or realized in this lifetime That is not the point of having a dream To accomplish it is not the point of the dream. The dream is not here to be accomplished It's here to breathe you A dream is here to breathe the life into you To give you whatever it is that you need To fuel you so that you can seek purpose and meaning and you can share that In the way that you only you uniquely you were made to share And it's not a bold proclamation Or a courageous thing necessarily So you see it's not it's not as grandiose As it as it's made to seem and he says and that's why I think people are afraid of that They're afraid of dreaming because if they share that with someone then there's this accountability piece. Well, that's different. He says that's different If you have something that comes from that dream Comes from it that feels like you want to manifest it or apply it bring it into real life Then you do that in ways like you use, you know, your your project planning Tools and techniques you use your vision your your goals and vision pieces you use things like that that help Create a structure that works to be able to articulate that to others and to bring it into the world But but that's not the purpose of a dream is to do that. It's not necessarily the outcome The outcome isn't necessarily that it's not always about the achievement. It's about the awareness of the dream Because that then will fuel other things that you need to do that you have to be doing in this lifetime That serves your purpose that connects you to your mission. That's the point that it really is the point Okay, so we can be free to dream Without the pressure Of feeling like we have to achieve or accomplish since we're in such a A driven society of outcome outcome outcome That's not to say we shouldn't should be lazy and not have action but there's got to be a balance between that I am learning that myself during this time because Action or success for me is walking up and down the stairs It's it's actually Give me my self permission to take a nap because I'm tired right now I'm tired, but I've been up since like four o'clock this morning. So that's probably why but Um, yeah, it's just that awareness, you know And not the pressure pressure pressure right All right, my friends. So that is that we have been having a conversation on above live channel I've been giving you some other skinny the background to my adventures in new england October of 2023 where I had my surprise open heart surgery and Shared with you a little bit about how I ended up in hyannis a hyannis port Thank you very much where the kennedy compound is look it up google it you guys I will have pictures and I will have a little video that I will post for you so you can see that Um, that was before my heart heart event My aortic dissection and aneurysm That happened on october 13th and 14th this year So I spent about a week in Cape Cod hospital and now I'm in Maine Which brings me to another important announcement I am actually going to be making my journey home To minnesota this weekend on saturday my sister my driver She's going to be flying into boston and then we're going to be leaving I think we might go through I don't know if we're going to go through connecticut new york. I'm not sure The route we're going to take but we're going to take our time We're going to drive five to six hours a day and that's it And the first day will probably only drive a couple of hours. So maybe we'll stay in connecticut or New york the first night. I'm not sure but um Because all I've already driven I will have already driven two hours that day and I have to be careful Because there's uh, you know some risks for me Um post-surgery I have to be real careful. Um, so I got to move a lot and be real hydrated and Yeah, I can't be in the car that long at one time So i'm going to have to take some breaks and stuff. So we're doing that but Then we're going to drive and we'll probably be home on tuesday or wednesday So so thank you by the way for those of you who have gone to above life channel on facebook Or I have gone to my bright and birch page on um, I think tick tock. Did I say sharing on tick tock tick tick tock tick tock whoops Um I posted my venmo Link to my venmo so that I could get support which I actually Helped me the financial support that I got originally helped me rent a car And pay for two nights hotel to get from Um main or to get from massachusetts high end of sport massachusetts To main to get here and it was a couple hours about three hour drive But we only went halfway because I couldn't go the whole way because I had just been released From the icu. I could not sit in the car that long So um, we did half half seas went halfway and stayed in um Portsmouth area new hamshire and then came to main So and then it's also the money that I've received. Thank you very much has also been helping me um Get like things like coffee and chocolates and actually I just got a target order Just got a target order with some Yummy healthy food because now I got to change my diet as you can imagine So I got some healthy food so that I can eat um Fresh veggies and fruit. So thank you for that. That was awesome. I really appreciate it. So Yeah, and oh and I got some slippers. I'll show you my slippers That's some cozy slippers. They're only like 12 bucks. They were cheap But I needed some because this house has hardwood floors. It's an old old house That's hard with floors and it was cold So I that's like the first thing I ordered was that and a little throw blanket that I could snuggle with um Because I knew I was gonna be here for a while so Um tomorrow will be four weeks. I think four four weeks post surgery I think tomorrow will be um On the eighth Is today the eighth? Yeah, today's the eighth, isn't it? I It's been a month since I've been here So I came here on the eighth So uh to new england. So I've been here for a month. I've been away for my kids They haven't seen me. They've only faced time to me Um, so I'm looking forward to seeing them and getting hugs and all that, you know, so Yeah, that's the next step of the journey So I'm uh rented a car I had I had to rent like a minivan so that I can sit up high Because I can't I can't bend over like if I drop something on the ground I can't pick it up I can't because it can't can't bend the incision like that because it It's a problem. Plus it really hurts inside horribly hurts. So you can't really do that So I had to get a minivan which is way more expensive than those little Toyota Corolla's and stuff But I can't push myself up with my arms. I just can't do that so um Did that I think I'm actually I have a hot pad right here Actually, I was gonna turn it on and I was talking to you and I forgot I also got a heating pad you guys because I really needed one so bad Which I highly recommend if you're like recovering from stuff and you need A super awesome heating pad. Hello Very good I'm gonna turn this to Let's do a number three. How about that four? Yeah, there we go Um, I think I might get one for the car ride because it helped my back It's really sore and achy and stuff because I can't like I said I can't sleep on my right side or left side and I always used to do that So it's weird so I can't sleep in long stents right now Which is normal. I'm sure this will all get better. I I'm sure of it you guys. It's just temporary That's the way I'm looking at it. It's just one thing. I mean like I said, hey, I got a body All right, like okay. Yeah, I got a body. I'm gonna work this body work this body Yes, I am so I'm thinking about getting one of those like Ones that plug into the car so I can have a heat Heating thing because I don't think the seats will be heated because it's not a fancy car I didn't get some SUV thing awesome. No, I'm sure it's not going to be heated So maybe I'll do that because that should help my back a bit too. So Yeah, all right. So that's that so we've had a little chat with I've shared with you a little bit about my experience in hyannis and in Cape Cod And we've talked a little bit about the Kennedys. We've had a little glimpse into them just a titch here So I hope you've enjoyed that Um, I hope I've inspired your spirit and filled you with some hope today and encouraged you to live your life It's your life after all and you get to live it Just live it I had no idea how important that tagline was going to be when I created it Just live it Lots of love to you guys. Thanks for being here. 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