 me and my wife, we both have decided to have a baby. So to plan for baby, we went to that hospital for counseling, like, you know, the guy into the hospital, like, we are planning to have a baby and just please suggest what are the things like, you know, we should be consider and things we should be careful about and what to eat and what not to eat. And that doctor has given us a very good counseling at the earlier phase. And during the whole process, like, you know, my wife got conceived in, like, one to two months after consulting with the doctors and there was no problem during the whole process. And there was a regular monthly follow-up and all the USG, all the animal scan, all the, you know, whatever they have access to do, the all the reports showing was good. The thing, the one complicated thing in my wife case is like in Nepal, most of the females, they are having a high thyroid. So, and she had also had a high thyroid. And, and just like when my baby was around 32, 33 weeks, and she had a, like, high liver function test also. And, and then then doctor consulted us, like, when you have a high LFT, then it will, it will be very difficult to have a normal delivery. So we might have to plan for the shears and, and like, during the whole 32 weeks of stays, there was no complication. There was my wife doesn't have to suffer a lot. Nothing has happened. Everything was going smoothly. And then even like, and her consolation, like, we took it as a positive mood and we followed what whatever they have suggested us. And, and like on 36 weeks, like around 35 weeks, what happened is like, you know, my wife again had a high itching and she was, like, you know, very worried, like, again, she might be having a higher LFT or not. And then next day we went to our doctor and she, she did the USC and she also did the the movement of baby inside the inside her stomach and then everything looks normal. And what our doctor had consulted that time is like, you know, it's now like his age was going through the USG was around 3 kg and she was telling us, like, you know, during the USG, there might be chances of having 5 to 10% of margin of error. So his weight must be 2.5 kg. So, and she was telling us, now it's good to have a, you know, the CS you can you can come anytime from today onwards, then you can have a shears. You don't have to worry about anything. Just just have a just have a shears. And in my family, we didn't have ours. My family was very small, me, my wife and my but my dad is very oldest, like he was around 84 years old and we didn't have a joint family. So we decided, okay, now doctor is asking us to have a shears and it's good to go anytime after this day. Then then we decided, okay, let's plan for the tomorrow or day after tomorrow. And next day we plan for a shears and we had a she had a shears delivery. And and he his weight during the birth was around 2.85 kg. And even there was a one score. I forget that terminology. There was a score like his score was nine out of 10 when the baby was one. Like, I just forget that terminated that score. There was one score something like that. And after 30 minutes, he started having fast breathing and his his face becoming blue. And the team suggested me like, you know, he's having a fast breathing, we should he should be admitted to NIHV and we should be giving oxy. He should be put under oxygen box and we said, okay, and then after like, putting oxygen box, even his breathing was not on control and they were telling me is like, okay, his his breathing is out of control. We he need to be under that ventilator, like he should be supported with the ventilator support. And that's okay. It's fine. If if the medical things are suggesting us to have a ventilator, then please have it him in a ventilator. And what is happening like after four to five days, he's out of ventilator. And he he's now breathing on his own. And and after when he was out of the ventilator, then the blood report came is like, you know, he had some infection from the ventilator, he had a hospital infection. And so he should be like around 14 days of cycle of antibiotic and after that he he he will be discharged. So so till 14 days, there won't be any problem like he had his vitals and everything was very good. He was on the NIHU department. And after 20 days, he got discharged. So after discharge, like his weight, your three, three kg plus, I think, and everything was good. So we took him home. And after three days, again, he had a high fever. And just before the fever, he had a 120 ml of milk. And he had a fever. And I we me and my wife, both was through already. And we took him to the hospital within hours, like in the evening. So when we we asked the doctor, he had a very high fever. And even we even before taking to him hospital, we consult with the doctor through the phone call and we give him a sit-up and even that sit-up his his fever was not getting down. So we were both ordered and we took him to the same hospital. And the doctor, the doctor was telling us like, you know, he need to be okay. So you guys are very worried. So we'll observe him for 24 hours, do the notice. So you you admit him and we'll we'll we'll look after him. So and even during the admission, they did a quick quick some test kind of sodium potassium. I forgot that name. And they said it's normal. So the latest observe him for 24 hours. Okay, it's fine. So next day, in the daytime, like, they, they call, they call, they call us and they will say like, you know, he might be having a meningitis kind of symptom. He we found him he he's having some seizure kind of activities under the NSU observation. So we might have to do the lumbar function test. So they have to take the fluid from his backbone. And we said, okay, this is the protocol, please take the lumbar function test. And what is happening that time was, you know, when they took the water from the lumbar function test at that time, he he there was a pause, like, you know, there was no clean water. There was a clear pause and which the doctor has not wait for the also report, like, you know, either there's the meningitis or not. And it is clearly showing is the severe meningitis. So they started giving the meningitis antibiotic. And they were telling me is like, you know, now he looks like he's suffering from meningitis. Now, again, we have to have him for 21 days of meningitis, antibiotic cycle. And after that, he he he will recover and he'll get discharged. So so on his 25th update, like he was discharged on 20, 20, 20, 21st day after three days, he again readmitted. So on 24 to 25th day, he he his meningitis antibiotic started. So technically on on the 46th day, he he'll he will be discharged. So every day on the next day on the morning, they did the counseling on an issue. And every day morning counseling was like, you know, his vital is work, his vital is good, he's feeding, everything is good. So he's under control. So from 25 to 40 days of day, every morning, they, they were giving up as the same counseling, there wasn't any fluctuate of any vital nothing, there was nothing to worry about during the footage there. So in the evening, my wife, me and my wife, again, visited the hospital and in the evening, like, you know, all the senior doctors, they, they go to house and the junior doctors work in the in the nighttime. So and in the evening, like my wife went to see the baby and she she bring one report, like, you know, the report was saying, like, you know, while doing the ultrasound of his head, they were showing the huge amount of pause. So they might have to do MRI for confirmation. And we both would show it, like, you know, MRI next day. And I was wondering how come, like, you know, the all of a sudden the pause came in his head and in his head and why we should be doing MRI. So we don't have any option. And, okay, we decided to do less to MRI. And MRI report clearly says that, you know, there was a too many of pause in his head and they have to do his neurosurgery to drain out those pause. And, and then the he's he's under the neuro neuro team that now the neuro team is looking after him and they were. So the MRI suggested, there's a good there's a pause and we have to do his head surgery for the first thing. And the the the objective of that surgery is to drain out all the pause. So first surgery happened. And, and after surgery, he he looks active. And after seven days, again, the ultrasound is saying showing that there is still a pause is there the amount of pause which is shown in the MRI is not drained in a collector. So they again suggested us to have another operation to drain out the pause from his brain. So I said, Okay, would it I didn't have any option. So if medically is saying the saying to have a hair surgery, let's do hair surgery. So on he had a second surgery after seven days. And again, after two weeks, again, the same team were saying the swing saying like, still there's a pause and we have to again do the another surgery, there is no any option. And even I didn't have any option to, you know, to say yes or no. And if this operation will going to save him, then please do. Then he had a third surgery. And after at the age of his 80 days of birth, and what they were saying, like, you know, now all the pause is drained out. Now he did he did has to the permanent solution is to put the son in his head. And so that the all drain water will go through the sun and and so that after that he can he will be discharged from the hospital. And on the on the day of eight teeth, like he had a son operation. And after staying 10 days around after 90 days, he got discharged having for surgery in his head. So I truly at that time, I was really convinced, like, you know, he had a way he will be going to have a very tough life because he had already for hair surgery, he will not going to have a normal baby like other babies. I was completely convinced, like, you know, and even I was convinced, like, is like, you know, he had a son to be son in his head. And that technique in in that is not a permanent solution. So there might be have there might be chances of having son tribulation in the future. I was just praying, like, you know, that son tribulation should happen only after five years at that time, his brain will going to grow again, grow and so that he can learn. So the even he will understand what is son and son as such thing. And the same team and now he was discharged after three months. And the same team what they have suggested also, like, you know, now we have to measure his head on a weekly basis. And also we have to do his ultrasound on a monthly basis. And on the same ultrasound report and the head measurement will be concerned with the neuro doctor. So that that neuro doctor told us, like, I should be follow up him for at least for two years on every month regarding his all the all the milestone deployment and his activities as so on a good faith, like, you know, we we me and my wife, we both knew that like, he was going to have a very challenge life ahead. And he his life is not going to normal like other babies. So we both were convinced, okay, let's give him a life. Let's try our best to, you know, whatever we can. So on every month. So we, we, we go to same hospital, we do USC from the same radiologist, and we, we take a print out that report to same new the new doctor from the same hospital. And based on the USG and the head measurement and the his activity, new doctor is giving us counseling. So after four months, after five months, after six months, there was a his or his hair size and the USC report, everything was looking normal on seventh of on the seventh month, the, the USC guy told us like, you know, there is some sound is not working properly and there is some water pressure on his head. So you are you must be like, if the if there is a water pressure, if the sound is not working, then he, he, he must go through the sound division operation that that water you really was told us and we are going to the report to you and he was saying is the, we didn't have to worry about it. So he told us one medical term, it was just an X vacuum. It's very common for in this case. So you would have to worry and you can go home and now on eighth month, the same drill is told us like, you know, now he's in the left side of his brain, there was 8.8 centimeter of water pressure. And so it looks like sound is not working. So you must do sound division operation that water already was told us. And we again, and so, so on us the same doctor like, you know, 8.8 centimeter like this side. And I told Dr. Dr. So this is quite big. So this suggesting us it's 8.8 centimeter. I'm really over again that what Dr. told us is like, you know, this should not be 8.8 centimeter. This should be 8.8 mm. So 8.8 mm becomes like this, this size. And I was, I was okay. If it is mm, then I didn't have to worry. It's fine. And he told us, okay, you can come next month. On the next month, the same drill is so nice. Like now he's that the pressure side is now 9.8 centimeter the left side and 2.8 at the right side. And I told this is like last month, the new doctor was suggesting this shouldn't be at CM. It should be mm. And that the little is told us like, you know, this is this cannot be M. This is CM is clear shown in the ultrasound report. And we both were worried. And then the new doctor came and we told him like, you know, even the last time it was CM now again, that this size is going to 9.8 centimeter. I'm really worried. And here at that time, that new doctor was also, you know, he was shocked to, you know, have a confirm of CM. His observation was mm, but it came to CM. And he told us on a very dark face, like saying, okay, let's do the MRI and just let's come from the MRI. So next day, he had MRI. And and MRI reports suggest that there is a huge amount of pressure in his head. And that ultrasound really was reports was came true. And and now we have, we have only one option to do sound revision operation. Okay. And we said, okay, let's do the sound revision operation. And this then the sound revision operation happened. And after operation, he, he was under observation on the NSU that the PSU department. And the next day, when he came back to our cabin, and the North came and he she started giving him a Sita Moldos, right. And my wife asked her, how much ML you are trying to give him the Sita Moldos. And she was saying it is around 66 ML like, and we my wife was shocked, like, usually when he had a fever, we give him 2 to 3 ML, the 66 ML is quite big. I think I think this shouldn't be given to him. Please confirm. And the North told us it's written in the card, the doctor has also suggested 66 ML Sita Moldos to him. And we will my wife RQ can see confirm. And later the North came, oh, just the 3 ML, it was mistaken. And at that time, my baby already had a two dose of 66 ML Sita Moldos earlier after the OT, right. And then after the Sita Moldos, my faith with the whole hospital, my faith with the whole team has like, completely broken. I, I trusted them so, I trusted them a lot. And the whole team whole, I have a good faith on them during the whole process. And I was very, you know, my baby had already four hair surgery. And that's its fifth operation. And this should be very careful about it. And I was completely shocked, you know, to see the thing happening in front of my eyes. And what is happening the next day, or the whole team also realized, like, realized, like, they had a mistake. And they also now they started giving him distilled water to, you know, to control, to remove the Sita Moldos thing ourselves. And whole, even though the management, even though the medical director came to us, they came, sorry, we had a mistake. And we'll try to, you know, do something for him. We try our best from a hospital and you don't have to worry. And we told them, like, look, his, his life is still challenging. He's like not, not a normal baby. And we are, we both are convinced, like, he'll be having a difficult life. But please try to give him a good care. And we, we are very, you know, worried to take him home as soon as possible. Please give your best to think about this thing. And we didn't do anything in the hospital during that time. And what happened is, like, you know, after four to five days, like, he had a fever, and he already have a already had a high dose of Sita Mold. And they told us, like, you know, they didn't have any medicine as such. So we just, we just give him the cold water. And I forgot this terminology, the cold water during the fever, like with the cloth and the cotton, cotton, cotton cloth and the cold water in his pocket. We didn't have any medicine to try to give this thing. So and, and we both were so tired and we requested the hospital, look, we both are very tired. Please take care of him from your side and we'll take a rest. Once his fever is down, we'll, we'll, we'll take him home. And during that period, please take care of him from your end. We requested the whole management and they said, okay, we'll take care of him and we'll, we'll try to recover his fever as soon as possible. So around, I think around after 14 days, his fever was on control and management team, okay, now his vitals are fine. His fever is controlled. Now you can discharge him. So I, and then what I did was like, you know, I want to have a meeting with the whole team regarding the thing like how the neuro doctor have mistakenly did 8.8 cm and mm things, how the, the CITAMOL things happen in front of me, right? And I, what I asked them is like, you know, look, my, my baby will be having very tougher life ahead and he had already a five-year surgery. I, you guys know what she's all, you know, like what is happening to him and what do you, what action should be taken to him. If I argue, if I, you know, argue with you guys, if I argue with the management, then I don't have any option to take him to another hospital because you guys know him from the day one. So I request you guys to accept like, you know, you guys had some mistake during his caring and, and please suggest me a way forward like how we can go ahead and what, what treatment you will, you will going to offer him in the future if, if he had some problem with his health. And that time what management told us like, you know, you are not a doctor and you can't point us any mistakes. There is no mistakes from outside. And they were saying, we can't take any action to the divo doctor. We can't take any action to those sitamal overdose team. And, you know, the, the whole management is like, they took the 180 Utah and they were saying, we haven't made any mistake as such. If you, if you see any mistake, then go to court, go to Nepal Medical Council and show us, like we did a mistake. And I was completely helpless at that time. And okay, like, okay, then I take my baby, he was discharged from the hospital. And then I started reading all the, his medical report during his like, you know, birth to be very honest with you, I had no idea about those medical terminologies. I had only like, you know, the only medical term I know is the paracetamol and the, you know, diarrhea. I didn't have any idea about this neuro thing, this, this song thing. And then after discharge from his, I started reading all the medical journal, I started consulting all the doctors. And what I came to conclusion is like, you know, look, this is not just a minor error, this is a gross negligence error. And I have to submit a case file and I, I write the case file myself and submit it to the Nepal Medical Council. And they did a investigation. So I'll say that English, the investigative report with you guys as well. So what, and from their finding what they have given is like, you know, the sitamal overdose is a mistake. And then the neuro doctors are also not a mistake. And there was a like, you know, like I said, on 25th day, when he, he, when I took him to the hospital and they, they did a lumber function, they was a force and even the on 25th day, they really, really was, you know, did a USG and he suggested like, you know, they were the debris in his head. And we must hear the hospital, the doctor they must do MRI to confirm on 25th day that the really was also suggested that he should go do MRI, but they, they didn't tell us about those things. And they told us on 14th day, like, you know, he had to go to MRI. So these three findings were found from the NMC in the initial investigation. And they gave me this report. And from the NMC, like they, they, they have pointed the hospital management, there was a miscommunication, even the minor, minor, minor mistakes has been shown in the report. And after that, the hospital didn't do anything. And even they were not initiated to accept any mistake. And then the NMC told me it's like, I have to go to court to, you know, to, to give, to fight against the hospital to punish the doctor. And what NMC did is like, you know, they had just one doctor, the, the, those doctor who put, who gave 66 ml, that doctor was out of duty for seven days. And all the other team, they, they just gave a warning only they haven't took any action, they haven't suspended, not of not for one day, the one doctor was suspended for seven days. And that's it. And then I, and after like, and then I went to court, high court, we have a, like high court and the high court had predicted or almost after two years, like, you know, okay, should have made a mistake. And you have to give him compensation assets. So that was the, like the, the, the, that report came like last month. So I'm still waiting for the full court report. So the, which was from the high court. So that's it. So the condition of my baby's name is Rihan. So condition of Rihan is like, you know, he has no brain. He has no sin. He's fully bedridden. And we have to feed him. He can't do anything. He don't cry anything as such. He always stay in the bed. We feed him. And he had a, his vitals are always good. And he suffer mostly from a fever and a cough. That's it. So, so he's just breathing like at the moment. And if like, as per my, my observation is like, you know, when he, when he had to go through the ventilator on the day one, and he had an infection at that time, he already had a meningitis. And the whole doctor team was just looking after the, the blood, blood infection only at that time, I'm sure he had already had a head meningitis and they missed that part. And after my baby incident, they, they had changed the NSU protocol, like if the infant is having a fever from the ventilator, they must go through the blood report as well as the number function test. So from the NMC side, they told us like, you know, on 25th of the, the USC doctor told us to have MRI, but they didn't told us about anything about MRI. And they didn't, you know, they haven't, on 25th, their finding was very crucial. If, if we managed to had a sparse drain out on 25th, they, they, they, they might be good signs. Like, you know, he'll have a very good condition at the moment. But unfortunately, he had a soldier in the 48th day. So that just too late, I think he's my first baby. And like, I think seeing your baby in front of you, I'll have a very different experience. Even like that, that happiness you feel when you see your baby, you can't explain like that was my first experience. And I was really happy while seeing him in the NSU. And like you said, regarding hospital, it was one of the very renowned hospital. It's an international hospital. And all the doctors, they are, are very professional. So I have to, you know, when you, when I'm going to the international hospital, my understanding is like, you know, they, they all are very good. They follow the good protocol and I have to trust them, you know, the only thing that, you know, that hit me very hard is like, you know, if I just cross-seq the, cross-seq the report with another doctors, then I don't think he, he will have to go through this suffering at a lot. So the only mistake I did was like, you know, I just follow their counseling. I just, you know, I said to whatever they have told to me. So regarding denial, like, you know, look, they are also the human. I am also human. I also make a mistake. There is, there is nothing as such, like, you know, you are a doctor and you're not a mistake. Everyone who's going to make a mistake. The thing here is like, you know, it was just not a mistake. It was like, you know, what is happening to him and you are not setting the whole process to me. And that's why he has to suffer. He has to suffer from a day one to, you know, his four years till his age. So it's a, I'm still shocked why they, they are not accepting the facts. And I'm still wondering how they will sleep on this gift. Like, you know, what they had did to him during the his treatment. So to the new parents, like, like when till his age of two years, I couldn't sleep properly. I have to lift my job. I have to give up my project. And financially in Nepal, we didn't have insurance as such. It will go through your whole hard money. Financially, I was almost zero. Mentally, I was almost zero. And to the newer parents, what, what I suggest you is like, you know, just have a concern and just cross-check the finding told you, told to you by doctor with other as well. In my case, I just, you know, I take it very normal. I take it as a very on a good fit from those experts. But sometimes you have to cross-check with other as well. So I suggest just cross-check your finding with other doctor. That's it. What I think is like, you know, like he like in his first MRI report, he is the reports shows us like, you know, there was a 80% of brain damage in his MRI report. And after counseling with the other doctor after this incident, they were telling me is like, you know, there is no point of doing surgery as so many times. There is no point of, you know, trying to save his life. Like, everyone is saying like, you know, I forgot that terminology, like, you know, there is like, there's one tomology in medical, like, whatever you do, you do treatment, there won't be any improvements. So in that case, you have to, you know, accept the facts and put it as natural. So, but in terms of in private hospital, when they do surgery, when they give me a test report, they are earning very good money. But this thing will not happen in a government hospital, but in Nepal, the government hospital services, in terms of treatment, it's amazing. But in terms of getting the cue, like, you know, everyone will go to government hospital. And it's very difficult to have a, you know, all of you to get the surgery on time, to get the cue. So those who have a very good link, good network, they will get it on time. But that's why the in Nepal, all the private hospital, they are giving me good services. And my only concern is like, you know, I'm paying a good amount, but still they are not giving me the right treatment, they are still not giving me a right counseling. So that's the only disappointing thing from my side to hospital at the moment. I didn't have any, like, you know, the revenge kind of thing with those doctors and even the hospital, whatever had happened, there was a very bad thing. And it was a very unfortunate thing happened with me. The only concern is like, you know, if they accepted their mistakes, and if they, you know, if they are ready to, you know, take care of him in the future, like, I won't be sad, but then I can't do anything. And from the family side, you know, like, no one will try to, you know, everyone will try to save your family member from the any diseases and but in my in his treatment, he has already gone through five head surgery in the age of nine months. And in my family member, my senior family member, they were like, you know, very worried, like, you know, I have lost, I have put so much of money in his treatment, and they were very, you know, hesitant, like, you know, he won't be like a normal baby. And why I'm trying so much to save him through those treatment in Nepal, like, what will happen? The family, they calculate the money. And if they don't have the money, they stop doing treatment to their babies. In my case, he already he has no brain. I know that. But I have to save him in any case. But my family, my close, they haven't told me in front of my face. But that's the, you know, saying in the back of when I was not there, they were saying I tried too much to, you know, save him. And that's the feedback from the family. And luckily, in terms of my me, my wife, we both have the same understanding. He, he, he has already had a birth here. Now we have to give our best to give him, you know, whatever we have. So there is no any if else we have to give our best to, you know, support his life. So this is between me and my wife, but my family has a different position. And even the, I didn't have any hard, any enemy, any revenge with my doctors and anything. I have a very good pet with them. So, so I don't have any bad thing with the doctors and the hospital as of now. The only thing like in my case, there was no transparency and even the accountability was not there. So whatever is the report, if they tell told me on a very on if they told me in front of me and they have shown if they have explained me, you know, pros and cons of what is his condition, if they clearly mention everything about his future and everything, then the situation would be different. And in terms of accountability, like, look, when he had a overdose of sitamal, whole management came and they say sorry, and they were saying like, you know, we'll do anything to save, save him. And after when he's, when he was discharged, and then they were saying, we haven't made any mistakes. We can't do anything. We can't take any action with those doctors and nurses. And they were telling me, you can go to the court and NMC. So in terms of accountability, I haven't seen any accountability from them. And also transparency, if they have said his real condition to me, then there would, there will be a different condition history, if they have clearly said me the real report and assets. I'm going to put some improvement because I think this is the, I think this is the second case where like, you know, someone from Patentside who put a file against the private hospital regarding medical negligence and Patentside at the own. This won't happen in Nepal. So when in the from the legal side, if someone went the case and it could, it will be easier for other other parties in the future, you know, they, they, they can, they can take the, take the example of my case. And even there was a terminology in legal, like, you know, this is the example said has been through from the, those charges and, and everything. So next time, some, if someone has issue with the hospital, they can give my reference to the charges and the court and they can, there's a high chance that the same patient party will get a good favor because the favor has been already given to me. So based on those legal clause, they might have a chance to, you know, get party from the court in their favor. This thing I always told to my wife, like, you know, those doctors, they are, they are working in one organization. My, my God's feeling is saying is like, you know, they are, they are not allowed to speak portionally in position. They are not allowed to speak outside the hospital because that's their cake. This is the, that hospital is the way they are working. So if they start speaking against the hospital, then they will gonna lose the job. And from my deep inside, I still feel like, you know, they have some kind of, you know, sympathy and I still believe in a coming days, they will, they will confess what had happened and, you know, and they will accept like, you know, they had made a blunder mistake. So I'm just assuming. So hope this, this will come true, but they all knew it's a gross negligence. But because of the hospital and organization, they are not allowed to speak, I think people go to hospital for the treatment. They have a very good faith. Like, look, this, my case has been viral all over Nepal. Like, if someone had a neuro thing, they must have read my, my story. So in the hospital, I'm still wondering why they are accepting even that after an MC decision, they should accept like, you know, we had made a mistakes and we'll try to, you know, improvise our system or try to improvise our protocol. But as of date, they haven't done anything. So this is very from my personal observation, this is not a right approach. You know, you are, you are, you have a very good hospital, you are giving so many, you are giving so many jobs to so many staffs, like you are already creating good job opportunity for so many staffs. So organization like hospital, who whose main, main motive is to save life to give a good care and they are still not speaking, they are still not accepting is like very wrong thing they are doing as of now. It will be very good for them if they accepted and they have, you know, and try to come in front of me and, you know, take care of the ring, but I don't think that will gonna happen. Regarding in Nepal though, like look, the Nepalese health system is very, very poor. Like, like, luckily, we live in city, we have an SS to a good hospital, but the people living in their villages, they don't have any SS to a good healthcare and they don't understand those protocols. So if I have to talk of the cities, if I have to talk about the hospital, then what I believe is like, you know, there has to be very good documented counseling, documented, you know, what to do, what not to do, you know, the hospital side, they always try to focus on taking the consent sign only, but they are not, you know, they are not taking initiative on giving a recorded counseling, you know, documented counseling, what they have counseled to the patient party. In my case, if you, if I have to, if the doctor have to speak, they will have another story, you know, I don't know, I have told Sanjeev this, this, this and he's exaggerating the whole thing, this might be the version of their doctor, even in, when they, they, they, they distribute between patient side and the hospital, the hospital side answers always the same. Like, you know, we have explained him properly, but he's not listening. If this thing just came in the documented form, then the 50 to 60 percent problem won't happen onwards. This is what, this is achievable and this is possible. At first, there has to be a very written counseling from the hospital side, then it, this is going to improve a lot. After this incident, like, you know, I started talking about the neuro neurologist issue, the hydrocephalus thing. I've started advocating through social media, through news, through article. So, when my baby story came in the news, I hardly, like, I, I got around 100 plus messages from the mothers and going to be parents very soon. And they have so many questions, like, you know, okay, I'm, I have also have a high thyroid. I have also with high LFT. My son also had a one surgery. They have so many questions. And I'm, I'm wondering, like, you know, there has to be very good, you know, information, like, you know, there is, there is no any good information in the internet as well. So, in my case, I go through all the journals and all the medical thing. But if you, if you are a patient side and you want to have a second opinion, export second opinion, there is, there is no any export second opinion here in Nepal. In Nepal, like, you go to one doctor and if you go to another doctor, that doctor, what he will do is like, you know, he'll, he'll give a wrong, he'll again say the bad about another doctor and he tried to bring their passion to his hospital. So, this is, this is very common here in Nepal. So, if they, if there's a very good I don't know, the free second opinion thing, free doctors, you know, who advocate, who counsel, who address the questions of the parents, then then that we're going to help a lot. But if you have to, if you again go through good with other private hospital doctors, then you'll, you'll not get a good counseling, I think. Look, the damage has already been happened. So, there is like only miracle, like, you know, only miracle can change the thing. And the, the, why I'm fighting as a daddy is like, you know, no other parent has to go through what I'm going through at the moment, because honestly, he was born in 2018. During his, that time, I have, mummy and my wife career was on top. We both were doing so good in terms of our job, in terms of our professional. And in two years, my wife left the job. I have also left the job. And we both started carrying him for two years, we expense, we expense so much of money. And then COVID happened. And what I decided is like, you know, okay, now COVID happened, I have to stay in the home with him. So I sold my car. I sold my car and told my wife, look, this COVID is not going to stop in one to two months. This is going to happen at least for two to three years here in Nepal. So we'll just take rest. We try, we'll try to, you know, mentally strong and have a good quality of life. And then from COVID-19, luckily, I got good job from working from home. I started working like, you know, morning to midnight till 11 to 12 every day. Like I work 14 hours per day from 2022. And luckily, like everything is happening good. And we also had a second baby during the lockdown. With the re-hand, we have already accepted what has happened to him. And we both are feeling proud, you know, our life is now back to normal. And we try to give him whatever we have as of now.