 From my personal experiences that it's it's I need to find a way to correct that destructive behavior that I've been on that downward spiral my mental health is following my channel's health uh and I need to correct that so I can continue to do what I wanted to originally do the gaming youtuber chilled chaos just made a video it's called let's chat and he has over 1.4 million subscribers but you just made this video talking about how he's depressed so let's talk about it what is up everybody this is chris from the rewired soul where we talk about the problem but focus on the solution and if you're new to my channel my channel is all about mental health so what I like to do is pull different topics from the youtube community to try to teach you how to improve your mental and emotional well-being so if you're into that kind of stuff make sure you subscribe and ring that notification bell so first and foremost a huge shout out to I think she's a new subscriber her name is jasmine k and she's like yo I've seen chilled chaos and I'm like no and I was eating dinner and bored I'm like let's see what's going on and I watched and this guy chilled chaos he seems like a cool guy I am a gamer as well not on this channel but play a bunch of games but anyways yeah I thought there was a lot of good points to touch on it so anyways now that this channel is growing a little bit you guys are getting to know me like I want to talk a little bit about myself what I'm trying to do what my plans are what my expectations are and here's the thing I am probably going to get comments down below like I did on my marzia video did I say marzia right did I say marzia right I don't know anyways so um yeah a lot of people like you don't even know him bro you don't even know him and I'm like I know like my videos are not for all of these youtubers my videos are for you okay I'm a tiny tiny tiny tiny drop in the ocean that is youtube but for all of you I hope you know you can learn from these because why do we watch youtube why do we watch our favorite youtubers we watch our favorite youtubers because we can relate to them on some level you know maybe if it's chilled chaos you love the games he plays and his personality and all that but other like vloggers and things like you might be able to relate to them and connect to them so if you can relate to them then maybe what might help them might help you as well and I hope that makes sense but this is a little bit of a pipe dream of mine and it's it's interesting too because I made a video about shame not long ago and I talked about unsolicited advice and I try not to give unsolicited advice but what I try to do is use examples to help others if that makes sense but I would love you know at some at some point like I just love helping people with their mental health and you know I would like I would hope that maybe some youtubers out there like yo I watched your video about what you thought I should do and I did it and it helped I'm like cool because that's what I do that's what I do I help people they tell me about their issues and what they're going through and I give them some suggestions and I try to help them with their mental health that's what I do so I don't know if chilled chaos will ever see this video but more importantly this video is for you so uh yeah and those of you don't know me I give some tough love there are going to be some tough love moments in this video so that is your warning all right so anyways chilled chaos I don't know much about him so that's the first thing I'll say I do not know much about him so disclaimer I do not know much about chilled chaos I just watched his first video because it was recommended to me he referenced back to a different video which I checked out so that is all I know of him right but I see a lot of similarities between him and other youtubers who are dealing with these mental health issues right so anyways chilled chaos he's been on the platform for about 10 years and basically in this video the last chat video he talks about you know how he hasn't been happy he hasn't been happy since like January right and we're sitting in October not being happy since January and now it's October that is a long time that is a very long time like according to the DSM like that long of not being happy if you have specific symptoms of depression like you can get diagnosed by a mental health professional for having a mental health disorder right um specifically major depressive disorder so that's a long time that's a long long long time so what I want to do is I want to break down some parts from his video and just kind of share a little bit of my experience my tips my advice because if you can relate to what he is then maybe this video will help you out but I really need to talk to a therapist I need I need someone who's got the education and and then know how to kind of put me on a right corrective course and not a destructive course so right here he talks about how he needs to go see a therapist and he should see a therapist and he referenced his exposed video where he talked about it so I went to his exposed video from two months ago I don't know if that's the one he was referencing because I didn't see him talk about therapy but he talked about two different questions he talked about depression but he also talked about his relationship with his mother too so chill chaos is like a lot of us we've had a lot of stuff go on in our lives and until we process those things in a healthy way like I'm letting you all know right now the stuff from your childhood is still with you like I used to think all that like that childhood stuff and that I thought that was all baloney until I understood how the brain works I understood neuroscience like if we don't deal with that stuff if we don't deal with our abandonment issues if we don't deal with our trust issues if we don't deal with our our fear of like failing and all these things from our childhood we are going to be a victim of those same problems as an adult so one of the things that I just want to talk about first and foremost and there's gonna be a theme throughout the video it's like I don't understand why we joke about like getting therapy like it's just like passing like fleeting thing that we say like oh yeah I should probably go to therapy right like chill chaos actually talked about how we need somebody who's educated in mental health to help guide him on the right path like he knows he needs it like something that's been coming up and one of you was been we're binge watching my channel I have a really old video called common sense versus common action and a lot of us have common sense but we don't have common action for example common sense is that I should quit smoking that's common sense but am I taking action no I'm not like that's something I'm dealing with right now but I see that a lot with mental health help right common sense is I should get therapy common sense is I should have a support group common sense is I should do a b and c all these other things but what action are you gonna take and I say this because you know for me when I was really down and struggling with my mental health we're talking about alcohol and drug addiction addiction we're talking about being suicidal we're talking just about terrible relationships all sorts of stuff I remember like joking with my friends while getting messed up and saying like oh we should go you know to like therapy or go into a 12-step program and then we just like ha ha ha and we laugh about it but six years ago I almost died like we need to take these actionable steps and do something to go get help all right and this is something like I love about so many of you watching my channel like I've done some videos like in the past few days where I've gotten a little bit tougher on all of you and so many of you said like Chris that inspired me to get my butt up and go do something and I am just like yes yes yes yes that makes me so so so happy so if you haven't done something yet today like do something do something even if it's just researching getting help do something take one small snap towards getting help I I think I think really YouTube needs to come with a free license to uh to a therapist hey hashtag what's that website that everyone was upset about anyway um just because there's so much volatility with this job now something he's talking about oh my god this is interesting because I've actually heard other youtubers say this and it's nuts and I'll try to I'll try to keep this short-winded but like people say like YouTube should come with a therapist right like YouTube should come with a therapist so many people are talking about mental health it's like no YouTube shouldn't come with a therapist like that's on you like here's the problem and here's one of the reasons why I teach my son the importance of his mental health is because the schools aren't doing this this is a school problem this is an educational problem right like no matter how many math equations you know or how many rings on Saturn there are that you memorize or if you memorize a president or no physics like this doesn't help our mental and emotional well-being like schools that have implemented meditation have like way way more success rates than like anybody else and it's because their students have more um uh regulation over their emotions right so like this isn't a YouTube problem it's because we've been trained from a young age that stuff is going to make us happy and this is something that chilled chaos might be dealing with notice how I said might for all of you who are gonna freak out at me in the comments like you don't know him but anyways he might be struggling with this because I mentioned this in my uh one of my videos the other day like it's that thing we always think that something is going to make us happy and for a lot of youtubers it's the views or the subscribers or the dollars whatever it is so chilled chaos talks about how he was going crazy and over analyzing his analytics and yes yes like I'm obsessive too I can do that I can sit in my analytics all day long I'm telling you all right now any of yours planning on starting a YouTube channel or any kind of social media thing my channel did not start growing until I stopped caring right until I stopped caring but here's my other tip for chilled chaos as well as all of you gratitude gratitude gratitude gratitude gratitude gratitude right like as somebody who just hit 20,000 subscribers I'm like yes this is amazing and then I see somebody like chilled chaos like throughout the video he's talking about how you know like his channel is not growing he's not getting the many views and all of this and that the dude has over one million subscribers like that is the size of like a decent sized city you know what I mean we have to be grateful for what we have and my girlfriend reminds me of this all the time all the time right keep comparing myself to others and all this I keep seeing other channels go viral and everything right and I keep looking at that and she's like Chris you have 20,000 subscribers and you know what helps me out too like some of you out there who have created YouTube channels like I subscribe and I check them out and like some of you like have like 20 or 30 subscribers and you are ecstatic and I'm like man like that helps bring me back that helps bring me back down and be grateful for what I have like seeing how grateful you are for just one new person subscribing like yes so like I think what happens with a lot of YouTubers is that they what you know what it's not even YouTubers our bar for contentment is constantly changing right like think about when you were a kid think about when you were a kid do you remember when you were a kid when like ten dollars felt like a million dollars right then you were like a teenager and then like a hundred dollars felt like a million dollars but now like we're in this place where we need like tens of thousands or millions of dollars in order to be happy right so as we change as we get older like we keep moving our own goal line right and that's one of the issues that we're all struggling with and we need to be mindful of that and I'm telling you gratitude helps bring that back and looking at others helps keep you humble and be even more grateful for what you have again this isn't supposed to be like oh pity me party because I swear to god there's only pity fucking comments in the in the channel I can't say that because I will demonetize the youtube video if there's any pity comments in the channel no I am not looking for pity or or or I'm not looking for pity or a cry or chill that's you're gonna be so good it's so fun no I'm not looking for that I am just telling you how I feel and I want you to understand that a lot of us feel the same way he talks about uh having a pity party and like and it sucks it sucks man like I hate how we have to do that you know like I hate how we have to do that right like can we just talk about how we feel like can we can we just talk about how we feel without having a motive you know and it's funny because I've talked about some youtubers and how manipulation works and stuff but I don't know like from what I've seen from chilled chaos he seems like he's legitimately struggling right now he's not trying to get a pity party or anything like that but like I've tried to tell you all like a million times quick caring so much what people think like yeah open up to people talk to people like I'm glad that someone like chilled chaos as well as many other youtubers are opening up about their mental health right and if anybody says that you're trying to just get a pity party like screw them forget about them and I'm gonna create something whether by myself with other people and I'm gonna do that because I've wanted to do that for the longest freaking time I'm also going to learn how to cook so right here he talks about these new things that he wants to do these new things and like here's the disclaimer for this okay this stuff might work it might right but here's my concern and here's my concern with a lot of you too because it's something that I used to do when we hit this depression right when we hit this funk we just started thinking our mind starts going crazy and it's almost like this formula like mania right and we're just like you know what you know what I need to exercise more I need to cook I need to clean I need to do this I need to do something I need to find these new hobbies right and it's like here's my fear with that I see people who think those things are gonna fix them they just want to try everything like don't get me wrong like you have to find new passions you have to find what you love doing like chill chaos mentions in this video his hobby became his job right and and it's a tricky balance because my hobby is learning about mental health and helping people with their mental health and that's kind of my job too but I love it I love it every single day right but my fear is that he's going to go out and try to like just chase these things that aren't going to make him happy but again this is why you speak to a mental health professional you speak to a mental health professional because here's what I've seen happening to a lot of people a lot of people they're like you know what I'm gonna start doing yoga five times a week I'm gonna cook I'm gonna go like read all these self-help books I'm gonna do like a juice cleanse they do all this stuff then they're still miserable and then what it does is it increases our hopelessness and we don't want to try to get better again and I hope that makes sense so this is why you should work with somebody who has an objective point of view right so chill chaos has a fiance she might not be the best person be like yeah yeah that's a good thing you should go do this like an outside person and that's why therapists are so great so chill you you talked my ear off what is what is actually changing uh well one I'm gonna try and better myself uh that's the first thing I'm gonna change I'm gonna try and mentally better myself physically better myself and that's just me telling you from a content creator to an audience that doesn't change anything that I'm doing but I'm letting you know that there are things that are wrong with me that I'm going to try and fix so this is the last uh clip I want to show you where he says he's gonna try to better himself and it reminds me of ace three ace three like Ethan Klein when he was he's talked about this for months months all year like people are even like accusing him of just trying to get pity but like there's so many people who who just say I'm gonna try to better myself I they say it right like we can say this all day long like one of my favorite sayings is like this old like I don't know thing that people used to say right like if there's three birds if there's three birds sitting on a wire right and one makes a decision to fly away how many birds left there's still three because making a decision doesn't mean jack right so what is trying to better yourself mean what does that mean for you and this is different for everybody what does it mean to try to better yourself because we can think about all this stuff again it's common sense versus common action but I would recommend speaking with some kind of mental health professional even if you just tried therapy for a month for a month I don't care like check with your insurance company see if there's any therapists that are under your insurance and boom go do your thing baby but something I see a lot of youtubers struggle with is their powerlessness over YouTube right you have no control over what the audience wants what the algorithms are gonna do if YouTube's gonna you know demonetize you and all these other things and this is why I love you know people who work on an internal locus of control right so people with the external locus of control think that they have no control over anything that happens people with an internal locus of control they know that they have control over things that happen right so like with shield chaos I would say this through my brief research of him he's not doing he's not doing everything he can to bring in an income and I know he's talked about buying a house I know he has a wedding coming up and all of that and like you cannot just depend on YouTube you know like people out there who are like doing well right they don't depend on YouTube there are people with far less subscribers than people like chilled chaos making a million times more money because they're diversifying right they're doing speaking engagements they're writing books you know they're doing all sorts of things they have patreon that like ah like there's so many things and this is how you take control of what you're doing but I see so many people on YouTube just you know relying on YouTube for everything and like that's just the worst thing you can do when trying to do YouTube do not rely on YouTube I've only been on the platform for like a little over a year and like I can't rely on it you know what I mean so I can only imagine these people who've been trying to rely on it and all these things have been changed like chilled chaos over the last 10 years you know what I mean but anyways I'd love to know your thoughts if any of you have experienced any of these things if you can relate to anything chilled chaos is going through like let me know down in the comments below all right anyways thanks again jasmine for recommending I check out this video and if you like this video please give it a thumbs up if you're new make sure you subscribe and ring that notification bell and a huge thank you to everybody supporting the channel over on patreon I love you all so so so much and if you would 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