 party started. This is yesterday's drawing. My name is Kim Dias Holm, also called then unge her Holm. And I'm an artist releasing art for free use. So what you see here will be made available for everyone as soon as it's scanned. Good morning Kim, good morning Kermito. Good to see you. Okay, today is another one of those days where I will try to get through this live as quickly as I can due to all the reasons. Just for fun, good evening. Good to see you too. Excellent. And Mona, we have a whole bunch of regulars here today. That's fantastic. Thank you so. Oh, leafy. Thank you so much for still sick. I mean, the COVID has released its grip, but I'm still after COVID feeling and my mental health is not good at all. Not good at all. It has taken loads of things, has taken a toll on me lately and especially, I mean, the COVID seems to be the straw that broke the camel's back, so to speak. But I am used to these things. I've been living with my bipolar disorder for, you know, since I was, I mean, 13, 14. So I've been living maybe like 30 years like this soon. So I'm kind of used. What helps mental health for you personally? I need physical, I need physical exercise for my health, for my mental health. I need to have a balance between a lone time and social time. And I need creativity and to express myself. So that's something I need. New feature. Yes, the YouTube live stream is the new feature. I mean, cold showers, running, lifting weights, being outside, being creative, having time to relax, having time by myself and having a little bit of social time as well are all things that help my mental health. But the thing is, no matter if I have all those things, my overall moods seem to be going up and down in some sort of written rhythm. And that's why I've gotten the diagnosis of bipolar. I imagine every shower in Norway is cold. No, we have electricity. COVID takes a little bit of time. Brain fog after COVID is normal. Hope you get better soon. Yeah, it's not just brain fog. It is also without going into details. It's been a challenging month on many fronts. And everything has taken its toll. And I'm very blessed and very lucky and very privileged to be in the position I am in. Hey, Ellen Gertamer. But it still feels hard from my point of view. Leafy says I am autistic. Do you have experience with it or things similar? So there are definitely things in how my mind functions that is close to close to the spectrum. And there are things in how my mind functions that are close to ADHD. And these are also all of those types of definitions are not, they're not set in stone. They are gliding fluid definitions. But I have taken a lot of tests for things like ADHD and autism. And the signs are very clearly that even though I have a few traits that are similar or typical of autism, there are a few things where I don't only lack the traits, but I am fundamentally differently built than most autistic and also than most people with ADHD. And bipolar seems to fit my diagnosis. That being said, there are a lot of similarities between bipolar, ADHD, borderline personality disorder and autism. Not always, but there are some. And in my view, and you can correct me if you think otherwise, the thing we call bipolar disorder is probably at its core a difference in, and it is in itself perhaps not linked to depression and mania, but as a result of having to live in a society that is fundamentally opposed to those rhythms, we get traumatized and that results in hypomania and depression and or mania and depression. I have had a few classes for people with autism. There are classes and I see a lot of fields where I can relate very much to the autistic experience, even though the autistic experience is different for every person, of course, but there are also some parts where it is particularly difficult for me to relate to or to communicate with some autistic, but it is difficult to communicate with some people. I mean, that is people are different, people are difficult, no matter what. But I do think there are a lot of methods and experiences that neurodivergent people can share and learn from each other. So, yeah. Does your sons and paint nails taken after you, like daughters tend to do after their mothers? I mean, that's sort of up to them. I almost have no energy lately, to be honest. That sucks. Today, I'm going to try to do this as quick as possible and just end the live because I also have no energy and I mean, this is good for me, coming here and chatting and having to focus a little bit. That's perfect for me, but I can't be sitting around for an hour and chat like I always or usually end up doing. So, I have to set down rules for myself and protect myself because my mental health isn't good these days. And because the keyword today was showing me something I don't know, I thought a very simple solution would be to draw a stupid little monster that you don't know. You don't know this guy. Looks like a Pokemon, but he's not. So, you don't know him. You don't know. You don't know what it's like. That's what I'm going to say. And you don't know what it's like. Oh, it looks like it's from Wonderland. Yes, because it's so wonderful. Yeah, but you know, keep it simple stupid as the saying goes. Keep it stupid simply as to say it goes. That's the word for today. So, hopefully you will still enjoy this short live. Hi Anthony. I still love it. Thank you. Your dreams have meanings. My dreams. Hey Kim, I love all your artwork and videos. Thank you. For all the creativity that you bring to my For You page. Thank you. Thank you. It is a very thankful position to be in to have strangers compliment you like that. What do you do to make your day better when you have bad difficult days? So, today I haven't done much to help myself get better. I've rather focused on doing a lot to help myself get worse, which isn't quite as ideal, but that happens some days. And you know what? I'll just be honest and say that today I I know a lot of things I should have done. I should have exercised. I should have gone for a walk. I should have, could have, would have, but I didn't. And that's okay. I could sit here and be angry at myself for all the things I could have done. Or I can say, that's okay. I forgive myself. I'll try again. Well, this is trying again. So, the tone of your voice is different on your bad days. I notice more low with gravity. I'm also a bit, my throat isn't quite okay after the COVID either. But your voice is soothing like here audiobook from Kim. I really love how you work with a paintbrush and I love watching it personally. I'm better with pencils, but you absolutely, but absolutely admire work with a brush. I could honestly use some guilt. I'm way too comfy with being lazy. Yeah, me too. But my experience is that feeling guilty for being lazy isn't really a good way to keep from being lazy. It is, at least for me, more a good way to keep on being lazy. You seem like the type of guy who have a favorite poet. I'm not a type of guy that's terrif, terrif, terrifically familiar with poetry. And, you know, the poets that I've ever sat down and really dug into are both old and problematic, you could say. So, I love Edgar Allen Poe for just the sheer use of language and rhythm. I love T.S. Eliot. And maybe those are the only two that I've sat down with and which have spoken to me. Thank you for being you. Thank you, Black Talia. Have you noticed your mood gets better when you travel to countries with sun? No. I do notice sort of the opposite. There are things that happen with my mind when there's too much sun. So, there are some theories about bipolar disorder and hypomania and blue light. And I have actually noticed a difference when I wear blue light, blue light blocking glasses. I get a little less erratic and so I should be doing that. But I also should be going outside. I think that we've been going on for 18 minutes. I think this is the shortest of our Inktober, is Pinktober streams, but I will end it here still, just to take care of myself and hopefully come back and have had a better day tomorrow. Not have a better day, but having made a better day for myself tomorrow. King is the brightest star in the North, even in darkness he shines his light over us. Oh, thank you. Get better, King. I prefer gloom and rain. It makes me happy and relaxed. I'm not bipolar, but I was misdiagnosed. Has CPST. Okay, I need to, sorry, I need to just stop reading the comments because I want to answer every one of them, but I can't. But I have to do my sales pitch because we have to make a thing as well. And no matter how fun it is to draw Inktober and no matter how fun it is to draw Be Live, it's also how I make my living this art thing. So if you like my art, then please consider becoming a member. If you become a member like Moona and Leafy and just for fun, then you help me and my team to be able to do more stuff for you. More videos, more longer videos, more lives, more of everything. Supporting on Patreon.com slash Kim Holm does also help in the exact same way. But if you like my art and want to purchase something from me, then go to den ungehardhorm.com and use the promo code Inktober 23 for 20% of all October. So that's a couple of days now. And then we're done. And if you don't have any money to spare or simply have better things to use your money on, that's okay. You can still support me. You can support me by using my art. All my art is released for free use. So you can download it, you can copy it, you can share it, you can send it to your long lost uncle in the Philippines. And he will be happy with that because apparently the Philippines loves my art. You can even sell my art. I release it under a Creative Commons license, a Creative Commons attribution license. So all you have to do is credit me as artist and you can sell it for a profit. And maybe my art can help make your life easier or help promote your course or gather money for your course or whatever. And then sharing my art or even making money off my art is supporting me because all art should be free as in freedom of speech. Art is freedom of speech. As artists, we all stand on the shoulders of giants. Make free art or die. See you tomorrow. Kim should record this monologue so I can press a button every time instead of saying it. That is correct.