 hey um yeah so it's like five o'clock on tuesday and i'm gonna try to be positive in this vlog it's probably not gonna come off very positive though i'm sorry so okay big sigh um as some of you know i had a doctor's appointment today with my surgeon that had done my original endoscopy which is when they found my hiatal hernia so finally i was able to meet with her and she is just an awesome person but anyway uh we went over a bunch of things we did like a big questionnaire together all of that stuff and unfortunately i'm not able to have the hiatal hernia surgery um reason why is because the medications that i've been on to not correct it but like all the acid reducers and acid blockers aren't like totally doing their job uh the success rate is extremely low um for a person that isn't having success with like the oral medications so um clearly we don't want to have unnecessary surgery that's that being said i do have another option and let's talk about the option like the me talking about this is like i don't know it just it makes me feel weird um just like i'm prefaceing that right now so some people are gonna be like super agree with it and some people are gonna be like absolutely not you shouldn't do that to your body blah blah blah okay so here we go here's my other option weight loss surgery i know it's extreme um the way that my surgeon explained it to me though was if you go in for like a weight loss surgery and let me look it up the specific one that she had suggested that i would be a candidate for would be the gastric bypass and the reason why a bypass would be the best option for me is that um so when they go in they actually fix your hernia they'll they'll fix it not a problem they'll just fix it up and then they section off your stomach and then they bypass your intestine um because then you know your your intestine is you know not being properly used so they actually like cut a portion of your intestine and then they like kind of plug it in to the section of stomach that you would then be using for the rest of your life so here's the thing um because of the intestine actually kind of pulling down on your stomach if you will i know that sounds really weird um but because your stomach isn't as long anymore it's like really short it's actually very very small that helps the hiatal hernia not come back because it's actually kind of pulling down on um everything in a weird jumbled up way um but here's the other problem my insurance doesn't cover this at all like zero percent and not till just my deductibles met it's zero percent so i was looking online and clearly online is like you know there's a huge amount of difference and you know surgery can cost anywhere from like five thousand dollars to like upwards of like three thousand dollars and i'm not mad at the money i'm just like pretty peeved about my specific insurance doesn't cover it doesn't cover it even though there has been research done that this actually helps people in my position with a hiatal hernia that doesn't respond to oral medications um i'm gonna make an appointment with my like regular general doctor see trying to be positive it's not working um like i'm just trying not to be like angry about this like i yeah i'm disappointed but i'm like anger serves no purpose you need per purpose anger serves no purpose like in life i mean maybe for a little bit whatever but like disappointment is another thing completely and i can be disappointed about it but to be like angry at my body doesn't it's not gonna help anything it's just not gonna help anything so anyway um i have uh i'm gonna set up an appointment for next week with um my primary doctor talk to him i don't know we need to do something because this is just not working i'm not and i don't really discuss this on the channel too much but um i'm not sleeping very well i mean i'm sleeping for like one to three hour increments and then that's it and then i wake up because i feel like i'm gonna throw up and then that kind of like wakes you up a little too much so you can't really go back to sleep right away and with the medications i've been taking i have had these like crazy ass dreams where my mind is kind of like going a mile a minute and the really crummy thing is that when i wake up from these dreams i feel like they happened like it's real life it's very real situations um yeah it's just very strange so i don't sleep well which is why on the weekends i typically take a nap because i'm like kind of trying to recover from the weekend or not the weekend but the week and um you know normally when i nap anyways i'm only napping for like an hour to three hours anyways so i don't know i just i don't know i don't know what to do i'm frustrated i'm disappointed i'm just i mean i talked to my mom and my dad because my dad was in the room or whatever when they were talking um you know and they were like well can't you your doctor's like petition your insurance company to cover it since it's you know not i mean it is classified as weight loss surgery but um it's because you can't have the normal surgery for a hernia and i'm like well yeah i guess it's just it's just frustrating like today that it's not covered or whatever and um i just emailed my hr rep and um just asked about it and i'll see i'll i'll see the hr people tomorrow anyways at the office but yeah it's frustrating i'm frustrated have i said that i'm frustrated okay um so yeah i'm gonna uh make an appointment for next week i don't know when next week i don't know when he's available also something that's very nice is that um i can whoop here we go oh i already timed out it already timed out um my regular general doctor i can just make appointments on the interwebs um i mean i can see him you know at the office but i can make the appointment like now so that's kind of exciting it's just a regular office visit let's take a look at my calendar for next week and next week let's see what he has available so yeah he's got monday and tuesday monday tuesday wednesday and thursday available okay and then he's off until the 30th okay cool oh god i don't know i'm gonna do monday and just get it the freak over the frustration station all aboard i don't know what else to talk about today because that's kind of taking my mind space a little bit um yeah just frustrated oh and um more frustration doyle last night at like 233 in the morning decided to pee on the bed like a whole pee on the bed not just a little something like pee pee doyle hasn't been out in a long time like since i lived in fargo and i don't know what's going on but i got to wash all the bedding today thankfully i was home so i was able to like you know my laundry room's literally right there um i was able to like switch out laundry and stuff um because it only takes like a couple of minutes but my goodness um i don't know what his problem was and maybe he seems fine i don't know let's go find him oh there he is i see him let's find him let's see what he's doing what are you doing there's your tail wagging yeah and so in here there is a big mess because i don't have any sheets on the bed nothing um the sheets are actually in the dryer right now and then i have this mound of clean things over here that i need to put back on the bed for tonight so oh and i also haven't like really eaten anything i don't know i'm just complaining this is like a complaining vlog i'm sorry i should not i should not complain i'm sorry i don't know people out there have it like way worse than i do and this is just i don't know this is just my life this what's going on in my life right now and all right i'm just gonna end the vlog here because i just i'm not into it i mean i'm into the vlog i'm just not into complaining and it makes me feel icky and i've got like a whole slew of crap to do tonight so anyway okay well that is going to be it for now i hope you guys enjoyed this ramble and frustration fest it's like a frustration fest ah all right but i miss you guys tomorrow for another episode of vlogmas i'm gonna go into the office tomorrow um and hopefully tomorrow will be a better day i'm just you know that's all i can say i hope tomorrow will be a better day okay i'm gonna go i'll see you guys tomorrow make sure to thumbs up subscribe share do all those things those youtubers tell you to do and i'll see you later bye well folks it's time to kick it old school