 I got a fluffy coat. Fluffy coat. Hey guys, what's going on? Welcome. Hello. Happy new year. I hope you're doing okay. Today I'm filming a video that I was gonna film last year before I decided I was taking a break last year. So as you know towards the end of last year I kind of stopped uploading. I say the end, I literally stopped uploading in June and then I posted a few things when I'm flying, posted a few things when I'm flying. Now I am doing a lot better and a lot more stable and I feel good for once. So I thought I'd do this video now. Today's video is all about being a type 1 diabetic. So as you know in November last year I got diagnosed as being type 1 diabetic. The month before I got diagnosed with diabetes. So I am insulin dependent. I have to use insulin. I'm not very good at remembering to use insulin until I start to feel ill. But I started off in a really good routine where I was doing it how I was supposed to be doing it and then I started a new medication. I started to have a parolol and my memory is just gone and I just forget to take it. So I'm going to answer in first of all some questions that I got over on Instagram. Now if you don't follow me on Instagram you can go over here. I upload quite a lot. I post all my stories quite a lot and I'm always doing Q&As on that. I also ask for questions for videos on there too. The first question is how does it affect your mental health when you're already suffering from mental health problems? Honestly it made me literally want to end everything and I did nearly carry it on, carry out, carry it out. It made my mental health so bad that I gained very close to being sectioned because I was having really intrusive thoughts. I was hearing voices and it wasn't good. I had a lot of thoughts because I was like I could just inject all my insulin and that'd be it. I've gone from being able to do what I want to do to I have to think about well I have to remember to take insulin. I have to take insulin. I have to inject insulin every single day of my life. Let me tell you that shit's not fun you know it's no game. I'm getting better at it now but coming to terms with the fact that this is my life for the rest of my life was hard. It was really hard and it still is like I still think sometimes like oh my god I'm going to be stuck like this for the rest of my life. What do you wish other people knew about it? That being a type 1 diabetic has got absolutely nothing to do with your weight. What you eat is very simply down to the fact that your pancreas does not produce insulin. If anybody would like to argue that take it off my pancreas. It doesn't work. How did others react to the diagnosis? My mom I don't know my mom was like are you sure you can't just take meds and I was like I've tried meds they made me ill. I think people don't people have this stigma in their head that you feel diabetic you're over weight and feel like that's what was thought of me and I mean yeah weight doesn't matter whatever but it actually really does matter and it really does fuck with how you feel like people think you're diabetic you can't have sugary things you're diabetic you can't do this you're diabetic you can't do that. I can drink a can of coke if I want. I can drink a can of Vento if I want. I can have chocolate bar if I want. I just have to compensate it. Continuing on because you know life. Let's take that off. And I'm glad I've brushed the word. So how did you find out? I found out that I was diabetic because I had a number of A&E admissions to an AA unit which is ambulatory assessment unit and my sugars were really high I was dehydrated and no matter how they gave me so many fluids and my body just loop dehydrated. My potassium was low. My health just went completely out the window and I insteponain-y multiple times and I got admitted to a ward multiple times and in the third instance they just they they did the antibody test and I started an insulin and a few weeks later I got the results back from the FHS which showed that I do have the antibodies which is how I found out I was type 1 diabetic. I was told when I got diagnosed that the chances were I was going to be type 1 and that is because of the damage that everyone knows I've caused to my body from overdosing from all the self-destructive things that I've done. My liver is my liver is coming it doesn't work. So given the amount of health issues I have it wasn't really a surprise it just the way they got me was the initial blood test I had done was related to my lung on my forehead that I'm still waiting on a scan on. I should probably chase that off actually. But I have blood done and then the next day I felt of course I knew because it's diabetic isn't it and I got diagnosed it'd be diabetic then and it just it happened overnight on a literal level. What's having stretch up is 24 seven like what are some of the signs you're low off or high for you. So I don't check my blood sugar as often as I should which not the best thing to say. When I check it it's because I can tell that I'm high or low and for me the symptoms are the same. I get really hot I have to lie down and I feel like I'm going to pass out and I can never tell if it's because they're too high or because they're too low. Well I do keep things in the R-suit wall for hypos and for hyper episodes so that's an important thing too. Are people born with type 1 and go undiagnosed or doesn't develop over time so it can be both. It can be born with it. It can be born with a non-voluntary pancreas or it can develop over time. It is genetic and a lot of people in my family are diabetic. However they are type 2 diabetic and I'm not. How long did it take to be diagnosed? I wasn't even looking to get the diagnosis I wasn't I had no real symptoms of it and I didn't really think it was there and then literally overnight I got a phone call saying you need to go to this diabetic clinic and I was diagnosed diabetic. Shit my life just changed in a matter of a few words and that was that's hard. The next question. Do the injections hurt? Yes they do. I'm consistently bruised from it so it just hurts even more. I've had two different types of needles. I'm trying a third. The first one I had was okay. They were like flaxy ones and they went in pretty easily. The ones I got at the minute. You have to stab them really hard and it hurts okay. No way is injecting yourself ever not going to hurt. And is there a way to help it not hurt like with ice? I would never put ice on when I'm trying to inject. If anything I probably put a heat pad around it so it heats up so it's easier to actually go in. But yes it is painful but unfortunately it is a necessary part of it and so carb counting and insulin adjustment. I don't actually count carbs because I'm type 1 it's hard. You can't manage type 1 for a diet really. You're always going to need insulin and carbs are irrelevant to be honest. Like I had these diabetic sweets and even after them my sugars just go high anyway and insulin it carbs don't matter type 1. Who doesn't matter type 1? Type 1 is a condition that you can never get rid of and there is nothing you can do about that. You have to use insulin and you don't have a choice in the matter. If you don't you probably end up dead. Type 2 is more managed by diet. That's the big difference. I don't have to work my insulin doses out. I see a diabetic specialist every few months and I've met this woman twice now and they just adjust the dose depending on how you're doing. I was having a lot of lowers so they lowered my insulin and I've been okay on that. I haven't made lowers. I haven't had any highs. So that is the big thing. Another thing is not like if I was having a binge eating episode I would have to work out insulin and because I also have forticep drinks because I struggle with food that's no secret. I haven't eaten soda. We all know that. When I have a forticep drink I have to have two clicks on my insulin pan which I think I've got a headache. I know I've got a lot of him with me. I only have two pens. I have a short one and a long acting one. So this is an insulin pan. This is my rapid release insulin and how it works is this click round. So my standard dose four times a day is 12. So I click it round to 12 and I inject that. Whenever I have a forticep it is two so it's just two clicks. It's quite easy to do and these are the needles that you have with it. I have an insulin pan. I don't have to like do syringes and all that. Thank god. An assumption. An assumption about diabetes. I asked for assumptions on Instagram as well. That it's a hard to accept and a life changing diagnosis 100%. It hit out of nowhere and I had no idea it was coming. I didn't think about it. I didn't know it was there. And to go from being able to like I just want to drink a bottle of Coke to if I drink that I'm glad to do that. Oh my god. I've got to remember to do insulin five times a day. It's that that's hard to grasp but it's hard to like that's hard to cope with. I am going to end this video here. I think this has been a bit of an interesting Q&A. I hope this has given some facts about being type one and yeah if you have any questions or anything you want to ask feel free to in the comments. I'm pretty open to answering questions. I've accepted it now. I'm doing a lot better with it so ask away and don't worry about offending me because you won't. I promise. Yeah bye guys. 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