 Yeah, this well when it seems to go on for a period of time I mean a lot of times people tell me stories about that whether it's course groups or relationships or job situations Where they they almost feel They start to feel a bit like a doormat or like whatever they're doing is Something's not working because there's still a sense of frustration. There's not a sense of transcendence So for me one thing that helped me early on, you know, I did do it individually so to speak them with groups But the spirit one time it just was for quite a long time. The spirit was like a broken record It was just I kept hearing it over. It's your lesson It sure lessens. It sure lessens. I did but but but but but but but it sure lessens sure less You know, it was like really coming home strong and so I would say okay There's definitely some a lesson here and there's definitely some some discernment because you know, I'm not a piece and Whatever I seem to do matter what I try to send love and light or whatever, you know, it's like it's just like in my face it's not going away and It it actually helped me as I started to travel around and go to course groups around the United States and even into groups in other countries because I kind of got a broad perspective of Course groups of people going through struggles in relationships and job situations feeling stuck in geographical climates and stuck in horrendous conditions and I would be looping around going we'll say year after year So sometimes I go to a course group and the people with one person would say, you know, I'm in a horrific relationship, I'm having or I'm having the hell of a time with this one person and it's it's just driving me absolutely crazy But I know the course tells me all I have to do is change my mind and Then I go back I come back the next year. How's it going? I'm still in this horrific relationship with this person and it's just intense and it's terrible But the course tells me all I have to do is change my mind Then I come back the next year, you know, I hear it repeat over and over and over this kind of this kind of cliche Kind of like I know all I have to do is change my mind. It's not about the form. It's not about the person this and this and this It reminds me a little bit though of one time with with Jesus and Helen Shuckman and Jesus said to Helen Shuckman, he says he said to Helen, what do you do? When you find yourself in a desert and Helen was kind of like some kind of riddle or Said riddle or what's going on? She's he's like, what do you do when you find yourself in the desert? And Helen just was like stumped and finding she's like, what do I do when I find myself in the desert? Jesus said leave Now let me explain the context You know for me I Found to that when I first start getting to this a cold spirit would guide me to course groups and this and this and this and As you start to go deeper and deeper with your spiritual practice You just have to really be open-minded and flexible about things in terms of Like I was saying before you direct me where to bestow the miracles You know, you know a lot of times people will say To me, you know, well, I should I have a difficult situation in my life We could call this a difficult situation and they say I am having a heck of a time Changing my mind About this situation. It's just in my face And no matter what I do and how I try to approach it differently. It still keeps coming out Like this old Star Trek episode where this chip kept blowing up they kept looping around and the ship would blow up over and over and over and And what I would say is that when you have this mindset of thinking I should be able to accept a miracle and bring peace To this situation Seems like a pretty reasonable request When people work with me for years, I will tell them that that Situational thinking is part of the problem That you can never Really bring peace into situations. God didn't create situations. Think of it. You think God Abstract love and light one day just decided it's going to make up a situation. I've never done one before We don't have any situations here in Nirvana in heaven, but how let's make up a situation those situational thinking is Part of the problem You can never bring peace to situations. You can never bring the truth into the illusions and truth is oneness and Situations are the illusion. So you see how deep this goes. You can't even bring peace into situations You have to be so open-minded is to say to the Holy Spirit, you know Okay, you direct me. What what do you want and and believe me when you give that that Devotion to the Spirit it it's like a tall salad. Wow. It does it everything that you think is your life It's going to turn into a tall salad, you know, I didn't ask you to take away This relationship at this my house and my My my country my life my dog my can you know, it's like, you know, you can start to pray to the Holy Spirit You know heal my mind and then all of a sudden things can really start to to Disappear to turn away I had times when I was working with particular course groups and and if somebody came that wanted to like socialize or Seem to get off onto all kinds of tangents and this and that or a friend or relative, you know You know the kind of like to call you up and just bitch and moan for an hour Hi, how you doing the bitching and moaning begins You can't even get a word in So after a while you have to start to realize that that these are thoughts These aren't people These are thoughts You've got a person in your life that seems to be driving you crazy thoughts Those that was an interesting lesson for me to learn what's the lesson that people aren't people their thoughts and If there seems to be a nagging thought in Your mind that doesn't go away. It's because you don't want it to go away There's some kind of a sick Attraction to it. I Mean sick. It's pretty sick. Of course. It's sick Who would be attracted to suffering and misery? I Remember when I was going through the course. I was reading one of those sections and it said attraction to guilt And the subsections Sick Subheading who would title the subheading of a chapter attraction to guilt so I went on to the next section Attraction to pain. Oh, that's sick. Who would call something attraction to pain? I read through it then it's last the next one was attraction to death What? I'm a death worshiper. Oh Man, where is this going? You know, this is the kind of thing that you work with when you work with the course You start to realize that there is an attraction Like they say in 12-step programs, you know to the stinking thinking You know, there's definitely a sick attraction there. It has to be discovered And it's not like you as a person are there to bestow your miracles on this lady or on this course group It's that this whole idea of Constructing situations and breaking things off into fragmented bits and pieces like a kaleidoscope And then trying to to bring love and light into the fragmentation That is a sick way to go about it, you know That the Course is saying you cannot bring the truth into the illusion Just bring the illusions of the ego that you've made up to the light in your mind to the truth within and watch how quickly it disappears and In some cases it will seem to be that you leave I remember At one point going But Jesus, what about my beloved Course in Miracles group? How could they can't make it without me? They'll never make it without me. Jesus is like, oh, please You know, it's like you start to realize it's like What? Where is your inspiration? Where is your joy? If I'd have just stuck with that same Course in Miracles group You know Gary Bernard and I were talking This group in Maine and starting off and he said I was just hacking my way through that group and then I wrote a book and But nobody in that group ever once listened to me until I wrote this book Disappearance of the Universe. Now all of a sudden people will start listening because you write a book You know, but it was we were just laughing because it was like it was all part of opening to the miracle and Letting yourself go where the Spirit would guide you and direct you In our cases with Gary and I it's like many many countries many many people That we had never met many many blessed holy encounters of Love floods of witnesses from across the continents, you know Because simply we're willing to say use me and I'm not going to tell you how to use me You use me instead of me telling you What the parameters are what the situations are what the limitations are and That's part of the turn. That's how things heal and then what seemed to be Difficult situations or nagging people or whatever as you rivet your mind as you align your mind with With the purpose of love and healing and joy you start to draw forth many many many Witnesses to that and those witnesses come in such floods that they basically crowd out They attack thoughts It's like the attack thoughts are like little twigs and they're trying to float in the sea of love I'm going under. I can't keep attacking anymore. It's just too much love It's just a swamp of love, you know coming in. That's that's how it happens If you can see how different that is from trying to like hack it out In many cases, you know, I was just guided Guided on and on and the funny thing is when you follow your heart and you really you go where you're guided to go when you really go for it then sometimes Some of what seemed to be those old witnesses show up again and They are changed Like my god This is beautiful I've had hecklers come so called but with a world called hecklers to gatherings Where they kind of heckle and heckle and heckle and I just let the spirit just pour pour pour through sometimes by that very Afternoon or the very next day, they're like sitting in the front row with a pet taking notes Wow, what a shift You know, it's just the power of the mind To not hold on to those thoughts Yeah, it works