 Sup you guys, what is going on? Welcome back to another video, another reaction video to our man Ethan Payne, a.k.a one-seventh of the Sidemen, a.k.a Bezinga a.k.a Bez We're watching his YouTube original series where he takes on the London Marathon This was last year the reason why I looked this guy up is because apparently you know you guys couldn't help but tell me either he's my doppelganger or my son and well, I don't think he's my son because his biological father left when he was Before he was even born and his stepdad that he thought was his biological father left when he was 13 so he's been through a lot and I respect him and We're about to continue this journey into his his life and You know how he's overcome all the challenges that he's been through so with that said let's watch episode number two of three This is how I do. I am teenage cancer trust have asked me to run that London Marathon And there's no other answer than yes when I started this journey There really was no athletic ability inside of this body I'm gonna go to toilet he was turned into alcohol he wants everybody to think he is Bezinga I literally made him shit himself fire what must employ my own over matter. I love my friends so much Determined Opinionated they are weird. They are so odd. My goals have never been to be someone in the public I don't recognize I knew that there was an audience to be gained for something But it was mainly to be gained from my eyes for creating something other people enjoyed My brother used to call in the boy in the room because he only ever spoke to people online I think he's such a shift now, but at the time if people knew he was making gaming videos online You're sort of used to this like you're a bit weird me I used to say to him something's gonna come at this. I just know first video I think is 2012 there is fours of drift videos moving into FIFA 13 was when it really hit off And that was because I bumped into other creators even again was someone who didn't show this face at a start Showing your face for the first time on the internet, which I was extremely scared about I thought I was a big wreck I was a fat ugly mess. It was just the voice and then he done a grand reveal First time doing a vlog on this channel. I'm really excited. Yeah He used to film absolutely non-star 24-7 autopilot wake up one video bang Eddie put it out have some lunch edit another video bang just went straight to the ferry We've definitely got something in common That's basically how I've lived my life for the last three years straight I'm staying creating a side man When my channel started getting access to 100,000 subscribers was absolutely mind-boggling And you think oh, I've got this many views this day. I've got this many subscribers this day And it's like I will go ah everything good's happening. We're growing growing growing But I'll tell you what comes with that The sense that you'll never have enough and that can start to play on your mind And I believe that's what happened to this guy This day it's still mind-blowing We've all this I've been Anthony Joshua I don't think any of us realize the sheer size of a community you can grow by being yourself on the internet The boys have become his family We've been through so much together. I don't know what my life would have been like without it A lot of people say how long do you see yourself doing this But I start from a place of just wanting to do it as a passion I'll probably still be knocking a video out every now and then when I'm 30 Fuck, I am 30 We're doing good mate, we're getting the road miles in We hit eight yesterday and we're chucking a couple before that It's probably about 15 this week That was great, but it's not even a marathon In the last few years we didn't have to do it in one city So I'm going to up the levels So I'm going to run with you I'm not doing a marathon I'm not doing a half marathon, I think you should do a half marathon But what are you doing? I have an idea What's your idea? Why are we on the roof? And why are there two treadmots? You're going to do a marathon, that's going to be outside In Cages elements So you've gone for the four hour marathon This is a half marathon, two hours, 120 minutes That means we need to do it around nine minutes a mile However, I'm just doing the first mile So we thought we would bring along a whole host of other amazing people And they'll each do a mile with you So you have some company in the training You'll be coming along one after the next How good? 13 different prints Yes, amazing Alright, let's do it How good? So joining you today Ethan We have Jack May Bapino Becky We have Teenage Cancer Survival in Lake Walkington Yes, excited, been waiting to try this We also have Al's The Wit Your footballing pals from Thames Ironworks Yes, the boys We also have Rayla Annerley Unreal, I can't believe it Next up we have A Real Brains Behind The Bazinga Channel Charlie Donnell We also have Gabrielle Sadeeson Olympic gold medallist Christina Horrigan And Julia Hardy We also have five times freestyle football world champion You know who it is It's Anthony And the personal trainer that was there at the start of it all Deena What a boy Believe it or not, I do know one of the 13 people And that is Gabrielle Sadeeson He's a fitness YouTuber And that's about it Get started, time to get on the treadmill And I'm gonna thrash all of you guys Smoke you all We'll see, we'll see, we'll see Smoked Oh, I've got to start there Alright Your first mile, what pace are you doing? It's 9 minutes miles, 6.7 miles an hour I've got the timer on I've got the pacer on In this video, pass Welcome to the club, the running club Ethan's running club E.P, Ethan Payne Yeah Running gang E.P's running gang Who found that pace now? I can chug it off for another year on with you guys Alright, here we go That's my mile done I'll send in So personally, I decided to do a half marathon In training for my marathon too But it was two weeks out And I was able to get under two hours And due to the fact that I did that I thought it would be easy A breeze to double that And get under four hours for my marathon But it wasn't And that has come behind you Thank you boys, see you in a bit Do you want another secret? Yeah I've got one Let's smash this one Come on, let's do a play So you're running for three miles to come to track Yes, I've got the most planned out How come you need to go to that? My family has a lot of things for you to come to And stuff like that So, if you see my breath, it's it I think I possibly could be the weekly You reckon? Mate, I don't want to say it But I'd like to say I'm fit to fit them They want me to get in your breath, mate Well, okay Because all the other guys have been encouraging me But I've never heard that, mate Okay I'm in swim Right, oh mate, this is all gone I'm running heavy Those coffees are not that much This poo is ever-erging now Oh, mate Red Def Con 5 is here I think it might be go time That's what I do to people who are getting these in I really thought I'd be able to do it without shit I'm going to go to the toilet I literally made him shit himself Absolute bottom up What the fuck? You taking breaks? Is that what this is going to be like? These things happen Into us two hours He set his goals really high And he's done amazingly I think the best thing is that I've seen with you You've been so inspiring Like to see where you've come from Thank you And where you're going Thank you very much I'm going to do mine for Wanda Okay, that means so much to me Let's see if I can get around Look at that soft touch And you've wanted to get involved It really inspired me as well Because obviously we're both running for the same course You've been through it yourself Yeah, exactly You've got the mindset and everything Take the push yourself And get through it If you've got anything in the world to tell you The main thing was It's not overthinking it It's just thinking about getting across the line I guess it is So they're going to be doing it together I think he's in a good place right now Just battling through it Just going hard He's got a good mindset on him as well Especially coming up to this So probably So this was his original personal trainer I'm so happy I'm going to do it on the team I'm going to do it on the team I'm going to finish on the team Come on 0.3k Last little bit, best Yeah Go on, Dan 0.1 0.01 Go on Dan Yeah 0.33 Bring it up, Dan Thank you Thank you very much And we'll save that 21.1 Boom Now on a flat surface I believe he might actually get under 4 hours So that's the difference When we first started He was overweight Unhealthy And we changed that And then once we broke a nice He just broke down every barrier So I'm very proud of him From where he came To where he is now You must stay at home People will have already been carrying the bar Just in case of this To restrict the spread That's a bit morbid The world's crumbling In front of our very own eyes I've just had my wisdom teeth out This side of my mouth Whoa, look at that big boy And I'm on a soft diet I went down to Tesco And there's absolutely nothing there That I can even eat It really is just carnage Fuck I've got pot noodle I managed to find pot noodle The first months I struggled quite a lot It's just being knocked out of a pattern That you're working towards so much And it's really hard to find motivation Doing nothing Especially when I enjoyed my training program Where I'd go to the gym All going out on a run Having that just stripped away from you Was difficult And then just being stuck inside Boris did a speech And he's made an Ando scale Out of Covid alert I feel like you can get Quite sick of your mates If you're with them 24 hours, 7 days a week I know You want to kick my head in But you always don't know That I'm going to kick your head in In some time Oh, that cave is ending It's quite difficult I don't like it What's happening, mate? A lot of the marathon's been postponed Due to coronavirus I mean, I was sort of Oh I'm sure This is going to happen But it's been postponed To Sunday 4th of October The marathon being cancelled Will be very annoying to him Virus is ruined in the world Coronavirus I'm absolutely proven in the world He's a better man than me Because we're just pissing off How to cancel this whole thing And say, sack it off or not I'm not doing that He has gutted That the marathon Isn't going to happen The way it's happened I always had the hope But it was just up in the air And I hate things being up in the air I don't like knowing exactly What I'm doing So that it was made Maybe the universe Instead of ending By the marathon this year A lot of downline got fat Last week I was 86.3 kilos Which is a record high Because there's nothing to do But for me It tore my training regime To tatters It won't be like in there Keep working on himself And improving himself And waiting for another opportunity To prove that he has improved How? Leaving lockdown The blackboard always comes in handy I've never seen anyone do Rear doubt flies with books But I've got to give him credit Ever I have something on this blackboard I feel a lot better Anyway Got formulas now On how to work out My cutting calories Stuff like that So last week We started at 84.6 kg On now 83.5 So it's already a kilogram drop It's kind of hard to find the motivation To push yourself But I feel like this is a A nice kickstart To get myself back My weight again Had a video call with Eddie Hall Even there you are Yes, how are you? I'm good sir How are you? Better now for locking in And talking to you How good you are? I haven't had anyone That's Personally been affected By the actual Virus or anything So hearing someone Share his experiences with me Was quite something My grandma Sucked rudimentary Very badly I actually went to her myself She kept begging for me to go in And have a coffee And a biscuit And I couldn't And yesterday We found her dead in the back Gone That was a real tough thing For me To sort of digest that Losing my grandma Doing this has just been Really really tough But What goes on Is this it? Just everything that you've been through already And then That Has absolutely blowed my mind It puts things into perspective Especially when I would wake up And for a week feel like I'm Having a crap time Because of everything That the world's going through So it's really nice To have a chat with someone Just round things off And take a step back I think people also Are starting to become A little bit more aware Of the mental health side of things And I feel like You've probably got a lot to say on that A hundred percent mental health Is something that I've actually struggled with Since I was a very young teenager You know, treated for that With all sorts of medications And then that led to depression Got myself in a very Quite a dark, horrible place And the hardest thing was Not having anyone to talk to In lockdown A lot of people have become A lot more aware of Mental health And the issues that it presents Men don't really talk about Mental health issues We don't really cover any of those topics Even as a friend group We rarely ever touch on it Unless someone's really Visibly down in a bad place I've got shivers Because we certainly have more In common than I'd ever expect He's got maturity beyond his years Because I couldn't talk I wasn't affected In that way at that age I couldn't talk like that That maturely about those Certain subjects at that age I wouldn't have talked about My mental health five years ago But I've slowly but surely Opened up and Now I can openly talk about it Because when you do have Once you've worked through Mental health struggles yourself Really one of the only ways You can ever work through it And come out on the other side Is to talk about it I mean And then you can pretty much Openly talk about it For the rest of your life I suppose Even if you are If you're good or bad You can talk about it And that's so important Just starting my 20s Because that's where I was Intoxicated and doing nothing With my life I felt like I was just Existing in a shell I was intoxicated Seven days out of seven I remember Living in the flat underneath him And used to go up He would be half a bottle of JD And he would be Smoking his lungs away He was turned into alcohol To deal with All his feelings All his emotions I think it was A coping mechanism And just going through a lot of Battles in your head Where you think I'm not good enough I don't really think I'm Applied myself I don't think I'm going to go anywhere My relationships aren't great My friendship I don't even think about it And you're sort of hidden And you're trapped in your own mind That side of him Is his worst trait That he wants everybody to think He is Bazinga And I'm happy And I'm famous for my laugh So I've got to put that persona wrong And sometimes it's quite hard Behind the scenes I remember telling him He used to stop the drinking Stop drinking something Imagine being famous for a laugh And then being Completely and utterly depressed But having to put that laugh on For your content To continue your career That is some hard shit, man You're drinking way too much That's a pretty shit Your close friend of him It's really scary to see someone In that state Because you want to help them As much as you can But you don't want to push too much That they end up going away from you I didn't want to be here anymore I didn't want to be here anymore Because I felt like I wasn't good enough I felt like I was letting everyone down I felt like I was just a bird To act to everyone I felt like I was the shit heat That everyone was dragging along It was possibly one of the Most heartbreaking things to see Is to see a friend Go through some troubles And there's nothing really that you can do Apart from being there for you He was saying quite a few Worrying things He can't go on And they were all getting too much The pressure was too much And he was struggling I think when you end up Going down that rabbit Tell you what, guys Tell you what After the month I've been through Setting myself up here In Rockhampton If you've watched any of my vlogs Recently You'll know that I've felt similar things, man I really have I've felt similar Similar things And Geez, this is a Perfect time to be watching this I could never have expected that I'd Be taken down this much of a A dive on this guy I thought His content was all Yeah, all comedy based All gaming And skits And laughing And everything like that But at the end of the day, man Don't you know Some of the biggest comedians In the world are the most Unhappy, you know That's their way of Trying to Deal with that And you'd just never know From the outside You would never know Until they speak Until they speak up And sometimes They never do speak And it's all too late AKA Robin Williams You know what I mean You end up Just talking yourself Into stupid things And I remember Ethan's Girlfriend at the time Knocking on my flat door And she was crying And I was like Yo, what's going on This is about 4 a.m. in the morning And she's telling me that Ethan's not in a good state And he's gone out I'm just very drunk And I'm getting in the car And that's the flat With no intention of going back to the flat He fell down He's in a GTR for God's sake He's drunk And he's thinking like that That is a rips I mean, you can kill yourself in that car When you're feeling on top of the world Let alone when you're feeling suicidal Holy shit That you felt That you had to even End this life right now I was panicking I didn't know what to do In your head You've now whittled yourself down To meaning nothing You don't really find any reason To be knocking about anymore And that's where I ended up At like 3 o'clock in the morning I sort of convinced myself That now is the perfect time To just make myself disappear Thankfully in the end Ethan got in contact with people And he let them know That he was safe And he was coming home It's weird how the world works But I just got to a point So I pulled the car over And he just hit me I was like, what are you doing, mate? That was a very, very scary period for me Because I didn't know if I was Going to see my friend again already He's having like a mental breakdown And he just like collapsed Into my arms And was just crying I love my friends so much Yeah, I will cry I have done before I love my friends He was lucky He had his friends to To fall on there Fitness No wonder he loves them so much Of course they saved his life Definitely The fitness journey that he's recently been on And the transformation he's been on Has helped him times 10 To where he is now In a happier place And you can think about absolutely nothing Apart from my heart's beating this fast And my feet are going like this And that's quite therapeutic He would have just gone down this dark path I mean he could have just Wound got worse and worse And maybe he wouldn't have got out of the car Training is definitely something He's taken seriously Going for runs every day He is very passionate about Going to gym and his fitness And his health overall And not just running For the sake of running Really trying to improve himself Trying to learn how to pace himself It's all been a learning curve But there's also benefits from it It just kick starts everything again So I just got a message from Master Wong And he told me to meet him At a London stadium Which is here in the back Look at the glasses man I think he does love them I'm not really sure what to expect But I don't have any idea What's going to be in that stadium Waiting for me It's the hot coals What do we do? I'm very confused Very confused by what we're going to be doing here To take on the marathon Good luck I'm gathering an idea now Of what we're going to be doing here I'm going to welcome that, aren't I? All that batter I felt my heart rate jump Because not many people have Or will walk across hot coals And it takes a lot of Cajones To get across them Burning better coals The younger me Definitely never have done this The more life experiences you go through Whether they're bad or good They make sure your mind And that's why I've sort of got to this point now Where I feel ready to Check myself into whatever comes up How does this work? Really? Oh my God No training? Proud of myself You compete You're in the strength challenge Now you're ready for your marathon Holy shit Oh lads I'm a bit emotional How do you feel? Didn't even f**king think I'm ready to do something I've ever felt this Ready to do anything In my life I haven't Yeah It's cool I suppose we're going to coals 25 now It's growing up I feel like I've been through My fair share of shine And it's the first time I feel Happy with where I'm at Heading into the future And I think that's what Hit me again When I signed up to do the marathon That was already something Quite extreme itself Because I never run a 5k before And then along the way We've Ah So that was at his peak Physical performance And then the whole place Got shut down The marathon's six months later I don't know when Exactly he's walking across the coals But I assume It's Closer to the date of October So Half with all my friends We've done the truck pull-in We've done walking across the coals I think this challenge has just given me that Believe that once I say go I'm going to do it I'm going to finish it I've never been more ready For something in my life Geez, don't break his knuckles, mate Two weeks because I felt a little bit ill With 19 Positive He'd be training so much And he was so ready for it I worry about him getting puffed out Sure does, man What a series What a series, man It's not just about the marathon I thought it was I thought it was going to be all jokes All laughs, all happy days Until the marathon day And he goes and kills it Well That's certainly not the way it is And you know what It wouldn't be It wouldn't be a proper A proper series If it was all Rosie You know Life ain't like that Life is like a box of chocolates And you know the rest Anyways, guys I've been inspired I haven't I literally have not been For a long distance run Since I did my marathon I actually got an injury About a week after On my knee That hasn't really Felt perfect since But after watching this And after what he's gone through I'm going to say fuck it And I'm going to get back out In that pavement Put my shoes on And go for a run It's going to be 10Ks It's going to be a good start And it's going to be after We finish this series There's no video to go I want to say thank you for watching And peace out Will he make 4 hours? I'm not sure I don't know I don't think he will I reckon he'll be 4 I just don't know But we'll see