 If I read one of these books when I'm 30, that was obviously just the right time for me to read it, not necessarily now. So I'm trying not to be... Everyone, welcome back to my channel. I hope you're well. Today I thought we would just do actually a really, really fun video. I have scrolled back to the start of time to the third video on my channel. Well it's actually, this is the first video I ever filmed so it's gonna make you painful watching. Are you comfortable? I'm scared. Are you scared? You should be. But it's the third video I ever uploaded. I called it a scroll book haul to try and get more views for it being a book haul. But it was actually all of my owned books, so at that point in time all of the books I owned. And I thought we could go back and watch it and see how many of them I've actually read. I uploaded it on September 24th 2019. So it's been over a year now. I don't know how many of them I'm gonna have read. Like I really don't. From what I can remember I think I had about 20, 25 books maybe? Maybe a bit more at the time. And I remember being embarrassed by that. I remember thinking that's extortionate. This is ridiculous. Why do I have so many books? And obviously I had not been on booktube very long because I now have I think I'm at about 80. Are you not ashamed of yourself? Are you not embarrassed? Probably since this video was made I have read 140 books in that time period. So you would hope that I have read those 20 books. We were all so happy that day. It's actually hard to even imagine how terrible things would soon become. I'm going for half. I'm hoping for at least half. Hang on I'm gonna get a I'm gonna get a notebook and I'm gonna make a tally. Let me know also if you would like me to do this video again. Like I know some people do it all of my physical owned books. So let me know if you want me to do that again because I will. I now have like 80 so it's gone a lot. Hello welcome back to my channel. I sound way too nice. So I have 31. Oh 31. Okay that's more than I thought currently. I'm really prioritizing getting through these books before I buy anymore because your girl doesn't have much money. What science are girls by Pat Barker? Well I've already seen our first book and that statement didn't work Megan. Haven't read it. Haven't read it. Does anybody care? Oh my gosh. Do you care? I think I'm gonna be reading that soon for a video but I still don't really know anything that's about next. Then we've got the Poppy wall. Oh ready. 5 stars. The Poppy wall I loved. I loved it so much. I think it's a wonderful book. It is the story of Rin as she becomes this kind of like military figure. She gets to go to this military school and it's just very much based on Chinese history but set in a fantasy world and it is brilliant. Amazing. Everyone's been talking about it so you've probably known about it but I love the Poppy wall. 5 stars. Next we've got Cersei by Madeleine Miller. Haven't read it. It is a story of Cersei. Haven't read it. That one isn't that cover? It is. It's still pretty. It is pretty. It doesn't mean you've read it yet though. Next we've got Heartless by Marissa Mayer. I've read it. I've read it. Success. Okay I'm just gonna put my head here because I'm in the shade whereas if I'm here you can't see me. So I have read Heartless. I gave it I think 4 stars. It was good. I didn't love it as much as something like the Luna Chronicles and I just think Marissa Mayer like there's something brilliant about her writing. I really love reading her stuff. It's light, fun, quick. We're 2 for 2. What's next? Next we've got Skyward. I do have it here but it's the bottom of a stack that's up here. You can just trust me that it's there. I didn't actually like Skyward that much. Well I gave it 3 stars. It's probably more like a 2.75. I just struggled with the writing style. I didn't enjoy the kind of matter of factness about it. I didn't feel like the world building was very good. I felt like the story was boring as fuck. Like so boring and yeah it was a real disappointment when I read it. So Skyward wasn't great. I don't think I'm gonna be continuing on with the series. My dad didn't particularly like it either. We are now 3 for 2. I've read 3 of them. Okay. The last book on here is Biased by Jennifer Eberhardt. This is basically a nonfiction book about the unconscious biases that we have. Haven't read it. This is one that I keep meaning to get around to. It's very highly recommended. It is about race and kind of the science of race and racism and so I think it's something that I want to get around to but like nonfiction at the moment I'm just struggling to read as much and fit into videos and stuff like that. So maybe I'll do like a yeah but no one will watch a nonfiction blog. This is my thinking like no one will give a fuck about a nonfiction blog. Now more than ever this is a really important book to read you know dealing with race and racism and the science of it. So next are the books that I bought at full price. I have the first few books in The Diviners series which is The Diviners, Lair of Dreams and then Before the Devil Breaks You. I was so excited to read these and I went to America in April. April? In April and it's August, September now. So I've really done a lot of getting around to these. I don't know why I'm so mad at myself for like buying a book in April and not having read it by September. Now that would be good thing. Y'all should be so ashamed of yourself. It was bad. I have read The Diviners and Lair of Dreams and I have not read Before the Devil Breaks You but I am going to be reading this I would say I think next week. I think I'm going to get to read this. You all know that literally for months I've been trying to fit this into reading vlogs and I haven't been able to like I've been wanting to read it so so bad. I'm very excited to finally get around to it and it's not a book that I have been putting off reading. I just haven't been able to fit it into a reading vlog but now I have so I'm going to be reading this very soon. So that I feel like I should get a point for because like probably by the time this video comes out I would have read it but as of now I haven't and like I can't lie to you. I'm sure the polygraph was going like this like the bitch is lying she's lying. The first is Truly Devious by Maureen Johnson. I've read it. Most of the times I've actually read this where I've wanted a bit more of an easy read. It's a kind of young adult mystery book. I love mystery books. I really like the Nancy Drew books. That's because I play Nancy Drew as a kid. Yeah there's a lot of times I want to pick it up but then I don't want to dive into the sequel and I do want to wait until the sequel comes out and paperback soon. Isn't that so sad? So I have read Truly Devious I think I gave it about four stars and I have read its sequel which I didn't have at this point in time but I wanted to wait until the paperbook comes out. The third book has been out for like a year but I still haven't bought it because I want the morning paperback and I heard really mixing like last year when the third one came out. I really liked it. I really liked like kind of like dark academia school mode of mystery but lighter YA vibe. The next book I have is next year in Havana by Chanel Cleaton. I bought this on a recommendation of Riley Marie one of my favorite YouTubers that there is. I have read that and I hated it. I gave it two stars it's one of my least favorite books of the year. All right we'll not be continuing on with that series. I hated it so much like it's one I just hate I just hated it. I'm sorry Riley like I know we agree on a lot of other things but this book just no no no no no. I thought it was really potty written the romance was shy the plot was shy everything about it was shy didn't like it but at least I've read it at least I get a point for that. And the last book that I have I bought for price was mug outward alias alias grace by mug outward all the way around. A mug outward I would say is one of my favorite authors however I have not read one of her books since I made this video. I have wanted to read this book for so long. The thing is though it's a very intimidating book it's quite long like how like it's over 500 pages it's historical fiction it's a bit more dense I don't know it's just not the kind of book that I reach for when I'm having to read three books a week for a video. But I do want to read it soon like I want to get through more of mug outward's backlist but I haven't read it I haven't read it so I don't get a point. There's no competition here there's no one else fighting to get points but I am upset if I do not get a point. So next we've got all the books that I've bought um reduced at used bookstore. I did not buy books reduced that much anymore I mean like for the past seven months how long have we been living in this hell there haven't really been a chance to because a lot of the second hand stores that I would usually go to have been shut and I haven't been traveling as much. I managed to get a couple of 2018. This isn't going to go well I haven't read these. The first is the wife that's been read by Grandrix and Sarah. I mean I've got no reason not to read it if it fits in a vlog I'll read it but I haven't felt particularly inspired to read it I feel like I don't read this kind of domestic woman against woman, woman crazy thriller very I don't really like that I don't think. This is not for me no but I will still read it and like all of these books that I bought second hand were like a pound so it's not really the end of the world that I haven't read it but the next one I've already seen is the Seven Deaths of Evelyn Hardcastle let's hear what I say first but I have not read that either. Then I also got Seven Deaths of Evelyn Hardcastle for a pound with sprayed edges and it looks completely new I don't even know if anyone has read this. So I have not read this yet either however I do have it planned for a vlog and I will be reading it. Within the next month that's all that bad like before the level breaks you I'm getting around to them really soon. Next I've got both half of your son Bacchumamanda Ngozi Adichie and Americana Bacchumamanda Ngozi Adichie. I've never read her fiction. I've listened to a lot of her speeches. I've read Americana but I haven't read half of the Ghetto Sun. I really liked Americana I gave it like four stars it was a really interesting discussion of race and examination of race and critique of racist societies and microaggressions but it was dense it was heavy and so I feel like it's gonna take me a hot second before I end up getting around to half of the Ghetto Sun. I'm very intimidated by it but at least I've read one of them. You did your best but I guess your best wasn't good enough. Next. The Help by Catherine Stocker. Well we need a new category. So I have unhauled that book because I just never realised how racist it is I don't know why. I don't know I think it wasn't very clued up on like book discourse and discussion around books and I now know it's a very racist book so I unhauled it. I got rid. Then we got Catch 22. There we need another new category. Again this is an absolute classic for a lot of people but I've never read it. Next is White Teeth by Azadie Smith. I've heard polarising things about Azadie Smith. Okay let's talk about these next two books in succession. I DNF'd both Catch 22 and White Teeth. At the start of the year this hasn't continued but at the start of the year I started this like mug where I put the books I was most intimidated by and I had to pick one a month. It lasted like two months because I DNF'd both the books. I feel like White Teeth is one I'm never coming back to like I have no interest in reading that but Catch 22 I may read. Like I still hold the door open for that one. It's not currently on my like physical TBR but I would be interested in giving it a go at some point in the future. I'm sorry about the lying. Please don't hate me. Like it's just really uncorporative today. The Sun. I'm like your third of piss off. Next. Lastly we've got Atonement by Ian McEwen. I'm not a big fan of the cover. Oh dear. This isn't going well. The cover and this one is a bit better. Again it's like a classic so when I saw this I was actually really excited to pick it up you're not reading that quickly sis. You can just tell when I'm talking about these books and I'm going oh it's a classic so I had to pick it up. Like you can just tell I don't actually have that much of an interest in reading it. I didn't have a clear identity on what I enjoyed on what I liked reading. I didn't know who I was. Like I still want to read this but the point is I bought all of these books not knowing who I was. I didn't know me. It is a classic. I should read it at some point. Am I going to get around to it soon? No I'm not. I'm just not. I can't really see what it is. It's all battery mantel. Everyone's excited about the third book in the series coming out soon. It's very long. Yeah you don't say. So Wolf Hall haven't read. This is getting worse and worse. I thought I was doing okay. It's massive. Like when am I ever gonna get around to this? Never. I mean one day I will. I do love kind of Tudor fiction. Like I don't ever read it but I love the idea of it. It's again that kind of literary fiction that I thought obviously I wanted to read but evidently don't. Now the next book I'm gonna put under unhaul Mad Adam or whatever it's called by Margaret Atwood because I didn't know at the time. This is actually like the third book in a series or something I'm pretty sure. I've taken it off my physical TBR list. Technically I've put it on unhaul for the purposes of this video but it wasn't an unhaul because I don't want to read it. It was just an unhaul because I actually couldn't read it. Next please. Next we've got a battered version of Reeves Talk Back heading by Lionel. I'm not even gonna listen to myself talk about it. I don't even want to hear myself talk about it. I still have it. Haven't read it. I've heard some like mixed things about the author and this book since I hold it. Next we've got Warlight by Michael. Again I'm not listening to myself talk about it. These books like I just get angry at myself because I have no idea what I want to read at this point in time. Like I don't care. I don't even know what this book is about. It's at the end of the war. I don't know. My mum told me it was good. It is written to be fair out of all these books. This is under 300 pages so like maybe I'll get around to this soon. Next we've got Rebecca by Daphne De Morier. Hi. Where is it? Okay so obviously haven't read it. That is actually painful to watch. I did have plans to read this next week however I do not think I'm gonna have time to get around to this one. I do really want to read this. I do want to get back into classics because I think I read them more so before I had my booktube channel. I think on booktube there's just a pressure to read what's just come out, what's new, what's hype, what's been generally hyped the past five years. And it means that just classics aren't something I reach for. I put them off. I don't read them. I still really want to give Daphne De Morier's works a try. So this is actually the most positive one we've had in a while. So lastly we've got the non-fiction books that I have. Non-fiction. The first is Ways of Seeing. Oh okay I read that. I read that. I didn't enjoy it. I think I gave it like two or three stars but I had to read it for a course I was doing. For the least it means I've read something. Next we've got The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. I'm quite into meditation and uh self-improvement and all that kind of stuff. I have read that. I think I gave it three stars and then I unhauled it because I read it mainly by audiobook anyway. It was such an old tadcopy. I didn't feel like it was particularly enlightening. I didn't care about it so I unhauled it but I've put it in red because like I did read it. I don't think I really want to read stuff like that anymore. Next is Forgotten Women the Leaders by Zing Street. Um I believe that's back on it boys. This is a series part of a series all about powerful women through history. I really love learning about women in history who have kind of been forgotten. Illustrations in here are beautiful. Each page has a different style of illustration. Yeah I loved this. I think I gave it four or five stars maybe 4.5. I cannot wait to read the rest of this series. I don't currently own the rest of the series but it was just such a cool look at forgotten women throughout history and getting to finally tell their story and talk about them and recognize the influence that they've had. So I loved it. Loved that one. We have The Secret Barrister by The Secret Barrister. Let's just look at the UK justice system. It's main issues and flaws. Secret Barrister was fine. It was fine. It was like three stars. It was interesting but it wasn't particularly engaging. You know that's just my opinion. Everybody got an opinion. Second to last is The Beauty Myth by Minomi Wolf. Lastly is Educated by Tara Westover. This is the story of a girl who wasn't really educated. Okay so those last two haven't read. The Beauty Myth is so short. Where is she? I'll read this at some point. It's so short. I'll probably read it for like a readathon or something because it's only just over 100 pages and obviously the book is like tiny. Educated I still want to read. I think someone has my copy. I don't know where my copy's gone. So there we have it. I did not do as well as I thought. That's embarrassing. That's actually embarrassing. I'm actually ashamed in myself but I think it just shows that I didn't know my reading taste at the time. I didn't know what I enjoyed reading, what I wanted to read. These 17 books that I haven't read yet. They are all still books that I want to read. Evidently I haven't unhauled them but I think for a lot of them it will be quite a long time until I get around to them because I'm just not excited as I am as excited with a lot of my other books. If I read one of these books when I'm 30 that was obviously just the right time for me to read it. Not necessarily now so I'm trying not to be... So let me know if you enjoyed this video. I'm going to be doing a few more Reakti type videos in the next few months so keep a look out for that. I enjoyed it until I lost. I didn't... I don't like the fact that I haven't read as many of them as I wanted to have read but listen it'll happen one day. I'll read it one day but yeah thank you very much for watching. I will see you very soon in another video. Bye!