 trying to work out the lighting. So hopefully I'm gonna be a bit more energetic when I film this because this is my third attempt at filming this video. Today's video is one that I shared last year. Now I am gonna split this into two segments, my childhood bullying story and then adult life bullying because they are similar but they are also different in their own way. Here we'll see you guys welcome back to my channel if you're new. Hi, hello, subscribe, wrangle, bell so you don't fight every single time I make a video because I post pretty much every day. So like some neat intro today, I am gonna be sharing the story about bullying and just before I get started this video I am changing the names of absolutely everybody involved apart from my own name. I will also not be naming the school that I went to and I would like to ask that if you do know the school that I went to or the people involved that they are not named in the comments. For this reason comments on this video will be set to approval only simply for my privacy for their privacy. I sat at secondary school in the year 2009, September one of the beginning days I can't remember 11 years ago, it's a long time ago. So into in school in any of the years I was never part of like one of the big friendship groups. I was kind of a part of that French group that just stickered with each other over nothing like we'd pass notes in class to each other and then we'd get into our arguments over and it was aggressively throw it across the table. Shit like that. I'm guessing kids just snapchatting now. So I made friends with a girl who for the sake of this video I'm calling Sophie. I jumped into that friendship with Sophie really really fast we became. I like to think good friends, clearly not. We played in Nintendox together and when I say that I mean the original one not the new one we fell out and let me be real honest with you guys I cannot remember at all what we fell out over. I did not expect her to turn around and start bullying me. That was not something I thought was gonna hit me. She didn't seem like the type of person that would do that to someone. It started off with her following me home from school on the bus. I should also point out we lived in the same street. I lived at number 19 she lived at 40 some and in every single time she followed me and then one day her brother got off the bus with her. I knew there was follow me so I went through an underpass round a really long backwards way went nowhere near her house deliberately and I noticed those two following me so I did what I assume was a fast war. So her and her brother was chasing me up the hill. Her brother actually caught up with me and pinned me against the wall. She came running around the corner but had beaten at me pulled my hair carried on for quite a while or she was horrible in school. She got moved to a group we used the same tutor group as I should have mentioned that earlier. She did get moved out the tutor group to try and prevent it but my school was absolutely hopeless when it came to bullying. So one of the mornings my mom screened upstairs Lydia don't come down and it was like 12 30 yet who listened to her parents at that age. Of course I went downstairs I wanted to know what my mom was fussing about. Sophie had basically carved in the door Lydia died and a rock got thrown through the window. A plus for stupidity. My mom obviously phoned the police because you know criminal damage it's generally frowned upon to be honest and eventually this girl was moved from the school so school the year seven was a nightmare. I ended up getting burnt and cooking. I ended up getting paper thrown at me. God knows what thrown at me on the bus. All around it weren't great. So we go on to year eight and this is the year and the only year I have had a running with any of the popular kids. I don't like same popular kids. They was already sporty and I wasn't unfortunate enough to end up in the same PE group as them. I'm quite happy to sit and do a maths exam paper rather than running around a field. It was really messed up thinking right now. They basically took pictures of everyone in the PE class getting changed which is already creepy enough. They then went on to post them on Facebook and yeah I asked them to take the picture of me down on Facebook which is a very reasonable request in my opinion. I don't really see where they posted it in the first place but whatever I guess that is that. I asked them to remove it. Eventually I got into a full on argument on Facebook comments with the ringleader of that group. They chased me around that school so many times and one point they trapped me in the bathroom and I was lucky enough that a staff member did come in and eventually the ringleader of that little group got moved to school. My mom went into the school about about two, kicked off and she got kicked out of school. Thanks mom and got absolutely no works. Like I said my school was shit. So we're going to fast forward to year nine and I'm going to merge this year with nine, year 10 and year 11 because they are three years I did GCSE year. Yes I did my GCSE year early that's what my school did because it was an academy. These are the years where cyberbullying became the main source. Now in year nine I was already at a point where I was quite deep into my eating disorder. I didn't eat anything at school. I just couldn't have friends. I was too irritable and that is entirely because of my eating disorder. These years were absolute hell. I nearly moved school because of everything that went on. I was told to kill myself on a daily basis. I had people threaten and kill me. I had pretty much everything under the sun so to me I said I had people saying are you going to slash your wrist blah blah blah and I should say there were two charges placed against people and a further person arrested due to what happened in this school. Now this is where the story turns deep and I don't want to talk too much about all the hate on Facebook because you can all imagine what was said to me. It wasn't ever any nice, anything nice. It was always horrible kids being... There were some death threats that got to a point where I was I was not able to do PE because the school thought there was a risk to my life. That's how serious this got but that came out after the second incident that I'm going to get into. The first major incident that happened was when two girls who were in my tutor group, the two wing leaders of all the bullying took place in them three years, decided to follow me to outside one person who I hung out with tutor group and pinned me over a balcony. That carried on, name calling, Facebook. And these two girls who bullied me, I was friends with them before and because I'm always been too trusting and I've always opened up too quickly to people, they plastered every little detail of my life on Facebook. They was either saying it to my face, shouting it down a bus or posting it all over my Facebook. It got to a point where I disabled my Facebook account because I couldn't log on without finding a threat. And because of the stuff that happened before I was already terrified anyway. It led to me getting on a bus at seven o'clock in the morning even I didn't start school until 25 past eight. These two girls plastered everything about my life everywhere, everyone everything. So I was doing all my GCSE years and I went and sat outside the classroom for most of my lessons because all the teachers were aware of the bullying, the year above me was aware of the bullying, the year below me was aware of the bullying. Everyone in my year got added to that Facebook page. It was horrible. I had this every single day from multiple accounts. It just, and it did cause me to make an attempt on my life. I'm not going to sit here and turn it to a clip. It was little things, but eventually it adds up. And then one day I was sat in a lesson and someone came out with a knife. And that is just something that shouldn't happen. This country or any other country, no kids should be threatened with a weapon, no adults should be threatened with a weapon. Having that happen in school, you would think the school, you know, did something because hello CCTV, brand new building, but no. I ended up in A&E because they didn't get it on camera. And the day that I finished my last exam, I never went back to that school. But before I end this video, I do just want to say this. There was a group of people at school that did try to defend me and did torture me now and then, especially in lessons because I used to get really, really distressed in glasses. I couldn't focus. I didn't have to walk out. It just wasn't great. I had a thing called a time out pass, meant meaning that I could just go and clear my head. It did get to the point where I had to leave school earlier later than everyone because there was just so much happening that it was dangerous for me to be with the other kids because no one knew what was going to happen. And I ended up starting to go to maths every single day after school. And, you know, I've gone on to do quite well for myself, I want to think. School's not a pleasant experience for me, but my reason in making this video is if you are getting reviews online or if you're being bullied in school or in college or where, don't be afraid to say something. My bullying story ends with me being involved and arrested to be made because of, you know, getting assaulted. The school I went to didn't deal with it great. But a lot of schools do actually deal with bullying quite well. And I know my sister's school does too. You are not alone. You're not. A lot of people go through bullying and there's no exception. School's never going to be fine. But the best thing to think about is it's five years of your life. And then what? You get to live the rest of your life. Don't let five years dictate your entire future.